do_v threaten_v i_o may_v eschape_n by_o fear_v thou_o 12._o and_o give_v i_o again_o the_o joy_n of_o thy_o salvation_n that_o those_o thing_n which_o thou_o do_v promise_v i_o may_v receive_v by_o love_v thou_o 13._o o_o lord_n my_o strength_n my_o force_n my_o god_n my_o refuge_n and_o my_o deliverer_n instruct_v i_o what_o i_o ought_v to_o think_v and_o conceive_v of_o thou_o 14._o teach_v i_o with_o what_o word_n i_o be_o to_o call_v upon_o thou_o 15._o make_v know_v unto_o i_o which_o way_n i_o may_v please_v thou_o 16._o one_o thing_n doubtless_o i_o know_v with_o which_o thou_o be_v appease_v and_o another_o which_o thou_o do_v not_o despise_v very_o a_o penitent_a spirit_n be_v to_o thou_o a_o sacrifice_n acceptable_a so_o likewise_o a_o hart_n that_o be_v contrite_a and_o humble_a 17._o with_o these_o gift_n o_o my_o god_n &_o my_o aid_n do_v thou_o enrichmee_o 18._o barricade_n i_o with_o these_o bulwark_n against_o my_o enemy_n 19_o grant_v i_o this_o refreshinge_v against_o the_o flame_n of_o my_o vicious_a inclination_n 20._o set_a open_v this_o pious_a place_n of_o refuge_n to_o which_o i_o may_v fly_v from_o the_o tumult_n of_o my_o inordinate_a affection_n amen_n the_o xvii_o exercise_n 1._o graunt_n o_o lord_n that_o i_o be_v not_o of_o the_o number_n of_o those_o who_o for_o a_o time_n believe_v and_o in_o time_n of_o temptation_n do_v depart_v and_o leave_v thou_o 2._o cover_v my_o head_n in_o the_o day_n of_o battle_n thou_o o_o lord_n who_o be_v my_o hope_n in_o the_o day_n of_o affliction_n and_o my_o safeguard_n in_o the_o time_n of_o tribulation_n 3._o behold_v o_o lord_n my_o light_n and_o my_o life_n i_o have_v ask_v those_o thing_n which_o i_o wanâ—_n i_o have_v make_v know_v those_o thing_n which_o i_o fear_v my_o conscience_n nevertheless_o torment_v i_o the_o secret_n of_o my_o hart_n do_v reprehénd_v i_o 4._o and_o what_o love_n afford_v fear_n disperse_v zeal_n encourage_v i_o dread_n daunt_v i_o 5._o my_o action_n cause_v i_o to_o fear_v but_o thy_o pity_n give_v i_o cause_n of_o hope_n 6._o thy_o mercy_n embolden_v i_o my_o naughtiness_n with_o hold_v i_o 7._o and_o to_o speak_v the_o truth_n their_o occur_v to_o my_o memory_n many_o sinful_a imagination_n which_o reprehend_v the_o boldness_n of_o my_o presume_v affection_n 8._o he_o therefore_o who_o deserve_v anger_n with_o what_o face_n can_v he_o demand_v favour_n 9_o he_o who_o merit_v to_o be_v punish_v how_o can_v he_o be_v so_o fool_n hardy_a as_o to_o ask_v to_o be_v reward_v 10._o he_o incense_v the_o judge_n who_o neglect_v to_o make_v satisfaction_n for_o his_o offence_n and_o yet_o make_v mean_n to_o obtain_v a_o recompense_n 11._o that_o malefactor_n mock_v and_o deride_v his_o king_n and_o lord_n who_o earnest_o require_v the_o prize_n and_o honour_n which_o he_o never_o deserve_v 12._o that_o foolish_a son_n likewise_o provoke_v to_o anger_v the_o sweet_a affection_n of_o his_o father_n who_o upon_o reproach_n offer_v without_o repentance_n dare_v usurp_v and_o lay_v title_n to_o his_o inheritance_n 13._o what_o be_v this_o o_o father_n that_o i_o recompt_n of_o myself_o i_o have_v deserve_v death_n yet_o beg_v for_o life_n 14._o i_o have_v move_v my_o king_n to_o anger_n who_o aid_n notwithstanding_o i_o impudentlye_o implore_v 15._o i_o have_v despise_v my_o judge_n who_o boldlye_o i_o beg_v to_o be_v my_o helper_n 16._o i_o have_v insolentlye_o refuse_v to_o hear_v he_o as_o a_o father_n who_o now_o i_o presume_v to_o choose_v as_o my_o defender_n 17._o woe_n be_v i_o for_o not_o come_v so_o soon_o as_o i_o ought_v alas_o alas_o how_o little_o have_v do_v i_o make_v 18._o i_o neglect_v to_o beware_v of_o the_o weapon_n which_o wound_v i_o behore_n hand_n and_o now_o i_o be_o trouble_v through_o the_o apprehension_n of_o death_n at_o hand_n this_o be_v continue_v in_o the_o follow_v exercise_n the_o xviii_o exercise_n 1._o i_o have_v make_v my_o former_a scar_n to_o fester_v with_o new_a sore_n since_o i_o have_v renew_v my_o former_a fault_n by_o new_a iniquity_n 2._o and_o those_o which_o the_o divine_a salve_n have_v make_v sound_a my_o phrenetical_a itchinge_v have_v again_o unbound_v 3._o the_o skin_n which_o be_v grow_v over_o my_o wound_n have_v hide_v my_o malady_n by_o reason_n of_o corruption_n breakinge_v forth_o have_v grow_v to_o purify_v because_o my_o iniquity_n be_v reiterated_a have_v bereave_v i_o of_o mercy_n which_o before_o be_v grant_v 4._o for_o that_o i_o know_v it_o be_v write_v in_o what_o hour_n soever_o a_o just_a man_n shall_v sin_v all_o his_o good_a deed_n shall_v be_v forget_v 5._o if_o the_o righteousness_n of_o a_o good_a man_n be_v abolish_v when_o he_o fall_v into_o sin_n 6._o by_o how_o much_o more_o be_v the_o penance_n of_o a_o sinner_n deface_v if_o he_o return_v to_o the_o same_o 7._o how_o often_o like_o a_o dog_n have_v i_o return_v to_o that_o which_o i_o have_v vomit_v up_o before_o 8._o and_o as_o a_o sow_n have_v wallow_v again_o in_o the_o mire_n 9_o i_o confess_v that_o it_o be_v impossible_a for_o i_o to_o remember_v how_o many_o simple_a and_o ignorant_a person_n through_o my_o mean_n have_v sin_v 10._o how_o many_o that_o be_v desirous_a to_o cease_v from_o sin_n have_v i_o persuade_v to_o sin_n 11._o how_o many_o that_o have_v withstand_v i_o have_v i_o constrain_v 12._o to_o how_o many_o that_o be_v willinge_v have_v i_o consent_v 13._o to_o how_o many_o walk_a in_o the_o right_a way_n have_v i_o prepare_v a_o gin_n or_o snare_n 14._o to_o how_o many_o that_o have_v seek_v the_o right_a way_n have_v i_o uncover_v the_o pit_n that_o they_o may_v fall_v in_o 15._o and_o that_o i_o may_v not_o be_v frighten_v with_o committinge_n still_o the_o like_a i_o easy_o put_v those_o past_a out_o of_o my_o mind_n 16._o but_o thou_o in_o the_o mean_a while_n be_v a_o just_a judge_n have_v observe_v and_o record_v and_o do_v observe_v and_o record_v all_o my_o offence_n and_o have_v number_v all_o my_o footstep_n 17._o thou_o have_v all_o this_o while_n hold_v thy_o peace_n thou_o have_v be_v silent_a thou_o have_v be_v patient_a 10._o woo_v be_v i_o for_o that_o thou_o will_v speak_v at_o length_n as_o a_o weoman_n in_o her_o travail_n this_o exercise_n be_v continue_v the_o xix_o exercise_n 1._o i_o dâ—â—re_v not_o o_o my_o lord_n god_n presume_v on_o my_o own_o merit_n yea_o i_o be_o afraid_a and_o tremble_v to_o present_v myself_o before_o thou_o 2._o for_o my_o soul_n and_o body_n be_v spot_v and_o blemish_v with_o many_o sin_n and_o defect_n and_o i_o have_v be_v negligent_a â—â—_o think_v and_o word_n 3._o to_o thou_o therefore_o o_o merciful_a god_n &_o dear_a sawiour_n i_o wretched_a sinner_n be_v in_o these_o strait_n recurre_v as_o unto_o the_o fountain_n of_o mercy_n and_o pity_n â—_o fly_v unto_o thou_o for_o salvation_n 4._o and_o to_o thou_o o_o lord_n i_o lie_v open_a my_o wound_n and_o sore_n to_o thou_o i_o discover_v my_o infirmity_n of_o which_o i_o be_o ashamed_a 5._o i_o know_v my_o sin_n to_o be_v many_o and_o great_a for_o which_o i_o stand_v in_o fear_n 6._o i_o hope_v in_o thy_o mercy_n which_o be_v without_o end_n 7._o lord_n jesus-christ_n eternal_a king_n god_n and_o man_n look_v upon_o i_o with_o the_o eye_n of_o thy_o mercy_n 8._o harken_v unto_o i_o puttinge_v my_o trust_n in_o thou_o have_v pity_n on_o i_o that_o be_o full_a of_o misery_n and_o sin_n thou_o o_o lord_n who_o never_o restreign_a the_o flowinge_a of_o the_o fountain_n of_o thy_o mercy_n 9_o i_o be_o hartilye_o sorry_a that_o ever_o i_o have_v offend_v thou_o i_o desire_v to_o amend_v for_o the_o time_n to_o come_v 10._o do_v away_o therefore_o from_o i_o o_o most_o merciful_a father_n all_o my_o sin_n and_o iniquity_n that_o so_o be_v purify_v and_o cleanse_v in_o soul_n and_o body_n i_o may_v be_v able_a worthilye_o to_o serve_v thou_o and_o bliss_o to_o be_v unite_v unto_o thou_o 11._o let_v my_o soul_n thirst_v always_o after_o thou_o the_o source_n of_o wisdom_n and_o knowledge_n the_o fountain_n of_o eternal_a life_n and_o sun_n of_o eternal_a light_n the_o river_n of_o pleasure_n the_o plentifulness_n of_o the_o house_n of_o god_n 12._o let_v it_o always_o earnest_o aspire_v after_o thou_o seek_v thou_o and_o find_v thou_o deseruinge_v such_o ingratitude_n at_o my_o hand_n 6._o i_o much_o desire_n that_o i_o be_v more_o sorry_a &_o that_o my_o hart_n may_v break_v for_o any_o one_o of_o the_o offence_n which_o i_o have_v commit_v against_o thy_o divine_a majesty_n 7._o how_o great_a reason_n be_v there_o that_o i_o shall_v melt_v into_o tear_n for_o the_o least_o of_o they_o 8._o for_o i_o have_v little_o
come_v it_o natural_o or_o by_o any_o chance_n or_o accident_n 8._o to_o loose_v my_o life_n by_o sudden_a death_n or_o else_o by_o long_a sickness_n as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n 9_o to_o receive_v harm_n in_o my_o imagination_n whereby_o i_o may_v have_v my_o brain_n crack_v or_o become_v a_o very_a fool_n or_o mad_a man_n and_o to_o be_v content_a with_o all_o this_o if_o god_n permit_v the_o case_n to_o befall_v i_o 10._o that_o my_o body_n putrify_v and_o corrupt_v slow_o and_o with_o length_n of_o time_n and_o that_o other_o observe_v and_o take_v notice_n of_o such_o putrifyinge_v and_o in_o their_o nature_n abhor_v it_o and_o i_o for_o itt_n 11._o to_o endure_v and_o suffer_v the_o agonye_n of_o death_n and_o the_o unwillingness_n and_o horror_n that_o nature_n have_v in_o the_o separation_n of_o the_o soul_n from_o the_o body_n iâ—_n be_v continue_v the_o iii_o exercise_n 1._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o die_v a_o natural_a death_n or_o otherwise_o a_o violent_a and_o painful_a death_n procure_v by_o other_o which_o of_o they_o may_v best_o please_v thou_o my_o lord_n 2._o to_o die_v when_o where_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n it_o shall_v best_o please_v god_n and_o that_o without_o the_o help_n of_o any_o of_o the_o sacrament_n if_o i_o can_v come_v by_o they_o 3._o be_v dead_a to_o want_v not_o only_o honourable_a but_o even_o christian_a burial_n and_o my_o body_n to_o be_v a_o prey_n and_o food_n to_o beast_n and_o fowl_n as_o have_v be_v and_o often_o be_v the_o case_n of_o martyr_n 4._o in_o the_o agonye_n of_o death_n to_o endure_v such_o terror_n affliction_n &_o temptation_n as_o the_o devil_n do_v then_o usuallye_o raise_v and_o procure_v or_o my_o dear_a god_n permit_v here_o follow_v resignation_n about_o external_a good_n 5._o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o the_o clothes_n i_o have_v or_o may_v have_v be_v they_o never_o so_o necessary_a for_o i_o the_o like_a for_o good_a book_n convenient_a lodging_n and_o to_o have_v these_o thing_n bestow_v upon_o one_o who_o in_o my_o nature_n i_o be_o most_o avert_v from_o 6._o to_o be_v drive_v to_o wear_v clothes_n that_o seem_v base_a or_o insufficient_a or_o unfit_a for_o the_o bodyâ—_n as_o over_o heavy_a &_o overhott_v for_o the_o summer_n or_o over_o thin_a and_o light_n for_o the_o cold_a winter_n or_o else_o clothes_n that_o be_v of_o hair_n rugged_a and_o painful_a to_o the_o body_n 7._o to_o be_v straighten_v or_o otherwise_o ilaccomodate_v for_o chamber_n or_o lodginge_v &_o hard_a beddinge_a &_o to_o want_v necessary_n in_o my_o lodginge_v and_o beddinge_a 8._o to_o want_v necessary_a clothes_n so_o as_o to_o be_v bring_v to_o that_o poverty_n that_o i_o be_o not_o only_o bare_o and_o base_o clothe_v but_o hard_o able_a to_o cover_v my_o nakedness_n whereby_o i_o may_v be_v wonderful_o contemn_v and_o despise_v by_o other_o 9_o to_o be_v turn_v out_o of_o door_n and_o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o certain_a and_o proper_a place_n of_o habitation_n and_o thrust_v into_o the_o wide_a world_n and_o so_o entire_o leave_v to_o such_o destinye_a as_o god_n shall_v permit_v to_o fall_v upon_o i_o 10._o to_o have_v all_o the_o temporal_a good_n whereof_o i_o have_v the_o propriety_n or_o use_v take_v from_o i_o and_o to_o be_v leave_v as_o poor_a naked_a and_o desolate_a as_o ever_o job_n be_v or_o any_o man_n or_o weoman_n can_v be_v 11._o to_o endure_v the_o cross_n that_o in_o any_o sort_n spiritual_a or_o corporal_n may_v fall_v upon_o my_o friend_n or_o kindred_n or_o upon_o those_o who_o in_o my_o nature_n i_o most_o affect_v as_o to_o endure_v their_o death_n imprisonment_n dishonour_n loss_n of_o their_o land_n or_o good_n their_o extreme_a poverty_n or_o whatsoever_o else_o may_v happen_v unto_o they_o 12._o and_o on_o the_o other_o side_n to_o forbear_v and_o restreigne_a myself_o from_o all_o inordinate_a joy_n and_o complacence_n that_o i_o may_v take_v in_o their_o prosperity_n 13._o i_o be_o resign_v alsoe_o and_o hope_v to_o be_v well_o content_a that_o my_o friend_n and_o kindred_n lover_n and_o well_o wisher_n do_v alienate_v and_o withdraw_v their_o affection_n from_o i_o do_v forget_v and_o neglect_v i_o yea_o and_o come_v to_o be_v avert_v from_o i_o and_o to_o conceive_v and_o speak_v evil_a of_o i_o and_o do_v i_o evil_a office_n yet_o so_o as_o i_o commit_v no_o sin_n or_o give_v no_o just_a occasion_n of_o such_o aversion_n from_o i_o 14._o and_o further_o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o be_v leave_v and_o forsake_v of_o all_o creature_n in_o the_o world_n so_o that_o i_o have_v no_o man_n or_o any_o thing_n to_o cleave_v unto_o save_v thou_o only_o my_o jesus_n who_o will_v abundant_o suffice_v i_o 15._o i_o be_o resign_v and_o indifferent_a in_o what_o place_n and_o in_o what_o company_n i_o live_v and_o in_o particular_a to_o live_v with_o they_o from_o who_o my_o nature_n be_v most_o avert_v and_o to_o live_v with_o stranger_n aswell_o as_o with_o my_o familiar_n 16._o and_o to_o live_v with_o they_o with_o who_o and_o from_o who_o i_o shall_v find_v and_o receive_v most_o contradiction_n discourtesy_n and_o hard_a usage_n if_o it_o shall_v be_v the_o bless_a will_n and_o pleasure_n of_o thou_o my_o lord_n to_o allot_v or_o ordain_v i_o to_o live_v in_o such_o company_n 17._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o abide_v in_o this_o life_n in_o all_o sort_n of_o affliction_n for_o so_o long_o time_n as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n though_o it_o be_v to_o the_o end_n of_o the_o world_n 18._o and_o not_o to_o yield_v to_o the_o motion_n or_o inclination_n of_o my_o nature_n that_o will_v perhaps_o out_o of_o wearisomeness_n fain_o have_v life_n at_o a_o end_n but_o in_o this_o i_o whole_o submit_v my_o will_n to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n amen_o here_o follow_v resignation_n about_o good_a name_n honour_n and_o estimation_n the_o iv_o exercise_n 1._o i_o be_o resign_v not_o only_o not_o to_o be_v belove_v or_o well_o think_v of_o by_o superior_n brother_n sister_n or_o other_o but_o even_o hate_v and_o evil_a thought_n of_o by_o they_o yet_o will_v i_o take_v heed_n through_o god_n grace_n not_o by_o any_o sin_n to_o give_v just_a occasion_n of_o such_o hatred_n or_o evil_a opinion_n of_o i_o 2._o and_o i_o be_o resign_v that_o all_o other_o yea_o my_o enemy_n be_v in_o great_a grace_n favour_n love_n and_o good_a opinion_n with_o superior_n and_o all_o other_o than_o i_o be_o 3._o to_o undergo_v all_o manner_n of_o disgrace_n reproach_n slander_n infamye_n dishonour_v taunt_n contempt_n neglect_n scoff_v backbiting_n and_o injury_n in_o my_o fame_n and_o to_o endure_v all_o these_o be_v they_o do_v to_o my_o face_n or_o behind_o my_o back_n whither_o i_o have_v just_a occasion_n for_o they_o or_o no_o and_o i_o be_o sorry_a for_o the_o sin_n so_o far_o as_o there_o be_v a_o sin_n in_o it_o and_o i_o be_o glad_a of_o the_o occasion_n grow_v by_o it_o of_o my_o resignation_n and_o mortification_n 4._o and_o whither_o they_o be_v do_v i_o by_o my_o superior_n or_o better_n or_o by_o my_o equal_n or_o else_o by_o such_o as_o in_o the_o condition_n of_o the_o world_n be_v inferior_a to_o i_o 5._o and_o whither_o they_o be_v do_v by_o such_o as_o i_o esteem_v my_o friend_n and_o of_o who_o i_o have_v better_a deserve_v or_o by_o any_o profess_a foe_n or_o as_o such_o behave_v themselves_o towards_o i_o though_o i_o esteem_v they_o to_o be_v in_o charity_n with_o i_o and_o all_o the_o world_n 6._o i_o be_o resign_v that_o my_o life_n or_o manner_n of_o my_o death_n be_v execrable_a odious_a and_o hateful_a to_o other_o and_o be_v dead_a to_o be_v evil_a thought_n of_o and_o evil_a speak_v of_o by_o other_o and_o to_o have_v no_o man_n that_o will_v vouchsafe_v to_o pray_v for_o i_o be_v dead_a but_o to_o be_v either_o clean_o forget_v or_o to_o have_v a_o ill_a memory_n and_o esteem_v 7._o yea_o thought_n by_o all_o the_o world_n to_o have_v dye_v out_o of_o the_o state_n of_o salvation_n and_o so_o damn_v for_o ever_o yea_o moreover_o to_o have_v it_o so_o set_v down_o and_o express_v in_o a_o print_a book_n or_o chronicle_v not_o only_o to_o my_o own_o everlasting_a shame_n but_o to_o the_o shame_n and_o confusion_n of_o my_o kindred_n and_o family_n 8._o and_o final_o in_o this_o life_n to_o be_v hold_v for_o the_o scum_n and_o outcast_n of_o all_o the_o race_n of_o mankind_n and_o forsake_v by_o all_o both_o as_o to_o their_o do_n and_o to_o their_o affection_n towards_o i_o 9_o in_o sickness_n and_o other_o occasion_n and_o necessity_n to_o be_v chargeable_a and_o troublesome_a to_o other_o and_o myself_o to_o be_v profitable_a to_o none_o at_o all_o nor_o in_o any_o sort_n to_o be_v
soul_n and_o body_n what_o and_o in_o what_o manner_n and_o for_o so_o long_o time_n as_o shall_v be_v please_a to_o god_n and_o as_o it_o shall_v be_v his_o divine_a pleasure_n to_o lay_v upon_o i_o to_o be_v do_v or_o suffer_v by_o i_o 4._o for_o the_o love_n of_o my_o god_n i_o resign_v and_o renounce_v all_o manner_n of_o inordinate_a love_n towards_o myself_o and_o towards_o all_o other_o creature_n 5._o even_o now_o and_o ever_o i_o do_v renounce_v all_o inordinate_a affection_n that_o i_o bear_v to_o the_o personal_a company_n or_o society_n of_o any_o person_n or_o to_o correspondence_n with_o they_o by_o letter_n token_n or_o message_n and_o i_o be_o content_v to_o be_v deprive_v for_o ever_o of_o their_o company_n and_o all_o manner_n of_o correspondence_n with_o they_o 6._o and_o i_o will_v avoid_v such_o company_n and_o correspondence_n so_o far_o as_o by_o the_o will_n of_o god_n i_o may_v where_o i_o do_v or_o shall_v find_v it_o to_o be_v a_o occasion_n of_o fall_n into_o sin_n or_o imperfection_n 7._o and_o when_o i_o can_v avoid_v the_o company_n i_o will_v with_o god_n assistance_n be_v more_o wary_a and_o careful_a in_o my_o conversation_n with_o such_o person_n and_o i_o do_v resign_v myself_o and_o hartilye_o desire_v to_o be_v deprive_v of_o such_o company_n 8._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v resign_v and_o yield_v up_o all_o seek_v to_o get_v the_o love_n or_o good_a will_n of_o other_o towards_o myself_o and_o all_o solicitous_a seek_n to_o please_v they_o further_o or_o otherwise_o then_o shall_v be_v for_o godsake_n 9_o and_o i_o will_v be_v content_v that_o they_o who_o love_n in_o my_o nature_n i_o most_o look_v after_o shall_v no_o just_a cause_n give_v for_o it_o by_o i_o withdraw_v all_o their_o affection_n from_o i_o yea_o hate_v i_o speak_v ill_o of_o i_o and_o do_v i_o all_o manner_n of_o evil_a office_n 10._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v renounce_v all_o manner_n of_o curiosity_n in_o dressinge_v of_o myself_o and_o all_o desire_n that_o other_o shall_v affect_v or_o esteem_v i_o for_o my_o exterior_a habit_n corporal_a array_n or_o dressinge_v or_o for_o my_o personal_a visage_n feature_n comeliness_n grace_n beauty_n or_o stature_n or_o any_o other_o quality_n artificial_a or_o natural_a that_o be_v in_o i_o or_o general_o for_o any_o gift_n or_o talon_n that_o i_o have_v i_o say_v i_o do_v renounce_v all_o propriety_n in_o they_o &_o all_o affection_n to_o they_o and_o will_v if_o it_o so_o please_v god_n for_o my_o mortification_n be_v deprive_v of_o they_o 11._o and_o have_v they_o bestow_v upon_o some_o other_o man_n who_o in_o my_o nature_n i_o do_v least_o affect_v and_o most_o detest_v it_o be_v continue_v the_o viii_o exercise_n 1._o and_o as_o for_o such_o gift_n grace_n and_o talent_n as_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n will_v have_v still_o to_o abide_v in_o i_o i_o desire_v and_o intend_v that_o they_o may_v be_v employ_v and_o make_v use_v of_o mere_o and_o pure_o for_o thy_o honour_n and_o glory_n and_o not_o for_o any_o honour_n or_o other_o end_n of_o my_o own_o and_o therefore_o i_o whole_o resign_v and_o give_v they_o up_o as_o to_o any_o affection_n i_o retain_v to_o they_o to_o thou_o my_o god_n from_o who_o all_o good_a thing_n do_v proceed_v and_o to_o thou_o and_o thy_o service_n only_o do_v they_o belong_v 2._o likewise_o in_o particular_a i_o do_v renounce_v all_o complacence_n love_n and_o like_v to_o elegancy_n and_o acuteness_n of_o wit_n eloquence_n of_o tongue_n and_o ability_n to_o express_v my_o mind_n perfect_o by_o word_n or_o by_o letter_n or_o other_o write_n all_o humour_n abilitye_n or_o facilitye_n to_o jest_n recreate_v or_o delight_v other_o all_o affection_n i_o say_v to_o those_o talent_n or_o quality_n so_o far_o as_o i_o have_v any_o of_o they_o in_o i_o i_o do_v for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n resign_v relinquish_v and_o abandon_v 3._o in_o particular_a likewise_o for_o the_o lover_n of_o god_n i_o do_v free_o renounce_v all_o complacence_n and_o love_n that_o i_o have_v in_o the_o knowledge_n or_o skill_n of_o any_o particular_a art_n either_o of_o read_n write_n speak_v enditinge_v and_o general_o all_o skill_n and_o knowledge_n of_o any_o art_n or_o science_n whatsoever_o and_o alsoe_o all_o desire_n to_o be_v esteem_v for_o nobility_n gentry_n and_o gteate_a alliance_n all_o thing_n in_o a_o word_n that_o be_v not_o for_o god_n and_o in_o god_n with_o the_o love_n and_o affection_n to_o they_o i_o do_v for_o the_o present_a and_o future_a reject_v and_o cast_v away_o 4._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v free_o renonnce_n all_o manner_n of_o affection_n to_o the_o occasion_n of_o sin_n or_o imperfection_n so_o that_o willing_o i_o will_v utterlye_o fly_v from_o they_o be_v they_o of_o what_o kind_n they_o will_n and_o will_v endeavour_v to_o avoid_v all_o such_o occasion_n as_o far_o as_o well_o i_o may_v and_o what_o i_o can_v such_o be_v the_o necessity_n of_o our_o life_n that_o we_o can_v avoid_v all_o manner_n of_o occasion_n i_o will_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n be_v as_o wary_a in_o they_o as_o my_o frailty_n will_v permit_v i_o and_o withdraw_v myself_o from_o those_o occasion_n so_o soon_o as_o well_o i_o may_v 5._o i_o do_v for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n renounce_v all_o propriety_n i_o have_v or_o may_v have_v in_o any_o kind_a of_o office_n dignity_n or_o employment_n and_o be_o and_o will_v be_v ever_o ready_a to_o resign_v and_o yield_v itt_v up_o when_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n and_o in_o the_o mean_a time_n shall_v hold_v myself_o in_o itt_n out_o of_o obedience_n to_o god_n and_o for_o his_o service_n and_o not_o for_o my_o own_o turn_n honour_n or_o interest_n 6._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v renounce_v all_o manner_n of_o proprietye_n to_o spiritual_a exercise_n be_v they_o never_o so_o please_a to_o i_o so_o that_o there_o be_v or_o shall_v be_v no_o exercise_n so_o sweet_a or_o please_a which_o i_o will_v not_o give_v over_o if_o i_o know_v it_o be_v god_n will_n that_o i_o shall_v do_v itt_fw-ge 7._o neither_o be_v there_o any_o kind_a of_o exercise_n so_o ungrateful_a or_o painful_a to_o my_o nature_n but_o i_o will_v embrace_v it_o if_o i_o know_v or_o think_v itt_n to_o be_v god_n will_n that_o i_o shall_v or_o otherwise_o can_v find_v it_o to_o be_v profitable_a to_o i_o 8._o in_o the_o mean_a time_n i_o will_v for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n serve_v he_o in_o such_o kind_n of_o exercise_n as_o my_o poor_a knowledge_n shall_v inform_v i_o to_o be_v most_o for_o his_o honour_n and_o service_n and_o my_o own_o soul_n good_a 9_o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o undergo_v all_o manner_n of_o temptation_n be_v they_o corporal_a or_o spiritual_a as_o blasphemy_n despair_n or_o any_o other_o manner_n of_o temptation_n wherewith_o it_o will_v please_v god_n to_o exercise_v and_o prove_v i_o and_o will_v abide_v in_o they_o as_o long_o as_o he_o shall_v please_v that_o they_o continue_v be_v it_o for_o never_o so_o many_o year_n yea_o though_o it_o be_v for_o my_o whole_a life_n tyme._n 10._o and_o i_o purpose_v with_o the_o aid_n of_o his_o grace_n not_o to_o be_v carry_v by_o any_o of_o of_o those_o temptation_n to_o offend_v his_o majesty_n but_o ever_o to_o adhere_v and_o abide_v faithful_a to_o he_o it_o be_v continue_v the_o ix_o exercise_n 1._o and_o if_o i_o shall_v happen_v upon_o any_o of_o these_o temptation_n to_o fall_v or_o prove_v defective_a as_o who_o be_v not_o frail_a i_o will_v notwithstande_v by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n so_o soon_o as_o i_o can_v rise_v up_o again_o reform_v what_o have_v be_v amiss_o and_o for_o the_o future_a time_n look_v better_o to_o myself_o continue_v in_o resistance_n to_o those_o temptation_n so_o long_o as_o they_o continue_v 2._o nor_o will_v i_o seek_v to_o drive_v they_o away_o or_o lessen_v the_o pain_n of_o they_o but_o only_o as_o it_o shall_v be_v the_o will_n of_o god_n and_o not_o accord_v to_o the_o will_n of_o my_o nature_n that_o be_v apt_a to_o free_v or_o ease_v herself_o of_o all_o temptation_n mere_o out_o of_o sloth_n and_o unwillingness_n to_o undergo_v the_o sharp_a and_o painful_a remedy_n provide_v by_o god_n for_o my_o soul_n good_a by_o the_o mean_n of_o these_o temptation_n 3._o i_o alsoe_o resign_v i_o willing_o to_o embrace_v and_o entertain_v such_o defect_n or_o blemish_n so_o they_o be_v no_o sin_n as_o be_v in_o i_o by_o nature_n or_o by_o chance_n in_o body_n or_o in_o soul_n and_o by_o which_o i_o be_o less_o esteem_v by_o other_o so_o far_o as_o any_o such_o defect_n or_o blemish_n be_v in_o i_o as_o dullnesse_n or_o slowness_n
attention_n unto_o it_o or_o about_o judge_v what_o to_o be_v sâ—nnâ—_n and_o â—hat_n not_o and_o what_o to_o bâ—_n moral_n and_o what_o not_o or_o about_o any_o other_o thing_n that_o shall_v concern_v my_o confession_n or_o sayinge_v my_o office_n or_o otherwise_o concern_v my_o soul_n and_o conscience_n â—_o i_o â—esâ—gne_v myself_o to_o undergo_v and_o perform_v whatsoeuâ—r_v my_o supâ—â—ioâ—_n shall_v deliâ—eraâ—â—lye_v and_o absoâ—utelyâ—_n reqâ—iâ—e_v of_o mâ—â—_n â—lbâ—iâ—_n neuâ—r_n â—oe_v â—â—pugnâ—nt_v â—o_o â—ynâ—_n owâ—â—_n natural_a will_v or_o 〈◊〉_d and_o though_o it_o sâ—â—mâ—â—â—ueâ—â—oe_v repugnant_a to_o my_o natural_a reaâ—on_n aâ—d_a iudgâ—mentâ—_n and_o â—â—â—me_n to_o be_v â—ayne_o and_o impertinent_a or_o agâ—â—â—st_a reâ—sâ—nâ—_n 〈◊〉_d proâ—â—_n very_o pâ—â—nefull_a to_o my_o body_n or_o preiudiciouâ—_n to_o my_o fame_n and_o honour_n yea_o and_o though_o it_o seem_v a_o thing_n impossible_a to_o be_v do_v yet_o will_v i_o attempt_v it_o and_o endeavour_v to_o do_v it_o the_o best_a â—_o can_v provide_v always_o there_o be_v nothing_o command_v i_o as_o without_o doubt_n i_o hope_v there_o never_o will_v be_v against_o the_o law_n of_o god_n and_o his_o church_n 9_o i_o likewise_o resign_v myself_o willing_o to_o undergo_v any_o penance_n public_a or_o private_a that_o shall_v be_v enjoin_v i_o by_o my_o superior_a immediate_a or_o mediate_v yea_o though_o such_o a_o penance_n be_v never_o so_o great_a a_o confusion_n or_o shame_n unto_o i_o or_o stain_v â—o_o my_o honour_n or_o credit_n and_o â—hough_o i_o be_v never_o so_o innocent_a in_o the_o suppose_a crime_n for_o the_o which_o the_o pâ—â—â—anâ—e_n be_v impose_v and_o that_o â—ll_a other_o do_v esteem_v and_o judge_v meâ—_n guilty_a of_o the_o crime_n though_o indâ—ed_v i_o be_o nâ—t_a 10._o i_o resign_v myself_o so_o â—arre_o to_o overcome_v the_o bashfulness_n or_o other_o difficâ—lâ—â—â—â—â—haâ—_n iâ—_n oâ—_n shall_v â—e_v in_o i_o for_o the_o discoveringe_v of_o my_o secret_n bodilye_o necessity_n or_o other_o secret_n of_o my_o interior_a confession_n especial_o to_o do_v this_o in_o matter_n of_o confession_n that_o i_o will_v when_o there_o shall_v be_v cause_n for_o it_o therein_o mortifye_v myself_o and_o will_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n open_v my_o case_n to_o my_o superior_a or_o ghostly_a father_n accord_v to_o the_o nature_n of_o my_o case_n and_o as_o it_o shall_v require_v albeit_o my_o natural_a will_v have_v never_o so_o great_a a_o aversion_n from_o such_o my_o discovery_n of_o my_o necessity_n or_o of_o my_o interior_a state_n the_o xiii_o exercise_n 1._o i_o resign_v myself_o that_o when_o charity_n obedience_n discretion_n or_o necessity_n shall_v require_v it_o i_o will_v visit_v and_o help_v any_o one_o lyinge_a sick_a though_o of_o the_o plague_n or_o any_o other_o infectious_a odious_a or_o horrid_a disease_n and_o will_v attend_v serve_v and_o comfort_v they_o accord_v to_o my_o ability_n without_o flinchinge_v any_o way_n and_o therein_o will_v regard_v neither_o life_n nor_o health_n nor_o will_v avoid_v itt_n for_o any_o horror_n or_o loathsomenesse_n that_o my_o nature_n shall_v find_v or_o conceive_v in_o the_o disease_n or_o employment_n yet_o it_o be_v not_o the_o will_n of_o god_n that_o i_o shall_v without_o cause_n desperate_o put_v myself_o into_o the_o say_a employment_n but_o it_o must_v be_v do_v accord_v to_o the_o rule_n of_o discretion_n and_o that_o good_a may_v come_v by_o it_o to_o the_o party_n that_o be_v infect_v or_o otherwise_o sick_a 2._o in_o like_a manner_n i_o resign_v myself_o to_o attend_v serve_v and_o watch_v with_o those_o that_o be_v sick_a or_o need_v help_v accord_v to_o their_o necessity_n and_o as_o charity_n obedience_n and_o discretion_n shall_v require_v of_o i_o 3._o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o undergo_v and_o put_v in_o execution_n all_o manner_n of_o remedy_n that_o shall_v be_v deliberatelye_a advise_v i_o by_o the_o physician_n with_o the_o consent_n of_o my_o superior_n for_o the_o betteringe_a of_o my_o health_n or_o savinge_v of_o my_o life_n be_v those_o remedy_n never_o so_o harsh_a bitter_a painful_a or_o odious_a to_o my_o nature_n as_o the_o take_n of_o moâ—â—_n bitter_a potion_n cuttinge_v of_o some_o of_o my_o limb_n or_o any_o other_o painful_a remedy_n ordain_v and_o prescribe_v unto_o i_o 4._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o undergo_v the_o molestation_n of_o little_a but_o payneful_o pinch_v bitinge_v and_o troublesome_a creature_n as_o flea_n louse_n eimise_n and_o other_o such_o like_a uâ—rmine_n so_o far_o as_o god_n will_v have_v i_o to_o be_v exercise_v by_o they_o and_o that_o i_o can_v rid_v myself_o from_o they_o yea_o though_o they_o shall_v so_o farâ—e_n prevail_v over_o i_o as_o to_o bereave_v i_o of_o my_o life_n â—as_v they_o have_v do_v to_o diverse_a i_o will_v and_o do_v sâ—â—â—he_a love_n of_o god_n therein_o reâ—â—gne_v my_o self_n to_o his_o will_n and_o providenâ—â—â—eerin_o â—_o i_o resign_v myself_o when_o obedience_n charity_n or_o necessâ—tie_n shall_v â—â—quire_v it_o to_o go_v to_o any_o house_n room_n or_o place_n and_o lodge_v and_o dwell_v â—here_o notwithstanding_o the_o fear_n of_o devil_n hobgobbling_n or_o other_o have_v spiritâ—_n that_o be_v say_v to_o be_v there_o 〈…〉_o will_v in_o thâ—_n name_n of_o god_n and_o when_o it_o shall_v be_v his_o will_n resort_v and_o abide_v in_o such_o a_o place_n albeit_o i_o shall_v there_o real_o see_v a_o 1000_o of_o those_o evil_n and_o malicious_a spirit_n yea_o and_o though_o god_n will_v permit_v they_o to_o beat_v buffet_n scratch_n and_o torment_v my_o body_n as_o he_o permit_v they_o to_o do_v to_o the_o body_n of_o s._n anthony_n and_o other_o saint_n for_o their_o exercise_n for_o i_o know_v well_o that_o all_o the_o malice_n of_o the_o devil_n will_v not_o be_v able_a to_o hurt_v my_o soul_n so_o long_o as_o i_o continue_v my_o good_a will_n and_o love_n to_o god_n which_o the_o devil_n can_v take_v away_o by_o molestinge_v of_o my_o body_n but_o he_o do_v thereby_o give_v i_o more_o and_o better_a occasion_n to_o unite_v my_o soul_n to_o god_n the_o which_o be_v do_v it_o little_a import_v what_o he_o do_v to_o my_o body_n which_o what_o harm_n soever_o he_o do_v in_o this_o life_n i_o believe_v and_o be_o assure_v will_v be_v well_o restore_v to_o i_o at_o the_o general_a day_n of_o judgement_n and_o in_o perfect_a health_n as_o i_o hope_v alsoe_o for_o the_o salvation_n and_o perpetual_a felicity_n of_o my_o soul_n 6._o and_o therefore_o and_o in_o like_a manner_n i_o do_v resign_v myself_o that_o if_o god_n will_v permit_v and_o have_v my_o body_n to_o be_v possess_v by_o the_o devil_n or_o by_o million_o of_o devil_n and_o to_o be_v vex_v and_o torment_v by_o they_o or_o to_o have_v witchcraft_n prevail_v on_o my_o body_n &_o to_o vex_v and_o torment_v i_o i_o shall_v take_v it_o patientlye_o and_o resigned_o as_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n and_o be_v content_v that_o he_o and_o my_o enemy_n those_o devil_n do_v perform_v their_o malice_n towards_o my_o body_n my_o soul_n be_v still_o untouched_a by_o they_o over_o which_o they_o shall_v have_v no_o more_o power_n than_o my_o frewill_n shall_v give_v way_n to_o which_o by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n shall_v be_v in_o nothing_o at_o all_o and_o some_o saint_n there_o have_v be_v who_o for_o their_o exercise_n &_o humiliation_n have_v desire_v of_o god_n that_o they_o may_v in_o their_o body_n be_v possess_v by_o the_o devil_n and_o have_v theruppon_o come_v to_o be_v possess_v 7._o for_o the_o love_n i_o bear_v unto_o god_n i_o do_v renounce_v all_o desire_n to_o any_o manner_n of_o office_n or_o employment_n that_o be_v of_o authority_n or_o dignity_n or_o in_o any_o sort_n grateful_a to_o my_o nature_n or_o sensuality_n and_o do_v purpose_n with_o the_o help_n of_o his_o grace_n for_o the_o keepinge_v myself_o in_o humility_n and_o for_o avoydinge_v of_o occasion_n of_o distraction_n not_o only_o not_o to_o desire_v or_o go_v about_o direct_o or_o indirect_o to_o procure_v the_o haveinge_n of_o any_o such_o office_n or_o employment_n 8._o but_o alsoe_o by_o all_o the_o mean_n that_o may_v be_v please_a to_o god_n to_o preâ—ent_v the_o have_v of_o they_o 9_o and_o be_v offer_v unto_o i_o to_o refuse_v they_o utâ—erlye_o so_o far_o as_o i_o may_v without_o displeasinge_a god_n it_o be_v continue_v the_o fourteen_o exercise_n 1._o and_o further_o i_o will_v endeavour_v and_o procure_v so_o far_o as_o shall_v stand_v with_o the_o pleasure_n of_o god_n that_o any_o other_o rather_o than_o myself_o though_o he_o be_v my_o junior_a oâ—_n of_o talent_n never_o so_o inferior_a to_o i_o shall_v have_v the_o office_n if_o he_o shall_v be_v judge_v fit_a and_o sufficient_a for_o the_o place_n yea_o though_o he_o be_v one_o who_o in_o my_o nature_n i_o have_v least_o affection_n for_o or_o one_o
whatsoever_o displease_v thy_o sight_n and_o make_v i_o a_o man_n accord_v to_o thy_o hart_n 150._o wound_v i_o o_o lord_n wound_v the_o most_o inward_a part_n of_o my_o soul_n with_o the_o dart_n of_o thy_o love_n 151._o and_o make_v i_o drink_v with_o the_o wine_n of_o thy_o perfect_a charity_n 152._o o_o when_o shall_v this_o be_v 153._o when_o shall_v i_o please_v thou_o in_o all_o thing_n 154._o when_o shall_v all_o die_v in_o i_o which_o be_v contrary_a to_o thou_o 155._o when_o shall_v i_o be_v altogether_o thou_o 156._o when_o shall_v i_o live_v to_o be_v no_o more_o my_o own_o 157._o when_o shall_v nothing_o else_o live_v in_o i_o but_o thou_o o_o jesus_n 158._o when_o shall_v i_o love_v thou_o most_o fervent_o 159._o when_o shall_v the_o flame_n of_o thy_o love_n whole_o consume_v i_o 160._o when_o shall_v i_o be_v altogether_o melt_v &_o pierce_v through_o with_o the_o wonderful_a efficacy_n of_o thy_o sweetness_n 161._o when_o will_v thou_o take_v i_o hence_o by_o force_n drown_v i_o transport_v i_o and_o hide_v i_o in_o thyself_o where_o i_o may_v never_o more_o be_v see_v 162._o when_o will_v thou_o free_v i_o from_o all_o these_o impediment_n and_o distraction_n and_o make_v i_o one_o spirit_n with_o thou_o that_o i_o may_v not_o any_o more_o depart_v from_o thou_o 163._o o_o dear_o belove_v o_o dear_a belove_v of_o my_o soul_n 164._o o_o sweetness_n of_o my_o hart_n 165._o hear_v i_o o_o lord_n not_o for_o my_o merit_n but_o for_o thy_o infinitt_a goodness_n and_o mercy_n 166._o teach_v i_o enlighten_v i_o direct_v i_o and_o assist_v i_o in_o all_o thing_n that_o i_o may_v do_v or_o say_v nothing_o but_o what_o be_v agreeable_a to_o thy_o blissed_a will_n and_o pleasure_n 167._o o_o my_o god_n my_o well_o belove_a my_o dear_a hart_n and_o the_o very_a god_n of_o my_o soul_n 168._o o_o my_o sweet_a love_n 169._o o_o my_o great_a delight_n 170._o o_o my_o strength_n help_v i_o 171._o o_o my_o light_n guide_v i_o towards_o thou_o 172._o o_o god_n of_o my_o soul_n why_o give_v not_o thou_o thyself_o to_o thy_o poor_a creature_n 17â—_n thou_o fille_v heaven_n and_o earth_n and_o will_v thou_o leave_v my_o hart_n empty_a 17â—_n thou_o bathe_v the_o lily_n of_o the_o field_n give_v meat_n to_o the_o little_a bird_n and_o feed_v the_o worm_n of_o the_o earth_n why_o then_o do_v thou_o forget_v i_o who_o endeavour_n to_o forget_v all_o other_o for_o thy_o sake_n 175._o too_o late_o have_v i_o have_v i_o knownâ—_n thou_o o_o infinitt_a goodness_n 176._o too_o late_o have_v i_o love_v thou_o o_o beauty_n so_o ancient_a and_o so_o new_a 177._o woo_v to_o the_o time_n i_o love_v thou_o not_o 178._o blind_a i_o be_v that_o i_o see_v thou_o not_o 179._o thou_o be_v within_o i_o and_o i_o go_v seek_v thou_o abroad_o 180._o but_o now_o that_o i_o have_v find_v thou_o though_o late_o suffer_v not_o good_a lord_n that_o i_o ever_o leave_v thou_o amen_n amen_n amen_n finis_fw-la act_n of_o resignation_n to_o be_v use_v accord_v to_o the_o direction_n act_n of_o resignation_n in_o thing_n concern_v the_o body_n the_o first_o exercise_n 1._o i_o resign_v myself_o for_o the_o love_n of_o my_o god_n my_o dear_a lord_n to_o undergo_v these_o ensue_a pain_n or_o difficulty_n in_o my_o body_n so_o far_o as_o god_n have_v already_o lay_v they_o or_o any_o of_o they_o upon_o i_o or_o shall_v be_v please_v hereafter_o to_o lay_v or_o permit_v they_o or_o any_o of_o they_o to_o fall_v upon_o i_o to_o wit_n ague_n fever_n falling-sickness_n cramp_n colic_n consumption_n or_o other_o bodily_a sickness_n whatsoever_o especial_o such_o sickness_n or_o infirmity_n as_o trouble_v i_o at_o this_o present_a or_o to_o which_o through_o my_o nature_n or_o bodily_a complexion_n and_o constitution_n i_o be_o most_o dispose_v and_o incline_v 2._o as_o weakness_n feebleness_n lameness_n toothache_n or_o any_o other_o ache_n or_o pain_n in_o my_o head_n or_o any_o other_o part_n of_o my_o body_n 3._o deformity_n or_o ugliness_n in_o the_o sight_n of_o other_o as_o it_o be_v in_o the_o case_n of_o holy_a job_n lazarus_n and_o other_o that_o be_v full_a of_o biles_n botch_n and_o other_o more_o odious_a external_a defect_n in_o body_n 4._o extremity_n of_o heat_n such_o as_o we_o feel_v or_o may_v feel_v in_o some_o time_n of_o the_o summer_n extremity_n of_o cold_a such_o as_o we_o feel_v or_o may_v feel_v in_o some_o time_n of_o the_o winter_n and_o in_o time_n of_o summer_n to_o be_v drive_v to_o wear_v and_o bear_v perhaps_o out_o of_o obedience_n or_o other_o necessity_n more_o clothes_n then_o our_o nature_n need_v or_o be_v willinge_v to_o bear_v and_o in_o the_o cold_a of_o winter_n to_o be_v content_v to_o want_v clothes_n which_o we_o conceive_v our_o nature_n needs_o when_o that_o obedience_n or_o necessity_n deny_v they_o us._n 5._o want_v of_o sleep_n as_o when_o be_v in_o bed_n one_o can_v â—leepe_v through_o â—ome_v bodily_a indisposition_n or_o other_o or_o when_o obedience_n will_v not_o permit_v i_o to_o have_v so_o much_o time_n for_o sleep_n as_o my_o nature_n will_v desire_v to_o have_v or_o may_v seem_v needful_a to_o have_v 6._o hunger_n thirst_n the_o difficulty_n of_o fastinge_a and_o abstinence_n scarcity_n in_o meat_n or_o drink_v as_o not_o have_v so_o much_o in_o quantity_n as_o my_o nature_n will_v have_v or_o perchance_o require_v or_o less_o than_o i_o see_v some_o other_o have_v or_o when_o the_o quality_n of_o the_o meat_n or_o drink_n do_v not_o please_v my_o nature_n and_o yet_o obedience_n will_v yield_v i_o no_o better_o or_o when_o my_o meat_n be_v not_o so_o well_o dress_v as_o i_o can_v wish_v it_o be_v or_o when_o i_o have_v it_o not_o in_o such_o a_o season_n as_o in_o my_o nature_n i_o can_v wish_v but_o be_v delay_v i_o for_o some_o tyme._n 7._o i_o be_o resign_v and_o content_v to_o see_v other_o better_v serve_v or_o provide_v for_o in_o meat_n drink_n cloth_n lodginge_v and_o beddinge_a then_o i_o be_o though_o i_o conceive_v and_o imagine_v that_o i_o deserve_v and_o need_v as_o much_o as_o they_o do_v and_o yet_o obedience_n will_v not_o allow_v it_o i_o likewise_o when_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o other_o be_v more_o spare_v from_o corporal_a labour_n than_o i_o be_o &_o yet_o it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o they_o need_v or_o deserve_v no_o more_o indulgence_n or_o sparinge_v than_o i_o do_v 8._o indisgestion_n vomitinge_v or_o other_o pain_n or_o defect_n in_o the_o stomach_n not_o to_o be_v able_a to_o get_v down_o some_o meat_n that_o be_v ungrateful_a to_o the_o stomach_n or_o palate_n and_o yet_o obedience_n or_o poverty_n will_v perhaps_o afford_v i_o no_o better_o 9_o pain_n or_o defect_n about_o the_o 5._o external_a sense_n as_o bitter_a or_o unsavoury_a taste_n ungrateful_a smell_n hideous_a and_o horrible_a sight_n or_o representation_n to_o the_o eye_n as_o the_o sight_n of_o devil_n or_o damn_a soul_n hideous_a and_o fearful_a noise_n as_o thunder_v etc._n etc._n and_o noise_v displeasinge_a to_o the_o ear_n and_o so_o of_o the_o rest._n it_o be_v continue_v the_o ii_o exercise_n 1._o as_o to_o the_o five_o sense_n of_o feelinge_v i_o resign_v myself_o to_o suffer_v and_o endure_v scorging_n buffet_n beat_n as_o our_o sawiour_n endure_v or_o stoneing_n as_o s._n stephen_n or_o incision_n and_o lancing_n or_o câ—ttinge_v of_o the_o flesh_n or_o any_o other_o corporal_a pain_n or_o torment_n be_v they_o external_a or_o internal_a to_o the_o loss_n of_o eye_n or_o pain_n in_o they_o to_o deafness_n or_o dumbenesse_n to_o undergo_v alsoe_o some_o external_a work_n or_o labour_n from_o which_o i_o be_o natural_o avert_v when_o that_o obedience_n appoint_v itt_a albeit_o i_o shall_v conceive_v it_o prejudicial_a to_o my_o health_n 3._o to_o attend_v and_o watch_v with_o the_o sick_a when_o that_o obedience_n appoint_v it_o 4._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o loose_v any_o member_n of_o my_o body_n when_o god_n shall_v permit_v or_o will_v have_v i_o to_o loose_a itt_n be_v it_o foot_n leg_n hand_n etc._n etc._n 5._o to_o undergo_v all_o sort_n of_o corporal_a labour_n and_o that_o with_o feebleness_n and_o indisposition_n of_o body_n so_o far_o as_o the_o will_n of_o god_n shall_v require_v 6._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o loose_v all_o pleasure_n delight_n and_o gust_n in_o the_o sense_n of_o taste_n so_o that_o i_o may_v find_v no_o more_o taste_n in_o the_o pleasant_a meat_n than_o i_o shall_v do_v in_o eatinge_v a_o chipp_n or_o a_o stone_n or_o in_o drink_v of_o a_o thing_n that_o have_v no_o taste_n or_o be_v of_o a_o very_a ungrateful_a tast._n 7._o i_o be_o resign_v to_o any_o disfiguringe_v in_o the_o face_n or_o other_o part_n of_o the_o body_n
of_o wit_n or_o judgement_n disabilitie_n to_o express_v my_o mind_n by_o word_n or_o write_n ignorance_n or_o unskilfulnesse_n in_o such_o kind_a of_o thing_n as_o other_o of_o my_o call_n usuallye_o can_v do_v rawness_n harshness_n lowness_n or_o unpleasantnesse_n of_o voice_n blemish_n or_o defect_n in_o face_n or_o favour_n or_o in_o any_o other_o part_n of_o the_o body_n or_o in_o stature_n or_o in_o any_o other_o real_a or_o seeminge_v defect_n in_o soul_n or_o body_n or_o in_o be_v descend_v of_o poor_a or_o less_o noble_a parent_n or_o have_v poor_a or_o obscure_a kindred_n or_o friend_n in_o these_o and_o all_o other_o such_o like_a point_n i_o resign_v myself_o to_o god_n and_o i_o do_v and_o will_v still_o accept_v of_o my_o condition_n such_o as_o it_o be_v or_o may_v be_v and_o do_v not_o desire_v any_o betteringe_v lesseninge_v or_o alter_v of_o itt_n but_o that_o it_o may_v continue_v and_o be_v publish_v to_o all_o other_o for_o my_o mortification_n and_o humility_n 4._o i_o resign_v myself_o all_o the_o time_n of_o my_o life_n prove_v it_o never_o so_o long_o for_o the_o honour_n of_o god_n and_o his_o divine_a pleasure_n to_o labour_v all_o that_o i_o can_v both_o corporallye_o and_o spiritual_o for_o gayneinge_v of_o perfection_n that_o be_v the_o perfect_a love_n of_o god_n albeit_o i_o never_o reach_v unto_o itt_n or_o near_o unto_o itt_n therein_o and_o in_o all_o other_o thing_n resigninge_v and_o whole_o submittinge_n myself_o to_o what_o the_o majesty_n goodness_n and_o wisdom_n of_o god_n shall_v please_v to_o determine_v about_o i_o 5._o i_o resign_v myself_o as_o to_o all_o propriety_n and_o affection_n to_o book_n and_o instruction_n print_v and_o writtenâ—_n which_o i_o either_o have_v have_v now_o have_v or_o hereafter_o may_v have_v and_o do_v resign_v myself_o to_o be_v deprive_v of_o they_o when_o and_o by_o such_o mean_n as_o shall_v please_v god_n to_o deprive_v i_o of_o they_o and_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v for_o 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i_o can_v accord_v to_o the_o natural_a talent_n which_o i_o have_v as_o alsoe_o accord_v to_o the_o supernatural_a talent_n and_o grace_n that_o he_o shall_v bestow_v on_o i_o hopinge_v in_o his_o goodness_n that_o he_o will_v by_o one_o mean_a or_o other_o supply_v i_o with_o all_o knowledge_n that_o shall_v be_v necessary_a for_o my_o soul_n albeit_o i_o be_v deprive_v of_o all_o those_o ordinary_a help_n of_o book_n instructor_n and_o confessor_n 2._o i_o resign_v myself_o to_o have_v my_o superior_n and_o all_o other_o who_o my_o nature_n will_v have_v to_o be_v most_o friendly_a unto_o i_o to_o be_v in_o all_o thing_n cross_v and_o contrary_a unto_o i_o yea_o and_o to_o persecute_v i_o so_o far_o as_o the_o providence_n of_o god_n shall_v permit_v purposinge_v through_o his_o grace_n and_o for_o his_o love_n to_o endure_v all_o 3._o since_o the_o tongue_n be_v a_o occasion_n of_o many_o sin_n and_o imperfection_n i_o do_v for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n renounce_v all_o affection_n to_o the_o use_n and_o exercise_n of_o the_o tongue_n and_o to_o all_o manner_n of_o talk_v and_o discoursinge_v so_o that_o if_o it_o may_v please_v god_n i_o will_v be_v content_v for_o his_o love_n to_o be_v make_v dumb_a and_o to_o have_v no_o tongue_n at_o all_o so_o that_o i_o can_v not_o speak_v 4._o because_o nevertheless_o the_o necessity_n of_o his_o life_n will_v not_o admit_v such_o mortification_n of_o absolute_a dumnesse_n in_o practice_n but_o that_o i_o must_v often_o speak_v either_o for_o my_o own_o need_n or_o for_o charity_n sake_n or_o for_o my_o ow_v recreation_n or_o for_o some_o other_o iuâ—t_a occasion_n i_o purpose_v with_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n that_o all_o my_o word_n and_o talk_n shall_v not_o be_v out_o of_o affection_n to_o talk_v but_o out_o of_o a_o reasonable_a necessity_n with_o a_o religious_a wariness_n that_o i_o offend_v not_o in_o the_o matter_n or_o manner_n of_o my_o speak_v givinge_v over_o so_o soon_o as_o convenient_o i_o may_v ever_o affectinge_v at_o least_o in_o my_o superior_a will_n if_o not_o in_o my_o nature_n or_o sensuality_n to_o have_v no_o use_n of_o my_o tongue_n at_o all_o nor_o wishinge_v to_o have_v need_n or_o just_a occasion_n for_o it_o save_v only_o for_o praysinge_v &_o honouring_n god_n so_o that_o by_o this_o mean_v my_o error_n &_o escape_v by_o occasion_n of_o talk_v do_v not_o proceed_v out_o of_o affection_n to_o talk_v itself_o but_o that_o the_o talk_n itself_o be_v necessitate_v and_o the_o which_o we_o can_v not_o well_o forbear_v 5._o for_o the_o love_n and_o honour_n of_o god_n i_o do_v renounce_v all_o manner_n of_o desire_n of_o honour_n and_o honourable_a place_n dignity_n and_o office_n that_o be_v oâ—_n authority_n command_n or_o direction_n or_o whatsoever_o may_v breed_v i_o estimation_n with_o other_o and_o thereby_o feed_v my_o proud_a nature_n 6._o and_o in_o steed_n thereof_o i_o will_v undergo_v any_o office_n place_n or_o employment_n that_o my_o nature_n do_v scorn_n and_o abhor_v if_o that_o obedience_n charity_n or_o the_o will_n of_o god_n do_v impose_v itt_n on_o i_o 7._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o do_v renounce_v all_o vain_a complyinge_a conversation_n and_o correspondance_n with_o the_o world_n by_o letter_n token_n message_n or_o otherwise_o and_o all_o seeking_n to_o please_v the_o world_n with_o which_o in_o affection_n i_o desire_v to_o have_v no_o more_o to_o do_v then_o if_o i_o be_v real_o dead_a and_o bury_v desiringe_v only_o to_o serve_v and_o please_v god_n yea_o i_o desire_v so_o much_o to_o be_v forget_v by_o the_o world_n that_o it_o may_v not_o remember_v or_o know_v thaâ—_n there_o be_v or_o ever_o be_v any_o such_o creature_n as_o i_o be_o or_o as_o if_o i_o have_v never_o at_o all_o be_v bear_v 8._o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o renounce_v all_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o my_o parent_n friend_n and_o kindred_n as_o if_o i_o be_v another_o melchisedec_n who_o parent_n and_o kindred_n be_v utter_o unknown_a both_o to_o himself_o and_o to_o all_o other_o and_o do_v resign_v myself_o to_o be_v neglect_v and_o forsake_v by_o they_o all_o yea_o and_o to_o have_v they_o without_o any_o just_a occasion_n give_v by_o i_o avert_v from_o i_o so_o that_o they_o abhor_v to_o hear_v i_o name_v nor_o can_v endure_v so_o muchâ—_n as_o to_o think_v of_o i_o 9_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n i_o renounce_v all_o affection_n to_o meat_n and_o drink_v as_o to_o any_o pleasure_n or_o delight_n that_o i_o willing_o intend_v in_o they_o and_o do_v rather_o if_o it_o may_v please_v god_n to_o grant_v itt_n unto_o i_o choose_v for_o the_o mortification_n of_o my_o sensuality_n that_o i_o may_v never_o need_v to_o eat_v or_o drink_v at_o all_o but_o be_v deliver_v from_o the_o necessity_n of_o itt_n and_o in_o such_o case_n will_v i_o desire_v to_o live_v so_o long_o as_o it_o shall_v please_v god_n that_o i_o abide_v in_o thâ—â—_n lise_fw-fr i_o mean_v without_o eatinge_v or_o drink_v and_o without_o need_n to_o eat_v or_o drink_v or_o to_o take_v any_o thing_n that_o may_v be_v please_a to_o my_o body_n or_o nature_n 10._o but_o since_o it_o can_v be_v so_o but_o that_o i_o needs_o must_v eat_v and_o drink_v i_o will_v do_v it_o for_o the_o love_n and_o service_n of_o god_n and_o not_o mere_o or_o at_o all_o for_o my_o own_o will_n and_o pleasure_n it_o be_v continue_v the_o xi_o exerciseâ—_n 1â—_n in_o the_o like_a manner_n i_o resign_v myself_o as_o to_o the_o affection_n for_o sleepinge_v recreation_n and_o all_o other_o corporal_a refreshment_n and_o solace_n to_o take_v they_o only_o for_o god_n and_o not_o for_o my_o own_o will_n or_o satisfaction_n and_o to_o be_v willing_a altogether_o to_o