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child_n child_n will_v i_o plead_v have_v any_o nation_n change_v their_o god_n which_o be_v no_o god_n but_o my_o people_n have_v change_v their_o glory_n for_o that_o which_o do_v not_o profit_n v._n 13._o they_o have_v commit_v two_o evil_n they_o have_v forsake_v i_o the_o fountain_n of_o live_a water_n and_o hew_v on_o it_o to_o themselves_o cistern_n break_a cistern_n that_o can_v hold_v no_o water_n oh_o may_v not_o the_o lord_n righteous_o complain_v thus_o of_o i_o have_v not_o i_o too_o much_o decline_v from_o he_o and_o run_v out_o after_o creature_n in_o my_o affection_n and_o desire_n and_o place_v too_o much_o happiness_n in_o other_o thing_n which_o have_v be_v make_v appear_v to_o be_v break_v cistern_n that_o can_v not_o hold_v any_o water_n v._n 14_o 15_o 16_o and_o now_o say_v the_o lord_n why_o be_v thou_o speil_v have_v the_o lion_n roar_v upon_o thou_o and_o be_v thy_o crown_n spoil_v v._n 17._o have_v thou_o not_o procure_v this_o to_o thyself_o in_o that_o 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