their_o brutish_a affection_n behold_v how_o they_o be_v all_o without_o any_o repose_n wihout_v order_n and_o without_o contentment_n behold_v how_o they_o despise_v one_o another_o &_o love_v but_o only_o from_o the_o theeth_n outward_a in_o a_o word_n thou_o shall_v see_v a_o pitiful_a common_a wealth_n miserable_a tyrannize_v by_o this_o accurse_a king_n which_o may_v just_o move_v thy_o hart_n to_o compassion_n 2._o on_o the_o right_a side_n behold_v jesus_n christ_n crucify_v who_o with_o most_o hearty_a love_n pray_v for_o these_o poor_a people_n pofess_z of_o the_o devil_n that_o they_o may_v be_v free_v and_o deliver_v from_o that_o tirannical_a thraldom_n and_o call_v they_o meek_o and_o courteous_o unto_o he_o behold_v round_o about_o he_o a_o great_a troop_n of_o devout_a person_n every_o one_o in_o company_n of_o his_o holy_a angel_n behold_v the_o beauty_n of_o this_o kingdom_n of_o devotion_n o_o what_o a_o goodly_a sight_n be_v it_o to_o see_v this_o troop_n of_o 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which_o be_v in_o the_o squadron_n of_o those_o that_o live_v devout_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o the_o world_n do_v invite_v and_o encourage_v thou_o 5._o the_o crucify_a king_n of_o glory_n himself_o call_v thou_o courteous_o by_o thy_o own_o name_n come_v my_o welbeloud_a come_v hither_o that_o i_o may_v crown_v thou_o election_n 1._o o_o vain_a world_n o_o abominable_a troop_n no_o you_o shall_v never_o more_o see_v i_o under_o your_o banner_n i_o have_v for_o ever_o leave_v of_o your_o foolery_n and_o vanity_n o_o execrable_a king_n of_o pride_n o_o curse_a king_n fiend_n of_o hell_n i_o renounce_v thou_o with_o all_o thy_o vain_a pomp_n i_o detest_v and_o defy_v thou_o with_o all_o thy_o work_n 2._o and_o humble_o turn_v myself_o unto_o thou_o my_o dear_a lord_n jesus_n king_n of_o felicity_n and_o eternal_a glory_n i_o embrace_v thou_o with_o all_o the_o force_n of_o my_o soul_n i_o adore_v thou_o with_o all_o my_o hart_n i_o choose_v thou_o now_o and_o ever_o for_o my_o king_n and_o for_o my_o only_a prince_n i_o offer_v up_o unto_o thou_o my_o inviolable_a fidelity_n i_o do_v homage_n irrevocable_o unto_o thy_o 〈◊〉_d majesty_n and_o submit_v myself_o whole_o to_o the_o obedience_n of_o thy_o holy_a law_n and_o ordinance_n 3._o o_o sacred_a â—…gin_n my_o dread_n and_o dear_a lady_n i_o choose_v thou_o for_o my_o advocate_n &_o my_o guide_n i_o render_v myself_o under_o thy_o colour_n i_o offer_v from_o henceforth_o a_o particular_a respect_n &_o reverence_n unto_o thy_o menâ—…rie_n 4._o o_o my_o good_a angel_n preâ—…_n 〈◊〉_d unto_o this_o glorious_a and_o sacred_a asseâ—…_n and_o abandom_n i_o not_o until_o i_o arrive_v to_o the_o society_n of_o this_o bless_a company_n with_o who_o i_o say_v from_o my_o hart_n &_o will_v say_v for_o ever_o live_v for_o ever_o my_o lord_n jesus_n live_v for_o ever_o my_o lord_n jesus_n pater_fw-la aue._n credo_fw-la how_o to_o make_v a_o general_a confession_n chapter_n 19_o 1._o hitherto_o my_o deer_n philotheus_n have_v i_o set_v down_o the_o meditation_n which_o i_o think_v requisite_a for_o our_o purpose_n and_o when_o thou_o have_v pass_v they_o over_o with_o diligence_n and_o devotion_n then_o go_v with_o a_o humble_a but_o yet_o courageous_a spirit_n to_o make_v thy_o general_a confession_n but_o â—_o pray_v thou_o suffer_v not_o thyself_o to_o be_v trouble_v with_o any_o kind_n of_o apprehension_n the_o scorpion_n be_v venomous_a in_o the_o wound_n which_o arise_v from_o his_o sting_n but_o himself_o be_v reduce_v into_o 〈◊〉_d become_v a_o fingular_a remedy_n agaiâ—…_n 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d own_o sting_a â—o_o sin_n be_v no_o 〈…〉_o full_a but_o when_o it_o be_v commâ—…ed_v but_o 〈…〉_o convert_v into_o confessioâ—…_n penaunâ—…â—ecometh_v wholesome_a &_o honourable_a 〈◊〉_d and_o confession_n be_v so_o precious_a 〈…〉_o sweet_a a_o smell_n that_o 〈…〉_o filth_n and_o disperse_v the_o 〈…〉_o of_o sin_n simon_n the_o leper_n judge_v mary_n magdalen_n to_o be_v a_o sinner_n and_o call_v she_o so_o but_o our_o merciful_a saviour_n deny_v it_o and_o speak_v no_o more_o of_o her_o sin_n but_o of_o the_o sweet_a perfume_n which_o she_o pour_v forth_o and_o of_o the_o greatness_n and_o odoriferous_a send_v of_o her_o inflame_a charity_n 2._o o_o my_o philotheus_n if_o we_o be_v true_o humble_a in_o our_o own_o eye_n and_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n our_o sin_n will_v displease_v we_o above_o all_o thing_n because_o god_n be_v high_o offend_v with_o they_o but_o the_o accusation_n of_o our_o sin_n will_v be_v sweet_a and_o pleasant_a unto_o we_o because_o god_n be_v great_o honour_v with_o it_o a_o kind_n of_o hart_n ease_n and_o a_o asswage_n of_o pain_n it_o be_v to_o have_v declare_v plain_o &_o sufficient_o the_o disease_n that_o torment_v we_o to_o a_o skilful_a physician_n that_o can_v cure_v us._n 3_o when_o thou_o come_v before_o thy_o ghostly_a father_n imagine_v thyself_o to_o be_v on_o the_o mount_n of_o caluary_n kneel_v right_o under_o the_o foot_n of_o jesus_n christ_n crucify_v from_o who_o distil_v his_o most_o precious_a blood_n on_o all_o side_n to_o bathe_v &_o wash_v thou_o from_o thy_o iniquity_n for_o although_o it_o be_v not_o the_o very_a blood_n of_o our_o saviour_n yet_o it_o be_v the_o merit_n and_o valour_n of_o his_o blood_n shed_v for_o we_o upon_o the_o cross_n which_o wash_v &_o water_v abundant_o the_o soul_n of_o the_o penitent_n in_o every_o confessionarie_n open_v then_o thy_o hart_n well_o to_o expel_v thy_o sin_n by_o virtue_n of_o confession_n for_o according_a to_o that_o measure_n in_o which_o they_o go_v out_o of_o thy_o soul_n will_v the_o grace_n of_o god_n enter_v in_o their_o room_n to_o fill_v thou_o brimful_a with_o his_o blessing_n 4._o but_o be_v sure_a to_o declare_v the_o state_n of_o thy_o soul_n and_o all_o thy_o sin_n simple_o plain_o and_o full_o satisfy_v thy_o conscience_n in_o this_o once_o for_o all_o thy_o life_n after_o and_o that_o do_v harken_v to_o the_o advertisment_n and_o ordonance_n of_o the_o servant_n of_o god_n to_o who_o thou_o confess_v and_o say_v with_o holy_a samuel_n in_o thy_o hart_n speak_v lord_n for_o thy_o servant_n hearkn_v unto_o thou_o yea_o my_o philotheus_n it_o be_v god_n who_o voice_n thou_o hear_v in_o that_o place_n for_o so_o say_v he_o unto_o his_o vicar_n he_o that_o hear_v you_o hear_v i_o 5._o after_o that_o take_v in_o hand_n this_o protestation_n follow_v which_o serve_v for_o a_o conclusion_n of_o all_o thy_o contrition_n ponder_v it_o well_o from_o the_o begin_n to_o the_o end_n and_o read_v it_o attentive_o and_o with_o the_o great_a feeling_n that_o possible_a thou_o can_v a_o authentical_a protestation_n serve_v to_o engrave_v in_o thy_o soul_n a_o firm_a resolution_n to_o serve_v god_n and_o to_o conclude_v the_o act_n of_o penance_n chap._n 20._o 1._o i_o wretched_a sinner_n here_o personal_o
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how_o easy_o and_o redilie_o a_o man_n may_v draw_v good_a thought_n and_o holy_a inspiration_n from_o all_o thing_n great_a and_o small_a that_o be_v present_v to_o our_o sense_n and_o understanding_n in_o the_o variety_n of_o this_o mortal_a life_n most_o unhappy_a be_v they_o which_o do_v turn_v aside_o the_o creature_n from_o their_o creator_n to_o change_v &_o apply_v they_o to_o sin_n and_o happy_a be_v they_o that_o turn_v all_o the_o creature_n to_o the_o glory_n of_o their_o creator_n and_o do_v employ_v their_o fade_a vanity_n to_o the_o honour_n of_o the_o everlasting_a verity_n my_o custom_n say_v s._n gregory_n nazianzen_n have_v be_v always_o to_o accommodate_v and_o apply_v all_o thing_n to_o my_o spiritual_a profit_n read_v the_o epitaphe_n or_o funeral_n sermon_n which_o
hart_n 5._o i_o will_v do_v all_o that_o i_o can_v to_o pull_v up_o by_o the_o very_a root_n all_o the_o plant_n of_o sin_n from_o my_o hart_n &_o in_o particular_a such_o and_o such_o which_o do_v most_o annoy_v i_o 6._o to_o accomplish_v this_o i_o will_v constant_o embrace_v the_o mean_n which_o shall_v be_v advise_v i_o and_o never_o think_v i_o have_v do_v evough_o to_o repair_v the_o ruin_n of_o so_o great_a offence_n conclusion_n 1._o give_v god_n thanks_o for_o expect_v thy_o amendment_n until_o this_o hour_n and_o bless_v he_o that_o he_o have_v give_v thou_o these_o good_a affection_n 2._o offer_v he_o up_o thy_o soul_n frank_o and_o free_o that_o thou_o may_v put_v they_o in_o execution_n by_o the_o help_n of_o his_o grace_n 3._o desire_v he_o to_o strengthen_v thou_o with_o his_o heavenly_a aid_n for_o his_o dear_a son_n precious_a death_n for_o our_o bless_a lady_n intercession_n &_o the_o prayer_n of_o all_o his_o saint_n etc._n etc._n pater_fw-la aue._n credo_fw-la remember_v to_o make_v a_o little_a nosegay_n of_o devotion_n as_o aforesaid_a the_o fifte_a meditation_n of_o death_n chapter_n 13._o preparation_n 1._o place_v thyself_o reverent_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n 2._o pray_v he_o to_o inspire_v thou_o with_o his_o grace_n 3._o imagine_v thyself_o to_o be_v extreme_o sick_a li_v upon_o thy_o deathbed_n without_o any_o hope_n at_o all_o of_o ever_o escape_v consideration_n 1._o consider_v the_o uncertainty_n of_o the_o day_n of_o thy_o death_n o_o my_o poor_a soul_n thou_o must_v out_o of_o this_o body_n one_o day_n but_o when_o shall_v that_o day_n be_v will_v it_o be_v in_o winter_n or_o in_o summer_n in_o city_n or_o contrie_n by_o day_n or_o by_o night_n shall_v it_o be_v unaware_o or_o with_o advertisement_n by_o sickness_n or_o by_o casuallity_n shall_v thou_o have_v leisure_n to_o confess_v thou_o or_o not_o shall_v thou_o have_v the_o assistance_n of_o thy_o ghostly_a father_n or_o not_o alas_o o_o my_o soul_n of_o all_o these_o thing_n we_o know_v not_o one_o only_o certain_a it_o be_v that_o die_v we_o must_v and_o always_o soon_o than_o we_o imagine_v 2._o consider_v that_o at_o that_o time_n the_o whole_a world_n shall_v have_v a_o end_n so_o far_o forth_o as_o concern_v thou_o that_o be_v there_o shall_v be_v no_o more_o world_n for_o thou_o yea_o it_o will_v turn_v upside_o down_o before_o thy_o eye_n for_o then_o the_o pleasure_n the_o vanity_n the_o worldly_a joy_n the_o fond_a affection_n of_o our_o life_n will_v seem_v unto_o we_o like_o fly_v shadow_n and_o fadinge_n cloud_n ah_o wretched_a caitiff_a that_o i_o be_o for_o what_o trifle_n and_o babble_n have_v i_o offend_v almighty_a god_n thou_o shall_v then_o evident_o see_v that_o we_o have_v offend_v he_o for_o just_a nothing_o contrariwise_a at_o that_o hour_n all_o devotion_n piety_n and_o other_o good_a work_n will_v seem_v unto_o thou_o the_o great_a and_o sweet_a treasure_n in_o the_o world_n o_o wherefore_o do_v i_o not_o follow_v this_o fair_a and_o pleasant_a path_n at_o that_o sorrowful_a time_n thy_o sin_n which_o before_o seem_v unto_o thou_o but_o little_a moule-hille_n will_v appear_v biggar_n then_o huge_a mountain_n and_o thy_o devotion_n so_o little_a that_o thou_o will_v scarce_o be_v able_a to_o perceive_v it_o 3._o consider_v the_o long_a &_o languish_a farewell_n that_o thy_o distress_a soul_n will_v then_o give_v to_o this_o world_n how_o sorrowful_o she_o will_v bid_v adieu_o to_o riches_n to_o honour_n to_o vanity_n to_o vain_a company_n to_o pleasure_n to_o pastime_n to_o friend_n to_o neighbour_n to_o parent_n to_o kinsfolk_n to_o husband_n to_o wife_n to_o child_n and_o in_o a_o word_n to_o all_o creature_n and_o final_o to_o her_o own_o body_n which_o she_o must_v likewise_o leave_v all_o pale_a wrinkle_a hideous_a loathsome_a and_o most_o detestable_o stink_v 4._o consider_v the_o impression_n that_o one_o shall_v have_v to_o lift_v up_o or_o lay_v hand_n on_o this_o thy_o body_n the_o great_a haste_n that_o even_o thy_o best_a friend_n will_v make_v to_o carry_v thy_o carcase_n out_o of_o door_n and_o to_o hide_v the_o same_o full_a deep_a under_o the_o ground_n far_o enough_o from_o their_o sight_n &_o behold_v and_o this_o do_v how_o seldom_o afterwards_o the_o world_n will_v think_v upon_o thou_o sure_o no_o more_o than_o thou_o thyself_o have_v think_v upon_o other_o man_n who_o have_v decease_v before_o thou_o god_n have_v mercy_n on_o his_o soul_n say_v they_o and_o there_o be_v all_o o_o death_n how_o be_v thou_o to_o be_v ponder_v how_o be_v thou_o terrible_a pitiless_a and_o without_o compassion_n 5._o that_o at_o this_o departure_n from_o the_o body_n the_o soul_n take_v his_o way_n on_o the_o right_a hand_n or_o the_o left_a alas_o alas_o wither_v then_o shall_v thou_o go_v what_o way_n shall_v it_o take_v sure_o no_o other_o than_o that_o which_o it_o have_v heretofore_o begin_v in_o this_o world_n affection_n and_o resolution_n 1._o pray_v earnest_o to_o god_n and_o cast_v thyself_o with_o tremble_a love_n beiwixt_n his_o arm_n alas_o o_o my_o lord_n receive_v i_o into_o thy_o protection_n at_o that_o dreadful_a day_n make_v that_o last_o hour_n happy_a and_o favourable_a unto_o i_o and_o let_v rather_o all_o the_o rest_n of_o my_o life_n be_v nothing_o else_o but_o day_n of_o sorrow_n affliction_n and_o calamity_n 2._o despise_v the_o world_n see_v i_o know_v not_o the_o hour_n wherein_o i_o must_v leave_v thou_o o_o wretched_a world_n i_o will_v no_o more_o set_v my_o love_n upon_o thou_o o_o you_o my_o dear_a friend_n knisfolke_n and_o ally_n suffer_v i_o to_o bearge_n you_o only_o that_o affection_n which_o be_v compatible_a with_o a_o holy_a amity_n and_o may_v therefore_o last_v eternal_o for_o why_o shall_v i_o unite_v myself_o unto_o you_o in_o such_o sort_n as_o that_o afterwards_o we_o shall_v be_v force_v to_o break_v the_o knot_n of_o amity_n betwixt_o we_o 3._o i_o will_v therefore_o from_o this_o very_a instant_n prepare_v myself_o for_o that_o perilous_a hour_n and_o take_v that_o care_n which_o be_v requisite_a to_o end_v this_o journey_n happy_o i_o will_v secure_v the_o estate_n of_o my_o conscience_n to_o the_o utmost_a of_o my_o ability_n and_o take_v present_a order_n for_o the_o reformation_n and_o amendment_n of_o such_o and_o such_o defaulte_n conclusion_n give_v thanks_n unto_o god_n for_o these_o resolution_n which_o he_o have_v infuse_v and_o give_v unto_o thou_o and_o offer_v they_o again_o thankful_o love_o and_o lowly_a unto_o his_o majesty_n entreat_v he_o a_o new_a to_o give_v thou_o a_o happy_a death_n for_o the_o death_n of_o his_o dear_o belove_a son_n our_o lord_n and_o saviour_n implore_v the_o assistance_n of_o the_o b._n virgin_n thy_o angel_n guardian_n and_o all_o the_o saint_n in_o heaven_n pater_fw-la aue._n credo_fw-la and_o bound_v up_o a_o sweet_a posy_n of_o myrrh_n to_o recreate_v thy_o soul_n the_o day_n follow_v the_o sixth_o meditation_n of_o judgement_n chapter_n 14._o 1._o place_v thyself_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n 2._o pray_v he_o to_o assist_v thou_o with_o his_o grace_n consideration_n 1._o after_o the_o time_n that_o god_n have_v ordain_v for_o the_o continnance_n of_o the_o world_n and_o after_o a_o number_n of_o dreadful_a sign_n and_o horrible_a presage_n the_o terror_n whereof_o shall_v make_v man_n wither_v for_o fear_n and_o anguish_n a_o consume_a fire_n come_v like_o aflood_n shall_v burn_v and_o reduce_v to_o ash_n every_o thing_n that_o be_v upon_o the_o face_n of_o the_o earth_n nothing_o which_o we_o see_v except_v nothing_o to_o be_v privileged_a from_o this_o fiery_a deluge_n 2._o after_o this_o flood_n of_o flame_n and_o lightning_n all_o man_n shall_v arise_v from_o their_o grave_n except_v such_o as_o already_o be_v rise_v and_o at_o the_o summon_n of_o the_o archangel_n voice_n they_o shall_v appear_v before_o the_o judgement_n throne_n in_o the_o valley_n of_o josaphat_n but_o alas_o with_o what_o difference_n for_o the_o one_o sort_n shall_v arise_v with_o glorifed_a body_n cast_v forth_o ray_n of_o exceed_a light_n and_o the_o other_o in_o body_n or_o rather_o in_o carrion_n most_o hideous_a and_o loath_a some_o to_o behold_v 3._o consider_v the_o majesty_n where_o with_o the_o sovereign_a judge_n will_v appear_v environ_v with_o all_o the_o army_n of_o his_o angel_n and_o saint_n before_o he_o shall_v be_v bear_v triumphant_o his_o sacred_a cross_n shine_v much_o more_o bright_a than_o the_o sun_n a_o standard_n of_o grace_n to_o the_o good_a and_o of_o righour_n and_o terror_n to_o the_o wicked_a 4._o this_o sovereign_a judge_n by_o his_o redoubted_a commandment_n and_o which_o shall_v sudden_o and_o in_o a_o moment_n be_v put_v in_o execution_n shall_v separate_v the_o good_a from_o the_o bad_a place_v the_o one_o
appear_a &_o stand_v in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n everlasting_a and_o of_o all_o the_o court_n of_o heaven_n have_v consider_v the_o exceed_a mercy_n of_o his_o divine_a goodness_n towards_o i_o most_o unworthy_a and_o miserable_a caitiff_n who_o he_o have_v create_v of_o nothing_o preserve_v sustain_v and_o deliver_v from_o so_o many_o danger_n &_o endow_v with_o so_o many_o benefit_n but_o above_o all_o consider_v the_o incomprehensible_a sweetness_n &_o clemency_n wherewith_o this_o most_o good_a god_n have_v so_o bountiful_o tolerate_v i_o in_o my_o iniquity_n so_o often_o and_o so_o love_o inspire_v i_o invite_v i_o to_o amendment_n and_o so_o patient_o expect_v my_o penance_n &_o conversion_n until_o this_o n._n year_n of_o my_o age_n notwithstanding_o all_o my_o unthanckfulnes_n disloyalty_n and_o infidelity_n whereby_o differ_v my_o conversion_n &_o despise_v his_o grace_n i_o have_v so_o impudent_o offend_v he_o have_v moreover_o consider_v that_o at_o the_o day_n of_o my_o christen_n i_o be_v so_o happy_o &_o holy_o vow_v and_o dedicate_v unto_o my_o god_n to_o be_v his_o child_n and_o that_o contrary_a to_o the_o profession_n which_o then_o be_v make_v in_o my_o name_n i_o have_v so_o many_o and_o sundry_a time_n so_o execrable_o and_o detestable_o profane_v &_o violate_v my_o soul_n employ_v it_o &_o oppose_v it_o against_o his_o divine_a majesty_n at_o length_n recall_v myself_o &_o prostrate_v myself_o in_o hart_n and_o mind_n before_o the_o throne_n of_o his_o divine_a justice_n i_o acknowledge_v confess_v and_o yield_v myself_o lawful_o attach_v &_o convict_v of_o high_a treason_n against_o his_o divine_a majesty_n &_o guilty_a of_o the_o death_n &_o passion_n of_o jesus_n christ_n by_o reason_n of_o the_o heinous_a sin_n which_o i_o have_v commit_v for_o which_o he_o die_v and_o suffer_v the_o torment_n of_o the_o cross_n so_o that_o consequent_o i_o be_o worthy_a to_o be_v cast_v away_o and_o damn_v for_o ever_o 2._o but_o turn_v myself_o towards_o the_o throne_n of_o the_o infinite_a mercy_n of_o the_o self_n same_o eternal_a god_n have_v detest_v from_o the_o bottom_n of_o my_o hart_n &_o with_o all_o my_o force_n the_o iniquity_n of_o my_o life_n forepast_a i_o most_o humble_o require_v &_o crane_n pardon_n grace_n and_o mercy_n with_o entire_a absolution_n from_o my_o crime_n through_o virtue_n of_o the_o passion_n and_o death_n of_o the_o same_o saviour_n &_o redeemer_n of_o my_o soul_n upon_o who_o rely_v as_o upon_o the_o only_a foundation_n of_o my_o hope_n i_o confirm_v again_o advowe_v and_o renew_v the_o sacred_a profession_n of_o loyal_a service_n and_o fidelity_n make_v in_o my_o name_n &_o behalf_n unto_o my_o god_n at_o my_o baptise_v renounce_v the_o devil_n the_o flesh_n and_o the_o world_n abhor_v their_o execrable_a suggestion_n vanity_n and_o concupiscence_n for_o all_o the_o time_n of_o this_o present_a life_n and_o for_o all_o eternity_n and_o convert_n myself_o unto_o my_o most_o gracious_a and_o merciful_a god_n i_o desire_v deliberate_a purpose_n and_o full_o resolve_v irrevocable_o to_o honour_v he_o serve_v he_o and_o love_v he_o now_o and_o for_o ever_o give_v he_o for_o this_o end_n and_o dedicate_a and_o consecrate_v my_o spirit_n with_o all_o his_o faculty_n my_o soul_n with_o all_o her_o function_n my_o hart_n with_o all_o his_o affection_n &_o my_o body_n with_o all_o his_o sense_n protest_v never_o more_o to_o abuse_v any_o one_o part_n of_o my_o be_v or_o nature_n against_o his_o divine_a will_n and_o sovereign_a majesty_n to_o who_o i_o offer_v up_o and_o sacrifice_v myself_o in_o spirit_n to_o be_v to_o he_o a_o loyal_a obedient_a &_o faithful_a creature_n for_o ever_o without_o ever_o unsay_n revoke_v or_o repent_v i_o of_o my_o promise_n 3._o but_o if_o alas_o through_o suggestion_n of_o my_o enemy_n or_o through_o humane_a frailty_n i_o chance_v at_o any_o time_n to_o transgress_v in_o any_o thing_n whatsoever_o this_o my_o purpose_n and_o resolution_n i_o protest_v and_o determine_v from_o this_o very_a hour_n through_o the_o grace_n and_o aid_v of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n to_o arise_v again_o so_o soon_o as_o i_o shall_v perceive_v my_o fall_n &_o so_o to_o return_v a_o new_a to_o the_o divine_a mercy_n without_o any_o stay_n or_o delay_v whatsoever_o this_o be_v my_o will_n intention_n and_o resolution_n irrevocable_a &_o inviolable_a which_o i_o advowe_v and_o confirm_v without_o reservation_n or_o exception_n in_o the_o same_o sacred_a presence_n of_o my_o god_n and_o in_o the_o sight_n of_o the_o triumphant_a church_n and_o in_o the_o face_n of_o the_o church_n militant_a my_o mother_n who_o understand_v &_o register_v this_o my_o declaration_n in_o person_n of_o he_o who_o as_o her_o officer_n hearth_n i_o &_o take_v my_o confession_n in_o this_o action_n 4._o let_v it_o please_v thou_o o_o my_o eternal_a god_n allmightie_a and_o all_o good_a father_n son_n and_o holy_a ghost_n to_o confirm_v &_o strengthen_v i_o in_o this_o resolution_n and_o to_o accept_v this_o my_o cordial_a and_o inward_a sacrifice_n in_o the_o odour_n of_o sweetness_n and_o as_o it_o please_v thou_o to_o lighten_v i_o with_o thy_o holy_a inspiration_n &_o to_o give_v i_o the_o will_v to_o purpose_v full_o so_o grant_v i_o also_o force_v and_o grace_n to_o perform_v it_o perfect_o o_o my_o god_n thou_o be_v my_o god_n god_n of_o my_o hart_n god_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o god_n of_o my_o spirit_n and_o for_o such_o do_v i_o reverent_o thanckful_o and_o love_o acknowledge_v honour_n and_o adore_v thou_o now_o and_o for_o ever_o live_v o_o jesus_n a_o devoute_a manner_n to_o receive_v absolution_n chap._n 21._o 1._o this_o protestation_n end_v be_v very_o attentive_a and_o open_v the_o ear_n of_o thy_o hart_n to_o hear_v the_o word_n of_o thy_o absolution_n which_o the_o saviour_n of_o thy_o soul_n himself_o sit_v upon_o the_o throne_n of_o his_o mercy_n will_v pronounce_v from_o above_o in_o heaven_n before_o all_o his_o angel_n and_o saint_n at_o the_o same_o time_n that_o the_o priest_n in_o his_o name_n do_v absolve_v thou_o here_o beneath_o upon_o earth_n so_o that_o all_o that_o glorious_a troop_n of_o the_o bless_a citizen_n of_o heaven_n rejoice_v at_o this_o happy_a success_n of_o thou_o will_v sing_v a_o spiritual_a canticle_n with_o incomparable_a joy_n and_o all_o give_v the_o kiss_n of_o peace_n &_o fellowship_n unto_o thy_o hart_n now_o sanctify_v and_o reestablish_v in_o grace_n 2._o behold_v here_o my_o philotheus_n a_o admirable_a contract_n which_o pass_v between_o thou_o and_o thy_o god_n by_o which_o thou_o make_v so_o happy_a a_o peace_n with_o his_o divine_a majesty_n for_o as_o much_o as_o give_v thyself_o to_o he_o thou_o gain_v he_o &_o thyself_o also_o for_o life_n everlasting_a it_o remain_v only_o to_o take_v pen_n in_o hand_n &_o subscribe_v with_o a_o joyful_a hart_n to_o the_o act_n of_o thy_o protestation_n and_o afterward_o thou_o shall_v go_v to_o the_o sacred_a altar_n where_o god_n on_o the_o other_o side_n will_v reciprocallie_o sign_n and_o seal_v thy_o absolution_n and_o the_o promise_n which_o he_o make_v unto_o thou_o of_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n put_v himself_o by_o his_o venerable_a sacrament_n as_o a_o sacred_a seal_n &_o signet_n upon_o thy_o renew_a hart_n 3._o thus_o i_o trow_v philotheus_n thy_o soul_n will_v be_v whole_o purge_v from_o sin_n and_o all_o sinful_a affection_n yet_o because_o these_o affection_n be_v easy_o breed_v &_o bear_v a_o new_a in_o the_o soul_n through_o our_o failtie_n &_o our_o rebellious_a concupiscence_n which_o may_v well_o be_v mortify_v but_o never_o whole_o extinguish_v while_o we_o live_v in_o this_o mortal_a life_n i_o will_v give_v thou_o some_o instruction_n which_o be_v well_o practise_v may_v preserve_v thou_o hereafter_o from_o mortal_a sin_n and_o from_o all_o inclination_n or_o affection_n thereof_o so_o that_o it_o may_v never_o henceforth_o find_v place_n in_o thy_o hart_n and_o for_o so_o much_o as_o the_o self_n same_o instruction_n serve_v also_o for_o a_o more_o perfect_a and_o high_a purification_n of_o the_o soul_n before_o i_o deliver_v they_o i_o will_v say_v a_o word_n or_o two_o of_o this_o absolute_a and_o perfect_a purity_n of_o mind_n whereunto_o i_o will_v so_o willing_o conduct_v thou_o that_o we_o must_v purify_v ourselves_o from_o the_o affection_n which_o we_o have_v to_o venial_a sin_n chapter_n 22._o 1._o as_o the_o day_n light_a increase_n we_o see_v by_o degree_n more_o clear_o in_o a_o look_a glass_n the_o spot_v and_o blemish_n of_o our_o countenance_n even_o so_o as_o the_o inward_a light_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n illustrate_v our_o conscience_n we_o see_v more_o plain_o and_o distinct_o the_o sin_n inclination_n and_o imperfection_n which_o may_v hinder_v we_o to_o attain_v unto_o true_a devotion_n and_o the_o very_a same_o light_n
and_o although_o they_o do_v it_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n man_n will_v call_v it_o cowardliness_n pusillanimity_n &_o lack_v of_o courage_n behold_v here_o be_v another_o abject_a evil_a one_o have_v a_o cancer_n on_o his_o arm_n and_o another_o upon_o his_o face_n the_o first_o have_v only_o the_o disease_n which_o be_v bad_a enough_o but_o this_o other_o joint_o with_o the_o disease_n have_v contempt_n shame_n and_o abjection_n in_o all_o company_n what_o say_v i_o then_o of_o love_a abjection_n i_o say_v that_o we_o must_v not_o only_o love_v the_o harm_n itself_o which_o we_o do_v by_o the_o virtue_n of_o patience_n but_o we_o must_v also_o love_v the_o contempt_n the_o shame_n the_o vileness_n baseness_n and_o abjection_n thereof_o which_o we_o do_v by_o the_o virtue_n of_o humility_n 3._o again_o there_o be_v some_o virtue_n that_o seem_v abject_a and_o contemptible_a other_o that_o be_v honourable_a and_o respect_a by_o all_o man_n patience_n meekness_n plaindealing_a simplicity_n &_o humility_n itself_o be_v of_o the_o number_n of_o those_o virtue_n which_o worldly_a man_n hold_v as_o vile_a and_o abject_a contrariwise_o they_o make_v great_a estimation_n of_o wisdom_n fortitude_n and_o liberality_n there_o be_v also_o diverse_a action_n of_o the_o self_n same_o virtue_n whereof_o some_o be_v contemptible_a and_o other_o honourable_a to_o give_v alm_n and_o to_o pardon_v injury_n and_o offence_n be_v both_o of_o they_o act_n proceed_v from_o charity_n and_o the_o first_o be_v honour_v of_o all_o man_n the_o last_o most_o base_a in_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o blind_a world_n a_o young_a gentleman_n or_o gentlewoman_n that_o will_v not_o disorder_v themselves_o with_o a_o company_n of_o dissolute_a mate_n in_o prate_v dance_a drink_v superfluous_a pomp_n and_o curiosity_n of_o apparel_n shall_v be_v scoff_v at_o and_o censure_v by_o other_o and_o their_o laudable_a modesty_n term_v hypocrisy_n or_o affect_a sanctity_n to_o love_v these_o censure_n to_o rejoice_v in_o that_o the_o world_n have_v this_o opinion_n of_o we_o be_v to_o love_v our_o own_o abjection_n behold_v again_o another_o sort_n of_o abjection_n which_o we_o must_v love_v we_o go_v to_o visit_v the_o sick_a many_o of_o we_o together_o if_o i_o be_v send_v to_o the_o most_o miscrable_a that_o be_v to_o i_o a_o abjection_n in_o the_o judgement_n of_o the_o world_n and_o for_o that_o cause_n will_v i_o embrace_v it_o more_o willing_o but_o if_o i_o be_v send_v to_o visit_v a_o person_n of_o more_o quality_n it_o be_v a_o abjection_n according_a to_o judgement_n of_o the_o spirit_n for_o there_o be_v not_o 〈◊〉_d so_o much_o virtue_n nor_o merit_n and_o therefore_o i_o will_v love_v this_o abjection_n likewise_o one_o fall_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o the_o street_n and_o not_o only_o receave_v damage_n thereby_o but_o be_v also_o shameful_o laugh_v at_o this_o be_v a_o abjection_n which_o we_o must_v make_v much_o of_o 4._o there_o be_v some_o defect_n also_o which_o have_v no_o other_o harm_n in_o they_o but_o only_o the_o shame_n that_o they_o bring_v with_o they_o and_o humility_n though_o it_o require_v not_o that_o one_o shall_v commit_v they_o of_o set_v purpose_n yet_o it_o require_v that_o one_o disquiet_v not_o himself_o for_o have_v fall_v into_o some_o such_o defect_n these_o defect_n which_o i_o now_o speak_v of_o be_v certain_a foolery_n incivility_n inconsiderate_a act_n or_o word_n which_o as_o we_o ought_v to_o eschew_v before_o they_o be_v commit_v to_o obey_v civility_n and_o prudence_n so_o when_o they_o be_v once_o commit_v we_o must_v be_v content_a with_o the_o reproache_v that_o come_v thereby_o and_o accept_v it_o willing_o that_o so_o we_o may_v follow_v the_o rule_n of_o holy_a humility_n i_o say_v yet_o more_o if_o i_o chance_v to_o disordre_fw-fr myself_o through_o passion_n or_o dissolution_n or_o to_o speak_v some_o undecent_a word_n where_o with_o god_n and_o my_o neighbour_n be_v offend_v i_o will_v repent_v myself_o hearty_o with_o true_a sorrow_n for_o the_o sin_n commit_v and_o procure_v to_o repair_v the_o harm_n or_o offence_n do_v to_o my_o neighbour_n the_o best_a that_o possible_a i_o can_v but_o i_o will_v be_v content_a and_o right_a glad_a with_o the_o shame_n contempt_n and_o abjection_n which_o thereby_o i_o have_v incur_v and_o if_o the_o one_o can_v possible_o be_v separate_v from_o the_o other_o i_o will_v sincere_o cast_v away_o the_o sin_n and_o earnest_o retain_v the_o abjection_n 5._o but_o though_o we_o love_v the_o abjection_n and_o contempt_n which_o follow_v some_o evel_a or_o defect_n of_o we_o we_o must_v not_o neglect_v the_o redress_n of_o the_o ill_n that_o cause_v it_o by_o convenient_a and_o lawful_a mean_n especial_o when_o the_o evil_a be_v of_o some_o consequence_n and_o importance_n as_o if_o i_o have_v some_o deform_a loathsome_a disease_n upon_o my_o face_n i_o will_v procure_v to_o have_v it_o cure_v but_o not_o to_o have_v man_n forget_v the_o deformity_n which_o it_o cause_v if_o i_o have_v commit_v some_o foolery_n which_o be_v offensive_a to_o no_o man_n i_o will_v not_o excuse_v myself_o at_o all_o because_o although_o it_o be_v a_o defect_n and_o a_o fault_n it_o be_v not_o permanent_a and_o therefore_o it_o need_v no_o excuse_n but_o only_o for_o the_o abjection_n shame_n or_o contempt_n which_o befall_v i_o for_o it_o and_o to_o excuse_v that_o be_v against_o humility_n but_o if_o through_o my_o unaduisednesse_n and_o folly_n i_o have_v offend_v or_o scandalize_v any_o man_n i_o will_v make_v amends_n for_o the_o offence_n by_o some_o probable_a excuse_n because_o it_o contain_v a_o permanent_a ill_n and_o that_o charity_n oblige_v i_o to_o blot_v out_o and_o deface_v if_o i_o can_v 6._o to_o conclude_v it_o happen_v some_o time_n that_o charity_n command_v we_o to_o remedy_n and_o wipe_v away_o the_o abjection_n &_o contempt_n which_o we_o incur_v because_o our_o reputation_n &_o good_a name_n be_v necessary_a for_o the_o edification_n of_o our_o neighbour_n and_o in_o that_o case_n though_o we_o remove_v abjection_n &_o contempt_n from_o our_o neighbour_n eye_n lest_o he_o shall_v be_v scandalize_v or_o trouble_v thereby_o yet_o must_v we_o careful_o lock_v it_o up_o like_o a_o precious_a jewel_n in_o our_o hart_n that_o we_o ourselves_o may_v be_v edify_v thereby_o 7._o perchance_o thou_o will_v learn_v of_o i_o philotheus_n which_o abiection_n among_o all_o be_v to_o be_v esteem_v best_a and_o i_o tell_v thou_o plain_o in_o one_o word_n that_o those_o be_v most_o profitable_a to_o our_o soul_n and_o most_o acceptable_a to_o god_n which_o happen_v to_o we_o as_o it_o be_v by_o chance_n or_o by_o the_o course_n condition_n and_o estate_n of_o our_o life_n because_o we_o choose_v they_o not_o but_o receive_v they_o only_o from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n that_o send_v they_o who_o election_n and_o choice_n we_o know_v be_v always_o better_a for_o we_o than_o our_o own_o but_o if_o we_o be_v to_o choose_v they_o ourselves_o than_o the_o great_a be_v the_o best_a for_o we_o and_o those_o be_v to_o be_v esteem_v great_a which_o be_v most_o contrary_a to_o our_o inclination_n so_o that_o they_o be_v conformable_a to_o our_o vocation_n for_o to_o speak_v the_o truth_n once_o for_o all_o our_o own_o choice_n spoil_v in_o a_o manner_n and_o bring_v to_o naught_o all_o our_o virtue_n o_o who_o will_v give_v we_o the_o grace_n to_o say_v from_o our_o hart_n in_o all_o sincerity_n with_o that_o great_a king_n i_o have_v make_v choice_n to_o be_v a_o abject_a in_o the_o house_n of_o god_n rather_o than_o to_o dwell_v in_o the_o tabernacle_n of_o sinner_n none_o certain_o can_v give_v we_o this_o grace_n dear_a philothee_n but_o he_o that_o to_o exalt_v we_o live_v and_o die_v for_o we_o in_o such_o manner_n that_o he_o be_v esteem_v the_o outcast_n of_o man_n and_o the_o most_o abject_a of_o the_o people_n i_o have_v tell_v thou_o many_o thing_n philotheus_n which_o no_o doubt_n will_v seem_v somewhat_o hard_o unto_o thou_o when_o thou_o consider_v they_o but_o believe_v i_o they_o will_v be_v sweet_a than_o sugar_n or_o honey_n to_o thou_o when_o thou_o do_v put_v they_o in_o practice_n how_o to_o keep_v our_o good_a renown_n in_o the_o practice_n of_o humility_n chapter_n 7._o 1._o honour_n praise_n and_o glory_n be_v not_o give_v to_o man_n for_o every_o ordinary_a virtue_n but_o for_o some_o excellent_a and_o notable_a virtue_n for_o by_o praise_n we_o seek_v to_o persuade_v other_o to_o esteem_v the_o excellency_n of_o some_o man_n in_o who_o such_o a_o virtue_n excel_v by_o honour_n we_o protest_v that_o we_o ourselves_o do_v esteem_v he_o therefore_o &_o glory_n in_o my_o judgement_n be_v nothing_o else_o but_o a_o certain_a lustre_n splendour_n or_o shine_a brightness_n of_o reputation_n which_o arise_v from_o the_o
advancement_n or_o progress_n which_o we_o have_v make_v for_o as_o for_o examine_v our_o sin_n that_o be_v for_o confession_n and_o for_o such_o as_o never_o think_v upon_o go_v forward_o in_o piety_n and_o devotion_n 2._o yet_o nevertheless_o we_o must_v not_o labour_v to_o exact_o and_o curious_o in_o examine_v every_o one_o of_o these_o article_n or_o interrogatory_n but_o fair_a and_o soft_o consider_v with_o quiet_a and_o repose_v of_o mind_n in_o what_o estate_n our_o hart_n have_v be_v in_o every_o one_o of_o they_o since_o our_o resolution_n and_o protestation_n and_o what_o notable_a defect_n we_o have_v commit_v therein_o 3._o but_o to_o make_v a_o short_a abridgement_n of_o all_o we_o may_v reduce_v the_o whole_a examination_n to_o the_o search_n and_o survey_v of_o our_o passion_n and_o if_o it_o be_v tedious_a and_o troublesome_a to_o consider_v so_o exact_o what_o we_o have_v be_v we_o may_v in_o this_o manner_n follow_v examine_v ourselves_o how_o we_o have_v behave_v ourselves_o in_o our_o love_n towards_o god_n our_o neighbour_n and_o ourselves_o in_o hatred_n towards_o sin_n in_o ourselves_o and_o sin_n in_o other_o for_o we_o must_v desire_v the_o extirpation_n of_o the_o one_o and_o the_o other_o in_o desire_n of_o riches_n honour_n estimation_n passetimes_o in_o fear_n of_o danger_n to_o fall_v into_o sin_n and_o of_o loss_n of_o good_n of_o this_o world_n for_o we_o may_v fear_v the_o one_o and_o the_o other_o too_o much_o in_o hope_v place_v more_o than_o need_v in_o the_o world_n in_o fade_a creature_n or_o to_o little_a in_o god_n and_o godly_a thing_n in_o sadness_n if_o it_o be_v to_o excessive_a and_o for_o transitory_a vanity_n in_o joy_n and_o gladness_n if_o overmuch_o and_o for_o unworthy_a matter_n to_o conclude_v in_o a_o word_n what_o affection_n do_v predominate_v thy_o hart_n what_o passion_n do_v most_o of_o all_o possess_v it_o in_o what_o do_v thou_o principal_o go_v awry_o for_o by_o passion_n of_o our_o soul_n we_o may_v judge_v of_o our_o estate_n examine_v they_o and_o as_o it_o be_v feel_v and_o taste_v they_o one_o after_o another_o as_o he_o that_o be_v skilful_a on_o the_o lute_n by_o touch_v the_o diverse_a strain_n of_o his_o instrument_n find_v which_o string_n be_v out_o of_o tune_n and_o tune_v it_o by_o stretch_v it_o up_o or_o let_v it_o down_o so_o after_o we_o have_v as_o it_o be_v touch_v and_o examine_v the_o tune_n of_o our_o passion_n of_o the_o love_n hatred_n desire_n fear_v hope_v sadness_n or_o joy_n that_o be_v in_o our_o soul_n if_o we_o find_v they_o discord_v from_o the_o tune_n which_o we_o will_v strike_v and_o from_o the_o proportionable_a harmony_n of_o our_o soul_n which_o be_v to_o be_v set_v to_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n we_o may_v make_v they_o accord_v by_o bring_v they_o to_o their_o due_a tune_n and_o proportion_n with_o god_n grace_n and_o by_o council_n and_o advice_n of_o our_o ghostly_a father_n affection_n to_o be_v exercise_v after_o this_o examination_n chap._n 8._o after_o thou_o have_v due_o ponder_v every_o point_n of_o the_o examination_n and_o consider_v at_o what_o stay_n thou_o be_v and_o to_o what_o thou_o be_v come_v then_o exercise_v the_o affect_n of_o thy_o soul_n as_o follow_v 1._o give_v god_n thanck_n for_o that_o amendment_n be_v it_o but_o little_a which_o thou_o have_v find_v in_o thy_o life_n since_o thy_o general_a resolution_n last_o make_v and_o acknowledge_v that_o it_o be_v his_o only_a mercy_n that_o cause_v it_o in_o thou_o and_z and_z for_o thou_o 2._o humble_a thyself_o reverent_o before_o his_o majesty_n acknowledge_v unfeigned_o that_o if_o thou_o have_v not_o much_o profit_v in_o piety_n it_o have_v be_v through_o thy_o own_o default_n because_o thou_o have_v not_o faithful_o courageous_o and_o constant_o answer_v the_o inspiration_n illustration_n and_o motion_n which_o he_o have_v often_o impart_v unto_o thou_o in_o prayer_n and_o by_o many_o other_o way_n 3._o promise_v he_o sincere_o that_o thou_o will_v for_o ever_o praise_v he_o for_o the_o inestimable_a favour_n bestow_v upon_o thou_o and_o especial_o for_o draw_v thou_o from_o thy_o bad_a inclination_n by_o this_o present_a amendment_n 4._o demand_n pardon_n of_o he_o for_o thy_o unfaithfulnes_n &_o disloyalty_n for_o not_o correspond_v with_o his_o inspiration_n and_o grace_n 5._o offer_v he_o up_o thy_o hart_n to_o the_o end_n he_o may_v be_v the_o sole_a master_n and_o lord_n of_o it_o 6._o beseech_v he_o to_o make_v thou_o faithful_o accomplish_v his_o will_n hereafter_o 6._o invoke_v the_o saint_n of_o heaven_n our_o b._n lady_n thy_o good_a angel_n thy_o patron_n joseph_n and_o the_o rest_n to_o who_o thou_o have_v a_o especial_a devotion_n to_o help_v thou_o with_o their_o intercession_n consideration_n proper_a to_o renew_v our_o good_a purpose_n chap._n 9_o 1._o this_o examination_n be_v make_v and_o diligent_o confer_v with_o some_o worthy_a expert_a and_o skilful_a guide_n to_o learn_v the_o quality_n of_o thy_o fault_n and_o the_o fit_a remedy_n for_o they_o begin_v those_o meditation_n follow_v make_v one_o of_o they_o every_o day_n and_o in_o it_o spend_v the_o ordinary_a time_n which_o other_o day_n thou_o appoint_v to_o pass_v in_o thy_o meditation_n with_o the_o self_n same_o method_n preparation_n and_o affection_n which_o thou_o have_v use_v heretofore_o in_o the_o meditation_n set_v down_o in_o the_o first_o part_n place_v thyself_o first_o of_o all_o in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o then_o implore_v his_o grace_n to_o establish_v thou_o in_o his_o holy_a love_n and_o service_n the_o first_o consideration_n of_o the_o excellency_n of_o our_o soul_n chap._n 10._o 1._o consider_v the_o nobility_n and_o excellence_n of_o thy_o soul_n endue_v with_o a_o understanding_n which_o know_v not_o only_o all_o this_o visible_a world_n but_o moreover_o understand_v that_o there_o be_v invisible_a angel_n and_o a_o happy_a paradise_n that_o there_o be_v a_o sovereign_a god_n unspeakable_a most_o good_a most_o mighty_a that_o there_o be_v a_o eternity_n of_o immortal_a spirit_n and_o withal_o know_v the_o mean_n how_o to_o live_v well_o in_o this_o visible_a world_n and_o to_o associate_v herself_o with_o the_o angel_n in_o heaven_n and_o to_o attain_v to_o the_o familiarity_n and_o friendship_n of_o god_n himself_o for_o ever_o 2._o thy_o soul_n have_v also_o a_o freewill_n of_o a_o most_o noble_a excellency_n which_o be_v able_a to_o love_n god_n and_o can_v hate_v he_o consider_v in_o himself_o loe_o what_o a_o excellent_a soul_n thou_o have_v as_o no_o corruptible_a or_o ill-savouring_a thing_n can_v stay_v the_o little_a bee_n but_o only_a flower_n be_v their_o rest_n only_o upon_o they_o do_v they_o settle_v their_o flight_n so_o thy_o hart_n can_v find_v no_o repose_n but_o in_o god_n alone_o no_o creature_n else_o can_v fill_v or_o satisfy_v it_o remember_v hardly_o &_o recount_v with_o thyself_o all_o the_o dear_a and_o great_a entertainment_n wherewith_o thou_o have_v ever_o occupy_v thy_o hart_n and_o judge_v in_o good_a sadness_n whether_o they_o be_v not_o all_o full_a of_o unquiet_a of_o molestation_n of_o restless_a and_o sting_a thought_n importunate_a care_n with_o which_o thy_o poor_a hart_n be_v most_o miserable_o distract_v and_o afflict_v 3._o alas_o thy_o hart_n run_v hasty_o and_o headlong_o after_o the_o creature_n of_o this_o world_n thinck_v it_o possible_a to_o appease_v its_o desite_n in_o they_o but_o so_o soon_o as_o thou_o meet_v with_o they_o and_o taste_v they_o thou_o be_v as_o ready_a to_o begin_v again_o as_o before_o for_o nothing_o be_v able_a to_o content_v thy_o hart_n god_n will_v not_o permit_v that_o it_o shall_v find_v rest_n in_o any_o place_n no_o more_o than_o the_o dove_n that_o noah_n send_v out_o of_o the_o ark_n that_o so_o it_o may_v always_o earn_v to_o return_v to_o god_n from_o whence_o it_o come_v ah_o how_o admirable_a be_v this_o natural_a beauty_n of_o thy_o soul_n and_o why_o then_o do_v thou_o endeavour_n to_o withhold_v she_o against_o her_o will_n to_o serve_v these_o fade_a creature_n 4._o oh_o my_o fair_a and_o lovely_a soul_n master_n thou_o say_v thou_o can_v understand_v and_o love_n god_n himself_o and_o wherefore_o do_v thou_o entertain_v thyself_o in_o thing_n inferior_a to_o god_n thou_o may_v if_o thou_o will_v pretend_v eternity_n wherefore_o do_v thou_o hunt_v after_o moment_n this_o be_v one_o of_o the_o chief_a complaint_n of_o the_o prodigal_a child_n that_o whereas_o he_o may_v have_v feast_v delicious_o at_o his_o father_n table_n he_o be_v force_v through_o his_o own_o wilfulness_n to_o feed_v at_o the_o trough_n of_o his_o swine_n o_o my_o soul_n thou_o be_v capable_a of_o god_n himself_o woe_n be_v to_o thou_o if_o thou_o rest_v content_v with_o any_o thing_n less_o than_o god_n lift_v up_o thy_o