as_o other_o youth_n do_v at_o all_o these_o thing_n because_o thereby_o do_v original_a sin_n grow_v in_o i_o and_o hard_o it_o be_v to_o root_v it_o out_o and_o hard_a to_o believe_v after_o this_o i_o hear_v still_o and_o more_o i_o understand_v i_o hear_v gen._n 16._o that_o the_o people_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n lust_n and_o all_o other_o sin_n and_o therefore_o the_o lord_n destroy_v they_o and_o i_o know_v that_o i_o have_v the_o same_o sin_n and_o therefore_o i_o be_v afraid_a but_o i_o fear_v only_o this_o bodily_a life_n and_o not_o for_o my_o soul_n after_o this_o my_o heart_n do_v a_o little_a desire_n to_o pray_v to_o god_n because_o god_n find_v noah_n righteous_a and_o do_v save_v he_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v but_o again_o i_o lay_v it_o by_o and_o i_o say_v it_o be_v vain_a to_o pray_v for_o if_o i_o pray_v and_o shall_v commit_v sin_n i_o shall_v be_v punish_v or_o imprison_v but_o if_o i_o pray_v not_o i_o may_v commit_v what_o sin_n i_o will_v and_o 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and_o child_n die_v and_o i_o be_v sick_a to_o death_n but_o live_v again_o and_o be_v well_o i_o think_v i_o can_v not_o pray_v i_o be_v a_o child_n and_o therefore_o can_v not_o i_o put_v off_o pray_v to_o god_n my_o relation_n die_v and_o why_o shall_v i_o pray_v but_o than_o i_o consider_v why_o do_v god_n thus_o punish_v i_o yea_o the_o minister_n speak_v to_o i_o about_o it_o and_o say_v it_o may_v be_v it_o be_v because_o i_o refuse_v to_o do_v god_n work_n as_o moses_n when_o he_o first_o refuse_v god_n be_v patient_a but_o when_o he_o persist_v in_o his_o refusal_n god_n be_v angry_a and_o than_o my_o heart_n see_v my_o sin_n and_o then_o my_o heart_n almost_o believe_v i_o desire_v to_o do_v right_a and_o to_o keep_v the_o sabbath_n for_o i_o further_o hear_v in_o the_o four_o commandment_n remember_v the_o sabbath_n to_o keep_v it_o holy_a and_o psa._n 101._o i_o will_v walk_v wise_o in_o a_o perfect_a way_n also_o in_o isay_n 58._o if_o thou_o turn_v away_o thy_o foot_n from_o the_o sabbath_n and_o do_v not_o thy_o own_o work_n nor_o find_v thy_o own_o pleasure_n nor_o speak_v thy_o own_o word_n therefore_o my_o soul_n desire_v to_o keep_v the_o sabbath_n than_o the_o soldier_n come_v upon_o we_o on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n while_o we_o be_v at_o meeting_n and_o take_v away_o our_o gun_n and_o cause_v we_o to_o bring_v they_o as_o far_o as_o roxbury_n that_o night_n my_o heart_n be_v break_v off_o my_o heart_n say_v god_n be_v not_o the_o sabbath_n be_v not_o it_o be_v not_o the_o lord_n day_n for_o be_v it_o so_o the_o soldier_n will_v not_o have_v then_o come_v then_o my_o heart_n cast_v off_o pray_v than_o we_o come_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o cutshamoquin_fw-la ask_v why_o they_o come_v on_o the_o sabbath-day_n it_o be_v answer_v that_o it_o be_v lawful_a but_o i_o do_v not_o understand_v it_o that_o day_n i_o be_v very_o thirsty_a do_v drink_v too_o much_o and_o be_v bring_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o be_v ashamed_a i_o come_v to_o roxbury_n to_o the_o minister_n and_o there_o i_o be_v ashamed_a also_o because_o i_o have_v great_o sin_v then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n for_o free-mercy_n because_o precious_a be_v the_o death_n of_o christ_n oh_o pardon_v this_o my_o sin_n yet_o again_o i_o have_v temptation_n to_o drink_v and_o then_o i_o consider_v what_o a_o great_a sinner_n i_o be_v even_o like_o a_o beast_n before_o god_n then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 5._o he_o that_o break_v the_o beast_n of_o god_n command_n and_o teach_v other_o so_o to_o do_v shall_v be_v the_o least_o in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n my_o heart_n say_v lord_n such_o a_o one_o have_v i_o be_v for_o i_o have_v be_v a_o active_a sinner_n yet_o i_o cry_v again_o for_o mercy_n o_o lord_n free_o pardon_v my_o great_a sin_n again_o i_o confess_v i_o be_o very_o weak_a even_o like_o a_o very_a child_n and_o i_o so_o walk_v and_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v if_o i_o die_v i_o fear_v i_o shall_v die_v in_o my_o sin_n yet_o i_o cry_v again_o o_o god_n pardon_v i_o for_o christ_n his_o sake_n again_o further_o i_o confess_v that_o when_o i_o be_v trouble_v about_o our_o want_n poverty_n and_o nakedness_n i_o consider_v that_o text_n fox_n have_v hole_n and_o bird_n have_v nest_n but_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v not_o whereon_o to_o lay_v his_o head_n and_o again_o mat._n 6._o the_o bird_n plough_v not_o and_o the_o flower_n spin_v not_o and_o yet_o god_n do_v both_o feed_n and_o clothe_v they_o and_o therefore_o be_v not_o overmuch_o trouble_v about_o these_o thing_n yet_o i_o desire_v to_o follow_v labour_n with_o my_o hand_n because_o gen_n 1._o god_n give_v adam_n dominion_n over_o the_o creature_n and_o command_v he_o to_o till_v the_o ground_n and_o gen._n 2._o he_o set_v he_o in_o the_o garden_n and_o command_v he_o to_o dress_v it_o and_o keep_v it_o also_o gen._n 3._o he_o say_v thou_o shall_v eat_v thy_o bread_n in_o the_o sweat_n of_o thy_o face_n all_o thy_o day_n till_o thou_o return_v to_o thy_o dust_n when_o i_o remember_v these_o thing_n my_o heart_n do_v bow_v to_o labour_v also_o i_o hear_v that_o riches_n be_v the_o root_n of_o all_o evil_a and_o dives_fw-la with_o his_o fine_a apparel_n and_o dainty_a fare_n be_v in_o hell_n and_o poor_a lazarus_n be_v in_o heaven_n when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o our_o land_n â—nd_v about_o riches_n i_o quiet_v my_o heart_n with_o these_o meditation_n also_o i_o further_o hear_v when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o salvation_n and_o doubt_v i_o hear_v that_o there_o be_v no_o mean_n of_o salvation_n but_o christ_n not_o any_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n can_v carry_v we_o to_o heaven_n only_a christ_n which_o i_o do_v believe_v by_o gen._n 28._o where_o jacob_n dream_v a_o dream_n and_o he_o see_v a_o ladder_n which_o stand_v on_o earth_n and_o the_o top_n reach_v up_o to_o heaven_n and_o that_o ladder_n be_v christ_n who_o be_v man_n and_o so_o touch_v the_o earth_n and_o god_n and_o so_o be_v in_o heaven_n and_o by_o 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brother_n eye_n again_o when_o i_o pray_v i_o find_v hypocrisy_n in_o my_o heart_n to_o do_v it_o to_o be_v see_v of_o man_n and_o that_o word_n of_o christ_n reprove_v i_o mat._n 6._o they_o pray_v to_o be_v sâ—en_v of_o man_n very_o they_o have_v their_o reward_n and_o then_o i_o cry_v mighty_o to_o god_n o_o lord_n help_v i_o pardon_v i_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 9_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v power_n to_o pardon_v sin_n on_o earth_n and_o therefore_o i_o o_o lord_n then_o
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not_o pray_v to_o god_n one_o jot_n but_o still_o sin_v and_o especial_o the_o sin_n of_o lust_n and_o i_o make_v light_n of_o any_o sin_n i_o hear_v and_o understand_v the_o command_n of_o god_n thou_o shall_v not_o murder_v commit_v adultery_n steal_v bear_v false_a witness_n covet_v and_o that_o make_v i_o afraid_a to_o commit_v sin_n afore_o man_n lest_o i_o shall_v be_v punish_v or_o put_v to_o death_n but_o i_o fear_v not_o god_n after_o i_o hear_v the_o minister_n ask_v who_o make_v you_o a._o god_n and_o who_o redeem_v you_o a._o christ_n and_o who_o must_v sanctify_v you_o the_o holy_a ghost_n and_o that_o god_n make_v heaven_n earth_n sea_n etc._n etc._n than_o i_o a_o little_a consider_v of_o god_n who_o make_v all_o this_o world_n and_o then_o i_o be_v afraid_a i_o see_v that_o no_o man_n can_v make_v these_o thing_n and_o that_o therefore_o we_o must_v pray_v to_o god_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v assure_o it_o be_v so_o god_n make_v all_o thing_n and_o make_v i_o and_o i_o 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