Selected quad for the lemma: end_n

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ID	Title	Author	Corrected Date of Publication (TCP Date of Publication)	STC	Words	Pages
A94794	A legacy for saints; being several experiences of the dealings of God with Anna Trapnel, in, and after her conversion, (written some years since with her own hand) and new coming to the sight of some friends, they have judged them worthy of publike view; together with some letters of a latter date, sent to the congregation with whom she walks in the fellowship of the Gospel, and to some other friends.	Trapnel, Anna.; Proud, John, fl. 1654.; Ingold, Caleb.	1654 (1654)	Wing T2032; Thomason E806_1; ESTC R207169	57,632	72

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