word_n mat._n 12._o the_o unclean_a spirit_n be_v cast_v out_o of_o a_o man_n he_o walk_v about_o seek_v rest_n and_o find_v none_o then_o he_o return_v and_o bring_v 7_o other_o spirit_n with_o he_o worse_o than_o himself_o and_o the_o end_n of_o that_o man_n be_v worse_a than_o his_o beginning_n when_o i_o hear_v this_o my_o heart_n fear_v i_o think_v now_o i_o repent_v of_o my_o many_o sin_n for_o very_o i_o be_o a_o great_a sinner_n and_o i_o have_v offend_v i_o be_o 7_o time_n worse_o than_o before_o i_o pray_v then_o i_o repent_v again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n he_o that_o penitent_o believe_v shall_v be_v save_v and_o then_o my_o heart_n do_v desire_v to_o repent_v and_o believe_v than_o i_o think_v that_o man_n will_v not_o forgive_v i_o and_o therefore_o it_o be_v not_o good_a to_o abide_v in_o this_o place_n but_o i_o remember_v that_o i_o have_v learned_a to_o read_v the_o word_n and_o if_o i_o shall_v forsake_v my_o friend_n i_o shall_v lose_v the_o word_n of_o god_n then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n repent_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n be_v at_o hand_n my_o heart_n say_v o_o let_v it_o be_v so_o and_o then_o my_o heart_n rest_v but_o yet_o quick_o it_o be_v unquiet_a again_o then_o i_o do_v strong_o desire_v to_o repent_v of_o my_o sin_n i_o hear_v that_o word_n that_o god_n sow_a good_a seed_n but_o evil_a seed_n be_v sow_v by_o the_o enemy_n and_o such_o be_v in_o my_o heart_n and_o as_o in_o my_o field_n there_o be_v many_o root_n and_o weed_n which_o spoil_v the_o corn_n and_o i_o pluck_v they_o up_o and_o cast_v they_o out_o my_o heart_n say_v very_o just_a so_o be_v my_o heart_n the_o word_n be_v but_o a_o little_a in_o my_o heart_n and_o there_o be_v many_o ill_a root_n in_o i_o and_o therefore_o god_n may_v just_o cast_v i_o out_o from_o among_o his_o people_n because_o of_o my_o many_o sin_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v and_o now_o i_o forsake_v my_o sin_n who_o have_v be_v a_o great_a sinner_n now_o i_o beg_v of_o christ_n o_o give_v i_o thy_o spirit_n that_o i_o may_v confess_v my_o sin_n before_o god_n and_o not_o only_o before_o man_n again_o i_o remember_v that_o i_o can_v pardon_v or_o help_v myself_o but_o only_o christ_n must_v help_v i_o again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n all_o manner_n of_o sin_n shall_v be_v forgive_v to_o a_o man_n but_o the_o sin_n against_o the_o holy_a ghost_n shall_v not_o be_v forgive_v in_o this_o world_n nor_o in_o the_o world_n to_o come_v then_o my_o heart_n fear_v because_o many_o and_o great_a be_v my_o sin_n since_o i_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n for_o mercy_n and_o pardon_n and_o then_o i_o think_v i_o will_v pray_v to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v but_o very_o i_o be_o a_o sinner_n for_o i_o be_o guilty_a not_o only_o of_o adam_n sin_n but_o of_o my_o own_o sin_n also_o and_o they_o be_v many_o i_o remember_v that_o in_o catechism_n i_o learn_v that_o god_n make_v a_o covenant_n of_o work_n with_o adam_n do_v the_o command_n and_o thou_o shall_v live_v and_o thy_o seed_n also_o but_o if_o thou_o sin_v thou_o shall_v die_v and_o thy_o seed_n also_o therefore_o by_o that_o i_o know_v i_o be_o a_o sinner_n and_o have_v deserve_v to_o die_v then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n o_o god_n have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o and_o pardon_v i_o again_o i_o hear_v of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n but_o i_o be_o forgetful_a and_o can_v remember_v god_n mercy_n to_o i_o god_n make_v a_o covenant_n with_o abraham_n and_o say_v i_o will_v be_v thy_o god_n and_o the_o god_n of_o thy_o seed_n after_o thou_o than_o my_o heart_n say_v o_o let_v it_o be_v so_o to_o i_o o_o lord_n and_o now_o abraham_n be_v in_o heaven_n who_o believe_v and_o keep_v god_n covenant_n so_o i_o if_o i_o believe_v and_o keep_v god_n covenant_n god_n will_v have_v mercy_n on_o i_o i_o remember_v the_o covenant_n of_o circumcision_n to_o he_o and_o all_o his_o family_n and_o such_o a_o covenant_n i_o desire_v for_o i_o and_o i_o again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o in_o those_o day_n john_n baptise_v in_o jordan_n say_v repent_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n be_v at_o hand_n when_o i_o hear_v this_o my_o heart_n say_v the_o same_o be_v now_o with_o we_o not_o abraham_n sign_n but_o baptism_n and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o repent_v and_o confess_v before_o god_n and_o before_o the_o church_n and_o i_o desire_v not_o only_o to_o confess_v but_o to_o have_v repentance_n and_o faith_n that_o i_o may_v have_v grace_n mercy_n and_o pardon_n and_o such_o repentance_n as_o work_n obedience_n again_o the_o same_o word_n say_v vers._n 6._o they_o be_v baptise_v confess_v their_o sin_n so_o i_o desire_v to_o do_v i_o do_v confess_v before_o god_n and_o desire_v to_o cast_v off_o and_o forsake_v my_o sin_n and_o to_o go_v to_o christ_n the_o promise_n of_o pardon_n be_v to_o they_o that_o penitent_o believe_v and_o rest_n on_o christ_n in_o the_o same_o baptism_n of_o john_n he_o say_v i_o baptise_v you_o with_o water_n but_o he_o that_o come_v after_o i_o be_v mighty_a than_o i_o he_o shall_v baptise_v you_o with_o the_o holy_a ghost_n and_o fire_n now_o this_o baptism_n i_o desire_v and_o not_o to_o receive_v the_o sign_n in_o vain_a i_o desire_v to_o purge_v out_o evil_a thought_n and_o therefore_o i_o confess_v these_o sin_n before_o god_n that_o they_o may_v be_v purge_v and_o i_o desire_v the_o spirit_n of_o god_n may_v dwell_v in_o i_o for_o ever_o to_o turn_v i_o to_o christ_n i_o can_v of_o myself_o do_v any_o of_o these_o thing_n but_o only_o christ_n jesus_n can_v by_o his_o spirit_n in_o i_o again_o i_o hear_v another_o word_n as_o the_o eagle_n be_v about_o a_o carcase_n so_o believer_n come_v to_o christ_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v so_o be_v it_o oh_o lord_n when_o i_o receive_v the_o covenant_n of_o god_n i_o be_o like_o the_o eagle_n when_o i_o come_v to_o christ_n i_o desire_v not_o to_o come_v in_o vain_a but_o if_o i_o feed_v not_o i_o shall_v die_v my_o soul_n will_v die_v then_o i_o great_o beg_v that_o i_o may_v feed_v my_o soul_n on_o christ_n and_o oh_o christ_n send_v thy_o spirit_n into_o my_o heart_n that_o i_o may_v not_o only_o know_v but_o do_v the_o word_n of_o god_n again_o christ_n near_o his_o death_n take_v bread_n and_o bless_v it_o and_o break_v it_o and_o give_v it_o to_o his_o disciple_n and_o say_v take_v you_o eat_v you_o this_o be_v my_o body_n which_o be_v break_v for_o you_o and_o so_o also_o he_o do_v the_o cup_n and_o say_v drink_v you_o of_o it_o this_o be_v the_o cup_n of_o my_o blood_n in_o the_o new_a testament_n which_o be_v shed_v for_o the_o remission_n of_o sin_n now_o this_o believer_n in_o christ_n must_v do_v not_o only_o to_o eat_v bread_n and_o to_o take_v the_o sign_n but_o soul_n food_n therefore_o christ_n send_v his_o spirit_n and_o help_v i_o i_o desire_v to_o receive_v the_o sign_n not_o in_o vain_a but_o to_o help_v my_o faith_n when_o i_o have_v read_v this_o confession_n in_o the_o assembly_n we_o call_v upon_o the_o witness_n as_o before_o we_o do_v who_o answer_n be_v to_o the_o like_a purpose_n as_o before_o wutasakompavin_n he_o be_v next_o call_v forth_o who_o thus_o speak_v help_v i_o oh_o jesus_n christ_n to_o confess_v before_o the_o lord_n oh_o i_o be_o full_a of_o sin_n because_o adam_n sin_n make_v i_o and_o so_o be_v a_o sinner_n in_o my_o mother_n womb_n when_o i_o be_v a_o youth_n i_o find_v many_o sin_n and_o after_o i_o be_v grow_v up_o i_o do_v the_o same_o always_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n i_o live_v in_o sin_n after_o the_o english_a come_v i_o go_v to_o their_o house_n they_o will_v teach_v i_o about_o god_n but_o i_o hate_v it_o and_o go_v out_o i_o do_v not_o love_v such_o teach_n afterward_o the_o minister_n teach_v and_o at_o first_o waban_n persuade_v i_o to_o pray_v and_o teach_v we_o i_o do_v not_o at_o first_o like_o it_o yet_o afterward_o i_o do_v four_o year_n the_o minister_n come_v to_o noonantam_n i_o come_v but_o i_o only_o come_v i_o lose_v all_o he_o teach_v after_o i_o consider_v one_o word_n the_o minister_n say_v that_o god_n send_v he_o to_o teach_v we_o then_o i_o think_v sure_o there_o be_v a_o god_n therefore_o i_o must_v believe_v and_o pray_v a_o little_a i_o believe_v but_o when_o i_o hear_v i_o do_v only_o outward_o hear_v after_o my_o wife_n and_o child_n die_v and_o then_o i_o almost_o cast_v off_o pray_v i_o have_v another_o wife_n and_o she_o die_v also_o
say_v not_o i_o will_v pray_v hereafter_o but_o now_o today_o if_o you_o will_v hear_v his_o voice_n harden_v not_o your_o heart_n but_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o that_o make_v my_o heart_n to_o yield_v to_o do_v it_o then_o i_o understand_v gen._n 2._o that_o god_n form_v man_n out_o of_o the_o dust_n of_o the_o earth_n and_o breathe_v into_o he_o a_o live_a soul_n by_o this_o i_o do_v believe_v that_o god_n make_v i_o and_o i_o hear_v that_o god_n cause_v adam_n to_o sleep_v and_o take_v out_o a_o rib_n and_o make_v it_o a_o woman_n and_o by_o this_o i_o believe_v that_o sure_o this_o be_v the_o work_n of_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o we_o be_v bear_v in_o sin_n under_o the_o guilt_n of_o adam_n sin_n and_o by_o that_o i_o believe_v that_o i_o be_v a_o sinner_n again_o i_o hear_v gen._n 6._o that_o all_o the_o thought_n and_o imagination_n of_o the_o heart_n of_o man_n be_v only_o evil_a continual_o and_o that_o god_n do_v threaten_v to_o destroy_v man_n who_o he_o have_v make_v and_o all_o beast_n and_o live_a creature_n which_o he_o have_v make_v and_o by_o this_o i_o see_v that_o sure_o sin_n be_v a_o very_a great_a evil_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o noah_n find_v grace_n and_o he_o only_o be_v upright_o before_o god_n and_o that_o god_n drown_v all_o the_o world_n except_o noah_n and_o his_o son_n and_o their_o wife_n eight_o person_n this_o do_v make_v i_o remember_v my_o sin_n and_o confess_v they_o and_o i_o see_v that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o sin_n it_o rain_v forty_o day_n and_o so_o drown_v all_o the_o world_n then_o i_o say_v sure_o this_o be_v god_n work_n and_o he_o do_v as_o he_o threaten_v to_o do_v to_o sinner_n and_o the_o same_o may_v god_n do_v to_o i_o who_o be_o a_o sinner_n and_o my_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n and_o evil_a thought_n etc._n etc._n and_o then_o i_o pray_v oh_o god_n be_v not_o angry_a with_o i_o but_o be_v merciful_a to_o i_o and_o show_v i_o what_o i_o shall_v do_v then_o i_o consider_v why_o do_v god_n bid_v noah_n make_v a_o ark_n and_o save_v noah_n and_o his_o son_n and_o their_o wife_n and_o by_o it_o my_o heart_n see_v that_o this_o be_v god_n work_n who_o do_v what_o he_o speak_v and_o have_v mercy_n on_o who_o he_o will_v and_o my_o heart_n think_v do_v god_n pardon_v i_o and_o love_v i_o it_o may_v be_v god_n will_v have_v mercy_n on_o i_o i_o hear_v that_o promise_n mat._n 3._o repent_v and_o believe_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n be_v at_o hand_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v oh_o that_o god_n will_v help_v i_o and_o pardon_v my_o sin_n and_o god_n make_v i_o wonder_v at_o god_n mercy_n to_o i_o i_o hear_v of_o sodom_n and_o their_o great_a sin_n and_o destruction_n and_o that_o do_v make_v i_o to_o remember_v my_o great_a sin_n and_o the_o great_a work_n of_o god_n that_o he_o have_v almost_o kill_v i_o oh_o i_o think_v this_o be_v god_n work_n to_o show_v i_o my_o sin_n and_o as_o god_n save_v lot_n by_o the_o angel_n and_o send_v he_o out_o of_o the_o place_n but_o burn_v sodom_n and_o all_o the_o people_n this_o i_o see_v to_o be_v god_n work_n and_o now_o i_o desire_v to_o fear_v god_n and_o pray_v unto_o he_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o the_o axe_n be_v lay_v to_o the_o root_n of_o the_o tree_n every_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v hew_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n then_o i_o fear_v my_o own_o case_n because_o my_o fruit_n be_v sin_n and_o i_o deserve_v to_o be_v cut_v down_o then_o i_o desire_v to_o believe_v in_o christ_n i_o do_v believe_v that_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n by_o that_o word_n matth._n 4._o satan_n tempt_v christ_n if_o thou_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n etc._n etc._n but_o christ_n conquer_v satan_n and_o therefore_o assure_o he_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n then_o i_o consider_v that_o place_n mat._n 11._o many_o come_v to_o christ_n the_o halt_n and_o blind_a and_o lame_a and_o deaf_a and_o sick_a and_o he_o heal_v all_o and_o if_o they_o do_v but_o touch_n christ_n they_o be_v heal_v and_o therefore_o my_o heart_n believe_v assure_o he_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o therefore_o now_o i_o will_v pray_v and_o oh_o let_v christ_n save_v i_o and_o christ_n have_v promise_v whatever_o you_o ask_v in_o my_o name_n it_o shall_v be_v do_v therefore_o now_o i_o pray_v oh_o christ_n jesus_n pardon_v i_o but_o my_o heart_n be_v weak_a and_o doubt_a and_o i_o can_v believe_v and_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n that_o every_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v cut_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n then_o i_o say_v i_o deserve_v that_o again_o that_o word_n not_o every_o one_o that_o say_v lord_n lord_n but_o he_o that_o hear_v the_o word_n and_o do_v it_o assure_o it_o be_v so_o and_o i_o desire_v not_o only_o to_o hear_v the_o word_n but_o to_o do_v it_o then_o my_o heart_n be_v ashamed_a of_o my_o sin_n and_o grieve_v i_o hear_v that_o word_n matth._n 6._o bless_a be_v thou_o simon_n bar-ionah_n flesh_n and_o blood_n have_v not_o reveal_v this_o unto_o thou_o but_o my_o heavenly_a father_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v yea_o lord_n no_o man_n have_v teach_v i_o christ_n only_a god_n have_v teach_v my_o heart_n to_o know_v christ_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 1._o he_o will_v save_v his_o people_n from_o their_o sin_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v be_v it_o so_o to_o i_o oh_o lord_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o christ_n rise_v again_o the_o three_o day_n with_o a_o earthquake_n and_o the_o watchman_n be_v afraid_a and_o flee_v then_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_o this_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o whosoever_o believe_v in_o christ_n his_o soul_n shall_v go_v to_o heaven_n for_o again_o i_o hear_v of_o the_o ascension_n of_o christ_n and_o more_o than_o five_o hundred_o see_v he_o ascend_v and_o therefore_o i_o believe_v this_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o in_o john_n 14._o no_o man_n come_v unto_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o my_o heart_n answer_v yea_o assure_o oh_o lord_n christ_n be_v the_o way_n to_o believe_v in_o and_o come_v to_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o mat._n 25._o christ_n say_v to_o the_o wicked_a depart_v you_o curse_v i_o say_v god_n may_v just_o say_v so_o to_o i_o and_o send_v i_o to_o eternal_a death_n but_o i_o earnest_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o god_n set_v i_o into_o the_o right_a way_n and_o give_v i_o christ_n that_o i_o may_v ever_o walk_v with_o christ_n for_o i_o be_o poor_a and_o weak_a and_o christ_n promise_v that_o what_o we_o ask_v he_o will_v grant_v and_o i_o say_v let_v god_n do_v with_o i_o what_o he_o will_v but_o i_o beg_v mercy_n in_o christ_n only_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v john_n speen_n this_o i_o confess_v that_o i_o assure_o be_o a_o great_a sinner_n before_o the_o lord_n but_o now_o i_o beseech_v god_n to_o help_v i_o oh_o christ_n lead_v i_o in_o the_o right_a way_n that_o i_o may_v speak_v that_o which_o be_v right_a this_o i_o 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because_o i_o thus_o sin_n and_o still_o my_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n all_o my_o thought_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n all_o my_o talk_n and_o do_n be_v sinful_a but_o now_o of_o late_a about_o 2_o year_n ago_o i_o hear_v this_o word_n mat._n 12._o when_o the_o unclean_a spirit_n be_v cast_v out_o he_o go_v up_o and_o down_o unquiet_a then_o he_o return_v and_o take_v 7_o devil_n with_o he_o worse_o
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love_v but_o afterward_o i_o begin_v to_o think_v it_o may_v be_v they_o say_v true_a that_o speak_v of_o god_n it_o may_v be_v it_o be_v true_a that_o god_n be_v in_o heaven_n and_o shall_v any_o teach_v i_o in_o my_o language_n i_o may_v know_v god_n but_o if_o i_o shall_v pray_v it_o may_v be_v it_o be_v in_o vain_a to_o pray_v in_o my_o language_n can_v i_o speak_v english_a i_o may_v learn_v to_o pray_v and_o i_o see_v the_o english_a love_n we_o and_o therefore_o it_o be_v like_o that_o be_v true_a which_o they_o say_v of_o god_n and_o i_o desire_v to_o live_v for_o ever_o where_o they_o do_v when_o i_o first_o hear_v the_o word_n it_o say_v god_n be_v good_a a_o little_a i_o believe_v it_o but_o i_o do_v more_o doubt_n mr_n jackson_n ask_v i_o if_o i_o do_v pray_v to_o god_n i_o ask_v he_o whether_o god_n understand_v our_o language_n if_o i_o pray_v to_o he_o he_o say_v yea_o all_o thing_n god_n do_v know_v and_o all_o language_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v it_o may_v be_v i_o 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outward_o but_o my_o heart_n have_v contrary_a and_o misbelieve_a thought_n daily_o and_o my_o heart_n do_v not_o daily_o desire_v after_o god_n and_o but_o a_o little_a can_v i_o remember_v of_o god_n sometime_o my_o heart_n desire_v not_o to_o be_v like_o to_o such_o as_o pray_v aright_o unto_o god_n therefore_o i_o desire_v the_o image_n of_o god_n upon_o i_o and_o that_o i_o may_v be_v like_o to_o they_o which_o pray_v to_o god_n aright_o always_o i_o think_v that_o what_o god_n say_v in_o his_o word_n be_v right_a i_o hear_v this_o word_n the_o fox_n have_v hole_n and_o the_o bird_n have_v nest_n but_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v not_o where_o to_o lay_v his_o head_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v truth_n lord_n the_o riches_n of_o this_o world_n be_v of_o no_o value_n and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v not_o this_o world_n good_n but_o only_o heavenly_a blessing_n and_o grace_n and_o i_o desire_v the_o way_n to_o the_o heavenly_a kingdom_n and_o always_o my_o heart_n say_v touch_v my_o poverty_n and_o misery_n i_o give_v myself_o and_o my_o soul_n to_o god_n and_o to_o christ_n because_o that_o be_v right_a again_o i_o learn_v in_o the_o catechise_v q._n what_o have_v christ_n do_v for_o we_o a._o he_o die_v for_o we_o he_o be_v bury_v he_o rise_v again_o for_o we_o and_o by_o his_o resurrection_n he_o raise_v our_o soul_n unto_o grace_n and_o also_o at_o the_o last_o day_n and_o my_o heart_n say_v oh_o let_v it_o be_v so_o in_o i_o again_o it_o be_v say_v what_o else_o have_v christ_n do_v for_o we_o a._o he_o ascend_v to_o heaven_n to_o raise_v our_o heart_n first_o to_o heaven_n and_o then_o to_o carry_v we_o to_o heaven_n also_o to_o be_v with_o he_o for_o ever_o my_o heart_n say_v oh_o god_n i_o be_o not_o able_a to_o save_v myself_o i_o can_v save_v my_o own_o soul_n this_o be_v only_o thy_o work_n oh_o god_n and_o my_o heart_n believe_v it_o and_o with_o god_n be_v mercy_n and_o goodness_n but_o in_o this_o world_n be_v nothing_o but_o weariness_n and_o i_o know_v my_o weakness_n therefore_o i_o be_o ashamed_a and_o oh_o let_v god_n put_v grace_n into_o my_o heart_n and_o my_o heart_n say_v oh_o let_v i_o not_o say_v in_o vain_a that_o i_o believe_v oh_o lord_n help_v that_o i_o may_v true_o believe_v not_o by_o my_o work_n but_o by_o thy_o word_n oh_o god_n again_o it_o be_v say_v in_o catechism_n why_o be_v
say_v the_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v cut_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n my_o heart_n say_v sure_o so_o be_v my_o heart_n and_o i_o have_v deserve_v to_o be_v cast_v into_o the_o fire_n i_o have_v bring_v forth_o such_o fruit_n as_o may_v just_o cut_v i_o down_o again_o i_o hear_v the_o word_n of_o christ_n he_o that_o hear_v the_o word_n and_o do_v it_o shall_v be_v bless_v then_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o have_v deserve_v not_o to_o be_v pardon_v but_o i_o beg_v for_o mercy_n again_o the_o word_n say_v this_o be_v my_o belove_a son_n in_o who_o i_o be_o well_o please_v my_o heart_n say_v sure_a god_n be_v merciful_a to_o send_v his_o own_o son_n and_o christ_n be_v merciful_a that_o he_o come_v and_o die_v for_o we_o again_o i_o hear_v that_o the_o tempter_n come_v to_o christ_n and_o say_v if_o thou_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n make_v these_o stone_n bread_n but_o christ_n say_v man_n live_v not_o by_o bread_n only_o but_o by_o every_o word_n which_o come_v out_o of_o the_o mouth_n of_o god_n then_o i_o believe_v that_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o that_o my_o soul_n live_v not_o by_o bread_n but_o by_o the_o word_n of_o god_n again_o mat._n 8._o the_o leper_n come_v to_o christ_n and_o say_v lord_n if_o thou_o will_v thou_o can_v make_v i_o whole_a and_o jesus_n touch_v he_o and_o he_o be_v heal_v then_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o he_o only_o can_v heal_v my_o sin_n again_o i_o hear_v in_o mat._n 6._o if_o you_o forgive_v one_o another_o god_n forgive_v you_o then_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o desire_v to_o do_v this_o else_o god_n will_v be_v angry_a with_o i_o again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 9_o all_o disease_a come_v to_o christ_n the_o blind_a halt_v etc._o etc._o and_o he_o heal_v they_o therefore_o i_o believe_v that_o he_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o i_o beg_v of_o christ_n to_o pardon_v my_o sin_n and_o save_v i_o because_o sure_o he_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o god_n again_o the_o word_n say_v not_o every_o one_o that_o say_v lord_n lord_n shall_v enter_v into_o the_o kingdom_n but_o he_o that_o do_v the_o will_n of_o my_o father_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o do_v fear_n because_o i_o do_v very_o weak_o obey_v the_o word_n of_o god_n and_o therefore_o christ_n say_v depart_v you_o worker_n of_o iniquity_n my_o heart_n say_v such_o a_o one_o be_o i_o but_o now_o i_o cry_v to_o and_o trust_v to_o christ_n to_o pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 11._o that_o christ_n say_v capernaum_n be_v lift_v up_o to_o heaven_n by_o the_o gospel_n but_o shall_v be_v cast_v down_o to_o hell_n for_o refuse_v it_o i_o think_v i_o do_v now_o pray_v iâ—_z i_o now_o fall_v off_o i_o shall_v perish_v and_o again_o christ_n say_v it_o shall_v be_v easy_o for_o tyre_n and_o sidon_n in_o that_o day_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o have_v deserve_v the_o worst_a of_o god_n wrath_n for_o i_o believe_v not_o the_o great_a work_n of_o god_n and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v pardon_n of_o all_o my_o sin_n and_o to_o forsake_v all_o my_o sin_n and_o to_o pray_v to_o christ_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 5._o that_o heaven_n and_o earth_n shall_v pass_v away_o but_o not_o one_o jot_n or_o tittle_n of_o the_o word_n of_o god_n but_o all_o shall_v be_v fulfil_v therefore_o my_o heart_n do_v desire_v that_o i_o may_v both_o hear_v and_o do_v the_o word_n of_o god_n which_o will_v never_o perish_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 16_o christ_n say_v who_o say_v you_o that_o i_o be_o peter_n say_v thou_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o the_o live_a god_n christ_n say_v bless_a art_n thou_o peter_n flesh_n and_o blood_n have_v not_o reveal_v this_o to_o thou_o but_o my_o father_n and_o on_o this_o rock_n i_o will_v build_v my_o church_n and_o the_o gate_n of_o hell_n shall_v not_o prevail_v against_o it_o therefore_o my_o heart_n believe_v that_o god_n help_v i_o to_o receive_v christ_n and_o i_o desire_v to_o take_v that_o promise_n to_o peter_n and_o my_o heart_n joy_v more_o and_o more_o in_o christ_n and_o in_o the_o word_n of_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 26._o jesus_n take_v bread_n and_o bless_v it_o and_o break_v it_o and_o give_v it_o and_o say_v take_v eat_v this_o be_v my_o body_n which_o be_v break_v for_o you_o and_o likewise_o the_o cup_n etc._n etc._n say_v this_o be_v my_o blood_n in_o the_o new_a testament_n which_o be_v shed_v for_o remission_n of_o sin_n etc._n etc._n my_o heart_n say_v sure_a christ_n be_v full_a of_o love_n and_o have_v give_v we_o great_a mercy_n and_o i_o desire_v to_o partake_v of_o it_o again_o the_o wicked_a do_v kill_v christ_n but_o he_o rise_v again_o and_o ascend_v to_o heaven_n then_o my_o heart_n believe_v christ_n again_o i_o hear_v john_n 14._o no_o man_n come_v to_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o my_o heart_n say_v so_o be_v it_o lord_n i_o desire_v to_o come_v to_o god_n by_o christ_n and_o i_o say_v why_o do_v the_o wicked_a kill_v christ_n 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