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justice_n cruelty_n etc._n etc._n if_o they_o be_v any_o thing_n devout_a or_o forward_o to_o admonish_v other_o that_o so_o they_o may_v pluck_v they_o out_o of_o the_o fire_n i_o conceive_v they_o to_o be_v beside_o themselves_o as_o our_o saviour_n be_v think_v to_o be_v by_o his_o kinsfolk_n and_o st._n paul_n by_o festus_n mark_v 3.21_o john_n 10.20_o act_n 26.24_o 1_o cor._n 1.18_o my_o religion_n be_v to_o oppose_v the_o power_n of_o religion_n and_o my_o knowledge_n of_o the_o truth_n to_o know_v how_o to_o argue_v against_o the_o truth_n i_o never_o affect_v christ_n ambassador_n that_o preach_v the_o glad_a tiding_n of_o salvation_n but_o have_v a_o spleen_n against_o they_o yea_o i_o hate_v a_o minister_n for_o be_v
a_o minister_n especial_o if_o a_o godly_a and_o zealous_a one_o that_o speak_v home_o to_o my_o conscience_n and_o tell_v i_o of_o my_o sin_n much_o more_o if_o he_o will_v not_o admit_v i_o to_o the_o lord_n table_n without_o trial_n and_o examination_n yea_o then_o like_o ahab_n to_o eliah_n i_o become_v his_o enemy_n and_o hate_v he_o ever_o after_o will_v impeach_v his_o credit_n and_o detain_v from_o he_o his_o due_n and_o be_v not_o all_o these_o strong_a evidence_n that_o i_o love_v and_o serve_v god_n and_o my_o redeemer_n as_o i_o ought_v but_o to_o make_v it_o more_o manifest_a what_o a_o rare_a christian_a i_o be_v i_o think_v myself_o a_o believer_n yea_o i_o can_v boast_v of_o a_o strong_a faith_n when_o yet_o i_o fall_v short_a of_o the_o very_a devil_n in_o believe_v for_o they_o believe_v the_o threat_n and_o judgement_n contain_v in_o the_o word_n and_o tremble_v thereat_o james_n 2.19_o whereas_o i_o think_v they_o but_o scare-crow_n to_o fright_v the_o simple_a withal_o yea_o i_o hold_v hell_n itself_o but_o a_o fancy_n not_o worth_a the_o fear_v because_o i_o be_v not_o notorious_o wicked_a but_o have_v a_o form_n of_o godliness_n be_v civil_a &c_n &c_n i_o be_v able_a to_o delude_v my_o own_o soul_n and_o put_v off_o all_o reproof_n and_o threaten_n by_o compare_v myself_o with_o those_o that_o i_o presume_v be_v worse_a than_o myself_o as_o drunkard_n adulterer_n blasphemer_n oppressor_n shedder_n of_o blood_n and_o the_o like_a count_v none_o wicked_a but_o such_o yea_o look_v upon_o these_o i_o admire_v my_o own_o holiness_n and_o think_v my_o moral_a honesty_n will_v be_v sufficient_a to_o save_v i_o nor_o do_v i_o know_v wherein_o i_o have_v offend_v and_o whereas_o the_o law_n be_v spiritual_a and_o bind_v the_o heart_n from_o affect_v no_o less_o than_o the_o hand_n from_o act_v i_o be_v so_o blind_a and_o ignorant_a that_o i_o think_v the_o commandment_n be_v not_o break_v if_o the_o outward_a gross_a sin_n be_v forbear_v whence_o these_o be_v my_o thought_n i_o never_o break_v the_o first_o commandment_n of_o have_v many_o god_n for_o i_o be_v no_o papist_n nor_o idolater_n nor_o the_o second_o for_o i_o worship_v god_n aright_o nor_o the_o three_o for_o i_o have_v be_v no_o common_a swearer_n only_o a_o few_o petty_a oath_n nor_o the_o four_o for_o i_o have_v every_o sabbath_n go_v due_o to_o church_n nor_o the_o five_o for_o i_o ever_o honour_v my_o parent_n &_o have_v be_v a_o loyal_a subject_n nor_o the_o six_o seven_o eight_o nine_o or_o ten_o for_o i_o never_o commit_v murder_n or_o adultery_n never_o steal_v aught_o never_o bear_v false_a witness_n nor_o can_v i_o call_v to_o mind_n that_o i_o have_v at_o any_o time_n covet_v my_o neighbour_n wife_n servant_n estate_n etc._n etc._n and_o nothing_o more_o common_a with_o i_o than_o to_o brag_v of_o a_o good_a heart_n and_o meaning_n of_o the_o strength_n of_o my_o faith_n and_o hope_n of_o my_o just_a and_o upright_o deal_n etc._n etc._n and_o because_o i_o abstain_v from_o notorious_a sin_n i_o think_v myself_o a_o excellent_a christian_a if_o god_n be_v not_o behold_v to_o i_o for_o not_o wound_v his_o name_n with_o oath_n for_o not_o drink_v &_o play_v out_o his_o sabbath_n for_o not_o rail_v on_o his_o minister_n for_o not_o oppress_v &_o persecute_v his_o poor_a member_n etc._n etc._n sect._n 13._o and_o yet_o have_v it_o be_v so_o as_o i_o imagine_v admit_v i_o have_v never_o offend_v in_o the_o least_o all_o my_o life_n either_o in_o thought_n word_n or_o deed_n yet_o this_o be_v but_o one_o half_a of_o what_o i_o owe_v to_o god_n this_o be_v but_o to_o observe_v the_o negative_a part_n of_o his_o law_n still_o the_o affirmative_a part_n thereof_o i_o have_v be_v so_o far_o from_o perform_v that_o i_o have_v not_o so_o much_o as_o think_v of_o it_o and_o to_o be_v just_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n and_o gracious_o accept_v of_o he_o these_o two_o thing_n be_v require_v the_o satisfactory_a part_n to_o escape_v hell_n and_o the_o meritorious_a part_n to_o get_v heaven_n and_o the_o true_a method_n of_o grace_n be_v cease_v to_o do_v evil_a learn_v to_o do_v well_o isa._n 1.16_o 17._o the_o fig_n tree_n be_v curse_v not_o for_o bear_v evil_a fruit_n but_o because_o it_o bear_v no_o good_a the_o evil_a servant_n be_v not_o bind_v hand_n and_o foot_n and_o cast_v into_o prison_n for_o waste_v his_o master_n good_n but_o for_o not_o gain_v with_o they_o and_o those_o reprobate_n at_o the_o last_o day_n shall_v be_v bid_v depart_n into_o everlasting_a fire_n not_o for_o wrong_v or_o rob_v of_o any_o but_o for_o not_o give_v for_o not_o comfort_v christ_n poor_a member_n mat._n 25._o so_o that_o my_o case_n be_v most_o desperate_a for_o though_o with_o that_o pharisee_fw-mi luk._n 18.11_o i_o be_v apt_a to_o thank_v god_n and_o brag_n that_o i_o be_v just_a and_o pay_v every_o man_n his_o due_a yet_o i_o never_o think_v of_o be_v holy_a and_o of_o pay_v god_n his_o due_n as_o his_o due_n of_o believe_v or_o repent_v of_o new_a obedience_n his_o due_n of_o pray_v hear_v confer_v meditate_v on_o his_o word_n and_o work_n sanctify_v his_o sabbath_n and_o instruct_v my_o child_n &_o servant_n teach_v they_o to_o fear_v the_o lord_n his_o due_a of_o love_n fear_v thankfulness_n zeal_n for_o his_o glory_n charity_n and_o mercy_n to_o christ_n poor_a member_n and_o the_o like_a i_o shall_v have_v serve_v god_n in_o spirit_n &_o according_a to_o christ_n gospel_n as_o all_o that_o be_v wise_a heart_a endeavour_n go_v live_v &_o believe_v &_o hear_v and_o invocate_v and_o hope_v and_o fear_v and_o love_n and_o worship_n god_n in_o such_o manner_n as_o his_o word_n prescribe_v i_o shall_v have_v be_v effectual_o call_v and_o become_v a_o new_a creature_n by_o regeneration_n be_v beget_v and_o bear_v anew_o by_o the_o immortal_a seed_n of_o the_o word_n i_o shall_v have_v find_v a_o apparent_a change_n wrought_v in_o my_o judgement_n affection_n and_o action_n to_o what_o they_o be_v former_o the_o old_a man_n shall_v have_v change_v with_o the_o newman_n worldly_a wisdom_n with_o heavenly_a wisdom_n carnal_a love_n with_o spiritual_a love_n servile_a fear_n for_o christian_a and_o filial_a fear_n idle_a thought_n for_o holy_a thought_n vain_a word_n for_o holy_a and_o wholesome_a word_n fleshly_a work_n for_o work_n of_o righteousness_n even_o hate_v what_o i_o former_o love_v and_o love_v what_o i_o former_o hate_v but_o alas_o i_o have_v hear_v the_o gospel_n day_n after_o day_n and_o year_n after_o year_n which_o be_v the_o strong_a arm_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o the_o mighty_a power_n of_o god_n to_o salvation_n that_o be_v quick_a and_o powerful_a and_o sharp_a than_o any_o two_o edge_v sword_n and_o yet_o stand_v it_o out_o and_o resist_v instead_o of_o submit_v to_o christ_n call_n even_o refuse_v the_o free_a offer_n of_o grace_n and_o salvation_n i_o have_v hear_v the_o word_n faithful_o and_o powerful_o preach_v for_o forty_o year_n yet_o remain_v in_o my_o natural_a condition_n unregenerate_a without_o which_o new_a birth_n there_o be_v no_o be_v save_v as_o our_o saviour_n affirm_v john_n 3.5_o i_o have_v not_o tread_v one_o step_n in_o the_o way_n to_o conversion_n for_o the_o first_o part_n of_o conversion_n be_v to_o love_v they_o that_o love_n god_n 1_o john_n 3.10_o 11_o 14._o i_o shall_v daily_o have_v grow_v in_o grace_n and_o in_o the_o knowledge_n of_o our_o lord_n and_o saviour_n jesus_n christ_n but_o i_o be_v so_o far_o from_o grow_v in_o grace_n that_o i_o have_v not_o one_o spark_n of_o grace_n or_o holiness_n without_o which_o no_o man_n shall_v see_v the_o lord_n heb._n 12.14_o i_o be_v all_o for_o observe_v the_o second_o table_n without_o respect_n to_o the_o first_o or_o all_o for_o outward_a conformity_n not_o at_o all_o for_o spiritual_a and_o inward_a holiness_n of_o the_o heart_n sect._n 14._o either_o what_o i_o do_v be_v not_o moral_o good_a for_o the_o matter_n or_o not_o well_o do_v for_o the_o manner_n nor_o to_o any_o right_a end_n as_o out_o of_o duty_n and_o thankfulness_n to_o god_n and_o my_o redeemer_n and_o out_o of_o love_n to_o my_o fellow_n member_n without_o which_o the_o most_o glorious_a performance_n and_o the_o rare_a virtue_n be_v but_o shine_a sin_n or_o beautiful_a abomination_n god_n glory_n be_v not_o my_o principal_a end_n nor_o to_o be_v save_v my_o great_a care_n i_o be_v a_o good_a civil_a moral_a honest_a hypocrite_n or_o infidel_n but_o none_o of_o these_o grace_n grow_v in_o the_o garden_n of_o my_o heart_n i_o do_v not_o shine_v out_o as_o a_o light_n by_o a_o holy_a conversation_n to_o glorify_v god_n and_o win_v other_o now_o only_o to_o refrain_v evil_a except_o