acknowledge_v with_o soul_n heart_n and_o conscience_n if_o thou_o saveâ—_n i_o it_o be_v a_o miracle_n and_o if_o thou_o reâ—_n fuse_v it_o be_v but_o just_a justice_n assure_v myself_o in_o forbear_v thy_o chastise_v affection_n i_o shall_v eveâ—_o despair_v of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o be_v confident_a of_o permanent_a punishment_n for_o that_o the_o pencil_n of_o holy_a wriâ—_n which_o will_v not_o be_v violate_v 3.19_o heb._n 12.5_o apoc._n 3.19_o have_v plain_o express_v those_o who_o thou_o receive_v thou_o chastene_v and_o that_o their_o long_o laugh_v must_v be_v turn_v into_o bitter_a mourning_n 6.25_o joel._n 2.12_o luk._n 6.25_o before_o they_o have_v any_o true_a hope_n of_o thy_o grace_n favour_n or_o pardon_n o_o then_o dear_a mediator_n i_o beseech_v thou_o minister_v daily_o on_o i_o thy_o discipline_n correction_n 5._o pro._n 3._o job_n 5._o and_o when_o thou_o think_v it_o meet_v let_v my_o inward_a grief_n be_v my_o joy_n the_o agony_n of_o death_n my_o comfort_n but_o 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