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call_v upon_o thâ—_n comforter_n to_o return_v and_o reneâ—_n that_o excellent_a work_n which_o hâ—_n have_v advance_v in_o i_o o_o return_v return_v confirm_v i_o witâ—_n thy_o strength_n before_o i_o go_v hence_o and_o be_v see_v no_o more_o §_o 16._o then_o she_o suggest_v to_o he_o those_o place_n of_o scripture_n which_o by_o the_o divine_a aid_n be_v bring_v to_o her_o mind_n in_o answer_n to_o which_o every_o moment_n he_o interpose_v those_o word_n as_o make_v it_o evident_a that_o his_o soul_n which_o before_o be_v sink_v under_o its_o burden_n begin_v to_o gather_v strength_n &_o comfort_n again_o he_o have_v scarce_o be_v a_o quarter_n of_o a_o hour_n in_o that_o conflict_n before_o he_o fall_v into_o a_o swoon_n which_o occasion_v the_o hasty_a call_n in_o of_o his_o son_n who_o be_v come_v to_o he_o but_o that_o morning_n and_o when_o this_o sink_a fit_n be_v over_o there_o appear_v in_o he_o again_o the_o same_o tranquillity_n and_o cheerfulness_n of_o countenance_n as_o 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last_o command_n will_v be_v of_o great_a weight_n to_o you_o even_o as_o i_o pray_v god_n that_o he_o will_v make_v my_o blessing_n effectual_a upon_o you_o then_o turn_v to_o his_o wife_n he_o say_v the_o lord_n bless_v thou_o my_o dear_a love_n and_o strengthen_v thou_o he_o iâ—_n a_o husband_n to_o the_o widow_n anâ—_n a_o father_n of_o the_o fatherless_a and_o to_o his_o son_n the_o almighty_a father_n bless_v thou_o my_o son_n guide_v thou_o in_o alâ—_n thy_o way_n enrich_v thou_o with_o all_o christian_a virtue_n and_o plentiful_o make_v thou_o to_o abound_v in_o all_o spiritual_a and_o temporal_a blessing_n regard_v not_o thâ—_n world_n nor_o its_o deceitful_a hope_n for_o the_o world_n pass_v away_o and_o the_o lust_n thereof_o place_v all_o thy_o felicity_n in_o the_o blessing_n of_o god_n be_v strong_a in_o faith_n and_o prepare_v unto_o every_o good_a work_n let_v the_o peace_n of_o god_n dwell_v in_o thou_o and_o make_v thou_o peaceable_a and_o kind_a those_o infant_n which_o i_o commend_v unto_o thou_o and_o commit_v to_o thy_o trust_n will_v be_v proper_a subject_n for_o thou_o to_o exercise_v thy_o charity_n upon_o i_o appoint_v and_o set_v thou_o over_o not_o only_o that_o little_a portion_n which_o i_o leave_v they_o but_o especial_o their_o person_n that_o thou_o may_v take_v care_n of_o their_o instruction_n and_o education_n in_o piety_n and_o virtue_n that_o they_o may_v be_v fit_v for_o that_o service_n of_o god_n which_o their_o nature_n and_o ingeny_n render_v they_o capable_a of_o and_o especial_o may_v apply_v themselves_o to_o the_o worship_n of_o god_n and_o then_o take_v hold_v of_o the_o hand_n of_o the_o elder_a of_o the_o child_n he_o say_v farewell_o dear_a child_n the_o
spirit_n be_v strong_a and_o enrich_v §_o 24._o then_o turn_v again_o to_o his_o son_n he_o say_v my_o son_n god_n bless_v thou_o more_o and_o more_o how_o great_o do_v i_o rejoice_v when_o i_o behold_v in_o thou_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n it_o be_v my_o great_a desire_n to_o see_v thou_o from_o the_o first_o day_n of_o my_o sickness_n thou_o be_v the_o young_a of_o my_o son_n and_o thou_o only_o be_v leave_v alive_a to_o i_o upon_o the_o earth_n thou_o shall_v be_v my_o benjamin_n and_o god_n will_v bless_v the_o charge_n i_o have_v commit_v to_o thou_o and_o will_v be_v present_a with_o thou_o for_o thy_o help_n therein_o the_o almighty_a god_n give_v unto_o thou_o and_o thy_o nephew_n blessing_n in_o israel_n and_o especial_o spiritual_a blessing_n for_o temporal_a blessing_n follow_v upon_o spiritual_a praise_v be_v god_n that_o have_v make_v thou_o a_o spectator_n of_o my_o last_o conflict_n it_o be_v a_o conflict_n but_o yet_o sweet_a because_o of_o the_o consolation_n of_o the_o 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how_o do_v i_o rejoice_v to_o see_v thou_o i_o have_v yet_o many_o thing_n to_o say_v to_o thou_o remember_v that_o thou_o speak_v to_o the_o illustrious_a princess_n dowager_n and_o tell_v they_o that_o i_o die_v devote_v to_o they_o in_o all_o dutiful_a affection_n and_o that_o i_o recommend_v unto_o they_o the_o utmost_a i_o can_v the_o institution_n of_o the_o illustrious_a college_n in_o this_o town_n which_o be_v indeed_o the_o honour_n of_o the_o house_n of_o orange_n and_o of_o his_o memory_n who_o found_v it_o unto_o who_o in_o my_o own_o particular_a i_o be_o lay_v under_o very_o great_a obligation_n that_o great_a prince_n who_o first_o call_v i_o to_o his_o service_n in_o his_o house_n heap_v his_o benefit_n upon_o i_o and_o without_o vanity_n i_o speak_v it_o honour_v i_o with_o his_o friendship_n of_o which_o he_o can_v give_v no_o great_a testimony_n than_o by_o commit_v to_o i_o the_o first_o education_n of_o his_o only_a son_n who_o indeed_o be_v snatch_v away_o from_o 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guide_v they_o in_o all_o thing_n with_o the_o spirit_n of_o his_o fear_n strengthen_v they_o in_o the_o faith_n and_o encourage_v they_o unto_o every_o good_a work_n i_o hope_v they_o will_v keep_v in_o mind_n my_o service_n and_o zealous_a affection_n for_o the_o good_a of_o their_o noble_a family_n but_o if_o not_o my_o trust_n be_v in_o god_n §_o 26._o after_o half_a a_o hour_n silence_n or_o thereabouts_o he_o thus_o continue_v his_o discourse_n hear_v the_o prayer_n which_o thy_o servant_n offer_v unto_o thou_o o_o god_n for_o that_o child_n let_v he_o be_v bless_v and_o sanctify_v from_o his_o tender_a year_n that_o the_o corruption_n of_o the_o age._n may_v not_o pervert_v he_o let_v he_o live_v before_o thou_o let_v integrity_n and_o righteousness_n preserve_v he_o he_o also_o pray_v for_o the_o lady_n electress_n of_o brandenburg_n and_o her_o sister_n that_o god_n will_v adorn_v they_o with_o all_o christian_a and_o moral_a virtue_n and_o bâ—_n with_o they_o to_o the_o end_n of_o theiâ—_n live_v but_o now_o his_o oppression_n be_v so_o much_o increase_v that_o we_o can_v not_o take_v the_o texture_n of_o his_o meditation_n only_o by_o his_o countenance_n and_o gesture_n we_o may_v see_v that_o he_o pray_v continual_o and_o sometime_o he_o utter_v some_o word_n whereby_o we_o understand_v that_o other_o have_v precede_v in_o his_o meditation_n aâ—_n for_o instance_n yea_o lord_n i_o believe_v thiâ—_n be_v my_o joy_n god_n will_v perfect_v his_o work_n above_o all_o â—_o have_v no_o more_o part_n in_o thosâ—_n thing_n that_o be_v do_v undeâ—_n the_o sun_n but_o i_o desire_v thâ—_n peace_n of_o the_o church_n every_o where_n then_o he_o repeat_v in_o french_a metre_n the_o 18._o verse_n of_o psal_n 51._o which_o be_v in_o english_a metre_n lord_n unto_o zion_n turn_v thy_o face_n pour_v out_o thy_o mercy_n on_o thy_o hill_n and_o on_o jerusalem_n thy_o grace_n build_v up_o the_o wall_n and_o love_v it_o still_o i_o be_o of_o that_o zion_n have_v pity_n on_o i_o and_o deal_v gracious_o with_o i_o i_o be_o suffocate_v i_o can_v hardly_o breathe_v the_o lord_n bring_v i_o down_o but_o he_o call_v my_o spirit_n to_o himself_o the_o great_a thing_n by_o far_o be_v i_o have_v no_o doubt_n of_o my_o salvation_n the_o lord_n uphold_v i_o miraculous_o to_o the_o end_n that_o i_o may_v edify_v other_o by_o my_o example_n in_o this_o last_o close_a of_o my_o life_n i_o be_o well_o please_v o_o my_o god_n far_o be_v it_o from_o i_o that_o i_o shall_v murmur_v how_o small_a be_v these_o pain_n in_o comparison_n of_o that_o grace_n through_o which_o i_o bear_v with_o a_o quiet_a mind_n whatsoever_o it_o please_v god_n to_o lay_v upon_o i_o thou_o allaye_v these_o short_a bitterness_n with_o inexpressible_a consolation_n thou_o speak_v unto_o my_o soul_n with_o that_o sweet_a voice_n which_o â—_o understand_v because_o i_o be_o of_o thy_o sheep_n my_o sheep_n say_v the_o chief_a shepherd_n hear_v my_o voice_n i_o know_v they_o and_o they_o follow_v i_o to_o this_o purpose_n he_o begin_v to_o recite_v the_o 23_o psalm_n in_o hebrew_n the_o lorâ—_n be_v my_o shepherd_n i_o shall_v not_o want_v and_o desire_v one_o that_o stand_v by_o to_o rehearse_v the_o rest_n of_o the_o psalm_n and_o the_o last_o clause_n he_o pronounce_v himself_o from_o the_o original_a viz_o i_o shall_v dwell_v in_o the_o house_n of_o the_o lord_n for_o ever_o and_o when_o he_o see_v many_o attend_v he_o he_o say_v you_o have_v no_o cause_n to_o wonder_v i_o be_o able_a to_o do_v nothing_o of_o myself_o the_o lord_n work_v all_o in_o all_o that_o we_o may_v be_v humble_v this_o be_v the_o school_n of_o humility_n look_v upon_o i_o
will_v rather_o open_v my_o sin_n before_o he_o in_o a_o most_o humble_a confession_n of_o it_o and_o pray_v that_o he_o will_v increase_v in_o i_o the_o grace_n of_o true_a repentance_n yea_o let_v he_o wear_v out_o this_o body_n with_o sorrow_n it_o matter_n not_o so_o he_o give_v to_o i_o a_o break_a and_o a_o contrite_a heart_n which_o be_v a_o sacrifice_n acceptable_a to_o himself_o as_o for_o my_o part_n i_o do_v most_o willing_o offer_v up_o myself_o accept_v o_o lord_n this_o imperfect_a sacrifice_n and_o supply_v the_o defect_n thereof_o by_o the_o perfect_a righteousness_n of_o that_o great_a high_a priest_n who_o through_o the_o eternal_a spirit_n offer_v himself_o unto_o god_n without_o spot_n let_v i_o be_v accept_v as_o a_o live_a sacrifice_n holy_a and_o well-pleasing_a unto_o god_n which_o be_v our_o reasonable_a service_n crucify_v o_o lord_n this_o old_a man_n that_o the_o body_n of_o sin_n may_v be_v utter_o destroy_v and_o i_o may_v rise_v again_o unto_o a_o new_a life_n the_o wage_n of_o sin_n be_v death_n buâ—_n ult_n rom._n 6._o ult_n the_o gift_n of_o god_n be_v eternal_a life_n by_o jesus_n christ_n our_o lord_n then_o repeat_v the_o word_n gift_n he_o add_v it_o be_v mere_a grace_n not_o of_o work_n but_o of_o he_o that_o call_v who_o shall_v laâ—_n 33._o rom._n 8._o 33._o any_o thing_n to_o the_o charge_n of_o god_n elect_v it_o be_v god_n that_o justifi_v who_o be_v he_o that_o condemn_v iâ—_n be_v christ_n that_o die_v yea_o ratheâ—_n that_o be_v rise_v again_o who_o be_v eveâ—_n at_o the_o right_a hand_n of_o god_n whâ—_n also_o make_v intercession_n for_o we_o then_o after_o a_o little_a interruption_n of_o his_o discourse_n by_o a_o shorâ—_n sleep_n he_o thus_o proceed_v i_o be_o god_n and_o he_o wilâ—_n save_o i_o he_o have_v honoureâ—_n i_o with_o a_o holy_a call_v and_o have_v not_o suffer_v his_o gifâ—_n to_o be_v altogether_o useless_a in_o i_o as_o to_o the_o edification_n of_o hiâ—_n church_n as_o to_o myself_o i_o can_v 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ascribe_v to_o my_o inbred_a corruption_n alas_o i_o acknowledge_v this_o with_o humble_a and_o serious_a repentance_n how_o oft_o hauâ—_n i_o sin_v in_o so_o holy_a a_o charge_n not_o only_o by_o omit_v manâ—_n thing_n which_o i_o ought_v to_o hauâ—_n do_v but_o also_o by_o do_v many_o thing_n amiss_o how_o of_o have_v i_o offend_v through_o negligence_n and_o slackness_n long_o since_o have_v i_o be_v cast_v off_o werâ—_n it_o not_o that_o i_o have_v to_o do_v witâ—_n so_o good_a a_o lord_n who_o hatâ—_n bear_v with_o i_o and_o have_v beeâ—_n so_o gracious_a to_o i_o as_o noâ—_n to_o exact_v a_o severe_a account_n oâ—_n my_o word_n and_o work_n alas_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n enter_v noâ—_n into_o judgement_n with_o thy_o servant_n for_o in_o thy_o sight_n shall_v no_o man_n live_v be_v justify_v let_v i_o be_v find_v not_o have_v my_o own_o righteousness_n but_o the_o righteousness_n of_o thy_o son_n for_o the_o sake_n of_o which_o i_o beg_v thy_o favour_n pardon_v o_o my_o god_n 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his_o son_n stephen_n that_o he_o may_v be_v a_o useful_a instrument_n for_o the_o promote_a of_o god_n glory_n a_o diligent_a workman_n that_o need_v not_o to_o be_v ashamed_a right_o divide_v the_o word_n of_o truth_n o_o lord_n my_o god_n i_o pray_v not_o only_o for_o my_o brother_n but_o for_o all_o those_o in_o france_n to_o who_o thou_o have_v commit_v the_o conduct_n and_o rule_n of_o the_o church_n bless_v their_o person_n pardon_v their_o defect_n sanctify_v their_o gift_n grant_v unto_o they_o that_o they_o may_v serious_o return_v unto_o the_o simplicit_o which_o be_v in_o christ_n and_o that_o they_o detract_v not_o from_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n to_o ascribe_v unto_o man_n what_o belong_v to_o his_o salvation_n he_o be_v strong_a and_o jealous_a if_o in_o my_o writing_n i_o have_v seem_v to_o deal_v a_o little_a warm_o with_o some_o of_o my_o brethren_n about_o their_o new_a notion_n i_o protest_v before_o god_n i_o be_v never_o move_v by_o envy_n or_o wrath_n against_o 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work_v in_o we_o both_o to_o will_v and_o to_o do_v according_a to_o his_o good_a pleasure_n and_o when_o himself_o have_v give_v and_o wrought_v all_o this_o yet_o he_o give_v to_o we_o a_o eternal_a reward_n amen_n amen_n be_v it_o unto_o i_o according_a to_o thy_o word_n even_o according_a to_o the_o faithfulness_n and_o stability_n of_o thy_o promise_n then_o turn_v his_o discourse_n to_o his_o niece_n again_o write_v also_o say_v he_o to_o thy_o brethren_n that_o i_o love_v they_o and_o that_o i_o pray_v for_o their_o salvation_n and_o thou_o my_o dear_a niece_n i_o love_v thou_o not_o because_o of_o that_o near_a affinity_n which_o thou_o have_v to_o i_o but_o rather_o because_o we_o both_o have_v one_o god_n and_o one_o hope_n thou_o know_v the_o love_n and_o affection_n which_o i_o have_v have_v for_o thou_o which_o have_v be_v a_o paternal_a love_n indeed_o for_o a_o token_n of_o which_o take_v thou_o the_o bible_n which_o thou_o shall_v find_v in_o my_o study_n in_o 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to_o i_o i_o expect_v the_o come_n of_o my_o son_n to_o who_o i_o may_v commit_v my_o nephew_n and_o affair_n he_o shall_v give_v you_o a_o account_n of_o all_o farewell_o my_o dear_a brother_n but_o keep_v i_o in_o remembrance_n the_o residue_n of_o thy_o life_n who_o have_v love_v thou_o and_o thou_o with_o a_o great_a charity_n love_v my_o again_o as_o thou_o do_v i_o pray_v god_n to_o bless_v thou_o and_o all_o thou_o once_o again_o farewell_o date_v at_o breda_n jan._n 2._o 1651._o he_o write_v also_o to_o mr._n mouline_a his_o brother_n by_o affinity_n in_o these_o word_n my_o dear_a brother_n it_o so_o please_v god_n that_o yoâ—_n shall_v remain_v alive_a after_o i_o i_o now_o write_v be_v upon_o the_o border_n between_o life_n and_o death_n after_o a_o sermon_n preach_v on_o christmas_n day_n which_o be_v follow_v with_o â—_o pertinacious_a retention_n faecium_fw-la in_o alvo_fw-la induratarum_fw-la and_o of_o the_o retain_v of_o that_o load_n the_o dissolution_n of_o the_o 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