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strength_n to_o adhere_v unto_o guard_v my_o heart_n guard_v my_o pen_n guard_v my_o voice_n and_o word_n o_o thou_o who_o lead_v the_o blind_a to_o thyself_o by_o a_o way_n which_o nature_n know_v not_o but_o thou_o know_v thy_o own_o way_n and_o know_v how_o to_o lead_v the_o thought_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o word_n of_o my_o pen_n and_o my_o mouth_n that_o my_o lip_n may_v utter_v nothing_o rash_o before_o thou_o thou_o have_v make_v a_o covenant_n of_o grace_n and_o often_o repeat_v the_o term_n of_o the_o covenant_n and_o have_v say_v i_o shall_v say_v the_o lord_n be_v my_o god_n hos_n 2._o 23._o and_o have_v record_v the_o mutual_a avouch_v between_o thou_o and_o thy_o people_n deut._n 26._o 17_o 18._o in_o express_a word_n yea_o stranger_n be_v invite_v to_o serve_v thou_o to_o love_v thy_o name_n to_o be_v thy_o servant_n and_o to_o lay_v hold_n on_o thy_o covenant_n isa_n 56._o 6._o to_o join_v themselves_o to_o thou_o and_o to_o observe_v thy_o sabbath_n and_o ordinance_n 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