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as_o thou_o be_v when_o thy_o mother_n lose_v thou_o in_o the_o temple_n and_o last_o as_o thou_o be_v when_o thou_o be_v prepare_v for_o thy_o passion_n she_o have_v no_o soon_o speak_v these_o word_n but_o this_o suit_n of_o she_o be_v grant_v and_o jesus_n show_v himself_o to_o she_o punctual_o as_o she_o desire_v in_o the_o time_n of_o his_o infancy_n so_o as_o full_a of_o joy_n turn_v her_o eye_n towards_o he_o she_o begin_v to_o speak_v in_o this_o manner_n o_o here_o behold_v my_o little_a one_o in_o the_o age_n of_o three_o or_o four_o year_n o_o admirable_a thing_n thou_o be_v so_o very_o little_a and_o yet_o thou_o be_v god_n but_o thy_o littleness_n make_v i_o know_v thy_o greatness_n o_o greatness_n and_o littleness_n of_o my_o god_n i_o shall_v never_o be_v satisfy_v in_o behold_v thou_o o_o little_a and_o great_a god_n so_o beautiful_a and_o attractive_a she_o than_o see_v the_o same_o jesus_n in_o the_o state_n of_o ripe_a childhood_n and_o be_v then_o surprise_v with_o 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these_o three_o day_n of_o the_o holy_a ghost_n whereof_o she_o consume_v the_o great_a part_n in_o extasis_fw-la there_o be_v communicate_v to_o her_o many_o celestial_a secret_n and_o she_o speak_v so_o high_o of_o the_o greatness_n that_o be_v in_o god_n as_o do_v exceed_v all_o humane_a thought_n but_o i_o pass_v on_o for_o greateâ—_n brevity_n by_o her_o prayer_n she_o obteyn_v from_o god_n space_n of_o life_n for_o the_o confessarius_fw-la of_o the_o monastery_n chap._n 42._o in_o the_o year_n 1590._o the_o confessarius_fw-la of_o the_o monastery_n be_v grievous_o sick_a and_o near_o to_o death_n have_v already_o be_v anneal_v this_o servant_n of_o god_n both_o wâ—th_a sigh_n and_o tear_n dispose_v herself_o to_o pray_v our_o lord_n so_o earnest_o that_o for_o the_o spiritual_a benefit_n of_o her_o monastery_n he_o will_v prolong_v his_o life_n that_o the_o say_v confessarius_fw-la being_n age_a of_o 77._o year_n in_o â—hort_a time_n recover_v his_o force_n so_o well_o â—hat_n he_o leave_v his_o bed_n and_o at_o the_o solemnity_n of_o the_o corpus_fw-la domini_fw-la which_o be_v at_o hand_n he_o confess_v and_o communicate_v the_o religious_a to_o their_o great_a comfort_n and_o by_o â—his_n prolong_v of_o his_o life_n come_v much_o spiritual_a profit_n to_o the_o monastery_n to_o â—his_n miracle_n all_o the_o religious_a do_v give_v â—laine_a testimony_n who_o yet_o live_v &_o be_v present_a at_o the_o work_n thereof_o she_o see_v the_o soul_n of_o her_o mother_n ascend_v up_o to_o heaven_n and_o she_o also_o see_v a_o good_a priest_n who_o enjoy_v eternal_a happiness_n chap._n 43._o in_o the_o month_n of_o september_n of_o the_o same_o year_n 1590._o our_o lord_n jesus_n be_v please_v to_o refresh_v his_o belove_a spouse_n with_o a_o extreme_a consolation_n for_o the_o agonye_n which_o be_v so_o patient_o endure_v by_o she_o in_o the_o time_n of_o her_o probation_n for_o she_o be_v in_o rapt_a he_o show_v she_o the_o soul_n of_o her_o mother_n who_o 15._o day_n before_o be_v depart_v out_o of_o this_o life_n and_o so_o be_v environ_v by_o eternal_a splendour_n she_o go_v up_o to_o heaven_n accompany_v by_o her_o patron-saint_n there_o be_v give_v she_o by_o her_o mother_n three_o advice_n which_o by_o holy_a obedience_n she_o be_v enjoin_v to_o declare_v first_o that_o to_o the_o uttermost_a of_o her_o power_n she_o shall_v endeavour_v to_o profit_v in_o holy_a humility_n second_o that_o she_o shall_v be_v a_o true_a observer_n of_o obedience_n and_o three_o that_o in_o all_o thing_n she_o shall_v strive_v to_o exercise_v prudence_n have_v give_v these_o holy_a counsel_n her_o happy_a mother_n take_v herself_o out_o of_o sight_n and_o go_v to_o enjoy_v supreme_a happiness_n soon_o after_o also_o she_o see_v the_o soul_n of_o a_o venerable_a priest_n who_o for_o the_o love_n of_o god_n have_v labour_v much_o in_o spiritual_a exercise_n and_o he_o go_v to_o inhabit_v his_o celestial_a country_n be_v rich_a in_o glory_n by_o these_o mean_n 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