word_n mat._n 12._o the_o unclean_a spirit_n be_v cast_v out_o of_o a_o man_n he_o walk_v about_o seek_v rest_n and_o find_v none_o then_o he_o return_v and_o bring_v 7_o other_o spirit_n with_o he_o worse_o than_o himself_o and_o the_o end_n of_o that_o man_n be_v worse_a than_o his_o beginning_n when_o i_o hear_v this_o my_o heart_n fear_v i_o think_v now_o i_o repent_v of_o my_o many_o sin_n for_o very_o i_o be_o a_o great_a sinner_n and_o i_o have_v offend_v i_o be_o 7_o time_n worse_o than_o before_o i_o pray_v then_o i_o repent_v again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n he_o that_o penitent_o believe_v shall_v be_v save_v and_o then_o my_o heart_n do_v desire_v to_o repent_v and_o believe_v than_o i_o think_v that_o man_n will_v not_o forgive_v i_o and_o therefore_o it_o be_v not_o good_a to_o abide_v in_o this_o place_n but_o i_o remember_v that_o i_o have_v learned_a to_o read_v the_o word_n and_o if_o i_o shall_v forsake_v my_o friend_n i_o shall_v lose_v the_o word_n of_o god_n then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n repent_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n be_v at_o hand_n my_o heart_n say_v o_o let_v it_o be_v so_o and_o then_o my_o heart_n rest_v but_o yet_o quick_o it_o be_v unquiet_a again_o then_o i_o do_v strong_o desire_v to_o repent_v of_o my_o sin_n i_o hear_v that_o word_n that_o god_n sow_a good_a seed_n but_o evil_a seed_n be_v sow_v by_o the_o enemy_n and_o such_o be_v in_o my_o heart_n and_o as_o in_o my_o field_n there_o be_v many_o root_n and_o weed_n which_o spoil_v the_o corn_n and_o i_o pluck_v they_o up_o and_o cast_v they_o out_o my_o heart_n say_v very_o just_a so_o be_v my_o heart_n the_o word_n be_v but_o a_o little_a in_o my_o heart_n and_o there_o be_v many_o ill_a root_n in_o i_o and_o therefore_o god_n may_v just_o cast_v i_o out_o from_o among_o his_o people_n because_o of_o my_o many_o sin_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v and_o now_o i_o forsake_v my_o sin_n who_o have_v be_v a_o great_a sinner_n now_o i_o beg_v of_o christ_n o_o give_v i_o thy_o spirit_n that_o i_o may_v confess_v my_o sin_n before_o god_n and_o not_o only_o before_o man_n again_o i_o remember_v that_o i_o can_v pardon_v or_o help_v myself_o but_o only_o christ_n must_v help_v i_o again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n all_o manner_n of_o sin_n shall_v be_v forgive_v to_o a_o man_n but_o the_o sin_n against_o the_o holy_a ghost_n shall_v not_o be_v forgive_v in_o this_o world_n nor_o in_o the_o world_n to_o come_v then_o my_o heart_n fear_v because_o many_o and_o great_a be_v my_o sin_n since_o i_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n for_o mercy_n and_o pardon_n and_o then_o i_o think_v i_o will_v pray_v to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v but_o very_o i_o be_o a_o sinner_n for_o i_o be_o guilty_a not_o only_o of_o adam_n sin_n but_o of_o my_o own_o sin_n also_o and_o they_o be_v many_o i_o remember_v that_o in_o catechism_n i_o learn_v that_o god_n make_v a_o covenant_n of_o work_n with_o adam_n do_v the_o command_n and_o thou_o shall_v live_v and_o thy_o seed_n also_o but_o if_o thou_o sin_v thou_o shall_v die_v and_o thy_o seed_n also_o therefore_o by_o that_o i_o know_v i_o be_o a_o sinner_n and_o have_v deserve_v to_o die_v then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n o_o god_n have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o and_o pardon_v i_o again_o i_o hear_v of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n but_o i_o be_o forgetful_a and_o can_v remember_v god_n mercy_n to_o i_o god_n make_v a_o covenant_n with_o abraham_n and_o say_v i_o will_v be_v thy_o god_n and_o the_o god_n of_o thy_o seed_n after_o thou_o than_o my_o heart_n say_v o_o let_v it_o be_v so_o to_o i_o o_o lord_n and_o now_o abraham_n be_v in_o heaven_n who_o believe_v and_o keep_v god_n covenant_n so_o i_o if_o i_o believe_v and_o keep_v god_n covenant_n god_n will_v have_v mercy_n on_o i_o i_o remember_v the_o covenant_n of_o circumcision_n to_o he_o and_o all_o his_o family_n and_o such_o a_o covenant_n i_o desire_v for_o i_o and_o i_o again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o in_o those_o day_n john_n baptise_v in_o jordan_n say_v repent_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n be_v at_o hand_n when_o i_o hear_v this_o my_o heart_n say_v the_o same_o be_v now_o with_o we_o not_o abraham_n sign_n but_o baptism_n and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o repent_v and_o confess_v before_o god_n and_o before_o the_o church_n and_o i_o desire_v not_o only_o to_o confess_v but_o to_o have_v repentance_n and_o faith_n that_o i_o may_v have_v grace_n mercy_n and_o pardon_n and_o such_o repentance_n as_o work_n obedience_n again_o the_o same_o word_n say_v vers._n 6._o they_o be_v baptise_v confess_v their_o sin_n so_o i_o desire_v to_o do_v i_o do_v confess_v before_o god_n and_o desire_v to_o cast_v off_o and_o forsake_v my_o sin_n and_o to_o go_v to_o christ_n the_o promise_n of_o pardon_n be_v to_o they_o that_o penitent_o believe_v and_o rest_n on_o christ_n in_o the_o same_o baptism_n of_o john_n he_o say_v i_o baptise_v you_o with_o water_n but_o he_o that_o come_v after_o i_o be_v mighty_a than_o i_o he_o shall_v baptise_v you_o with_o the_o holy_a ghost_n and_o fire_n now_o this_o baptism_n i_o desire_v and_o not_o to_o receive_v the_o sign_n in_o vain_a i_o desire_v to_o purge_v out_o evil_a thought_n and_o therefore_o i_o confess_v these_o sin_n before_o god_n that_o they_o may_v be_v purge_v and_o i_o desire_v the_o spirit_n of_o god_n may_v dwell_v in_o i_o for_o ever_o to_o turn_v i_o to_o christ_n i_o can_v of_o myself_o do_v any_o of_o these_o thing_n but_o only_o christ_n jesus_n can_v by_o his_o spirit_n in_o i_o again_o i_o hear_v another_o word_n as_o the_o eagle_n be_v about_o a_o carcase_n so_o believer_n come_v to_o christ_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v so_o be_v it_o oh_o lord_n when_o i_o receive_v the_o covenant_n of_o god_n i_o be_o like_o the_o eagle_n when_o i_o come_v to_o christ_n i_o desire_v not_o to_o come_v in_o vain_a but_o if_o i_o feed_v not_o i_o shall_v die_v my_o soul_n will_v die_v then_o i_o great_o beg_v that_o i_o may_v feed_v my_o soul_n on_o christ_n and_o oh_o christ_n send_v thy_o spirit_n into_o my_o heart_n that_o i_o may_v not_o only_o know_v but_o do_v the_o word_n of_o god_n again_o christ_n near_o his_o death_n take_v bread_n and_o bless_v it_o and_o break_v it_o and_o give_v it_o to_o his_o disciple_n and_o say_v take_v you_o eat_v you_o this_o be_v my_o body_n which_o be_v break_v for_o you_o and_o so_o also_o he_o do_v the_o cup_n and_o say_v drink_v you_o of_o it_o this_o be_v the_o cup_n of_o my_o blood_n in_o the_o new_a testament_n which_o be_v shed_v for_o the_o remission_n of_o sin_n now_o this_o believer_n in_o christ_n must_v do_v not_o only_o to_o eat_v bread_n and_o to_o take_v the_o sign_n but_o soul_n food_n therefore_o christ_n send_v his_o spirit_n and_o help_v i_o i_o desire_v to_o receive_v the_o sign_n not_o in_o vain_a but_o to_o help_v my_o faith_n when_o i_o have_v read_v this_o confession_n in_o the_o assembly_n we_o call_v upon_o the_o witness_n as_o before_o we_o do_v who_o answer_n be_v to_o the_o like_a purpose_n as_o before_o wutasakompavin_n he_o be_v next_o call_v forth_o who_o thus_o speak_v help_v i_o oh_o jesus_n christ_n to_o confess_v before_o the_o lord_n oh_o i_o be_o full_a of_o sin_n because_o adam_n sin_n make_v i_o and_o so_o be_v a_o sinner_n in_o my_o mother_n womb_n when_o i_o be_v a_o youth_n i_o find_v many_o sin_n and_o after_o i_o be_v grow_v up_o i_o do_v the_o same_o always_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n i_o live_v in_o sin_n after_o the_o english_a come_v i_o go_v to_o their_o house_n they_o will_v teach_v i_o about_o god_n but_o i_o hate_v it_o and_o go_v out_o i_o do_v not_o love_v such_o teach_n afterward_o the_o minister_n teach_v and_o at_o first_o waban_n persuade_v i_o to_o pray_v and_o teach_v we_o i_o do_v not_o at_o first_o like_o it_o yet_o afterward_o i_o do_v four_o year_n the_o minister_n come_v to_o noonantam_n i_o come_v but_o i_o only_o come_v i_o lose_v all_o he_o teach_v after_o i_o consider_v one_o word_n the_o minister_n say_v that_o god_n send_v he_o to_o teach_v we_o then_o i_o think_v sure_o there_o be_v a_o god_n therefore_o i_o must_v believe_v and_o pray_v a_o little_a i_o believe_v but_o when_o i_o hear_v i_o do_v only_o outward_o hear_v after_o my_o wife_n and_o child_n die_v and_o then_o i_o almost_o cast_v off_o pray_v i_o have_v another_o wife_n and_o she_o die_v also_o
say_v not_o i_o will_v pray_v hereafter_o but_o now_o today_o if_o you_o will_v hear_v his_o voice_n harden_v not_o your_o heart_n but_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o that_o make_v my_o heart_n to_o yield_v to_o do_v it_o then_o i_o understand_v gen._n 2._o that_o god_n form_v man_n out_o of_o the_o dust_n of_o the_o earth_n and_o breathe_v into_o he_o a_o live_a soul_n by_o this_o i_o do_v believe_v that_o god_n make_v i_o and_o i_o hear_v that_o god_n cause_v adam_n to_o sleep_v and_o take_v out_o a_o rib_n and_o make_v it_o a_o woman_n and_o by_o this_o i_o believe_v that_o sure_o this_o be_v the_o work_n of_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o we_o be_v bear_v in_o sin_n under_o the_o guilt_n of_o adam_n sin_n and_o by_o that_o i_o believe_v that_o i_o be_v a_o sinner_n again_o i_o hear_v gen._n 6._o that_o all_o the_o thought_n and_o imagination_n of_o the_o heart_n of_o man_n be_v only_o evil_a continual_o and_o that_o god_n do_v threaten_v to_o destroy_v man_n who_o he_o have_v make_v and_o all_o beast_n and_o live_a creature_n which_o he_o have_v make_v and_o by_o this_o i_o see_v that_o sure_o sin_n be_v a_o very_a great_a evil_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o noah_n find_v grace_n and_o he_o only_o be_v upright_o before_o god_n and_o that_o god_n drown_v all_o the_o world_n except_o noah_n and_o his_o son_n and_o their_o wife_n eight_o person_n this_o do_v make_v i_o remember_v my_o sin_n and_o confess_v they_o and_o i_o see_v that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o sin_n it_o rain_v forty_o day_n and_o so_o drown_v all_o the_o world_n then_o i_o say_v sure_o this_o be_v god_n work_n and_o he_o do_v as_o he_o threaten_v to_o do_v to_o sinner_n and_o the_o same_o may_v god_n do_v to_o i_o who_o be_o a_o sinner_n and_o my_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n and_o evil_a thought_n etc._n etc._n and_o then_o i_o pray_v oh_o god_n be_v not_o angry_a with_o i_o but_o be_v merciful_a to_o i_o and_o show_v i_o what_o i_o shall_v do_v then_o i_o consider_v why_o do_v god_n bid_v noah_n make_v a_o ark_n and_o save_v noah_n and_o his_o son_n and_o their_o wife_n and_o by_o it_o my_o heart_n see_v that_o this_o be_v god_n work_n who_o do_v what_o he_o speak_v and_o have_v mercy_n on_o who_o he_o will_v and_o my_o heart_n think_v do_v god_n pardon_v i_o and_o love_v i_o it_o may_v be_v god_n will_v have_v mercy_n on_o i_o i_o hear_v that_o promise_n mat._n 3._o repent_v and_o believe_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n be_v at_o hand_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v oh_o that_o god_n will_v help_v i_o and_o pardon_v my_o sin_n and_o god_n make_v i_o wonder_v at_o god_n mercy_n to_o i_o i_o hear_v of_o sodom_n and_o their_o great_a sin_n and_o destruction_n and_o that_o do_v make_v i_o to_o remember_v my_o great_a sin_n and_o the_o great_a work_n of_o god_n that_o he_o have_v almost_o kill_v i_o oh_o i_o think_v this_o be_v god_n work_n to_o show_v i_o my_o sin_n and_o as_o god_n save_v lot_n by_o the_o angel_n and_o send_v he_o out_o of_o the_o place_n but_o burn_v sodom_n and_o all_o the_o people_n this_o i_o see_v to_o be_v god_n work_n and_o now_o i_o desire_v to_o fear_v god_n and_o pray_v unto_o he_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o the_o axe_n be_v lay_v to_o the_o root_n of_o the_o tree_n every_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v hew_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n then_o i_o fear_v my_o own_o case_n because_o my_o fruit_n be_v sin_n and_o i_o deserve_v to_o be_v cut_v down_o then_o i_o desire_v to_o believe_v in_o christ_n i_o do_v believe_v that_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n by_o that_o word_n matth._n 4._o satan_n tempt_v christ_n if_o thou_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n etc._n etc._n but_o christ_n conquer_v satan_n and_o therefore_o assure_o he_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n then_o i_o consider_v that_o place_n mat._n 11._o many_o come_v to_o christ_n the_o halt_n and_o blind_a and_o lame_a and_o deaf_a and_o sick_a and_o he_o heal_v all_o and_o if_o they_o do_v but_o touch_n christ_n they_o be_v heal_v and_o therefore_o my_o heart_n believe_v assure_o he_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o therefore_o now_o i_o will_v pray_v and_o oh_o let_v christ_n save_v i_o and_o christ_n have_v promise_v whatever_o you_o ask_v in_o my_o name_n it_o shall_v be_v do_v therefore_o now_o i_o pray_v oh_o christ_n jesus_n pardon_v i_o but_o my_o heart_n be_v weak_a and_o doubt_a and_o i_o can_v believe_v and_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n that_o every_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v cut_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n then_o i_o say_v i_o deserve_v that_o again_o that_o word_n not_o every_o one_o that_o say_v lord_n lord_n but_o he_o that_o hear_v the_o word_n and_o do_v it_o assure_o it_o be_v so_o and_o i_o desire_v not_o only_o to_o hear_v the_o word_n but_o to_o do_v it_o then_o my_o heart_n be_v ashamed_a of_o my_o sin_n and_o grieve_v i_o hear_v that_o word_n matth._n 6._o bless_a be_v thou_o simon_n bar-ionah_n flesh_n and_o blood_n have_v not_o reveal_v this_o unto_o thou_o but_o my_o heavenly_a father_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v yea_o lord_n no_o man_n have_v teach_v i_o christ_n only_a god_n have_v teach_v my_o heart_n to_o know_v christ_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 1._o he_o will_v save_v his_o people_n from_o their_o sin_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v be_v it_o so_o to_o i_o oh_o lord_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o christ_n rise_v again_o the_o three_o day_n with_o a_o earthquake_n and_o the_o watchman_n be_v afraid_a and_o flee_v then_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_o this_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o whosoever_o believe_v in_o christ_n his_o soul_n shall_v go_v to_o heaven_n for_o again_o i_o hear_v of_o the_o ascension_n of_o christ_n and_o more_o than_o five_o hundred_o see_v he_o ascend_v and_o therefore_o i_o believe_v this_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o in_o john_n 14._o no_o man_n come_v unto_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o my_o heart_n answer_v yea_o assure_o oh_o lord_n christ_n be_v the_o way_n to_o believe_v in_o and_o come_v to_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o mat._n 25._o christ_n say_v to_o the_o wicked_a depart_v you_o curse_v i_o say_v god_n may_v just_o say_v so_o to_o i_o and_o send_v i_o to_o eternal_a death_n but_o i_o earnest_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o god_n set_v i_o into_o the_o right_a way_n and_o give_v i_o christ_n that_o i_o may_v ever_o walk_v with_o christ_n for_o i_o be_o poor_a and_o weak_a and_o christ_n promise_v that_o what_o we_o ask_v he_o will_v grant_v and_o i_o say_v let_v god_n do_v with_o i_o what_o he_o will_v but_o i_o beg_v mercy_n in_o christ_n only_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v john_n speen_n this_o i_o confess_v that_o i_o assure_o be_o a_o great_a sinner_n before_o the_o lord_n but_o now_o i_o beseech_v god_n to_o help_v i_o oh_o christ_n lead_v i_o in_o the_o right_a way_n that_o i_o may_v speak_v that_o which_o be_v right_a this_o i_o confess_v that_o before_o we_o pray_v to_o god_n i_o be_v whole_o a_o sinner_n and_o not_o only_o before_o but_o since_o pray_v to_o god_n i_o have_v be_v a_o great_a sinner_n and_o now_o i_o desire_v to_o make_v a_o short_a confession_n for_o we_o desire_v that_o they_o will_v be_v short_a the_o time_n require_v so_o at_o first_o when_o i_o pray_v my_o prayer_n be_v vain_a and_o only_o i_o pray_v with_o my_o mouth_n and_o on_o the_o sabbath_n only_o i_o come_v to_o the_o house_n of_o prayer_n i_o pray_v morning_n and_o evening_n and_o when_o i_o eat_v but_o i_o consider_v not_o what_o i_o pray_v for_o i_o be_v sometime_o angry_a and_o passionate_a about_o worldly_a matter_n and_o i_o be_v trouble_v when_o i_o see_v my_o brother_n be_v choose_v to_o be_v a_o ruler_n who_o be_v young_a than_o i_o because_o now_o i_o see_v that_o i_o be_v a_o sinner_n and_o though_o i_o repent_v yet_o present_o again_o i_o fall_v into_o sin_n therefore_o i_o think_v sure_o god_n have_v cast_v i_o off_o because_o i_o thus_o sin_n and_o still_o my_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n all_o my_o thought_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n all_o my_o talk_n and_o do_n be_v sinful_a but_o now_o of_o late_a about_o 2_o year_n ago_o i_o hear_v this_o word_n mat._n 12._o when_o the_o unclean_a spirit_n be_v cast_v out_o he_o go_v up_o and_o down_o unquiet_a then_o he_o return_v and_o take_v 7_o devil_n with_o he_o worse_o
than_o himself_o and_o dwell_v in_o that_o man_n and_o the_o latter_a end_n of_o that_o man_n be_v worse_a than_o his_o beginning_n when_o i_o hear_v this_o i_o fear_v my_o heart_n fear_v i_o fear_v that_o my_o repentance_n and_o pray_v and_o all_o be_v nought_o and_o that_o god_n have_v almost_o quite_o cast_v i_o off_o then_o i_o consider_v how_o i_o fall_v into_o these_o sin_n i_o remember_v that_o the_o serpent_n do_v deceive_v the_o woman_n and_o she_o the_o man_n and_o thereby_o bring_v sin_n and_o thereupon_o god_n punish_v both_o the_o man_n and_o the_o woman_n hear_v this_o my_o heart_n think_v sure_o i_o be_o a_o great_a sinner_n and_o i_o be_v bear_v in_o sin_n because_o my_o parent_n be_v sinner_n and_o so_o be_o i_o i_o have_v sin_v against_o god_n and_o i_o be_v bear_v in_o sin_n my_o parent_n break_v that_o command_n thou_o shall_v have_v no_o other_o god_n but_o i_o but_o they_o serve_v many_o god_n and_o so_o do_v i_o and_o therefore_o the_o earth_n bring_v forth_o thorn_n and_o weed_n unto_o man_n when_o he_o labour_v therefore_o by_o this_o i_o remember_v my_o troublesome_a life_n and_o all_o be_v because_o god_n be_v offend_v at_o i_o because_o of_o my_o sin_n and_o then_o i_o remember_v that_o many_o of_o my_o child_n be_v dead_a this_o be_v god_n punishment_n on_o i_o because_o of_o my_o sin_n sometime_o man_n punish_v i_o and_o be_v offend_v at_o i_o but_o now_o i_o remember_v my_o sin_n against_o god_n and_o i_o see_v that_o the_o punishment_n of_o god_n be_v a_o great_a matter_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n that_o he_o that_o keep_v his_o word_n shall_v find_v mercy_n i_o think_v so_o it_o be_v indeed_o but_o i_o be_o a_o sinner_n i_o consider_v what_o i_o shall_v do_v because_o i_o be_v a_o sinner_n and_o bear_v in_o sin_n and_o have_v live_v in_o sin_n i_o consider_v assure_o there_o be_v a_o god_n and_o god_n make_v heaven_n and_o earth_n and_o all_o that_o be_v therein_o and_o all_o destruction_n and_o death_n be_v the_o work_n of_o god_n i_o remember_v my_o vain_a pray_n to_o god_n and_o consider_v what_o to_o do_v i_o confess_v my_o sin_n before_o god_n and_o beg_v pardon_n for_o christ_n his_o sake_n i_o do_v find_v i_o can_v not_o deliver_v myself_o but_o christ_n only_o be_v my_o deliverer_n and_o my_o heart_n desire_v to_o believe_v and_o pray_v to_o he_o and_o yet_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v nor_o how_o to_o please_v god_n and_o get_v pardon_n only_o i_o pray_v oh_o christ_n deliver_v i_o because_o i_o be_o a_o sinner_n and_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v then_o i_o remember_v that_o god_n lay_v on_o we_o two_o death_n in_o this_o world_n first_o the_o soul_n be_v dead_a and_o we_o be_v make_v guilty_a of_o adam_n sin_n and_o have_v lose_v god_n image_n and_o hereby_o my_o soul_n be_v a_o fool_n and_o hereby_o my_o soul_n be_v dead_a and_o a_o man_n dead_a can_v do_v nothing_o nor_o speak_v nor_o go_v nor_o stand_v and_o very_o so_o be_v my_o soul_n dead_a and_o i_o shall_v fall_v to_o eternal_a damnation_n by_o sin_n therefore_o now_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n to_o help_v i_o for_o i_o be_o thorough_o a_o sinner_n after_o i_o hear_v that_o god_n pardon_v penitent_a believer_n and_o i_o remember_v the_o word_n of_o jonas_n when_o he_o be_v almost_o cast_v off_o he_o repent_v and_o god_n make_v a_o whale_n to_o eat_v he_o up_o and_o then_o he_o look_v to_o god_n and_o cry_v for_o mercy_n and_o then_o i_o see_v that_o if_o i_o cry_v for_o mercy_n and_o believe_v i_o shall_v have_v pardon_n i_o hear_v that_o christ_n heal_v all_o manner_n of_o disease_n therefore_o i_o believe_v that_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n able_a to_o heal_v and_o pardon_v all_o now_o i_o confess_v i_o know_v nothing_o almost_o nothing_o at_o all_o again_o christ_n say_v he_o that_o be_v not_o with_o i_o be_v against_o i_o my_o heart_n say_v true_a it_o be_v so_o so_o must_v i_o do_v i_o must_v be_v with_o christ_n and_o he_o that_o gather_v not_o scatter_v i_o say_v so_o it_o be_v with_o i_o i_o have_v so_o do_v i_o scatter_v and_o be_o a_o stranger_n to_o christ_n and_o i_o do_v not_o true_o love_v they_o that_o pray_v to_o god_n but_o i_o be_v a_o stranger_n in_o heart_n unto_o they_o but_o now_o i_o desire_v in_o my_o heart_n to_o do_v as_o they_o do_v and_o our_o poor_a teach_n i_o desire_v to_o obey_v it_o and_o do_v what_o god_n bid_v and_o what_o he_o say_v you_o shall_v not_o do_v that_o i_o desire_v not_o to_o do_v but_o yet_o again_o i_o do_v sin_n and_o my_o sin_n trouble_v i_o by_o hear_v the_o word_n of_o god_n and_o yet_o i_o will_v do_v they_o i_o hear_v that_o god_n will_v pardon_v all_o kind_n of_o sin_n that_o man_n sin_n but_o the_o sin_n against_o the_o holy_a ghost_n shall_v not_o be_v pardon_v in_o this_o world_n nor_o in_o that_o which_o be_v to_o come_v then_o i_o fear_v that_o i_o be_v such_o a_o one_o and_o that_o god_n will_v not_o pardon_v i_o then_o i_o earnest_o entreat_v god_n to_o pardon_v and_o deliver_v i_o because_o he_o be_v the_o true_a deliverer_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n that_o they_o that_o be_v well_o need_v not_o the_o physician_n but_o the_o sick_a my_o heart_n say_v true_a i_o do_v even_o so_o i_o seek_v not_o help_v when_o i_o be_v well_o but_o now_o i_o remember_v my_o sin_n and_o now_o my_o soul_n be_v dead_a and_o now_o i_o desire_v that_o my_o soul_n may_v live_v and_o i_o desire_v the_o physician_n of_o my_o soul_n to_o heal_v i_o and_o christ_n will_v not_o in_o vain_a heal_v soul_n but_o such_o as_o convert_v from_o sin_n and_o believe_v in_o christ_n their_o sin_n christ_n pardon_v this_o my_o soul_n do_v earnest_o beseech_v of_o christ_n and_o else_o i_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v again_o i_o hear_v that_o christ_n die_v for_o our_o sin_n when_o we_o be_v sinner_n again_o mat._n 26._o christ_n say_v this_o be_v my_o blood_n of_o the_o new_a testament_n which_o be_v shed_v for_o many_o for_o the_o remission_n of_o sin_n my_o heart_n say_v yea_o lord_n let_v it_o be_v so_o for_o my_o soul_n and_o let_v i_o not_o be_v a_o stranger_n any_o more_o before_o thou_o i_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v lord_n help_n i_o desire_v to_o be_v wash_v from_o all_o my_o filthy_a sin_n and_o to_o be_v baptise_v as_o a_o sign_n of_o it_o i_o be_o as_o a_o dead_a man_n in_o my_o soul_n and_o desire_v to_o live_v ponampam_fw-la a_o little_a i_o shall_v speak_v i_o be_v young_a about_o 8_o year_n old_a when_o my_o father_n live_v i_o do_v play_v as_o other_o child_n do_v and_o my_o father_n do_v chide_v i_o for_o play_v i_o wonder_v at_o it_o for_o he_o say_v we_o shall_v all_o die_v i_o wonder_v and_o sit_v amaze_v about_o half_a a_o hour_n but_o i_o soon_o forget_v it_o that_o winter_n the_o pox_n come_v and_o almost_o all_o our_o kindred_n die_v i_o and_o my_o mother_n come_v to_o the_o bay_n and_o there_o dwell_v till_o we_o pray_v to_o god_n but_o i_o do_v nothing_o but_o sin_n as_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o world_n do_v then_o hear_v the_o word_n of_o god_n i_o hear_v that_o from_o the_o rise_n of_o the_o sun_n to_o the_o set_v thereof_o my_o name_n shall_v be_v know_v among_o the_o gentile_n therefore_o all_o must_v pray_v to_o god_n but_o my_o heart_n do_v not_o desire_v that_o but_o to_o go_v away_o to_o some_o other_o place_n but_o remember_v the_o word_n of_o god_n that_o all_o shall_v pray_v to_o god_n then_o i_o do_v not_o desire_v to_o go_v away_o but_o to_o pray_v to_o god_n but_o if_o i_o pray_v afore_o the_o sachem_n pray_v i_o fear_v they_o will_v kill_v i_o and_o therefore_o i_o will_v not_o pray_v but_o yet_o when_o other_o pray_v i_o pray_v with_o they_o and_o i_o think_v if_o i_o run_v away_o to_o other_o place_n they_o will_v pray_v too_o therefore_o i_o will_v pray_v here_o then_o on_o a_o sabbath_n none_o teach_v and_o some_o bid_v i_o teach_v what_o the_o minister_n have_v teach_v we_o but_o i_o fear_v and_o dare_v not_o for_o fear_v of_o the_o sachem_n yet_o they_o urge_v i_o and_o i_o do_v and_o i_o teach_v they_o what_o i_o remember_v and_o they_o be_v angry_a at_o i_o and_o we_o fall_v out_o and_o i_o go_v away_o i_o think_v that_o my_o pray_v will_v be_v in_o vain_a and_o i_o lay_v by_o pray_v and_o there_o be_v pow-wow_n but_o i_o doubt_v to_o do_v that_o because_o i_o have_v pray_v and_o i_o do_v think_v they_o will_v laugh_v at_o i_o after_o i_o return_v again_o and_o be_v among_o they_o which_o pray_v but_o my_o heart_n
as_o other_o youth_n do_v at_o all_o these_o thing_n because_o thereby_o do_v original_a sin_n grow_v in_o i_o and_o hard_o it_o be_v to_o root_v it_o out_o and_o hard_a to_o believe_v after_o this_o i_o hear_v still_o and_o more_o i_o understand_v i_o hear_v gen._n 16._o that_o the_o people_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n lust_n and_o all_o other_o sin_n and_o therefore_o the_o lord_n destroy_v they_o and_o i_o know_v that_o i_o have_v the_o same_o sin_n and_o therefore_o i_o be_v afraid_a but_o i_o fear_v only_o this_o bodily_a life_n and_o not_o for_o my_o soul_n after_o this_o my_o heart_n do_v a_o little_a desire_n to_o pray_v to_o god_n because_o god_n find_v noah_n righteous_a and_o do_v save_v he_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v but_o again_o i_o lay_v it_o by_o and_o i_o say_v it_o be_v vain_a to_o pray_v for_o if_o i_o pray_v and_o shall_v commit_v sin_n i_o shall_v be_v punish_v or_o imprison_v but_o if_o i_o pray_v not_o i_o may_v commit_v what_o sin_n i_o will_v and_o have_v no_o punishment_n for_o it_o about_o a_o year_n after_o i_o hear_v the_o minister_n teach_v another_o word_n that_o the_o death_n of_o christ_n be_v precious_a and_o our_o death_n be_v nothing_o worth_a therefore_o god_n promise_v pardon_n of_o all_o sin_n for_o christ_n his_o sake_n he_o bid_v we_o remember_v this_o against_o next_o time_n when_o he_o come_v again_o he_o ask_v i_o and_o i_o do_v remember_v it_o and_o do_v to_o this_o day_n but_o i_o confess_v i_o do_v not_o believe_v only_o i_o do_v remember_v it_o and_o answer_v when_o i_o be_v ask_v and_o then_o again_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o will_v not_o go_v away_o but_o it_o be_v because_o i_o love_v our_o place_n and_o dwelling_n i_o pray_v but_o i_o believe_v not_o i_o consider_v not_o eternal_a life_n but_o only_o this_o worldly_a life_n and_o thus_o i_o go_v on_o till_o they_o choose_v ruler_n at_o natik_a they_o choose_v i_o and_o i_o refuse_v because_o i_o believe_v not_o after_o that_o my_o wife_n and_o child_n die_v and_o i_o be_v sick_a to_o death_n but_o live_v again_o and_o be_v well_o i_o think_v i_o can_v not_o pray_v i_o be_v a_o child_n and_o therefore_o can_v not_o i_o put_v off_o pray_v to_o god_n my_o relation_n die_v and_o why_o shall_v i_o pray_v but_o than_o i_o consider_v why_o do_v god_n thus_o punish_v i_o yea_o the_o minister_n speak_v to_o i_o about_o it_o and_o say_v it_o may_v be_v it_o be_v because_o i_o refuse_v to_o do_v god_n work_n as_o moses_n when_o he_o first_o refuse_v god_n be_v patient_a but_o when_o he_o persist_v in_o his_o refusal_n god_n be_v angry_a and_o than_o my_o heart_n see_v my_o sin_n and_o then_o my_o heart_n almost_o believe_v i_o desire_v to_o do_v right_a and_o to_o keep_v the_o sabbath_n for_o i_o further_o hear_v in_o the_o four_o commandment_n remember_v the_o sabbath_n to_o keep_v it_o holy_a and_o psa._n 101._o i_o will_v walk_v wise_o in_o a_o perfect_a way_n also_o in_o isay_n 58._o if_o thou_o turn_v away_o thy_o foot_n from_o the_o sabbath_n and_o do_v not_o thy_o own_o work_n nor_o find_v thy_o own_o pleasure_n nor_o speak_v thy_o own_o word_n therefore_o my_o soul_n desire_v to_o keep_v the_o sabbath_n than_o the_o soldier_n come_v upon_o we_o on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n while_o we_o be_v at_o meeting_n and_o take_v away_o our_o gun_n and_o cause_v we_o to_o bring_v they_o as_o far_o as_o roxbury_n that_o night_n my_o heart_n be_v break_v off_o my_o heart_n say_v god_n be_v not_o the_o sabbath_n be_v not_o it_o be_v not_o the_o lord_n day_n for_o be_v it_o so_o the_o soldier_n will_v not_o have_v then_o come_v then_o my_o heart_n cast_v off_o pray_v than_o we_o come_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o cutshamoquin_fw-la ask_v why_o they_o come_v on_o the_o sabbath-day_n it_o be_v answer_v that_o it_o be_v lawful_a but_o i_o do_v not_o understand_v it_o that_o day_n i_o be_v very_o thirsty_a do_v drink_v too_o much_o and_o be_v bring_v before_o the_o magistrate_n and_o be_v ashamed_a i_o come_v to_o roxbury_n to_o the_o minister_n and_o there_o i_o be_v ashamed_a also_o because_o i_o have_v great_o sin_v then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n for_o free-mercy_n because_o precious_a be_v the_o death_n of_o christ_n oh_o pardon_v this_o my_o sin_n yet_o again_o i_o have_v temptation_n to_o drink_v and_o then_o i_o consider_v what_o a_o great_a sinner_n i_o be_v even_o like_o a_o beast_n before_o god_n then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 5._o he_o that_o break_v the_o beast_n of_o god_n command_n and_o teach_v other_o so_o to_o do_v shall_v be_v the_o least_o in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n my_o heart_n say_v lord_n such_o a_o one_o have_v i_o be_v for_o i_o have_v be_v a_o active_a sinner_n yet_o i_o cry_v again_o for_o mercy_n o_o lord_n free_o pardon_v my_o great_a sin_n again_o i_o confess_v i_o be_o very_o weak_a even_o like_o a_o very_a child_n and_o i_o so_o walk_v and_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v if_o i_o die_v i_o fear_v i_o shall_v die_v in_o my_o sin_n yet_o i_o cry_v again_o o_o god_n pardon_v i_o for_o christ_n his_o sake_n again_o further_o i_o confess_v that_o when_o i_o be_v trouble_v about_o our_o want_n poverty_n and_o nakedness_n i_o consider_v that_o text_n fox_n have_v hole_n and_o bird_n have_v nest_n but_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v not_o whereon_o to_o lay_v his_o head_n and_o again_o mat._n 6._o the_o bird_n plough_v not_o and_o the_o flower_n spin_v not_o and_o yet_o god_n do_v both_o feed_n and_o clothe_v they_o and_o therefore_o be_v not_o overmuch_o trouble_v about_o these_o thing_n yet_o i_o desire_v to_o follow_v labour_n with_o my_o hand_n because_o gen_n 1._o god_n give_v adam_n dominion_n over_o the_o creature_n and_o command_v he_o to_o till_v the_o ground_n and_o gen._n 2._o he_o set_v he_o in_o the_o garden_n and_o command_v he_o to_o dress_v it_o and_o keep_v it_o also_o gen._n 3._o he_o say_v thou_o shall_v eat_v thy_o bread_n in_o the_o sweat_n of_o thy_o face_n all_o thy_o day_n till_o thou_o return_v to_o thy_o dust_n when_o i_o remember_v these_o thing_n my_o heart_n do_v bow_v to_o labour_v also_o i_o hear_v that_o riches_n be_v the_o root_n of_o all_o evil_a and_o dives_fw-la with_o his_o fine_a apparel_n and_o dainty_a fare_n be_v in_o hell_n and_o poor_a lazarus_n be_v in_o heaven_n when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o our_o land_n â—nd_v about_o riches_n i_o quiet_v my_o heart_n with_o these_o meditation_n also_o i_o further_o hear_v when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o salvation_n and_o doubt_v i_o hear_v that_o there_o be_v no_o mean_n of_o salvation_n but_o christ_n not_o any_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n can_v carry_v we_o to_o heaven_n only_a christ_n which_o i_o do_v believe_v by_o gen._n 28._o where_o jacob_n dream_v a_o dream_n and_o he_o see_v a_o ladder_n which_o stand_v on_o earth_n and_o the_o top_n reach_v up_o to_o heaven_n and_o that_o ladder_n be_v christ_n who_o be_v man_n and_o so_o touch_v the_o earth_n and_o god_n and_o so_o be_v in_o heaven_n and_o by_o believe_v in_o he_o we_o ascend_v to_o heaven_n as_o by_o a_o ladder_n this_o help_v i_o almost_o to_o believe_v and_o i_o cry_v oh_o christ_n be_v thou_o my_o ladder_n to_o heaven_n again_o ioh._n 14._o christ_n say_v none_o come_v to_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o therefore_o i_o believe_v nothing_o can_v carry_v i_o to_o god_n but_o only_o christ_n if_o i_o penitent_o believe_v in_o he_o again_o i_o confess_v i_o do_v still_o find_v myself_o very_o weak_a to_o resist_v sin_n for_o if_o i_o read_v and_o teach_v on_o the_o sabbath_n i_o teach_v indeed_o but_o i_o do_v not_o as_o i_o ought_v and_o therefore_o that_o word_n of_o christ_n do_v rebuke_v i_o mat._n 23._o hear_v and_o do_v what_o they_o say_v but_o do_v not_o as_o they_o do_v when_o i_o do_v among_o other_o reprove_v sinner_n that_o word_n of_o christ_n reprove_v i_o thou_o hypocrite_n first_o cast_v the_o beam_n out_o of_o thy_o own_o eye_n and_o then_o thou_o may_v see_v clear_o so_o cast_v the_o moat_n out_o of_o thy_o brother_n eye_n again_o when_o i_o pray_v i_o find_v hypocrisy_n in_o my_o heart_n to_o do_v it_o to_o be_v see_v of_o man_n and_o that_o word_n of_o christ_n reprove_v i_o mat._n 6._o they_o pray_v to_o be_v sâ—en_v of_o man_n very_o they_o have_v their_o reward_n and_o then_o i_o cry_v mighty_o to_o god_n o_o lord_n help_v i_o pardon_v i_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 9_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v power_n to_o pardon_v sin_n on_o earth_n and_o therefore_o i_o o_o lord_n then_o
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willing_a mind_n for_o the_o lord_n search_v all_o heart_n and_o understand_v all_o the_o imagination_n of_o the_o thought_n if_o thou_o seek_v he_o he_o will_v be_v find_v of_o thou_o but_o if_o thou_o forsake_v he_o he_o will_v cast_v thou_o off_o for_o ever_o this_o great_o trouble_v i_o because_o i_o have_v leave_v pray_v to_o god_n and_o i_o have_v deserve_v eternal_a wrath_n then_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v i_o beg_v mercy_n but_o i_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v for_o my_o sin_n be_v many_o my_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o original_a sin_n and_o my_o heart_n be_v often_o full_a of_o anger_n but_o than_o i_o be_v angry_a at_o myself_o for_o i_o find_v my_o heart_n quick_o carry_v after_o sin_n afterward_o through_o the_o free_a mercy_n of_o god_n i_o hear_v that_o word_n he_o that_o penitent_o believe_v in_o christ_n shall_v be_v pardon_v and_o save_v then_o my_o heart_n do_v beg_v earnest_o for_o pardon_n and_o mercy_n i_o hear_v ioh._n 15._o whatever_o you_o ask_v the_o father_n in_o my_o name_n he_o will_v give_v it_o you_o therefore_o my_o heart_n do_v now_o great_o beg_v for_o mercy_n in_o christ_n and_o pardon_n afterward_o i_o hear_v mat._n 5._o 28._o who_o ever_o look_v upon_o a_o woman_n to_o lust_n after_o she_o have_v commit_v adultery_n in_o his_o heart_n then_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v because_o many_o be_v my_o sin_n in_o my_o eye_n and_o heart_n and_o action_n too_o my_o heart_n do_v love_v the_o have_n of_o two_o wife_n and_o other_o lust_n of_o that_o kind_n then_o satan_n say_v to_o i_o you_o be_v a_o great_a sinner_n and_o god_n will_v not_o pardon_v you_o therefore_o cast_v off_o pray_v and_o run_v away_o it_o be_v a_o vain_a thing_n for_o you_o to_o pray_v here_o you_o want_v land_n but_o in_o the_o country_n there_o be_v land_n enough_o and_o riches_n abundance_n therefore_o pray_v no_o more_o my_o heart_n do_v almost_o like_o it_o but_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat_n 4._o satan_n tempt_v christ_n and_o show_v he_o the_o kingdom_n of_o the_o world_n and_o the_o glory_n thereof_o and_o promise_v to_o give_v they_o to_o he_o if_o he_o will_v worship_v he_o then_o my_o heart_n say_v that_o even_o thus_o satan_n tempt_v i_o to_o cast_v off_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o therefore_o my_o heart_n desire_v to_o believe_v that_o word_n of_o christ_n thou_o shall_v worship_v the_o lord_n thy_o god_n and_o he_o only_o shall_v thou_o serve_v then_o i_o pray_v again_o but_o still_o i_o be_v full_a of_o sin_n and_o very_o weak_a i_o be_v and_o i_o love_v sin_n again_o i_o hear_v ioh._n 14._o i_o be_o the_o way_n the_o truth_n and_o the_o life_n no_o man_n come_v unto_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o then_o i_o full_o see_v that_o christ_n only_o be_v our_o redeemer_n and_o saviour_n and_o i_o desire_v to_o believe_v in_o christ_n and_o my_o heart_n say_v that_o nothing_o that_o i_o can_v do_v can_v save_v i_o only_a christ_n therefore_o i_o beg_v for_o christ_n and_o a_o part_n in_o he_o then_o say_v my_o heart_n i_o give_v my_o heart_n and_o myself_o to_o christ_n and_o my_o wife_n and_o child_n let_v he_o do_v with_o we_o what_o he_o will_v then_o my_o mother_n and_o two_o child_n die_v and_o my_o heart_n say_v what_o christ_n will_v do_v so_o be_v it_o i_o have_v give_v they_o to_o he_o and_o i_o beg_v pardon_n and_o mercy_n if_o god_n will_v please_v to_o pardon_v i_o a_o poor_a sinner_n bless_a be_v his_o name_n when_o i_o have_v read_v this_o confession_n in_o the_o assembly_n we_o call_v upon_o the_o witness_n as_o before_o we_o do_v who_o answer_n be_v like_o as_o before_o it_o be_v john_n speen_n he_o be_v next_o call_v forth_o and_o thus_o speak_v i_o confess_v my_o sin_n this_o day_n before_o the_o lord_n and_o not_o only_o before_o god_n but_o before_o all_o these_o people_n before_o i_o pray_v very_o i_o be_v a_o great_a sinner_n yea_o in_o my_o mother_n womb_n i_o be_v a_o sinner_n my_o sin_n be_v such_o as_o not_o only_o god_n know_v but_o people_n also_o know_v they_o before_o our_o pray_n i_o 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and_o do_v the_o like_a sin_n as_o before_o only_o i_o do_v outward_o pray_v but_o i_o mourn_v not_o for_o my_o sin_n i_o think_v if_o we_o pray_v and_o leave_v pauwave_v who_o shall_v make_v we_o well_o when_o we_o be_v sick_a but_o again_o i_o think_v man_n can_v not_o make_v we_o well_o because_o he_o must_v die_v himself_o and_o therefore_o pauwave_v be_v a_o vain_a thing_n and_o they_o die_v though_o they_o pauwau_n but_o still_o my_o heart_n do_v not_o believe_v pray_v to_o god_n then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n repent_v and_o believe_v and_o if_o we_o repent_v and_o believe_v god_n will_v pardon_v all_o our_o sin_n then_o sometime_o i_o repent_v yet_o again_o quick_o i_o commit_v sin_n and_o sometime_o i_o think_v i_o be_o thorough_o a_o sinner_n i_o hear_v that_o god_n make_v the_o world_n and_o all_o thing_n in_o it_o and_o last_o man_n and_o that_o god_n form_v he_o of_o the_o dust_n of_o the_o earth_n and_o breathe_v into_o he_o the_o breath_n of_o life_n and_o he_o become_v 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to_o understand_v more_o i_o begin_v to_o doubt_v but_o i_o desire_v not_o conversion_n from_o sin_n afterward_o when_o the_o english_a teach_v i_o i_o will_v sit_v still_o because_o they_o will_v give_v i_o good_a victual_n then_o i_o sometime_o think_v certain_o god_n be_v in_o heaven_n then_o my_o thought_n say_v it_o may_v be_v i_o have_v sin_v again_o i_o think_v if_o i_o pray_v god_n can_v not_o understand_v i_o then_o i_o find_v it_o hard_a to_o believe_v and_o love_n god_n because_o i_o be_v almost_o a_o old_a man_n because_o i_o think_v if_o any_o can_v read_v the_o book_n he_o will_v love_v god_n i_o ask_v mr_n jackson_n whether_o god_n know_v our_o language_n he_o answer_v yea_o god_n know_v all_o language_n in_o the_o world_n and_o therefore_o now_o pray_v unto_o god_n then_o i_o first_o think_v i_o will_v pray_v unto_o god_n a_o little_a i_o think_v of_o pray_v sometime_o i_o will_v a_o little_a pray_v when_o i_o eat_v about_o that_o time_n you_o come_v to_o teach_v we_o 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