reverend_a head_n be_v crown_v with_o thorn_n and_o smite_v with_o a_o reed_n how_o his_o divine_a face_n be_v spit_v upon_o how_o the_o king_n of_o eternal_a glory_n adore_v in_o heaven_n with_o so_o many_o legion_n of_o angel_n be_v in_o earth_n with_o feign_a reverence_n and_o honour_n scorn_v and_o mock_v by_o a_o most_o vile_a &_o infamous_a people_n by_o these_o or_o other_o point_n if_o thou_o be_v desirous_a to_o kindle_v in_o thy_o hart_n the_o affection_n of_o love_n enforce_v thyself_o with_o meditation_n of_o they_o to_o increase_v more_o and_o more_o in_o the_o knowledge_n of_o the_o infinite_a goodness_n of_o thy_o lord_n and_o of_o his_o love_n towards_o thou_o who_o for_o thou_o have_v suffer_v so_o much_o and_o also_o to_o inflame_v thyself_o more_o and_o more_o in_o a_o love_a affection_n towards_o he_o out_o of_o this_o same_o goodness_n and_o love_n of_o he_o thou_o may_v easy_o bring_v forth_o in_o thyself_o contrition_n and_o sorrow_n for_o have_v offend_v so_o 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for_o the_o torment_n that_o he_o do_v foresee_v in_o his_o eternal_a wisdom_n so_o many_o martyr_n and_o tender_a virgin_n be_v to_o suffer_v for_o his_o love_n beside_o this_o advice_n that_o in_o all_o these_o sorrow_n thou_o have_v to_o take_v compassion_n of_o thy_o saviour_n in_o such_o manner_n as_o i_o have_v say_v withal_o i_o advertise_v thou_o yea_o the_o same_o saviour_n do_v also_o require_v of_o thou_o that_o thou_o have_v another_o kind_n of_o more_o true_a compassion_n the_o which_o be_v that_o thou_o attend_v hereafter_o to_o persecute_v thyself_o will_n which_o have_v cause_v these_o his_o wound_n the_o which_o thou_o may_v as_o it_o be_v anoint_v with_o sorrow_n for_o thy_o ingratitude_n but_o to_o move_v thou_o to_o the_o hatred_n of_o sin_n thou_o shall_v apply_v all_o the_o point_n of_o thy_o meditation_n to_o this_o end_n only_o as_o if_o thy_o lord_n and_o saviour_n have_v suffer_v for_o no_o other_o end_n but_o to_o induce_v thou_o to_o hate_v thy_o evil_a inclination_n and_o that_o evil_a especial_o which_o do_v most_o molest_v thou_o and_o most_o displease_v his_o divine_a goodness_n last_o of_o all_o to_o move_v thou_o to_o admiration_n consider_v attentive_o who_o he_o be_v that_o suffer_v to_o wit_n the_o word_n incarnate_a the_o same_o god_n who_o for_o thou_o be_v make_v man_n for_o who_o he_o suffer_v for_o we_o most_o vile_a creature_n that_o always_o have_v offend_v he_o of_o who_o he_o suffer_v of_o all_o kind_n of_o most_o wicked_a people_n and_o the_o refuse_v of_o the_o common_a sort_n the_o pain_n that_o he_o suffer_v and_o they_o be_v most_o unworthy_a full_a of_o shame_n and_o of_o torment_n great_a and_o horrible_a above_o all_o estimation_n and_o that_o thou_o may_v more_o marvel_n weigh_v well_o the_o manner_n and_o the_o mind_n wherewith_o he_o suffer_v but_o believe_v that_o thou_o be_v not_o able_a to_o comprehend_v it_o as_o it_o be_v indeed_o since_o that_o it_o pass_v all_o understanding_n how_o that_o poor_a and_o most_o humble_a saviour_n among_o so_o many_o anguish_v and_o shame_v show_v a_o in_o vincible_a patience_n &_o towards_o those_o cruel_a mind_n fierce_a and_o enrage_a against_o he_o he_o always_o keep_v the_o same_o heart_n full_a of_o sweetness_n and_o pure_a love_n of_o sensible_a devotion_n and_o of_o ariditie_n or_o drienesse_n chap._n 28._o sensible_a devotion_n proceed_v sometime_o of_o nature_n sometime_o of_o the_o devil_n and_o sometime_o of_o grace_n by_o the_o fruit_n thou_o shall_v know_v from_o whence_o it_o come_v for_o if_o there_o folownot_v in_o thou_o amend_v mean_v of_o life_n thou_o be_v to_o doubt_v lest_o it_o be_v of_o the_o devil_n or_o else_o of_o nature_n and_o so_o much_o the_o more_o by_o how_o much_o it_o shall_v be_v accompany_v with_o great_a taste_n of_o sweetness_n and_o therefore_o when_o thou_o shall_v perceive_v thy_o mind_n to_o be_v sweeten_v with_o spiritual_a taste_n stand_v not_o to_o dispute_v from_o whence_o it_o come_v nor_o leave_v unto_o it_o neither_o let_v thyself_o be_v draw_v from_o the_o knowledge_n of_o thy_o nothing_o and_o with_o great_a diligence_n &_o hatred_n of_o thyself_o remove_v from_o thy_o heart_n all_o affection_n of_o what_o thing_n soever_o desire_v god_n only_o and_o his_o pleasure_n for_o by_o this_o mean_a whether_o it_o be_v of_o nature_n or_o of_o the_o devil_n it_o will_v become_v to_o thou_o as_o of_o grace_n ariditie_n or_o drienesse_n may_v proceed_v in_o like_a manner_n from_o the_o three_o aforesaid_a cause_n from_o the_o devil_n for_o to_o make_v thy_o mind_n lukewarm_a and_o draw_v it_o back_o from_o the_o spiritual_a exercise_n to_o worldly_a delight_n of_o ourselves_o through_o our_o fault_n and_o negligence_n of_o grace_n either_o to_o admonish_v we_o that_o we_o be_v more_o diligent_a to_o leave_v every_o occupation_n that_o be_v not_o of_o god_n and_o that_o tend_v not_o to_o he_o or_o to_o unite_v ourselves_o more_o near_o unto_o he_o with_o a_o full_a resignation_n of_o 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mind_n that_o thou_o know_v not_o whither_o to_o turn_v thou_o nor_o what_o course_n to_o take_v yet_o nevertheless_o content_v thyself_o with_o present_a desolation_n and_o stand_v firm_a in_o thy_o cross_n far_o off_o from_o all_o earthly_a delight_n although_o they_o shall_v be_v offer_v unto_o thou_o by_o the_o world_n or_o by_o creature_n conceal_v thy_o passion_n from_o any_o person_n except_o thy_o ghostly_a father_n if_o thou_o may_v have_v access_n unto_o he_o unto_o who_o thou_o shall_v discover_v it_o not_o to_o have_v comfort_n but_o to_o be_v instruct_v how_o to_o support_v it_o according_a to_o the_o pleasure_n of_o god_n as_o for_o thy_o receive_n prayer_n and_o other_o spiritual_a exercise_n or_o what_o other_o thing_n soever_o use_v they_o not_o to_o ease_v thy_o pain_n but_o to_o receive_v strength_n to_o suffer_v it_o and_o if_o
any_o understanding_n create_v second_o consider_v the_o gift_n which_o be_v his_o only_a son_n of_o majesty_n and_o of_o greatness_n equal_a with_o his_o father_n and_o of_o the_o same_o substance_n and_o nature_n with_o he_o now_o if_o a_o little_a and_o vile_a thing_n that_o come_v from_o the_o hand_n of_o a_o earthly_a king_n be_v so_o much_o esteem_v and_o account_v of_o in_o respect_n of_o the_o giver_n what_o account_n shall_v be_v make_v of_o this_o celestial_a gift_n and_o the_o same_o of_o incomprehensible_a excellency_n be_v indeed_o the_o very_a true_a son_n of_o god_n true_a god_n and_o give_v we_o by_o god_n himself_o moreover_o lift_v up_o thyself_o to_o think_v of_o the_o eternity_n of_o this_o love_n by_o the_o which_o before_o all_o time_n it_o be_v decree_v in_o his_o most_o high_a wisdom_n to_o give_v thou_o himself_o be_v a_o infinite_a good_a rejoice_v from_o the_o bottom_n of_o thy_o hart_n reason_n thus_o with_o thyself_o and_o be_v it_o even_o so_o that_o 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thy_o divine_a love_n to_o be_v the_o pure_a since_o that_o thou_o give_v i_o thy_o love_n for_o no_o other_o end_n but_o that_o i_o may_v give_v thou_o i_o and_o whole_o thou_o give_v thou_o to_o i_o that_o i_o may_v whole_o give_v myself_o to_o thou_o and_o this_o not_o for_o any_o need_n that_o thou_o have_v of_o i_o but_o because_o that_o i_o live_v in_o thou_o may_v by_o the_o union_n of_o love_n be_v unite_v unto_o thou_o and_o that_o the_o vileness_n of_o my_o earthly_a heart_n may_v be_v make_v one_o divine_a heart_n with_o thou_o the_o which_o thing_n consider_v thou_o shall_v offer_v thyself_o to_o the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n with_o the_o great_a affection_n that_o possible_o thou_o can_v be_v ready_a with_o a_o inflame_a desire_n always_o to_o follow_v his_o most_o bless_a will_n and_o when_o thou_o shall_v feel_v this_o desire_n well_o kindle_v in_o thou_o thou_o shall_v see_v with_o thy_o mind_n a_o great_a will_n and_o desire_n that_o he_o have_v that_o the_o next_o day_n follow_v thou_o do_v open_v thy_o heart_n unto_o he_o that_o he_o may_v enter_v and_o abide_v with_o thou_o and_o sup_v with_o thou_o and_o delight_v himself_o together_o with_o thou_o whereupon_o thou_o shall_v stir_v up_o in_o thyself_o a_o desire_n to_o receive_v he_o with_o these_o iaculatory_a prayer_n ah_o heavenly_a and_o divine_a manna_n when_o shall_v that_o hour_n come_v that_o i_o may_v receive_v thou_o to_o thy_o contentment_n when_o shall_v i_o be_v unite_v unto_o thou_o by_o true_a love_n when_o for_o thou_o o_o life_n of_o my_o soul_n shall_v i_o forsake_v all_o my_o own_o will_n and_o all_o my_o imperfection_n and_o with_o these_o and_o other_o like_o iaculatory_a prayer_n and_o with_o consideration_n of_o the_o point_n aforesaid_a both_o the_o evening_n and_o the_o morning_n thou_o shall_v kindle_v this_o desire_n in_o thou_o to_o receive_v he_o to_o be_v unite_v unto_o he_o and_o to_o please_v he_o and_o see_v that_o be_v collect_v into_o thyself_o thou_o keep_v the_o power_n of_o thy_o soul_n void_a and_o free_a from_o all_o curiosity_n vain_a thought_n and_o earthly_a affection_n and_o the_o sense_n of_o thy_o body_n as_o it_o be_v fast_v from_o the_o delight_n of_o their_o several_a object_n and_o after_o thou_o have_v receive_v he_o shut_v up_o thyself_o in_o the_o closet_n of_o thy_o heart_n and_o in_o this_o or_o such_o like_a manner_n talk_v with_o thy_o saviour_n o_o king_n of_o king_n what_o have_v bring_v thou_o unto_o i_o that_o be_o wretched_a miserable_a poor_a blind_a and_o naked_a and_o he_o will_v answer_v thou_o love_n o_o love_n uncreated_a o_o sweet_a love_n what_o desire_v thou_o of_o i_o no_o other_o thing_n say_v he_o but_o love_n no_o other_o fire_n will_v i_o have_v to_o burn_v in_o the_o earth_n of_o thy_o heart_n but_o the_o fire_n of_o my_o love_n that_o it_o may_v consume_v all_o other_o love_n and_o burn_v up_o all_o thy_o selfe-will_a this_o i_o demand_v because_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v whole_o thou_o and_o that_o thou_o may_v be_v whole_o i_o the_o which_o can_v never_o be_v whilst_o thou_o not_o make_v a_o full_a resignation_n of_o thyself_o which_o so_o much_o delight_v i_o still_o do_v remain_v fasten_v to_o the_o love_n of_o thyself_o and_o to_o thy_o own_o judgement_n and_o conceit_n to_o every_o little_a will_n of_o thou_o and_o to_o the_o reputation_n of_o thyself_o i_o demand_v of_o thou_o the_o hatred_n of_o thyself_o for_o to_o give_v thou_o my_o love_n i_o demand_v thy_o heart_n that_o it_o may_v enter_v and_o unite_v itself_o with_o i_o for_o this_o be_v the_o cause_n why_o i_o be_v open_v upon_o the_o cross_n i_o desire_v of_o thou_o o_o my_o love_a soul_n that_o thou_o will_v nothing_o think_v nothing_o understand_v nothing_o see_v nothing_o out_o of_o i_o so_o that_o i_o also_o may_v will_n understand_v think_v and_o see_v all_o thing_n in_o thou_o in_o such_o manner_n that_o thy_o nothing_o may_v be_v swallow_v up_o in_o the_o depth_n of_o my_o infinite_a goodness_n and_o be_v convert_v into_o it_o and_o thus_o thou_o shall_v be_v in_o i_o most_o happy_a and_o i_o content_a in_o thou_o in_o the_o end_n after_o this_o thou_o shall_v offer_v to_o god_n the_o father_n his_o son_n for_o thyself_o for_o the_o whole_a world_n and_o for_o the_o soul_n depart_v with_o the_o memory_n and_o union_n of_o that_o oblation_n which_o then_o he_o make_v of_o himself_o when_o he_o hang_v bloody_a upon_o the_o cross_n and_o thou_o may_v in_o this_o manner_n offer_v up_o all_o the_o sacrifice_n which_o be_v offer_v up_o that_o day_n in_o the_o holy_a church_n of_o spiritual_a receive_v chap._n 31._o although_o thou_o can_v not_o receive_v thy_o saviour_n more_o than_o once_o a_o day_n sacramental_o notwithstanding_o thou_o may_v receive_v he_o spiritual_o every_o hour_n and_o moment_n and_o this_o can_v be_v take_v from_o any_o creature_n but_o by_o their_o own_o negligence_n or_o other_o voluntary_a fault_n and_o sometime_o it_o may_v prove_v that_o this_o spiritual_a receive_n shall_v be_v more_o profitable_a to_o ourselves_o and_o acceptable_a to_o god_n than_o many_o other_o sacramental_a receiving_n in_o respect_n of_o the_o want_n and_o defect_n of_o they_o that_o receive_v therefore_o how_o oft_o soever_o thou_o shall_v dispose_v and_o prepare_v thyself_o to_o this_o spiritual_a receive_n thou_o shall_v find_v the_o son_n of_o god_n ready_a with_o his_o own_o proper_a hand_n to_o feed_v thou_o spiritual_o with_o himself_o and_o thou_o may_v prepare_v thyself_o in_o this_o manner_n turn_v thyself_o to_o he_o for_o this_o end_n and_o brief_o consider_v thy_o defect_n be_v sorry_a that_o thou_o have_v offend_v he_o and_o with_o a_o love_a affection_n crave_v of_o he_o that_o he_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o come_v into_o thy_o poor_a soul_n to_o feed_v it_o with_o himself_o or_o otherwise_o when_o thou_o go_v about_o to_o use_v violence_n to_o thyself_o or_o to_o mortify_v any_o passion_n in_o thou_o or_o to_o exercise_v any_o act_n of_o virtue_n do_v it_o to_o this_o end_n and_o turn_v thou_o to_o thy_o saviour_n and_o call_v upon_o he_o with_o a_o fervent_a desire_n in_o the_o secret_a of_o thy_o soul_n or_o again_o final_o call_v to_o mind_v the_o last_o time_n that_o thou_o do_v receive_v before_o say_v with_o a_o inflame_a desire_n when_o my_o god_n shall_v i_o receive_v thou_o another_o time_n in_o the_o scrament_n of_o the_o altar_n ah_o why_o come_v thou_o not_o now_o with_o the_o same_o virtue_n spiritual_o unto_o i_o of_o thanksgiving_n chap._n 32._o because_o all_o the_o good_a we_o do_v be_v of_o god_n and_o from_o god_n we_o be_v bind_v to_o render_v unto_o he_o alone_o humble_a thanks_o for_o every_o good_a action_n of_o we_o and_o
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adversary_n endevour_v with_o all_o his_o force_n that_o the_o virtue_n which_o we_o have_v obtain_v may_v be_v a_o occasion_n of_o our_o ruin_n chap._n 19_o the_o crafty_a and_o malignant_a serpent_n do_v not_o fail_v to_o tempt_v we_o also_o in_o the_o virtue_n which_o we_o have_v obtain_v that_o they_o may_v be_v the_o occasion_n of_o our_o ruin_n while_o we_o delight_v in_o they_o come_v to_o be_v lift_v up_o on_o high_a to_o fall_v afterwards_o into_o the_o vice_n of_o pride_n but_o to_o avoid_v this_o danger_n fight_z always_o sit_v in_o the_o plain_a and_o sure_a field_n of_o a_o true_a &_o profound_a knowledge_n of_o thyself_o that_o thou_o be_v nothing_o know_v no_o thing_n thou_o can_v do_v nothing_o and_o thou_o have_v no_o other_o thing_n of_o thyself_o but_o eternal_a damnation_n and_o be_v always_o watchful_a and_o vigilant_a that_o thou_o keep_v aloof_o off_o every_o thought_n that_o bring_v thou_o from_o this_o know_v ledge_n for_o the_o same_o be_v thy_o enemy_n if_o 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with_o that_o which_o thou_o have_v of_o thyself_o what_o other_o thing_n be_v thou_o but_o in_o like_a manner_n a_o nothing_o it_o be_v therefore_o evident_a that_o in_o this_o thy_o first_o natural_a be_v stand_v with_o thy_o own_o thou_o have_v not_o in_o any_o respect_n reason_n to_o esteem_v thyself_o or_o to_o desire_v to_o be_v esteem_v of_o other_o now_o as_o concern_v thy_o good_a estate_n of_o grace_n and_o ability_n to_o do_v good_a thing_n thy_o nature_n spoil_v of_o god_n divine_a help_n what_o good_a thing_n can_v it_o ever_o do_v of_o itself_o where_o also_o consider_v thy_o many_o evil_n pass_v and_o more_o than_o that_o the_o multitude_n of_o other_o evil_a which_o even_o until_o this_o time_n thou_o have_v continue_v to_o work_v if_o god_n of_o his_o great_a mercy_n have_v not_o stay_v thou_o thou_o shall_v find_v that_o thy_o iniquity_n not_o only_o by_o the_o multiplication_n of_o day_n and_o year_n but_o also_o by_o the_o number_n of_o thy_o action_n and_o of_o thy_o evil_a inclination_n shall_v have_v be_v multiply_v infinite_o insomuch_o that_o thou_o will_v have_v become_v like_o another_o infernal_a lucifer_n whereupon_o if_o thou_o be_v not_o willing_a to_o steal_v that_o to_o thyself_o which_o be_v due_a unto_o god_n but_o rather_o choose_v to_o rest_v within_o the_o compass_n of_o thy_o own_o thou_o ought_v to_o account_v thyself_o every_o day_n worse_o than_o other_o but_o note_v well_o that_o this_o judgement_n of_o thou_o be_v accompany_v with_o justice_n for_o otherwise_o it_o will_v be_v no_o small_a loss_n unto_o thou_o for_o if_o in_o this_o knowledge_n thou_o do_v excel_v some_o other_o who_o through_o his_o blindness_n do_v account_v himself_o somewhat_o worth_a and_o desire_v so_o to_o be_v repute_v of_o other_o thou_o
thou_o be_v not_o able_a through_o the_o confusion_n of_o thy_o mind_n to_o help_v thyself_o with_o thy_o understanding_n to_o pray_v supply_n with_o a_o good_a will_n and_o with_o iaculatorie_a prayer_n and_o lift_v uppe_o thy_o mind_n oft_o to_o god_n and_o above_o all_o suffer_v the_o burden_n of_o thy_o aridity_n thy_o dryness_n with_o patience_n and_o humble_a resignation_n for_o this_o above_o all_o other_o be_v prayer_n most_o acceptable_a to_o god_n thus_o if_o thou_o will_v do_v thou_o shall_v be_v true_o devout_a true_a devotion_n be_v a_o readiness_n of_o will_n to_o follow_v christ_n with_o thy_o cross_n on_o thy_o shoulder_n by_o which_o way_n soever_o he_o invit_v and_o call_v we_o unto_o he_o and_o to_o will_v god_n for_o god_n and_o sometime_o to_o leave_v god_n for_o god_n and_o if_o by_o this_o many_o spiritual_a person_n and_o especial_o woman_n will_v measure_v their_o profit_n and_o not_o by_o sensible_a devotion_n they_o will_v not_o grieve_v so_o unprofitable_o &_o also_o ungrateful_o at_o this_o good_a turn_n which_o our_o saviour_n do_v sometime_o unto_o they_o and_o they_o will_v attend_v with_o more_o fervour_n to_o follow_v his_o divine_a will_n which_o whole_o woork_v to_o our_o benefit_n and_o in_o this_o also_o they_o much_o deceive_v themselves_o but_o particular_o woman_n that_o when_o they_o be_v molest_v with_o fearful_a thought_n they_o be_v confoun_fw-fr ded_fw-we and_o discourage_v believe_v that_o they_o be_v whole_o forsake_v of_o god_n not_o understand_v that_o in_o a_o mind_n full_a of_o such_o thought_n his_o divine_a spirit_n can_v dwell_v and_o they_o remain_v much_o deject_a and_o almost_o become_v desperate_a easy_o leave_v off_o all_o good_a exercise_n whereby_o they_o show_v themselves_o little_a grateful_a to_o god_n who_o permit_v this_o temptation_n in_o they_o to_o bring_v they_o to_o a_o more_o clear_a knowledge_n of_o themselves_o and_o that_o they_o like_v distress_v person_n may_v draw_v near_o unto_o he_o that_o which_o thou_o ought_v to_o do_v in_o such_o a_o case_n be_v this_o that_o thou_o enter_v into_o a_o deep_a consideration_n of_o thy_o wicked_a inclination_n the_o which_o god_n will_v have_v thou_o to_o know_v to_o be_v so_o rea_fw-la thy_fw-mi to_o all_o evil_a that_o without_o his_o help_n thou_o will_v fall_v down_o headlong_o afterward_o begin_v to_o receive_v hope_n and_o confidence_n see_v that_o thy_o god_n by_o this_o danger_n which_o he_o do_v show_v thou_o will_v draw_v thou_o more_o near_o he_o with_o prayer_n and_o with_o recourse_n to_o he_o for_o which_o thou_o be_v bind_v to_o render_v he_o humble_a thanks_n and_o understand_v that_o such_o thought_n be_v better_o drive_v away_o with_o a_o skilful_a and_o patient_a sufferance_n then_o with_o a_o anxious_a resistance_n how_o the_o most_o bless_a sacrament_n be_v a_o most_o potent_a mean_n to_o overcome_v our_o passion_n chap._n 29_o the_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n of_o the_o eucharist_n be_v receive_v for_o diverse_a end_n but_o if_o thou_o will_v particular_o receive_v it_o for_o aid_n to_o destroy_v thy_o evil_a inclination_n thou_o shall_v dispose_v thyself_o in_o this_o manner_n before_o thy_o receive_n have_v convenient_a time_n begin_v overnight_o to_o consider_v the_o desire_n the_o son_n of_o god_n have_v that_o thou_o receive_v he_o in_o the_o holy_a sacrament_n of_o the_o altar_n thereby_o to_o unite_v himself_o unto_o thou_o to_o the_o end_n thou_o may_v overcome_v every_o vicious_a passion_n this_o desire_n in_o god_n be_v so_o great_a that_o it_o can_v be_v comprehend_v of_o any_o understanding_n create_v but_o that_o thou_o in_o some_o sort_n may_v perceive_v it_o consider_v two_o thing_n first_o how_o much_o that_o great_a god_n delight_v to_o be_v with_o we_o since_o he_o call_v this_o his_o delight_n and_o require_v again_o of_o we_o that_o we_o give_v he_o also_o in_o like_a sort_n our_o heart_n second_o consider_v that_o he_o hate_v sin_n above_o all_o measure_n as_o a_o impediment_n to_o his_o union_n with_o we_o &_o as_o altogether_o contrary_a to_o his_o infinite_a perfection_n for_o he_o be_v the_o chief_a good_a pure_a light_n and_o all_o beauty_n can_v but_o hate_v and_o have_v in_o great_a abomination_n sin_n which_o be_v no_o other_o thing_n but_o darkness_n defect_n and_o the_o blot_n of_o our_o fowl_n and_o the_o better_a to_o imprint_v in_o thy_o mind_n this_o inflame_a desire_n of_o thy_o saviour_n turn_v thy_o thought_n to_o the_o work_n of_o the_o old_a and_o new_a testament_n and_o particular_o to_o that_o of_o his_o death_n and_o passion_n for_o all_o this_o be_v whole_o perform_v to_o deliver_v we_o wretch_n from_o our_o sin_n and_o from_o every_o will_n of_o we_o that_o be_v contrary_a to_o he_o whereupon_o the_o illummate_v servant_n of_o god_n do_v affirm_v that_o our_o bless_a lord_n to_o annihilate_v in_o we_o any_o little_a passion_n whatsoever_o and_o self-will_a will_v again_o if_o it_o be_v needful_a expose_v himself_o to_o a_o thousand_o death_n by_o the_o which_o consideration_n know_v the_o desire_n thy_o saviour_n have_v to_o enter_v into_o thy_o soul_n thou_o shall_v stir_v uppe_o in_o thyself_o a_o fervent_a will_n to_o receive_v he_o with_o these_o or_o such_o like_a iaculatory_a prayer_n ah_o come_v my_o saviour_n &_o succour_v this_o thy_o miserable_a creature_n against_o his_o adversary_n when_o will_v that_o hour_n be_v that_o i_o may_v receive_v thou_o when_o will_v the_o time_n come_v that_o i_o comfort_v by_o thou_o the_o bread_n of_o life_n shall_v overcome_v my_o own_o proper_a will_n afterward_o be_v strengthen_v with_o the_o hope_n of_o the_o come_v ming_z of_o thy_o saviour_n call_v often_o time_n to_o battle_n that_o passion_n with_o the_o which_o thou_o do_v fight_v and_o enforce_v thyself_o to_o repress_v it_o with_o redouble_a and_o disdainful_a will_n and_o to_o bring_v forth_o afterward_o act_n of_o desire_n of_o the_o virtue_n contrary_a to_o the_o same_o passion_n and_o 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thus_o in_o thy_o mind_n thou_o see_v my_o saviour_n how_o easy_o i_o offend_v thou_o and_o how_o much_o i_o want_v how_o strong_a this_o passion_n oppress_v i_o and_o that_o it_o be_v not_o possible_a that_o by_o myself_o i_o can_v be_v deliver_v therefore_o this_o battle_n be_v thou_o and_o from_o thou_o only_o i_o hope_v for_o victory_n afterward_o turn_v thyself_o to_o the_o father_n and_o offer_v up_o to_o he_o for_o the_o same_o effect_n his_o most_o bless_a son_n who_o now_o thou_o have_v within_o thou_o and_o with_o faith_n expect_v his_o divine_a succour_n the_o which_o will_v not_o fail_v thou_o although_o thou_o shall_v not_o present_o feel_v his_o help_n how_o by_o this_o same_o sacrament_n we_o may_v stir_v uppe_o in_o we_o the_o affection_n of_o love._n chap._n 30._o to_o the_o end_n thou_o may_v stir_v up_o in_o thou_o with_o this_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n the_o love_n which_o destroy_v and_o consume_v all_o self-will_n thou_o shall_v turn_v thy_o thought_n to_o the_o 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