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and_o my_o heart_n do_v misbelieve_v i_o hear_v the_o minister_n preach_v that_o there_o be_v one_o god_n and_o he_o make_v the_o world_n and_o all_o thing_n in_o it_o but_o my_o heart_n think_v it_o be_v a_o vain_a word_n i_o think_v my_o father_n make_v i_o and_o not_o god_n again_o i_o return_v from_o this_o town_n but_o yet_o i_o do_v not_o pray_v i_o hear_v the_o commandment_n thou_o shall_v not_o murder_v thou_o shall_v not_o commit_v adultery_n thou_o shall_v not_o steal_v thou_o shall_v not_o bear_v false_a witness_n against_o thy_o neighbour_n thou_o shall_v not_o covet_v etc._n etc._n and_o other_o sin_n and_o punishment_n i_o hear_v of_o and_o i_o fear_v to_o sin_n because_o of_o man_n and_o because_o of_o punishment_n but_o not_o for_o fear_v of_o god_n therefore_o vain_a be_v all_o my_o way_n when_o i_o come_v back_o to_o noonantam_n i_o do_v the_o same_o sin_n again_o especial_o i_o love_v lust_n yea_o after_o my_o pray_v and_o be_v among_o they_o i_o love_v it_o more_o 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hear_v gen._n 6._o that_o god_n see_v the_o sin_n of_o man_n that_o it_o be_v great_a and_o that_o all_o the_o thought_n and_o imagination_n of_o his_o heart_n be_v only_o evil_a continual_o and_o therefore_o god_n be_v angry_a and_o repent_v that_o he_o have_v make_v man_n and_o therefore_o drown_v the_o world_n and_o every_o live_a creature_n he_o cause_v it_o to_o rain_v forty_o day_n on_o the_o earth_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_o there_o be_v a_o god_n and_o he_o will_v perform_v all_o his_o threaten_n he_o be_v god_n and_o therefore_o he_o will_v do_v it_o again_o i_o hear_v that_o god_n find_v noah_n righteous_a and_o he_o find_v favour_n in_o his_o sight_n he_o believe_v in_o god_n and_o do_v obey_v his_o word_n and_o god_n save_v he_o then_o my_o heart_n desire_v to_o believe_v that_o god_n be_v and_o to_o pray_v unto_o he_o again_o i_o hear_v gen._n 19_o that_o the_o angel_n of_o god_n come_v to_o lot_n in_o sodom_n and_o deliver_v just_a lot_n but_o do_v burn_v up_o with_o the_o wicked_a sodomite_n with_o fire_n from_o heaven_n who_o have_v cast_v off_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o do_v commit_v great_a sin_n against_o god_n therefore_o i_o see_v that_o i_o have_v deserve_v to_o be_v burn_v because_o i_o have_v do_v their_o sin_n and_o when_o god_n send_v his_o angel_n and_o do_v deliver_v just_a lot_n and_o then_o the_o rest_n be_v burn_v than_o i_o see_v in_o my_o heart_n sure_a god_n be_v merciful_a to_o they_o that_o love_v he_o and_o therefore_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o will_v no_o more_o return_v to_o sin_n but_o i_o will_v follow_v god_n but_o yet_o sometime_o i_o doubt_v but_o i_o believe_v the_o mercy_n of_o god_n according_a to_o that_o i_o hear_v mat._n 1._o she_o call_v his_o name_n jesus_n for_o he_o save_v his_o people_n from_o their_o sin_n then_o my_o heart_n think_v sure_o it_o be_v true_a that_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o be_v make_v man_n and_o be_v merciful_a but_o yet_o i_o still_o do_v doubt_v whether_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o repent_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n be_v at_o hand_n and_o again_o the_o voice_n of_o one_o cry_v in_o the_o wilderness_n prepare_v you_o the_o way_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o make_v his_o path_n straight_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o desire_v to_o repent_v and_o to_o make_v ready_a my_o heart_n for_o god_n that_o i_o may_v have_v mercy_n and_o pardon_n in_o christ_n jesus_n again_o the_o word_n
say_v the_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v cut_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n my_o heart_n say_v sure_o so_o be_v my_o heart_n and_o i_o have_v deserve_v to_o be_v cast_v into_o the_o fire_n i_o have_v bring_v forth_o such_o fruit_n as_o may_v just_o cut_v i_o down_o again_o i_o hear_v the_o word_n of_o christ_n he_o that_o hear_v the_o word_n and_o do_v it_o shall_v be_v bless_v then_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o have_v deserve_v not_o to_o be_v pardon_v but_o i_o beg_v for_o mercy_n again_o the_o word_n say_v this_o be_v my_o belove_a son_n in_o who_o i_o be_o well_o please_v my_o heart_n say_v sure_a god_n be_v merciful_a to_o send_v his_o own_o son_n and_o christ_n be_v merciful_a that_o he_o come_v and_o die_v for_o we_o again_o i_o hear_v that_o the_o tempter_n come_v to_o christ_n and_o say_v if_o thou_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n make_v these_o stone_n bread_n but_o christ_n say_v man_n live_v not_o by_o bread_n only_o but_o by_o every_o word_n which_o come_v out_o of_o the_o mouth_n of_o god_n then_o i_o believe_v that_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o that_o my_o soul_n live_v not_o by_o bread_n but_o by_o the_o word_n of_o god_n again_o mat._n 8._o the_o leper_n come_v to_o christ_n and_o say_v lord_n if_o thou_o will_v thou_o can_v make_v i_o whole_a and_o jesus_n touch_v he_o and_o he_o be_v heal_v then_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o he_o only_o can_v heal_v my_o sin_n again_o i_o hear_v in_o mat._n 6._o if_o you_o forgive_v one_o another_o god_n forgive_v you_o then_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o desire_v to_o do_v this_o else_o god_n will_v be_v angry_a with_o i_o again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 9_o all_o disease_a come_v to_o christ_n the_o blind_a halt_v etc._o etc._o and_o he_o heal_v they_o therefore_o i_o believe_v that_o he_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o i_o beg_v of_o christ_n to_o pardon_v my_o sin_n and_o save_v i_o because_o sure_o he_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o god_n again_o the_o word_n say_v not_o every_o one_o that_o say_v lord_n lord_n shall_v enter_v into_o the_o kingdom_n but_o he_o that_o do_v the_o will_n of_o my_o father_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o do_v fear_n because_o i_o do_v very_o weak_o obey_v the_o word_n of_o god_n and_o therefore_o christ_n say_v depart_v you_o worker_n of_o iniquity_n my_o heart_n say_v such_o a_o one_o be_o i_o but_o now_o i_o cry_v to_o and_o trust_v to_o christ_n to_o pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 11._o that_o christ_n say_v capernaum_n be_v lift_v up_o to_o heaven_n by_o the_o gospel_n but_o shall_v be_v cast_v down_o to_o hell_n for_o refuse_v it_o i_o think_v i_o do_v now_o pray_v iâ—_z i_o now_o fall_v off_o i_o shall_v perish_v and_o again_o christ_n say_v it_o shall_v be_v easy_o for_o tyre_n and_o sidon_n in_o that_o day_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o have_v deserve_v the_o worst_a of_o god_n wrath_n for_o i_o believe_v not_o the_o great_a work_n of_o god_n and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v pardon_n of_o all_o my_o sin_n and_o to_o forsake_v all_o my_o sin_n and_o to_o pray_v to_o christ_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 5._o that_o heaven_n and_o earth_n shall_v pass_v away_o but_o not_o one_o jot_n or_o tittle_n of_o the_o word_n of_o god_n but_o all_o shall_v be_v fulfil_v therefore_o my_o heart_n do_v desire_v that_o i_o may_v both_o hear_v and_o do_v the_o word_n of_o god_n which_o will_v never_o perish_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 16_o christ_n say_v who_o say_v you_o that_o i_o be_o peter_n say_v thou_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o the_o live_a god_n christ_n say_v bless_a art_n thou_o peter_n flesh_n and_o blood_n have_v not_o reveal_v this_o to_o thou_o but_o my_o father_n and_o on_o this_o rock_n i_o will_v build_v my_o church_n and_o the_o gate_n of_o hell_n shall_v not_o prevail_v against_o it_o therefore_o my_o heart_n believe_v that_o god_n help_v i_o to_o receive_v christ_n and_o i_o desire_v to_o take_v that_o promise_n to_o peter_n and_o my_o heart_n joy_v more_o and_o more_o in_o christ_n and_o in_o the_o word_n of_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 26._o jesus_n take_v bread_n and_o bless_v it_o and_o break_v it_o and_o give_v it_o and_o say_v take_v eat_v this_o be_v my_o body_n which_o be_v break_v for_o you_o and_o likewise_o the_o cup_n etc._n etc._n say_v this_o be_v my_o blood_n in_o the_o new_a testament_n which_o be_v shed_v for_o remission_n of_o sin_n etc._n etc._n my_o heart_n say_v sure_a christ_n be_v full_a of_o love_n and_o have_v give_v we_o great_a mercy_n and_o i_o desire_v to_o partake_v of_o it_o again_o the_o wicked_a do_v kill_v christ_n but_o he_o rise_v again_o and_o ascend_v to_o heaven_n then_o my_o heart_n believe_v christ_n again_o i_o hear_v john_n 14._o no_o man_n come_v to_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o my_o heart_n say_v so_o be_v it_o lord_n i_o desire_v to_o come_v to_o god_n by_o christ_n and_o i_o say_v why_o do_v the_o wicked_a kill_v christ_n my_o heart_n say_v i_o believe_v that_o christ_n die_v for_o my_o sin_n and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o believe_v in_o christ_n then_o my_o heart_n do_v joy_n in_o christ_n and_o to_o heartle_v word_n of_o god_n but_o yet_o to_o this_o day_n i_o have_v doubt_n in_o my_o heart_n my_o heart_n be_v weak_a to_o this_o day_n and_o now_o i_o know_v that_o in_o six_o day_n god_n make_v the_o world_n and_o before_o that_o god_n i_o desire_v to_o confess_v my_o sin_n and_o forsake_v they_o and_o no_o more_o to_o do_v they_o sometime_o my_o heart_n be_v in_o a_o ill_a frame_n and_o love_v sin_n and_o my_o heart_n hate_v good_a therefore_o i_o desire_v the_o free_a mercy_n of_o christ_n to_o hold_v and_o keep_v my_o soul_n when_o he_o have_v finish_v and_o i_o have_v read_v before_o the_o assembly_n this_o confession_n of_o his_o we_o call_v upon_o the_o witness_n to_o coat_a who_o do_v in_o the_o same_o order_n as_o before_o express_v themselves_o to_o the_o like_a purpose_n only_o when_o we_o call_v for_o tho_n stanton_n his_o son_n they_o be_v not_o present_a nor_o do_v they_o any_o more_o appear_v in_o the_o congregation_n to_o attest_v the_o indian_n confession_n all_o the_o day_n ponampiam_fw-la he_o be_v next_o call_v forth_o and_o thus_o speak_v i_o confess_v my_o sin_n before_o the_o lord_n and_o his_o people_n this_o day_n while_o my_o father_n live_v and_o i_o be_v young_a i_o be_v at_o play_n and_o my_o father_n rebuke_v i_o and_o say_v we_o shall_v all_o die_v short_o in_o private_a we_o ask_v he_o what_o ground_n or_o reason_n move_v his_o father_n so_o to_o speak_v he_o answer_v it_o be_v when_o the_o english_a be_v new_o come_v over_o and_o he_o think_v that_o his_o father_n have_v hear_v that_o mr_n wilson_n have_v speak_v of_o the_o flood_n of_o noah_n how_o god_n drown_v all_o the_o world_n for_o the_o sin_n of_o the_o people_n then_o i_o be_v trouble_v and_o think_v sure_a what_o god_n say_v shall_v be_v and_o not_o what_o man_n say_v but_o i_o quick_o forget_v this_o and_o think_v not_o of_o any_o good_a that_o same_o winter_n the_o pox_n come_v all_o my_o kindred_n die_v only_o my_o mother_n and_o i_o live_v we_o come_v to_o cohannit_n by_o dorchester_n where_o i_o live_v till_o i_o be_v a_o man_n and_o marry_v all_o those_o day_n i_o sin_v and_o pray_v to_o all_o god_n and_o do_v as_o other_o do_v there_o i_o live_v till_o the_o minister_n come_v to_o teach_v we_o when_o i_o hear_v that_o they_o pray_v my_o heart_n desire_v it_o not_o sometime_o i_o pray_v among_o they_o and_o sometime_o i_o neglect_v it_o i_o fear_v to_o pray_v because_o of_o the_o sachem_n therefore_o i_o put_v it_o off_o for_o the_o fear_n of_o man_n afterward_o i_o consider_v in_o my_o heart_n to_o pray_v to_o god_n not_o because_o i_o love_v the_o word_n but_o for_o other_o reason_n i_o hear_v that_o word_n mal._n 1._o from_o the_o rise_n of_o the_o sun_n to_o the_o go_n down_o thereof_o my_o name_n shall_v be_v great_a among_o the_o gentile_n and_o in_o every_o place_n incense_n shall_v be_v offer_v unto_o my_o name_n and_o a_o pure_a offering_n for_o my_o name_n shall_v be_v great_a among_o the_o heathen_a say_v the_o lord_n of_o host_n then_o i_o be_v trouble_v in_o my_o thought_n about_o run_v away_o yet_o than_o i_o think_v if_o i_o shall_v go_v to_o another_o place_n they_o must_v pray_v also_o and_o therefore_o i_o can_v fly_v from_o pray_v to_o god_n therefore_o i_o tarry_v and_o when_o other_o pray_v i_o pray_v
say_v not_o i_o will_v pray_v hereafter_o but_o now_o today_o if_o you_o will_v hear_v his_o voice_n harden_v not_o your_o heart_n but_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o that_o make_v my_o heart_n to_o yield_v to_o do_v it_o then_o i_o understand_v gen._n 2._o that_o god_n form_v man_n out_o of_o the_o dust_n of_o the_o earth_n and_o breathe_v into_o he_o a_o live_a soul_n by_o this_o i_o do_v believe_v that_o god_n make_v i_o and_o i_o hear_v that_o god_n cause_v adam_n to_o sleep_v and_o take_v out_o a_o rib_n and_o make_v it_o a_o woman_n and_o by_o this_o i_o believe_v that_o sure_o this_o be_v the_o work_n of_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o we_o be_v bear_v in_o sin_n under_o the_o guilt_n of_o adam_n sin_n and_o by_o that_o i_o believe_v that_o i_o be_v a_o sinner_n again_o i_o hear_v gen._n 6._o that_o all_o the_o thought_n and_o imagination_n of_o the_o heart_n of_o man_n be_v only_o evil_a continual_o and_o that_o god_n do_v threaten_v to_o destroy_v man_n who_o he_o have_v make_v and_o all_o beast_n and_o live_a creature_n which_o he_o have_v make_v and_o by_o this_o i_o see_v that_o sure_o sin_n be_v a_o very_a great_a evil_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o noah_n find_v grace_n and_o he_o only_o be_v upright_o before_o god_n and_o that_o god_n drown_v all_o the_o world_n except_o noah_n and_o his_o son_n and_o their_o wife_n eight_o person_n this_o do_v make_v i_o remember_v my_o sin_n and_o confess_v they_o and_o i_o see_v that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o sin_n it_o rain_v forty_o day_n and_o so_o drown_v all_o the_o world_n then_o i_o say_v sure_o this_o be_v god_n work_n and_o he_o do_v as_o he_o threaten_v to_o do_v to_o sinner_n and_o the_o same_o may_v god_n do_v to_o i_o who_o be_o a_o sinner_n and_o my_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n and_o evil_a thought_n etc._n etc._n and_o then_o i_o pray_v oh_o god_n be_v not_o angry_a with_o i_o but_o be_v merciful_a to_o i_o and_o show_v i_o what_o i_o shall_v do_v then_o i_o consider_v why_o do_v god_n bid_v noah_n make_v a_o ark_n and_o save_v noah_n and_o his_o son_n and_o their_o wife_n and_o by_o it_o my_o heart_n see_v that_o this_o be_v god_n work_n who_o do_v what_o he_o speak_v and_o have_v mercy_n on_o who_o he_o will_v and_o my_o heart_n think_v do_v god_n pardon_v i_o and_o love_v i_o it_o may_v be_v god_n will_v have_v mercy_n on_o i_o i_o hear_v that_o promise_n mat._n 3._o repent_v and_o believe_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n be_v at_o hand_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v oh_o that_o god_n will_v help_v i_o and_o pardon_v my_o sin_n and_o god_n make_v i_o wonder_v at_o god_n mercy_n to_o i_o i_o hear_v of_o sodom_n and_o their_o great_a sin_n and_o destruction_n and_o that_o do_v make_v i_o to_o remember_v my_o great_a sin_n and_o the_o great_a work_n of_o god_n that_o he_o have_v almost_o kill_v i_o oh_o i_o think_v this_o be_v god_n work_n to_o show_v i_o my_o sin_n and_o as_o god_n save_v lot_n by_o the_o angel_n and_o send_v he_o out_o of_o the_o place_n but_o burn_v sodom_n and_o all_o the_o people_n this_o i_o see_v to_o be_v god_n work_n and_o now_o i_o desire_v to_o fear_v god_n and_o pray_v unto_o he_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o the_o axe_n be_v lay_v to_o the_o root_n of_o the_o tree_n every_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v hew_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n then_o i_o fear_v my_o own_o case_n because_o my_o fruit_n be_v sin_n and_o i_o deserve_v to_o be_v cut_v down_o then_o i_o desire_v to_o believe_v in_o christ_n i_o do_v believe_v that_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n by_o that_o word_n matth._n 4._o satan_n tempt_v christ_n if_o thou_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n etc._n etc._n but_o christ_n conquer_v satan_n and_o therefore_o assure_o he_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n then_o i_o consider_v that_o place_n mat._n 11._o many_o come_v to_o christ_n the_o halt_n and_o blind_a and_o lame_a and_o deaf_a and_o sick_a and_o he_o heal_v all_o and_o if_o they_o do_v but_o touch_n christ_n they_o be_v heal_v and_o therefore_o my_o heart_n believe_v assure_o he_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o therefore_o now_o i_o will_v pray_v and_o oh_o let_v christ_n save_v i_o and_o christ_n have_v promise_v whatever_o you_o ask_v in_o my_o name_n it_o shall_v be_v do_v therefore_o now_o i_o pray_v oh_o christ_n jesus_n pardon_v i_o but_o my_o heart_n be_v weak_a and_o doubt_a and_o i_o can_v believe_v and_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n that_o every_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v cut_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n then_o i_o say_v i_o deserve_v that_o again_o that_o word_n not_o every_o one_o that_o say_v lord_n lord_n but_o he_o that_o hear_v the_o word_n and_o do_v it_o assure_o it_o be_v so_o and_o i_o desire_v not_o only_o to_o hear_v the_o word_n but_o to_o do_v it_o then_o my_o heart_n be_v ashamed_a of_o my_o sin_n and_o grieve_v i_o hear_v that_o word_n matth._n 6._o bless_a be_v thou_o simon_n bar-ionah_n flesh_n and_o blood_n have_v not_o reveal_v this_o unto_o thou_o but_o my_o heavenly_a father_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v yea_o lord_n no_o man_n have_v teach_v i_o christ_n only_a god_n have_v teach_v my_o heart_n to_o know_v christ_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 1._o he_o will_v save_v his_o people_n from_o their_o sin_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v be_v it_o so_o to_o i_o oh_o lord_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o christ_n rise_v again_o the_o three_o day_n with_o a_o earthquake_n and_o the_o watchman_n be_v afraid_a and_o flee_v then_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_o this_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o whosoever_o believe_v in_o christ_n his_o soul_n shall_v go_v to_o heaven_n for_o again_o i_o hear_v of_o the_o ascension_n of_o christ_n and_o more_o than_o five_o hundred_o see_v he_o ascend_v and_o therefore_o i_o believe_v this_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o in_o john_n 14._o no_o man_n come_v unto_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o my_o heart_n answer_v yea_o assure_o oh_o lord_n christ_n be_v the_o way_n to_o believe_v in_o and_o come_v to_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o mat._n 25._o christ_n say_v to_o the_o wicked_a depart_v you_o curse_v i_o say_v god_n may_v just_o say_v so_o to_o i_o and_o send_v i_o to_o eternal_a death_n but_o i_o earnest_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o god_n set_v i_o into_o the_o right_a way_n and_o give_v i_o christ_n that_o i_o may_v ever_o walk_v with_o christ_n for_o i_o be_o poor_a and_o weak_a and_o christ_n promise_v that_o what_o we_o ask_v he_o will_v grant_v and_o i_o say_v let_v god_n do_v with_o i_o what_o he_o will_v but_o i_o beg_v mercy_n in_o christ_n only_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v john_n speen_n this_o i_o confess_v that_o i_o assure_o be_o a_o great_a sinner_n before_o the_o lord_n but_o now_o i_o beseech_v god_n to_o help_v i_o oh_o christ_n lead_v i_o in_o the_o right_a way_n that_o i_o may_v speak_v that_o which_o be_v right_a this_o i_o confess_v that_o before_o we_o pray_v to_o god_n i_o be_v whole_o a_o sinner_n and_o not_o only_o before_o but_o since_o pray_v to_o god_n i_o have_v be_v a_o great_a sinner_n and_o now_o i_o desire_v to_o make_v a_o short_a confession_n for_o we_o desire_v that_o they_o will_v be_v short_a the_o time_n require_v so_o at_o first_o when_o i_o pray_v my_o prayer_n be_v vain_a and_o only_o i_o pray_v with_o my_o mouth_n and_o on_o the_o sabbath_n only_o i_o come_v to_o the_o house_n of_o prayer_n i_o pray_v morning_n and_o evening_n and_o when_o i_o eat_v but_o i_o consider_v not_o what_o i_o pray_v for_o i_o be_v sometime_o angry_a and_o passionate_a about_o worldly_a matter_n and_o i_o be_v trouble_v when_o i_o see_v my_o brother_n be_v choose_v to_o be_v a_o ruler_n who_o be_v young_a than_o i_o because_o now_o i_o see_v that_o i_o be_v a_o sinner_n and_o though_o i_o repent_v yet_o present_o again_o i_o fall_v into_o sin_n therefore_o i_o think_v sure_o god_n have_v cast_v i_o off_o because_o i_o thus_o sin_n and_o still_o my_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n all_o my_o thought_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n all_o my_o talk_n and_o do_n be_v sinful_a but_o now_o of_o late_a about_o 2_o year_n ago_o i_o hear_v this_o word_n mat._n 12._o when_o the_o unclean_a spirit_n be_v cast_v out_o he_o go_v up_o and_o down_o unquiet_a then_o he_o return_v and_o take_v 7_o devil_n with_o he_o worse_o
as_o other_o youth_n do_v at_o all_o these_o thing_n because_o thereby_o do_v original_a sin_n grow_v in_o i_o and_o hard_o it_o be_v to_o root_v it_o out_o and_o hard_a to_o believe_v after_o this_o i_o hear_v still_o and_o more_o i_o understand_v i_o hear_v gen._n 16._o that_o the_o people_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n lust_n and_o all_o other_o sin_n and_o therefore_o the_o lord_n destroy_v they_o and_o i_o know_v that_o i_o have_v the_o same_o sin_n and_o therefore_o i_o be_v afraid_a but_o i_o fear_v only_o this_o bodily_a life_n and_o not_o for_o my_o soul_n after_o this_o my_o heart_n do_v a_o little_a desire_n to_o pray_v to_o god_n because_o god_n find_v noah_n righteous_a and_o do_v save_v he_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v but_o again_o i_o lay_v it_o by_o and_o i_o say_v it_o be_v vain_a to_o pray_v for_o if_o i_o pray_v and_o shall_v commit_v sin_n i_o shall_v be_v punish_v or_o imprison_v but_o if_o i_o pray_v not_o i_o may_v commit_v what_o sin_n i_o will_v and_o 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and_o child_n die_v and_o i_o be_v sick_a to_o death_n but_o live_v again_o and_o be_v well_o i_o think_v i_o can_v not_o pray_v i_o be_v a_o child_n and_o therefore_o can_v not_o i_o put_v off_o pray_v to_o god_n my_o relation_n die_v and_o why_o shall_v i_o pray_v but_o than_o i_o consider_v why_o do_v god_n thus_o punish_v i_o yea_o the_o minister_n speak_v to_o i_o about_o it_o and_o say_v it_o may_v be_v it_o be_v because_o i_o refuse_v to_o do_v god_n work_n as_o moses_n when_o he_o first_o refuse_v god_n be_v patient_a but_o when_o he_o persist_v in_o his_o refusal_n god_n be_v angry_a and_o than_o my_o heart_n see_v my_o sin_n and_o then_o my_o heart_n almost_o believe_v i_o desire_v to_o do_v right_a and_o to_o keep_v the_o sabbath_n for_o i_o further_o hear_v in_o the_o four_o commandment_n remember_v the_o sabbath_n to_o keep_v it_o holy_a and_o psa._n 101._o i_o will_v walk_v wise_o in_o a_o perfect_a way_n also_o in_o isay_n 58._o if_o thou_o turn_v away_o thy_o foot_n from_o the_o sabbath_n and_o do_v not_o thy_o own_o work_n nor_o find_v thy_o own_o pleasure_n nor_o speak_v thy_o own_o word_n therefore_o my_o soul_n desire_v to_o keep_v the_o sabbath_n than_o the_o soldier_n come_v upon_o we_o on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n while_o we_o be_v at_o meeting_n and_o take_v away_o our_o gun_n and_o cause_v we_o to_o bring_v they_o as_o far_o as_o roxbury_n that_o night_n my_o heart_n be_v break_v off_o my_o heart_n say_v god_n be_v not_o the_o sabbath_n be_v not_o it_o be_v not_o the_o lord_n day_n for_o be_v it_o so_o the_o soldier_n will_v not_o have_v then_o come_v then_o my_o heart_n cast_v off_o pray_v than_o we_o come_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o cutshamoquin_fw-la ask_v why_o they_o come_v on_o the_o sabbath-day_n it_o be_v answer_v that_o it_o be_v lawful_a but_o i_o do_v not_o understand_v it_o that_o day_n i_o be_v very_o thirsty_a do_v drink_v too_o much_o and_o be_v bring_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o be_v ashamed_a i_o come_v to_o roxbury_n to_o the_o minister_n and_o there_o i_o be_v ashamed_a also_o because_o i_o have_v great_o sin_v then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n for_o free-mercy_n because_o precious_a be_v the_o death_n of_o christ_n oh_o pardon_v this_o my_o sin_n yet_o again_o i_o have_v temptation_n to_o drink_v and_o then_o i_o consider_v what_o a_o great_a sinner_n i_o be_v even_o like_o a_o beast_n before_o god_n then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 5._o he_o that_o break_v the_o beast_n of_o god_n command_n and_o teach_v other_o so_o to_o do_v shall_v be_v the_o least_o in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n my_o heart_n say_v lord_n such_o a_o one_o have_v i_o be_v for_o i_o have_v be_v a_o active_a sinner_n yet_o i_o cry_v again_o for_o mercy_n o_o lord_n free_o pardon_v my_o great_a sin_n again_o i_o confess_v i_o be_o very_o weak_a even_o like_o a_o very_a child_n and_o i_o so_o walk_v and_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v if_o i_o die_v i_o fear_v i_o shall_v die_v in_o my_o sin_n yet_o i_o cry_v again_o o_o god_n pardon_v i_o for_o christ_n his_o sake_n again_o further_o i_o confess_v that_o when_o i_o be_v trouble_v about_o our_o want_n poverty_n and_o nakedness_n i_o consider_v that_o text_n fox_n have_v hole_n and_o bird_n have_v nest_n but_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v not_o whereon_o to_o lay_v his_o head_n and_o again_o mat._n 6._o the_o bird_n plough_v not_o and_o the_o flower_n spin_v not_o and_o yet_o god_n do_v both_o feed_n and_o clothe_v they_o and_o therefore_o be_v not_o overmuch_o trouble_v about_o these_o thing_n yet_o i_o desire_v to_o follow_v labour_n with_o my_o hand_n because_o gen_n 1._o god_n give_v adam_n dominion_n over_o the_o creature_n and_o command_v he_o to_o till_v the_o ground_n and_o gen._n 2._o he_o set_v he_o in_o the_o garden_n and_o command_v he_o to_o dress_v it_o and_o keep_v it_o also_o gen._n 3._o he_o say_v thou_o shall_v eat_v thy_o bread_n in_o the_o sweat_n of_o thy_o face_n all_o thy_o day_n till_o thou_o return_v to_o thy_o dust_n when_o i_o remember_v these_o thing_n my_o heart_n do_v bow_v to_o labour_v also_o i_o hear_v that_o riches_n be_v the_o root_n of_o all_o evil_a and_o dives_fw-la with_o his_o fine_a apparel_n and_o dainty_a fare_n be_v in_o hell_n and_o poor_a lazarus_n be_v in_o heaven_n when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o our_o land_n â—nd_v about_o riches_n i_o quiet_v my_o heart_n with_o these_o meditation_n also_o i_o further_o hear_v when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o salvation_n and_o doubt_v i_o hear_v that_o there_o be_v no_o mean_n of_o salvation_n but_o christ_n not_o any_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n can_v carry_v we_o to_o heaven_n only_a christ_n which_o i_o do_v believe_v by_o gen._n 28._o where_o jacob_n dream_v a_o dream_n and_o he_o see_v a_o ladder_n which_o stand_v on_o earth_n and_o the_o top_n reach_v up_o to_o heaven_n and_o that_o ladder_n be_v christ_n who_o be_v man_n and_o so_o touch_v the_o earth_n and_o god_n and_o so_o be_v in_o heaven_n and_o by_o believe_v in_o he_o we_o ascend_v to_o heaven_n as_o by_o a_o ladder_n this_o help_v i_o almost_o to_o believe_v and_o i_o cry_v oh_o christ_n be_v thou_o my_o ladder_n to_o heaven_n again_o ioh._n 14._o christ_n say_v none_o come_v to_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o therefore_o i_o believe_v nothing_o can_v carry_v i_o to_o god_n but_o only_o christ_n if_o i_o penitent_o believe_v in_o he_o again_o i_o confess_v i_o do_v still_o find_v myself_o very_o weak_a to_o resist_v sin_n for_o if_o i_o read_v and_o teach_v on_o the_o sabbath_n i_o teach_v indeed_o but_o i_o do_v not_o as_o i_o ought_v and_o therefore_o that_o word_n of_o christ_n do_v rebuke_v i_o mat._n 23._o hear_v and_o do_v what_o they_o say_v but_o do_v not_o as_o they_o do_v when_o i_o do_v among_o other_o reprove_v sinner_n that_o word_n of_o christ_n reprove_v i_o thou_o hypocrite_n first_o cast_v the_o beam_n out_o of_o thy_o own_o eye_n and_o then_o thou_o may_v see_v clear_o so_o cast_v the_o moat_n out_o of_o thy_o brother_n eye_n again_o when_o i_o pray_v i_o find_v hypocrisy_n in_o my_o heart_n to_o do_v it_o to_o be_v see_v of_o man_n and_o that_o word_n of_o christ_n reprove_v i_o mat._n 6._o they_o pray_v to_o be_v sâ—en_v of_o man_n very_o they_o have_v their_o reward_n and_o then_o i_o cry_v mighty_o to_o god_n o_o lord_n help_v i_o pardon_v i_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 9_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v power_n to_o pardon_v sin_n on_o earth_n and_o therefore_o i_o o_o lord_n then_o
and_o than_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o i_o who_o do_v thus_o afflict_v i_o then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 22._o god_n make_v a_o feast_n and_o invite_v his_o guest_n and_o they_o will_v not_o come_v and_o therefore_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o they_o so_o do_v i_o for_o i_o come_v not_o to_o the_o word_n of_o god_n when_o he_o call_v i_o i_o care_v not_o for_o the_o feast_n of_o christ_n again_o after_o many_o of_o my_o friend_n be_v destroy_v i_o think_v it_o be_v because_o they_o pray_v not_o to_o god_n therefore_o i_o fear_v that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o i_o also_o because_o of_o his_o punishment_n i_o fear_v i_o believe_v not_o christ_n and_o my_o heart_n fear_v because_o of_o my_o sin_n daily_o i_o break_v god_n command_n another_o word_n i_o hear_v mat._n 5._o bless_a be_v they_o who_o hunger_n and_o thirst_n after_o righteousness_n for_o they_o shall_v be_v satisfy_v this_o be_v the_o word_n of_o christ_n and_o i_o desire_v to_o hunger_n for_o christ_n and_o beg_v o_o christ_n help_v i_o again_o i_o remember_v that_o word_n bless_a be_v the_o pure_a in_o heart_n for_o they_o shall_v see_v god_n my_o heart_n say_v o_o christ_n help_v i_o to_o be_v so_o that_o clean_o may_v be_v my_o heart_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n bless_a be_v the_o peacemaker_n for_o they_o shall_v be_v call_v the_o child_n of_o god_n then_o my_o heart_n think_v o_o that_o i_o have_v peace_n with_o god_n in_o christ_n that_o i_o may_v have_v that_o blessing_n and_o therefore_o i_o now_o confess_v my_o sin_n before_o god_n and_o i_o beg_v mercy_n from_o god_n in_o jesus_n christ_n when_o i_o have_v read_v this_o short_a confession_n for_o the_o day_n spend_v and_o brevity_n be_v call_v for_o we_o call_v upon_o the_o witness_n who_o speak_v as_o former_o monotunkquanit_fw-la he_o be_v next_o call_v who_o thus_o speak_v i_o have_v hear_v the_o word_n and_o pray_v to_o god_n several_a year_n and_o i_o confess_v that_o before_o i_o pray_v i_o be_v full_a 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