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that_o the_o man_n of_o blood_n that_o be_v man_n very_o wicked_a and_o cruel_a shall_v not_o live_v half_a their_o day_n and_o sometime_o he_o shorten_v they_o for_o sin_n that_o seem_v but_o light_n 19_o 3._o reg._n 13_o 19_o as_o it_o happen_v to_o the_o prophet_n who_o be_v beguile_v by_o another_o do_v eat_v in_o the_o place_n where_o god_n have_v command_v he_o that_o he_o shall_v not_o eat_v out_o of_o all_o this_o i_o will_v extract_v a_o firm_a resolution_n so_o to_o order_v the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n that_o god_n shorten_v they_o not_o for_o my_o sin_n say_v with_o david_n 25._o psal_n 101_o 25._o call_v i_o not_o back_o o_o lord_n in_o the_o half_a of_o my_o day_n by_o a_o sudden_a death_n but_o remember_v that_o thy_o year_n be_v eternal_a and_o have_v compassion_n of_o i_o that_o be_v few_o the_o second_o point_n the_o second_o property_n of_o death_n be_v that_o concern_v the_o day_n place_n &_o manner_n it_o be_v most_o secret_o hide_v from_o all_o man_n &_o manifest_v only_o to_o god_n 1._o in_o the_o which_o i_o will_v ponder_v first_o that_o we_o be_v not_o able_a to_o know_v the_o day_n nor_o the_o hour_n wherein_o we_o be_v to_o die_v neither_o the_o place_n nor_o the_o occasion_n nor_o sea_n on_o wherein_o death_n may_v attach_v we_o nor_o the_o manner_n how_o we_o be_v to_o die_v whither_o its_o hall_n be_v with_o a_o natural_a death_n by_o sickness_n &_o by_o what_o kind_n of_o sickness_n or_o whither_o it_o shall_v be_v with_o a_o violent_a death_n by_o fire_n or_o water_n by_o the_o hand_n of_o man_n or_o by_o beast_n or_o by_o some_o lightning_n or_o by_o the_o tile_n of_o a_o houset_n hat_n may_v fall_v down_o upon_o us._n this_o only_a we_o know_v that_o death_n shall_v come_v sudden_o or_o sickness_n and_o the_o occasion_n thereof_o and_o that_o when_o a_o man_n be_v most_o careless_a 16.15_o luo._n 12.39_o 1._o ad_fw-la thes_n 5.2_o apoc._n 16.15_o it_o come_v like_o a_o thief_n in_o the_o night_n to_o scale_v his_o house_n and_o rob_v he_o of_o his_o wealth_n so_o say_v christ_n our_o lord_n shall_v the_o son_n of_o man_n come_v to_o scale_v your_o house_n which_o be_v the_o body_n and_o to_o rob_v and_o sack_v the_o soul_n of_o it_o and_o to_o give_v judgement_n thereof_o 2._o second_o i_o will_v consider_v what_o end_n our_o lord_n have_v in_o this_o plot_n of_o his_o providence_n that_o be_v to_o say_v to_o oblige_v we_o to_o be_v always_o watchful_a 9.2_o eccles_n 9.2_o fear_v this_o hour_n provide_v ourselves_o for_o it_o do_v penance_n for_o our_o sin_n before_o death_n seize_v upon_o we_o and_o make_v haste_n to_o merit_n 12.35_o joan._n 12.35_o and_o to_o labour_v before_o our_o light_n be_v end_v lest_o the_o candle_n die_v sudden_o and_o we_o remain_v in_o the_o dark_a this_o christ_n our_o lord_n conclude_v in_o his_o parable_n concern_v this_o matter_n sometime_o he_o say_v 12.40_o matt._n 25_o 13._o matt._n 24_o 42._o luc._n 12.40_o vigilate_n qnia_fw-la nescitis_fw-la diem_fw-la noque_fw-la horam_fw-la watch_v daily_o and_o hourly_o because_o you_o know_v not_o the_o day_n nor_o the_o hour_n of_o your_o death_n other_o sometime_o he_o say_v watch_v because_o you_o know_v not_o what_o hour_n your_o lord_n will_v come_v and_o be_v you_o ready_o for_o at_o what_o hour_n you_o think_v not_o the_o son_n of_o man_n will_v come_v with_o these_o word_n i_o will_v often_o exhort_v myself_o say_v gird_v thy_o body_n with_o the_o mortification_n of_o thy_o vice_n and_o passion_n and_o take_v in_o thy_o hand_n the_o burn_a torch_n of_o virtue_n and_o good_a work_n and_o be_v always_o watchful_a expect_v the_o come_n of_o christ_n for_o he_o shall_v come_v when_o thou_o jest_n think_v of_o it_o and_o that_o hour_n wherein_o thou_o be_v most_o forgetful_a shall_v be_v peradventure_o the_o hour_n that_o he_o have_v assign_v and_o if_o he_o find_v thou_o not_o well_o provide_v thou_o will_v be_v miserable_o deceive_v 3._o three_o i_o will_v ponder_v that_o all_o sudden_a unexpected_a death_n that_o 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as_o these_o perish_v then_o if_o this_o be_v truth_n as_o indeed_o it_o be_v why_o do_v not_o i_o tremble_v to_o live_v one_o hour_n in_o mortal_a sin_n in_o what_o sort_n soever_o it_o be_v who_o can_v secure_v i_o that_o the_o punishment_n shall_v not_o fall_v upon_o i_o that_o i_o so_o just_o have_v deserve_v who_o have_v except_v i_o from_o this_o general_a threaten_n that_o christ_n our_o god_n menace_v to_o all_o sinner_n 24._o eccles_n 30_o 24._o o_o miserable_a sinner_n be_v merciful_a to_o thy_o own_o soul_n and_o endeavour_n to_o appease_v god_n with_o penance_n before_o so_o horrible_a misery_n light_v sudden_o upon_o thou_o the_o three_o point_n the_o three_o property_n of_o death_n be_v that_o it_o happen_v but_o once_o according_a to_o that_o of_o the_o apostle_n s_o paul_n 9.27_o ad_fw-la heb._n 9.27_o statutum_n est_fw-la omnibus_fw-la hominibus_fw-la semel_fw-la mori_fw-la it_o be_v appoint_v to_o all_o man_n to_o die_v once_o whereupon_o it_o ensue_v that_o the_o 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on_o the_o one_o side_n to_o be_v astonish_v at_o myself_o that_o believe_v this_o with_o such_o certainty_n of_o faith_n i_o do_v yet_o live_v so_o careless_a of_o my_o salvation_n and_o so_o forgetful_a in_o a_o matter_n that_o so_o much_o import_v i_o and_o on_o the_o other_o side_n to_o animate_v myself_o to_o procure_v with_o great_a speed_n penance_n and_o amendment_n of_o life_n and_o fervency_n therein_o humble_o beseech_v our_o lord_n to_o cut_v the_o tree_n of_o my_o life_n in_o such_o time_n &_o place_n and_o in_o such_o a_o occasion_n that_o it_o may_v not_o fall_v to_o the_o side_n of_o hell_n but_o of_o heaven_n and_o with_o all_o i_o will_v
we_o be_v in_o o_o who_o beguile_v thou_o and_o bring_v thou_o unto_o we_o final_o the_o soul_n shall_v be_v strip_v naked_a of_o those_o moral_n 7._o d._n th._n in_o addit_fw-la q._n 98._o be_v 1._o ad_fw-la 3._o ibid._n art_n 7._o and_o politic_a virtue_n which_o it_o acquire_v in_o this_o life_n it_o shall_v remain_v without_o prudence_n or_o fortitude_n or_o justice_n or_o any_o other_o and_o if_o any_o science_n be_v leave_v it_o that_o it_o get_v with_o its_o industry_n it_o shall_v be_v to_o its_o great_a pain_n for_o not_o have_v negotiate_v therewith_o the_o science_n that_o may_v have_v redeem_v it_o from_o all_o this_o misery_n in_o this_o manner_n shall_v be_v accomplish_v therein_o that_o dreadefull_a sentence_n of_o holy_a job_n colloquy_n job._n 20.14_o colloquy_n his_o bread_n in_o his_o belly_n shall_v be_v turn_v into_o the_o gall_n of_o asp_n the_o riches_n which_o he_o have_v devour_v he_o shall_v vomit_v out_o and_o god_n shall_v draw_v they_o forth_o out_o of_o his_o belly_n o_o my_o soul_n look_v that_o thou_o do_v not_o vomit_v with_o thy_o will_n the_o riches_n of_o grace_n and_o charity_n that_o thou_o receive_v for_o afterward_n they_o will_v make_v thou_o vomit_v perforce_o faith_n and_o the_o virtue_n that_o thou_o have_v gain_v and_o those_o science_n which_o now_o thou_o gain_v with_o delight_n shall_v turn_v into_o the_o gall_n of_o aspicke_n to_o torment_v thou_o these_o be_v the_o principal_a fruit_n which_o out_o of_o these_o consideration_n i_o be_o to_o collect_v endeavour_v to_o negotiate_v with_o those_o talent_n that_o god_n have_v give_v i_o 26._o matt._n 25_o 26._o jest_n at_o the_o reckon_a day_n god_n take_v they_o from_o i_o as_o from_o the_o slothefull_a servant_n leave_v i_o only_o those_o which_o like_a aspicke_n &_o dragon_n shall_v most_o cruel_o gnaw_v my_o heart_n because_o i_o proffit_v myself_o so_o evil_o with_o they_o the_o five_o point_n 1._o fiftly_o i_o be_o to_o consider_v the_o final_a sentence_n which_o in_o that_o very_a instant_a of_o death_n christ_n our_o lord_n pronounce_v against_o the_o sinner_n intimate_v it_o unto_o he_o with_o a_o interior_a and_o terrible_a voice_n say_v to_o he_o alone_o the_o same_o word_n that_o he_o will_v afterwards_o say_v to_o all_o the_o wicked_a in_o the_o general_n judgement_n 41._o matt._n 25_o 41._o depart_v from_o i_o thou_o accurse_a of_o my_o father_n into_o that_o eternal_a fire_n that_o be_v prepare_v for_o satan_n and_o his_o angel_n that_o be_v to_o say_v get_v thou_o from_o hence_o abominable_a sinner_n that_o merit_v not_o to_o stand_v in_o my_o presence_n nor_o to_o enter_v into_o my_o glory_n go_v into_o eternal_a fire_n which_o thy_o sin_n do_v deserve_v in_o company_n of_o satan_n to_o who_o infernal_a power_n i_o remit_v thou_o that_o he_o may_v carry_v thou_o with_o he_o 2._o this_o sentence_n be_v give_v in_o the_o very_a same_o instant_a god_n forsake_v the_o soul_n and_o the_o angel_n guardian_n abandon_v it_o say_v to_o it_o as_o to_o babylon_n 51.9_o jerem._n 51.9_o i_o do_v enough_o to_o cure_v thou_o labour_v thy_o salvation_n and_o thou_o will_v not_o therefore_o i_o leave_v thou_o to_o the_o power_n of_o he_o who_o shall_v take_v that_o vengeance_n of_o thou_o which_o thy_o rebellion_n deserve_v and_o in_o the_o very_a same_o moment_n the_o devil_n shall_v attach_v the_o wretched_a soul_n without_o either_o admit_v or_o hear_v supplication_n or_o prayer_n and_o carry_v it_o into_o hell_n so_o that_o the_o sinner_n in_o the_o twinkle_n of_o a_o eye_n from_o his_o bed_n where_o he_o lie_v very_o delicate_o inviron_v with_o many_o friend_n and_o kinsman_n 21.23_o job._n 21.23_o die_v as_o job_n saithe_v in_o a_o moment_n with_o a_o death_n to_o appearance_n happy_a and_o peaceable_a but_o in_o the_o very_a same_o moment_n he_o descend_v to_o hell_n pass_v from_o one_o extreme_a of_o temporal_a good_a to_o another_o extreme_a of_o eternal_a evil_n o_o what_o will_v the_o unhappy_a soul_n feel_v in_o that_o first_o entrance_n into_o hell_n when_o it_o see_v what_o it_o leave_v and_o what_o it_o find_v 14.11_o isai_n 14.11_o when_o it_o see_v and_o feel_v a_o bed_n of_o fire_n the_o matress_n of_o worm_n the_o company_n of_o devil_n and_o all_o the_o rest_n of_o torment_n from_o which_o she_o have_v no_o hope_n ever_o to_o escape_v o_o just_a judge_n have_v mercy_n upon_o i_o colloquy_n colloquy_n et_fw-la cum_fw-la veneris_fw-la judicare_fw-la noli_fw-la i_o condemnare_fw-la and_o when_o thou_o come_v to_o judge_n do_v not_o condemn_v i_o o_o my_o soul_n fear_v this_o sentence_n of_o eternal_a damnation_n and_o live_v in_o such_o sort_n that_o thou_o may_v meritte_v to_o be_v deliver_v from_o it_o the_o sixth_o point_n sixth_o i_o be_o to_o consider_v the_o sentence_n that_o shall_v be_v give_v to_o the_o just_a christ_n our_o redeemer_n say_v invisible_o to_o he_o with_o a_o amiable_a voice_n 21._o matt._n 25_o 34._o matt._n 25_o 21._o come_v thou_o bless_v of_o my_o father_n possess_v the_o kingdom_n prepare_v for_o thou_o from_o the_o foundation_n of_o the_o world_n well_o fare_v thou_o good_a and_o faithful_a servant_n because_o thou_o have_v be_v faithful_a over_o a_o few_o thing_n i_o will_v place_v thou_o over_o many_o thing_n enter_v into_o the_o joy_n of_o thy_o lord_n and_o at_o that_o very_a instant_a the_o devil_n depart_v affront_v and_o the_o angel_n guardian_n receive_v the_o soul_n other_o angel_n as_o they_o come_v to_o the_o soul_n of_o poor_a lazarus_n come_v to_o accompanye_n it_o 16.22_o luc._n 16.22_o and_o all_o with_o great_a joy_n carry_v it_o to_o heaven_n to_o enjoy_v that_o eternal_a good_a when_o it_o have_v nothing_o to_o be_v purge_v in_o purgatory_n o_o what_o joy_n shall_v the_o soul_n have_v in_o that_o her_o first_o and_o so_o much_o desire_v entrance_n that_o which_o be_v before_o full_a of_o dolour_n humble_v with_o contempt_n and_o trouble_v with_o fear_n in_o a_o moment_n shall_v see_v herself_o far_o otherwise_o all_o her_o pain_n turn_v into_o glory_n and_o her_o mourning_n into_o rejoice_v in_o the_o company_n of_o angel_n in_o a_o place_n of_o repose_n and_o ingulf_v in_o the_o view_n of_o she_o god_n 2._o these_o thing_n consider_v i_o will_v make_v comparison_n between_o the_o good_a and_o the_o evil_a and_o i_o shall_v see_v as_o david_n saithe_v the_o death_n of_o the_o wicked_a most_o vile_a 15._o psal_n 33.22_o psal_n 115_o 15._o and_o abominable_a the_o end_n of_o their_o rest_n and_o begin_v of_o their_o torment_n and_o contrary_o the_o end_n of_o the_o good_a be_v precious_a in_o the_o sight_n of_o god_n the_o end_n of_o their_o labour_n and_o beginning_n of_o their_o rest_n and_o herewith_o i_o will_v animate_v myself_o to_o procure_v a_o good_a death_n wherein_o i_o may_v receive_v a_o good_a sentence_n encourage_v myself_o to_o penance_n and_o to_o the_o exercize_n of_o virtue_n trust_v in_o the_o benignity_n of_o the_o judge_n who_o will_v sentence_v i_o with_o mercy_n if_o in_o my_o life_n i_o make_v profit_n thereof_o 3._o i_o will_v conclude_v with_o a_o speech_n to_o the_o most_o bless_a virgin_n who_o at_o that_o hour_n interpose_v not_o herself_o in_o this_o judgement_n for_o when_o the_o soul_n depart_v the_o body_n the_o door_n of_o intercession_n and_o pardon_n be_v lock_v up_o and_o that_o of_o rigorous_a justice_n be_v open_v beseech_v she_o that_o now_o present_o she_o willbee_n my_o aduocatrice_n &_o intercessor_n negotiate_v for_o i_o this_o good_a sentence_n and_o obtain_v for_o i_o work_v worthy_a thereof_o to_o which_o end_n it_o will_v aid_v i_o to_o say_v with_o spirit_n those_o last_o word_n which_o the_o church_n put_v in_o the_o prayer_n of_o the_o aue_fw-la maria_n and_o those_o which_o it_o use_v in_o another_o hymn_n say_v maria_fw-la mater_fw-la gratiae_fw-la mater_fw-la misericordiae_fw-la tu_fw-la nos_fw-la ab_fw-la host_n protege_n &_o hora_n mortis_fw-la suscipe_fw-la marry_o mother_n of_o grace_n mother_n of_o mercy_n defend_v we_o from_o the_o enemy_n and_o at_o the_o hour_n of_o death_n receive_v us._n o_o sovereign_a virgin_n see_v thou_o be_v the_o aduocatrice_n of_o sinner_n be_v my_o aduocatrice_n before_o thy_o son_n appease_v with_o thy_o intercession_n his_o wrath_n obtain_v for_o i_o time_n of_o true_a repentance_n before_o the_o time_n be_v past_a wherein_o i_o may_v do_v it_o and_o see_v the_o sentence_n give_v in_o death_n be_v irrevocable_a negotiate_v for_o i_o o_o most_o benign_a mother_n that_o it_o may_v be_v favourable_a towards_o i_o that_o i_o may_v see_v the_o bless_a fruit_n of_o thy_o womb_n jesus_n and_o enjoy_v he_o in_o thy_o company_n world_n without_o end_n amen_n to_o the_o intention_n of_o this_o meditation_n be_v much_o to_o the_o purpose_n that_o which_o in_o the_o three_o part_n shall_v
be_v ignorant_a what_o shall_v become_v of_o thou_o to_o morrow_n for_o thy_o life_n be_v as_o a_o vapour_n which_o soon_o vanish_v away_o therefore_o it_o be_v fit_a thou_o shall_v say_v if_o our_o lord_n will_v and_o if_o i_o shall_v live_v i_o will_v do_v this_o or_o that_o for_o otherwise_o thou_o shall_v find_v thyself_o deceive_v if_o god_n have_v determine_v the_o contrary_n the_o second_o deceit_n be_v to_o promise_v to_o myself_o not_o only_o long_a life_n but_o also_o to_o assure_v myseffe_n that_o i_o shall_v have_v health_n strength_n and_o content_a with_o all_o the_o good_n that_o i_o possess_v and_o that_o they_o also_o shall_v last_v as_o long_o as_o i_o from_o whence_o it_o proceed_v that_o hereupon_o i_o exhort_v my_o soul_n say_v requiesce_v comede_fw-la bibe_fw-la &_o epulare_fw-la take_v thy_o rest_n eat_v drink_n and_o make_v good_a cheer_n give_v thyself_o to_o banquet_v and_o pleasure_n for_o thou_o shall_v want_v nothing_o and_o this_o be_v a_o most_o grievous_a illusion_n for_o all_o this_o depend_v upon_o god_n who_o can_v take_v from_o i_o my_o good_n before_o my_o life_n be_v end_v and_o though_o he_o take_v not_o away_o they_o 5.18_o eccles_n 5.18_o he_o may_v as_o ecclesiaste_n say_v take_v from_o i_o my_o health_n and_o strength_n that_o i_o may_v not_o enjoy_v they_o the_o three_o deceit_n be_v to_o forget_v to_o provide_v what_o be_v necessary_a for_o the_o other_o life_n as_o if_o there_o be_v no_o more_o but_o this_o present_a and_o this_o be_v the_o most_o qualify_v folly_n of_o this_o scotfree_a man_n that_o have_v provide_v his_o soul_n of_o so_o much_o wealth_n to_o pass_v this_o temporal_a life_n he_o be_v alltogither_o oblivious_a to_o provide_v it_o of_o those_o necessary_a good_n for_o life_n everlasting_a for_o the_o which_o it_o must_v needs_o be_v that_o the_o unhappy_a soul_n that_o in_o this_o miserable_a life_n do_v eat_v drink_n and_o banquet_n must_v afterwards_o endure_v perpetual_a hunger_n and_o thirst_v and_o eternal_a misery_n ponder_v these_o three_o deceit_n i_o will_v examine_v if_o my_o soul_n be_v beguile_v with_o they_o and_o will_v exhort_v she_o contrary_o to_o this_o scotfree_a man_n say_v unto_o she_o o_o my_o soul_n promise_v not_o to_o thyself_o many_o year_n colloquy_n colloquy_n for_o peradventure_o thou_o shall_v not_o live_v out_o this_o present_a glory_n not_o of_o to_o morrow_v for_o thou_o know_a not_o what_o the_o day_n that_o be_v to_o come_v shall_v bring_v forth_o give_v not_o thyself_o to_o rest_n but_o to_o labour_v not_o to_o feast_n and_o banquet_n but_o to_o fast_v and_o tear_n 9.5_o prover._n 27.1_o eccles_n 9.5_o have_v a_o care_n of_o eternal_a life_n which_o attend_v thou_o for_o after_o death_n there_o be_v no_o mean_n to_o meritte_v any_o durable_a rest_n or_o satiety_n o_o eternal_a god_n deliver_v i_o of_o thy_o infinite_a goodness_n from_o these_o miserable_a deceit_n before_o death_n seize_v upon_o i_o in_o they_o exhort_v thou_o my_o soul_n to_o work_n that_o be_v please_v unto_o thou_o that_o this_o day_n it_o may_v more_o and_o more_o separate_v itself_o from_o all_o such_o thing_n as_o offend_v thou_o amen_n the_o second_o point_n second_o i_o be_o to_o consider_v the_o great_a loss_n they_o suffer_v in_o death_n that_o have_v be_v thus_o beguile_v all_o their_o life_n draw_v they_o from_o the_o word_n of_o our_o lord_n god_n to_o this_o scotfree_a man_n stulte_fw-la hac_fw-la nocte_fw-la animam_fw-la tuam_fw-la repetent_fw-la à _fw-la te_fw-la &_o quae_fw-la parasti_fw-la cvius_fw-la erunt_fw-la thou_o fool_n this_o night_n they_o require_v they_o soul_n of_o thou_o and_o the_o good_n that_o thou_o have_v scrape_v together_o who_o shall_v they_o be_v wherein_o be_v touch_v four_o grievous_a loss_n 33.22_o psal_n 33.22_o for_o the_o which_o king_n david_n have_v great_a reason_n to_o say_v that_o the_o death_n of_o sinner_n be_v very_o evil_a 1._o stulte_fw-la stulte_fw-la the_o first_o loss_n be_v to_o die_v in_o his_o very_a folly_n without_o fall_v into_o a_o reckon_n thereof_o till_o it_o be_v past_a remedy_n for_o late_o or_o early_o both_o good_a and_o evil_a shall_v come_v to_o perceive_v their_o error_n but_o in_o a_o different_a manner_n for_o the_o wicked_a continue_v in_o their_o error_n until_o death_n and_o then_o with_o the_o experience_n of_o their_o torment_n and_o misery_n they_o fall_v into_o a_o reckon_n how_o much_o in_o their_o life_n time_n they_o be_v beguile_v 5_o sap._n 5_o call_v themselves_o insensati_fw-la man_n without_o wit_n or_o judgement_n but_o the_o good_a in_o their_o life-time_n perceive_v their_o error_n by_o the_o light_n of_o faith_n &_o prepare_v themselves_o for_o death_n before_o death_n seize_v upon_o they_o therefore_o o_o my_o soul_n to_o perceive_v thy_o own_o error_n take_v for_o thy_o mistress_n this_o divine_a light_n if_o thou_o will_v not_o have_v the_o experience_n of_o eternal_a misery_n to_o be_v thy_o mistress_n and_o beware_v by_o other_o man_n danger_n before_o this_o loss_n light_n upon_o thou_o with_o thy_o own_o 2._o nocte_fw-la hac_fw-la nocte_fw-la the_o second_o loss_n be_v to_o die_v in_o the_o night_n that_o be_v by_o a_o sudden_a and_o hasty_a death_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o their_o crime_n for_o oftentimes_o when_o man_n be_v healthefull_a &_o content_v as_o this_o scotfree_a man_n be_v god_n intimate_v unto_o they_o the_o sentence_n of_o death_n and_o execute_v it_o with_o all_o pass_v from_o a_o temporal_a night_n to_o a_o eternal_a 8.12_o matth._n 8.12_o &_o from_o the_o interior_a darkness_n of_o the_o heart_n to_o the_o exterior_a of_o hell_n with_o this_o fear_n i_o will_v ask_v very_o earnest_o of_o our_o lord_n that_o he_o will_v in_o such_o manner_n advise_v i_o of_o the_o peril_n of_o my_o death_n that_o i_o may_v have_v time_n to_o dispose_v myself_o thereunto_o 20.1_o isai_n 38.1_o 4._o reg._n 20.1_o as_o he_o advise_v king_n ezechias_n by_o the_o mean_n of_o the_o prophet_n isaias_n say_v unto_o he_o order_v thy_o house_n for_o thou_o shall_v die_v but_o to_o this_o end_n i_o be_o not_o to_o expect_v revelation_n from_o heaven_n but_o my_o prophet_n isaias_n must_v be_v the_o light_n of_o faith_n and_o of_o reason_n the_o inspiration_n of_o god_n the_o experience_n of_o the_o death_n of_o other_o the_o grievous_a sickness_n that_o assail_v i_o and_o the_o advice_n of_o the_o physician_n when_o he_o tell_v i_o i_o be_o in_o danger_n and_o general_o see_v i_o have_v no_o certain_a day_n of_o life_n and_o every_o day_n i_o may_v expect_v death_n it_o be_v wisdom_n to_o imagine_v that_o god_n say_v this_o day_n unto_o i_o order_n to_o day_n thy_o soul_n for_o to_o morrow_n thou_o shall_v die_v &_o to_o do_v it_o present_o 3._o the_o three_o loss_n be_v to_o die_v by_o force_n repetent_fw-la repetent_fw-la and_o with_o violence_n require_v and_o pull_v out_o their_o soul_n in_o despite_n of_o they_o wherein_o i_o will_v ponder_v the_o difference_n between_o the_o just_a 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all_o thing_n of_o this_o life_n that_o there_o may_v be_v no_o need_n to_o pull_v from_o i_o my_o soul_n perforce_o require_v it_o of_o i_o when_o thou_o will_v for_o i_o be_o ready_a and_o willing_a to_o give_v it_o unto_o thou_o in_o what_o day_n soever_o thou_o require_v it_o the_o three_o point_n 1._o three_o i_o be_o to_o consider_v the_o dreadefullnesse_n of_o that_o terrible_a question_n that_o god_n our_o lord_n make_v the_o thing_n that_o thou_o have_v provide_v who_o shall_v they_o be_v wherein_o be_v represent_v the_o final_a losle_n of_o those_o who_o as_o have_v be_v say_v live_v forgetful_a of_o death_n which_o be_v sudden_o and_o with_o great_a grief_n to_o leave_v the_o good_n which_o they_o possess_v without_o enjoy_v they_o or_o dispose_v of_o they_o or_o know_v to_o who_o they_o shall_v come_v
hell_n and_o the_o fuel_n of_o those_o eternal_a fire_n whereupon-saieth_a s._n resurrect_a serm._n the_o resurrect_a bernard_n let_v self_n will_v cease_v and_o there_o shall_v be_v no_o hell_n for_o if_o self_n will_v cease_v there_o shallbeâ—_n 〈◊〉_d sin_n and_o then_o what_o need_n be_v there_o of_o hell_n and_o beside_o this_o if_o there_o be_v any_o hell_n in_o this_o life_n our_o own_o will_n be_v a_o hell_n to_o itself_o for_o all_o the_o misery_n of_o this_o life_n so_o far_o be_v the_o cause_n of_o extreme_a affliction_n and_o heaviness_n as_o they_o be_v contrary_a to_o our_o own_o will_n which_o if_o it_o cease_v by_o our_o conform_v ourselves_o to_o god_n will_v that_o which_o be_v hell_n be_v turn_v into_o purgatory_n and_o into_o augmentation_n of_o meritte_v and_o of_o crown_v in_o heaven_n whereupon_o say_v s._n 8._o lib._n 1._o de_fw-fr vocatione_n gentium_fw-la ca._n 8._o ambrose_n our_o own_o will_n be_v blind_a in_o desire_n puff_v up_o in_o honour_n full_a of_o anguish_n in_o care_n and_o unquiet_a in_o suspicion_n more_o careful_a of_o glory_n they_o of_o virtue_n a_o great_a lover_n of_o fame_n then_o of_o a_o good_a conscience_n and_o much_o more_o miserable_a enjoy_n the_o thing_n that_o it_o love_v than_o when_o it_o want_v they_o for_o her_o experience_n augment_v her_o misery_n out_o of_o all_o this_o i_o will_v conclude_v how_o great_a my_o misery_n have_v be_v in_o have_v subject_v myself_o to_o my_o own_o will_n contrary_a to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n bewail_v my_o blindness_n and_o purpose_v firm_o to_o abhor_v it_o and_o to_o deny_v it_o 6.38_o joan._n 6.38_o in_o imitation_n of_o our_o lord_n christ_n who_o descend_v from_o heaven_n not_o to_o accomplish_v his_o own_o will_n but_o the_o will_n of_o he_o that_o send_v he_o and_o be_v in_o the_o heaviness_n and_o agony_n of_o death_n he_o say_v to_o his_o father_n not_o my_o will_n be_v do_v but_o thou_o o_o sovereign_a master_n i_o confess_v that_o i_o be_o not_o worthy_a to_o 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fly_v heavynesse_n and_o joy_n hope_v and_o despair_v fear_v and_o audacitye_n and_o anger_n all_o which_o for_o the_o most_o part_n i_o apply_v unto_o evil_n with_o great_a disorder_n for_o i_o love_v that_o which_o i_o ought_v to_o abhor_v and_o i_o abhor_v that_o which_o i_o ought_v to_o love_v i_o desire_n that_o which_o i_o ought_v to_o fly_v and_o i_o fly_v that_o which_o i_o ought_v to_o desire_n i_o rejoice_v in_o that_o for_o which_o i_o ought_v to_o be_v sorrowful_a and_o i_o be_o sorry_a for_o that_o wherein_o i_o ought_v to_o rejoice_v from_o whence_o grievous_a sin_n do_v arise_v for_o the_o appetite_n with_o these_o affection_n solicit_v the_o will_n and_o carry_v it_o after_o they_o that_o with_o they_o it_o may_v give_v its_o consent_n 3_o hereupon_o it_o be_v that_o these_o passion_n be_v the_o arm_n and_o snare_n of_o the_o devil_n to_o combatte_n we_o 4._o d._n amb._n lib._n 1._o offic_n ca._n 4._o and_o to_o entangle_v we_o in_o great_a sin_n for_o in_o see_v any_o passion_n rise_v up_o they_o be_v joyful_a to_o see_v it_o and_o present_o make_v use_n thereof_o to_o frame_v their_o temptation_n so_o that_o i_o myself_o give_v unto_o my_o enemy_n the_o principal_a arm_n wherewith_o he_o do_v combatte_a persecute_v and_o destroy_v i_o beside_o this_o these_o passion_n be_v my_o torturer_n and_o tormentor_n for_o they_o make_v war_n within_o i_o against_o the_o poor_a spirit_n molest_v i_o to_o make_v i_o will_n 7.15_o ad_fw-la rom._n 7.15_o what_o i_o will_v not_o to_o do_v according_a to_o the_o desire_n of_o my_o flesh_n and_o so_o likewise_o they_o be_v one_o contrary_a to_o another_o for_o the_o passion_n of_o delight_n make_v i_o desire_a that_o which_o the_o desire_n of_o honour_n abhor_v and_o the_o desire_n of_o honour_n that_o which_o the_o passion_n of_o avarice_n fly_v for_o as_o the_o wiseman_n saithe_v i_o always_o will_v 13.4_o prou._n 13.4_o and_o i_o will_v not_o i_o will_v virtue_n because_o it_o be_v good_a and_o i_o will_v it_o not_o because_o it_o be_v laborious_a i_o will_v vice_n because_o it_o be_v delectable_a and_o i_o will_v it_o not_o because_o it_o be_v dishonest_a and_o these_o willing_n and_o nilling_n of_o my_o passion_n 7.24_o colloquy_n job._n 7.20_o ad_fw-la rom._n 7.24_o be_v the_o tormentor_n of_o my_o miserable_a heart_n o_o with_o what_o great_a reason_n may_v i_o lament_v i_o to_o myself_o say_v to_o our_o lord_n why_o have_v thou_o make_v i_o so_o contrary_a unto_o thou_o and_o how_o be_o i_o so_o heavy_a &_o troublesome_a to_o myself_o unhappy_a man_n that_o i_o be_o who_o shall_v deliver_v i_o from_o the_o body_n of_o this_o death_n let_v thy_o grace_n o_o lord_n favour_v i_o to_o deliver_v i_o from_o so_o great_a a_o misery_n from_o this_o consideration_n i_o be_o to_o draw_v a_o very_a resolute_a determination_n to_o gither_o with_o my_o own_o will_n to_o mortify_v these_o passion_n for_o this_o give_v life_n to_o my_o passion_n and_o my_o passion_n give_v life_n unto_o it_o &_o 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which_o the_o holy_a father_n and_o spiritual_a master_n do_v very_o earnest_o recommend_v unto_o us._n that_o form_n of_o make_v this_o examination_n which_o be_v teach_v we_o in_o five_o point_n by_o our_o glorious_a father_n ignatius_n be_v the_o most_o profitable_a of_o all_o that_o i_o have_v see_v for_o that_o it_o contain_v a_o most_o excellent_a form_n of_o prayer_n for_o all_o sort_n of_o person_n for_o the_o understanding_n whereof_o alij_fw-la d._n bern._n &_o alij_fw-la i_o brief_o advertise_v that_o every_o day_n we_o do_v new_o charge_v ourselves_o with_o two_o debt_n to_o our_o lord_n although_o very_o different_a and_o for_o very_a diverse_n respect_n the_o first_o debt_n be_v for_o the_o innumerable_a benefit_n we_o receive_v of_o he_o the_o second_o for_o the_o
innumerable_a sin_n we_o commite_v against_o he_o the_o first_o be_v pay_v with_o thanks_n give_v the_o second_o with_o dolour_n and_o it_o be_v reason_n that_o in_o the_o end_n of_o every_o day_n we_o shall_v pay_v they_o both_o beginning_n with_o the_o first_o debt_n aswell_o because_o it_o dispose_v to_o pay_v well_o the_o second_o as_o also_o because_o as_o saint_n basile_n say_v when_o we_o go_v to_o prayer_n 2._o de_fw-fr constitutionibus_fw-la monasti_fw-la cis_fw-la c._n 2._o we_o be_v not_o all_o way_n to_o enter_v beg_v by_o and_o by_o for_o our_o own_o profit_n for_o therein_o it_o seem_v we_o give_v to_o understand_v that_o we_o seek_v therein_o principal_o our_o own_o interest_n but_o sometime_o we_o must_v begin_v with_o the_o praise_n of_o god_n give_v he_o thanks_n for_o the_o favour_n he_o have_v do_v we_o for_o hereby_o we_o give_v to_o understand_v that_o we_o principal_o seek_v the_o glory_n of_o god_n and_o that_o we_o esteem_v it_o more_o than_o all_o other_o thing_n 17._o 2.2_o q._n 83._o art_n 17._o the_o same_o thanksgiving_n also_o will_v serve_v we_o as_o s._n thomas_n saithe_v for_o a_o pretext_n to_o obtain_v our_o petition_n for_o god_n willing_o give_v we_o what_o we_o ask_v he_o when_o he_o see_v that_o we_o be_v thankful_a unto_o he_o for_o what_o he_o have_v give_v us._n 3_o beside_o this_o because_o i_o be_o to_o stir_v up_o the_o stink_a sink_n of_o my_o sin_n lest_o they_o shall_v cause_v i_o such_o despair_n 48.9_o serm._n 11_o ju_n cantic_a cap._n 48.9_o and_o heaviness_n as_o shall_v swallow_v and_o consume_v i_o it_o be_v good_a as_o s._n bernard_n say_v to_o prevent_v i_o with_o the_o remembrance_n of_o god_n benefit_n praise_v he_o for_o they_o take_v as_o isaias_n say_v this_o bridle_n of_o praise_n which_o he_o put_v in_o my_o mouth_n that_o i_o be_v not_o throw_v down_o headlong_o and_o perish_v and_o all_o beeit_n it_o be_v truth_n as_o s._n 6._o in_o speculo_fw-la disciplinae_fw-la p._n 2._o cap._n 6._o bonaventure_n saithe_v that_o it_o be_v not_o always_o necessary_a to_o observe_v this_o order_n in_o the_o begin_n of_o prayer_n yet_o in_o this_o present_a exercise_n it_o come_v much_o to_o the_o purpose_n for_o the_o reason_n declare_v the_o first_o point_n the_o first_o point_n shall_v be_v brief_o to_o call_v to_o memory_n the_o benefit_n i_o have_v receive_v of_o our_o lord_n as_o well_o general_a as_o special_a and_o particular_o those_o that_o this_o very_a day_n he_o have_v do_v i_o give_v he_o very_o hearty_a thanks_n for_o they_o all_o acknowleding_n how_o great_a they_o be_v aswell_o for_o the_o greatness_n of_o he_o that_o bestow_v they_o with_o so_o great_a love_n as_o for_o the_o baseness_n of_o he_o that_o receive_v they_o without_o merit_v they_o and_o reckon_v they_o one_o by_o one_o i_o may_v say_v i_o geve_v thou_o thanks_n o_o my_o god_n for_o that_o thou_o creat_v i_o of_o nothing_o and_o have_v unto_o this_o day_n preserve_v my_o life_n i_o thank_v thou_o for_o that_o thou_o redeem_v do_v i_o with_o thy_o precious_a blood_n and_o make_v i_o a_o christian_n and_o a_o member_n of_o thy_o chruche_n bless_a be_v thou_o for_o that_o thou_o have_v this_o present_a day_n feed_v i_o and_o clothe_v i_o and_o deliver_v i_o from_o great_a peril_n of_o body_n and_o soul_n and_o give_v i_o many_o good_a inspiration_n aid_v i_o to_o fulfil_v some_o work_n of_o obligation_n etc._n etc._n all_o the_o good_a that_o be_v in_o i_o be_v thou_o and_o to_o thou_o belong_v the_o glory_n thereof_o and_o for_o it_o all_o the_o thanks_n that_o i_o can_v i_o render_v unto_o thou_o with_o the_o whole_a affection_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o i_o beseech_v the_o quire_n of_o angel_n and_o all_o the_o bless_a spirit_n to_o praise_v thou_o for_o i_o and_o to_o give_v thou_o thanks_n for_o the_o favour_n thou_o have_v do_v i_o of_o this_o point_n we_o shall_v speak_v large_o in_o the_o sixth_o part_n the_o second_o point_n the_o second_o point_n shall_v be_v to_o ask_v of_o our_o lord_n with_o great_a instancy_n light_a to_o know_v my_o sin_n and_o grace_n to_o be_v contrite_a for_o they_o allege_v unto_o he_o thou_o respect_n of_o my_o great_a necessity_n and_o misery_n in_o this_o behalf_n the_o first_o be_v the_o great_a forgetfulness_n of_o my_o memory_n the_o second_o the_o great_a blindness_n of_o my_o understanding_n the_o three_o the_o great_a coldness_n of_o my_o will_n from_o whence_o it_o proceed_v that_o the_o devil_n hold_v i_o strong_o tie_v with_o a_o threefold_a cord_n of_o my_o sin_n which_o hardly_o i_o can_v break_v because_o some_o sin_n i_o forget_v with_o the_o same_o facility_n that_o i_o commit_v they_o other_o through_o ignorance_n i_o know_v not_o and_o those_o which_o i_o do_v know_v through_o my_o great_a coldness_n i_o deplore_v not_o as_o i_o ought_v therefore_o o_o my_o god_n with_o thy_o inspiration_n remedy_v my_o forgetfulness_n with_o thy_o light_n illuminate_v my_o darkness_n and_o with_o thy_o fire_n of_o love_n chaze_v away_o my_o coldness_n that_o i_o may_v know_v my_o sin_n and_o in_o such_o manner_n bewail_v they_o that_o i_o may_v obtain_v pardon_n of_o they_o the_o three_o point_n this_o petition_n be_v make_v i_o will_v lift_v my_o heart_n to_o god_n behold_v he_o as_o a_o judge_n that_o be_v to_o judge_v i_o with_o great_a rigour_n 1.12_o sophon_n 1.12_o search_v as_o sophonias_n say_v the_o corner_n of_o jerusalem_n which_o be_v my_o soul_n and_o the_o faculty_n thereof_o with_o candle_n discover_v all_o the_o fin_n that_o be_v therein_o be_v they_o never_o so_o small_a examine_v as_o david_n saithe_v not_o only_o my_o unrighteousness_n 3._o psalm_n 74_o 3._o but_o also_o my_o righteousness_n &_o good_a work_n with_o the_o which_o evil_a circumstance_n use_v to_o be_v mix_v with_o this_o consideration_n full_a of_o a_o holy_a fear_n in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n i_o will_v begin_v to_o examine_v all_o the_o sin_n which_o in_o that_o day_n i_o have_v commit_v by_o thought_n word_n and_o deed_n and_o by_o omission_n or_o negligence_n and_o i_o will_v very_o attentive_o endeavour_n to_o find_v out_o 18.13_o psalm_n 18.13_o whither_o i_o have_v any_o of_o those_o which_o david_n call_v hide_a sin_n have_v commit_v they_o through_o ignorance_n or_o culpable_a inconsiderateness_n or_o by_o the_o illusion_n and_o deceit_n of_o the_o devil_n hold_v they_o for_o work_n of_o virtue_n as_o if_o i_o shall_v hold_v for_o zeal_n that_o which_o be_v anger_n for_o this_o examination_n that_o will_v help_v much_o that_o have_v be_v say_v in_o the_o first_o point_n of_o the_o meditation_n upon_o the_o 7._o deadly_a sin_n and_o upon_o the_o commandment_n sense_n &_o faculty_n of_o the_o soul_n for_o therein_o all_o that_o may_v be_v matter_n for_o a_o very_a often_o and_o diligent_a examination_n be_v set_v down_o the_o manner_n of_o make_v this_o examination_n shall_v be_v divide_v the_o day_n into_o part_n and_o consider_v what_o i_o do_v in_o the_o two_o first_o hour_n of_o the_o day_n then_o in_o the_o other_o two_o separate_v the_o precious_a from_o the_o vile_a and_o if_o i_o find_v any_o good_a i_o will_v with_o thanks_n attribute_v it_o to_o god_n and_o the_o evil_n i_o will_v attribute_v to_o my_o corrupt_a liberty_n and_o of_o all_o together_o with_o a_o very_a deep_a shame_n and_o confession_n i_o will_v make_v a_o humble_a confession_n before_o god_n fulfil_n that_o of_o david_n i_o have_v say_v 31.5_o psalm_n 31.5_o i_o will_v confess_v to_o our_o lord_n my_o unrighteousness_n against_o miselfe_n that_o be_v to_o say_v i_o have_v determine_v to_o confess_v my_o sin_n before_o god_n not_o to_o excuse_v but_o to_o accuse_v myself_o not_o lighten_v but_o aggravate_v my_o sin_n and_o ponder_v much_o the_o injustice_n i_o do_v against_o god_n in_o commit_v they_o for_o this_o be_v the_o day_n to_o obtain_v pardon_n of_o they_o the_o four_o point_n the_o four_o point_n shall_v be_v to_o procure_v so_o great_a a_o dolour_n for_o my_o sin_n that_o it_o may_v come_v to_o be_v contrition_n sorow_v for_o they_o principal_o for_o be_v offence_n against_o god_n my_o summum_fw-la bonum_fw-la who_o i_o desire_v to_o love_v and_o do_v love_n above_o all_o thing_n for_o with_o this_o so_o perfect_a dolour_n sin_n be_v remit_v have_v a_o purpose_n in_o fit_a time_n to_o confess_v they_o as_o it_o happen_v to_o david_n himself_o who_o in_o say_v 31.5_o psalm_n 31.5_o i_o will_v confess_v my_o unrighteousness_n against_o myself_o he_o present_o add_v and_o thou_o do_v pardon_v the_o impiety_n of_o my_o sin_n 12.27_o 2._o reg._n 12.27_o and_o hardly_o have_v he_o before_o nathan_n the_o prophet_n pronounce_v this_o word_n i_o have_v sin_v against_o our_o lord_n when_o
and_o humble_o to_o subject_v i_o to_o undergo_v what_o penance_n soever_o that_o reason_n shall_v dictate_v and_o the_o confessor_n shall_v impose_v upon_o i_o and_o dolour_n as_o a_o executioner_n be_v to_o torment_v i_o break_v 4.5_o psal_n 4.5_o and_o shiver_v my_o heart_n for_o the_o offence_n i_o have_v do_v to_o my_o creator_n these_o four_o judicial_a act_n be_o â—to_z do_v within_o the_o hall_n of_o my_o heart_n quicken_a they_o with_o the_o consideration_n which_o to_o this_o end_n be_v ordain_v 43.26_o job._n 23.4_o &_o 35.14_o isai_n 43.26_o and_o much_o more_o with_o the_o remembrance_n of_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n the_o judge_n of_o the_o quick_a &_o of_o the_o dead_a who_o i_o be_o to_o behold_v seat_v in_o the_o throne_n of_o his_o majesty_n as_o in_o the_o 9_o meditation_n have_v be_v declare_v for_o that_o the_o view_n of_o this_o most_o righteous_a judge_n will_v be_v a_o cause_n to_o make_v i_o do_v it_o with_o great_a diligence_n the_o first_o point_n first_o i_o be_o to_o consider_v 2._o d._n tho._n 3._o p._n q._n 90._o act_n 2._o that_o our_o lord_n christ_n will_v that_o our_o own_o act_n shall_v be_v part_n of_o this_o sacrament_n to_o wit_n contrition_n confession_n and_o satisfaction_n which_o answer_n to_o the_o three_o sort_n of_o sin_v by_o thought_n word_n and_o deed_n that_o i_o myself_o may_v concur_v to_o the_o grace_n of_o my_o justification_n and_o that_o see_v i_o sin_v with_o my_o act_n with_o the_o same_o i_o may_v dispose_v myself_o to_o receive_v my_o pardon_n and_o now_o that_o it_o have_v be_v the_o good_a pleasure_n of_o our_o lord_n to_o ennoble_v my_o act_n make_v they_o the_o instrument_n of_o his_o grace_n it_o be_v reason_n that_o i_o shall_v exercise_v they_o with_o the_o great_a excellency_n that_o i_o may_v 23._o eccles_n 33_o 23._o labour_v as_o the_o wiseman_n saithe_v to_o be_v in_o they_o superexcellent_a require_v of_o the_o three_o person_n of_o the_o godheade_n particular_a favour_n for_o every_o one_o 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