of_o carnal_a affection_n and_o this_o my_o request_n be_v to_o obtain_v for_o without_o thy_o special_a grace_n we_o shall_v neither_o lead_v a_o good_a life_n in_o this_o world_n nor_o live_v eternalie_a in_o the_o life_n to_o come_v 23_o and_o whereas_o i_o now_o live_v in_o the_o body_n it_o be_v no_o joy_n to_o i_o for_o better_v it_o be_v for_o i_o to_o die_v than_o to_o live_v 23_o because_o through_o this_o life_n i_o be_o debar_v the_o far_a from_o eternal_a life_n which_o can_v come_v unless_o that_o death_n do_v destroy_v the_o life_n present_a yea_o and_o death_n also_o itself_o be_v destroy_v hence_o it_o be_v that_o my_o desire_n be_v to_o heaven-ward_o and_o my_o heart_n seek_v eternal_a rest_n fetch_v deep_a sigh_n and_o cry_v it_o be_v now_o enough_o lord_n take_v away_o my_o soul_n which_o thou_o have_v redeem_v with_o thy_o precious_a blood_n 19_o open_v to_o i_o the_o gate_n of_o thy_o kingdom_n and_o let_v in_o a_o poor_a pilgrim_n 13_o return_v unto_o thou_o from_o exile_n listen_v to_o i_o lord_n and_o lose_v i_o from_o the_o band_n of_o the_o body_n 23_o what_o shall_v i_o long_o do_v here_o i_o be_o good_a neither_o to_o myself_o nor_o to_o other_o why_o then_o do_v i_o live_v to_o myself_o i_o be_o burdensome_a to_o other_o troublesome_a what_o shall_v become_v of_o i_o i_o wot_v not_o lord_n whether_o thou_o have_v foresee_v any_o better_a thing_n of_o i_o wherefore_o my_o longing_n shall_v be_v linger_v i_o do_v allow_v thy_o ordinance_n because_o it_o be_v good_a but_o in_o i_o only_o i_o find_v the_o evil_a why_o it_o greeve_v and_o trooble_v i_o to_o live_v in_o the_o world_n for_o daily_o i_o do_v sin_n i_o heap_v sin_n upon_o sin_n and_o yet_o as_o i_o ought_v i_o repent_v not_o if_o therefore_o i_o be_v loase_z from_o this_o body_n of_o sin_n 6_o and_o coople_v to_o thou_o in_o heaven_n neither_o shall_v i_o offend_v any_o more_o nor_o thou_o be_v offend_v but_o be_v praise_v continual_o notwithstanding_o as_o yet_o thou_o bear_v with_o i_o 9_o and_o show_v all_o patience_n i_o know_v my_o fault_n because_o through_o my_o sin_n i_o may_v not_o enter_v into_o thy_o kingdom_n for_o none_o unclean_a thing_n shall_v enter_v thereinto_o 15_o but_o when_o shall_v i_o be_v without_o sin_n when_o shall_v i_o through_o be_v cleanse_v that_o i_o may_v not_o fear_v to_o be_v prohibit_v but_o rejoice_v rather_o to_o be_v let_v in_o if_o i_o go_v not_o forward_o more_o zealous_o nor_o be_v more_o careful_a than_o hitherto_o i_o have_v be_v i_o be_o afraid_a my_o hope_n will_v be_v little_a enough_o but_o lord_n thou_o which_o will_v that_o no_o man_n shall_v perish_v 9_o but_o that_o all_o shall_v be_v save_v grant_v i_o more_o grace_n to_o the_o amendment_n of_o my_o life_n and_o to_o hope_v for_o celestial_a blessing_n give_v i_o the_o spirit_n of_o inward_a fatness_n let_v not_o my_o heart_n here_o rejoice_v after_o the_o flesh_n but_o in_o fear_v let_v it_o expect_v for_o death_n let_v no_o care_n or_o creature_n hold_v i_o back_o but_o let_v thy_o desire_a presence_n draw_v and_o comfort_v i_o bless_a be_v the_o man_n which_o trust_v in_o thou_o o_o lord_n 14_o but_o more_o bless_a be_v he_o that_o be_v pass_v out_o of_o this_o wicked_a world_n for_o he_o shall_v no_o more_o either_o feel_v or_o fear_v any_o trouble_n 4_o ⸪_o chap._n 7._o 1._o a_o godly_a desire_n for_o a_o good_a death_n o_o lord_n thou_o be_v my_o hope_n even_o from_o my_o youth_n 5_o in_o this_o hope_n i_o fly_v unto_o thou_o until_o the_o last_o hour_n and_o time_n of_o my_o resolution_n shall_v come_v oah_n that_o i_o be_v so_o well_o prepare_v that_o i_o may_v even_o now_o die_v under_o the_o hope_n of_o grace_n oah_n that_o i_o have_v end_v this_o life_n with_o a_o happy_a departure_n and_o lay_v off_o the_o load_n of_o this_o body_n 15_o how_o many_o danger_n and_o fear_n have_v i_o then_o escape_v happy_a be_v the_o man_n who_o thou_o have_v choose_v and_o take_v up_o who_o be_v now_o go_v out_o of_o this_o world_n unto_o the_o father_n 48_o from_o banishment_n unto_o a_o kingdom_n 34_o from_o the_o prison_n unto_o the_o palace_n 23._o from_o darkness_n unto_o light_n 5_o from_o death_n unto_o life_n 4_o unto_o security_n from_o danger_n 17_o from_o labour_n unto_o rest_n 23_o and_o from_o all_o manner_n misery_n unto_o everlasting_a felicity_n 5_o happy_a be_v the_o soul_n that_o now_o enjoy_v her_o reward_n triumph_v in_o thou_o her_o lord_n but_o alas_o that_o my_o contrie_n be_v so_o long_o keep_v from_o i_o 5_o how_o gracious_o and_o merciful_o shall_v thou_o deal_v with_o i_o if_o quick_o i_o be_v call_v away_o and_o bid_v to_o come_v unto_o thou_o that_o where_o thou_o be_v i_o may_v be_v also_o oah_n that_o i_o have_v be_v take_v out_o of_o this_o world_n before_o ever_o i_o have_v know_v the_o filthiness_n of_o the_o same_o and_o before_o i_o be_v afraid_a to_o offend_v even_o in_o small_a thing_n how_o happy_a then_o have_v i_o be_v but_o now_o the_o long_a here_o i_o live_v the_o more_o i_o wander_v from_o thou_o and_o do_v sin_n in_o too_o too_o many_o thing_n woe_n be_v i_o what_o have_v i_o do_v alas_o i_o have_v follow_v the_o desire_n of_o the_o flesh_n and_o have_v draw_v vanity_n to_o myself_o with_o rope_n but_o godliness_n i_o have_v abandon_v abhor_a innocence_n and_o add_v sin_n unto_o sin_n so_o that_o now_o to_o my_o grief_n i_o find_v that_o true_a which_o i_o have_v sometime_o read_v 11_o woe_n be_v to_o the_o wicked_a it_o shall_v be_v evil_a with_o he_o too_o too_o late_o almost_o i_o have_v return_v unto_o my_o god_n yea_o very_o late_o it_o be_v ear_n i_o begin_v to_o amend_v and_o then_o too_o but_o slow_o go_v i_o on_o i_o be_v not_o zealous_a enough_o in_o my_o proceed_n i_o do_v not_o increase_v in_o zeal_n but_o which_o be_v worse_a i_o wax_v cool_a and_o cool_a hence_o it_o be_v that_o many_o time_n i_o be_v very_o loath_a to_o die_v because_o my_o guilty_a conscience_n still_o tell_v i_o i_o have_v not_o live_v as_o i_o shall_v have_v do_v notwithstanding_o in_o consideration_n of_o the_o dangerous_a temptation_n whereunto_o i_o be_o subject_a and_o that_o my_o sin_n may_v not_o increase_v many_o a_o time_n have_v i_o wish_v for_o death_n and_o into_o these_o word_n have_v i_o burst_v say_v oah_n that_o now_o god_n in_o mercy_n will_v take_v i_o out_o of_o this_o world_n that_o i_o may_v sin_v no_o more_o upon_o earth_n oh_o that_o god_n speedy_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o take_v i_o away_o and_o make_v a_o end_n of_o my_o labour_n in_o what_o a_o happy_a state_n shall_v i_o then_o be_v but_o lord_n all_o thing_n must_v be_v even_o as_o thou_o will_v if_o thou_o mind_n to_o do_v that_o which_o i_o require_v it_o shall_v forthwith_o be_v accomplish_v but_o if_o otherwise_o thy_o will_n be_v do_v i_o may_v utter_v out_o my_o desire_n and_o the_o misery_n which_o i_o endure_v not_o as_o to_o he_o which_o be_v ignorant_a thereof_o but_o that_o thereby_o i_o may_v find_v some_o comfort_n to_o my_o soul_n i_o know_v i_o be_o not_o yet_o ready_a as_o i_o ought_v to_o be_v for_o my_o conscience_n be_v great_o out_o of_o quiet_a and_o what_o marvel_v though_o i_o a_o sinner_n do_v stand_v in_o fear_n see_v many_o even_o of_o the_o holy_a father_n be_v afraid_a because_o thou_o iudge_v not_o as_o man_n do_v 16_o but_o how_o shall_v i_o prepare_v myself_o it_o be_v good_a for_o i_o to_o prepare_v myself_o against_o that_o time_n which_o may_v come_v this_o day_n before_o to_o morrow_n for_o any_o thing_n i_o know_v therefore_o i_o will_v more_o firm_o alter_v my_o purpose_n i_o will_v bewail_v all_o my_o negligence_n pass_v i_o will_v sacrifice_v myself_o to_o thou_o and_o whole_o and_o henceforth_o commend_v myself_o unto_o thy_o mercy_n o_o lord._n o_o lord_n my_o god_n all_o my_o work_n do_v stand_v at_o thy_o mercy_n 7_o and_o without_o thy_o mercy_n i_o have_v no_o merit_n and_o this_o be_v my_o hope_n this_o be_v all_o my_o trust_n but_o how_o fare_v it_o with_o a_o good_a and_o pure_a conscience_n what_o say_v the_o chaste_a and_o devoute_a soul_n come_v say_v she_o lord_n jesus_n 20_o o_o come_v and_o tarry_v not_o untie_v my_o sin_n lose_v my_o fetter_n bring_v i_o out_o of_o prison_n out_o of_o the_o lake_n of_o misery_n and_o miry_a clay_n 1_o i_o have_v wait_v patient_o for_o thou_o o_o lord_n incline_v to_o i_o and_o hear_v my_o cry_n leave_v i_o not_o any_o long_o in_o this_o wicked_a world_n let_v it_o content_v thou_o that_o hitherto_o i_o have_v strive_v that_o so_o long_o i_o have_v be_v
molest_v thy_o servant_n struken_v with_o a_o horrible_a fear_n etc._n then_o shall_v they_o utterlie_o be_v confound_v which_o lay_v a_o good_a conscience_n and_o honesty_n aside_o give_v themselves_o to_o vanity_n and_o wantonness_n they_o shall_v suffer_v punishment_n then_o which_o have_v loose_v the_o bridle_n unto_o the_o flesh_n then_o shall_v they_o roar_v towards_o heaven_n which_o now_o be_v cunning_a in_o vain_a music_n and_o dance_n then_o shall_v that_o be_v turn_v into_o mourn_v which_o have_v be_v contract_v by_o inordinate_a pleasure_n they_o shall_v be_v bind_v up_o in_o bundle_n together_o to_o be_v burn_v then_o 43_o which_o have_v be_v companion_n together_o at_o drunkenness_n and_o bellie-cheere_n and_o who_o love_n have_v bind_v in_o wickedness_n the_o revenge_a fire_n shall_v roll_n together_o in_o torment_n o_o you_o foolish_a and_o wretched_a o_o you_o frantic_a and_o blind_a lover_n of_o the_o world_n what_o do_v you_o what_o be_v your_o meaning_n how_o will_v you_o escape_v the_o vengeance_n of_o the_o lord_n why_o for_o a_o little_a pleasure_n which_o you_o do_v love_n do_v you_o hasten_v unto_o everlasting_a torment_n why_o fear_v you_o not_o hell_n which_o do_v so_o fear_v a_o little_a penance_n and_o you_o which_o fly_v the_o death_n of_o the_o flesh_n why_o aforehand_o do_v you_o not_o take_v heed_n of_o the_o eternal_a death_n of_o the_o soul_n unless_o therefore_o you_o do_v convert_v and_o repent_v you_o shall_v never_o escape_v these_o horrible_a and_o fiery_a torment_n of_o god_n displeasure_n when_o i_o consider_v the_o day_n and_o hour_n of_o the_o general_a judgement_n my_o bone_n do_v shake_v for_o fear_n because_o entreaty_n then_o shall_v not_o turn_v away_o the_o wrath_n of_o god_n but_o he_o will_v be_v a_o righteous_a judge_n to_o all_o 23_o o_o god_n most_o holy_a mighty_a and_o merciful_a saviour_n save_v i_o from_o that_o bitter_a death_n and_o give_v i_o grace_n to_o repent_v that_o i_o may_v unfeinedlie_o bewail_v my_o sin_n before_o i_o depart_v our_o of_o this_o present_a world_n ⸫_o chap._n 3._o 1._o a_o humble_a confession_n of_o sin_n 2._o with_o a_o prayer_n for_o grace_n to_o repent_v my_o sorrow_n be_v ever_o before_o i_o 17_o o_o my_o god_n foulie_o have_v i_o spot_v my_o life_n with_o manifold_a sin_n but_o lord_n behold_v my_o tear_n which_o i_o shed_v before_o thou_o because_o i_o have_v so_o much_o offend_v thy_o holiness_n for_o i_o know_v that_o in_o i_o that_o be_v in_o my_o flesh_n dwell_v no_o good_a thing_n 18_o and_o that_o so_o long_o as_o i_o carry_v about_o a_o mortal_a body_n i_o be_o not_o free_a from_o wickedness_n 15_o i_o therefore_o do_v sin_n and_o offend_v day_n by_o day_n and_o which_o be_v more_o lamentable_a i_o suffer_v many_o sin_n to_o pass_v away_o without_o sorrow_n and_o due_a repentance_n for_o be_v busy_v most_o common_o and_o encumber_v with_o affair_n of_o the_o world_n and_o vane_n curiousness_n i_o be_o not_o able_a so_o speedy_o to_o return_v unto_o wholesome_a tear_n whereof_o it_o be_v that_o the_o darkness_n of_o sin_n do_v increase_v so_o mighty_o against_o i_o the_o which_o both_o stop_v up_o the_o fountain_n of_o grace_n &_o hinder_v the_o stream_n of_o heavenly_a comfort_n from_o come_v unto_o i_o lord_n and_o be_v that_o a_o small_a offence_n soule_n no_o my_o god_n it_o be_v a_o great_a sin_n and_o so_o much_o the_o great_a as_o it_o pass_v the_o soon_o from_o the_o heart_n and_o do_v not_o prick_v i_o with_o sorrow_n but_o lord_n will_v thou_o not_o regard_v this_o my_o wicked_a deal_n how_o long_o shall_v i_o delude_v thou_o and_o thus_o deceive_v myself_o will_v thou_o always_o be_v silent_a where_o be_v thy_o rod_n where_o be_v thy_o spur_n where_o be_v thy_o wand_n o_o lord_n why_o do_v thou_o withdraw_v thy_o judgement_n and_o the_o pain_n of_o hell_n from_o my_o eye_n be_v these_o thing_n always_o in_o my_o remembrance_n can_v i_o be_v so_o reckless_a thy_o silence_n and_o patience_n be_v for_o my_o amendment_n 9_o but_o if_o i_o still_o be_v negligent_a will_v thou_o not_o then_o punish_v i_o severelie_o â—0_n sure_o thou_o will_v punish_v i_o if_o not_o in_o this_o world_n yet_o in_o the_o world_n to_o come_v for_o nothing_o shall_v pass_v away_o unrevenged_a neither_o small_a neither_o great_a offence_n but_o much_o better_a here_o in_o this_o world_n where_o both_o weep_a be_v profitable_a the_o pain_n be_v short_a the_o satisfaction_n more_o accept_v and_o reconcilement_n soon_o have_v and_o therefore_o spare_v not_o the_o rod_n but_o with_o a_o sharp_a water_n anoint_v my_o eye_n and_o reserve_v not_o my_o sin_n until_o the_o time_n to_o come_v lest_o then_o i_o be_v deliver_v unto_o the_o torment_n until_o i_o have_v pay_v the_o utmost_a farthing_n 26_o better_a be_v it_o now_o a_o little_a for_o my_o profit_n to_o be_v prick_v than_o hereafter_o to_o feel_v the_o bitter_a pain_n of_o hell_n fire_n purgatorij_fw-la wherefore_o i_o be_o to_o mourn_v and_o to_o conceive_v a_o great_a sorrow_n for_o my_o sin_n for_o many_o thing_n i_o have_v to_o bewail_v but_o no_o cause_n at_o all_o to_o laugh_v the_o darkness_n of_o my_o hart_n the_o slipperine_n of_o my_o conscience_n my_o proneness_n unto_o wickedness_n my_o want_n of_o grace_n do_v wish_v i_o yea_o rather_o of_o necessity_n do_v enforce_v i_o to_o weep_v and_o to_o lament_v furthermore_o the_o remembrance_n of_o manifold_a temptation_n and_o of_o assault_n to_o sin_n shall_v make_v i_o have_v little_a lust_n to_o be_v merry_a spare_v i_o o_o lord_n spare_v i_o for_o though_o i_o weep_v be_v touch_v inwardlie_o with_o sorrow_n it_o be_v no_o marvel_n because_o the_o time_n be_v now_o to_o weep_v o_o happy_a be_v the_o hour_n when_o i_o conceive_v sorrow_n for_o my_o sin_n bless_a be_v the_o tear_n which_o do_v flow_v from_o the_o grief_n of_o heart_n at_o the_o consideration_n of_o the_o foulness_n of_o a_o guilty_a conscience_n and_o who_o be_v able_a to_o sound_v the_o bottom_n of_o this_o depth_n and_o to_o reproove_v the_o hide_a filthiness_n without_o feeling_n o_o my_o god_n the_o true_a light_n 9_o thou_o can_v lighten_v all_o the_o obscure_a place_n of_o my_o heart_n yea_o and_o burn_v up_o all_o the_o spot_n thereof_o in_o the_o spirit_n of_o heat_n and_o judgement_n it_o be_v in_o thou_o to_o give_v a_o new_a heart_n to_o create_v a_o new_a spirit_n 10_o and_o there_o to_o prepare_v a_o secret_a habitation_n that_o it_o may_v be_v a_o place_n for_o thou_o to_o rest_v in_o and_o a_o tabernacle_n of_o thy_o name_n which_o be_v the_o lover_n of_o cleanes_n and_o the_o guest_n of_o the_o good_a conscience_n but_o forsomuch_o as_o willing_o thou_o do_v not_o visit_v a_o disorder_a house_n but_o common_o leave_v the_o same_o to_o be_v illude_v with_o beastly_a affection_n i_o be_o the_o more_o careful_a lest_o that_o betide_v i_o but_o help_v i_o o_o merciful_a and_o gracious_a god_n to_o repair_v the_o ruin_n of_o this_o my_o house_n woe_n to_o he_o from_o who_o thou_o departe_v away_o offend_v but_o peace_n to_o he_o unto_o who_o thou_o descende_v and_o with_o who_o thou_o abide_v i_o miserable_a wretch_n now_o place_v in_o the_o mid_n of_o snare_n and_o load_v with_o the_o shackles_n of_o wickedness_n what_o counsel_n be_v best_a for_o i_o or_o what_o remedy_n to_o be_v use_v but_o only_o to_o lift_v up_o my_o heavy_a eye_n unto_o thou_o that_o my_o cry_n may_v be_v hear_v in_o the_o heaven_n for_o a_o pollute_a conscience_n shall_v never_o find_v or_o have_v a_o better_a medicine_n than_o bitter_o to_o slay_v itself_o in_o prayer_n and_o how_o can_v extreme_a tentation_n more_o profitable_o be_v cure_v that_o it_o prevail_v not_o than_o by_o pour_v continual_a petition_n unto_o thou_o and_o by_o humble_v ourselves_o but_o who_o can_v give_v i_o these_o blessing_n i_o mean_v to_o pray_v and_o to_o weep_v as_o i_o ought_v to_o do_v where_o may_v i_o attain_v that_o humility_n and_o abundance_n of_o tear_n doubtless_o of_o thou_o lord_n with_o who_o be_v mercy_n 7_o and_o great_a redemption_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n the_o giver_n of_o all_o grace_n 17_o grant_v that_o i_o may_v as_o i_o be_o bind_v bewail_v my_o offence_n seem_v they_o never_o so_o small_a and_o to_o amend_v all_o without_o vain_a excuse_n aswell_o those_o offence_n which_o be_v secret_a as_o those_o that_o be_v well_o know_v let_v this_o my_o hearty_a repentance_n get_v i_o thy_o favour_n again_o and_o prepare_v unto_o well_o do_v and_o to_o that_o which_o tend_v unto_o salvation_n chap._n 4._o 1._o a_o lamentation_n of_o the_o soul_n for_o her_o weakness_n and_o unstaidness_n in_o the_o race_n of_o virtue_n thy_o eye_n do_v see_v i_o when_o i_o be_v without_o form_n 16_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n
in_o exile_n that_o i_o have_v not_o deserve_v to_o enjoy_v thou_o nor_o to_o see_v thou_o face_n to_o face_n 4_o grant_v i_o to_o enjoy_v the_o long_a desire_a joy_n which_o no_o time_n shall_v end_v nor_o trouble_n overshadowe_v show_v i_o thy_o countenance_n which_o the_o angel_n continual_o do_v behold_v 10_o let_v thy_o voice_n be_v hear_v in_o my_o ear_n which_o they_o without_o cessing_n do_v hear_v come_v lord_n jesu_n and_o take_v i_o out_o of_o this_o foreign_a contrie_n call_v i_o wretch_n home_o unto_o my_o contrie_n 13_o and_o restore_v i_o a_o sinner_n unto_o my_o former_a purity_n come_v gracious_a redeemer_n 21_o make_v i_o partaker_n of_o thy_o eternal_a glory_n it_o be_v high_a time_n that_o i_o return_v unto_o thou_o it_o be_v now_o time_n that_o i_o commend_v my_o body_n to_o the_o earth_n whereout_o it_o be_v take_v 7._o the_o matter_n be_v not_o great_a where_o the_o body_n be_v lay_v or_o how_o it_o be_v handle_v if_o so_o be_v the_o soul_n be_v safe_a and_o come_v unto_o thou_o let_v my_o spirit_n do_v well_o which_o i_o commend_v into_o thy_o hand_n and_o let_v my_o flesh_n rest_n in_o hope_n to_o be_v raise_v up_o again_o in_o the_o last_o day_n 53_o for_o wheresoever_o it_o be_v bury_v it_o can_v never_o be_v far_o or_o hide_v from_o thou_o remove_v i_o from_o the_o company_n of_o man_n and_o join_v i_o to_o the_o society_n of_o thy_o saint_n for_o this_o temporal_a life_n be_v irksome_a to_o i_o but_o to_o think_v of_o the_o day_n of_o eternal_a glory_n rejoice_v my_o heart_n oah_n let_v not_o the_o old_a serpent_n 9_o withstand_v i_o at_o my_o departure_n out_o of_o egypt_n let_v not_o the_o enemy_n bark_n against_o i_o in_o the_o gate_n let_v neither_o satan_n with_o his_o ugly_a sight_n terrify_v nor_o the_o horror_n of_o death_n trouble_v i_o but_o let_v thy_o holy_a angel_n faithful_o assist_v stout_o aid_n valiant_o protect_v love_o receive_v and_o ioiefullie_o bring_v i_o unto_o the_o everlasting_a felicity_n of_o thy_o celestial_a paradise_n and_o merciful_a lovely_a and_o bless_a jesu_n do_v thou_o gracious_o i_o beseech_v thou_o behold_v i_o and_o cast_v i_o not_o out_o of_o the_o number_n of_o thy_o servant_n but_o remember_v o_o son_n of_o god_n how_o thou_o have_v redeem_v i_o with_o thy_o precious_a blood_n 7_o receive_v i_o into_o glory_n and_o that_o in_o thy_o mercy_n and_o goodness_n 19_o because_o great_o have_v i_o wish_v to_o solemnize_v a_o passover_o with_o thou_o oah_n happy_a day_n of_o my_o desire_a reward_n come_v bless_a hour_n of_o bless_a passage_n which_o long_o i_o have_v desire_v and_o keep_v before_o my_o eye_n what_o now_o have_v the_o trouble_n and_o affliction_n in_o the_o world_n hurt_v i_o 18_o what_o be_o i_o the_o woorsse_n for_o the_o contempt_n labour_n and_o humiliation_n for_o thy_o name_n sake_n thou_o have_v be_v my_o life_n and_o now_o death_n will_v be_v to_o i_o a_o advantage_n 24_o and_o to_o be_v with_o thou_o in_o thy_o kingdom_n will_v be_v absolute_a felicity_n now_o praise_n and_o glory_n be_v to_o thou_o who_o be_v the_o life_n of_o such_o as_o live_v 25_o the_o hope_n of_o those_o which_o die_v 26_o the_o salvation_n and_o rest_n of_o all_o which_o trust_v in_o thou_o 20_o chap._n 8._o a_o meditation_n of_o one_o dead_a unto_o the_o world_n yet_o alive_a in_o christ._n turn_v away_o my_o eye_n from_o regard_v vanity_n 37_o oah_n jesu_n which_o be_v the_o true_a life_n â—5_n which_o never_o shall_v have_v a_o end_n geve_v i_o grace_v that_o through_o love_n of_o thou_o i_o may_v be_v consume_v through_o love_n wound_v through_o love_n kill_v that_o the_o flesh_n prevail_v not_o over_o i_o i_o be_o not_o as_o yet_o thorough_o dead_a to_o the_o world_n but_o the_o old_a man_n yet_o live_v in_o i_o 23_o raise_v up_o within_o i_o much_o contention_n and_o desire_n of_o manifold_a evil_n and_o make_v the_o night_n bitter_a and_o the_o day_n tedious_a unto_o i_o oah_n when_o will_v it_o fall_v out_o that_o bold_o i_o may_v say_v i_o 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it_o come_v that_o it_o will_v not_o suffer_v the_o spirit_n to_o be_v at_o rest_n but_o lay_v before_o it_o sundry_a fantasy_n which_o be_v scarce_o to_o be_v speak_v and_o in_o truth_n not_o to_o be_v account_v of_o but_o he_o which_o be_v endue_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o spiritual_a fortitude_n may_v with_o more_o ease_n subdue_v the_o insolent_a motion_n of_o the_o flesh_n sing_v in_o the_o word_n of_o the_o divine_a power_n 6_o the_o lord_n be_v with_o i_o therefore_o i_o will_v not_o fear_v what_o flesh_n can_v do_v unto_o i_o therefore_o albeit_o this_o sensuality_n do_v move_v battle_n and_o the_o voice_n of_o the_o flesh_n do_v secret_o murmur_v 23_o yet_o do_v not_o the_o spiritual_a man_n easy_o consent_v for_o great_a be_v the_o force_n of_o the_o divine_a love_n which_o inwardlie_o do_v comfort_n this_o man_n now_o and_o then_o so_o sweet_o so_o strong_o and_o so_o earnest_o be_v draw_v ravish_v and_o in_o love_n with_o god_n that_o scarce_o he_o do_v see_v and_o 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virtue_n do_v perisho_n for_o thus_o he_o say_v to_o he_o 6_o set_v i_o aâ—_n a_o seal_n on_o thy_o heart_n and_o so_o forth_o as_o iâ—_n follow_v in_o that_o place_n it_o be_v good_a to_o seal_v the_o heart_n and_o to_o keep_v it_o lest_o the_o belove_a go_v back_o and_o fly_v away_o because_o he_o seek_v and_o visit_v above_o all_o a_o pure_a and_o a_o humble_a heart_n 29_o these_o thing_n he_o think_v with_o himself_o and_o be_v astonish_v at_o that_o good_a thing_n which_o pass_v all_o sense_n and_o gift_n yea_o still_o he_o wander_v and_o enquire_v diligent_o what_o thing_n be_v this_o and_o exceed_o rejoice_v for_o
presence_n i_o will_v bewail_v thy_o absence_n because_o even_o this_o be_v a_o token_n of_o love_n and_o a_o great_a pleasure_n to_o the_o love_a soul_n now_o than_o the_o sense_n of_o this_o sentence_n appear_v because_o it_o be_v right_o say_v of_o the_o love_a soul_n how_o the_o more_o fervent_o she_o love_v and_o the_o more_o earnest_o she_o long_v after_o eternal_a thing_n the_o more_o true_o she_o feel_v the_o power_n thereof_o work_v within_o she_o they_o be_v not_o cold_a word_n but_o to_o the_o unkind_a soul_n neither_o deaf_a organ_n but_o to_o the_o harden_a hart_n the_o love_a and_o zealous_a soul_n know_v this_o well_o and_o be_v so_o often_o inflame_v in_o hart_n as_o she_o be_v prick_v with_o the_o desire_n of_o eternal_a peace_n and_o therefore_o she_o speak_v to_o thou_o her_o lord_n god_n not_o to_o man_n of_o who_o she_o will_v not_o be_v know_v and_o although_o sometime_o she_o talk_v with_o man_n yet_o that_o which_o they_o hear_v be_v to_o the_o outward_a sense_n 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from_o the_o body_n of_o this_o death_n 24_o there_o be_v none_o so_o grevous_a a_o burden_n unto_o i_o as_o still_o to_o wander_v from_o thou_o by_o live_v in_o the_o world_n for_o labour_v in_o love_n i_o wish_v for_o no_o comfort_n beside_o thou_o for_o by_o good_a experience_n i_o have_v long_o sithence_o learned_a that_o my_o soul_n can_v neither_o be_v satisfy_v with_o the_o good_a thing_n of_o this_o world_n 8_o nor_o yet_o be_v bless_v until_o she_o be_v join_v unto_o thou_o in_o the_o celestial_a habitation_n for_o as_o exceed_o she_o do_v love_n burn_v and_o use_v contemplation_n while_o she_o be_v in_o the_o body_n so_o will_v her_o desire_n be_v insatiable_a until_o the_o body_n be_v lay_v off_o and_o therefore_o her_o end_n must_v be_v make_v perfect_a by_o attain_v the_o sovereign_a felicity_n and_o the_o light_n of_o thy_o countenance_n 4_o o_o king_n of_o heaven_n 14_o so_o amiable_a in_o all_o respect_n o_o my_o all_o lovely_a belove_a even_o whole_o to_o be_v desire_v 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and_o these_o tear_n do_v more_o feed_v and_o refresh_v the_o love_a soul_n than_o if_o she_o enjoy_v all_o the_o thing_n of_o this_o world_n for_o do_v she_o love_v they_o 24_o she_o will_v not_o weep_v for_o thou_o oah_n how_o bless_v and_o please_v to_o thou_o be_v the_o shed_n of_o such_o tear_n for_o they_o do_v both_o kill_v the_o desire_n of_o secular_a and_o temporal_a joy_n and_o also_o they_o obtain_v the_o celestial_a consolation_n and_o therefore_o none_o do_v shed_v such_o holy_a tear_n but_o they_o which_o be_v both_o singular_o in_o love_n and_o very_o notable_o religious_a far_o of_o another_o kind_n be_v the_o tear_n of_o such_o as_o miserable_o be_v trooble_v in_o this_o world_n for_o one_o man_n weep_v because_o he_o be_v sick_a another_o for_o that_o he_o be_v oppress_v another_o because_o he_o be_v injure_v another_o because_o his_o mind_n be_v contrary_v but_o it_o be_v thou_o religious_a soul_n only_o which_o pour_v forth_o tear_n even_o of_o pure_a love_n to_o 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