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grace_n and_o not_o affection_n to_o her_o child_n the_o inclination_n of_o nature_n move_v she_o to_o accept_v this_o employment_n pag._n 185._o chap._n iu._n her_o zeal_n for_o the_o conversion_n of_o her_o relation_n to_o the_o catholic_a faith_n her_o prayer_n for_o they_o and_o ferverous_a letter_n to_o the_o father_n express_v her_o passionate_a love_n towards_o he_o by_o her_o fervent_a zeal_n for_o his_o conversion_n notwithstanding_o his_o great_a severity_n and_o unkindness_n towards_o she_o pag._n 190._o chap._n v._n her_o generous_a resolution_n of_o tend_v to_o perfection_n the_o testimony_n of_o her_o ghostly_a father_n and_o other_o how_o diligent_o she_o put_v these_o her_o resolution_n in_o practice_n pag._n 199._o chap._n vi_o the_o excellency_n of_o her_o prayer_n gather_v from_o its_o fruit_n pag._n 204._o chap._n vii_o mr._n ruisson_n letter_n to_o sister_n clare_n contain_v admirable_a direction_n for_o prayer_n and_o union_n with_o god_n in_o which_o perfection_n 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