kinde Pelican that sendeth out his owne bloud to nourish his young and all this hath our Lord Iesus done not grudgingly but willingly prouoked hereunto by that feruent Loue hee bare to the glory of God his father and to our saluation Which shall yet appeare more euidently out of his owne comfortable saying to his Disciples I haue greatly desired to eate this Passeouer with you O word full of consolation sundry Passeouers had hee eaten before with them but hee protesteth this was his desired Passeouer See yee not here his vnquenchable Loue hee knew it was the last hee was to eate vpon the earth he knew he was to drink no more with them of the fruit of the Vine till it was fulfilled in his Fathers kingdome hee knew that the same night they would â—…ay him and that after Supper a bitter Cup of Passion was abiding for him yet his loue ouercame all these impediments and made him thinke long to eate of this Passeouer And which is much more before euer hee gaue himselfe to bee crucified for vs on the Crosse hee prouided this Sacrament as a meanes of the communication of himselfe vnto vs thereby assuring vs that his subsequent passion should not defraude vs but rather affoord vnto vs and make ready for vs that righteousnesse and life by Christ purchased on the Crosse and communicate in his holy Table to them who are his In the one hee was prepared and made ready as the onely foode of our soules to eternall life in the other hee is applyed Communicated and giuen vnto vs both of these necessarily behooued to bee done for the work of our Saluation Sicut enim ad potandum vinum venire nemo potest nisi botrus calcetur ante prematur sic nos sanguinem Christi bibere non potuimus nisi Christus prius fuisset calcatus pressus It was a great Loue which made our Sauiour content that his bloud should be shed out on the Crosse and so should bee made both a ransome and a conuenient foode for vs for the father sent him Quasi saccum plenum misericordia in passione conscindendum vt effundatur quod in eo latet pretium nostrum So is this also a new declaration of his loue that before his body was broken and his blood was shed hee first ordeyned the meanes whereby it should be communicated vnto vs. These and many more spirituall meditations should bee vnto vs as the breathings of the mouth of God to kindle in our soules that little sparke of the loue of God which alas for fault of entertainement is almost ouer gone and extinguished with the ashes of our corruption for seeing our Sauiour longed to eate with vs shall not we long to eate with him he greatly desired to giue himself to vs in this table and for vs on the crosse shall not we earnestly desire to receiue him hee knew it was the last he should eat vpon earth that after it heauy sufferings abode him wee know that our banqueting here is the banquet that shall be accomplished in heauen it is begun here it shall not end here Comfortable is that word of our Sauiour it shall be fulfilled in my kingdome and will not we then ioyfully begin this banquet shall we be so foolish as to wait vpon lying vanities and forsake our owne mercies shall we turne our back vpon the fountaine of liuing waters and digge to our selues Cisterns that can hold no water certainely our darknesse is grosser then the darknesse of Egipt and our hearts harder then the Adamant except this burning loue of the Lord Iesus rauish vpward our hearts after him The spouse in the Canticles professeth she was sicke of the loue of her glorious husband the Lord Iesus but alas wee are not touched with the like loue wee feele not the smell of his oyntments therefore with the rest of the Virgins we runne not after him Eliah touched Elisha with his Mantle and therwithall the Lord ioyned his inward calling and suddenly Elisha left his plough of Oxen and of a husbandman became Prophet Now the Lord cals vpon vs by his word and Sacrament let vs also pray that the Lord would shed abroad in our harts by his holy spirit the sence of that loue of God then should wee neglecting all things runne after the Lord seeking onely to inioy him The men of this world maruell to beehold the suddaine change of life which is made in the children of God by his effectuall calling they maruell to see them running so feruently after Christ seeking him by continuance in prayer by hearing of his word by participation of his Sacrament and that with such an insatiable desire that in this life they can neuer be satisfied with hearing reading praying and communicating but if the Lord should in like manner touch their harts and let them feele the power of an inward calling then would they marueile no more farre lesse disdaine yea they would make hast and ioyne themselues to the company of the godly And Saul also should become amongst the Prophets The woman who had liued before a licentious life would now change it with Mary Magdalene shee had beene a great sinner in the Cittie but became an example of Repentance to all the sinners in the Cittie shee prostrates no more her body to her carnall Louers but falles downe at the feete of Christ to craue his mercy in stead of her wanton lookes her eyes poure out teares and her beautifull hayre which before shee set out as a proclaimer of her Lust now shee pulleth downe to wash the feete of Christ. Thus all the former meanes of her sin shee maketh new witnesses of her repentance the man in like manner who had sate all his dayes with Mathew at the receipt of Custome that is who had liued in the sinfull trade of vnlawfull gaine would now in like manner forsake it but where the Lord by effectuall calling workes not in the heart an earnest loue of God no meruaile they lye still in the graue of their sins and rise not to walke after the Lord. We are therfore so much the more to vse all the ordinary means which may entertaine in vs that little sparke of the Loue of God till it grow vp vnto a great flame for the farther vnion and coniunction of our Soules with Iesus Christ and this for our disposition towards God As concerning our Christian disposition to our neighbour it is vsuall to the spirit of God to comprise it vnder Loue. Our Sauiour saith that loue is the Cognisance of his Disciples and the Apostle calleth it the band of perfection and fulfilling of the Law and no meruaile for Loue speaketh with the tongue of euery Vertue All the sundry precepts wee are commaunded to doe vnto our neighbour are summarily comprehended vnder this one Loue one another As this Sacrament sealeth vp the Communion of the
great anguish of minde tumbling as it were betweene feare and confidence betweene hope and despaire hope bidding him goe forward in his iourney despaire by the contrary disswading him confidence promising him safetie feare threatning him with danger His hope leanes on the word of God who promised to be with him and prosper him his feare is conceiued of the words of Esau who had vowed to slay him and is now wakened againe and augmented by the report of his seruants who tolde him that Esau was comming against him with an army Thus did he walk staggering vpon feet not vnlike the feet of Daniels Image partly of clay partly of iron Some of his thoughts being weake and impotent others strong and forcible to carry him forward In this perplexitie now stāds Iacob hauing no conclusion nor counsell within him without contradiction vncertaine what to doe or which way to turne him not vnlike Iehosophat which being straited with the Ammonites Moabites and Edomites stood vp before the Lord and said O Lord there is no strength in vs to stand against this great multitude neither doe wee know what to doe but our eyes are towards thee In like manner say I doth Iacob here being assaulted with a force hee was not able to resist hee turnes him to the Lord and exponés to the Lord in humble manner his feare Deliuer me O Lord from the hand of my brother Esau for I feare him least hee come vpon me and smite me and the mother vpon the children Therfore is it that now the Lord comes as in due season and conuenient time to shew himselfe for the comfort of his seruant No helpe for Iacob in man the Lord puts to his right hand comforts him Ibi enim incipit diuinū auxilium vbi deficit humanum When all other helpes failes the Children of God then commeth in the helpe of God for he knows best the very point and article of time wherein it is meete that hee should bee the diliuerer of them who wayt vpon him As to the manner of the apparition the Lord is not content to answere Iacob by word onely nor by sending secretly patience and comfort vnto his troubled spirit which way many a time he answeres the prayers of his owne but he confirmes him by an extraordinary vision For he appeares to Iacob in the forme of a man and wrestles with him he assayes him not with a superiour strength which he was not able to withstand but applies himselfe to Iacobs weaknesse and disposes the wrestling in such a manner that Iacob gets the victory albeit not without a wound for his thigh-bone is disjoynted and put out of the joynt so that he haulteth all the dayes of his life which as for the present time it was a matter of his humiliation being a discouery of his weaknes and of the Lords indulgence whereby onely he preuailed victor in the combat so was it for all time to come a memoriall and remembrance vnto him of this most comfortable apparition And as to the end of the Lords appearing the end saith Theodoret was the confirmation of Iacobs hart against feare ideo enim Angelus cū Iacob luctari voluit vt timenti fratrem fiduciam inijceret And this ye may perceiue out of the words which the Lord vtters when the wrestling is ended thou hast wrestled with God and shalt also preuaile with men Feare not therefore will the Lord say O my seruant Iacob to encounter with Esau who is but a mortall man I who haue furnished thee with strength to stand in this wrestling with GOD shall furnish thee with strength also in all thy conflicts vvith men and thou shalt preuaile This is the ground of all our comfort in trouble which if we could remember then would we not be cast downe nor disquieted with feares but would sanctifie the Lord of hosts in our hearts and make him our feare It is not in our name nor strength nor in the power of nature that we stand and wrestle We go forth against our Goliah in the name of our God weake in our selues yet in him more then Conquerours Maior enim est qui prae est in nobis quam qui in hoc mundo nec plus ad deijoiendum potest terrena poena quam ad erigendum diuina tutela He is stronger that rules in vs then the Prince of this world Neyther are these euils which earthly men are able to inflict vpon vs so forcible to cast vs downe as the heauenly helpe is able to raise vs vp let vs alwayes walke forward in this our strength The Lord is my light and saluation the Lord is the strength of my life of whom then shall I be afraid But now before that yet wee enter into the particulars let vs marke this profitable lesson that vpon the groūds I haue laid arise to be obserued If wee consider what is the Lords purpose and intention what againe are the meanes that he vseth to bring about his purpose and yee shall see that the Lord vseth meanes which appeares contrary to his end His purpose is to confirme Iacob the meanes hee vseth is wrestling with Iacob a strange manner of working that the Lord should shake him hee mindes to strengthen that he should wound him whom hee purposes to confirme and thus and this manner of way on a sodaine terrifie by a strange wrestling in the night in a solitary place his seruant whom hee came to comfort but so it is the working of the Lord oft times is by contraries In the first worke of creation hee made all things of nothing He commanded light to shine out of darknesse Hee formed the body of man his most excellent earthly creature of the basest matter dust and clay of the vilest creature hee made the most honourable and all to shew the glory of his power In the worke of redemption in like manner our Sauiour Iesus by sustaining shame hath conquered to vs glory by induring the Crosse hath obtayned the crowne by suffering death hath destroyed death and him who had the power thereof and after the same manner of working hee is yet daily meruailous in his Saints By death he brings them vnto life He kils and he makes aliue Through doubtings hee leads them to assurance by temporall despaire hee brings them to abound in hope he afrayes them with his terrors to make them the more capable of his consolations It is strange and meruailous in our eyes may not wee learne it by daily experience that God deliuereth vs from Sathan by letting Sathan loose for a while vpon vs Hee saues vs from our sinnes by gathering all our sins against vs and laying them to the charge of our conscience and by a present feeling of his wrath hee maketh vs flee that terrible Wrath which is to come Be not therefore discouraged yee who finde this working of the Lord faint not
though the Lord after this manner doe exercise you that when ye cry for mercy yet to your feeling ye apprehend nothing but anger reuerence the working of God suppose for the present yee vnderstand it not let the Lord walke on his owne way and wait thou with patience for comfort in the end the Lord will send a gracious raine vpon his inheritance to refresh it when it is weary though he kill vs he shall make vs to liue againe When he hath humbled vs to the graue yet will he raise vs againe After two dayes he will reuiue vs and in the third he shall raise vs vp and we shall liue in his sight It is no rotten foundation we leane to the foundation of the Lord remaines sure therefore albeit the Lord should sâ—…ay vs yet will we trust in him He sent a fearefull darknes on Abraham or euer hee shewed him the comfortable vision He stroke Paul vnto the ground and confounded him before that he conuerted him he strake him with blindnes or euer hee opened his eyes hee began hardly with Iacob but ends with a blessing at the first he dealt rigorously in his answers with the woman of Canaan but in the end comforted her As Ioseph for a long time made it strange with his brethren but at length his inflamed affection compelled him to embrace them So the Lord though hee make a shew of an angry countenance towards his owne yet his inestimable loue and fatherly compassion shall force him to reueale himselfe vnto them in the sweetnesse of his mercy For a little while haue I forsaken thee for a moment in mine anger as it seemed I hid my face from thee for a little season but with euerlasting mercy haue I had compassion on thee saith the Lord thy redeemer We shal perceiue in the end that which now in the midst of trouble we see not though in our afflictions we take him vp as an aduersary through the weaknes of our faith yet shall we finde that then God was with vs working for our deliuerance when hee seemed to be against vs. Let vs not therefore be cast downe when the Lord worketh with vs after his own manner of working by meanes vnknowne to vs. Let vs learne of Iacob to wrestle with the Lord and with that woman of Canaan cleaue to him the faster that he seemes to put vs away we shall feele in the end the Lord is neere vnto them who aâ—…e of a contrite heart will saue such as be afflicted in spirit Yea we shall with Dauid reioyce and glory in the Lord it is good for me that euer the Lord corrected mee The Lord be blessed therefore for hee hath shewen his meruailous kindnesse towards me It is now time that we enter into the History it selfe which hath these two parts The first sets downe the Angels wrestling with Iacob The second contaynes the conference of the Angell with Iacob which followes vpon the wrestling As for the wrestling we haue in it fiue things to bee considered first the time of it secondly the persons between whom thirdly the manner of the wrestling whether corporall onely spirituall onely or mixt fourthly how long continues the wrestling and last of al the euent issue of this wrestling CHAP. IIII. The first circumstance the time of the wrestling AS to the first the circumstance of time is noted by Moses when Iacob sayth he was left alone Amongst many reasons that might moue Iacob to bee alone I encline to none more then this he sought to be solitary to the end he might haue the fitter occasion to pray and poure out his griefe the more freely and homely into the Lords bosome For we know that the presence of men is oftentimes a great impediment of the free communing of our soules with God and that the children of God will boldly communicate those secrets to the Lord which they will not vtter to their dearest friends We haue here then to learne with Iacob sometime to with-draw our selues from the dearest company of men that wee may haue the better occasion by prayer to conferre with our God For hee who loueth wisedome will separate himselfe to seeke it Yet are wee to remember that solitarinesse auailes not without vnlesse there be silence within For though the body bee remoued from the eyes of men if the soule in the meane time bee disquieted with bands of restlesse and troublesome motions it is not possible that we can pray Maxima est segnitia alienari capi ineptis cogitationibus cum Dominum deprecaris quasi sit aliquid quod magis debeas cogitare quam quod cum Deo loquaris quomodo te audiri à Deo postulas cum te ipse non audias vis Deum memorem esse tui cum rogas cum tu ipse memor tui non sis hoc est ab hoste in totum non cauere hoc est vigilare oculis corde dormire cum debeat Christianus etiam cum dormit oculus corde vigilare It is saith Cyprian a very great sloath to be alienate and carried away with vnmeet cogitations when thou prayest vnto God as if there were any thing wherof thou shouldest thinke more then this that thou art speaking with God How desirest thou that God should heare thee when thou hearest not thy selfe or that hee should be mindefull of thee who art not mindefull of thy selfe By so doing thou art not warie enough of thy enimie this is to watch with thine eyes and sleepe with thy heart whereas it becommeth a Christian euen to wake with the hart when the eye is asleepe I sleepe but my heart waketh When therefore we goe to pray we must doe as did our Sauiour when he went to raise Tabitha from the dead he put the Minstrels and the Mouâ—…ners to the doore and wee must put worldly thoughts out of our mindes tollerable seruants if so be wee vse them as seruants at another time but no way tollerable in the time of prayer Like the Asses and Seruants of Abraham which he vsed as helpes to carry him forward in his journey but left them at the foote of the mountaine when he went vp to pray and sacrifice to the Lord. And thus the perturbations of our mindes within being quieted then let vs eschew as farre as possibly wee can all occasions of distractions without vs. Let vs with his spouse in the Canticles follow our Husband to the fields and there talke with him or with Dauid let vs examine our hearts vpon our â—…eds and be still or as our Sauiour commandeth vs Let vs enter into our chamber and shut the doore and there in secret pray to our heauenly father After this manner went Daniel to his chamber alone and Peter to the top of the house alone and Iesus Christ went alone to the mountaine to pray all night And so much
from God Not so much as a Sparrow nor a haire of our head fals to the ground without the prouidence of our heauenly father He that keepes our hearts will hee not keepe our selfe Si sic custodiuntur superflua tua in quanta securitate est anima tua If thy haires bee kept in what safety is thy soule What euer cup of trouble men prepare for vs we shall not drinke of it vnlesse the Lord appoint it and temper it first with his owne hand Nabuchad-nezzar boasted the three children with a fiery furnace yet were they not afraid all because they considered that God aboue him ouer-ruled his intention Shimei cursed Dauid and he was not incenced with anger because hee considered that the Lord had sent him And Nahomi with this comforted her selfe against the losse of her husband It is the Lord said shee who humbles me All these doe warne vs vvhom God hath appointed for greater conflicts that it is a great feeblenes arising of inconsideration to suffer our soules to be dimoued out of the state of patience by the inordinate behauiour of any outward instrument of our trouble Absit à seruo Christi tali inquinamentum vt patientia maioribus praeparata in minoribus excidat Let such a spot and foule blemish bee farre from the seruants of Christ that our patience which is prepared for greater conflicts should faile and fall away in smaller tentations If when we run with foot-men they weary vs how shall wee match our selues with horses If when wee wrestle with men who are flesh and bloud we are so easily ouer-throwne with euery breath of their mouth and wounded with their smallest injuries that vvee faint and become impatient how shall we wrestle against principalities and powers or how shall vvee resist the fiery darts of the Diuell We haue therefore for helpe of our weaknesse to gather our thoughts and remember that whosoeuer bee the instrument of our trouble it is the Lord vvith whom vvee haue to doe so shall vvee the more easily possesse our soules in patience and giue glory to God CHAP. VIII The third Circumstance the manner of the wrestling corporall spirituall or mixt IN the third roome wee promised to speake of the manner of this wrestling whether it bee corporall onely or spirituall onely or mixed Now that it is mixt and so partly corporall and partly spirituall will appeare by comparing Moses and the Prophet Hosea together That the wrestling was corporall it is cleare of the disjoynting of Iacobs thigh whereof Moses makes mention and that it was also spirituall appeares partly of that which Moses saith that Iacob straue for the blessing and partly of that which Hosca saith that hee preuailed by wrestling and praying These are the sorest kinde of wrestlings when the Lord at one time exercises his children both in body and minde that his heauie hand of sicknes pouertie or some such like is vpon their bodyes and therewithall heauy inward troubles vpon their mindes This is indeede a very hard estate for as Salomon saith the spirit of a man will sustaine his infirmitie but a wounded spirit who can beare it and yet with both those at one time hath the Lord exercised his dearest seruants so hardly that the vehemency of their trouble hath forced them to poure out most lamentable complaints My heart saith Dauid is wounded within me My spirit is in perplexitie and my soule is amazed The Lord renewes his plagues and encreaseth his wrath against me saith Iob So that changes and armies of sorrowes are against me the Lord suffers me not to take my breath but fils me with bitternesse The Lord saith Nahomi hath giuen me much bitternesse I haue fightings without and terrours within sayth the Apostle It is a common disease of the Children of God in their troubles to thinke that their troubles are singular I haue therefore marked this that none of them should think themselues marrowlesse when the Lord deales with them after this manner For no tentation hath ouertaken you but that which appertaines to men Wee haue here in like manner to mark another kinde of tentation wherby God tryes the faith of his children which is when his work seemes directly to fight against his Word so that in working with his children hee appeareth to come against his promise As for example the Lord hath promised that if I repent hee will forgiue if I mourne for my sinnes he will comfort me if I aske from him hee will giue vnto mee so sayes he in his word Yet I finde in his working with mee the contrary will the troubled conscience of the Childe of God say I doe repent from mine heart of my sinnes and am sorrowful that euer I offended my God but I cannot feele the Remission of them I mourne but the Comforter who should refresh my soule commeth not I call and cry night day but the Lord heareth mee not Vnto this estate I know that oftentimes the dearest of Gods children are brought as if the Lord had forgot to bee mercifuli vnto them and shut vp his tender mercies in displeasure they can finde no promised rest to their soule nor peace to their troubled mindes CHAP. IX How we should be haue our selues in this tentation we are taught THou therefore whose heart is set to seeke the Lord in this perplexitie wouldst know what to doe and how to behaue thy selfe I can no better way resolue thee then to send thee to looke vnto Abraham Iacob Iob and the rest of these who haue been exercised with the like tentations before thee Marke therefore and consider how the Lord commanded Iacob to go backe againe vnto Canaan and promised to be with him yet now in the iourney as it would seeme he comes against him He bad him goe forward and yet disioynts his thigh bone so vnables him to goe as he was wont Notwithstanding Iacob still cleaues fast to the promise of the Lord being perswaded that the Lord could not faile him and therefore contrary to his present sence and feeling trusting still on the word of the Lord for all the appearing contrarietie of his working he craues a blessing from him that wrestles vvith him Againe will ye looke vnto Abraham our father the Lord made him a promise that in Isaac his seed should be blessed and yet hee commands him to slay him A wonderfull tentation that the Lord commands him to slay that child in whom hee had promised the multiplication and blessing of his posteritie for here the promise of God his commandement seemes to fight together Yet Abraham strengthned in the faith as he receiued Isaac from the dead wombe of Sara doth not doubt but God was able to raise him from the dead againe and therefore resting on the Lords promise he spares not to sacrifice Isaac being fully assured that the Lordes apparant contrary working could
that spirituall desertions are prouocations whereby God his Children are wakened more effectuously to desire the continuance of Gods mercy with them When lesus Christ accompanied his two Disciples vnto Emaus communed with them by the way when they drew neere to the towne Iesus made him saith the Euangelist as if he would haue gone a little further onely to stirre them to seeke his abiding with them In the doing of our Sauiour is figured vnto vs the manner of the Lords working with his children who sometimes doth so behaue himselfe as if he were instantly to depart and take his holy Spirit from them which mints of spirituall desertion because they are exceeding grieuous to the godly let vs for our comfort consider the Lord by them seeketh no other thing but to encrease our faith to kindle our loue to stirre vs vp vnto greater feruency in prayer that we may vvith Iacob constrayne the Lord to tarry and blesse vs. And with the two Disciples may cry Lord abide with vs and forsake vs not For we are to vnderstand that the same blessings which God hath concluded to bestow vpon his children he will haue vs to aske them before that he giue them the Lord came at this time to Iacob of purpose to blesse him and yet he makes as if he would go away and not blesse him not that hee had changed his minde but because he will haue Iacob to pray for that blessing of corroboration which he had concluded to giue him And let this warne vs in the least threatning of a spirituall desertion to lay holde on the Lord by prayer least for fault of seeking wee close vp the Lords hands which are full of blessings ready to bee bestowed vpon vs. Againe we are to consider that the Lords presence in a like manner cannot be continually kept in this life neither from the beginning haue any of the children of God enioyed it at all times Where for the better vnderstanding of the lesson and our farther comfort we must distinguish between thâ—…se two kindes of the Lords presence there is a presence of the Lord which is felt and perceiued there is another which is secret and not perceiued yet knowen by the effects The secret presence of God is continually vvith his children vvhere-euer they goe ruling guiding sustayning them in all their troubles according to his promise when thou passest through the waters I will bee with thee that they doe not ouerslow thee when thou walkest through the sire thou shalt not be burnt As to vs wee haue our owne vicissitudes of feeling and not feeling wee are changeable but the Lord remayneth the same whom hee loues hee loueth to the end hee will neuer leaue vs nor forsake vs but by his secret presence he intertaines life in our soules when to our owne judge ment wee are become altogether dead and senceles as there is a substance in the Elme and Oke euen when they haue cast their leaues And thâ—…s as I sayd appeareth by the effects that vve haue stood in many tentations wherein wee could feele no present grace vpholding vs. CHAP. XIII What notable effects the felt presence of God bringeth with it THe other sort is when not onely God is present vvith his children but also make themselues sensibly perceiue it by inward glorious feelings this presence when we get it makes a sodaine change of the whole man it raises vs from death to life it maketh a comfortable light to shine vvhere fearfull darknesse abounded it makes our faith liuely our loue feâ—…ent our zeale burning and our prayer earnest Then is our water turned to wine our sighes are turned into songs our mourning into glorious reioycing because the Bridegroome is with vs and the Comforter that doth refresh our soule is come to visite vs. This presence is as euidently felt of them to whom it is graunted as was that descending of the holy Ghost perceiued of the Apostles to whom he came This presence sometime is graunted before trouble as here vnto Iacob and then it is a preparation of him that gets it to the battell it embouldens incourages and strengthens him in such sort that hee feares not in Gods cause to encounter vvith vvhatsoeuer aduersarie He triumphs vvith Dauid the Lord is the light of my saluation whom shall I feare the Lord is the strength of my liâ—…e of whom shall I be afraid This presence makes Iacob with his familie goe forward in the face of Esaâ—… and of his armed men vvithout feare where before he was afraid at the rumour of his comming This presence made Moses lightly regard the angry countenance of Pharaoh because hee had seene him who was inuisible This presence made Paul goe vp with joy to Ierusalem where he knew he should be in chains for the name of Iefus This presence hath emboldened many faithfull Martyres to offer their bodies more freely and willingly to the fire for the testimony of Iesus then euer any worldling hath stept into his bath to wash himselfe or to his bed to rest him Let Peter bee prepared with this presence and hee will preach Christ boldly in the face of a Counsell that condemned Christ Let Peter bee vnprepared of this presence and hee will denie Christ at the voyce of a sâ—…ple damsell Sometime againe this prescence is graunted to his Children after their long continuance in some trouble and then it is to them as the neesings of that childe whom after swouning Elisha reduced vnto life or as a glimps of the bright shining Sunne to the tender fruites of the earth which before hath beene oppressed with blasting and consuming tempests it brings to the children of God a pacifying of all these distrustfull perturbations which did before disquiet them yea it so delights and rauishes them that with the three Disciples on Mount Tabor when they had seene a little glance of Christs glory they cry out It is good for vs to bee here Yea they wish oh that my soule might for euer abide in this happy state and condition But as I said before to enjoy the Lord continually in this manner is not giuen to any man vpon earth for a while he will be familiar with thee as hee was with Iacob but soone after he must goe and thou must learne to reuerence this dispensation of his presence and not to be dis couraged because for a while he is gone from thee yea albeit with Mary one sword of many sorrowes should peirce through thy soule yet with her also magnifie the Lord and let thy spirit reioyce in God thy sauior blessing him with hart mouth that he looked to the base estate of his seruant Account thy selfe happy that at any time the Lord shewes thee his mercifull face being assured that he who hath giuen thee an earnest penny wil in his own good time giue thee the principall summe and that the glimps of mercy
to himselfe when he threatens to goe from them they follow him with these lamentable voyces turne againe O Lord and cause thy face to shine vpon me that I may bee saued O Lord take from me what thou wilt take from me all the worldly comforts that euer thou gauest me onely let me enioy thy selfe for whom haue I in the heauens but thee and I haue desired none in the earth with thee my flesh farles me and my hart also Lord faile thou me neuer when thou hidest thy face I am sore troubled returne therefore O Lord and be merciful to me be thou the strength of my heart and my portion for euer for thy louing kindnesse is better then Life These are the effects of sanctified trouble while I haue marked that wee may be comforted not discouraged when we finde that our outward or invvard troubles produce into vs a loaâ—… thing of earthly pleasure and a more feruent loue of our God We haue yet more narrowly to consider this answere that Iacob giues to the Lord I will not saith hee let thee goe Is this a seemely answere for a seruant to giue vnto his Lord when the Lord sayes let mee goe becomes it Iacob to answere I vvill not let thee goe Is this good religion in any thing to striue with the Lord Yea indeede ther are some things wherein the Lord is very well content that thou striue vvith him as namely when the Lord hath promised any thing vnto thee and thou hast his word for thy warrant to seeke it in sort that albeit the Lord say thee nay yet thou wilt receiue no refusall at his hands this is a strife which pleaseth the Lord for in effect it is no other thing but a constant affirmation that his truth is inuiolable After this manner that woman of Canaan stroue with him she would take no deniall of that which he had promised and after this manner here also Iacob striues with him hee will not be denied of a blessing And Moses also stroue with the Lord protesting he would not go forward one foote vnlesse the Lord went with him because the Lord had so promised But farre be it from vs to striue with the Lord as the wicked do grieuing him dayly with our murmurings and rebellions still liuing in contrarie tearmes with the Lord. Woe bee to him that striueth with his maker doe yee prouoke the Lord vnto anger or are yee stronger then hee The end of this strife to them wil be horrible confusion There is yet farther to be considered in these words of Iacob how hee saith to the Lord I will not let thee goe by what meane is this that Iacob is able to hold and detaine the Lord The Prophet Hosea will resolue this It was saith hee by mourning and weeping that Iacob preuailed and helde the Angel whilst he got the blessing Ther is nothing so strong in the world as the prayers of the godly they are the onely bands by which the Lord is holden and detained the Lord will not be restrained by all the powers of the earth neither will he cease to doe any worke that he is about to doe for the cries of all the men in the world yet the prayers of his children are able to constrain him to power downe an vndeserued blessing and turne away a iust deserued punishment When the people of Israell had fallen from God by worshipping the golden Calfe the Lords anger was highly incensed and kindled against them which moued Moses to fall downe on his face before the Lord beseeching him to bee appeased towards his people for the glory of his name This prayer did in such sort constraine the Lord in the midst of his anger that he is compelled to say vnto Moses Let me alone that my wrath may wax hot against them for I will consume them This manner of speach vsed by the Lord declares that the prayer of Moses did bind and hold in the wrath of God that it brake not out vpon this people In like manner we read in the Gospell that when Iesus was passing by those two blinde men who cryed vpon him Osanna thou sonne of Dauid haue mercy vpon vs albeit the multitude regarded not their crying and the disciples also as it seemes tooke little thought thereof yet Iesus was moued thereby to stand still They could not come neere for the multitude to lay hands on him but their prayers reached vnto him doth so take hold vpon him that by that place he could not goe vntill he had giuen them a comfortable answere the prayer of a righteous man auatles much if it be powred out in faith CHAP. XVI Prayers of the godly must be forcible and acceptable to God seeing they come from his owne Spirit THis then is to the great comfort of the godly that our prayers are effectuall and are as I may call them the Lords owne bands wherewith we are able to detaine and hold him till hee blesse vs. And no meruaile seeing these prayers are not ours but the intercession of Gods owne spirit in vs powred out in the name of Christ in whom he is euer well pleased For as to vs wee know not what to pray as we ought but the spirit it selfe makes request for vs with sighes which cannot bee expressed And therefore may we boldly thinke that the Lord will not despise them Spiritus est in quo clamamus Abba pater sicut in nobis interpellat pro nobis ita in patre delicta donat pro ipso patre quod postulamus idem ipse donat qui dat vt postulemus It is the spirit saith Bernard by whom wee cry Abba father as in vs the spirit makes request for vs so with the Father he graunts our requests and forgiues vs our sinnes that for which we pray euen he giueth it vnto vs who giueth vs this Grace to pray Let vs therefore pray continually and strengthen by these godly meditations our feeble hearts and weake hands that they faint not in prayer Let vs go and desire good things from the Lord seeing we haue the Lord bound to vs by his promise The Lord will fulfill the desire of them who feare him And againe That which the wicked feares shall come vpon him but God will graunt the desire of the righteous Thou who art made sure to obtaine if so be thou canst desire art here made inexcusable none wants mercy and grace but hee who desires it not And yet take heed that in thy praier thou be not vnreuerent remember à quo quam magna petas from whom and what great things thou crauest Great things from a great king should be desired with reuerence and affection they can best speed at the Lords almes-dealing that fall downe lowest with the Publican not they who with the Pharisie stand vp prowdest vpon their feete Abraham the father of the faithfull in his prayer considering in himselfe and looking
Calling that ye haue bene baptized in the name of Iesus and communicated at his holy table for not euerie one that sayes Lord Lord shall enter into his kingdom except ye find also the Lords inward and effectuall Calling that the arme of his grace hath drawne you within the compasse of this third circle and so brought you to be of his owne third part and set you downe among the generation of them that seeke the face of God and therfore forsakes their sinnes that they may finde him CHAP. XIII Of the inward Calling THen wee see this excellent priuiledge is restrained to them who are called inwardly and therefore let vs yet a little consider it This inward Calling is the Communication of Christs sauing grace vvhereby the minde is inlightened the heart purified by faith the affections sanctified and the whole man reformed For as the Lord by his Gospell offers to his children righteousnesse and life so by his holy spirit he giues them that iustifying Faith and openeth their hearts to receiue that Grace which is preached and proclaimed to them in the Gospel So then this worke of our Calling is altogether the Lords It is his praise that hee cals things which are not and makes them to be the Lord that commaunded light to shine out of darknesse hath giuen to our mindes the light of the knowledge of his glory in the face of Christ Iesus hee it is that creates in vs a new heart and putteth a new spirit into our bowels that vvee may walke in his statutes The Lord promised that hee would call many of the Gentiles to the spiritual Ierusalem to suck out the milke of the breasts of her consolation and be delighted with the brightnesse of his glory shall I cause others to bee fruitfull saith the Lord and remaine barren my selfe and this his gracious promise hath he most abundantly performed in our dayes his name be praised therefore As this worke is onely the Lords so he restraines it onely to them who are his owne The outward Calling is extended to all but the inward calling makes a particular seperation of a few from the remnant where it is wonderfull to see the distinction which is made betwixt man and man in all rankes and estates by this effectuall calling of two Brethren as Iacob and Esau of two Prophets as Moses and Balaam of two Kings as Dauid and Saul of two Apostles as Peter and Iudas of two theeues the one is taken the other reiected and thus the arme of the grace of God goes through to euerie corner of the earth according to his pleasure culling out by his word from among the remnant of the world those who belong to his Election This grace of God it enters in a Land and not into euery Cittie it enters into a Cittie but not into euery Familie yea it will enter into a Familie and â—…et not come to euery person of the Familie or husband and wife of Maisters and Seruants of Parents and Children of Brethren and Sisters oftentimes the one is taken the other is left It came to Iericho and chose out Zacheus It came to Philipi and weiled out Lidia and the Iaylor It came to Nero his court and not to himselfe It entred into the familie of Narcissus and yet past by Narcissus himselfe It is the worke of God and merueilous in our eies The Gospell is preached to many but the blessing brought by the Gospell lights onely vpon the children of grace And hereof ariseth this dayly distinction which we see betweene man and man all heare alike but all haue not Faith all are not edified alike Some forsake their sins and followes the Lord others forsaking the Lord walkes on in their sinnes As the Lord gouerneth the raine and makes it fall vpon one Cittie and not vpon another so hee dispenseth the dew of his grace that hee makes it droppe downe vpon one heart and not vpon another And of this I would wish that so many of you as yet are strangers from Grace should learne to know your miserable state What a fearefull thing is this that God hath conuerted so many in the Cittie wherein thou dwellest yea perhaps many in the familie wherein thou remainest and yet his grace neuer lighted vpon thee but thou art left in thy olde sinnes Consider it rightly I pray you If the Lord should do to you as hee did to Israel in the daies of Achab causing it to raine for three yeares a halfe on all the lands about you but not vpon your Land would you not conceiue in it a sensible curse of God vpon you O Hypocrite thou that canst discerne the face of the skie and take vp the tokens of Gods anger in the creature canst thou not discerne the state of thine owne soule nor apprehend this for a sensible curse that thirty or forty yeares the showers of sauing and renewing grace hath descended vpon the people round about thee but neuer vpon thy selfe thou possessest thy old sins and keepest still a hard a barren and a fruitlesse heart What shall I say to thee to cut thee off from all hope of mercie and so send thee to despaire I haue not that in commission the Lord hath his owne time of calling and can when he will of Saul a persecutor make Paul a Preacher But one thing I can certifie â—…hee of so long as thou aâ—…t in that state mourne if thou vvilt thou hast much cause of mourning for if this effectuall calling by grace goe by thee in time to come as it hath done in time beganne it is an euident declaration that thou art a man reserued to wrath and not ordained to mercie CHAP. XIIII In the inward calling the Lord begins at the illumination of the minde NOw that this Calling flowing from Election may bee yet made sure to our Consciences for our greater comfort let vs marke the manner of the Lords proceeding into it and so gather vp some tokens whereby vvee may discerne it As in the first creation the Lord began at the light so in the second Creation he begins at the illumination of the minde For wee can neither know the Lord to feare and loue him neyther yet our selues and our sinnes aright till the Lord vvho commanded light to shine out of darknesse shine also into our hearts to giue vs the light of the knowledge of the glory of GOD in the face of Iesus Christ and this light of God discouers to vs so many workes of darknes wherewith in ignorance wee defiled our Consciences that wee begin to be ashamed of our selues in the sight of God yea our very flesh trembleth for feare of his iudgements and vvee crie out with Iob Now my eye hath seene the Lord therefore I abhorre my selfe And thus the Lord proceeds from the minde to the heart working into it such a contrition and godly sorrow as causeth repentance vnto saluation whereby the heart that
we are to take of our selues for if as I said the Iewes had assigned to them the space of foure daies for preparation before they eate their Passeouer what shall we doe that haue to celebrate a more excellent misterie they searched diligently euery corner of their house to see that no leauen were in it but more diligentlie should we search euery corner of our hearts that no knowne leauen of wickednesse maliciousnesse be left in it which wee haue not purged and cast out by repentance Then shall wee find that euery new sight of our selues shall discouer a new corruption for the heart of man is a great deepe and deceitfull aboue all things manie Chambers of corruption are in it If we haue entred into one and seene the abhominations which are there thinke not for that wee haue entred in all No doubt the Prophet Esay knew before that he was a sinfull man but a new vision of the Maiestie of God brought him to a deeper insight of his owne vncleanenesse and made him to crie out woe is me for I am vndone Because I am a man of polluted lips and mine eyes haue seene the King the Lord of Hostes I haue seene saith Iob The Lord therefore doe I now abhorre my selfe And this I speake that none of vs thinke a new triall vnnecessary but that euen ye who through grace haue bene accustomed euerie morning to chastice your selues and euerie euening to examine your hearts in your beds may be warned to you also belongeth this precept Let a man try himselfe and so let him eate CHAP. VII What a laborious work is enioyned a man when hee is commanded to try himselfe Two things necessary for this tryall First the Spirit of God Secondly the Word of God Many try themselues by wrong Rules and are so deceiued VVHich shall appeare more euidently if thou ponder this preprecept Try thy selfe it is a restlesse and laborious work that here is inioyned to thee thou art set to a task which may hold thee exercised all the dayes of thy life The Lord by this precept will haue euery thing that is in man brought vnder examination Man as hee is the workmanship of God is euerie way so meruailous that no meruaile the Philosophers called him a little world Augustine in his Estimation accounted man a greater miracle then all the miracles that euer were wrought among men but as he is peruerted by sinne and become the workmanship of Sathan hee is so fraughted with iniquitie that Saint Iames cals one member of his body a world of wickednesse and if in the tongue onely which is but a small member of the body there is so much wickednesse that the Spirit of God who giueth names to things as they are calleth it a world of wickednes what shall we think of the rest what bottomlesse depth of iniqui tie must there bee in the fountaine when there is so much in the streame and therefore I say hee had need to be full of eyes within and without that will practise this precept of the Apostle Let a man trye himselfe For if ye shall begin to take a view of your minde and consider how farre it is enlightned and what naturall darknesse yet remayneth in it how many bands of strange cogitations at seuerall times soiourne in it some flowing from the loue of the World and her deceitfull pleasures intending to steale our hearts after them some from the roote of concupiscence and her inordinate Lusts that oftentimes violently oppresse vs and some from the roote of bitternesse raysing wonderfull commotions and perturbations within vs reeling too and fro by courses in our swelling and restlesse mindes raging like waues of the Sea carryed with furious windes besides infinite armies of other vaine and idle cogitations whereof wee cannot tell from whence they come nor whether they goe and if from the minde they proceed to the heart which is the seate of the affections take a particular view of them how our loue and our hatred our feare and our confidence our ioy and our griefe our care and our contentment are renewed and framed according to that word which is the rule of righteousnesse And if againe yee goe to try the affections and see how the members of your bodyes are imployed as weapons of righteousnes in the seruice of God if yee haue made a Couenant with your eyes or not that they regard not vanitie or if negligently yee let them stand open as windowes at the which death enters euery moment into your soules and if yee haue learned to take heede to your lips that yee sinne not with your tongue if yee shall also take a time to consider the ignorances of your youth and sinnes of your old age if I say yee looke vnto all these which yet are few in regard of many moe we haue to looke vnto what shal appeare but a new found world of wickednesse dicouered vnto thee which most iustly may make thee ashamed and compell thee to cry out with Dauid O Lord who knoweth the errours of his life Lord cleanse me from my secret sinnes and keepe me from presumptuous sinnes that so I may bee made cleane from much wickednesse yea thou shalt wish with Ieremie O that my head were full of water and mine eyes fountaines of teares that all the whole day long I might with Ezekiah recount my sinnes in the bitternesse of my heart and all the night cause my bed to swim and water my couch with teares for the manifold transgressions wherwith I haue offended the Lord my God And now because this tryall of our selues is so necessary let vs here remember that there are two things without which wee cannot profite in this work of tryall The one is the Spirit of God the other the Word of God As to the first man by nature is so blinded with selfe Loue that hee accounts his owne deformitie beauty and his bondage libertie what viler bondage then the Seruitude of sinne O quam multos Dominos habet qui vnum non habet said Ambrose and yet man vnregenerate counteth it his libertie to liue vncontrolled in the seruice of his lusts to doe what hee will what libertie againe so excellent as to be the freeman of God Seruire Deo est regnare and yet foolish man accounts the obedience of Gods Law which is the law of libertie a seruitude and the Commandements of God he esteemes as bonds wherwith he will not be bound walking the footsteps of other Rebels before him hee cryes out Let vs breake their bonds and cast their cords from vs. It vvas not the disease of the Laodiceans onely to account themselues happy vvhen indeed they were miserable it is the naturall disease of all the Sons of Adam for euery mans way seemeth good in his owne eyes A pittifull blindnes that death should raigne ouer man and man not feele it
that strange Lords who can claime no right vnto him should tirannize ouer him and hee not endeauour to vvithstand it and that Sathan should leade him away in Captiuitie bound with chaines euen the cords of sinne blinder then Zedekiah hauing his eyes pulled out and man should not lament for it But where the spirit of the Lord is there is liberty and freedome there is a knowledge and detestation of sinne and a sighing to God for deliuerance from the Bondage The Prophet Ezechiel could not see the abhominable idolatries of the house of Israell till the Lord taught him to digge through the wall but we shall be farre lesse able to see the vile abhominations that are in our owne hearts vntill the spirit of the Lord digge through demolish that thick and hard wall of induration that naturallie hideth vs from the sight of our sins and keepeth vs in blindnesse vnder Sathans bondage The other thing whereby we are to proceede in this tryall is the word of God for euery thing that is imperfect must be tryed by another not by it self gold is tryed by the fire touch stone the weight of a thing is tryed by the ballance and the spots of the face are tryed by the glasse Thus euery imperfect thing that is tryed is tryed by another not by it selfe As to the law of God it is a most perfect rule by which God will haue men and their actions tryed but it is to be tryed by no other then it selfe If any man will trie scripture he must with the Nobles of Beraea trie it by the scripture so then the word serueth vnto vs as a touchstone for our tryall as a glasse for discouery of our spots as the ballance of the sanctuarie wherein we must bee weighed in the last day the secrets of all hearts will be iudged by the Gospell and therefore it were good that in time wee did iudge our selues by it some trie themselues by it some tâ—…ye themselues by themselues supposing they are such indeed as they haue conceiued themselues to be some againe measure themselues by others speciallie with such as in their opinion are behind them not with such as in light and grace doe farre excell them like that Pharisie who when hee came to examine himselfe before God thought he was good enough because he was not like the Publican wherein hee was also miserablie deceiued for suppose he spake the truth yet spake it ignorantlie as Caiaphas saide that one behooued to die for the people hee was not like the Publican indeede the Publican was much better then hee for hee came to the temple humble and penitent and went home to his house iustified whereas the Pharisie puft vp with a conceit of his own righteousnesse and iustifying himselfe went away out of the Temple more guiltie then he came In the tryall therfore of thy selfe make not thy neighbours disposition thy rule least thou in like manner be deceiued And yet if thou wouldst profit by the example of others remember it is a great follie to thinke that thou art religious enough because in religion some are behind thee and not rather to bee displeased with thy wants when thou seest so many before thee enriched aboue thee in all spirituall grace and haue profited more then thou in the mortification of their sinfull lusts hauing out run thee further in the way of Gods commaundements then that other Disciple ouer-ran Peter vnto Christs Sepulchre to learne his resurrection It is pittie that the Sonnes of men in worldlie things can looke to those who are aboue them thinking they haue little because they haue not so much as others yet in spirituall things they should looke to others that are inferior to them and so easily stand content with the little beginning of religion they haue because there be many who in their iudgement haue not so much whereas certainly if we could try our selues by the right rule wee should finde that as yet wee are farre from that which wee should bee and therefore haue more neede then that holy Apostle To forget that which is behinde indeauour our selues to that which is before following hard toward the marke for the prise of the high calling of God in Christ Iesus We haue therfore heere yet farther to obserue that seeing the Apostle commaunds vs to try our selues wee thinke it not enough that others try vs and giue vs their approbation we must also try our selues The Pastors may try thy knowledge and thinke it good enough thy superiors may try thy conuersation and finde it vnreprouable of man But thou must try thy owne conscience for no man knowes the things of a man saue the spirit of man the minde of a man will shew him more sometime then seauen watchmen that are in a tower When this sacrament was first instituted there were twelue who communicated with the Lord Iesus and one of them was a Diuell and a traiterous hypocrite the remnant knew him not therefore could not reproue him but that made not Iudas the better man yet the fault which man could not finde out the Lord discouered it one of you said he will betray me Thinke it not therefore enough albeit vnchallenged of man thou maiest sit downe at the Lords table Remember the king will come take a view of the Guests euen he who is the God of the Spirits of all flesh and to whom the secrets of the heart are manifest Iosaphats garment cannot hide Achab from him hee is not blinde like Isaac that hee should bee deceiued to take one for another therefore try thou thy selfe how thou commest to this holy table whether as Iohn louing Iesus and beloued of him or as Iudas betraying Christ and accursed of him for as Christ foretolde them that one of them was a Diuell so the Apostle hath foretolde vs that many will eate and drinke vnvnworthily at this holy table who they are wee know not yet are they known to the Lord let euery one of vs striue to purge one euerie man trie himselfe and wash his hart from his wickednes and so shall we be all cleane let euery man aske for himselfe with the Disciples is it I Lord am I one of them that comes to betray thee to crucifie thee againe to tread the blood of the new Testament vnder my feete let vs neuer rest til we haue gotten the Lords certificate in our consciences and that after due triall of our selues wee come not as Hypocrites vnpenitent and vnbeleeuing Atheists but as diseased and poore sinners to seeke the Lord Iesus the Sauiour of the world for if wee doe so then shall we get that answere which the Angell gaue to the two Maries feare not ye because ye seeke Iesus who was crucified we shall eate at this Table and be satisfied shall goe away not without feare indeede but hauing our feare tempered with great
is none of vs all but wee haue in vs our owne Idol whereunto many times we do seruice to the great offence of God And albeit this narrow tryall of our sins shall discouer to vs a wonderfull discoâ—…dance betweene our nature and the most holy law of the Lord yet let vs not be discouraged considering that wee are best in the eyes of God when we are worst in our owne eyes and most acceptable to him when we are most displeased with our selues The Lord was mooued euen with Achab his temporall humiliation seest thou not said he to Eliah how Achab is humbled before mee because hee submitteth himselfe before mee I will not bring that euill which thou hast spoken in his daies and will not then the Lord much more bee mooued with the true humiliation of his owne Seruants No doubt if wee cast downe our selues before the Lord he shall lift vs vp if wee humble our selues he shall exalt vs. If we iudge our selues we shall not be iudged of the Lord for the Lord is neare to them that are contrite will saue such as are afflicted in spirit But if wee come before the Lord in the presumption of our minds and not touched with the sence of our sinnes then shall hee execute that fearefull threatning vpon vs I will enter into iudgement with thee because thou sayest I haue not sinned though thou wert high exalted like the Caedars of Lebanon and the Oakes of Bashan proud and hautie in thy conceit the Lord shall abase thee and bring thee low for hee is the Lord that resisteth the proud giueth grace to the humble The other poynt of our tryall and preparation stands in putting on that three-fold Christian disposition that towards our God wee bee holy and heauenly minded towards our neighbour louing righteous and mercifull and as concerning our selues that wee be sober and lowly for so the grace of God which hath appeared teacheth vs that we should deny vngodlinesse and wordly lusts and should liue godly righteously and soberly in this present world This is our wedding garment euen that pure fine and shining linnen which is the righteousnesse of the Saints A Garment not partie coloured like Iosephs but compact of many vertues graces of Christ Iesus These be his badges and Cognisances whereby vvee are knowne to bee his the putting on of these is the putting on of Christ for his grace translateth vs out of nature and transformeth vs into his image by his owne spirit And first as concerning our disposition towards God it should not onely be holy as I haue said but also heauenly for since wee call him our Father which is in heauen vvee must see vvhat heauenly disposition vve haue to goe after him and whether wee be weary of our absence from the Lord like Dauid weary of his dwelling in the Tents of Keder and desire with the Apostle to remoue out of the body that wee may dwell with the Lord for here is not the place of our rest The best of our life vpon earth except it be the little tast of that hid Manna wherewith the Lord now and then comforteth our soules in this barren Wildernesse it is but like the life of that forlorne Sonne who hauing banished himselfe from his fathers house vvas driuen to fill his belly vvith the huskes that was giuen to the Swine oftentimes could not get them Wee haue experience enough of the vanitie of worldly comforts wherein there is no contentment would to God vvee could also learne with that prodigall Son to be think our selues and conclude to make home againe to our fathers house in whose face is the fulnesse of ioy surely the least of them that dwell in our Fathers house haue bread enough they are filled with the fatnesse of his house and receiue drinck out of the riuers of his pleasures what pleasure then should it be to vs to liue here in this strange Land where our soules are almost dead for hunger There is no greater thankfulnesse that man can shew to the Lord then to declare in his affection that he cannot liue vvithout the Lord nor rest content so long as hee is absent from him The Lord in the vvorke of creation neuer rested till hee had made man and man can doe no lesle of duty then passing by all Gods Creatures to resolue with himselfe I vvill neuer rest till I enioy the Lord. The Soule of man should bee like that Doue of Noah vvhich being sent forth from the arke found no rest to the sole of her foot vntill she returned againe to him that sent her and indeed without the Lord where can wee rest Goe thy way with Salomon and proue all the goodnesse of the children of men which they inioy vnder the Sunne thou shalt finde it is but vanitie and vexation of Spirit whatsoeuer man cleaâ—…eth to beside Iehouah the true subsisting Lord it is but a lying vanitie which hath not in it that substance and certaintie which man imagineth yea man without God in his best estate is altogether vanitie and his wisest actions are but a disquieting of himselfe in vaine It is a godly saving of Augustine which the word of God and experience taught him Fâ—…isli nos Domine ad tâ—… semper inquietum est cor nostrum donâ—… requiâ—…at in te thou madest vs O Lord vnto thy selfe and our heart is euer vnquiet till it rest in thee The wicked vvho are strangers from the wombe pretend in their countenance vvhat they will yet euen in laughter their heart is sad for there is no ioy nor peace to the wicked saith my God their heart is moued as the Trees of tâ—…e Forrest shaken with the Winde As the point of the Marriners compasse so long as it is not direct to the North trembles continually so the spirit of the wicked not set vpon the Lord is neuer quiet but tossed too and fro with restlesse perturbations which in a part presently he feeles but shall better perceiue it when he goeth out of the body For tribulation and anguish shal be on the soule of euery man that doth wickedly this is the portion of them that forsake God and wander after vanitie It is good therefore for vs to draw neere vnto God saying with Dauid whom haue I in the heauen but thee and I haue desired none in the earth with the. The Lord worke this heauenly disposition in vs. And now to helpe forward ouâ—… earthly minds vnto it we haue to consider both the time space when and where our Sauiour did institute this sacrament The place is recorded by Saint Luke to haue beene an vpper Parlour the consideration of the place saith Nazianzin doth some way warne vs that wee should celebrate this holy sacrament with high heauenly affections When God gaue the law hee came downe from heauen to the top
were not vvorthy of the least and hath set vs downe as Sonnes and Daughters and Heires at the Table of his children that were not vvorthy as dogs and whelps to creepe vnder it haue vve not cause to crie out with Dauid O Lord what is man that this manner of way thou art mindfull of him Elizabeth maruailed that Mary came to visite her and in the humility of her heart cryed out Whence commeth this that the mother of my Lord should come vnto mee but we haue more cause to maruell at the maruailous mercies of the Lord for what are we that the fairest among the Children of men should be delighted with our loue and our Lord should come to visit the base estate of his Seruants communicate himselfe his light his life and his grace vnto vs Let no man thinke that I haue multiplied these places of scripture vvithout a cause The beginning of the diuision betweene vs and the Lord slowed from the pride of our nature vnlesse vve humble our selues and bee content in our minde to sit lower then dust and ashes by reason of our sin it is not possible vve can bee vnited with the Lord This is the councell that in fevv vvords Michah giueth vnto vs He hath shewed thee O man what is good and what the Lord requireth of thee surely to doe iustly and to loue mercie to humble thy selfe to walke with thy God The Lord is indeed a most high God yet he is nearest vnto them and they goe soonest vp vnto him who are least in their owne eyes and tremble at his words And beside this inward humiliation arising of the sence of our own vnworthinesse let vs come with a hunger thirst of the Lord his righteousnesse saluation For he will satisfie the hungry but the full he sendeth away emptie onely they that haue the spiritual appetite hunger thirst are meete to be communicants at this holy table As that oyle multiplyed by Elisha ceased not so long as the widdow had any vessell wherein to receiue it so shall neuer that oyle of grace decay but be multiplyed and increased vnto all that with open and inlarged hearts are ready to receiue it Thou therefore who art more ready to faint for spirituall hunger then was Ionathan come hether put out the hand of faith eate of this hony make thee full and thou that art sicke with the Spouse in the Canticles for the loue of Iesus come hether and the Lord shall stay thee with the flagons of his wine Art thou almost dead like that Egyptian the Seruant of an Amalekite whom Dauid found in the fields take and eate of this bread and thy Spirit shall returne againe vnto thee But alas where is this spirituall appetite to be found amongst vs the deadnes of our hart is lamentable wee see not our wants wee see not his beauty wee smell not his oyntments wee tast little of his goodnesse and therefore we make not hast to run after him Dauid mourned ouer the dead body of Abner but alas if wee could wee haue much more cause to mouâ—…ne ouer our dead soules Oh that there were in vs that holy desire which Dauid protesteth to haue beene in him My soule fainteth for the saluation of God As the Hart brayeth for the riuers of waters and thirstie ground desireth raine so my soule panteth after the liuing God Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for his righteousnesse for they shall bee satisfied These onely are the guests and banquetters that shall eate of the delicates which here hee hath prepared and whose soule shall bee delighted with his fatnesse These shall goe from this Table as Moses came downe from Mount Sinai his countenance changed They shall arise with Eliah and walke on in the strength of this bread all the whole dayes of their pilgrimage They shall goe on in their way with Sampson eating of the hony which they haue found They shall depart from this Table as the two Maryes did from the Sepulcher with great ioy These shall goe home to their owne houses iustified with the Publican reioycing because they haue found a treasure and hath felt the sweetnesse of this Manna they shall not bee able to conceale this great ioy from Israell but shall be forced to tell euery Nathaniell whom they meete We haue found the Messiah And in all time to come their soule shall cleaue to the Lord without separation more straightly then the men of Iudah and Ierusalem cleaued vnto Dauid their King They shall say to the Lord as Elizeus said to Eliah As the Lord liueth and as thy soule liueth I wil not leaue thee and with Peter whither O Lord shall I goe from thee seeing thou hast the words of eternall life The Lord worke this spirituall disposition in vs for Iesus Christs sake to whom with the Father and the holy Spirit be all honour praise and glory for euer FINIS A Table wherein all the Chapters of the three forenamed Bookes are particularly set downe 1. Iacobs wrestling with God A Priuiledge of the Godly that say God is with them none can bee against them to hurt them Chap. 1 Gods fatherly compassion appeares in that he handles vs most tenderly when we are weakest Chap. 2 The cause mouing the Lord to appeare to Iacob at this time Chap. 3 The first circumstance the time of the wrestling Chap. 4 The second circumstance the persons betweene whom the wrestling is Cha. 5 Consolations for the Godly afflicted Chap. 6 Comfort for Christs souldiers Chap. 7 The third circumstance the manner of the wrestling corporall spirituall or mixt Chap. 8 How we should behaue our selues in this tentation we are taught Chap. 9 Let vs euer leane to the word of God how strange soeuer his worke seeme vnto vs. Chap. 10 Verse 25. And when he saw that he could not preuaile Chap. 11 Vers. 26. And he said let me go Chap. 12 What notable effects the felt presence of God bringeth with it Chap. 13 The presence or absence of God is euer dispensed for the weale of his owne Children Chap. 14 How their inward exercises of conscience workes in the godly a diuorcement of their soules from all Creatures and a neerer adherent to the Lord. Cha. 15 Prayers of the Godly must be forcible acceptable to God seeing they come from his owne Spirit Chap. 16 Iacob cannot end till God haue blessed him Chap. 17 Faith through death espies life Chap. 18 The Godly in their prayers aboue all things seeke Gods fauour and blessing Chap. 19 Worldlings in their Prayers dishonour God and preiudges themselues Chap. 20 Faith obtaines euery good thing that it craues Chap. 21 Verse 27. Then he said It is the curse of the wicked to pray and not preuaile but it is not so with the Godly Chap. 22 The Lord by inward exercises of conscience makes his children strong to