defile_v and_o deform_a soul_n do_v aspire_v behold_v i_o do_v extol_v now_o thy_o dear_a service_n to_o the_o sky_n profess_v and_o protest_v that_o there_o be_v no_o liberty_n so_o sweet_a as_o to_o be_v bind_v and_o oblige_v by_o vow_n to_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n thou_o true_a and_o most_o bless_a god_n how_o do_v thou_o with_o a_o most_o sweet_a and_o severe_a kind_n of_o mercy_n receive_v check_v and_o convince_v i_o stray_v and_o fly_v from_o thou_o by_o shameful_o seek_v that_o in_o thy_o creature_n which_o be_v only_o to_o be_v find_v in_o thou_o to_o wit_n comfort_n and_o peace_n o_o lord_n i_o be_o thy_o servant_n say_v unto_o my_o soul_n i_o be_o thy_o salvation_n and_o all_o that_o be_v within_o i_o shall_v say_v quis_fw-la similis_fw-la tibi_fw-la deus_fw-la meus_fw-la who_o be_v like_a unto_o thou_o my_o lord_n god_n behold_v i_o have_v have_v a_o aversion_n from_o all_o that_o which_o thou_o love_v and_o a_o inclination_n to_o all_o which_o thou_o hate_v but_o thou_o have_v break_v my_o band_n and_o i_o will_v offer_v thou_o a_o sacrifice_n of_o praise_n submit_v henceforth_o my_o stifneck_n to_o thy_o easy_a yoke_n and_o my_o shoulder_n to_o thy_o light_n but_o then_o underneath_o a_o picture_n of_o b._n john_n de_fw-fr cruse_n she_o write_v as_o follow_v viz._n o_o bless_a and_o pure_a saint_n pray_v for_o i_o sinful_a wretch_n who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o call_v upon_o thou_o yet_o coafide_v in_o thy_o inflame_a charity_n i_o commit_v and_o commend_v myself_n to_o thy_o sweet_a protection_n now_o and_o at_o the_o dreadful_a hour_n of_o my_o death_n remember_v i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o amen_n to_o some_o collection_n which_o she_o draw_v out_o of_o s._n augustins_n confession_n she_o add_v as_o follow_v good_a god_n be_v merciful_a to_o my_o iniquity_n for_o this_o dear_a saint_n sake_n of_o thou_o who_o humility_n do_v so_o astonish_v i_o that_o i_o can_v choose_v but_o cry_v with_o a_o loud_a voice_n in_o my_o hart_n o_o how_o admirable_a be_v thou_o in_o thy_o saint_n what_o be_v his_o whole_a book_n of_o confession_n but_o a_o profound_a acknowledgement_n of_o his_o sin_n whieh_o he_o do_v not_o only_o confess_v to_o thou_o but_o to_o all_o the_o world_n to_o the_o end_n that_o all_o may_v perpetual_o praise_v thy_o mercy_n but_o o_o my_o god_n for_o this_o humility_n of_o he_o thou_o have_v high_o exalt_v he_o for_o which_o be_v thou_o eternal_o magnify_v and_o praise_v by_o all_o creature_n he_o be_v one_o of_o those_o sinner_n for_o who_o conversation_n there_o be_v more_o joy_n in_o heaven_n then_o upon_o ninty_a nine_o just_o and_o not_o without_o great_a cause_n see_v he_o be_v to_o be_v a_o chief_a pillar_n in_o thy_o church_n and_o one_o who_o might_n and_o do_v draw_v infinite_a sinner_n by_o his_o word_n and_o write_n out_o of_o the_o mire_n and_o dregs_n of_o sin_n and_o teach_v they_o to_o submit_v themselves_o to_o thive_v easy_a yoke_n and_o to_o seâ—ue_v thou_o for_o love_n and_o to_o glory_n in_o nothing_o but_o thou_o yea_o what_o be_v want_v in_o his_o word_n that_o may_v invite_v our_o soul_n to_o love_v thou_o with_o all_o our_o heart_n with_o all_o our_o strength_n and_o our_o neighbour_n as_o ourselves_o who_o can_v speaâ—e_v in_o the_o word_n of_o thy_o own_o oracle_n more_o comfortable_o to_o sinner_n than_o he_o have_v do_v â—n_o fine_a hâ—s_n word_n be_v so_o amorous_o sweet_a in_o thy_o praise_n that_o even_o my_o freeze_a soul_n have_v be_v melt_v â—_z by_o into_o thy_o praise_n he_o for_o thy_o sake_n be_v a_o advocate_n and_o intercessor_n to_o thou_o for_o i_o the_o most_o sinful_a and_o contemptible_a of_o all_o thâ—_n servant_n he_o i_o say_v to_o who_o many_o sin_n wâ—re_v forgive_v because_o he_o love_v much_o who_o i_o desire_v together_o with_o all_o the_o celestial_a court_n to_o adore_v and_o praise_v thou_o for_o i_o who_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o name_v thou_o who_o be_v ever_o bless_v amen_n in_o a_o collection_n which_o she_o be_v make_v out_o of_o the_o book_n of_o psalm_n she_o add_v to_o some_o verse_n as_o follow_v psal._n 23._o vers_fw-la 6._o this_o be_v the_o generation_n of_o they_o that_o seek_v hâ—m_n of_o they_o that_o seek_v the_o face_n of_o the_o god_n of_o jacob_n i_o pray_v god_n it_o may_v prove_v so_o with_o we_o to_o his_o honour_n and_o glory_n â—sâ—l_n 31._o veâ—s_n â—0_n i_o will_v give_v thou_o understanding_n and_o will_v instruct_v thou_o in_o the_o way_n tâ—at_v thou_o shall_v go_v i_o wâ—l_v fasten_v my_o eye_n upon_o thou_o who_o be_v not_o whole_o inflame_v with_o a_o desire_n to_o seek_v after_o god_n alone_o to_o hear_v such_o a_o promise_n from_o his_o own_o mellifluous_a mouth_n psal._n 35._o vers_fw-la 10._o because_o with_o thou_o be_v the_o fountain_n of_o life_n and_o in_o thy_o light_n we_o shall_v see_v light_a i_o beseech_v all_o those_o devout_a soul_n that_o shall_v peruse_v this_o book_n to_o labour_v careful_o for_o that_o light_n which_o the_o prophet_n here_o speak_v of_o which_o proceed_v from_o love_n ☜_o and_o not_o from_o human_a wisdom_n this_o light_n by_o which_o we_o shall_v discern_v truth_n from_o falsehood_n be_v get_v by_o converâ—ing_v with_o almighty_a god_n and_o humble_v ourselves_o under_o his_o mighty_a hand_n this_o light_n have_v teach_v many_o their_o way_n to_o god_n that_o can_v neither_o write_v nor_o read_v sweet_a jesus_n make_v we_o of_o the_o number_n of_o these_o little_a one_o to_o who_o this_o light_n be_v reveal_v which_o be_v hide_v from_o the_o wise_a and_o prudent_a which_o be_v bestow_v upon_o those_o that_o faithful_o adhere_v to_o god_n and_o not_o on_o those_o that_o glory_n rather_o in_o themselves_o they_o in_o he_o he_o be_v bless_v and_o praise_v by_o all_o for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n psal._n 86._o vers_fw-la 5._o reveal_v thy_o way_n to_o our_o lord_n and_o hope_n in_o he_o and_o he_o will_v do_v it_o a_o comfortable_a say_n for_o those_o that_o god_n permit_v still_o to_o remain_v do_v whâ—t_o they_o can_v in_o their_o imperfection_n v_o 7._o have_v no_o emulation_n in_o he_o that_o appear_v in_o his_o way_n v._n 6._o be_v subject_n to_o our_o lord_n and_o pray_v he_o note_v this_o well_o v_o 11._o the_o meek_a shall_v inherit_v the_o land_n and_o shall_v be_v delight_v in_o multitude_n of_o peace_n if_o we_o true_o labour_v for_o his_o peace_n which_o be_v in_o much_o patience_n the_o god_n of_o peace_n will_v be_v among_o us._n v_o 25._o when_o he_o shall_v fall_v he_o shall_v not_o be_v bruise_v because_o our_o lord_n put_v his_o hand_n under_o o_o what_o a_o incouradgment_n be_v this_o to_o a_o poor_a frail_a soul_n let_v we_o notwithstanding_o our_o imperfection_n confident_o and_o amorous_o when_o we_o fail_v hope_v in_o his_o mercy_n and_o then_o he_o will_v heal_v and_o help_v we_o who_o make_v we_o so_o many_o sweet_a promise_n who_o be_v bless_v by_o all_o creatute_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n v_o 26._o i_o have_v be_v young_a for_o i_o be_o old_a and_o i_o have_v not_o see_v the_o just_a forsake_v nor_o his_o seed_n seek_v bread_n why_o do_v we_o distrust_v then_o who_o have_v dedicate_v ourselves_o whole_o to_o god_n fear_v ro_o depend_v only_o of_o his_o divine_a providence_n ☜_o which_o be_v the_o great_a happiness_n in_o this_o world_n and_o so_o much_o to_o be_v desire_v if_o we_o have_v so_o much_o love_n and_o couradge_n as_o we_o shall_v psal._n 38_o v_o 8._o doubtless_o all_o thing_n be_v vanity_n every_o man_n live_v o_o my_o poor_a soul_n take_v good_a notice_n of_o this_o verse_n adhere_v to_o our_o lord_n who_o year_n never_o fail_v and_o who_o help_n be_v always_o at_o hand_n give_v that_o to_o god_n that_o be_v god_n and_o that_o to_o caesar_n that_o be_v caesar_n mark_v what_o the_o prophet_n faith_n in_o the_o same_o psalm_n viz._n and_o now_o what_o be_v my_o expectation_n be_v it_o not_o our_o lord_n and_o my_o substance_n be_v with_o thou_o psal._n 39_o vers_fw-la 15._o but_o thou_o o_o lord_n make_v not_o thy_o consideration_n far_o from_o i_o thy_o mercy_n and_o thy_o truth_n have_v always_o receive_v i_o o_o be_v thou_o ever_o bless_v for_o it_o by_o all_o creature_n my_o god_n and_o al._n amen_o psal._n 40._o vers_fw-la 1._o bless_a be_v the_o man_n that_o understand_v concern_v the_o needy_a and_o the_o poor_a in_o the_o evil_a day_n our_o lord_n will_v deliver_v he_o o_o my_o poor_a soul_n though_o thou_o have_v not_o where_o with_o to_o relieve_v the_o poor_a in_o thâ—_n iâ—_n hunger_n &_o thirst_n yet_o despair_v not_o to_o gain_v this_o blessing_n that_o our_o lord_n will_v protect_v thou_o in_o the_o evil_a day_n which_o thou_o stand_v so_o much_o need_v off_o for_o to_o pray_v for_o
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poor_a and_o he_o more_o mine_a than_o i_o my_o own_o what_o can_v i_o wish_v for_o i_o more_o and_o in_o his_o majesty_n and_o power_n much_o more_o i_o will_v rejoice_v thâ—n_o if_o of_o all_o in_o heaven_n and_o earth_n i_o have_v command_v and_o choice_n my_o god_n one_o thing_n alone_o thou_o know_v i_o fear_v and_o apprehend_v which_o be_v my_o lord_n for_o to_o displease_v who_o mercy_n have_v no_o end_n from_o all_o that_o do_v displease_v thy_o eyeâ—â—_n be_v please_v to_o set_v i_o free_a for_o nothing_o else_o in_o heaven_n or_o earth_n do_v i_o desire_v but_o thou_o and_o let_v i_o rather_o death_n embrace_v then_o thou_o my_o god_n offend_v or_o in_o my_o hart_n to_o give_v thy_o place_n to_o any_o other_o friend_n nothing_o will_v grieve_v my_o soul_n so_o much_o as_o in_o i_o to_o perceive_v any_o affection_n in_o the_o world_n that_o thou_o will_v i_o bereave_v i_o know_v thou_o must_v possess_v alone_o or_o else_o we_o be_v not_o thou_o in_o such_o good_a plight_n as_o 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confession_n patientia_fw-la pauperum_fw-la non_fw-la peribit_fw-la in_o finem_fw-la 19_o the_o patience_n of_o the_o poor_a shall_v not_o perish_v in_o the_o end_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n see_v the_o way_n of_o the_o cross_n be_v the_o way_n that_o all_o in_o this_o life_n must_v walk_v of_o what_o state_n or_o dignity_n soever_o they_o be_v none_o exempt_v from_o suffering_n some_o in_o body_n by_o pain_n and_o sickness_n some_o by_o poverty_n and_o want_v of_o necessary_n some_o by_o loss_n of_o friend_n some_o by_o the_o disloialty_n of_o such_o who_o they_o confide_v in_o ☜_o some_o by_o loss_n of_o their_o good_n by_o fire_n war_n and_o the_o like_a and_o some_o by_o their_o own_o indiscretion_n unwarines_n and_o want_v of_o foresight_n fall_v into_o disgrace_n some_o by_o set_v their_o affection_n where_o it_o be_v reject_v grow_v desperate_a mad_a and_o some_o thereby_o live_v in_o perpetual_a discomfort_n become_v woeful_a murderer_n of_o themselves_o some_o fortune_n frown_v 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thy_o heavenly_a father_n our_o most_o holy_a father_n s._n benedict_n our_o mother_n s._n scholastica_fw-la as_o also_o s._n joseph_n s._n john_n s._n thomas_n and_o s._n gertrude_n in_o who_o hart_n â—hou_a do_v delight_v to_o dwell_v and_o also_o my_o belove_a father_n s._n augustin_n who_o thou_o have_v give_v i_o in_o a_o particular_a manner_n to_o be_v a_o help_n to_o i_o in_o doubt_n and_o fear_n and_o a_o incouradgement_n by_o his_o book_n to_o hope_v for_o pardon_n for_o my_o innumerable_a sin_n and_o as_o a_o fire_n be_v all_o his_o word_n to_o inflame_v i_o to_o seek_v after_o and_o aspire_v to_o thy_o divine_a love_n and_o to_o wish_v only_o that_o that_o may_v whole_o possess_v my_o soul_n which_o grant_v for_o his_o
give_v to_o those_o who_o for_o thy_o sake_n requite_v evil_a with_o good_a than_o the_o true_a peace_n which_o they_o find_v in_o their_o soul_n by_o it_o it_o be_v most_o worthy_a our_o labour_n but_o thou_o my_o lord_n reserve_v great_a reward_n in_o the_o next_o life_n for_o those_o who_o for_o bitterness_n cause_v to_o they_o by_o other_o do_v return_n sweetness_n unto_o â—hem_n yea_o nothing_o be_v more_o please_a and_o acceptable_a to_o thou_o then_o that_o we_o by_o humility_n and_o patience_n do_v pacify_v those_o who_o be_v offend_v with_o us._n but_o alas_o my_o god_n i_o will_v speak_v and_o will_v not_o be_v silent_a in_o the_o ear_n of_o my_o lord_n and_o with_o tear_n in_o my_o eye_n will_v bewail_v my_o sin_n and_o offence_n i_o â—now_v there_o be_v no_o more_o true_a love_n in_o our_o soul_n to_o our_o neighbour_n than_o we_o be_v dead_a to_o ourselves_o and_o live_v unto_o thou_o what_o therefore_o can_v i_o think_v of_o my_o poor_a soul_n so_o barren_a of_o all_o 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world_n if_o we_o hinder_v not_o thy_o grace_n who_o despise_v not_o any_o thing_n thou_o have_v make_v how_o much_o be_v we_o to_o be_v therefore_o blame_v and_o condemn_v if_o we_o labour_v not_o i_o say_v for_o thy_o love_n ☜_o yea_o to_o show_v thy_o power_n thou_o have_v be_v please_v many_o time_n to_o bring_v a_o silly_a woman_n love_v thou_o to_o that_o wisdom_n that_o no_o creature_n by_o wit_n or_o industry_n can_v attain_v to_o the_o same_o but_o where_o my_o lord_n have_v these_o thy_o spouse_n in_o these_o day_n place_v there_o heart_n where_o i_o say_v see_v they_o seek_v and_o desir_n so_o much_o the_o â—avour_n and_o praise_n of_o the_o world_n to_o have_v the_o friendship_n of_o man_n and_o by_o letter_n and_o token_n to_o draw_v their_o heart_n from_o thou_o unto_o they_o notwithstanding_o as_o good_a reason_n it_o prosper_v not_o with_o we_o in_o such_o do_n for_o they_o by_o this_o mean_n see_v our_o defect_n in_o love_v thou_o can_v confide_v in_o they_o who_o be_v not_o true_a to_o thou_o but_o contrary_a compare_v we_o to_o those_o who_o proffer_n love_v to_o all_o and_o yet_o as_o we_o ought_v for_o thou_o love_v none_o o_o lord_n remove_v these_o scandal_n from_o thy_o church_n let_v we_o though_o we_o can_v serve_v thou_o in_o great_a matter_n yet_o let_v we_o i_o say_v have_v no_o â—arts_n but_o to_o love_v thou_o no_o tongue_n but_o to_o praise_v thou_o nor_o eye_n but_o to_o behold_v thy_o creature_n as_o thing_n invite_v our_o soul_n to_o loveâ—_n sigh_n pant_v and_o â—uen_o languish_v after_o tâ—ee_v no_o ear_n but_o to_o hear_v what_o be_v thy_o will_n and_o in_o fine_a not_o to_o live_v but_o in_o and_o for_o tâ—ee_v and_o for_o thy_o love_n to_o be_v subject_a to_o every_o human_a creature_n as_o far_o as_o it_o be_v exact_v of_o we_o by_o thou_o give_v that_o humility_n which_o by_o thy_o bless_a apostle_n saint_n paul_n thou_o require_v in_o we_o that_o i_o may_v willing_o submit_v myself_n to_o the_o power_n of_o superior_n set_v over_o i_o by_o â—hee_o it_o be_v true_a i_o see_v and_o hear_v daily_a â—hat_n scandal_n what_o discorder_n and_o â—hat_n confusion_n arise_v in_o community_n for_o want_v oâ—_n due_a submission_n in_o subject_n to_o their_o superior_n but_o alas_o my_o god_n certain_o a_o chief_a cause_n thereof_o be_v at_o least_o in_o many_o who_o have_v good_a will_n because_o thy_o be_v not_o teach_v to_o obey_v tâ—ee_v interior_o in_o their_o soul_n out_o of_o which_o it_o will_v prove_v easy_a to_o they_o to_o obey_v exterior_o whereas_o now_o it_o seem_v a_o burden_n intolerable_a and_o forsooth_o under_o pretence_n of_o great_a perfection_n ☜_o we_o often_o fall_v inâ—_n to_o open_a rebellion_n sure_o
for_o thy_o abominable_a sin_n give_v all_o glory_n unto_o he_o with_o out_o who_o thou_o can_v not_o so_o much_o ashave_a a_o be_v my_o god_n be_v thou_o adore_v and_o exalt_v by_o all_o who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n thou_o o_o sweet_a jesu_n have_v pronounce_v with_o thy_o own_o bless_a mouth_n these_o word_n consueor_n tibi_fw-la pater_fw-la domine_fw-la caeli_fw-la &_o terrae_fw-la quia_fw-la abscondisti_fw-la haec_fw-la à _fw-la sapientibus_fw-la &_o prudentibus_fw-la &_o reâ—elasnti_fw-la â—ae_fw-la parâ—ulis_fw-la ita_fw-la paeter_fw-la quoniam_fw-la sic_fw-la placitum_fw-la fuit_fw-la ante_fw-la te_fw-la i_o confess_v to_o thou_o father_n lord_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n that_o thou_o have_v hide_v these_o from_o the_o wise_a and_o prudent_a and_o revealod_v they_o to_o little_a one_o yea_o father_n for_o so_o it_o well_o please_v thou_o these_o be_v the_o soul_n to_o who_o thy_o yoke_n be_v sweet_a and_o thy_o burden_n light_v these_o observe_v and_o 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of_o not_o only_o neglect_v to_o seek_v after_o thou_o alone_o but_o also_o of_o most_o miserable_o offend_v thou_o infinite_a waâ—es_n and_o thou_o bemoan_v my_o case_n as_o if_o some_o prejudice_n be_v thereby_o to_o come_v to_o thou_o o_o what_o will_v or_o can_v thou_o loose_v by_o my_o not_o be_v so_o happy_a as_o true_o to_o seek_v after_o thy_o love_n true_o nothing_o see_v thy_o glory_n can_v be_v add_v to_o or_o diminish_v by_o my_o misery_n but_o thy_o infinite_a charity_n which_o bring_v â—hee_o into_o the_o world_n to_o suffer_v and_o die_v for_o i_o be_v the_o reason_n of_o thy_o merâ—fful_a call_n upon_o my_o poor_a soul_n to_o which_o thou_o have_v say_v i_o will_v not_o the_o the_o death_n of_o a_o sinner_n but_o rather_o that_o he_o be_v convert_v and_o live_v in_o the_o hope_n of_o this_o promise_n i_o fly_v to_o thou_o thou_o who_o be_v able_a to_o do_v all_o thâ—ngs_n help_v i_o that_o can_v do_v nothing_o thou_o know_v i_o have_v place_v all_o my_o hope_n and_o comfort_n in_o thou_o alone_o and_o that_o i_o deâ—est_v all_o that_o be_v in_o i_o which_o be_v displease_v in_o thy_o eye_n far_o be_v it_o from_o i_o to_o have_v any_o other_o intention_n in_o any_o thing_n i_o do_v or_o omit_v but_o simple_o to_o please_v thou_o i_o renounce_v all_o inordinate_a affection_n to_o all_o create_a thing_n whatsoever_o and_o whatsoever_o i_o do_v that_o be_v not_o do_v sincere_o for_o thy_o love_n and_o honour_n i_o most_o willing_o submit_v myself_n to_o any_o punishment_n thy_o just_a and_o merciful_a justice_n shall_v lay_v upon_o i_o give_v what_o â—hou_n command_v and_o then_o exact_v what_o thou_o please_v o_o my_o god_n be_v it_o much_o i_o serve_v thou_o who_o all_o the_o world_n be_v bind_v to_o serve_v ☞_o o_o what_o be_v more_o sweet_a then_o to_o serve_v thou_o for_o love_n without_o any_o pretence_n of_o our_o own_o commodity_n for_o time_n or_o eternity_n true_o in_o this_o lie_v hide_v the_o great_a comfort_n that_o a_o soul_n banish_v from_o thou_o be_v capable_a of_o receive_v to_o â—hee_o who_o be_v the_o supreme_a and_o only_a true_a good_a by_o all_o creature_n be_v all_o praise_n eternal_o give_v amen_n this_o which_o next_o of_o all_o follow_v she_o there_o write_v as_o take_v out_o of_o s._n augustin_n viz._n i_o be_v not_o acquaint_v with_o that_o true_a interior_a justice_n which_o judge_v not_o by_o custom_n but_o by_o the_o righteous_a law_n of_o almighty_a god_n o_o my_o god_n apâ—d_fw-la te_fw-la est_fw-la fons_fw-la viâ—ae_fw-la &_o in_o lumine_fw-la tuo_fw-la videbimus_fw-la lumen_fw-la qui_fw-la sequitur_fw-la i_o non_fw-la ambulat_fw-la in_o tenebris_fw-la with_o thou_o be_v the_o fountain_n of_o life_n in_o thy_o light_n we_o shall_v see_v light_a who_o follow_v i_o walk_v not_o in_o darkness_n and_o they_o that_o walk_v not_o in_o thy_o light_n can_v never_o judge_n of_o thing_n according_a to_o thy_o justice_n but_o judge_v according_a to_o custom_n or_o their_o own_o sense_n this_o true_a light_n be_v thy_o gift_n and_o grace_n which_o thou_o only_o imparte_v in_o abundance_n to_o tâ—e_v meek_a and_o humble_a of_o hart_n and_o to_o those_o who_o endeavour_n to_o regard_v and_o seek_v thou_o alone_o in_o all_o their_o action_n in_o simplicity_n and_o sincerity_n of_o hart_n and_o who_o intend_v thou_o only_o in_o all_o they_o do_v or_o omit_v underneath_o the_o picture_n there_o annex_v of_o saint_n william_n duke_n of_o aquitain_n she_o have_v write_v as_o follow_v viz._n o_o my_o god_n through_o the_o merit_n and_o intercession_n of_o this_o most_o glorious_a saint_n be_v merciful_a to_o i_o sinner_n and_o give_v i_o grace_n to_o love_v and_o praise_v thou_o with_o all_o my_o soul_n and_o strength_n and_o neither_o for_o time_n or_o eternity_n to_o seek_v or_o desire_v any_o thing_n but_o only_a thy-self_n alone_o simple_o and_o pure_o by_o sincere_a and_o perfect_a love_n rest_v in_o thou_o my_o god_n above_o all_o gift_n and_o creature_n and_o adore_v thou_o who_o be_v god_n bless_v for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n amen_n man_n life_n on_o earth_n be_v a_o continual_a warfar_o and_o live_v but_o a_o short_a time_n he_o be_v replenish_v with_o many_o misery_n watch_v therefore_o and_o pray_v that_o you_o enter_v not_o into_o temptation_n by_o humility_n and_o prayer_n we_o shall_v be_v able_a to_o pass_v through_o any_o difficulty_n to_o the_o image_n of_o death_n there_o annex_v together_o with_o other_o enseiâ—nes_n of_o death_n she_o add_v these_o follow_a word_n viz._n o_o how_o little_a to_o be_v esteem_v or_o desire_v be_v all_o that_o pass_v away_o with_o time_n thus_o far_o of_o her_o devotion_n write_v by_o she_o in_o her_o breviary_n within_o ihe_a year_n before_o she_o die_v here_o follow_v some_o other_o devotion_n of_o the_o same_o pious_a soul_n d._n gertrude_n more_o a_o short_a oblation_n of_o this_o small_a work_n by_o the_o writer_n gatherer_n thereof_o to_o our_o most_o sweet_a and_o merciful_a god_n mt_n god_n to_o thou_o i_o dedicate_v this_o simple_a work_n of_o i_o and_o also_o with_o it_o hart_n and_o soul_n to_o be_v for_o ever_o thou_o no_o other_o motive_n will_v i_o have_v then_o by_o it_o thou_o to_o praise_v and_o stir_v up_o my_o poor_a freeze_a soul_n by_o love_n it-self_n to_o raise_v o_o i_o desir_fw-fr neither_o tongue_n nor_o pen_n but_o to_o extol_v god_n praise_n in_o which_o excess_n â—le_v melt_v away_o ten_o thousand_o thousand_o waysâ—_n and_o as_o one_o that_o be_v sick_a with_o love_n engrave_v on_o every_o tree_n the_o name_n and_o praise_n of_o he_o she_o love_v so_o shall_v it_o be_v with_o i_o if_o the_o glorious_a light_n of_o thy_o church_n saint_n augustin_n who_o hart_n be_v so_o inflame_v with_o love_n that_o the_o whole_a world_n be_v a_o witness_n thereof_o
and_o ever_o will_v be_v to_o thy_o honour_n from_o who_o proceed_v all_o good_a if_o he_o i_o say_v stand_v need_n of_o gather_v out_o of_o thy_o soly_n scripture_n and_o the_o write_n of_o holy_a saint_n somewhat_o that_o may_v elevate_v his_o mind_n to_o thou_o when_o he_o grow_v more_o cold_a by_o reason_n of_o human_a frailty_n as_o he_o profess_v before_o his_o manuel_n who_o word_n i_o will_v hereafter_o bring_v in_o as_o be_v most_o sweet_a to_o i_o whaâ—_n need_v then_o have_v my_o poor_a soul_n to_o gather_v together_o certain_a devout_a and_o amouâ—rous_a word_n who_o scarce_o in_o the_o read_n thereof_o can_v lift_v up_o my_o hart_n to_o thou_o but_o my_o hope_n be_v in_o thy_o metcy_n whiâ—h_o be_v above_o all_o thy_o work_n and_o out_o of_o whiâ—h_n thou_o have_v say_v by_o thy_o prophet_n 35._o man_n and_o beast_n thou_o will_v save_v to_o this_o mercy_n i_o fly_v in_o this_o mercy_n be_v all_o my_o comfort_n and_o consolation_n i_o cast_v myself_n into_o the_o arm_n of_o this_o thy_o mercy_n and_o pity_n i_o have_v nothing_o wherein_o i_o can_v trust_v some_o have_v suffer_v for_o thou_o in_o their_o body_n other_o in_o their_o mind_n other_o in_o both_o some_o for_o thou_o have_v take_v great_a pain_n and_o undergon_v great_a labour_n and_o austerity_n other_o by_o couradgious_o support_v disgrace_n and_o misery_n have_v become_v thereby_o most_o dear_a to_o thou_o other_o while_o they_o be_v afflict_v and_o persecute_v pray_v to_o thou_o for_o their_o enemy_n and_o thereby_o procure_v pardon_n for_o their_o own_o sin_n but_o alaâ—_n my_o god_n as_o for_o i_o when_o i_o cast_v back_o my_o eye_n upon_o my_o life_n past_a i_o can_v find_v nothing_o do_v or_o suffer_v by_o i_o wherein_o i_o can_v hope_v wherein_o i_o can_v trust_v all_o those_o thing_n which_o i_o behold_v other_o daily_o to_o practice_v be_v far_o fromme_v i_o have_v live_v in_o this_o house_n of_o who_o i_o may_v true_o say_v 23._o haec_fw-la est_fw-la generatio_fw-la 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virgin_n crown_v with_o star_n and_o m_o one_o under_o thy_o foot_n obtain_v we_o pardon_v of_o our_o sin_n of_o christ_n our_o saviour_n sweet_a for_o though_o thou_o be_v mother_n of_o my_o god_n yet_o thy_o humility_n disdain_v not_o this_o simple_a wretch_n that_o fly_v for_o help_v to_o thou_o thou_o know_v thou_o be_v more_o dear_a to_o i_o â—hen_o any_o can_v expresâ—e_v and_o thâ—t_o i_o do_v congratulate_v with_o joy_n thy_o happiness_n who_o be_v the_o queen_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n thy_o help_a hand_n i_o lend_v that_o i_o may_v love_v and_o praise_v my_o god_n and_o have_v a_o happy_a end_n and_o though_o my_o sin_n i_o terrify_v yet_o hope_v still_o in_o â—hee_o i_o find_v my_o soul_n refresh_v much_o when_o i_o unto_o thou_o fly_v for_o thou_o most_o willing_o to_o god_n petition_n do_v present_v and_o do_v obtain_v much_o grace_n for_o we_o in_o this_o our_o baâ—nishment_n the_o honour_n and_o the_o glorious_a praise_n by_o all_o be_v give_v â—o_o thou_o which_o iâ—sus_n tâ—y_o belove_a son_n ordain_v eternal_o for_o thou_o who_o he_o exalt_v in_o heaven_n above_o the_o angeâ—s_v all_o and_o who_o we_o find_v a_o patroness_n when_o unto_o thou_o we_o câ—l_v amen_n o_o mater_n dei_fw-la â—e_n â—ento_fw-la mei_fw-la amen_n as_o also_o my_o good_a angel_n s._n joseph_n saint_n john_n evangelist_n s._n martin_n s._n augustin_n s._n thomas_n of_o aquin_n and_o thou_o my_o most_o holy_a father_n s._n benet_n to_o our_o most_o holy_a father_n saint_n benedict_n most_o glorious_a father_n in_o who_o school_n i_o live_v and_o hope_v to_o die_v god_n grant_v i_o may_v observe_v thy_o rule_n for_o in_o that_o all_o do_v lie_v for_o no_o perfection_n can_v be_v name_v which_o we_o it_o do_v not_o teach_v o_o happy_a she_o who_o in_o her_o soul_n the_o sense_n thereof_o do_v reach_n but_o many_o praise_n obedience`_v and_o thy_o humility_n and_o yet_o conceive_v not_o as_o they_o shall_v what_o either_o of_o they_o be_v the_o simple_a humble_a love_a soul_n only_o the_o sense_n find_v out_o of_o any_o discreet_a obedient_a rule_n and_o these_o be_v void_a of_o doubt_n yea_o under_o shadow_n of_o thy_o wing_n they_o up_o to_o heaven_n fly_n and_o taste_v here_o in_o this_o veil_n of_o tear_n what_o perfect_a peace_n do_v lie_v hide_v in_o performance_n of_o thy_o rule_n that_o lead_v unto_o heaven_n o_o happy_a soul_n who_o it_o perform_v the_o way_n so_o sweet_a and_o even_o by_o prayer_n and_o patience_n be_v fulfil_v charity_n obedience_n by_o seek_v after_o god_n alone_o and_o give_v none_o offence_n the_o more_o i_o look_v upon_o thy_o rule_n the_o more_o in_o it_o i_o find_v o_o do_v to_o i_o the_o sense_n unfold_v for_o letter_n make_v we_o blind_a and_o bless_v yea_o a_o thousand_o time_n be_v thou_o who_o it_o haste_v write_v and_o thy_o sweet_a blessing_n give_v to_o they_o who_o true_o perform_v it_o for_o those_o be_v they_o which_o will_v conserve_v this_o house_n in_o perfect_a peace_n without_o which_o all_o we_o do_v be_v lose_v and_o all_o that_o be_v good_a will_v cease_v and_o praise_v be_v our_o glorious_a god_n who_o give_v to_o thou_o such_o grace_n not_o only_o he_o thy-self_n to_o seek_v but_o also_o out_o to_o trace_v a_o way_n so_o easy_a and_o secure_a if_o we_o will_v but_o thou_o hear_v to_o have_v relation_n to_o our_o god_n who_o be_v to_o we_o so_o near_o for_o at_o this_o thou_o do_v chief_o aim_v that_o god_n our_o soul_n do_v teach_v o_o if_o we_o do_v true_o obey_v he_o will_v by_o all_o thing_n preach_v his_o will_n to_o we_o by_o every_o thing_n that_o do_v to_o we_o befall_v and_o then_o as_o thou_o desire_v it_o shall_v he_o will_v be_v all_o in_o all_o o_o pray_v dear_a father_n that_o he_o ever_o be_v our_o only_a love_n and_o all_o eternal_o amen_n saint_n scholastica_fw-la s._n gertrude_n and_o in_o fine_a all_o in_o heaven_n or_o on_o earth_n that_o be_v please_v to_o thou_o be_v please_v to_o make_v i_o partaker_n of_o their_o merit_n and_o prayer_n and_o above_o all_o wash_v i_o in_o thy_o precious_a blood_n one_o drop_n whereof_o have_v be_v sufficient_a to_o have_v redeem_v a_o thousand_o world_n in_o this_o be_v my_o hope_n and_o confidence_n by_o this_o i_o hope_v to_o be_v enrich_v with_o all_o that_o be_v want_v in_o i_o for_o in_o that_o thou_o be_v and_o possesse_v i_o more_o rejoice_v and_o exult_v then_o if_o i_o have_v whatsoever_o in_o earth_n or_o in_o heaven_n i_o can_v desire_v at_o my_o command_n in_o this_o joy_n i_o cry_v out_o withal_o my_o hart_n with_o all_o my_o soul_n and_o with_o all_o my_o strength_n o_o how_o much_o good_a and_o happiness_n do_v i_o possess_v see_v my_o god_n who_o be_v more_o myself_n than_o i_o myself_n be_o do_v possess_v so_o infinite_a glory_n majesty_n and_o so_o infinite_a good_a thing_n for_o indeed_o i_o have_v and_o hold_v he_o more_o i_o own_o than_o any_o thing_n that_o ever_o i_o have_v or_o hold_v heretofore_o this_o be_v the_o comfort_n of_o my_o poverty_n and_o the_o repose_n of_o my_o labour_n this_o my_o most_o delightful_a most_o amiable_a most_o bright_a and_o beawtiful_a and_o most_o glorious_a god_n be_v always_o present_a with_o i_o to_o hear_v my_o praise_n and_o receive_v my_o petition_n in_o he_o i_o be_o rich_a though_o in_o my_o self_n i_o be_o poor_a and_o contemptible_a to_o he_o my_o most_o love_a god_n be_v give_v now_o and_o ever_o all_o laud_n and_o praise_n and_o glory_n by_o all_o in_o heaven_n and_o earth_n for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n these_o collection_n once_o more_o i_o offer_v to_o thou_o my_o god_n and_o those_o that_o in_o peruse_v thereof_o be_v move_v thereby_o to_o love_n and_o praise_v thou_o be_v they_o my_o goâ—_n mindful_a of_o
of_o my_o death_n obtain_v for_o i_o wretched_a sinner_n confidence_n in_o his_o mercy_n which_o be_v as_o thou_o know_v above_o all_o his_o work_n i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o love_v but_o he_o be_v worthy_a of_o all_o love_n and_o adoration_n i_o can_v without_o great_a joy_n remember_v these_o follow_a word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v hope_v his_o goodness_n will_v for_o his_o own_o sake_n give_v i_o leave_v to_o apply_v they_o to_o i_o poor_a and_o sinful_a soul_n though_o i_o deserve_v nothing_o of_o myself_n never_o have_v do_v he_o any_o faithful_a service_n in_o all_o my_o life_n chap_n 43._o v._n 1._o and_o now_o thus_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o create_v thou_o and_o form_v thou_o fear_v not_o because_o i_o have_v redeem_v thou_o and_o call_v thou_o by_o thy_o name_n thou_o be_v i_o 2._o when_o thou_o shall_v pass_v through_o the_o water_n i_o will_v be_v with_o thou_o and_o the_o flood_n shall_v not_o cover_v thou_o when_o thou_o shall_v walk_v in_o fire_n thou_o shall_v not_o be_v â—uâ—ned_v and_o the_o flame_n shall_v not_o â—urn_v inâ—_n thou_o o_o bless_a saint_n make_v intercession_n for_o i_o that_o i_o may_v be_v confident_a in_o he_o who_o thus_o abound_v with_o mercy_n amen_n 3._o because_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n thy_o god_n the_o holy_a one_o of_o israel_n thy_o saviour_n 4._o since_o thou_o become_v honourable_a in_o my_o eye_n and_o glorious_a i_o have_v love_v thou_o 5._o fear_v not_o because_o i_o be_o with_o thou_o 6._o and_o every_o one_o that_o invocate_v my_o name_n for_o my_o glory_n i_o have_v create_v he_o form_v he_o and_o make_v he_o 8._o bring_v forth_o the_o blind_a people_n and_o have_v eye_n the_o deaf_a and_o he_o that_o â—ath_v ear_n 9_o let_v they_o give_v their_o witness_n &_o be_v justify_v 10._o in_o very_a deed_n you_o be_v my_o witness_n say_v our_o lord_n and_o my_o servant_n who_o i_o have_v choose_v that_o you_o may_v know_v and_o believe_v i_o and_o understand_v that_o i_o myself_o be_o 11._o i_o be_o i_o be_o the_o lord_n and_o there_o be_v no_o saviour_n beside_o i_o and_o there_o be_v not_o that_o can_v deliver_v out_o of_o my_o hand_n 16._o thou_o say_v our_o lord_n that_o give_v away_o in_o the_o sea_n and_o a_o paâ—h_n in_o the_o uâ—hâ—menâ—_a water_n 18._o remember_v not_o former_a thing_n and_o look_v not_o on_o thing_n of_o old_a i_o be_o he_o that_o take_v clean_o away_o thy_o iniquity_n for_o my_o own_o sake_n and_o i_o will_v not_o remember_v thy_o sin_n 26._o bring_v i_o into_o remembrance_n and_o let_v we_o be_v judge_v together_o tell_v i_o if_o thou_o â—ave_n any_o thing_n that_o may_v be_v justify_v hethertho_n the_o word_n of_o the_o prophet_n i_o say_v s._n john_n 2._o v_o 12._o i_o write_v to_o you_o little_a child_n because_o your_o sin_n be_v forgive_v you_o for_o his_o name_n and_o now_o my_o child_n abide_v in_o he_o that_o when_o he_o shall_v appear_v we_o may_v have_v confidence_n and_o not_o be_v confound_v of_o he_o in_o his_o come_n my_o dear_a believe_v not_o every_o spirit_n and_o every_o spirit_n that_o dissolve_v jesus_n be_v not_o of_o god_n fear_n be_v not_o charity_n but_o perfect_a charity_n cast_v out_o fear_n let_v we_o therefore_o love_n god_n because_o god_n love_v us._n this_o be_v the_o charity_n of_o god_n that_o we_o keep_v his_o commandment_n and_o his_o commandment_n be_v not_o beauty_n o_o infinite_a goodness_n who_o be_v charity_n it-self_n pour_v thy_o grace_n abundant_o into_o my_o poor_a foul_a i_o invoke_v thou_o my_o god_n by_o the_o merit_n and_o intercession_n of_o all_o thy_o saint_n in_o heaven_n and_o servant_n on_o earth_n to_o have_v mercy_n on_o i_o now_o in_o this_o my_o last_o extremity_n al_n i_o desire_n be_v that_o in_o life_n and_o death_n i_o may_v be_v dispose_v of_o according_a to_o the_o multitude_n of_o tâ—y_n most_o abundant_a mercy_n a_o fountain_n never_o draw_v dryâ—_n all_o my_o joy_n be_v in_o that_o thou_o be_v my_o god_n and_o that_o i_o be_o at_o thy_o dispose_n though_o i_o be_o poor_a in_o all_o vertnes_n yet_o i_o be_o confident_a to_o be_v partaker_n of_o thy_o merit_n o_o sweet_a jesus_n which_o thou_o liberal_o bestow_v according_a to_o thy_o will_n and_o pleasure_n o_o be_v thou_o bless_v in_o all_o thou_o dispose_v o_o my_o god_n who_o be_v all_o i_o desire_v into_o thy_o hand_n i_o commend_v my_o spirit_n who_o be_v bless_v for_o ever_o amen_n the_o most_o learned_a of_o d._n s._n augustin_n say_v aiâ—_n eruditissimus_fw-la doctorum_fw-la augustinus_n o_o eternal_a truth_n and_o true_a charity_n and_o o_o aeterna_fw-la veritas_fw-la &_o vera_fw-la charitas_fw-la dear_a eternity_n thou_o be_v my_o god_n to_o thou_o &_o chara_fw-la eteruitas_fw-la tu_fw-la es_fw-la deus_fw-la meus_fw-la i_o suspire_v day_n and_o night_n this_o be_v that_o sublive_a tibi_fw-la suspiro_fw-la die_fw-la ac_fw-la nocte_fw-la hic_fw-la est_fw-la sublimis_fw-la ille_fw-la contemplative_a augustine_n contemplator_n augustinus_n cvius_fw-la cor_fw-la charitas_fw-la christi_fw-la vulneraveraâ—_n who_o hart_n the_o charity_n of_o christ_n have_v wound_v o_o my_o dear_a saâ—nt_n who_o great_a humility_n i_o can_v never_o to_o much_o praise_n and_o admire_v pray_v for_o she_o to_o who_o thou_o have_v be_v in_o her_o great_a affliction_n and_o misery_n even_o as_o a_o father_n and_o mother_n for_o which_o be_v exhibit_v honowr_n to_o thou_o by_o the_o most_o sweet_a hart_n of_o jesus_n our_o saviour_n the_o son_n of_o the_o live_a god_n by_o which_o and_o from_o which_o do_v most_o abundant_a sweetness_n flow_v to_o all_o the_o elect_a in_o the_o power_n that_o he_o give_v thou_o be_v one_o by_o who_o he_o bind_v and_o loose_v sinner_n give_v a_o abundant_a benediction_n to_o thy_o poor_a servant_n and_o beg_v of_o my_o god_n that_o i_o may_v never_o seek_v or_o intend_v any_o thing_n for_o time_n or_o eternity_n but_o his_o honour_n and_o glory_n and_o that_o i_o may_v so_o humble_a and_o subject_v myself_o under_o his_o mighty_a hand_n thaâ—_n for_o his_o love_n i_o may_v willing_o submit_v myself_n in_o what_o manner_n he_o please_v to_o all_o creature_n let_v i_o commit_v and_o commend_v myself_n to_o thy_o protection_n who_o be_v a_o careful_a receiver_n of_o all_o my_o petition_n and_o who_o art_n one_o who_o in_o a_o most_o particular_a manner_n godâ—_n have_v give_v i_o confidence_n in_o in_o all_o â—he_n necessity_n wherein_o my_o soul_n do_v stand_v need_n of_o a_o advocate_n and_o friend_n o_o happy_a change_n to_o leave_v all_o friend_n on_o earth_n to_o find_v the_o more_o certaiu_fw-la &_o assure_a friend_n and_o intercessor_n in_o heaven_n who_o be_v never_o absent_a never_o uncertain_a nor_o ever_o do_v they_o fail_v as_o those_o in_o this_o world_n be_v subject_a to_o do_v be_v therefore_o mindful_a of_o i_o i_o beseech_v thou_o in_o my_o life_n &_o also_o in_o my_o last_o extremity_n and_o remember_v that_o when_o affright_v with_o the_o multitude_n and_o greivoush_n of_o my_o sin_n and_o imperfection_n i_o dare_v scarce_o cast_v up_o my_o eye_n to_o heaven_n or_o call_v upon_o god_n and_o his_o bless_a mother_n who_o may_v just_o disdain_v so_o ungrateful_a and_o contemptible_a a_o creature_n yet_o by_o thy_o mean_n and_o be_v incouradge_v by_o thy_o example_n and_o read_v thy_o life_n and_o book_n so_o full_o of_o conâ—idence_n and_o sweetness_n i_o find_v my_o hart_n lighten_v and_o my_o spirit_n refresh_v and_o my_o soul_n exceed_o comfort_v find_v in_o thou_o and_o by_o thou_o express_v what_o a_o good_a god_n we_o have_v and_o that_o as_o his_o mercy_n be_v above_o all_o his_o work_n so_o he_o be_v able_a to_o forgive_v more_o than_o we_o can_v offend_v thou_o know_v thy_o very_a name_n when_o i_o be_o sad_a and_o afflict_a do_v refresh_v i_o to_o behold_v it_o and_o seem_v to_o smile_v upon_o i_o in_o my_o misery_n assure_v i_o of_o â—hy_a help_n in_o all_o my_o soul_n stand_v need_n of_o thou_o in_o this_o my_o pilgrimage_n and_o ban_v shment_n from_o my_o god_n who_o be_v my_o only_a love_n life_n desire_n and_o all_o my_o happiness_n tâ—_n who_o for_o ever_o be_v all_o glory_n honour_n anâ—_n adoration_n by_o all_o as_o well_o on_o earth_n as_o in_o heaven_n and_o who_o by_o his_o sweet_a mercy_n and_o thy_o intercession_n i_o desire_v and_o hope_n to_o love_n and_o sâ—rue_a for_o ever_o and_o ever_o amen_n omnes_fw-la qui_fw-la habebant_fw-la infirâ—os_fw-la ducebant_fw-la ill_n ad_fw-la jesum_fw-la &_o sanabaâ—â—ur_n 4.40_o all_o that_o have_v disease_v bring_v thâ—m_n to_o jesus_n and_o they_o be_v curedâ—_n to_o who_o therefore_o shall_v i_o fly_v in_o my_o manifold_a infirmity_n but_o to_o thou_o my_o jesus_n my_o goâ—_n and_o my_o saviour_n who_o be_v worthy_a oâ—_n our_o love_n our_o thought_n our_o heart_n and_o our_o soul_n but_o