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in_o god_n through_o he_o for_o pardon_v mercy_n and_o renew_v grace_n and_o all_o other_o good_a thing_n dec._n 16._o i_o find_v the_o lord_n gracious_o present_a with_o i_o in_o my_o morning_n meditation_n on_o my_o bed_n and_o my_o soul_n be_v much_o refresh_v with_o mr._n simond_n sermon_n god_n speak_v a_o suitable_a word_n by_o he_o to_o my_o soul_n from_o mat._n 15._o 23._o but_o he_o answer_v she_o not_o a_o word_n god_n may_v sometime_o defer_v to_o give_v a_o answer_n to_o a_o gracious_a and_o well_o qualify_v prayer_n 1._o to_o correct_v our_o
of_o the_o lord_n supper_n i_o find_v god_n gracious_a to_o i_o in_o preparation_n in_o the_o morning_n when_o i_o awake_v god_n bring_v to_o my_o remembrance_n jer._n 2._o 32._o can_v a_o maid_n forget_v her_o ornament_n or_o a_o bride_n her_o attire_n i_o consider_v i_o be_v to_o meet_v and_o sup_v with_o my_o bridegroom_n the_o lord_n jesus_n and_o then_o consider_v what_o ornament_n and_o attire_n will_v best_o please_v he_o that_o i_o may_v put_v they_o on_o and_o these_o be_v present_v to_o my_o thought_n some_o as_o i_o lie_v in_o bed_n and_o some_o afterward_o as_o lovely_a and_o desirable_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o christ_n which_o i_o determine_v to_o put_v on_o 1_o sy_n a_o meek_a and_o quiet_a spirit_n 1_o pet._n 3._o 4._o 2_o lie_n faith_n cant._n 4._o 9_o thou_o hash_fw-mi ravish_v my_o heart_n my_o sister_n my_o spouse_n with_o one_o of_o thy_o eye_n faith_n have_v the_o office_n of_o a_o eye_n in_o the_o soul_n joh._n 6._o 40._o every_o one_o that_o see_v and_o believe_v look_v unto_o jesus_n heb_n 12._o 2._o 3_o lie_v love_n cant._n 4._o 10._o how_o fair_a be_v thy_o love_n my_o sister_n etc._n etc._n 4_o lie_v humility_n math._n 11._o 29._o learn_v of_o i_o for_o i_o be_o lowly_a in_o heart_n 5_o lie_v self-denial_n and_o forsake_v of_o every_o thing_n that_o come_v in_o competition_n with_o christ_n ps_n 45_o 10_o 11._o harken_v o_o daughter_n and_o consider_v forget_v thy_o own_o people_n and_o thy_o father_n house_n so_o shall_v the_o king_n great_o desire_v thy_o beauty_n 6_o lie_v a_o obediential_a frame_n of_o heart_n math._n 10._o 20_o 21._o all_o these_o have_v i_o observe_v from_o my_o youth_n jesus_n behold_v he_o love_v he_o 7_o lie_v a_o heart_n resolve_v to_o hold_v and_o maintain_v frequent_a converse_n and_o communion_n with_o he_o cant._n 2._o 14_o let_v i_o see_v thy_o countenance_n let_v i_o hear_v thy_o voice_n for_o sweet_a be_v thy_o voice_n and_o thy_o countenance_n be_v comely_a 8_o lie_v uprightness_n prov._n 11._o 20._o 9_o lie_n a_o holy_a fear_n of_o god_n and_o hope_n in_o his_o mercy_n ps_n 147._o 11._o 10_o lie_n fruitfulness_n cant._n 4._o 16_o 5._o 1._o but_o though_o god_n gracious_o assist_v i_o in_o preparation_n yet_o in_o the_o time_n of_o receive_v my_o heart_n be_v flat_a and_o dead_a as_o soon_o as_o the_o sacrament_n be_v end_v i_o retire_v to_o my_o chamber_n to_o to_o pray_v and_o as_o i_o be_v pray_v that_o scripture_n be_v bring_v to_o my_o remembrance_n rom._n 3._o 3_o 4._o shall_v their_o unbelief_n make_v the_o faith_n of_o god_n of_o none_o effect_v god_n forbid_v i_o argue_v thence_o that_o the_o sin_n of_o my_o holy_a thing_n my_o deadness_n and_o want_n of_o holy_a and_o due_a affection_n in_o time_n of_o receive_v shall_v not_o make_v void_a what_o god_n have_v promise_v in_o and_o by_o this_o ordinance_n but_o that_o the_o cup_n be_v to_o i_o the_o communion_n of_o the_o blood_n of_o christ_n and_o the_o new_a testament_n in_o his_o blood_n and_o the_o breed_v the_o communion_n of_o the_o body_n of_o christ_n this_o do_v strengthen_v my_o faith_n to_o depend_v upon_o god_n for_o the_o benefit_n signify_v and_o seal_v by_o that_o ordinance_n notwithstanding_o the_o indisposition_n of_o my_o heart_n in_o the_o time_n of_o receive_v sept._n 29._o as_o i_o be_v muse_v on_o that_o rich_a promise_n make_v to_o abraham_n gen._n 15._o 1._o fear_v not_o abraham_n i_o be_o thy_o shield_n and_o thy_o exceed_a great_a reward_n which_o be_v sufficient_a to_o bear_v up_o the_o soul_n under_o the_o fear_n and_o danger_n of_o any_o evil_n and_o against_o the_o loss_n and_o want_n of_o any_o good_a thing_n i_o consider_v what_o warrant_n i_o have_v to_o apply_v that_o promise_n and_o present_o that_o scripture_n be_v hint_v to_o i_o gal._n 3._o 9_o they_o which_o be_v of_o faith_n be_v bless_v with_o faithful_a abraham_n i_o be_v strengthen_v and_o comfort_v by_o it_o twice_o in_o this_o weak_a i_o observe_v that_o set_v upon_o worldly_a business_n which_o call_v hasty_o upon_o i_o before_o i_o have_v be_v at_o closet_n prayer_n and_o perform_v my_o usual_a meditation_n on_o the_o covenant_n and_o promise_n of_o god_n my_o heart_n grow_v out_o of_o frame_n and_o unsavoury_a and_o i_o be_v successless_a on_o both_o day_n oct._n 1._o sabbath_n day_n at_o my_o entrance_n on_o my_o morning_n meditation_n on_o god_n covenant_n i_o have_v a_o great_a combat_n in_o my_o spirit_n about_o my_o lay_v claim_n to_o god_n as_o my_o god_n have_v be_v late_o foil_v by_o my_o sin_n but_o god_n help_v i_o and_o show_v i_o out_o of_o his_o word_n that_o i_o may_v and_o ought_v to_o keep_v my_o hold_n of_o god_n as_o my_o god_n notwithstanding_o my_o often_o backslide_n from_o he_o jer._n 3._o 1_o 5_o 7_o 8._o yet_o v._n 19_o say_v god_n thou_o shall_v call_v i_o my_o father_n hos_n 2._o 5._o with_o 16._o the_o same_o evening_n consider_v how_o often_o and_o great_o i_o have_v sin_v and_o yet_o have_v be_v forgive_v i_o ponder_v on_o that_o scripture_n luke_n 7_o 47._o and_o see_v that_o i_o have_v cause_n to_o love_v the_o lord_n much_o because_o i_o have_v much_o forgive_v and_o consider_v how_o i_o shall_v show_v my_o love_n to_o god_n and_o that_o much_o these_o scripture_n be_v hint_v to_o i_o ps_n 40._o 16._o let_v such_o as_o love_v thy_o name_n say_v continual_o let_v the_o lord_n be_v magnify_v ps_n 97._o 10._o you_o that_o love_v the_o lord_n hate_v evil_a joh._n 14._o 10._o if_o you_o love_v i_o keep_v my_o commandment_n joh._n 21._o 15._o simon_n love_v thou_o i_o feed_v my_o sheep_n feed_v my_o lamb_n lord_n help_v i_o thus_o to_o show_v much_o love_n to_o thou_o oct._n 8._o have_v be_v overtake_v with_o the_o sin_n which_o easy_o beset_v i_o and_o have_v often_o foil_v i_o my_o spirit_n fall_v and_o my_o faith_n flag_v and_o i_o can_v not_o look_v upon_o god_n with_o any_o boldness_n be_v indispose_v to_o prayer_n yet_o in_o time_n of_o prayer_n god_n magnify_v his_o free_a grace_n to_o i_o and_o revive_v my_o soul_n with_o that_o word_n 1_o joh._n 2._o 1_o 2._o if_o any_o man_n sin_n we_o have_v a_o advocate_n etc._n etc._n after_o i_o have_v end_v my_o supplication_n i_o ponder_v on_o that_o scripture_n and_o be_v comfort_v against_o the_o sense_n of_o my_o sin_n by_o the_o advocateship_n of_o jesus_n christ_n who_o plead_v his_o propitiatory_a sacrifice_n as_o a_o satisfaction_n to_o his_o father_n justice_n for_o the_o sin_n of_o believer_n as_o oft_o as_o they_o fall_v into_o they_o and_o query_v with_o myself_o whether_o he_o will_v be_v a_o advocate_n to_o i_o to_o plead_v for_o i_o i_o be_v satisfy_v from_o that_o word_n joh._n 6._o 37._o he_o that_o come_v to_o i_o i_o will_v in_o no_o wise_a cast_v out_o i_o be_v also_o further_o encourage_v from_o heb._n 7._o 25._o i_o consider_v that_o the_o intercession_n of_o christ_n answer_v all_o charge_n and_o accusation_n that_o can_v be_v bring_v against_o those_o for_o who_o he_o intercede_v rom._n 8._o 33._o 34._o and_o that_o the_o intercession_n of_o christ_n keep_v we_o â—o_o firm_o in_o the_o love_n of_o god_n that_o nothing_o can_v be_v able_a to_o separate_v we_o from_o it_o rom._n 8._o 34._o 35_o 38_o 39_o i_o consider_v further_a that_o the_o person_n for_o who_o he_o intercede_v be_v such_o as_o come_v to_o god_n by_o he_o and_o that_o he_o intercede_v for_o they_o at_o all_o time_n when_o they_o be_v fall_v as_o well_o as_o when_o they_o stand_v when_o they_o be_v dead_a as_o well_o as_o when_o in_o a_o lively_a frame_n for_o he_o ever_o live_v to_o make_v intercession_n after_o these_o meditation_n my_o spirit_n revive_v and_o notwithstanding_o i_o be_v before_o bow_v down_o under_o the_o sense_n of_o guilt_n i_o go_v with_o boldness_n to_o god_n lean_v upon_o the_o merit_n and_o intercession_n of_o jesus_n christ_n oct._n 13._o my_o spirit_n be_v bow_v down_o with_o the_o sense_n of_o guilt_n because_o i_o be_v foil_v by_o a_o sin_n against_o which_o i_o have_v pray_v many_o year_n i_o be_v revive_v in_o read_v in_o my_o course_n 2_o cor._n 12._o 7_o 8_o 9_o whence_o i_o observe_v 1_o st_z god_n see_v it_o needful_a for_o some_o of_o his_o servant_n to_o meet_v with_o buffet_n 2_o lie_n when_o god_n le_fw-fr we_o loose_v any_o corruption_n a_o thorn_n in_o the_o flesh_n or_o a_o temptation_n a_o messenger_n of_o satan_n to_o buffet_v we_o it_o be_v to_o keep_v we_o humble_a and_o from_o be_v exalt_v 3_o lie_n god_n suffer_v his_o faithful_a servant_n sometime_o to_o pray_v long_o against_o corruption_n or_o temptation_n and_o yet_o can_v get_v it_o remove_v 4_o lie_n though_o my_o strength_n be_v not_o
and_o miserable_a to_o die_v in_o sin_n in_o a_o state_n of_o sin_n in_o the_o guilt_n of_o sin_n under_o the_o reign_n and_o power_n of_o sin_n in_o the_o arm_n and_o embrace_n of_o sin_n sin_n be_v the_o transgression_n of_o a_o righteous_a law_n the_o violation_n of_o infinite_a holiness_n and_o justice_n and_o rebellion_n against_o divine_a majesty_n and_o authority_n it_o always_o have_v demerit_n and_o guilt_n consequent_a upon_o it_o which_o oblige_v and_o bind_v the_o sinner_n to_o undergo_v that_o punishment_n which_o be_v natural_o due_a to_o it_o which_o punishment_n be_v death_n rome_n 1._o 32._o they_o which_o commit_v such_o thing_n be_v worthy_a of_o death_n thus_o sin_n become_v the_o weapon_n or_o sting_n of_o death_n by_o which_o it_o have_v power_n to_o destroy_v death_n come_v upon_o the_o sinner_n as_o a_o bailiff_n or_o sergeant_n from_o the_o judge_n with_o warrant_n to_o apprehend_v and_o bring_v the_o sinner_n to_o give_v account_n or_o as_o a_o executioner_n to_o take_v vengeance_n to_o pay_v the_o sinner_n the_o just_a wage_n of_o his_o sin_n for_o the_o reparation_n of_o a_o break_a law_n for_o the_o satisfaction_n of_o offend_a justice_n for_o the_o declaration_n of_o divine_a hatred_n and_o displeasure_n against_o sin_n and_o for_o the_o manifestation_n of_o god_n glorious_a power_n and_o wrath_n against_o the_o guilty_a and_o what_o a_o terror_n must_v death_n needs_o be_v when_o it_o appear_v in_o this_o shape_n and_o arm_v with_o this_o sting_n know_v o_o presumptuous_a and_o secure_a sinner_n though_o wickedness_n be_v now_o sweet_a in_o thy_o mouth_n and_o thou_o hide_v it_o under_o thy_o tongue_n though_o thou_o swallow_a down_n delicious_o thy_o forbid_a morsel_n of_o sensual_a pleasure_n and_o worldly_a gain_n yet_o this_o meat_n will_v soon_o be_v turn_v in_o thy_o bowel_n and_o become_v the_o gall_n of_o asp_n within_o thou_o at_o last_o at_o death_n it_o will_v bite_v as_o a_o serpent_n and_o sting_v like_o a_o adder_n what_o horror_n will_v fill_v thy_o soul_n when_o approach_a death_n shall_v awaken_v thy_o sleepy_a conscience_n as_o oft_o time_n it_o do_v and_o thy_o awaken_v conscience_n shall_v charge_v thou_o with_o thy_o inexcusable_a transgression_n of_o a_o righteous_a law_n thy_o gross_a neglect_n of_o command_a duty_n thy_o industerious_a provision_n to_o satisfy_v the_o flesh_n thy_o ready_a compliance_n with_o the_o call_n of_o temptation_n thy_o irreparable_a loss_n of_o precious_a time_n thy_o hypocritical_a deal_n with_o god_n in_o covenant_n the_o stop_v of_o thy_o ear_n at_o the_o voice_n of_o conscience_n the_o shut_n of_o thy_o eye_n against_o the_o light_n of_o scripture_n the_o harden_v of_o thy_o heart_n against_o the_o motion_n of_o the_o spirit_n thy_o unbelieve_a refusal_n of_o a_o offer_a saviour_n thy_o unprofitable_a misimprovement_n of_o mean_n of_o grace_n thy_o unthankful_a abuse_n of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n and_o obstinate_a incorrigibleness_n under_o his_o judgement_n with_o many_o other_o instance_n of_o multiply_a and_o aggravate_v sin_n through_o a_o long_a life_n whence_o will_v arise_v dismal_a apprehension_n of_o the_o wrath_n of_o a_o offend_a god_n a_o certain_a fearful_a expectation_n of_o judgement_n to_o come_v and_o a_o pre-occupation_n of_o eternal_a torment_n and_o everlasting_a burn_n this_o be_v that_o sting_n of_o death_n the_o weapon_n wherewith_o it_o be_v arm_v against_o thou_o wherein_o consist_v its_o power_n and_o by_o which_o it_o be_v so_o terrible_a 2._o add_v to_o this_o the_o strength_n which_o this_o sting_n have_v from_o the_o law_n for_o say_v the_o apostle_n the_o strength_n of_o sin_n be_v the_o law_n and_o that_o two_o way_n 1_o sy_n as_o the_o law_n discover_v and_o convince_v of_o sin_n rom._n 5._o 13._o sin_n be_v not_o impute_v where_o there_o be_v no_o law_n man_n be_v not_o prone_a to_o charge_v themselves_o with_o sin_n where_o there_o be_v no_o law_n therefore_o gal._n 3._o 19_o the_o law_n be_v add_v because_o of_o transgression_n that_o be_v to_o make_v transgression_n appear_v hence_o we_o read_v rom._n 3._o 20._o by_o the_o law_n be_v the_o knowledge_n of_o sin_n and_o rom._n 7._o 9_o 13._o i_o be_v alive_a without_o the_o law_n once_o in_o my_o own_o opinion_n but_o when_o the_o commandment_n come_v sin_n revive_v and_o i_o die_v i_o be_v convince_v i_o be_v in_o a_o state_n of_o sin_n and_o death_n and_o v_o 13._o sin_n by_o the_o commandment_n become_v exceed_o sinful_a thus_o sin_n as_o the_o sting_n of_o death_n be_v strengthen_v by_o the_o law_n while_o man_n thereby_o be_v more_o clear_o and_o full_o convince_v of_o it_o and_o the_o great_a the_o conviction_n be_v the_o sharp_a be_v the_o sting_n 2_o lie_n as_o the_o law_n curse_v and_o condemn_v the_o sinner_n gal._n 3._o 10._o curse_a be_v every_o one_o that_o continue_v not_o in_o all_o thing_n which_o be_v write_v in_o the_o book_n of_o the_o law_n to_o do_v they_o hence_o as_o before_o rom._n 7._o 9_o when_o the_o commandment_n came._n i_o die_v and_o 2_o cor._n 3._o 7._o the_o law_n be_v call_v the_o ministration_n of_o death_n the_o law_n bind_v the_o sinner_n over_o to_o the_o judgement_n of_o the_o great_a day_n it_o hold_v he_o fast_o under_o his_o guilt_n without_o hope_n of_o pardon_n pass_v sentence_n of_o condemnation_n upon_o he_o and_o begin_v the_o execution_n by_o wound_v the_o spirit_n terrify_v the_o soul_n with_o pre-apprehension_n and_o foreta_v of_o the_o wrath_n to_o come_v the_o sum_n of_o the_o terror_n of_o death_n be_v this_o approach_v death_n awaken_v the_o secure_a conscience_n awaken_v conscience_n charge_v with_o the_o guilt_n of_o sin_n this_o sin_n be_v strengthen_v with_o a_o convince_v curse_a law_n the_o die_a wretch_n see_v his_o day_n of_o sensual_a delight_n and_o pleasure_n his_o day_n of_o worldly_a gain_n and_o purchase_n his_o day_n of_o carnal_a fellowship_n with_o man_n and_o especial_o his_o day_n of_o grace_n and_o mercy_n with_o god_n pass_v 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