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33._o first_o seek_v the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n and_o the_o righteousness_n thereof_o and_o all_o other_o thing_n shall_v be_v add_v we_o have_v in_o that_o place_n a_o bad_a minister_n but_o to_o god_n i_o make_v my_o supplication_n and_o use_v what_o mean_v i_o can_v to_o obtain_v a_o better_a and_o god_n be_v please_v to_o answer_v my_o desire_n and_o send_v a_o better_a to_o that_o very_a place_n who_o remain_v there_o the_o time_n that_o i_o stay_v under_o who_o honest_a teach_n owe_v often_o meet_v with_o sweet_a refresh_n then_o be_v stir_v up_o by_o my_o friend_n to_o change_v my_o condition_n to_o be_v marry_v to_o a_o husband_n upon_o which_o i_o do_v earnest_o beg_v of_o god_n that_o i_o may_v have_v one_o that_o do_v fear_v the_o lord_n that_o he_o may_v be_v a_o furtherance_n to_o heaven_n and_o indeed_o so_o he_o be_v for_o i_o marry_v with_o a_o man_n that_o be_v much_o in_o practical_a diuty_n yet_o some_o difference_n there_o be_v in_o our_o judgement_n which_o often_o 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