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and_o happiness_n and_o though_o i_o have_v not_o do_v so_o much_o as_o i_o will_v have_v do_v and_o desire_v to_o do_v yet_o this_o be_v my_o comsort_n i_o do_v what_o i_o can_v yea_o more_o many_o time_n than_o this_o poor_a carcase_n can_v well_o endure_v and_o this_o be_v my_o comfort_n i_o bless_v god_n before_o ever_o i_o first_o come_v to_o thou_o i_o seek_v god_n to_o direct_v i_o and_o desire_v it_o may_v not_o be_v if_o it_o be_v not_o for_o his_o glory_n and_o both_o our_o comfort_n and_o that_o which_o make_v i_o willing_a to_o enter_v into_o that_o condition_n it_o be_v because_o god_n will_v have_v it_o so_o otherwise_o i_o consider_v what_o may_v have_v discourage_v i_o from_o it_o as_o hindrance_n in_o the_o service_n of_o god_n loss_n and_o cross_n care_v to_o bring_v up_o child_n and_o then_o grief_n to_o part_n with_o they_o etc._n etc._n the_o first_o time_n i_o go_v to_o speak_v with_o she_o i_o find_v she_o be_v at_o prayer_n as_o to_o that_o great_a concern_v 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leave_v thou_o etc._n etc._n will_v have_v i_o continue_v still_o in_o this_o misery_n and_o pain_n we_o come_v together_o to_o part_n and_o therefore_o let_v we_o part_v comfortable_o we_o shall_v meet_v again_o where_o we_o shall_v never_o part_v i_o go_v a_o little_a before_o thou_o love_v i_o and_o will_v thou_o not_o let_v i_o go_v to_o my_o first_o husband_n i_o have_v another_o husband_n and_o if_o he_o send_v a_o messenger_n for_o i_o i_o must_v go_v though_o i_o leave_v never_o such_o dear_a relation_n here_o do_v as_o much_o work_n as_o thou_o can_v for_o god_n but_o do_v not_o over_o
i_o she_o reply_v better_a than_o she_o i_o be_o a_o poor_a worthless_a worm_n she_o say_v of_o her_o silk-gown_n it_o be_v but_o the_o work_n of_o a_o worm_n to_o clothe_v a_o worm_n etc._n etc._n as_o she_o live_v private_o she_o desire_v to_o be_v bury_v private_o when_o servant_n prove_v bad_a she_o will_v reflect_v upon_o herself_o and_o say_v i_o have_v not_o myself_o be_v to_o god_n so_o good_a a_o servant_n as_o i_o shall_v and_o ought_v to_o have_v be_v etc._n etc._n when_o other_o sin_n i_o be_o willing_a to_o reflect_v on_o myself_o and_o look_v back_o into_o my_o own_o heart_n and_o there_o to_o see_v the_o same_o sin_n and_o speak_v of_o mercy_n and_o blesing_n she_o will_v often_o say_v if_o my_o sin_n do_v not_o hinder_v i_o be_v willing_a to_o do_v good_a to_o the_o poor_a and_o such_o as_o stand_v in_o need_n i_o often_o think_v i_o may_v spare_v this_o and_o that_o and_o the_o other_o that_o so_o i_o may_v distribute_v to_o such_o etc._n etc._n indeed_o her_o 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right_a hand_n for_o poor_a creature_n for_o i_o also_o etc._n etc._n the_o lord_n have_v do_v and_o will_v comfort_v i_o he_o be_v a_o almighty_a alsufficient_a and_o unchangeable_a god_n he_o once_o say_v so_o to_o i_o when_o i_o be_v ready_a to_o despair_v etc._n etc._n he_o be_v my_o rock_n my_o fortress_n my_o high_a tower_n etc._n etc._n i_o be_o like_o a_o ship_n sometime_o under_o the_o wave_n but_o it_o appear_v again_o i_o will_v cast_v all_o my_o care_n and_o burden_n upon_o the_o lord_n and_o i_o will_v that_o all_o that_o fear_v he_o will_v do_v so_o and_o if_o not_o they_o will_v bear_v the_o shame_n and_o reproach_n thereof_o my_o time_n seem_v to_o tarry_v and_o when_o in_o extremity_n i_o be_o ready_a to_o say_v how_o â—ong_a but_o the_o time_n appoint_v for_o deliverance_n and_o time_n of_o refresh_a will_v come_v etc._n etc._n wait_v on_o god_n true_o it_o be_v that_o which_o i_o earnest_o desire_v to_o be_v always_o doâ—ng_a and_o that_o with_o delight_n oh_o that_o 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