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see_v what_o god_n in_o his_o word_n say_v to_o such_o isa_n 50.10_o who_o be_v among_o you_o that_o fear_v the_o lord_n that_o â—eyeth_v the_o voice_n of_o his_o servant_n that_o walk_v 〈◊〉_d darkness_n and_o have_v no_o light_n let_v he_o â—ust_z in_o the_o name_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o stay_v upon_o â—…s_n god_n here_o be_v a_o certain_a remedy_n for_o nose_n that_o be_v in_o darkness_n to_o stay_v upon_o their_o god_n and_o here_o be_v a_o duty_n that_o god_n require_v even_o in_o a_o dark_a state_n to_o trust_v in_o his_o name_n second_o they_o may_v be_v as_o to_o their_o own_o apprehension_n in_o a_o very_a hopeless_a and_o helpless_a condition_n but_o yet_o even_o then_o there_o be_v both_o hope_n and_o help_v for_o they_o by_o look_v towards_o the_o holy_a temple_n that_o be_v by_o look_v to_o christ_n and_o believe_v what_o he_o be_v and_o what_o he_o say_v oh_o hear_v that_o sweet_a word_n flow_v from_o his_o lip_n luke_n 4.18_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n be_v upon_o 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cause_n of_o my_o soul_n thou_o have_v redeem_a my_o life_n and_o what_o the_o church_n do_v here_o experience_n all_o afflict_a once_o in_o like_a manner_n shall_v experience_n to_o their_o unspeakable_a joy_n if_o they_o take_v the_o same_o course_n of_o look_v to_o the_o lord_n in_o the_o day_n of_o trouble_n three_o they_o may_v have_v no_o sense_n of_o god_n work_n in_o their_o heart_n which_o yet_o for_o all_o that_o may_v be_v real_o carry_v on_o we_o read_v of_o the_o people_n smite_v their_o breast_n upon_o the_o doleful_a sight_n of_o christ_n agony_n on_o the_o cross_n luke_n 23.48_o but_o many_o poor_a soul_n be_v smite_v their_o breast_n with_o sorrow_n because_o they_o can_v find_v no_o effect_n of_o christ_n death_n in_o their_o heart_n they_o have_v not_o yet_o taâ—ed_v that_o the_o lord_n be_v gracious_a 1_o pet._n 2.8_o and_o therefore_o they_o be_v break_v forth_o into_o hideous_a lamentation_n and_o give_v up_o themselves_o as_o lose_v creature_n oh_o but_o this_o be_v through_o a_o great_a mistake_n there_o may_v be_v a_o bless_a work_n a_o glorious_a work_n begin_v and_o yet_o you_o not_o at_o present_a sensible_a of_o it_o four_o they_o may_v be_v in_o their_o own_o thought_n without_o the_o inâ—â—…ential_a motion_n of_o god_n spirit_n and_o hence_o they_o be_v day_n and_o night_n mourning_n though_o still_o preserve_v and_o not_o consume_v as_o the_o build_v be_v exod._n 3.3_o oh_o how_o many_o do_v look_v upon_o themselves_o in_o no_o better_a a_o condition_n than_o those_o dry_a bone_n which_o god_n show_v the_o prophet_n and_o ask_v he_o whether_o they_o can_v live_v ezek._n 37.3_o 4._o but_o as_o these_o bone_n the_o forsake_a jew_n will_v live_v when_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n blow_v upon_o they_o so_o those_o creature_n that_o be_v at_o present_a dry_a and_o without_o sap_n and_o therefore_o be_v mourn_v in_o secret_a and_o cry_v out_o bitter_o because_o of_o their_o desolate_a state_n shall_v most_o certain_o if_o they_o 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if_o it_o be_v a_o grievous_a thing_n to_o abraham_n to_o send_v away_o his_o son_n and_o the_o bondwoman_n out_o of_o his_o house_n gen._n 21.11_o 12._o oh_o how_o much_o more_o grievous_a be_v it_o to_o poor_a creature_n when_o their_o rest_n be_v go_v peace_n be_v go_v and_o all_o quietness_n be_v go_v from_o they_o in_o such_o a_o perplexity_n be_v jonah_n here_o in_o the_o whale_n belly_n and_o thus_o david_n mournful_o complain_v psalm_n 30.7_o thou_o do_v hide_v thy_o face_n and_o i_o be_v trouble_v it_o be_v not_o a_o small_a but_o a_o very_a sore_n great_a torment_a trouble_n when_o a_o soul_n be_v leave_v in_o the_o dark_a
to_o give_v he_o satisfaction_n next_o time_n i_o preach_v on_o the_o weekday_n several_a member_n come_v into_o my_o house_n after_o sermon_n as_o also_o mrs._n mary_n harrison_n i_o then_o break_v the_o business_n to_o they_o and_o desire_v they_o to_o give_v i_o their_o thought_n upon_o it_o every_o one_o speak_v his_o mind_n some_o be_v violent_a against_o it_o other_o more_z moderate_a on_o the_o forego_n consideration_n but_o in_o short_a they_o go_v away_o without_o come_v to_o any_o result_n after_o they_o be_v go_v precious_a mrs._n mary_n i_o shall_v never_o forget_v it_o take_v i_o by_o the_o hand_n and_o with_o tear_n in_o her_o eye_n very_o earnest_o speak_v the_o follow_a word_n good_a dear_a sir_n beat_v off_o my_o brother_n betsworth_n from_o go_v to_o the_o wedding_n and_o i_o will_v do_v what_o i_o can_v to_o make_v up_o his_o loss_n these_o be_v her_o very_a word_n but_o the_o manner_n of_o speak_v they_o and_o the_o agony_n of_o her_o spirit_n in_o speak_v they_o 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you_o and_o all_o that_o read_v this_o tract_n will_v harken_v with_o i_o to_o what_o john_n hear_v rev._n 14.17_o and_o i_o hear_v a_o voice_n from_o heaven_n say_v unto_o i_o write_v bless_a be_v the_o dead_a which_o die_v in_o the_o lord_n from_o henceforth_o yea_o say_v the_o spirit_n that_o they_o may_v rest_v from_o their_o labour_n and_o their_o work_n do_v follow_v they_o ah_o this_o holy_a virgin_n be_v one_o of_o the_o bless_a dead_a that_o do_v rest_n from_o her_o labour_n of_o sorrow_n and_o anguish_n for_o sin_n and_o her_o work_n of_o faith_n repentance_n and_o love_n do_v follow_v she_o this_o heavenly_a lamb_n when_o she_o escape_v the_o gin_n that_o satan_n lay_v and_o after_o be_v let_v in_o jehovah_n court_n oh_o how_o she_o dread_a sin_n its_o fear_n do_v pierce_v her_o soul_n and_o make_v her_o body_n thin_a seven_o as_o after_o conviction_n she_o have_v a_o dread_n of_o sin_n of_o any_o sin_n so_o more_o especial_o of_o her_o own_o sin_n of_o her_o former_a 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