Selected quad for the lemma: world_n

Word A	Word B	Word C	Word D	Occurrence	Frequency Band	MI	MI Band	Prominent
world_n	soul_n	whole_a	worth_a	1,913	5	9.2236	5	false

Text snippets containing the quad

ID	Title	Author	Corrected Date of Publication (TCP Date of Publication)	STC	Words	Pages
A64409	The flaming hart, or, The life of the gloriovs S. Teresa foundresse of the reformation, of the order of the all-immaculate Virgin-Mother, our B. Lady, of Mount Carmel : this history of her life, was written by the Saint herself, in Spanish, and is newly, now, translated into English ...; Vida de Santa Teresa de Jesus. English. 1642	Teresa, of Avila, Saint, 1515-1582.; Matthew, Tobie, Sir, 1577-1655.	1642 (1642)	Wing T753; ESTC R33913	394,344	744

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our_o lord_n for_o his_o give_v her_o conformity_n to_o his_o holy_a will_n in_o so_o great_a affliction_n and_o how_o she_o take_v the_o glorious_a saint_n joseph_n for_o her_o intercessor_n and_o how_o advantageous_a that_o devotion_n prove_v to_o be_v 7._o chap._n she_o show_v by_o what_o degree_n and_o mean_n she_o go_v loose_v the_o favour_n which_o our_o lord_n have_v do_v she_o and_o how_o ill_o she_o begin_v to_o live_v and_o she_o also_o declare_v the_o harm_n there_o be_v in_o not_o maintain_v clausure_n in_o the_o monasterye_n of_o religious_a woman_n 8._o chap._n she_o treat_v of_o the_o great_a good_a it_o do_v she_o towards_o the_o not_o loose_v her_o soul_n not_o to_o have_v whole_o give_v over_o her_o prayer_n as_o also_o what_o a_o excellent_a remedy_n that_o be_v towards_o the_o gain_n of_o whatsoever_o good_a thing_n which_o be_v lose_v she_o persuade_v all_o creature_n to_o use_v it_o and_o declare_v the_o great_a benefit_n thereof_o and_o although_o we_o shall_v 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the_o favour_n which_o our_o lord_n be_v please_v to_o do_v she_o chap._n 11._o she_o declare_v in_o what_o the_o fault_n consist_v of_o not_o obtain_v to_o love_n god_n with_o perfection_n in_o short_a time_n she_o begin_v to_o deliver_v it_o by_o a_o comparison_n which_o contain_v fowre_a degree_n of_o prayer_n and_o she_o treat_v here_o of_o the_o first_o which_o be_v very_o profitable_a for_o beginner_n &_o for_o those_o also_o who_o have_v no_o sensible_a delight_n or_o gust_n in_o prayer_n 12._o chap._n she_o prosecute_v her_o discourse_n of_o the_o first_o state_n or_o degree_n of_o prayer_n and_o declare_v how_o far_o we_o may_v arrive_v of_o ourselves_o by_o the_o favour_n of_o our_o lord_n and_o of_o the_o hurt_n it_o bring_v to_o desire_v that_o our_o spirit_n may_v rise_v to_o supernatural_a and_o extraordinary_a thing_n till_o our_o lord_n himself_o be_v please_v to_o ordain_v it_o 13._o chap._n she_o proceed_v in_o this_o first_o degree_n and_o state_n of_o prayer_n and_o 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prayer_n and_o go_v declare_v some_o very_a high_a point_n and_o what_o a_o soul_n which_o arrive_v thus_o far_o may_v be_v able_a to_o do_v and_o what_o effect_n these_o so_o great_a favour_n of_o our_o lord_n be_v accustom_v to_o work_n the_o sense_n hereof_o be_v very_o fit_a to_o raise_v the_o spirit_n high_a in_o the_o praise_n of_o almighty_a god_n and_o it_o be_v also_o of_o great_a consolation_n for_o the_o soul_n which_o arrive_v to_o this_o state_n 17._o chap._n she_o prosecute_v the_o same_o argument_n about_o this_o three_o degree_n of_o prayer_n and_o finish_v the_o declaration_n of_o the_o effect_n which_o work_n and_o declare_v also_o the_o disadvantage_n which_o the_o memory_n and_o imagination_n be_v wont_a to_o bring_v in_o this_o case_n 18._o chap._n she_o treat_v of_o the_o four_o degree_n of_o prayer_n she_o begin_v here_o to_o declare_v in_o excellent_a manner_n the_o great_a dignity_n to_o which_o our_o lord_n advance_v that_o soul_n which_o be_v exalt_v to_o this_o state_n it_o serve_v to_o animate_v man_n much_o to_o endeavour_v that_o they_o may_v arrive_v to_o so_o high_a a_o condition_n since_o it_o may_v be_v obtain_v in_o this_o world_n through_o the_o goodness_n of_o our_o lord_n though_o it_o can_v be_v deserve_v let_v this_o be_v read_v with_o consideration_n and_o care_n 19_o chap._n she_o prosecute_v the_o same_o discourse_n and_o begin_v to_o declare_v the_o effect_n which_o this_o degree_n of_o prayer_n work_n in_o the_o soul_n she_o persuade_v man_n earnest_o not_o to_o turn_v back_o nor_o to_o give-ove_a their_o prayer_n though_o they_o shall_v happen_v to_o fall_v even_o after_o they_o have_v receive_v these_o favour_n she_o speak_v of_o the_o great_a harm_n which_o will_v arrive_v to_o they_o if_o they_o do_v otherwise_o this_o discourse_n be_v much_o to_o be_v note_v and_o it_o be_v of_o great_a consolation_n for_o weak_a person_n and_o sinner_n 20._o chap._n she_o treat_v of_o the_o difference_n between_v union_n and_o rapt_v and_o declare_v what_o kind_n of_o thing_n a_o rapt_v be_v she_o speak_v also_o of_o the_o blessing_n which_o that_o soul_n have_v which_o our_o lord_n through_o his_o goodness_n bring_v thither_o and_o of_o the_o effect_n which_o rapt_n use_v to_o produce_v this_o discourse_n be_v of_o much_o admiration_n 21._o chap._n she_o prosecute_v and_o finish_v this_o last_o degree_n of_o prayer_n she_o declare_v what_o the_o soul_n find_v therein_o when_o she_o return_v to_o live_v again_o in_o the_o world_n and_o the_o light_n also_o which_o our_o lord_n give_v concern_v the_o deceit_n and_o error_n of_o the_o same_o world_n this_o chapter_n deliver_v excellent_a doctrine_n 22._o chap._n she_o treat_v of_o how_o secure_a a_o way_n it_o be_v for_o person_n who_o give_v themselves_o to_o contemplation_n not_o to_o raiseup_a their_o spirit_n to_o high_a thing_n unless_o our_o lord_n raise_v they_o up_o and_o that_o the_o humanity_n of_o christ_n our_o lord_n be_v indeed_o to_o be_v the_o 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