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my_o fortune_n and_o course_n where_o to_o dwell_v what_o to_o sell_v or_o keep_v what_o to_o disparke_n what_o and_o how_o to_o build_v at_o or_o to_o forbear_v which_o to_o a_o near_a consideration_n make_v no_o little_a anxiety_n whether_o to_o keep_v house_n or_o not_o find_v my_o wife_n and_o self_n unfit_a for_o it_o and_o yet_o as_o unfit_a to_o sojourn_v what_o physician_n to_o use_v and_o course_n to_o take_v to_o recover_v health_n whether_o i_o shall_v adventure_v to_o buy_v employment_n which_o seem_v necessary_a to_o my_o active_a spirit_n though_o my_o life_n in_o my_o conceit_n be_v desperate_a whether_o to_o adventure_v upon_o a_o strong_a diversion_n by_o a_o course_n in_o court_n and_o how_o far_o to_o comply_v with_o the_o time_n which_o little_o comply_v with_o my_o discourse_n whether_o to_o keep_v or_o break_v a_o rash_a vow_n of_o importance_n that_o cost_v i_o dear_a this_o and_o much_o more_o may_v well_o oppress_v a_o melancholy_a mind_n my_o diversion_n appear_v as_o fruit_n of_o a_o vain_a and_o prodigal_a disposition_n but_o alas_o they_o be_v nothing_o less_o i_o hope_v still_o to_o have_v recover_v myself_o and_o then_o i_o can_v have_v thrive_v well_o enough_o i_o be_v not_o unknown_a nor_o want_v a_o easy_a way_n to_o preferment_n but_o it_o please_v god_n by_o weaken_v i_o by_o confound_v i_o to_o bring_v i_o to_o he_o bless_a be_v his_o name_n i_o reckon_v it_o a_o supreme_a happiness_n etc._n etc._n november_n 8._o 1637._o truth_n exactness_n and_o perfection_n be_v oar_n of_o a_o rich_a mine_n but_o lie_v so_o deep_a that_o they_o often_o hardly_o recompense_v the_o labour_n of_o their_o extraction_n my_o end_n be_v not_o so_o much_o to_o vindicate_v as_o to_o give_v some_o true_a knowledge_n of_o myself_o and_o shake_v off_o the_o burden_n of_o my_o mind_n to_o my_o pen_n and_o paper_n it_o be_v unfit_a for_o i_o and_o i_o for_o it_o and_o yet_o i_o can_v avoid_v it_o and_o this_o be_v one_o of_o the_o unreconcilable_a property_n of_o my_o condition_n i_o write_v not_o to_o please_v i_o write_v not_o for_o ostentation_n and_o if_o i_o do_v praetulerim_fw-la scriptor_n delirus_fw-la inersque_fw-la videri_fw-la quam_fw-la sapere_fw-la &_o ringi_fw-la it_o be_v too_o true_a that_o the_o fine_a curious_a affect_a shoe_n often_o wring_v the_o foot_n high_a seat_n mind_n be_v brave_a and_o airy_a but_o low_a one_o quiet_a romae_fw-la tibur_n amo_fw-la ventosus_fw-la tibure_n romam_fw-la be_v a_o production_n of_o a_o fine_a but_o windy_a melancholy_a spirit_n will_v i_o be_v a_o idolater_n i_o will_v sacrifice_v to_o quiet_a and_o dulness_n i_o will_v affect_v wit_n and_o curiosity_n in_o nothing_o but_o to_o repent_v my_o sin_n and_o please_v my_o god_n gracious_a god_n it_o be_v thy_o infinite_a power_n and_o spirit_n that_o work_v in_o all_o thing_n vegetable_a and_o sensible_a creature_n in_o and_o at_o their_o first_o production_n without_o any_o discourse_n of_o they_o teach_v they_o their_o nourishment_n their_o sustentation_n thou_o be_v omni-present_a omniscient_a omnipotent_a assist_v i_o good_a god_n in_o my_o discourse_n in_o my_o resolution_n of_o dedicate_a myself_o whole_o unto_o thou_o etc._n etc._n november_n 9_o 1637._o go_v now_o presumptuous_a and_o overween_a man_n boast_v in_o thy_o prerogative_n of_o reason_n and_o nature_n confound_v thyself_o in_o thy_o own_o way_n and_o invention_n nature_n may_v lead_v thou_o to_o pleasure_n and_o profit_n and_o so_o common_o it_o do_v the_o most_o base_a and_o vulgar_a spirit_n but_o it_o must_v be_v a_o extraordinary_a supernatural_a spirit_n that_o can_v make_v thou_o thrive_v to_o this_o and_o a_o better_a world_n this_o the_o natural_a man_n discern_v not_o and_o the_o fool_n can_v understand_v but_o this_o the_o school_n of_o experience_n as_o well_o as_o of_o faith_n teach_v we_o thou_o oh_o god_n be_v the_o god_n of_o nature_n but_o the_o way_n of_o nature_n and_o religion_n be_v so_o diverse_a that_o it_o be_v a_o kind_n of_o irreligion_n to_o seek_v or_o measure_v thou_o in_o nature_n course_n the_o course_n of_o thy_o spirit_n and_o judgement_n run_v another_o way_n they_o thy_o decree_n thy_o grace_n be_v all_o supernatural_a and_o wonderful_a to_o thou_o be_v ascribe_v all_o wisdom_n justice_n power_n and_o majesty_n and_o here_o my_o most_o gracious_a god_n i_o humble_o thank_v thou_o for_o thy_o merciful_a and_o wonderful_a support_n through_o my_o whole_a course_n to_o my_o body_n to_o my_o mind_n to_o my_o fortune_n for_o it_o equal_v any_o thing_n that_o i_o can_v call_v strange_a that_o i_o have_v subsist_v through_o all_o my_o storm_n and_o suffering_n without_o have_v incur_v utter_a scorn_n and_o ruin_n shipwreck_n be_v not_o ill_o escape_v with_o loss_n and_o a_o good_a haven_n at_o last_o be_v not_o a_o little_a joy_n though_o thy_o storm_n have_v all_o past_a over_o i_o and_o see_v i_o have_v use_v this_o term_n of_o the_o psalm_n i_o can_v let_v pass_n how_o most_o apposite_a and_o accommodate_v i_o have_v find_v many_o of_o they_o to_o my_o condition_n as_o the_o 88_o and_o divers_a other_o in_o my_o friend_n be_v remove_v far_o from_o i_o and_o sundry_a other_o passage_n lord_n i_o humble_o thank_v thou_o that_o thou_o have_v so_o make_v my_o face_n ashamed_a as_o that_o i_o have_v get_v and_o find_v thou_o and_o find_v that_o of_o thy_o very_a mercy_n and_o faithfulness_n i_o have_v be_v trouble_v i_o can_v now_o call_v thou_o the_o god_n of_o my_o salvation_n my_o countenance_n and_o confidence_n for_o i_o have_v find_v the_o beam_n of_o thy_o mercy_n so_o to_o comfort_v i_o in_o darkness_n and_o misery_n as_o that_o i_o doubt_v not_o to_o apply_v to_o myself_o as_o well_o the_o psalm_n of_o consolation_n as_o i_o have_v do_v those_o of_o complaint_n and_o distress_n i_o can_v now_o look_v upon_o all_o this_o world_n glory_n pleasure_n and_o vanity_n with_o contempt_n and_o pity_n continue_v thy_o mercy_n and_o i_o have_v heaven_n upon_o earth_n thou_o be_v perfection_n of_o philosophy_n thou_o be_v the_o true_a summum_fw-la bonum_fw-la in_o thou_o be_v all_o fullness_n all_o joy_n humane_a discourse_n and_o resolution_n can_v do_v much_o but_o first_o motion_n and_o surprise_v upon_o the_o mind_n disturb_v nature_n concoction_n and_o the_o spirit_n even_o in_o mere_a nullity_n of_o conceit_n in_o despite_n of_o a_o firm_a faith_n and_o reason_n it_o be_v from_o god_n alone_o to_o prevent_v they_o to_o allay_v they_o tentation_n be_v often_o above_o the_o power_n of_o flesh_n and_o blood_n to_o resist_v the_o melancholy_a humour_n be_v most_o violent_a in_o hot_a and_o active_a spirit_n and_o constitution_n there_o it_o estuate_v there_o it_o ferment_n and_o boil_n how_o it_o suggest_v confound_v resolve_n and_o then_o again_o forget_v the_o circumstance_n of_o a_o former_a resolution_n and_o by_o forgetfulness_n or_o a_o new_a predominancy_n of_o humour_n relapse_n to_o a_o fresh_a rumination_n and_o confusion_n upon_o the_o same_o subject_n melancholy_n at_o the_o first_o be_v a_o querulous_a humour_n but_o in_o extremity_n it_o wrap_v itself_o in_o silence_n and_o exceed_v expression_n it_o dwell_v in_o inward_a conflict_n hope_n by_o god_n grace_n the_o best_a prepare_v for_o the_o worst_a november_n 9_o 1637._o how_o gracious_a and_o good_a o_o god_n be_v thou_o that_o will_v be_v find_v in_o trouble_n and_o become_v the_o relief_n of_o that_o calamitous_a soul_n which_o have_v neglect_v thou_o in_o the_o time_n of_o seem_a prosperity_n thy_o wonder_n appear_v in_o the_o deep_a and_o out_o of_o the_o deep_a thou_o be_v call_v upon_o the_o deep_a of_o distress_n the_o deep_a of_o melancholy_n discover_v the_o wonder_n of_o thy_o judgement_n of_o thy_o power_n and_o mercy_n even_o as_o the_o star_n and_o glory_n of_o the_o heaven_n be_v discern_v out_o of_o a_o deep_a well_o not_o otherwise_o appear_v lord_n with_o what_o a_o fullness_n do_v i_o labour_v to_o express_v thy_o glory_n and_o my_o comfort_n even_o in_o that_o temper_v i_o or_o i_o shall_v be_v confound_v ipsa_fw-la faelicitas_fw-la se_fw-la nisi_fw-la temperate_a premit_fw-la vouchsafe_v to_o demonstrate_v in_o i_o by_o my_o life_n and_o action_n what_o my_o pen_n can_v express_v what_o be_v say_v of_o fortune_n be_v true_a of_o god_n occaecat_fw-la hominum_fw-la animos_fw-la cum_fw-la vim_o svam_fw-la ingruentem_fw-la refringi_fw-la non_fw-la vult_fw-la according_a to_o god_n determinate_a counsel_n we_o discern_v or_o be_v blind_a we_o judge_v resolve_v and_o execute_v aright_o or_o lose_v and_o confound_v ourselves_o in_o error_n and_o folly_n thy_o decree_n o_o lord_n be_v irresistible_a november_n 11._o 1637._o have_v i_o be_v leave_v a_o freedom_n in_o myself_o or_o be_v constant_a to_o my_o own_o discourse_n and_o inclination_n in_o the_o order_n of_o my_o way_n it_o may_v have_v be_v worldly_a fortune_n enough_o unto_o
ourselves_o and_o what_o grace_n will_v bear_v and_o comport_v with_o it_o become_v so_o enfeeble_v in_o health_n and_o fortune_n that_o there_o remain_v nothing_o but_o to_o wish_v a_o happy_a return_n to_o our_o heavenly_a country_n and_o as_o those_o northern_a climate_n be_v find_v only_o inhabit_v by_o wild_a crafty_a and_o ravenous_a beast_n so_o be_v the_o world_n incompatible_a to_o a_o honest_a sincere_a religious_a disposition_n heaven_n be_v the_o proper_a sphere_n of_o goodness_n and_o perfect_a sanctification_n i_o be_o content_v not_o to_o destroy_v these_o paper_n because_o they_o carry_v in_o they_o many_o great_a grace_n and_o good_a motion_n of_o god_n spirit_n upon_o i_o and_o will_v or_o may_v like_o so_o many_o picture_n hereafter_o serve_v to_o show_v and_o witness_v i_o as_o well_o to_o myself_o as_o to_o other_o what_o then_o i_o be_v even_o through_o their_o crude_a unpremeditate_v unreview_v confusion_n which_o with_o the_o employment_n of_o some_o more_o accurate_a labour_n and_o diligence_n i_o confess_v i_o may_v correct_v but_o have_v satisfy_v myself_o in_o their_o private_a production_n i_o be_o content_v to_o let_v they_o pass_v lame_a and_o disorder_a as_o they_o be_v some_o also_o may_v make_v happy_a use_n of_o my_o unhappy_a observation_n and_o error_n december_n 7._o 1637._o as_o he_o that_o travel_v towards_o a_o mountainous_a country_n climb_v one_o hill_n discover_v still_o more_o and_o far_o both_o in_o prospect_n and_o to_o be_v ascend_v or_o like_o sisyphus_n his_o stone_n still_o beget_v new_a labour_n so_o be_v there_o no_o end_n of_o writing_n infinite_a have_v be_v the_o write_n and_o may_v be_v upon_o the_o melancholy_a subject_n and_o innumerable_a have_v be_v my_o suffering_n and_o conflict_n in_o it_o more_o than_o be_v fit_a to_o be_v revolve_v or_o relate_v wherefore_o i_o must_v desist_v no_o humour_n be_v more_o eager_o set_v upon_o entertainment_n diversion_n and_o delight_n none_o more_o necessary_o require_v and_o urge_v it_o but_o thus_o incident_a be_v it_o unto_o it_o to_o trouble_v and_o infest_v itself_o in_o its_o entertainment_n hardly_o moderate_v hardly_o contain_v and_o satisfy_v they_o have_v need_v to_o be_v such_o as_o be_v of_o a_o nature_n to_o entertain_v the_o mind_n without_o over-busying_a the_o fancy_n idleness_n be_v pernicious_a and_o business_n cumbersome_a god_n good_a assistance_n and_o spirit_n must_v be_v the_o best_a and_o only_o support_v and_o guide_v how_o subtle_a and_o witty_a in_o far_o fetch_v and_o strain_v apprehension_n and_o impression_n be_v the_o melancholy_a taint_a spirit_n to_o its_o own_o hurt_n and_o disturbance_n without_o god_n help_n and_o a_o firm_a faith_n and_o resolution_n to_o oppose_v it_o it_o be_v incapable_a to_o maintain_v itself_o there_o be_v no_o end_n in_o set_v down_o incidence_n and_o conceit_n as_o they_o obtrude_v themselves_o it_o be_v best_a in_o this_o case_n to_o be_v abrupt_a crush_a of_o this_o root_n afford_v inexhaustible_a juice_n but_o of_o importune_v malign_v and_o venomous_a effect_n man_n spirit_n be_v infinite_a and_o so_o our_o discourse_n november_n 29._o 1637._o and_o now_o most_o gracious_a god_n i_o render_v unto_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n most_o humble_a thanks_o for_o thy_o wonderful_a preservation_n to_o this_o day_n for_o as_o i_o have_v discern_v thy_o extraordinary_a supereminent_a hand_n in_o humble_v i_o i_o have_v no_o less_o participate_v of_o thy_o mercy_n in_o my_o relief_n even_o then_o when_o i_o have_v be_v bring_v so_o low_a that_o both_o in_o body_n and_o mind_n i_o have_v conceive_v myself_o incapable_a of_o all_o humane_a help_n or_o evasion_n this_o have_v often_o transport_v i_o to_o a_o ecstasy_n and_o admiration_n of_o thy_o infinite_a goodness_n it_o have_v teach_v i_o to_o be_v other_o than_o such_o as_o resent_v not_o thy_o way_n and_o judgement_n how_o thou_o be_v all_o in_o all_o the_o author_n of_o all_o but_o especial_o good_a motion_n many_o who_o feel_v not_o the_o motion_n of_o their_o heart_n in_o ordinary_a do_v yet_o in_o a_o extraordinary_a trouble_n and_o distemper_n of_o the_o spirit_n take_v notice_n how_o then_o it_o beat_v within_o they_o and_o how_o by_o the_o motion_n of_o it_o they_o move_v and_o be_v glad_a to_o comfort_n and_o strengthen_v it_o so_o fare_v it_o with_o man_n neglect_v the_o motion_n of_o thy_o spirit_n within_o they_o by_o which_o in_o their_o best_a prosperity_n they_o ought_v to_o move_v in_o tribulation_n they_o resent_v it_o they_o be_v glad_a to_o comfort_v it_o and_o seek_v their_o supreme_a comfort_n from_o it_o thy_o providence_n be_v the_o current_n in_o which_o we_o all_o insensible_o move_v all_o our_o sail_n and_o oar_n can_v carry_v we_o out_o of_o it_o he_o be_v a_o ignorant_a navigator_n who_o know_v not_o this_o thou_o oh_o god_n be_v the_o star_n the_o loadstone_n the_o neptune_n of_o our_o voyage_n in_o this_o world_n be_v thou_o my_o current_n my_o guide_n and_o to_o thou_o be_v all_o my_o sacrifice_n flexanimity_n be_v thou_o alone_o and_o but_o for_o the_o favour_n of_o thy_o good_a spirit_n i_o have_v be_v shipwrack_v upon_o a_o thousand_o rock_n i_o have_v be_v put_v to_o encounter_v cross_a wind_n and_o wave_n the_o leviathan_n of_o disease_n and_o that_o like_o a_o vessel_n without_o mast_n sailes_n oar_n or_o stern_a or_o at_o least_o totter_a and_o disable_v in_o all_o my_o natural_a furniture_n my_o spirit_n waste_v my_o blood_n consume_v etc._n etc._n yet_o through_o all_o these_o defect_n all_o these_o storm_n thou_o have_v appear_v my_o mighty_a deliverer_n redeem_v i_o from_o the_o swallow_n of_o infinite_a threaten_a gulf_n etc._n etc._n the_o plant_n may_v attribute_v growth_n to_o its_o own_o virtue_n but_o what_o be_v it_o without_o the_o sun_n or_o what_o motion_n have_v the_o heart_n of_o man_n but_o by_o god_n grace_n etc._n etc._n december_n 2._o 1637._o the_o melancholy_a humour_n be_v of_o the_o nature_n of_o what_o be_v 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