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bible_n be_v the_o write_a word_n of_o god_n which_o beside_o the_o plain_a testimony_n of_o scripture_n in_o many_o place_n thus_o witness_v of_o itself_o do_v most_o full_o and_o convince_o appear_v by_o consider_v that_o what_o in_o matthew_n be_v call_v the_o command_n mat._n 15.6_o that_o in_o mark_n be_v style_v the_o word_n of_o god_n mark_v 7.13_o and_o the_o like_a may_v be_v observe_v in_o compare_v deut._n 30.11_o 14._o with_o rom._n 10.8_o where_o the_o greek_a word_n 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d which_o the_o apostle_n use_v and_o be_v translate_v the_o word_n be_v never_o take_v for_o christ_n but_o very_o often_o for_o the_o command_n on_o threaten_v or_o promise_v of_o god_n in_o which_o sense_n it_o be_v call_v the_o
that_o by_o faith_n only_o without_o work_n before_o god_n rom._n 3.23_o 25._o rom._n 4.1_o 5._o yet_o that_o faith_n which_o justify_v can_v be_v alone_o but_o be_v accompany_v with_o good_a work_n which_o justify_v believer_n before_o man_n and_o manifest_v their_o faith_n to_o be_v a_o true_a and_o live_a faith_n james_n 2.17_o 18._o as_o the_o fruit_n of_o tree_n do_v show_v the_o nature_n of_o they_o but_o be_v no_o cause_n of_o their_o root_n life_n or_o growth_n justification_n be_v whole_o of_o god_n grace_n through_o the_o redemption_n righteousness_n and_o blood_n of_o jesus_n christ_n rom._n 3.24_o 25._o whereby_o those_o who_o true_o believe_v in_o he_o have_v all_o their_o sin_n forgive_v which_o will_v never_o be_v impute_v nor_o remember_v against_o they_o any_o more_o romans_z 3.22_o 26._o hebr._n 10.14.17_o true_a faith_n also_o by_o which_o the_o soul_n look_v on_o christ_n take_v hold_v on_o he_o receive_v he_o become_v one_o with_o he_o and_o whereby_o christ_n dwell_v in_o the_o heart_n of_o believer_n be_v the_o gift_n of_o god_n john_n 6.44_o 65._o eph._n 2.8_o &_o 3.17_o concern_v the_o spirit_n of_o adoption_n and_o regeneration_n 1._o all_o those_o that_o true_o believe_v god_n give_v unto_o they_o power_n or_o rather_o as_o the_o word_n 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d signify_v right_o or_o privilege_n to_o become_v his_o child_n john_n 1.12_o and_o they_o receive_v the_o spirit_n of_o adoption_n by_o which_o they_o be_v lead_v and_o enable_v to_o come_v with_o confidence_n and_o boldness_n unto_o god_n and_o to_o call_v he_o father_n through_o jesus_n christ_n rom._n 8.14.15_o gal._n 4.5_o 6._o the_o spirit_n itself_o also_o dwell_v and_o abide_v in_o they_o as_o the_o chief_a evidence_n of_o their_o be_v the_o child_n of_o god_n john_n 14.16_o 17._o rom._n 8.16_o 1_o john_n 4.13_o 2._o regeneration_n sanctification_n and_o repentance_n which_o be_v the_o same_o in_o effect_n be_v a_o renew_n of_o the_o heart_n and_o a_o subdue_a and_o cleanse_v of_o the_o power_n and_o filth_n of_o sin_n with_o a_o quicken_n of_o the_o soul_n to_o live_v like_o christ_n these_o be_v absolute_o necessary_a to_o salvation_n john_n 3.3_o 5._o rom._n 6_o etc._n etc._n yet_o these_o also_o as_o well_o as_o faith_n be_v the_o gift_n and_o work_n of_o god_n which_o he_o give_v through_o and_o for_o the_o sake_n of_o his_o son_n and_o work_n by_o his_o spirit_n in_o those_o who_o he_o intend_v to_o save_v ezek._n 36.26_o 27_o 28._o act_n 11.18_o etc._n etc._n 3._o no_o man_n much_o less_o all_o man_n have_v by_o nature_n or_o before_o his_o conversion_n either_o the_o spiritual_a light_n or_o true_a faith_n or_o christ_n or_o his_o spirit_n in_o they_o or_o a_o will_n or_o love_n to_o that_o which_o be_v spiritual_o good_a or_o power_n to_o come_v to_o christ_n or_o to_o be_v subject_a to_o his_o law_n and_o will_n but_o by_o nature_n and_o before_o conversion_n the_o best_a be_v blind_a unbelieving_a without_o christ_n and_o without_o the_o spirit_n unwilling_a wilful_a weak_a and_o wicked_a john_n 3.5_o 6._o rom._n 5.6_o &_o 8.7_o eph._n 2.1_o 2_o etc._n etc._n yet_o sin_v against_o the_o light_n and_o law_n of_o nature_n and_o not_o worship_v god_n according_a to_o what_o be_v reveal_v of_o he_o by_o the_o work_n of_o creation_n they_o be_v leave_v inexcusable_a rom._n 1.20_o 21._o concern_v redemption_n from_o the_o curse_n of_o the_o law_n all_o true_a believer_n be_v real_o and_o actual_o redeem_v from_o the_o curse_n and_o power_n or_o dominion_n of_o the_o law_n and_o be_v under_o grace_n or_o the_o blessing_n promise_n and_o privilege_n of_o the_o covenant_n of_o grace_n both_o temporal_a and_o eternal_a rom._n 6.14_o &_o 7_o 4_o 6._o gal_n 3.13_o on_o the_o contrary_a all_o unbeliever_n and_o wicked_a person_n be_v and_o remain_v under_o the_o law_n and_o covenant_n of_o work_n gal._n 5.4_o concern_v the_o two_o covenant_n from_o the_o beginning_n of_o the_o world_n there_o have_v be_v two_o covenant_n in_o be_v viz._n the_o covenant_n of_o grace_n and_o the_o covenant_n of_o work_n call_v the_o law_n and_o the_o gospel_n and_o all_o and_o every_o person_n in_o the_o world_n have_v be_v and_o be_v under_o one_o of_o they_o the_o first_o require_v the_o obedience_n of_o work_n the_o other_o the_o obedience_n of_o faith_n and_o these_o be_v the_o condition_n of_o the_o two_o covenant_n rom._n 10.4_o 5_o 6_o 7_o 8_o 9_o 10_o 11._o heb._n 8.7_o 8._o etc._n etc._n &_o 10.15_o 16_o etc._n etc._n 22._o concern_v perseverance_n in_o grace_n those_o that_o do_v true_o believe_v and_o be_v once_o in_o and_o under_o the_o new_a covenant_n and_o in_o the_o true_a grace_n of_o god_n as_o the_o apostle_n speak_v rom._n 5.2_o can_v absolute_o fall_v and_o utter_o perish_v for_o they_o be_v pass_v from_o death_n to_o life_n john_n 5.24_o they_o be_v in_o christ_n and_o god_n the_o father_n hand_n john_n 10.28_o 29._o they_o have_v the_o spirit_n abide_v in_o they_o unto_o eternal_a life_n 1_o john_n 3.24_o they_o sit_v together_o in_o heauâ—â—ly_a place_n in_o christ_n eph._n 2.5_o 6._o and_o he_o make_v intercession_n for_o they_o john_n 17.20_o and_o the_o decree_n oath_n and_o promise_v of_o god_n be_v sure_a to_o all_o the_o seed_n rom._n 4.16_o that_o they_o shall_v not_o depart_v from_o god_n jer._n 32.40_o 1_o john_n 3.9_o and_o that_o he_o will_v never_o leave_v nor_o forsake_v they_o heb._n 13-5_a 6._o and_o that_o he_o or_o every_o one_o that_o believe_v shall_v be_v save_v mark_v 16.16_o and_o shall_v not_o come_v into_o condemnation_n for_o there_o be_v no_o condemnation_n to_o they_o that_o be_v in_o christ_n jesus_n rom._n 8.1_o concern_v assurance_n of_o salvation_n i_o believer_n be_v to_o be_v exhort_v to_o make_v their_o call_n and_o election_n sure_a 2_o pet._n 1.10_o and_o this_o they_o may_v certain_o attain_v unto_o for_o god_n have_v promise_v it_o christ_n have_v pray_v for_o it_o and_o many_o of_o the_o saint_n have_v attain_v unto_o it_o 1_o john_n 2.3_o 5._o &_o 3.14_o etc._n etc._n 2._o though_o there_o be_v many_o sign_n and_o evidence_n of_o the_o truth_n of_o grace_n lay_v down_o in_o the_o scripture_n and_o such_o as_o believer_n may_v find_v in_o themselves_o as_o love_n to_o god_n and_o to_o his_o people_n respect_v to_o all_o god_n command_n and_o hatred_n to_o sorrow_n for_o and_o power_n against_o all_o inbred_a corruption_n etc._n etc._n yet_o the_o chief_a and_o most_o undoubted_a evidence_n be_v the_o spirit_n itself_o 1_o john_n 3.24_o &_o 4.13_o and_o the_o witness_n and_o seal_v of_o it_o rom._n 8.15_o eph._n 1.13_o which_o believer_n have_v most_o common_o after_o they_o believe_v and_o not_o at_o their_o first_o believe_v gal._n 3.14_o and_o there_o may_v be_v a_o true_a faith_n mingle_v with_o much_o doubt_v mat._n 14.31_o and_o many_o of_o the_o child_n of_o light_n may_v walk_v in_o darkness_n and_o be_v ignorant_a of_o their_o state_n isa_n 50.10_o yet_o such_o bruise_a reed_n god_n will_v not_o break_v nor_o quench_v such_o smoke_a flax_n i._n e._n such_o weak_a and_o doubt_v christian_n or_o their_o faith_n till_o he_o bring_v forth_o judgement_n into_o victory_n or_o help_v they_o to_o overcome_v mat._n 12.20_o 21._o 3._o it_o be_v possible_a also_o that_o such_o believer_n as_o have_v attain_v unto_o a_o full_a assurance_n may_v afterward_o either_o through_o the_o hide_v of_o god_n countenance_n for_o trial_n of_o they_o or_o by_o fall_v into_o some_o great_a sin_n or_o by_o some_o sore_a and_o violent_a temptation_n or_o through_o their_o remissness_n in_o religious_a duty_n or_o the_o like_a have_v their_o assurance_n darken_v shake_v and_o weaken_v and_o thereby_o their_o soul_n may_v be_v much_o trouble_v and_o discomfort_a psal_n 30.7_o cant_n 2.1_o 2._o &_o 5.2_o 3_o etc._n etc._n yet_o in_o their_o dark_a and_o most_o doubt_a condition_n they_o cleave_v unto_o the_o lord_n remember_v his_o former_a deal_n acknowledge_v these_o doubt_n to_o be_v their_o infirmity_n and_o they_o find_v and_o feel_v some_o working_n of_o the_o spirit_n and_o grace_n within_o they_o and_o still_o continue_v in_o prayer_n and_o other_o ordinance_n wait_v upon_o the_o lord_n till_o he_o return_v unto_o they_o revive_v they_o restore_v the_o joy_n of_o his_o salvation_n and_o settle_v they_o in_o their_o old_a estate_n as_o he_o have_v promise_v for_o this_o read_v psal_n 22._o &_o 51._o &_o 77._o throughout_o lam._n 3._o isa_n 8.17_o &_o 50.10_o etc._n etc._n concern_v growth_n and_o perseverance_n in_o grace_n 1._o those_o that_o have_v true_a grace_n whether_o little_a or_o much_o they_o shall_v labour_v to_o grow_v therein_o and_o to_o add_v one_o grace_n to_o another_o go_v from_o strength_n to_o strength_n perfect_v holiness_n in_o the_o fear_n of_o god_n and_o still_o
she_o be_v nurse_v her_o whole_a time_n this_o day_n i_o observe_v from_o leu._n 26._o god_n way_n of_o deal_v outward_o with_o his_o people_n either_o in_o mercy_n or_o affliction_n according_a to_o their_o obedience_n or_o disobedience_n but_o though_o they_o have_v sin_v and_o bring_v punishment_n upon_o themselves_o yet_o upon_o their_o confession_n of_o sin_n humble_v of_o their_o heart_n and_o accept_v of_o their_o punishment_n god_n remit_v their_o sin_n and_o remove_v the_o punishment_n this_o day_n god_n in_o his_o providence_n order_v that_o i_o shall_v hurt_v and_o bruise_v my_o leg_n which_o may_v have_v be_v much_o worse_a i_o humble_o praise_v god_n for_o it_o and_o hope_v to_o profit_v by_o it_o this_o day_n my_o heart_n be_v very_o much_o enlarge_v soften_a and_o quicken_v in_o prayer_n twice_o but_o especial_o once_o and_o raise_v through_o the_o power_n of_o god_n exceed_o to_o be_v willing_a to_o suffer_v i_o learn_v 1._o to_o beware_v of_o sleight_n and_o short_a repentance_n a_o thing_n i_o often_o consider_v off_o 2._o to_o fear_v secret_a self_n conceitedness_n after_o the_o well_o perform_v of_o a_o duty_n 3._o to_o take_v heed_n of_o the_o corrupt_a fly_n of_o vain_a thought_n and_o idle_a word_n 4._o from_o pâ—ov_n 24.1_o not_o to_o desire_v the_o company_n of_o evil_a man_n 5._o to_o see_v consider_v look_v and_o receive_v instruction_n from_o the_o evil_a of_o other_o 6._o that_o such_o as_o do_v the_o will_n of_o god_n but_o not_o with_o a_o good_a end_n shall_v be_v punish_v hos_fw-la 1.4_o this_o day_n i_o be_v trouble_v with_o vain_a and_o wander_a thought_n in_o solemn_a duty_n yet_o be_v make_v sensible_a of_o they_o and_o in_o some_o measure_n resist_v they_o effectual_o i_o learned_a from_o prov._n 25.22_o how_o to_o perform_v my_o duty_n towards_o my_o enemy_n and_o from_o chap._n 26._o 26._o the_o danger_n of_o keep_v secret_a sin_n that_o god_n will_v discover_v they_o before_o the_o congregation_n god_n favour_v i_o this_o day_n with_o kindness_n from_o and_o affect_v i_o somewhat_o with_o the_o relation_n and_o read_n of_o god_n wonderful_a and_o strange_a work_n at_o which_o i_o desire_v to_o stand_v in_o admiration_n and_o to_o fear_v and_o tremble_v also_o to_o be_v affect_v with_o the_o suffering_n of_o other_o saint_n that_o differ_v from_o i_o i_o observe_v also_o from_o prov._n 26.23_o how_o a_o wicked_a have_fw-mi it_o may_v be_v cover_v and_o undiscerned_a as_o a_o potshe_n d_o cover_v with_o dross_n also_o from_o chap_n 27.12_o the_o character_n and_o care_n of_o a_o prudent_a man_n viz._n to_o foresee_v the_o evil_a and_o hide_v himself_o and_o from_o 2._o tim._n 1._o to_o learn_v to_o partake_v of_o suffering_n and_o not_o to_o be_v ashamed_a of_o sufferer_n this_o day_n though_o i_o rise_v early_o than_o ordinary_a yet_o through_o the_o multiplicity_n and_o continuance_n of_o company_n i_o make_v not_o such_o good_a improvement_n thereof_o i_o can_v say_v i_o profit_v much_o or_o gain_v or_o learn_v any_o thing_n unless_o it_o w_z re_z from_z p_o ov_n 27.12_o that_o a_o prudent_a man_n forsee_v the_o evil_a and_o hide_v himself_o also_o from_o 2._o tim._n 2.11.12_o iwyse_o â—â—se_z ve_v great_a encouragement_n to_o suffer_v for_o christ_n because_o we_o shall_v live_v and_o reign_v with_o he_o also_o to_o labour_v to_o be_v pure_a fit_a vessel_n for_o the_o lord_n to_o follow_v aâ—ter_a righteousness_n faith_n peace_n charity_n etc._n etc._n i_o be_v convince_v this_o day_n of_o four_o thing_n i_o be_v too_o negligent_a in_o viz._n study_v the_o scripture_n send_v to_o the_o christian_n especial_o those_o to_o who_o i_o relate_v finish_v somewhat_o i_o intend_v and_o begin_v and_o improve_n my_o talon_n in_o this_o place_n more_o to_o the_o benefit_n of_o other_o poor_a soul_n i_o have_v my_o heart_n soften_v and_o in_o some_o measure_n enlarge_v this_o day_n in_o prayer_n and_o true_o affect_v with_o some_o christian_n that_o come_v to_o see_v i_o i_o have_v some_o comfortable_a consideration_n from_o three_o promise_n prov._n 28.10_o 20_o 26._o the_o upright_a shall_v have_v good_a thing_n in_o possession_n who_o so_o walk_v â—prightly_a shall_v be_v save_v and_o who_o so_o walk_v wise_o shall_v be_v deliver_v i_o have_v also_o comfortable_a from_o host_n 3_o 4.5_o compare_v together_o and_o be_v put_v to_o consider_v those_o in_o 2._o tim._n 3.2_o etc._n etc._n this_o morning_n though_o too_o slothful_a i_o have_v some_o bâ—eathings_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o kindle_v affection_n in_o pâ—ayer_n those_o word_n in_o prov._n 29.25_o be_v some_o comfort_n and_o support_v to_o i_o the_o fear_n of_o man_n bring_v a_o sâ—aâ—e_n but_o who_o so_o put_v his_o trust_n in_o the_o lord_n shall_v be_v safe_a among_o other_o consideration_n i_o have_v this_o day_n 1._o i_o consider_v that_o it_o be_v the_o needful'st_a thing_n in_o a_o dangerous_a time_n to_o get_v assurance_n of_o god_n favour_n and_o salvation_n and_o to_o make_v haste_n to_o repent_v and_o return_v to_o the_o lord_n 2._o to_o consider_v our_o spiritual_a warfare_n and_o to_o qâ—iâ—_n ourselves_o like_a christian_n in_o strive_v for_o victory_n over_o our_o spiritual_a enemy_n i_o have_v comfort_n from_o that_o bless_a promise_n jer._n the_o 33.7_o 8._o thâ—s_n dâ—y_v i_o have_v no_o great_a benefit_n to_o my_o soul_n only_o from_o host_n 4_o 8.10_o 12._o i_o observe_v 1._o that_o to_o have_v the_o heart_n set_v on_o iniquity_n 2._o to_o leave_v off_o take_v need_n to_o the_o lord_n 3._o to_o lose_v the_o heart_n or_o have_v it_o indispose_v to_o good_a 4._o to_o go_v from_o under_o god_n 5._o to_o be_v leave_v â—o_o â—â—n_fw-la oâ—_n igno_fw-la ant_n of_o the_o mind_n of_o the_o loâ—d_n be_v most_o sad_a thing_n alâ—o_v from_o the_o 2._o tim._n 4._o 1._o to_z watch_z 〈◊〉_d all_o â—hiâ—g_n 2._o endure_v 3._o to_o be_v do_v our_o pâ—esâ—nâ—_n duty_n 4._o look_v for_o our_o cha_z ge_o and_o dâ—â—_n nâ—â—ng_v oâ—_n god_n to_o be_v keep_v â—â—om_o evil_a be_v mâ—â—â—asoâ—â—â—e_o preâ—â—nt_a lâ—ssons_n inound_v â—ound_z some_o softness_n &_o â—â—nâ—eâ—ity_n of_o heart_n thiâ—_n daâ—_n and_o h_z d_o tâ—re_o speâ—â—â—â—â—d_v 〈◊〉_d in_o thing_n in_o my_o hea_z t_z to_o deâ—iâ—e_v â—â—om_n coâ—â—_n 1_o 〈◊〉_d a_o the_o ough_a repentance_n 〈◊〉_d recovery_n 〈◊〉_d of_o foâ—mer_a sin_n 2._o to_o be_v perfect_o preserve_v â—o_o the_o â—â—â—e_a to_o come_v from_o evil_n 3._o to_o be_v 〈◊〉_d or_o my_o dissolution_n or_o suffering_n i_o receive_v much_o kindness_n from_o the_o lord_n this_o day_n the_o word_n in_o hos_n 5.15_o till_o they_o acknowledge_v their_o iniquity_n or_o be_v guilty_a i_o consider_v and_o think_v i_o câ—â—e_v short_a thereof_o yet_o those_o word_n prov._n 28.13_o he_o that_o confess_v and_o forsake_v his_o sin_n shall_v find_v mercy_n this_o day_n i_o enjoy_v some_o measure_n of_o the_o spirit_n in_o soften_a and_o draw_v out_o of_o my_o heart_n in_o prayer_n and_o somewhat_o in_o believe_v and_o tenderness_n towards_o 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and_o concernine_v believe_v i_o have_v three_o thing_n 1._o to_o study_v more_o the_o ground_n of_o faith_n and_o the_o reason_n induce_v thereto_o 2._o not_o to_o give_v way_n to_o any_o thing_n against_o believe_v 3._o to_o maintain_v faith_n by_o holiness_n this_o day_n god_n be_v please_v to_o enlarge_v my_o heart_n in_o good_a and_o to_o weaken_v corruption_n make_v i_o sensible_a also_o of_o the_o present_a evil_n both_o of_o sin_n and_o suffering_n i_o learn_v from_o titus_n 3.8.9_o that_o regeneration_n justification_n and_o adoption_n be_v of_o god_n love_n pity_v mercy_n and_o mere_a grace_n also_o to_o be_v ready_a to_o diligent_a in_o and_o profit_v by_o every_o good_a work_n and_o to_o be_v angry_a with_o myself_o for_o sinful_a thing_n and_o deny_v myself_o in_o lawful_a thing_n oh_o my_o trouble_n
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from_o sin_n cease_v to_o do_v evil_a verse_n 16._o 2_o i_o will_v take_v away_o all_o thy_o â—in_z ver_fw-la 25._o i_o also_o apprehend_v that_o the_o prophecy_n in_o that_o 2_o chap._n be_v not_o yet_o fulfil_v compare_v verse_n 4.19_o 21._o together_o and_o those_o word_n in_o verse_n the_o 9_o forgive_v they_o not_o etc._n etc._n this_o day_n i_o have_v a_o strong_a conviction_n of_o the_o sin_n of_o resist_v or_o neglect_v the_o motion_n of_o the_o spirit_n and_o upon_o a_o temptation_n to_o give_v way_n to_o sinful_a think_n i_o find_v power_n to_o side_n with_o and_o embrace_v the_o spirit_n motion_n rather_o than_o the_o other_o i_o have_v a_o letter_n from_o c._n r._n p._n that_o refresh_v i_o i_o be_v observe_v that_o when_o the_o lord_n do_v intend_v to_o secure_v a_o person_n &_o preserve_v it_o he_o do_v sanctify_v &_o purge_v it_o that_o from_o isa_n 4.4.5_o you_o or_o when_o he_o do_v intend_v to_o make_v use_n of_o a_o man_n 2_o tim._n 2.20.21_o two_o other_o 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â—â—â—â—ning_n have_v some_o p_o ovacation_n i_o find_v my_o â—elâ—â—eâ—dy_a p_o esen_fw-mi lie_n to_o be_v moâ—d_v it_o 〈…〉_o against_o he_o that_o accuse_v â—e_n 〈…〉_o towards_o myself_o also_o too_o much_o inclination_n to_o self_n justification_n suitable_a also_o in_o my_o course_n of_o read_v be_v that_o scripture_n isa_n 7.12_o where_o ahaz_n think_v at_o least_o seem_o to_o avoid_v tempt_a god_n by_o ask_v a_o sign_n run_v into_o another_o sin_n viz._n disobedience_n and_o rebellion_n against_o god_n this_o day_n i_o have_v some_o full_a refresh_n from_o the_o lord_n and_o a_o full_a sense_n of_o thing_n upon_o my_o heart_n then_o ordinary_a this_o be_v a_o day_n of_o light_a affliction_n upon_o my_o body_n of_o pain_n in_o my_o back_n which_o i_o suppose_v may_v have_v increase_v and_o heighten_v to_o a_o heavy_a distemper_n but_o â—he_n loâ—d_v remove_v it_o by_o his_o blessing_n upon_o small_a mean_n i_o be_v draw_v out_o in_o my_o spi_v it_o to_o pâ—aise_n god_n for_o it_o â—as_v also_o to_o observe_v how_o the_o profit_n do_v take_v notice_n how_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o lord_n be_v stretch_v out_o still_o isa_n 9_o 12.17_o â—0_n 4_o whence_o i_o will_v learn_v to_o obsâ—ve_v the_o hand_n of_o god_n in_o affliction_n also_o i_o take_v notice_n of_o two_o sore_a evil_n in_o the_o people_n under_o affliction_n 1._o not_o to_o return_v unto_o the_o lord_n 2._o not_o to_o seek_v he_o in_o affliction_n yet_o two_o special_a promise_n chap._n 10.20.21_o that_o they_o shall_v stay_v upon_o the_o lord_n and_o return_v to_o the_o mighty_a god_n thiâ—â—ay_o be_v the_o lord_n day_n i_o have_v some_o real_a breathe_n of_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n in_o prayer_n as_o i_o conceive_v also_o freedom_n from_o temptation_n and_o a_o heart_n to_o praise_n god_n â—or_a it_o in_o some_o degree_n i_o be_v take_v up_o with_o several_a thought_n which_o often_o amuse_n i_o 1._o of_o the_o word_n patience_n of_o god_n 2._o of_o his_o special_a love_n to_o i_o rather_o than_o other_o 3._o of_o his_o infinite_a wisdom_n and_o power_n in_o the_o resurrection_n of_o man_n i_o have_v many_o observation_n as_o from_o isa_n 11.3_o that_o christ_n a_o spirit_n of_o quick_a understanding_n or_o scent_n or_o smell_v as_o it_o be_v in_o the_o margin_n in_o the_o fear_n of_o the_o lord_n such_o a_o spirit_n will_v i_o have_v i_o be_v also_o strong_o persuade_v that_o that_o chapter_n be_v not_o yet_o fulfil_v also_o sweet_a be_v that_o word_n to_o i_o chap._n 12.1_o though_o thou_o be_v angry_a with_o i_o thy_o anger_n be_v turn_v away_o and_o thou_o comforte_v i_o this_o morning_n i_o be_v trouble_v with_o sinful_a thought_n and_o true_o there_o be_v the_o sin_n that_o trouble_v i_o most_o but_o i_o find_v a_o heaâ—t_n to_o pray_v against_o they_o earnest_o but_o god_n bring_v a_o most_o sweet_a word_n in_o a_o sweet_a manner_n to_o i_o viz._n jer._n 13.19_o thou_o shall_v call_v i_o thy_o father_n and_o shall_v not_o turn_v from_o i_o also_o another_o word_n 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3._o afterward_o when_o i_o come_v towards_o my_o design_a place_n god_n order_v that_o some_o professor_n shall_v meet_v with_o i_o who_o show_v mercy_n both_o in_o bring_v i_o into_o a_o house_n and_o give_v notice_n to_o brethren_n 4._o that_o when_o i_o come_v to_o the_o house_n in_o extremity_n of_o pain_n the_o lord_n do_v give_v i_o some_o sudden_a and_o sweet_a sleep_n for_o 3_o hour_n or_o more_o 5._o that_o both_o upon_o the_o way_n when_o i_o be_v scarce_o able_a to_o stand_v and_o in_o the_o house_n when_o i_o be_v thirsty_a the_o lord_n do_v enable_v i_o to_o deny_v myself_o that_o i_o neither_o sit_v down_o on_o the_o grass_n nor_o drink_v both_o which_o will_v have_v