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the_o root_n feed_v a_o tree_n who_o branch_n be_v few_o and_o small_a in_o respect_n to_o the_o all-seeing_a god_n be_v glory_n for_o with_o we_o but_o through_o he_o dwell_v nothing_o but_o darkness_n error_n frailty_n and_o ignorance_n november_n 4._o 1637._o my_o gracious_a god_n the_o support_n and_o guide_v of_o we_o and_o all_o our_o action_n since_o thou_o have_v vouch_v save_v to_o grant_v i_o a_o firm_a and_o happy_a faith_n in_o christ_n and_o love_n of_o thou_o with_o a_o contempt_n of_o all_o earthly_a and_o carnal_a joy_n confirm_v unto_o i_o i_o most_o humble_o beseech_v thou_o thy_o heavenly_a grace_n and_o the_o comfort_n of_o thy_o good_a spirit_n for_o i_o abhor_v myself_o whensoever_o that_o joy_n fail_v i_o or_o any_o worldly_a affection_n assault_v i_o none_o more_o than_o i_o know_v their_o vanity_n their_o unsoundnesse_n their_o emptiness_n of_o all_o true_a and_o perfect_a satisfaction_n such_o as_o leave_v i_o ever_o to_o seek_v ever_o unquiet_a till_o such_o 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at_o thy_o good_a pleasure_n set_v a_o period_n to_o that_o life_n which_o i_o only_o hold_v in_o expectation_n of_o a_o happy_a discharge_n and_o dissolution_n by_o thou_o amen_o amen_n november_n 5._o 1637._o a_o physician_n once_o tell_v i_o upon_o repair_n to_o he_o for_o my_o disease_n that_o i_o be_v to_o resort_v to_o god_n call_v upon_o he_o for_o his_o grace_n and_o guide_v myself_o by_o he_o or_o to_o like_a effect_n i_o think_v it_o then_o strange_a and_o improper_a in_o his_o profession_n but_o i_o have_v find_v it_o speak_v like_o my_o good_a angel_n for_o there_o be_v no_o such_o anchor_n nor_o such_o receipt_n to_o a_o trouble_a to_o a_o agitate_a soul_n the_o melancholy_a humour_n once_o predominant_a in_o despite_n of_o judgement_n and_o resolution_n will_v obtrude_v importunate_a thought_n and_o fancy_n take_v occasion_n from_o almost_o every_o object_n to_o make_v a_o troublesome_a and_o discourse_a impression_n make_v thing_n otherwise_o of_o easy_a resolution_n 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and_o divide_v the_o fancy_n and_o with_o a_o divulsion_n breed_v a_o kind_n of_o convulsion_n in_o the_o spirit_n and_o a_o solution_n of_o that_o sweet_a continuity_n and_o harmony_n which_o god_n have_v ordain_v natural_a unto_o we_o original_a and_o actual_a sin_n inhabit_v in_o we_o deserve_v that_o and_o much_o other_o punishment_n if_o god_n of_o his_o great_a grace_n and_o indulgence_n give_v we_o not_o a_o clew_n of_o his_o thread_n to_o guide_v we_o we_o be_v confound_v and_o lose_v in_o this_o world_n labyrinth_n he_o be_v we_o and_o the_o world_n prop_n and_o if_o it_o have_v not_o please_v he_o wonderful_o to_o assist_v and_o support_v i_o with_o extraordinary_a strength_n of_o resolution_n and_o his_o good_a spirit_n i_o have_v a_o thousand_o time_n perish_v in_o my_o error_n and_o confusion_n wild_a affection_n which_o lead_v grave_a reason_n by_o the_o nose_n have_v undo_v i_o a_o vertiginous_a spirit_n and_o my_o own_o weight_n and_o strength_n have_v oppress_v i_o and_o well_o may_v i_o miscarry_v see_v the_o strong_a spirit_n be_v in_o the_o multiformity_n of_o their_o discourse_n most_o obnoxious_a to_o find_v reason_n to_o fortify_v themselves_o in_o the_o gross_a obliquity_n to_o we_o in_o propriety_n be_v all_o sensuality_n vanity_n foolish_a presumption_n sophistication_n and_o corruption_n of_o truth_n with_o innumerable_a exorbitancy_n and_o folly_n but_o to_o god_n only_o good_a only_o wise_a just_a merciful_a and_o omnipotent_a be_v ascribe_v all_o honour_n and_o glory_n for_o evermore_o amen_o amen_n good_a god_n i_o be_o the_o work_n of_o thy_o hand_n and_o now_o happy_o of_o thy_o good_a spirit_n let_v thy_o mercy_n work_v with_o i_o and_o upon_o i_o to_o the_o end_n and_o eternity_n tot_o contra_fw-la unum_fw-la caput_fw-la conspirantibus_fw-la quis_fw-la potuissetresistere_fw-la nisi_fw-la dei_fw-la optimi_fw-la maximi_fw-la speciali_fw-la gratia_fw-la aspirante_fw-la there_o have_v need_n in_o truth_n be_v a_o extraordinary_a supply_n and_o support_v of_o reason_n and_o grace_n against_o the_o strange_a and_o strong_a fond_a impression_n of_o the_o melancholy_a humour_n november_n 25._o 1637._o it_o be_v say_v that_o if_o a_o horse_n can_v be_v equal_o place_v to_o provender_n on_o each_o side_n of_o he_o he_o will_v soon_o starve_v then_o resolve_v i_o be_v ambiguous_o constitute_v balance_v in_o disposition_n betwixt_o contemplation_n and_o action_n thrift_n and_o comeliness_n pleasure_n of_o the_o body_n and_o mind_n vice_n and_o virtue_n country_n town_n and_o court_n private_a or_o public_a course_n of_o life_n and_o no_o wonder_n if_o dubia_fw-la torquent_fw-la the_o world_n be_v a_o riddle_n a_o entangle_a skaine_n vexatious_a to_o extricate_v to_o intend_v our_o mind_n and_o affection_n much_o upon_o it_o be_v as_o well_o misery_n as_o vanity_n it_o pay_v we_o with_o a_o cloud_n in_o stead_n of_o juno_n torment_n in_o stead_n of_o contentment_n we_o often_o lose_v substance_n for_o shadow_n and_o felicity_n by_o over-searching_a it_o there_o be_v a_o proportion_n of_o wit_n most_o conducible_a to_o this_o world_n resolution_n and_o happiness_n if_o we_o exceed_v or_o come_v short_a of_o that_o element_n either_o the_o height_n and_o fineness_n of_o the_o air_n agree_v not_o with_o our_o lung_n and_o subsistence_n or_o we_o be_v dampt_v and_o suffocate_v in_o a_o over_o earthly_a and_o phlegmatic_a dulness_n as_o in_o square_a pave_v stone_n such_o only_o endure_v the_o earth_n and_o open_a weather_n as_o be_v neither_o overhard_a nor_o soft_a so_o be_v it_o in_o the_o temper_n of_o man_n spirit_n for_o the_o undergo_n of_o this_o world_n incident_n happy_a such_o as_o most_o slight_o pass_v through_o it_o yea_o god_n himself_o require_v that_o we_o esteem_v it_o as_o but_o a_o passage_n to_o eternity_n a_o point_n a_o nothing_o in_o respect_n he_o only_o can_v fill_v and_o satisfy_v the_o curious_a soul_n i_o can_v be_v sorry_a that_o the_o pleasure_n of_o this_o life_n concern_v i_o neither_o in_o use_n nor_o affection_n when_o i_o consider_v their_o sting_n their_o molestation_n and_o emptiness_n compare_v with_o the_o sweet_a comfort_n of_o god_n favour_n and_o the_o blessedness_n of_o everlasting_a life_n there_o like_o the_o upper_a region_n dwell_v all_o peace_n purity_n and_o glory_n here_o all_o corruption_n meteor_n of_o imperfect_a mixtion_n storm_n and_o calamity_n there_o be_v our_o true_a country_n and_o region_n where_o when_o god_n shall_v have_v refine_v we_o we_o shall_v live_v and_o shine_v more_o glorious_a than_o the_o star_n i_o have_v promiscuous_o specify_v the_o cause_n and_o original_n of_o my_o melancholy_a disease_n i_o be_v deep_o engage_v in_o it_o before_o i_o suspect_v it_o and_o have_v give_v so_o much_o way_n to_o it_o to_o take_v root_n in_o i_o as_o make_v the_o cure_n most_o difficult_a it_o be_v a_o goliath_n but_o we_o must_v not_o like_a david_n fight_v against_o it_o with_o our_o own_o arm_n
though_o the_o melancholic_a patient_n have_v a_o wolf_n by_o the_o ear_n of_o his_o disease_n trouble_v in_o hold_v and_o stir_v and_o unsafe_a to_o let_v go_v yet_o i_o esteem_v it_o a_o poor_a resolution_n to_o suffer_v a_o root_a mischief_n which_o be_v present_o noxious_a and_o will_v more_o and_o more_o grow_v dangerous_a upon_o fear_n of_o adventure_n where_o there_o be_v any_o the_o least_o hope_n of_o deliver_v ourselves_o in_o supportable_a evil_n admit_v and_o excite_v rather_o to_o any_o hazard_n than_o a_o miserable_a toleration_n a_o hopeless_a condition_n be_v most_o calamitous_a a_o well-built_a body_n will_v endure_v and_o work_v out_o very_o much_o like_o a_o good_a ship_n against_o soul_n weather_n at_o sea_n i_o i_o thank_v god_n be_v such_o that_o have_v not_o my_o mind_n like_o a_o evil_a steersman_n infinite_o even_o of_o late_a be_v injurious_a unto_o it_o i_o have_v by_o god_n grace_n infallible_o prevail_v both_o against_o my_o giant_n disease_n and_o infinite_a intervening_a unfriendly_a accident_n but_o by_o god_n help_n i_o daily_o mend_v and_o hope_v to_o leap_v over_o the_o wall_n nil_fw-la desperandum_fw-la in_o christo_fw-la nil_fw-la auspice_n christo._n l'industrie_n est_fw-fr de_fw-fr nous_fw-fr l'heâ—rex_fw-la suceez_fw-fr de_fw-fr dieu_fw-fr december_n 11._o 1637._o to_o give_v we_o courage_n in_o misfortune_n it_o be_v well_o say_v of_o fortune_n that_o her_o course_n be_v irregular_a and_o that_o we_o ought_v not_o to_o despair_v of_o she_o for_o often_o when_o she_o appear_v to_o threaten_v we_o with_o imminent_a ruin_n she_o be_v true_o in_o the_o article_n and_o catastrophe_n of_o our_o good_a and_o advantage_n it_o be_v more_o verify_v in_o the_o way_n of_o god_n nothing_o more_o ordinary_a with_o he_o then_o by_o humble_v we_o to_o exalt_v we_o and_o to_o strew_v the_o path_n to_o heaven_n with_o affliction_n caesar_n animate_v his_o pilot_n by_o carry_v he_o and_o his_o fortune_n it_o be_v a_o vain_a 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nothing_o more_o than_o that_o of_o his_o abundant_a mercy_n he_o have_v be_v please_v to_o lead_v i_o through_o sea_n through_o wilderness_n of_o trouble_n and_o error_n by_o a_o cloud_n by_o fire_n by_o the_o thunder_n of_o his_o voice_n by_o infinite_a wonder_n for_o near_o forty_o year_n together_o to_o bring_v meat_n last_o to_o his_o happy_a land_n of_o promise_n that_o be_v to_o peace_n joy_n and_o repose_v in_o he_o where_o alone_o flow_v all_o true_a happiness_n and_o fix_a contentment_n there_o can_v in_o truth_n be_v no_o constant_a courage_n without_o a_o firm_a faith_n and_o assurance_n of_o god_n favour_n towards_o we_o that_o alone_o fortify_v we_o against_o danger_n darkness_n and_o death_n december_n 12._o 1637._o it_o be_v true_o say_v that_o we_o know_v so_o much_o as_o we_o put_v in_o practice_n nor_o be_v the_o notion_n and_o float_a impression_n of_o the_o brain_n without_o a_o through_o tincture_n of_o the_o heart_n and_o soul_n any_o effectual_a science_n and_o so_o it_o be_v that_o virtue_n be_v constitute_v a_o habit_n and_o not_o only_o a_o babble_a scientifical_a discourse_n of_o the_o mind_n until_o i_o consider_v this_o i_o often_o wonder_v to_o see_v the_o best_a clerk_n often_o the_o worst_a man_n as_o well_o as_o none_o of_o wise_a man_n read_v and_o study_v common_o rather_o for_o curiosity_n to_o censure_v to_o learn_v language_n and_o the_o course_n and_o manner_n of_o the_o world_n to_o maintain_v a_o side_n to_o gain_v bread_n and_o knowledge_n like_o other_o man_n rather_o than_o truth_n virtue_n and_o piety_n to_o gather_v opinion_n and_o to_o appear_v good_a rather_o than_o to_o be_v propound_v to_o ourselves_o wrong_v object_n no_o wonder_n if_o we_o miss_v the_o right_n which_o make_v so_o many_o scholar_n who_o study_n to_o get_v the_o best_a live_n less_o virtuous_a in_o their_o life_n than_o other_o who_o more_o virtuous_o and_o spiritual_o then_o worldly_a affect_v study_v rather_o to_o nourish_v then_o cloth_n to_o 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