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but_o by_o grace_n and_o power_n of_o the_o same_o jesus_n who_o be_v our_o hope_n and_o only_a helper_n we_o ought_v to_o bear_v no_o less_o respect_n to_o the_o maxim_n of_o a_o supernatural_a life_n than_o to_o jesus_n christ_n who_o have_v establish_v they_o see_v we_o ought_v to_o believe_v that_o they_o be_v full_a of_o divine_a wisdom_n and_o ineffable_a sanctity_n to_o have_v no_o esteem_n for_o poverty_n contempt_n and_o humiliation_n be_v to_o undervalue_v the_o wisdom_n of_o jesus_n christ_n some_o be_v so_o brutish_a as_o to_o be_v lead_v only_o by_o sensuality_n other_o follow_v only_o the_o light_n of_o reason_n and_o human_a prudence_n but_o neither_o of_o they_o know_v the_o excellency_n of_o christianity_n but_o such_o only_a who_o be_v conduct_v by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n o_o life_n supernatural_a how_o sublime_a be_v thou_o how_o do_v thou_o so_o elevate_v a_o soul_n as_o to_o become_v blind_a to_o thing_n here_o below_o yea_o to_o herself_o and_o to_o see_v 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chap._n vii_o there_o be_v divers_a degree_n of_o this_o supernatural_a life_n god_n have_v be_v very_o gracious_a to_o we_o to_o draw_v we_o out_o of_o nothing_o but_o more_o gracious_a and_o merciful_a in_o withdraw_v we_o from_o sin_n and_o the_o occasion_n of_o displease_v he_o but_o the_o choice_a of_o his_o favour_n be_v to_o advance_v we_o from_o a_o common_a to_o a_o supernatural_a life_n that_o be_v when_o the_o eternal_a father_n do_v lead_v we_o into_o the_o state_n of_o the_o mortal_a life_n of_o jesus_n by_o abjection_n suffering_n and_o annihilation_n which_o be_v the_o choice_a of_o his_o mercy_n and_o favour_n on_o earth_n because_o thereby_o we_o bring_v to_o he_o the_o great_a glory_n a_o soul_n be_v not_o all_o at_o once_o elevate_v to_o the_o perfection_n of_o this_o life_n but_o as_o soon_o as_o she_o behold_v the_o beauty_n thereof_o be_v
our_o soul_n tend_v to_o he_o as_o to_o her_o centre_n and_o sweet_a repose_n this_o repose_n work_v in_o she_o a_o will_n to_o give_v herself_o up_o whole_o to_o his_o ordination_n with_o a_o entire_a love_n this_o resignation_n when_o it_o be_v general_a and_o real_a indeed_o do_v powerful_o free_v she_o from_o the_o love_n of_o the_o world_n make_v her_o passive_a to_o the_o conduct_n of_o god_n and_o his_o holy_a attract_v and_o inspiration_n what_o good_a thought_n god_n send_v she_o in_o the_o morning_n she_o nourish_v all_o day_n long_o make_v use_n of_o they_o on_o all_o occasion_n and_o take_v from_o the_o hand_n of_o god_n whatever_o happen_v peace_n or_o trouble_n sweet_a or_o bitter_a rest_n or_o labour_n because_o it_o be_v god_n will_n who_o glorify_v himself_o by_o all_o event_n this_o carry_v a_o soul_n on_o to_o the_o practice_n of_o pure_a virtue_n chap._n ii_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n in_o the_o soul_n make_v we_o little_a value_n the_o absence_n of_o the_o creature_n i_o find_v my_o heart_n and_o soul_n so_o content_a in_o that_o god_n be_v inseparable_o unite_v to_o i_o that_o i_o be_o hardly_o sensible_a of_o the_o absence_n of_o my_o dear_a friend_n i_o know_v not_o when_o i_o shall_v suffer_v any_o thing_n for_o all_o mortification_n prove_v sweet_a unto_o i_o by_o reason_n of_o the_o abundant_a joy_n the_o presence_n of_o god_n afford_v unto_o i_o god_n be_v in_o i_o and_o i_o in_o he_o and_o nothing_o can_v separare_fw-la i_o from_z he_o because_o he_o be_v always_o present_a in_o i_o by_o his_o immensity_n which_o be_v his_o essence_n the_o thought_n hereof_o do_v so_o affect_v my_o heart_n that_o i_o value_v not_o the_o privation_n of_o all_o creature_n but_o rather_o i_o get_v this_o advantage_n in_o that_o methinks_v by_o their_o absence_n god_n be_v more_o intimate_o present_a with_o i_o and_o by_o how_o much_o the_o more_o i_o be_o elevate_v above_o all_o creature_n though_o some_o be_v holy_a person_n and_o dear_a to_o i_o 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find_v god_n so_o well_o as_o she_o ought_v but_o may_v not_o some_o creature_n be_v instrumental_a to_o bring_v we_o to_o god_n i_o grant_v it_o but_o when_o we_o have_v find_v he_o why_o dont_fw-fr we_o then_o leave_v off_o all_o affection_n to_o worldly_a thing_n alas_o how_o flat_o be_v the_o gust_n that_o creature_n afford_v after_o we_o have_v taste_v of_o god_n sweetness_n &_o it_o be_v but_o a_o torment_n to_o we_o to_o continue_v with_o they_o o_o my_o god_n see_v i_o have_v find_v you_o i_o will_v never_o forsake_v you_o my_o soul_n be_v so_o present_a with_o you_o that_o methinks_v i_o enjoy_v you_o separate_a i_o more_o and_o more_o from_o all_o creature_n that_o this_o sweet_a enjoyment_n may_v increase_v in_o my_o soul_n what_o need_n shall_v i_o then_o have_v of_o converse_n with_o creature_n it_o be_v of_o singular_a profit_n to_o consider_v how_o many_o holy_a man_n and_o woman_n have_v as_o it_o be_v bury_v themselves_o in_o solitude_n fly_v the_o society_n of_o all_o creature_n that_o they_o may_v be_v whole_o take_v up_o with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n saint_n mary_n of_o egypt_n hide_v herself_o in_o a_o vast_a desert_n to_o be_v far_o from_o the_o sight_n and_o remembrance_n of_o the_o world_n that_o she_o may_v only_o find_v her_o god_n and_o creator_n o_o my_o god_n how_o happy_a be_v she_o by_o thus_o find_v you_o live_v without_o the_o help_n of_o any_o creature_n without_o clothes_n and_o almost_o without_o any_o refection_n she_o have_v no_o person_n to_o comfort_v she_o no_o person_n to_o complain_v to_o of_o her_o suffering_n no_o person_n to_o take_v part_n of_o her_o consolation_n she_o alone_o be_v with_o god_n alone_o in_o a_o general_a deprivation_n of_o all_o creature_n o_o how_o this_o spirit_n of_o separation_n from_o all_o create_a thing_n be_v excellent_a o_o how_o necessary_a be_v it_o to_o a_o soul_n who_o desire_v to_o be_v whole_o for_o god_n and_o enjoy_v the_o sweet_n of_o his_o divine_a presence_n but_o to_o come_v to_o this_o we_o must_v suffer_v much_o both_o from_o ourselves_o and_o other_o to_o the_o end_n we_o may_v be_v free_v from_o the_o love_n of_o the_o world_n god_n himself_o who_o will_v be_v all_o in_o all_o to_o his_o creature_n oftentimes_o bring_v we_o home_o to_o himself_o by_o great_a variety_n of_o afflict_a event_n this_o make_v the_o life_n of_o the_o servant_n of_o god_n full_a of_o continual_a alteration_n as_o well_o in_o temporal_a affair_n as_o spiritual_a design_v for_o his_o great_a glory_n sometime_o it_o go_v well_o sometime_o ill_o with_o they_o in_o their_o soul_n and_o body_n by_o constant_a change_n these_o vicissitude_n oblige_v they_o to_o love_v nothing_o but_o the_o sovereign_n good_a and_o in_o this_o general_n abandon_v of_o all_o creature_n god_n be_v please_v to_o let_v they_o feel_v the_o sweet_n of_o his_o divine_a presence_n and_o by_o this_o happy_a experience_n of_o god_n presence_n they_o grow_v insensible_a of_o the_o privation_n of_o thing_n 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sacrament_n which_o by_o consequence_n ought_v to_o be_v sovereign_o pure_a i_o mean_v without_o any_o mixture_n of_o any_o thing_n that_o be_v not_o god_n but_o this_o can_v be_v without_o die_v to_o all_o creature_n and_o even_o to_o ourselves_o and_o this_o death_n be_v not_o compass_v but_o by_o mortification_n and_o all_o that_o which_o crucify_v nature_n chap._n viii_o continuation_n of_o the_o same_o subject_a after_o holy_a communion_n it_o seem_v to_o i_o that_o as_o jesus_n receive_v of_o his_o divine_a father_n the_o fullness_n of_o light_n and_o true_a love_n in_o the_o hypostatical_a union_n so_o he_o make_v his_o friend_n partaker_n thereof_o in_o the_o sacramental_a union_n and_o thereby_o lay_v a_o obligation_n upon_o they_o to_o live_v by_o the_o same_o life_n to_o guide_v themselves_o by_o the_o light_n and_o to_o enter_v into_o a_o
i_o quite_o forget_v myself_o and_o be_v no_o more_o and_o act_v only_o in_o you_o and_o you_o in_o i_o in_o i_o manet_fw-la &_o ego_fw-la in_o eo_fw-la and_o continue_v thus_o absorp_v in_o you_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n be_v thus_o unite_v with_o you_o i_o shall_v learn_v your_o secret_n discover_v your_o purpose_n and_o see_v with_o you_o and_o your_o light_n the_o way_n that_o you_o take_v to_o love_n honour_n and_o glorify_v your_o father_n which_o he_o reveal_v unto_o you_o at_o the_o instant_n of_o your_o incarnation_n ever_o since_o that_o happy_a minute_n you_o be_v become_v the_o light_n of_o the_o world_n he_o that_o will_v follow_v you_o shall_v not_o walk_v in_o darkness_n who_o can_v know_v the_o secret_n of_o the_o father_n better_o than_o the_o son_n or_o his_o design_n and_o thought_n than_o he_o who_o be_v equal_a to_o his_o father_n be_v privy_a to_o all_o the_o sacred_a counsel_n of_o the_o divinity_n these_o he_o teach_v we_o by_o word_n of_o mouth_n he_o 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that_o when_o we_o receive_v jesus_n in_o the_o holy_a communion_n we_o be_v so_o little_o change_v and_o his_o presence_n so_o un-active_a in_o we_o we_o experience_v none_o of_o his_o wondrous_a operation_n he_o ought_v to_o be_v to_o the_o soul_n a_o grain_n of_o good_a seed_n that_o make_v very_o great_a production_n jesus_n ought_v to_o do_v admirable_a thing_n jesus_n ought_v to_o form_n jesus_n in_o we_o and_o produce_v by_o his_o grace_n all_o his_o own_o sentiment_n and_o fill_v our_o life_n with_o all_o the_o state_n of_o he_o yet_o he_o make_v no_o change_n in_o i_o he_o do_v not_o strip_v i_o of_o my_o humane_a inclination_n that_o i_o may_v live_v the_o life_n of_o jesus_n a_o thing_n which_o fright_v i_o very_o much_o and_o give_v i_o reason_n to_o fear_v that_o i_o do_v not_o approach_v unto_o he_o with_o all_o the_o preparation_n requisite_a whereupon_o i_o flee_v to_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n and_o beg_v it_o with_o all_o instance_n for_o in_o that_o alone_o be_v my_o 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this_o consummate_v alliance_n with_o god_n be_v not_o discernible_a in_o the_o most_o of_o those_o that_o receive_v the_o communion_n because_o that_o consummation_n presupposes_a another_o which_o fail_v in_o the_o great_a part_n of_o communicant_n viz._n the_o consummation_n of_o the_o soul_n in_o jesus_n christ_n which_o be_v then_o obtain_v when_o by_o the_o attraction_n of_o grace_n she_o be_v whole_o annihilate_v as_o to_o her_o natural_a inclination_n and_o the_o supernatural_a succeed_v in_o their_o place_n be_v clear_v from_o all_o disposition_n but_o those_o of_o the_o word_n incarnate_a a_o soul_n in_o this_o state_n receive_v the_o holy_a communion_n aught_o to_o remain_v simple_o unite_v to_o jesus_n present_a and_o receive_v in_o quietness_n and_o tranquillity_n such_o effect_n of_o grace_n as_o he_o work_v in_o she_o which_o be_v to_o live_v no_o long_o to_o or_o in_o herself_o but_o to_o enter_v effective_o into_o the_o poor_a and_o abject_a state_n of_o jesus_n to_o 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divinity_n o_o how_o great_a be_v the_o dignity_n of_o pure_a soul_n when_o they_o communicate_v o_o how_o low_a and_o abject_a be_v all_o the_o grandeurs_fw-fr of_o the_o world_n they_o be_v a_o mere_a nothing_o compare_v with_o this_o for_o what_o glory_n be_v comparable_a to_o that_o of_o a_o soul_n intimate_o unite_v with_o the_o supreme_a be_v my_o god_n how_o delightful_a and_o transport_v be_v the_o sight_n of_o the_o wonder_n and_o profound_a secret_n wrap_v up_o in_o your_o mystery_n how_o they_o penetrate_v the_o soul_n you_o disclose_v they_o to_o this_o union_n with_o jesus_n in_o communion_n be_v inessable_a for_o as_o the_o father_n and_o the_o son_n be_v one_o in_o unity_n of_o essence_n the_o word_n and_o humane_a nature_n one_o in_o unity_n of_o person_n so_o the_o soul_n that_o be_v one_o in_o jesus_n partake_v of_o both_o the_o union_n divine_a and_o humane_a jesus_n be_v in_o she_o according_a to_o both_o his_o nature_n and_o she_o be_v all_o in_o jesus_n and_o 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want_v of_o fidelity_n and_o overmuch_o spare_v themselves_o by_o too_o tender_a a_o love_n of_o their_o body_n good_n friend_n and_o relation_n give_v a_o ear_n more_o to_o humane_a reason_n than_o the_o voice_n of_o grace_n sometime_o we_o persuade_v ourselves_o that_o devotion_n be_v a_o life_n full_a of_o peace_n without_o cross_n but_o we_o deceive_v ourselves_o nor_o ought_v we_o to_o enter_v into_o the_o service_n of_o god_n without_o a_o disposition_n of_o indifferency_n to_o all_o state_n to_o be_v mortify_v there_o not_o as_o we_o will_v have_v it_o but_o after_o what_o manner_n best_o please_v god_n cross_n from_o the_o immediate_a hand_n of_o god_n do_v much_o conduce_v to_o sanctify_v we_o but_o what_o arise_v from_o our_o vanity_n or_o too_o much_o love_n of_o the_o world_n be_v for_o the_o most_o part_n unprofitable_a and_o rather_o a_o hindrance_n to_o the_o soul_n in_o her_o way_n to_o perfection_n suffer_v we_o must_v more_o or_o less_o and_o what_o please_v god_n we_o must_v accept_v of_o with_o contentation_n o_o how_o rare_a be_v it_o to_o find_v soul_n true_o amorous_a of_o cross_n i_o be_o of_o opinion_n that_o the_o little_a love_n we_o have_v for_o suffering_n be_v the_o only_a cause_n we_o so_o little_o advance_v in_o the_o way_n of_o grace_n and_o if_o we_o well_o examine_v ourselves_o we_o shall_v acknowledge_v it_o the_o love_n of_o suffering_n be_v quite_o repugnant_a to_o our_o natural_a inclination_n but_o god_n can_v make_v that_o easy_a by_o grace_n which_o be_v impossible_a to_o nature_n and_o if_o we_o ask_v this_o great_a grace_n as_o we_o ought_v we_o shall_v receive_v it_o as_o god_n have_v promise_v neither_o do_v the_o love_n of_o the_o cross_n so_o much_o consist_v in_o great_a corporal_a austerity_n as_o embrace_v with_o a_o amorous_a generosity_n all_o those_o little_a contradiction_n mortification_n and_o humiliation_n we_o daily_o meet_v withal_o either_o from_o other_o or_o ourselves_o or_o by_o the_o secret_a order_n of_o divine_a providence_n and_o to_o make_v good_a use_n of_o they_o for_o our_o spiritual_a advantage_n be_v not_o the_o work_n of_o nature_n but_o of_o grace_n the_o more_o perfect_a our_o virtue_n be_v the_o more_o we_o have_v a_o love_n for_o the_o cross_n that_o we_o may_v be_v more_o conformable_a to_o our_o bless_a saviour_n know_v we_o not_o that_o they_o who_o will_v live_v pious_o in_o christ_n jesus_n must_v suffer_v persecution_n they_o shall_v suffer_v indeed_o on_o all_o side_n from_o the_o flesh_n from_o the_o spirit_n from_o the_o world_n and_o god_n himself_o will_v try_v they_o with_o affliction_n this_o on_o earth_n be_v the_o high_a way_n to_o heaven_n wherein_o love_n must_v walk_v to_o come_v to_o perfection_n which_o can_v never_o be_v gain_v without_o a_o laborious_a and_o courageous_a resolution_n chap._n iii_o that_o we_o must_v have_v a_o great_a love_n for_o cross_n we_o must_v have_v a_o great_a intellectual_a thirst_n to_o suffer_v all_o sort_n of_o cross_n this_o be_v the_o character_n of_o true_a christian_n this_o be_v the_o mark_n to_o know_v that_o jesus_n crucify_a be_v establish_v in_o we_o and_o this_o thirst_n ought_v to_o continue_v in_o we_o whatever_o our_o condition_n be_v because_o it_o much_o augment_v our_o enjoyment_n and_o consolation_n the_o more_o the_o soul_n enjoy_v the_o more_o she_o become_v thirsty_a not_o only_o of_o a_o more_o savorous_a union_n but_o also_o of_o a_o more_o heavy_a cross_n jesus_n christ_n do_v thirst_n after_o his_o passion_n for_o we_o and_o die_v on_o the_o cross_n his_o thirst_n increase_v be_v not_o quench_v with_o all_o his_o suffering_n we_o say_v we_o ought_v to_o have_v the_o image_n of_o jesus_n christ_n crucify_a imprint_v on_o our_o soul_n and_o what_o be_v this_o but_o to_o have_v a_o thirst_n for_o suffering_n as_o he_o have_v o_o how_o the_o cup_n of_o affliction_n be_v pleasant_a to_o a_o soul_n athirst_a for_o suffering_n when_o some_o great_a cross_n happen_v to_o such_o a_o soul_n she_o find_v comfort_n and_o satisfaction_n therein_o as_o one_o inflame_v with_o heat_n be_v refresh_v with_o drink_v god_n have_v a_o strange_a thirst_n for_o our_o suffering_n he_o be_v a_o thirst_n in_o we_o by_o the_o fire_n of_o his_o divine_a love_n wherewith_o he_o love_v himself_o and_o his_o divine_a perfection_n why_o do_v we_o not_o refresh_v he_o with_o our_o suffering_n but_o alas_o this_o divine_a thirst_n be_v little_o know_v to_o man_n o_o how_o be_v it_o hide_v from_o sensual_a eye_n o_o jesus_n how_o little_a be_v you_o know_v how_o little_o be_v you_o love_v these_o proceed_v of_o jesus_n be_v not_o understand_v by_o those_o who_o only_o follow_v the_o light_n of_o sense_n and_o reason_n emitte_v lucem_fw-la tuam_fw-la whence_o once_o the_o spiritual_a man_n discover_v this_o nothing_o be_v more_o desirable_a to_o he_o then_o suffer_v the_o great_a desire_n of_o the_o
with_o so_o ungrateful_a a_o creature_n neither_o be_o i_o at_o all_o amaze_v at_o my_o fail_n for_o what_o wonder_n be_v it_o to_o see_v frailty_n itself_o frail_a what_o most_o humble_v i_o be_v to_o feel_v in_o myself_o so_o great_a repugnance_n to_o suffer_v so_o little_a what_o will_v become_v of_o i_o if_o i_o shall_v be_v charge_v together_o with_o interiour_n and_o exterior_a suffering_n o_o how_o far_o be_o i_o from_o the_o patience_n of_o saint_n and_o the_o love_n that_o they_o have_v for_o the_o great_a cross_n humble_a thyself_o o_o my_o soul_n humble_v thyself_o to_o the_o very_a centre_n of_o thy_o own_o nothing_o bless_a be_v the_o man_n who_o always_o fear_v god_n leave_v we_o on_o purpose_n in_o this_o world_n without_o a_o certainty_n of_o our_o salvation_n so_o that_o no_o person_n know_v whether_o he_o be_v worthy_a of_o love_n or_o hatred_n this_o uncertainty_n be_v a_o great_a cross_n and_o god_n to_o try_v we_o by_o suffering_n permit_v we_o now_o and_o then_o 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confer_v about_o patience_n with_o some_o servant_n of_o god_n we_o conclude_v that_o a_o soul_n ought_v not_o only_o apply_v herself_o to_o bear_v with_o the_o imperfection_n of_o other_o but_o more_o especial_o her_o own_o for_o after_o our_o fail_n we_o must_v not_o with_o a_o impetuous_a solicitude_n search_v after_o the_o mean_n to_o cure_v a_o evil_a that_o oftentimes_o displease_v we_o rather_o for_o our_o own_o interest_n than_o the_o interest_n of_o god_n nor_o be_v it_o prudential_a while_o we_o be_v in_o a_o heat_n to_o resolve_v sudden_o to_o make_v so_o many_o examan_n meditation_n and_o undergo_v so_o many_o austerity_n but_o principal_o we_o must_v have_v a_o eye_n to_o god_n and_o his_o glory_n and_o make_v a_o act_n of_o contrition_n to_o repair_v the_o injury_n we_o have_v do_v he_o by_o our_o fault_n and_o then_o practice_n patience_n whereby_o we_o shall_v bear_v with_o peace_n and_o tranquillity_n the_o sight_n of_o our_o misery_n which_o too_o often_o make_v we_o sad_a and_o anxious_a but_o this_o proceed_v from_o want_n of_o love_n for_o abjection_n for_o whosoever_o can_v be_v content_a to_o be_v abject_a shall_v never_o be_v disquiet_v but_o will_v enjoy_v a_o profound_a peace_n in_o the_o great_a humiliation_n discite_fw-la à _fw-la i_o quia_fw-la mitis_fw-la sum_fw-la &_o humilis_fw-la cord_n &_o invenietis_fw-la requiem_n animabus_fw-la vestris_fw-la we_o must_v not_o then_o spend_v our_o time_n unprofitable_o after_o our_o fail_n as_o we_o too_o often_o do_v but_o continue_v in_o peace_n of_o mind_n and_o be_v humble_v for_o our_o defect_n we_o shall_v be_v better_o dispose_v to_o return_v to_o union_n with_o god_n where_o be_v the_o practice_n of_o virtue_n without_o be_v too_o much_o deject_v in_o this_o state_n let_v we_o say_v with_o a_o full_a confidence_n in_o god_n mercy_n cor_fw-la contritum_fw-la &_o humiliatum_fw-la deus_fw-la non_fw-la despicies_fw-la a_o contrite_a and_o humble_a heart_n o_o god_n thou_o will_v not_o 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the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o god_n do_v not_o at_o all_o hinder_v her_o co-operation_n whether_o it_o be_v to_o act_v with_o god_n in_o prayer_n or_o exterior_a employment_n god_n by_o this_o mean_n work_n in_o the_o soul_n a_o disposition_n to_o enjoy_v or_o suffer_v of_o action_n or_o contemplation_n of_o darkness_n or_o light_n as_o he_o please_v for_o than_o she_o desire_v to_o do_v nothing_o of_o herself_o but_o to_o follow_v entire_o the_o attract_v and_o motion_n of_o god_n holy_a spirit_n a_o soul_n that_o set_v herself_o a_o work_n without_o a_o eye_n to_o god_n and_o her_o interiour_n be_v imprudent_a for_o what_o she_o so_o undertake_v be_v of_o no_o value_n in_o that_o she_o do_v not_o the_o will_n of_o god_n but_o withdraw_v herself_o from_o her_o necessary_a dependence_n endeavour_n as_o it_o be_v to_o conduct_v god_n when_o she_o ought_v only_o to_o be_v conduct_v by_o he_o if_o we_o be_v sensible_a of_o our_o misery_n herein_o we_o will_v be_v afraid_a of_o ourselves_o 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