as_o other_o youth_n do_v at_o all_o these_o thing_n because_o thereby_o do_v original_a sin_n grow_v in_o i_o and_o hard_o it_o be_v to_o root_v it_o out_o and_o hard_a to_o believe_v after_o this_o i_o hear_v still_o and_o more_o i_o understand_v i_o hear_v gen._n 16._o that_o the_o people_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n lust_n and_o all_o other_o sin_n and_o therefore_o the_o lord_n destroy_v they_o and_o i_o know_v that_o i_o have_v the_o same_o sin_n and_o therefore_o i_o be_v afraid_a but_o i_o fear_v only_o this_o bodily_a life_n and_o not_o for_o my_o soul_n after_o this_o my_o heart_n do_v a_o little_a desire_n to_o pray_v to_o god_n because_o god_n find_v noah_n righteous_a and_o do_v save_v he_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v but_o again_o i_o lay_v it_o by_o and_o i_o say_v it_o be_v vain_a to_o pray_v for_o if_o i_o pray_v and_o shall_v commit_v sin_n i_o shall_v be_v punish_v or_o imprison_v but_o if_o i_o pray_v not_o i_o may_v commit_v what_o sin_n i_o will_v and_o 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again_o o_o god_n pardon_v i_o for_o christ_n his_o sake_n again_o further_o i_o confess_v that_o when_o i_o be_v trouble_v about_o our_o want_n poverty_n and_o nakedness_n i_o consider_v that_o text_n fox_n have_v hole_n and_o bird_n have_v nest_n but_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v not_o whereon_o to_o lay_v his_o head_n and_o again_o mat._n 6._o the_o bird_n plough_v not_o and_o the_o flower_n spin_v not_o and_o yet_o god_n do_v both_o feed_n and_o clothe_v they_o and_o therefore_o be_v not_o overmuch_o trouble_v about_o these_o thing_n yet_o i_o desire_v to_o follow_v labour_n with_o my_o hand_n because_o gen_n 1._o god_n give_v adam_n dominion_n over_o the_o creature_n and_o command_v he_o to_o till_v the_o ground_n and_o gen._n 2._o he_o set_v he_o in_o the_o garden_n and_o command_v he_o to_o dress_v it_o and_o keep_v it_o also_o gen._n 3._o he_o say_v thou_o shall_v eat_v thy_o bread_n in_o the_o sweat_n of_o thy_o face_n all_o thy_o day_n till_o thou_o return_v to_o thy_o dust_n when_o i_o remember_v these_o thing_n my_o heart_n do_v bow_v to_o labour_v also_o i_o hear_v that_o riches_n be_v the_o root_n of_o all_o evil_a and_o dives_fw-la with_o his_o fine_a apparel_n and_o dainty_a fare_n be_v in_o hell_n and_o poor_a lazarus_n be_v in_o heaven_n when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o our_o land_n â—nd_v about_o riches_n i_o quiet_v my_o heart_n with_o these_o meditation_n also_o i_o further_o hear_v when_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v about_o salvation_n and_o doubt_v i_o hear_v that_o there_o be_v no_o mean_n of_o salvation_n but_o christ_n not_o any_o thing_n in_o the_o world_n can_v carry_v we_o to_o heaven_n only_a christ_n which_o i_o do_v believe_v by_o gen._n 28._o where_o jacob_n dream_v a_o dream_n and_o he_o see_v a_o ladder_n which_o stand_v on_o earth_n and_o the_o top_n reach_v up_o to_o heaven_n and_o that_o ladder_n be_v christ_n who_o be_v man_n and_o so_o touch_v the_o earth_n and_o god_n and_o so_o be_v in_o heaven_n and_o by_o 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brother_n eye_n again_o when_o i_o pray_v i_o find_v hypocrisy_n in_o my_o heart_n to_o do_v it_o to_o be_v see_v of_o man_n and_o that_o word_n of_o christ_n reprove_v i_o mat._n 6._o they_o pray_v to_o be_v sâ—en_v of_o man_n very_o they_o have_v their_o reward_n and_o then_o i_o cry_v mighty_o to_o god_n o_o lord_n help_v i_o pardon_v i_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 9_o the_o son_n of_o man_n have_v power_n to_o pardon_v sin_n on_o earth_n and_o therefore_o i_o o_o lord_n then_o
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because_o i_o have_v evil_a fruit_n again_o mat._n 6._o christ_n say_v be_v you_o not_o like_o hypocrite_n which_o seem_v to_o pray_v before_o man_n i_o think_v this_o be_v my_o case_n i_o do_v only_o pray_v before_o man_n but_o i_o doubt_v of_o christ_n and_o his_o grace_n again_o mat._n 5._o who_o ever_o break_v the_o least_o of_o god_n commandment_n and_o teach_v man_n so_o to_o do_v shall_v be_v least_o in_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n then_o i_o be_v trouble_v because_o i_o have_v be_v a_o active_a sinner_n in_o lust_n and_o other_o sin_n and_o i_o be_v worse_a than_o a_o beast_n in_o my_o sin_n then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o christ_n pardon_v all_o my_o great_a sin_n oh_o christ_n have_v mercy_n on_o i_o oh_o god_n remember_v i_o to_o pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n thus_o i_o cry_v and_o desire_v pardon_n but_o i_o be_v weak_a in_o believe_v but_o then_o about_o two_o year_n after_o i_o be_v great_o trouble_v about_o my_o weakness_n i_o desire_v to_o do_v well_o but_o i_o be_v weak_a then_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o god_n help_v i_o by_o thy_o spirit_n in_o i_o and_o send_v thy_o spirit_n into_o my_o heart_n sometime_o i_o read_v and_o teach_v on_o the_o sabbath_n day_n but_o weak_o then_o i_o hear_v mat._n 23._o christ_n bid_v the_o people_n do_v what_o the_o scribe_n and_o pharisee_n say_v but_o not_o do_v as_o they_o do_v i_o say_v lord_n that_o be_v my_o case_n i_o teach_v better_o than_o i_o do_v and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v repentance_n for_o my_o sin_n and_o to_o forsake_v my_o sin_n then_o mat._n 7._o christ_n say_v thou_o hypocrite_n first_o cast_v the_o beam_n out_o of_o thy_o own_o eye_n and_o then_o thou_o may_v see_v clear_o to_o cast_v the_o mote_n out_o of_o thy_o brother_n eye_n my_o heart_n say_v true_o it_o be_v so_o i_o teach_v other_o but_o i_o do_v not_o well_o myself_o i_o reprove_v sin_n and_o yet_o i_o do_v it_o then_o be_v my_o heart_n weary_a and_o i_o desire_v again_o to_o do_v well_o and_o amend_v but_o i_o find_v myself_o 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he_o then_o i_o learn_v that_o in_o john_n 6._o i_o be_o the_o true_a bread_n and_o he_o that_o eat_v i_o shall_v live_v for_o ever_o and_o he_o that_o drink_v my_o blood_n shall_v have_v life_n but_o he_o that_o do_v not_o eat_v my_o flesh_n and_o drink_v my_o blood_n shall_v not_o have_v life_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v truth_n lord_n that_o be_v my_o case_n again_o i_o learn_v john_n 3._o he_o that_o believe_v shall_v not_o perish_v but_o have_v eternal_a life_n and_o my_o heart_n say_v yea_o lord_n let_v it_o be_v so_o again_o mat._n 16._o christ_n say_v thou_o be_v peter_n a_o rock_n and_o on_o this_o rock_n i_o will_v build_v my_o church_n and_o the_o gate_n of_o hell_n shall_v not_o prevail_v against_o it_o therefore_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o desire_v this_o because_o christ_n dwell_v in_o the_o church_n and_o be_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o they_o where_o two_o or_o three_o be_v meet_v together_o in_o my_o name_n oh_a i_o do_v therefore_o desire_v church_n ordinance_n that_o i_o 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with_o the_o wicked_a sodomite_n with_o fire_n from_o heaven_n who_o have_v cast_v off_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o do_v commit_v great_a sin_n against_o god_n therefore_o i_o see_v that_o i_o have_v deserve_v to_o be_v burn_v because_o i_o have_v do_v their_o sin_n and_o when_o god_n send_v his_o angel_n and_o do_v deliver_v just_a lot_n and_o then_o the_o rest_n be_v burn_v than_o i_o see_v in_o my_o heart_n sure_a god_n be_v merciful_a to_o they_o that_o love_v he_o and_o therefore_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o will_v no_o more_o return_v to_o sin_n but_o i_o will_v follow_v god_n but_o yet_o sometime_o i_o doubt_v but_o i_o believe_v the_o mercy_n of_o god_n according_a to_o that_o i_o hear_v mat._n 1._o she_o call_v his_o name_n jesus_n for_o he_o save_v his_o people_n from_o their_o sin_n then_o my_o heart_n think_v sure_o it_o be_v true_a that_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o be_v make_v man_n and_o be_v merciful_a but_o yet_o i_o still_o do_v doubt_v whether_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o repent_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n be_v at_o hand_n and_o again_o the_o voice_n of_o one_o cry_v in_o the_o wilderness_n prepare_v you_o the_o way_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o make_v his_o path_n straight_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o desire_v to_o repent_v and_o to_o make_v ready_a my_o heart_n for_o god_n that_o i_o may_v have_v mercy_n and_o pardon_n in_o christ_n jesus_n again_o the_o word_n
with_o they_o only_o i_o still_o fear_v man_n after_o i_o hear_v the_o same_o word_n again_o to_o persuade_v we_o to_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o i_o do_v so_o but_o not_o for_o god_n sake_n only_o it_o be_v before_o man_n i_o remember_v the_o sabbath_n and_o i_o hear_v mr_n mathews_n also_o preach_v of_o it_o and_o therefore_o i_o think_v i_o will_v keep_v the_o sabbath_n but_o still_o i_o fear_v man_n upon_o a_o sabbath_n they_o wish_v i_o to_o teach_v what_o i_o remember_v that_o the_o minister_n have_v teach_v i_o do_v so_o and_o we_o have_v talk_v about_o what_o i_o say_v and_o we_o fall_v out_o thereupon_o i_o go_v away_o and_o leave_v pray_v to_o god_n i_o go_v into_o the_o country_n but_o i_o remember_v my_o wife_n and_o child_n and_o quick_o return_v but_o not_o for_o god_n sake_n again_o the_o minister_n preach_v on_o 1_o chron._n 28._o 9_o and_o thou_o solomon_n my_o son_n know_v the_o god_n of_o thy_o father_n and_o serve_v he_o with_o a_o perfect_a heart_n and_o with_o a_o willing_a mind_n for_o the_o lord_n search_v all_o heart_n and_o understand_v all_o the_o imagination_n of_o the_o thought_n if_o thou_o seek_v he_o he_o will_v be_v find_v of_o thou_o but_o if_o thou_o forsake_v he_o he_o will_v cast_v thou_o off_o for_o ever_o this_o great_o trouble_v i_o because_o i_o have_v leave_v pray_v to_o god_n and_o i_o have_v deserve_v eternal_a wrath_n then_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v i_o beg_v mercy_n but_o i_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v for_o my_o sin_n be_v many_o my_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o original_a sin_n and_o my_o heart_n be_v often_o full_a of_o anger_n but_o than_o i_o be_v angry_a at_o myself_o for_o i_o find_v my_o heart_n quick_o carry_v after_o sin_n afterward_o through_o the_o free_a mercy_n of_o god_n i_o hear_v that_o word_n he_o that_o penitent_o believe_v in_o christ_n shall_v be_v pardon_v and_o save_v then_o my_o heart_n do_v beg_v earnest_o for_o pardon_n and_o mercy_n i_o hear_v ioh._n 15._o whatever_o you_o ask_v the_o father_n in_o my_o name_n he_o will_v give_v it_o you_o therefore_o my_o heart_n do_v now_o great_o beg_v for_o mercy_n in_o christ_n and_o pardon_n afterward_o i_o hear_v mat._n 5._o 28._o who_o ever_o look_v upon_o a_o woman_n to_o lust_n after_o she_o have_v commit_v adultery_n in_o his_o heart_n then_o my_o heart_n be_v trouble_v because_o many_o be_v my_o sin_n in_o my_o eye_n and_o heart_n and_o action_n too_o my_o heart_n do_v love_v the_o have_n of_o two_o wife_n and_o other_o lust_n of_o that_o kind_n then_o satan_n say_v to_o i_o you_o be_v a_o great_a sinner_n and_o god_n will_v not_o pardon_v you_o therefore_o cast_v off_o pray_v and_o run_v away_o it_o be_v a_o vain_a thing_n for_o you_o to_o pray_v here_o you_o want_v land_n but_o in_o the_o country_n there_o be_v land_n enough_o and_o riches_n abundance_n therefore_o pray_v no_o more_o my_o heart_n do_v almost_o like_o it_o but_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat_n 4._o satan_n tempt_v christ_n and_o show_v he_o the_o kingdom_n of_o the_o world_n and_o the_o glory_n thereof_o and_o promise_v to_o give_v they_o to_o he_o if_o he_o will_v worship_v he_o then_o my_o heart_n say_v that_o even_o thus_o satan_n tempt_v i_o to_o cast_v off_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o therefore_o my_o heart_n desire_v to_o believe_v that_o word_n of_o christ_n thou_o shall_v worship_v the_o lord_n thy_o god_n and_o he_o only_o shall_v thou_o serve_v then_o i_o pray_v again_o but_o still_o i_o be_v full_a of_o sin_n and_o very_o weak_a i_o be_v and_o i_o love_v sin_n again_o i_o hear_v ioh._n 14._o i_o be_o the_o way_n the_o truth_n and_o the_o life_n no_o man_n come_v unto_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o then_o i_o full_o see_v that_o christ_n only_o be_v our_o redeemer_n and_o saviour_n and_o i_o desire_v to_o believe_v in_o christ_n and_o my_o heart_n say_v that_o nothing_o that_o i_o can_v do_v can_v save_v i_o only_a christ_n therefore_o i_o beg_v for_o christ_n and_o a_o part_n in_o he_o then_o say_v my_o heart_n i_o give_v my_o heart_n and_o myself_o to_o christ_n and_o my_o wife_n and_o child_n let_v he_o do_v with_o we_o what_o he_o will_v then_o my_o mother_n and_o two_o child_n die_v and_o my_o heart_n say_v what_o christ_n will_v do_v so_o be_v it_o i_o have_v give_v they_o to_o he_o and_o i_o beg_v pardon_n and_o mercy_n if_o god_n will_v please_v to_o pardon_v i_o a_o poor_a sinner_n bless_a be_v his_o name_n when_o i_o have_v read_v this_o confession_n in_o the_o assembly_n we_o call_v upon_o the_o witness_n as_o before_o we_o do_v who_o answer_n be_v like_o as_o before_o it_o be_v john_n speen_n he_o be_v next_o call_v forth_o and_o thus_o speak_v i_o confess_v my_o sin_n this_o day_n before_o the_o lord_n and_o not_o only_o before_o god_n but_o before_o all_o these_o people_n before_o i_o pray_v very_o i_o be_v a_o great_a sinner_n yea_o in_o my_o mother_n womb_n i_o be_v a_o sinner_n my_o sin_n be_v such_o as_o not_o only_o god_n know_v but_o people_n also_o know_v they_o before_o our_o pray_n i_o do_v thorough_o sin_n and_o do_v commit_v all_o sin_n and_o now_o i_o confess_v these_o my_o sin_n before_o god_n after_o i_o pray_v i_o do_v also_o live_v in_o sin_n at_o first_o when_o i_o pray_v i_o do_v not_o worship_n god_n nor_o believe_v in_o christ_n but_o i_o do_v therefore_o pray_v because_o my_o brother_n and_o friend_n and_o waban_n and_o the_o rest_n do_v pray_v for_o their_o sake_n i_o pray_v and_o again_o i_o therefore_o pray_v because_o many_o english_a know_v i_o that_o i_o may_v please_v they_o and_o because_o i_o see_v the_o english_a take_v much_o ground_n and_o i_o think_v if_o i_o pray_v the_o english_a will_v not_o take_v away_o my_o ground_n for_o these_o cause_n i_o pray_v when_o i_o pray_v it_o be_v but_o with_o my_o mouth_n yet_o i_o think_v i_o do_v well_o enough_o in_o that_o i_o pray_v thus_o and_o i_o think_v that_o for_o it_o god_n will_v pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n and_o i_o think_v that_o my_o pray_n be_v good_a enough_o but_o yet_o again_o i_o sin_v and_o do_v the_o like_a sin_n as_o before_o only_o i_o do_v outward_o pray_v but_o i_o mourn_v not_o for_o my_o sin_n i_o think_v if_o we_o pray_v and_o leave_v pauwave_v who_o shall_v make_v we_o well_o when_o we_o be_v sick_a but_o again_o i_o think_v man_n can_v not_o make_v we_o well_o because_o he_o must_v die_v himself_o and_o therefore_o pauwave_v be_v a_o vain_a thing_n and_o they_o die_v though_o they_o pauwau_n but_o still_o my_o heart_n do_v not_o believe_v pray_v to_o god_n then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n repent_v and_o believe_v and_o if_o we_o repent_v and_o believe_v god_n will_v pardon_v all_o our_o sin_n then_o sometime_o i_o repent_v yet_o again_o quick_o i_o commit_v sin_n and_o sometime_o i_o think_v i_o be_o thorough_o a_o sinner_n i_o hear_v that_o god_n make_v the_o world_n and_o all_o thing_n in_o it_o and_o last_o man_n and_o that_o god_n form_v he_o of_o the_o dust_n of_o the_o earth_n and_o breathe_v into_o he_o the_o breath_n of_o life_n and_o he_o become_v a_o live_a soul_n and_o that_o god_n make_v a_o covenant_n with_o adam_n that_o he_o shall_v eat_v of_o all_o the_o tree_n of_o the_o garden_n save_v one_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o the_o garden_n and_o if_o he_o eat_v of_o that_o tree_n he_o shall_v die_v then_o i_o understand_v that_o adam_n sin_v and_o fall_v and_o thereby_o i_o uneerstood_v that_o i_o become_v a_o sinner_n bear_v in_o sin_n my_o heart_n full_a of_o sin_n and_o god_n will_v not_o pardon_v sinner_n and_o yet_o again_o i_o sin_v and_o therefore_o i_o fear_v that_o god_n will_v not_o pardon_v i_o because_o more_o and_o more_o i_o sin_v and_o thus_o i_o sin_v after_o pray_v as_o well_o as_o before_o pray_v when_o they_o choose_v ruler_n and_o choose_v my_o brother_n and_o not_o i_o my_o heart_n be_v in_o a_o evil_a frame_n and_o then_o i_o think_v sure_a i_o be_o a_o great_a sinner_n and_o yet_o still_o i_o be_v more_o and_o more_o a_o sinner_n after_o my_o brother_n love_v i_o still_o and_o then_o i_o repent_v of_o my_o sin_n but_o not_o for_o god_n sake_n but_o for_o my_o brother_n sake_n then_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v my_o brother_n die_v which_o trouble_v i_o the_o people_n say_v be_v you_o in_o your_o brother_n place_n then_o my_o heart_n think_v i_o will_v no_o more_o do_v as_o i_o have_v do_v but_o sure_o i_o be_v weak_a my_o pray_n be_v but_o word_n i_o be_v a_o great_a sinner_n after_o this_o a_o while_n since_o i_o hear_v that_o
my_o heart_n do_v desire_n christ_n and_o to_o pray_v as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v and_o my_o heart_n be_v stir_v up_o thereunto_o by_o luke_n 18._o christ_n speak_v a_o parable_n that_o we_o shall_v pray_v and_o not_o be_v weary_a because_o the_o widow_n tire_v the_o unjust_a judge_n and_o make_v he_o help_v she_o how_o much_o more_o shall_v god_n the_o righteous_a judge_n hear_v and_o help_v his_o child_n that_o cry_v night_n and_o day_n therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v unto_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v then_o my_o heart_n say_v what_o shall_v i_o do_v for_o i_o be_o weak_a and_o i_o fear_v i_o shall_v perish_v then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n ioh._n 3._o god_n so_o love_v the_o world_n that_o he_o give_v his_o only_a son_n that_o whosoever_o believe_v in_o he_o shall_v not_o perish_v but_o have_v eternal_a life_n and_o again_o it_o be_v say_v that_o god_n love_v his_o son_n and_o give_v all_o thing_n into_o his_o hand_n i_o be_o weak_a and_o though_o i_o pray_v yet_o i_o be_o weak_a therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v in_o christ_n hand_n as_o in_o a_o fort_n in_o a_o fort_n we_o be_v safe_a from_o exercise_n they_o can_v easy_o catch_v we_o out_o of_o a_o fort_n we_o be_v open_a to_o they_o so_o i_o desire_v church-estate_n the_o seal_n of_o baptism_n and_o the_o lord_n supper_n and_o all_o church-ordinance_n as_o a_o fort_n unto_o my_o soul_n i_o hear_v that_o word_n of_o christ_n mat._n 16._o thou_o be_v peter_n and_o on_o this_o rock_n i_o will_v build_v my_o church_n and_o the_o gate_n of_o hell_n shall_v not_o prevail_v against_o it_o oh_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v there_o keep_v again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o god_n be_v able_a of_o these_o stone_n to_o raise_v â—p_a seed_n to_o abraham_n therefore_o raise_v up_o i_o o_o lord_n and_o again_o christ_n come_v to_o john_n to_o be_v baptise_v john_n refuse_v but_o christ_n say_v suffer_v it_o to_o be_v so_o it_o be_v necessary_a to_o fulfil_v all_o unrighteousness_n therefore_o so_o i_o desire_v to_o do_v all_o that_o be_v right_a and_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v baptise_v again_o i_o confess_v i_o fear_v i_o shall_v sin_v again_o and_o defile_v myself_o after_o i_o be_o wash_v and_o baptise_v even_o as_o the_o dog_n return_v to_o his_o vomit_n therefore_o i_o cry_v o_o god_n help_v i_o for_o thy_o free_a mercy_n sake_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o in_o mat._n 18._o where_o two_o or_o three_o be_v meet_v together_o in_o my_o name_n christ_n be_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o they_o therefore_o i_o desiâ—â—_n to_o have_v the_o ordinance_n of_o christ_n to_o be_v with_o christ_n but_o my_o heart_n say_v if_o i_o be_v bind_v by_o ordinance_n than_o i_o shall_v be_v imprison_v but_o yet_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v there_o in_o prâ—â—on_n with_o christ_n if_o my_o heart_n say_v i_o shall_v be_v as_o dead_a but_o yet_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v so_o with_o christ_n again_o i_o hear_v in_o john_n christ_n say_v who_o ever_o come_v to_o i_o i_o cast_v he_o not_o away_o but_o he_o shall_v have_v life_n but_o ioh._n 5._o christ_n do_v say_v you_o will_v not_o come_v unto_o i_o that_o you_o may_v have_v life_n therefore_o my_o heart_n do_v great_o fear_v and_o pray_v oh_o that_o i_o may_v come_v to_o christ_n and_o christ_n be_v the_o everlasting_a son_n of_o god_n therefore_o my_o soul_n desire_v to_o be_v with_o he_o and_o this_o i_o confess_v that_o though_o i_o believe_v in_o christ_n yet_o i_o be_o still_o weak_a and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v make_v strong_a by_o the_o seal_n but_o i_o fear_v i_o be_o unworthy_a because_o of_o that_o word_n mat._n 7._o cast_v not_o pearl_n before_o swine_n nor_o holy_a thing_n to_o dog_n yet_o my_o heart_n say_v o_o lord_n remember_v i_o and_o yet_o let_v i_o a_o dog_n come_v under_o thy_o table_n to_o get_v a_o crumb_n and_o i_o cry_v to_o god_n because_o of_o all_o my_o weakness_n i_o confess_v i_o can_v deliver_v or_o help_v or_o save_v myself_o only_a christ_n jesus_n can_v do_v it_o and_o let_v freegrace_n pardon_v i_o and_o save_v i_o o_o god_n have_v mercy_n on_o i_o again_o mat._n 18._o whatever_o you_o bind_v on_o earth_n be_v bind_v in_o heaven_n and_o whatever_o you_o lose_v on_o earth_n be_v loose_v in_o heaven_n therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o be_v loose_v both_o in_o earth_n and_o in_o heaven_n and_o to_o be_v seal_v with_o god_n seal_n when_o i_o have_v read_v this_o confession_n of_o his_o i_o say_v because_o the_o lord_n have_v say_v that_o in_o the_o mouth_n of_o two_o or_o three_o witness_n every_o truth_n shall_v be_v establish_v therefore_o i_o desire_v that_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o interpreter_n may_v attest_v unto_o this_o which_o i_o have_v read_v first_o mr._n peirson_n say_v so_o far_o as_o i_o discern_v i_o doubt_v not_o of_o the_o truth_n of_o what_o mr._n eliot_n have_v deliver_v and_o for_o that_o which_o he_o have_v now_o utter_v though_o some_o thing_n the_o indian_a have_v add_v more_o than_o he_o speak_v in_o private_a and_o some_o thing_n leave_v out_o and_o some_o thing_n otherwise_o 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