acknowledge_v with_o soul_n heart_n and_o conscience_n if_o thou_o saveâ—_n i_o it_o be_v a_o miracle_n and_o if_o thou_o reâ—_n fuse_v it_o be_v but_o just_a justice_n assure_v myself_o in_o forbear_v thy_o chastise_v affection_n i_o shall_v eveâ—_o despair_v of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o be_v confident_a of_o permanent_a punishment_n for_o that_o the_o pencil_n of_o holy_a wriâ—_n which_o will_v not_o be_v violate_v 3.19_o heb._n 12.5_o apoc._n 3.19_o have_v plain_o express_v those_o who_o thou_o receive_v thou_o chastene_v and_o that_o their_o long_o laugh_v must_v be_v turn_v into_o bitter_a mourning_n 6.25_o joel._n 2.12_o luk._n 6.25_o before_o they_o have_v any_o true_a hope_n of_o thy_o grace_n favour_n or_o pardon_n o_o then_o dear_a mediator_n i_o beseech_v thou_o minister_v daily_o on_o i_o thy_o discipline_n correction_n 5._o pro._n 3._o job_n 5._o and_o when_o thou_o think_v it_o meet_v let_v my_o inward_a grief_n be_v my_o joy_n the_o agony_n of_o death_n my_o comfort_n but_o if_o those_o will_v not_o penetrate_v my_o flinty_a nature_n to_o make_v i_o glorify_v thy_o unspeakable_a blessing_n and_o apprehend_v my_o base_a ingratitude_n grant_v i_o sweet_a saviour_n a_o feel_a inspiration_n of_o torment_n due_a unto_o the_o damn_a that_o if_o then_o i_o may_v not_o without_o rob_v thy_o justice_n obtain_v by_o thy_o mercy_n a_o share_n in_o thy_o suffering_n yet_o i_o humble_o pray_v thou_o let_v i_o be_v a_o second_o dives_fw-la upon_o earth_n for_o admonish_v my_o poor_a christian_a brethren_n to_o prevent_v the_o like_a fall_n of_o so_o fatal_a a_o danger_n and_o the_o rather_o for_o that_o thou_o perceive_v offender_n be_v not_o so_o much_o terrify_v by_o thy_o judgement_n pronounce_v in_o holy_a writ_n as_o they_o be_v mollify_v at_o the_o sight_n of_o mortal_a creature_n misery_n wherein_o it_o make_v i_o fear_n satan_n by_o thy_o permission_n have_v a_o more_o predominate_a power_n than_o thou_o that_o creat_a they_o all_o which_o i_o leave_v to_o thy_o divine_a sacred_a will_n and_o unsearchable_a mercy_n beg_v pardon_n for_o my_o bold_a presumption_n or_o if_o thou_o please_v to_o make_v intercession_n 8.8_o mat._n 8.8_o and_o say_v amen_o to_o my_o petition_n the_o affliction_n of_o a_o prodigal_n o_o dear_a and_o immortal_a god_n i_o thy_o abject_n creature_n have_v so_o high_o offend_v thy_o deity_n essence_n and_o glory_n in_o profane_v thy_o name_n abuse_v thy_o blessing_n and_o slight_v thy_o suffering_n that_o i_o dare_v claim_v no_o privilege_n by_o thy_o death_n no_o comfort_n in_o thy_o promise_n nor_o no_o favour_n from_o thy_o mercy_n but_o the_o rigour_n of_o punishment_n the_o wrath_n of_o justice_n and_o reward_n of_o the_o damn_a o_o misery_n of_o all_o misery_n what_o have_v i_o lose_v thy_o glory_n that_o make_v i_o thy_o son_n that_o die_v for_o i_o and_o thy_o spirit_n that_o sanctify_a i_o be_v there_o a_o creature_n from_o adam_n so_o wretched_a be_v there_o a_o child_n conceive_v from_o euab_n more_o miserable_a then_o i_o that_o have_v lose_v the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n and_o purchase_v the_o fire_n of_o hell_n o_o my_o birth_n life_n and_o death_n i_o be_o wrap_v in_o sorrow_n have_v small_a hope_v but_o in_o despair_v no_o comfort_n but_o in_o grieve_v nor_o any_o joy_n but_o in_o lament_v o_o thou_o false_a heart_n and_o curse_a sense_n why_o be_v you_o make_v to_o bring_v my_o soul_n in_o torture_n and_o yourselves_o in_o torment_n to_o deny_v they_o will_v not_o avail_v you_o to_o expect_v pardon_n be_v unpossible_a to_o confess_v they_o will_v hardly_o mitigate_v they_o o_o then_o dear_a saviour_n see_v i_o have_v bring_v myself_o by_o sinful_a presumption_n to_o permanent_a perdition_n yet_o let_v i_o beg_v at_o thy_o hand_n the_o agony_n of_o individual_a sorrow_n which_o thou_o ordaine_v for_o the_o damn_a that_o if_o then_o the_o spectacle_n of_o my_o deserve_a malady_n can_v dissolve_v thy_o justice_n into_o mercy_n yet_o may_v mitigate_v my_o endless_a misery_n and_o not_o die_v like_o a_o stupid_a dog_n void_a of_o sense_n know_v thou_o make_v i_o the_o image_n of_o thy_o creature_n the_o contemplation_n of_o a_o prodigal_n my_o god_n creator_n and_o saviour_n of_o the_o world_n be_v not_o i_o make_v thy_o image_n to_o serve_v and_o glorify_v none_o other_o but_o thyself_o how_o fall_v it_o out_o dear_a father_n that_o i_o have_v be_v more_o contemptible_a against_o all_o thy_o law_n 5._o sap._n 5._o statute_n and_o blessing_n 3.5_o joh._n 3.5_o than_o a_o savage_a beast_n i_o can_v believe_v it_o proceed_v from_o original_a sin_n in_o that_o thy_o sacred_a self_n suffer_v for_o sin_n nor_o from_o my_o conception_n 33._o ezek._n 33._o for_o that_o thou_o desire_v my_o preservation_n but_o altogether_o by_o satan_n assault_v the_o world_n provoke_v nature_n betray_v and_o my_o own_o stiffnecked_a transgression_n what_o reason_n then_o can_v myself_o or_o mortal_a man_n conceive_v that_o thou_o will_v save_v i_o when_o i_o never_o true_o serve_v nor_o honour_v thou_o be_v not_o thou_o a_o just_a judge_n 25._o jer._n 25._o as_o thou_o have_v be_v a_o merciful_a saviour_n to_o plead_v weakness_n avail_v not_o wilfulness_n i_o dare_v not_o nor_o want_v thy_o assistance_n i_o can_v wherefore_o then_o do_v thou_o give_v i_o long_o sustentation_n when_o thou_o know_v i_o have_v deserve_v damnation_n 4.27_o fxod_n 9.16_o act._n 4.27_o be_v it_o for_o that_o thou_o will_v exceed_v in_o thy_o mercy_n to_o increase_v my_o misery_n or_o else_o be_v not_o my_o sin_n full_o complete_a for_o thy_o determine_a suffering_n why_o thou_o know_v satan_n offend_v thou_o but_o once_o i_o have_v ever_o they_o both_o obey_v and_o fear_v thou_o i_o have_v never_o what_o madness_n then_o will_v it_o be_v in_o i_o to_o presume_v that_o thou_o will_v break_v the_o whole_a course_n of_o thy_o justice_n for_o my_o sake_n know_v in_o my_o own_o conscience_n i_o have_v lose_v the_o benefit_n of_o thy_o redemption_n by_o my_o wilful_a presumption_n otherwise_o i_o may_v be_v confident_a through_o unfeigned_a repentance_n to_o have_v assurance_n of_o salvation_n by_o thy_o death_n and_o passion_n which_o now_o grieve_v the_o entrails_n of_o my_o soul_n in_o that_o i_o be_v such_o a_o curse_a reprobate_a to_o crucify_v thou_o who_o suffer_v on_o the_o cross_n to_o save_v i_o â—7_n mar._n 10._o â—7_n so_o that_o according_a to_o humane_a judgement_n my_o talon_n be_v eternal_a torment_n howsoever_o i_o bequeath_v the_o disposure_n of_o my_o deject_a soul_n to_o thou_o 9.15_o rom._n 9.15_o which_o shed_v thy_o innocent_a blood_n on_o the_o behalf_n of_o i_o but_o why_o shall_v i_o be_v so_o base_a a_o creature_n reason_n with_o thou_o that_o be_v my_o maker_n know_v the_o clay_n ought_v not_o contest_v with_o the_o potter_n for_o it_o be_v in_o thy_o power_n and_o not_o in_o i_o to_o make_v i_o a_o vessel_n of_o honour_n or_o dishonour_n therefore_o in_o obedience_n to_o thy_o unsearchable_a deity_n i_o will_v surcease_v all_o disputation_n and_o endeavour_n to_o prevent_v worldly_a perturbation_n that_o i_o may_v have_v so_o much_o hope_n to_o be_v thy_o creature_n as_o my_o belief_n assure_v i_o thou_o be_v my_o creator_n the_o agony_n of_o a_o prodigal_n my_o sacred_a creator_n and_o celestial_a father_n do_v not_o thou_o make_v i_o of_o run_a water_n and_o ruddy_a earth_n do_v thou_o not_o see_v how_o satan_n assault_v i_o how_o the_o world_n insnate_v i_o and_o how_o my_o own_o nature_n betray_v i_o o_o my_o god_n how_o then_o can_v thou_o but_o in_o pity_n take_v compassion_n upon_o i_o know_v i_o have_v no_o power_n to_o prevent_v any_o of_o these_o precedent_a conspiracy_n but_o by_o thy_o divine_a providence_n will_v thou_o then_o leave_v i_o to_o myself_o that_o i_o may_v appear_v worse_a miserable_a than_o the_o beast_n which_o perish_v o_o be_v more_o charitable_a for_o that_o thou_o make_v i_o thy_o image_n cast_v but_o thy_o eye_n upon_o i_o and_o turn_v not_o thy_o face_n from_o i_o then_o try_v whether_o thou_o will_v deny_v thy_o mercy_n unto_o i_o be_v not_o sweet_a saviour_n my_o first_o parent_n sinner_n do_v not_o thyself_o suffer_v for_o sinner_n and_o prote_v thou_o desire_v not_o the_o death_n of_o sinner_n shall_v then_o the_o iniquity_n of_o my_o only_a offence_n blot_v out_o the_o remembrance_n of_o thy_o immortal_a mercy_n when_o thou_o be_v my_o advocate_n i_o the_o offender_n thou_o my_o redeemer_n i_o the_o debtor_n let_v i_o not_o then_o perish_v for_o want_v of_o thy_o protection_n when_o it_o be_v not_o riches_n nor_o honour_n i_o will_v have_v o_o my_o father_n no_o or_o releasement_n of_o my_o misery_n i_o seek_v o_o my_o father_n no_o or_o heaven_n i_o beg_v o_o my_o father_n i_o dare_v not_o presume_v no_o nor_o any_o thing_n i_o crave_v but_o the_o increase_n
of_o penitent_a tear_n fit_a for_o transgressor_n and_o sorrow_n due_a to_o sinner_n o_o my_o saviour_n no_o how_o then_o can_v thou_o deny_v i_o when_o i_o sue_v for_o no_o more_o but_o what_o thyself_o have_v assure_v i_o o_o my_o christ_n be_v these_o the_o eye_n that_o have_v displease_v thou_o let_v they_o receive_v no_o light_n through_o thou_o be_v this_o the_o heart_n which_o have_v dishonour_v thou_o let_v it_o bleed_v to_o death_n for_o thou_o be_v this_o the_o flesh_n which_o have_v offend_v thou_o let_v fire_n be_v her_o fuel_n by_o thou_o be_v these_o the_o bone_n which_o have_v bring_v i_o woe_n let_v they_o be_v burn_v and_o bear_v no_o more_o or_o be_v these_o the_o sense_n which_o have_v sin_v against_o thou_o let_v they_o be_v a_o live_a sacrifice_n to_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n i_o be_o rack_v with_o grief_n that_o i_o can_v grieve_v and_o perplex_v in_o repentance_n that_o i_o know_v not_o how_o to_o repent_v for_o to_o proceed_v after_o the_o world_n weakness_n i_o suspect_v thou_o see_v their_o wilful_a ignorance_n and_o if_o i_o follow_v thy_o gospel_n professor_n i_o fear_v thou_o find_v they_o full_a of_o scandal_n distraction_n and_o worldly_a perturbation_n what_o then_o sweet_a saviour_n will_v become_v of_o i_o forlorn_a creature_n that_o have_v no_o relief_n but_o sin_n to_o succour_v i_o satan_n to_o assist_v i_o and_o a_o guilty_a conscience_n to_o comfort_v i_o without_o thy_o sacred_a suffering_n make_v intercession_n for_o i_o and_o accept_v thy_o saint_n oblation_n for_o sinner_n to_o thou_o i_o shall_v be_v force_v to_o curse_v my_o conception_n and_o wish_v my_o mother_n womb_n have_v be_v my_o tomb_n to_o have_v form_v i_o a_o lump_n of_o flesh_n without_o life_n or_o any_o creature_n but_o thy_o image_n for_o than_o have_v i_o live_v according_a to_o creation_n and_o not_o liable_a to_o eternal_a damnation_n yet_o most_o merciful_a and_o immortal_a father_n shall_v my_o agonied_a soul_n suspect_v to_o suffer_v shipwreck_n when_o thou_o guide_v the_o stern_a or_o despair_n and_o die_v when_o thou_o be_v live_v or_o curse_v her_o birth_n when_o thou_o be_v in_o be_v o_o my_o god_n rather_o let_v she_o taste_v the_o torture_n of_o hell_n then_o be_v deprive_v of_o life_n and_o lose_v her_o hope_n in_o the_o joy_n of_o heaven_n let_v then_o satan_n assay_v his_o best_a and_o the_o wicked_a world_n her_o worst_a my_o deject_a soul_n have_v set_v up_o her_o rest_n in_o thou_o that_o make_v she_o to_o save_v she_o lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o to_o say_v amen_o the_o supplication_n of_o a_o prodigal_n my_o god_n my_o refuge_n my_o mercy_n how_o dare_v i_o remember_v thy_o greatness_n when_o the_o billow_n of_o my_o cry_a sin_n have_v raise_v the_o wrath_n of_o thy_o omnipotent_a person_n who_o out_o of_o mere_a divine_a love_n to_o pious_a charity_n creat_v i_o after_o thy_o own_o image_n redeem_v i_o be_v lose_v and_o in_o a_o word_n give_v i_o all_o i_o ever_o have_v yet_o have_v i_o so_o much_o dishonour_v the_o deity_n of_o thy_o glory_n that_o i_o make_v the_o pleasure_n of_o this_o life_n my_o god_n on_o earth_n and_o now_o they_o be_v turn_v my_o torment_a accuser_n of_o death_n o_o sacred_a father_n bequeath_v the_o plague_n of_o egypt_n for_o my_o talon_n rather_o than_o this_o deceitful_a world_n to_o my_o portion_n which_o have_v not_o only_o breed_v i_o disobedient_a towards_o thou_o that_o make_v i_o a_o traitor_n to_o thy_o son_n that_o die_v for_o i_o but_o sacrific'de_v my_o own_o soul_n to_o be_v the_o fuel_n of_o hell_n fire_n o_o deadly_a life_n of_o immortal_a death_n what_o shall_v i_o term_v thou_o the_o shape_n of_o a_o christian_a which_o without_o thy_o sacred_a intercession_n for_o thy_o never_o die_a mercy_n i_o shall_v remain_v quicken_v with_o the_o fiend_n of_o hell_n to_o future_a age_n for_o ever_o o_o do_v not_o thou_o sweet_a saviour_n forget_v the_o pity_n of_o thy_o goodness_n though_o i_o have_v lose_v the_o duty_n of_o my_o obedience_n but_o grant_v the_o same_o favour_n to_o i_o thou_o give_v the_o thief_n upon_o the_o cross_n look_v upon_o the_o tear_n of_o my_o misery_n with_o the_o passion_n of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o if_o neither_o grief_n groan_n sigh_n nor_o sorrow_n can_v appease_v thy_o just_a wrath_n why_o do_v thou_o make_v i_o wherefore_o be_v thy_o death_n who_o will_v thou_o save_v or_o be_v thou_o another_o god_n now_o then_o when_o thou_o be_v merciful_a to_o the_o oppress_a a_o father_n of_o the_o godly_a and_o a_o advocate_n for_o the_o damn_a if_o they_o repent_v o_o then_o enrich_v my_o soul_n with_o a_o divine_a sorrow_n for_o my_o joy_n the_o agony_n of_o death_n for_o my_o comfort_n that_o i_o may_v neither_o presume_v of_o thy_o favour_n nor_o despair_n of_o thy_o mercy_n but_o have_v thy_o great_a name_n glorify_v thy_o sacred_a death_n satisfy_v and_o thy_o poor_a forlorn_a sinner_n save_v lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o say_z amen_o ¶_o the_o prodigalle_n prayer_n o_o dear_a and_o omnipotent_a god_n i_o here_o stand_v guilty_a of_o all_o the_o barbarous_a and_o inhuman_a sin_n which_o satan_n can_v object_v against_o the_o cursedst_v creature_n live_v for_o i_o have_v presumptuous_o commit_v more_o riot_n and_o offence_n than_o either_o heathen_a pagan_a turk_n or_o infidel_n beside_o treacherouslie_o make_v thy_o name_n a_o cloak_n for_o my_o own_o villainy_n thus_o dear_a saviour_n have_v i_o live_v a_o smooth_a factor_n for_o satan_n to_o the_o utter_a subversion_n and_o deprivation_n of_o eternal_a felicity_n and_o purchase_v the_o reward_n of_o condemnation_n with_o endless_a misery_n break_v o_o my_o big_a swell_a heart_n lest_o a_o thunderbolt_n from_o heaven_n prevent_v thou_o gush_v forth_o into_o a_o flood_n of_o tear_n thou_o crocodile_n by_o nature_n in_o be_v such_o a_o curse_a reprobate_a to_o forget_v thy_o maker_n a_o devil_n incarnate_a for_o crucify_a thy_o redeemer_n ah_o savage_a beast_n can_v neither_o creation_n redemption_n nor_o daily_a blessing_n mollify_v my_o flinty_a heart_n to_o honour_v thou_o as_o a_o father_n fear_v thou_o as_o a_o god_n or_o love_v thou_o as_o a_o saviour_n but_o must_v so_o judas-like_o sacrifice_v thy_o image_n to_o the_o enemy_n thy_o courtesy_n to_o cruelty_n and_o thy_o redemption_n to_o my_o dreadful_a destruction_n o_o indignation_n of_o the_o almighty_a fall_v not_o upon_o i_o though_o i_o have_v sow_v the_o ungrateful_a seed_n of_o plutarch_n air_n for_o scorpion_n to_o bite_v my_o flesh_n and_o snake_n to_o suck_v my_o blood_n yet_o most_o merciful_a father_n shall_v my_o miserable_a soul_n despair_n when_o thy_o omnipotent_a person_n die_v for_o deject_a sinner_n or_o can_v i_o presume_v to_o hope_v see_v thou_o have_v punish_v thy_o dear_a servant_n for_o less_o offence_n never_o o_o lord_n in_o my_o wretched_a self_n but_o by_o the_o unspeakable_a death_n and_o passion_n which_o be_v able_a to_o relieve_v the_o sick_a heal_v the_o lame_a restore_v the_o blind_a and_o help_v the_o distress_a to_o thou_o i_o submissive_a come_v who_o sacred_a wisdom_n know_v that_o man_n be_v rottenness_n his_o desire_n vanity_n and_o life_n misery_n will_v thou_o therefore_o show_v thy_o strength_n against_o so_o poor_a a_o worm_n as_o man_n that_o have_v neither_o creation_n preservation_n nor_o habitation_n but_o by_o thy_o divine_a providence_n o_o then_o dear_a father_n remit_v the_o execution_n of_o thy_o justice_n enlarge_v the_o liberality_n of_o thy_o mercy_n and_o extend_v thy_o holy_a spirit_n on_o i_o thy_o lose_a sâ—ruant_n that_o i_o may_v neither_o curse_v my_o birth_n nor_o be_v thou_o repent_v of_o thy_o creation_n or_o redeem_n to_o the_o end_n i_o may_v live_v in_o thy_o fear_n die_v in_o thy_o favour_n rest_n in_o thy_o peace_n rise_v in_o thy_o power_n and_o remain_v in_o thy_o glory_n lord_n i_o beseech_v thou_o say_v amen_o to_o the_o right_n honourable_a william_n earl_n of_o derby_n my_o honour_a lord_n i_o do_v not_o know_v how_o far_o this_o my_o solitary_a life_n may_v 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