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into_o recollection_n place_n itself_o at_o the_o gate_n of_o divine_a mercy_n which_o be_v the_o amiable_a and_o sweet_a remembrance_n of_o the_o cross_n and_o passion_n of_o the_o word_n that_o be_v make_v man_n and_o die_v for_o love_n let_v it_o stand_v there_o with_o humility_n resign_v to_o the_o will_n of_o god_n in_o whatsoever_o it_o please_v the_o divine_a majesty_n to_o do_v with_o it_o and_o if_o from_o that_o holy_a and_o sweet_a remembrance_n it_o soon_o fall_v into_o forgetfulness_n there_o be_v no_o necessity_n of_o make_v a_o new_a repetition_n but_o to_o continue_v silent_a and_o quiet_a in_o the_o presence_n of_o the_o lord_n 127._o wonderful_o do_v st._n paul_n favour_n this_o our_o doctrine_n in_o the_o epistle_n which_o he_o write_v to_o the_o colossian_n wherein_o he_o exhort_v they_o and_o we_o that_o whether_o we_o eat_v drink_v or_o do_v any_o thing_n else_o we_o shall_v do_v it_o in_o the_o name_n and_o for_o the_o sake_n of_o jesus_n christ_n omne_fw-la 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mystical_a silence_n wherein_o god_n speak_v with_o the_o soul_n communicate_v himself_o to_o it_o and_o in_o the_o abyss_n of_o its_o own_o depth_n teach_v it_o the_o most_o perfect_a and_o exalt_a wisdom_n 129._o he_o call_v and_o guide_v it_o to_o this_o inward_a solitude_n and_o mystical_a silence_n when_o he_o say_v that_o he_o will_v speak_v to_o it_o alone_o in_o the_o most_o secret_a and_o hide_a part_n of_o the_o heart_n thou_o be_v to_o keep_v thyself_o in_o this_o mystical_a silence_n if_o thou_o will_v hear_v the_o sweet_a and_o divine_a voice_n it_o be_v not_o enough_o for_o gain_v this_o treasure_n to_o forsake_v the_o world_n nor_o to_o renounce_v thy_o own_o desire_n and_o all_o thing_n create_v if_o thou_o wean_v not_o thyself_o from_o all_o desire_n and_o thought_n rest_v in_o this_o mystical_a silence_n and_o open_v the_o door_n that_o so_o god_n may_v communicate_v himself_o unto_o thou_o unite_v with_o thou_o and_o transform_v thou_o into_o himself_o 130._o the_o perfection_n of_o the_o soul_n consist_v not_o in_o speak_v nor_o in_o think_v much_o on_o god_n but_o in_o love_v he_o sufficient_o this_o love_n be_v attain_v to_o by_o mean_n of_o perfect_a resignation_n and_o internal_a silence_n all_o consist_v in_o work_n the_o love_n of_o god_n have_v but_o few_o word_n thus_o st._n john_n the_o evangelist_n confirm_v and_o inculcate_n it_o my_o little_a child_n 18._o epist_n 1._o chap._n 3._o v._n 18._o let_v we_o not_o love_n in_o word_n neither_o in_o tongue_n but_o in_o deed_n and_o in_o truth_n 131._o thou_o be_v clear_o convince_v now_o that_o perfect_a love_n consist_v not_o in_o amorous_a act_n nor_o tender_a ejaculation_n nor_o yet_o in_o the_o internal_a act_n wherein_o thou_o tell_v god_n that_o thou_o have_v a_o infinite_a love_n for_o he_o and_o thou_o love_v he_o more_o than_o thyself_o it_o may_v be_v that_o at_o that_o time_n thou_o seek_v more_o thyself_o and_o the_o love_n of_o thyself_o than_o the_o true_a love_n of_o god_n because_o love_n consist_v in_o work_n and_o not_o in_o fair_a discourse_n 132._o that_o a_o rational_a creature_n may_v understand_v the_o secret_a desire_n and_o intention_n of_o thy_o heart_n there_o be_v a_o necessity_n that_o thou_o shall_v express_v it_o to_o he_o in_o word_n but_o god_n who_o search_v the_o heart_n stand_v not_o in_o need_n that_o thou_o shall_v make_v profession_n and_o assure_v he_o of_o it_o nor_o do_v he_o rest_v satisfy_v as_o the_o evangelist_n say_v with_o love_n in_o word_n nor_o in_o tongue_n but_o with_o that_o which_o be_v true_a and_o indeed_o what_o avail_v it_o to_o tell_v he_o with_o great_a zeal_n and_o fervour_n that_o thou_o tender_o and_o perfect_o love_v he_o above_o all_o thing_n if_o at_o one_o bitter_a word_n or_o slight_a injury_n thou_o do_v not_o resign_v thyself_o nor_o be_v mortify_v for_o the_o love_n of_o he_o a_o manifest_a proof_n that_o thy_o love_n be_v a_o love_n in_o tongue_n and_o not_o in_o deed._n 133._o strive_v to_o be_v resign_v in_o all_o thing_n with_o silence_n and_o in_o so_o do_v without_o say_v that_o thou_o love_v he_o thou_o will_v attain_v to_o the_o most_o perfect_a quiet_a effectual_a and_o true_a love_n st._n peter_n most_o affectionate_o tell_v the_o lord_n that_o for_o his_o sake_n he_o be_v ready_a willing_o to_o lay_v down_o his_o life_n but_o at_o the_o word_n of_o a_o young_a damsel_n he_o deny_v he_o and_o there_o be_v a_o end_n of_o his_o zeal_n marry_o magdalen_n say_v not_o a_o word_n and_o yet_o the_o lord_n himself_o take_v with_o her_o perfect_a love_n become_v her_o panagyrist_n say_v that_o she_o have_v love_v much_o it_o be_v internal_o then_o that_o with_o dumb_a silence_n the_o most_o perfect_a virtue_n of_o faith_n hope_n and_o charity_n be_v practise_v without_o any_o necessity_n of_o tell_v god_n that_o thou_o love_v he_o hope_v and_o believe_v in_o he_o because_o the_o lord_n know_v better_a than_o thou_o do_v what_o the_o internal_a motion_n of_o thy_o heart_n be_v 134._o how_o well_o be_v that_o pure_a act_n of_o love_n understand_v and_o practise_v by_o that_o profound_a and_o great_a mistick_n the_o venerable_a gregory_n lopez_n who_o whole_a life_n be_v a_o continual_a prayer_n and_o a_o continue_a act_n of_o contemplation_n and_o of_o so_o pure_a and_o spiritual_a love_n of_o god_n that_o it_o never_o give_v way_n to_o affection_n and_o sensible_a sentiment_n 135._o have_v for_o the_o space_n of_o three_o year_n continue_v that_o ejaculation_n thy_o will_v be_v do_v in_o time_n and_o in_o eternity_n repeat_v it_o as_o often_o as_o he_o breathe_v god_n almighty_a discover_v to_o he_o that_o infinite_a treasure_n of_o the_o pure_a and_o continue_a act_n of_o faith_n and_o love_n with_o silence_n and_o resignation_n so_o that_o he_o come_v to_o say_v that_o during_o the_o thirty_o six_o year_n he_o live_v after_o
and_o unite_v unto_o he_o with_o reverence_n humility_n and_o submission_n behold_v he_o in_o the_o most_o inward_a recess_n of_o thy_o own_o soul_n without_o form_n likeness_n manner_n or_o figure_n in_o the_o view_n and_o general_a nature_n of_o a_o love_a and_o obscure_a faith_n without_o any_o distinction_n of_o perfection_n or_o attribute_n 65._o there_o thou_o be_v to_o be_v with_o attention_n and_o a_o sincere_a regard_n with_o a_o sedate_n heedfulness_n and_o full_a of_o love_n towards_o the_o same_o lord_n resign_v and_o deliver_v thyself_o up_o into_o his_o hand_n to_o the_o end_n he_o may_v dispose_v of_o thou_o according_a to_o his_o good_a will_n and_o pleasure_n without_o reflect_v on_o thyself_o nay_o nor_o on_o perfection_n itself_o here_o thou_o be_v to_o shut_v up_o the_o sense_n trust_v god_n with_o all_o the_o care_n of_o thy_o welfare_n and_o mind_v nothing_o of_o the_o affair_n of_o this_o life_n final_o thy_o faith_n ought_v to_o be_v pure_a without_o representation_n or_o likeness_n simple_a without_o reason_v and_o universal_a without_o distinction_n 66._o the_o prayer_n of_o internal_a recollection_n may_v be_v well_o typify_v by_o that_o wrestle_a which_o the_o holy_a scripture_n say_v the_o patriarch_n jacob_n have_v all_o night_n with_o god_n until_o day_n break_v and_o he_o bless_v he_o wherefore_o the_o soul_n be_v to_o persevere_v and_o wrestle_v with_o the_o difficulty_n that_o it_o will_v find_v in_o internal_a recollection_n without_o desist_v until_o the_o son_n of_o internal_a light_n begin_v to_o appear_v and_o the_o lord_n give_v it_o his_o blessing_n 67._o no_o soon_o will_v thou_o have_v give_v thyself_o up_o to_o thy_o lord_n in_o this_o inward_a way_n but_o all_o hell_n will_v conspire_v against_o thou_o see_v one_o single_a soul_n inward_o retire_v to_o its_o own_o presence_n make_v great_a war_n against_o the_o enemy_n than_o a_o thousand_o other_o that_o walk_v external_o because_o the_o devil_n make_v a_o infinite_a advantage_n of_o a_o internal_a soul._n 68_o in_o the_o time_n of_o the_o recollection_n peace_n and_o resignation_n of_o thy_o soul_n god_n will_v more_o esteem_v the_o various_a impertinent_a troublesome_a and_o ugly_a thought_n that_o thou_o have_v than_o the_o good_a purpose_n and_o high_a sentiment_n know_v that_o the_o effort_n which_o thou_o thyself_o may_v make_v to_o resist_v thought_n be_v a_o impediment_n and_o will_v leave_v thy_o soul_n in_o great_a anxitie_n the_o best_a thing_n that_o be_v to_o be_v do_v be_v sweet_o to_o despise_v they_o to_o know_v thy_o own_o wretchedness_n and_o peaceful_o make_v a_o offer_n to_o god_n of_o the_o trouble_n 69._o though_o thou_o can_v not_o get_v rid_v off_o the_o anguish_n of_o thought_n have_v no_o light_n comfort_n nor_o spiritual_a sentiment_n yet_o be_v not_o afflict_v neither_o leave_v off_o recollection_n because_o they_o be_v the_o snare_n of_o the_o enemy_n resign_v thyself_o at_o that_o time_n with_o vigour_n endure_v with_o patience_n and_o persevere_v in_o his_o presence_n for_o while_o thou_o persevere_a after_o that_o manner_n thy_o soul_n will_v be_v internal_o emprove_v 70._o do_v thou_o believe_v that_o when_o thou_o come_v away_o from_o prayer_n dry_a in_o the_o same_o manner_n as_o thou_o begin_v it_o that_o that_o be_v because_o of_o want_n of_o preparation_n and_o that_o have_v do_v thou_o no_o good_a that_o be_v a_o fallacy_n because_o the_o fruit_n of_o true_a prayer_n consist_v not_o in_o enjoy_v the_o light_n nor_o in_o have_v knowledge_n of_o spiritual_a thing_n since_o these_o may_v be_v find_v in_o a_o speculative_a intellect_n without_o true_a virtue_n and_o perfection_n it_o only_o consist_v in_o endure_v with_o patience_n and_o persevere_v in_o faith_n and_o silence_n believe_v that_o thou_o be_v in_o the_o lord_n presence_n turn_v to_o he_o thy_o heart_n with_o tranquillity_n and_o purity_n of_o mind_n so_o while_o thou_o persevere_a in_o this_o manner_n thou_o will_v have_v the_o only_a preparation_n and_o disposition_n which_o at_o that_o time_n be_v necessary_a and_o shall_v reap_v infinite_a fruit_n 71._o war_n be_v very_o usual_a in_o this_o internal_a recollection_n which_o on_o the_o one_o hand_n will_v deprive_v thou_o of_o sensibility_n to_o try_v humble_a and_o purge_v thou_o on_o the_o other_o invisible_a enemy_n will_v assault_v thou_o with_o continual_a suggestion_n to_o trouble_v and_o disquiet_v thou_o nature_n herself_o apparent_o will_v torment_v thou_o she_o be_v always_o a_o enemy_n to_o the_o spirit_n which_o in_o deprive_v she_o of_o sensible_a pleasure_n remain_v weak_a melancholy_a and_o full_a of_o irksomeness_n so_o that_o it_o feel_v a_o hell_n in_o all_o spiritual_a exercise_n particular_o in_o that_o of_o prayer_n hence_o it_o grow_v extreme_o impatient_a to_o be_v at_o a_o end_n of_o it_o through_o the_o uneasiness_n of_o thought_n the_o lassitude_n of_o body_n importunate_a sleep_n and_o the_o not_o be_v able_a to_o curb_v the_o sense_n every_o one_o of_o which_o will_v for_o its_o own_o share_n follow_v its_o own_o pleasure_n happy_a be_v thou_o if_o thou_o can_v persevere_v amid_o this_o martyrdom_n 74._o that_o great_a doctoress_n and_o mystical_a mistress_n santa_n teresa_n confirm_v all_o this_o by_o her_o heavenly_a doctrine_n in_o the_o letter_n she_o write_v to_o the_o bishop_n of_o osmia_n to_o instruct_v he_o how_o he_o be_v to_o behave_v himself_o in_o prayer_n and_o in_o the_o variety_n of_o troublesome_a thought_n which_o attack_v we_o at_o that_o time_n where_o she_o say_v epistolary_n 8._o of_o her_o epistolary_n there_o be_v a_o necessity_n of_o suffer_v the_o trouble_n of_o a_o troop_n of_o thought_n importune_v imagination_n and_o the_o impetuosity_n of_o natural_a notion_n not_o only_o of_o the_o soul_n through_o the_o dryness_n and_o disunion_n it_o have_v but_o of_o the_o body_n also_o occasion_v by_o the_o want_n of_o submission_n to_o the_o spirit_n which_o it_o ought_v to_o have_v 73._o these_o be_v call_v dryness_n in_o spiritual_n but_o be_v very_o profitable_a if_o they_o be_v embrace_v and_o suffer_v with_o patience_n who_o so_o shall_v accustom_v himself_o to_o suffer_v they_o without_o repine_v will_v from_o that_o labour_n draw_v vast_a advantage_n it_o be_v certain_a that_o in_o recollection_n the_o devil_n frequent_o charge_v the_o soul_n more_o fierce_o with_o a_o battalion_n of_o thought_n to_o discomfit_v the_o quiet_a of_o the_o soul_n and_o alienate_v it_o from_o that_o most_o sweet_a and_o secure_a internal_a conversation_n raise_v horror_n to_o the_o end_n it_o may_v leave_v it_o off_o reduce_v it_o most_o common_o to_o such_o a_o state_n as_o if_o it_o be_v lead_v forth_o to_o a_o most_o rigorous_a torment_n 74._o the_o bird_n which_o be_v the_o devil_n know_v this_o say_v the_o saint_n in_o the_o abovecited_a letter_n prick_v and_o molest_v the_o soul_n with_o imagination_n troublesome_a thought_n and_o the_o interruption_n which_o the_o devil_n at_o that_o time_n bring_v in_o transport_v the_o thought_n distract_n it_o from_o one_o thing_n to_o another_o and_o after_o he_o have_v do_v with_o they_o attacking_z the_o heart_n and_o it_o be_v no_o small_a fruit_n of_o prayer_n patient_o to_o suffer_v these_o trouble_n and_o importunity_n that_o be_v a_o offer_v up_o of_o one_o self_n in_o a_o whole_a burn_a sacrifice_n that_o be_v to_o say_v to_o be_v whole_o consume_v in_o the_o fire_n of_o temptation_n and_o no_o part_n spare_v see_v how_o this_o heavenly_a mistress_n encourage_v to_o suffer_v and_o endure_v thought_n and_o temptation_n because_o provide_v they_o be_v not_o consent_v to_o they_o double_v the_o profit_n 75._o as_o many_o time_n as_o thou_o exercise_a thyself_o calm_o to_o reject_v these_o vain_a thought_n so_o many_o crown_n will_v the_o lord_n set_v upon_o thy_o head_n and_z and_z though_o it_o may_v seem_v to_o thou_o that_o thou_o do_v nothing_o be_v undeceive_v for_o a_o good_a desire_n with_o firmness_n and_o steadfastness_n in_o prayer_n be_v very_o please_v to_o the_o lord_n 76._o wherefore_o to_o be_v there_o conclude_v the_o saint_n without_o sensible_a profit_n be_v not_o lose_v time_n but_o of_o great_a gain_n while_o one_o toil_n without_o interest_n and_o mere_o for_o the_o glory_n of_o god_n and_o though_o it_o may_v seem_v to_o be_v toil_a in_o vain_a yet_o it_o be_v not_o so_o but_o it_o be_v as_o with_o child_n who_o toil_n and_o labour_n under_o the_o power_n of_o their_o father_n though_o in_o the_o evening_n they_o receive_v not_o the_o wage_n for_o their_o day_n work_n yet_o at_o the_o year_n end_n they_o enjoy_v all_o in_o fine_a you_o see_v how_o the_o saint_n confirm_v our_o document_n with_o her_o precious_a doctrine_n chap._n xii_o a_o sequel_n of_o the_o same_o matter_n 77._o god_n love_v not_o he_o who_o do_v most_o who_o hear_v most_o nor_o who_o show_v great_a affection_n but_o who_o suffer_v most_o if_o he_o
his_o duty_n very_o well_o by_o virtue_n of_o that_o primary_n actual_a attention_n though_o afterward_o he_o persevere_v not_o in_o keep_v his_o thought_n actual_o fix_v on_o god._n 101._o this_o the_o angelical_a doctor_n st._n thomas_n confirm_v in_o the_o follow_a word_n 1._o 2.2_o quaest_a 82._o art_n 13._o ad_fw-la 1._o that_o first_o intention_n only_o and_o think_v on_o god_n when_o one_o pray_v have_v force_n and_o valve_n enough_o to_o make_v the_o prayer_n during_o all_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o time_n it_o continue_v to_o be_v true_a impetratory_n and_o meritorious_a though_o all_o that_o while_o there_o be_v no_o actual_a contemplation_n on_o god._n see_v now_o if_o the_o saint_n can_v speak_v more_o clear_o to_o our_o purpose_n 102._o so_o that_o in_o the_o judgement_n of_o that_o saint_n the_o prayer_n still_o continue_v though_o the_o imagination_n may_v ramble_v upon_o infinite_a number_n of_o thought_n provide_v one_o consent_n not_o to_o it_o shift_v not_o place_n intermit_v not_o the_o prayer_n nor_o change_v the_o first_o intention_n of_o be_v with_o god._n and_o it_o be_v certain_a that_o he_o change_v it_o not_o while_o he_o do_v not_o leave_v his_o place_n hence_o it_o follow_v in_o sound_a doctrine_n that_o one_o may_v persevere_v in_o prayer_n though_o the_o imagination_n be_v carry_v about_o with_o various_a and_o unvoluntary_a thought_n he_o pray_v in_o spirit_n and_o truth_n say_v the_o saint_n in_o the_o forecited_n place_n whoever_o go_v to_o prayer_n with_o the_o spirit_n and_o intention_n of_o pray_v though_o afterward_o through_o misery_n and_o frailty_n his_o thought_n may_v straggle_v evagatio_fw-la vero_fw-la mentis_fw-la quae_fw-la fit_a praeter_fw-la propositum_fw-la orationis_fw-la fructum_fw-la non_fw-la tollit_fw-la 103._o but_o will_v say_v at_o least_o be_v thou_o not_o to_o remember_v when_o thou_o be_v in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o often_o say_v to_o he_o lord_z abaid_z within_o i_o and_o i_o will_v give_v myself_o whole_o up_o to_o thou_o i_o answer_v that_o there_o be_v no_o necessity_n for_o that_o see_v thou_o have_v a_o design_n to_o pray_v and_o for_o that_o end_n go_v to_o that_o place_n faith_n and_o intention_n be_v sufficient_a and_o these_o always_o continue_v nay_o the_o more_o simple_a that_o remembrance_n be_v without_o word_n or_o thought_n the_o more_o pure_a spiritual_a internal_a and_o worthy_a of_o god_n it_o be_v 104._o will_v it_o not_o be_v impertinent_a and_o disrespectful_a if_o be_v in_o the_o presence_n of_o a_o king_n thou_o shall_v ever_o now_o and_o then_o say_v to_o he_o sir_n i_o believe_v your_o majesty_n be_v here_o it_o be_v the_o very_a same_o thing_n by_o the_o eye_n of_o pure_a faith_n the_o soul_n see_v god_n believe_v in_o he_o and_o be_v in_o his_o presence_n and_o so_o when_o the_o soul_n believe_v it_o have_v no_o need_n to_o say_v my_o god_n thou_o be_v here_o but_o to_o believe_v as_o it_o do_v believe_v see_v when_o prayer-time_n be_v comeâ—_n faith_n and_o intention_n guide_v and_o conduct_v it_o to_o contemplate_v god_n by_o mean_n of_o pure_a faith_n and_o perfect_a resignation_n 105._o so_o that_o so_o long_o as_o thou_o retract_v not_o that_o faith_n and_o intention_n of_o be_v resign_v thou_o walk_v always_o in_o faith_n and_o resignation_n and_o consequent_o in_o prayer_n and_o in_o virtual_a and_o acquire_v contemplation_n although_o thou_o perceive_v it_o not_o remember_v it_o not_o neither_o exert_v new_a act_n and_o reflection_n thereon_o after_o the_o example_n of_o a_o christian_a a_o wife_n and_o a_o monk_n who_o though_o they_o exert_v we_o new_a act_n and_o remembrance_n the_o one_o as_o to_o his_o profession_n say_v i_o be_o a_o monk_n the_o other_o as_o to_o her_o matrimony_n say_v i_o be_o a_o wife_n and_o the_o three_o as_o to_o his_o baptism_n say_v i_o be_o a_o christian_n they_o cease_v not_o for_o all_o that_o from_o be_v the_o one_o baptise_a the_o other_o marry_v and_o the_o three_o profess_v the_o christian_a shall_v only_o be_v oblige_v to_o do_v good_a work_n in_o confirmation_n of_o his_o faith_n and_o to_o believe_v more_o with_o the_o heart_n than_o with_o the_o mouth_n the_o wife_n ought_v to_o give_v demonstration_n of_o the_o fidelity_n which_o she_o promise_v to_o her_o husband_n and_o the_o monk_n of_o the_o obedience_n which_o he_o make_v profession_n of_o to_o his_o superior_a 106._o in_o the_o same_o manner_n the_o inward_a soul_n be_v once_o resolve_v to_o believe_v that_o god_n be_v in_o it_o and_o that_o it_o will_v not_o desire_v nor_o act_v any_o thing_n but_o through_o god_n aught_o to_o rest_v satisfy_v in_o that_o faith_n and_o intention_n in_o all_o its_o work_n and_o exercise_n without_o form_v or_o repeat_v new_a act_n of_o the_o same_o faith_n nor_o of_o such_o a_o resignation_n chap._n xv._o a_o sequel_n of_o the_o same_o matter_n 107._o this_o true_a doctrine_n serve_v not_o only_o for_o the_o time_n of_o prayer_n but_o also_o after_o it_o be_v over_o by_o night_n and_o by_o day_n at_o all_o hour_n and_o in_o all_o the_o daily_a function_n of_o thy_o call_v thy_o duty_n and_o condition_n and_o if_o thou_o tell_v i_o that_o many_o time_n thou_o forget_v during_o a_o wholâ—_n day_n to_o renew_v thy_o resignation_n i_o answer_v thaâ—_n though_o it_o seem_v to_o thou_o that_o thou_o be_v divert_v from_o it_o by_o attend_v the_o daily_a occupation_n oâ—_n thy_o vocation_n as_o study_v read_v preach_a eat_v drink_v do_v business_n and_o the_o like_a thou_o be_v mistake_v for_o the_o one_o destroy_v not_o the_o other_o nor_o by_o so_o do_v do_v thou_o neglect_v to_o do_v the_o will_n of_o god_n nor_o to_o proceed_v iâ—_n virtual_a prayer_n as_o st._n thomas_n say_v 108._o because_o these_o occupation_n be_v not_o contrary_a to_o his_o will_n nor_o contrary_a to_o thy_o resignation_n it_o be_v certain_a that_o god_n will_v have_v thou_o to_o eat_v study_v take_v pain_n do_v business_n etc._n etc._n so_o that_o to_o perform_v these_o exercise_n which_o be_v conform_v to_o his_o will_n and_o pleasure_n thou_o departe_v not_o out_o of_o his_o presence_n nor_o from_o thy_o own_o resignation_n 109._o but_o if_o in_o prayer_n or_o out_o of_o it_o thoâ—_n shall_v willing_o be_v divert_v or_o distract_v suffer_v thyself_o deliberate_o to_o be_v transport_v into_o any_o passion_n than_o it_o will_v be_v good_a for_o thou_o to_o revert_v to_o god_n and_o return_v into_o his_o divinâ—_n presence_n renew_v the_o pure_a of_o faith_n and_o resignation_n however_o it_o be_v not_o necessary_a to_o exert_v those_o act_n when_o thou_o find_v thyself_o iâ—_n dryness_n because_o dryness_n be_v good_a and_o holy_a anâ—_n can_v how_o severe_a soever_o it_o be_v take_v from_o thâ—_n soul_n the_o divine_a presence_n which_o be_v establisheâ—_n in_o faith._n thou_o ought_v never_o to_o call_v dryness_n distraction_n because_o in_o beginner_n it_o be_v want_v 〈◊〉_d sensibility_n and_o in_o proficient_o abstractedness_n bâ—_n mean_v whereof_o if_o thou_o bear_v it_o out_o with_o constancy_n rest_v quiet_a in_o thy_o own_o emptiness_n thy_o soul_n will_v become_v more_o and_o more_o inward_a and_o the_o lord_n will_v work_v wonder_n in_o it_o 110._o strive_v then_o when_o thou_o come_v from_o prayer_n to_o the_o end_n thou_o may_v return_v to_o it_o again_o not_o to_o be_v distract_v nor_o divert_v but_o to_o carry_v thyself_o with_o a_o total_a resignation_n to_o the_o divine_a will_n that_o god_n may_v do_v with_o thou_o and_o all_o thou_o according_a to_o his_o heavenly_a pleasure_n rely_v on_o he_o as_o on_o a_o kind_n and_o love_a father_n never_o recall_v that_o intention_n and_o though_o thou_o be_v take_v up_o about_o the_o affair_n of_o the_o condition_n wherein_o god_n have_v place_v thou_o yet_o will_v still_o be_v in_o prayer_n in_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n and_o in_o perpetual_a resignation_n therefore_o st._n john_n chrysostom_n say_v a_o just_a man_n leave_v not_o off_o to_o pray_o thessolon_n suner_n 5._o ad_fw-la thessolon_n unless_o he_o leave_v off_o to_o be_v just._n he_o always_o pray_v who_o always_o do_v well_o the_o good_a desire_n be_v prayer_n and_o if_o the_o desire_n be_v continue_v so_o be_v also_o the_o prayer_n 111._o thou_o will_v understand_v all_o that_o have_v be_v say_v by_o this_o clear_a example_n when_o a_o man_n begin_v a_o journey_n to_o rome_n every_o step_n he_o make_v in_o the_o progress_n be_v voluntary_a and_o nevertheless_o it_o be_v not_o necessary_a that_o at_o every_o step_n he_o shall_v express_v his_o desire_n or_o exert_v a_o new_a act_n of_o the_o will_n say_v i_o be_o go_v to_o rome_n i_o go_v to_o rome_n because_o by_o virtue_n of_o that_o first_o intention_n he_o have_v of_o travel_v to_o rome_n the_o same_o will_v still_o remain_v in_o he_o so_o that_o he_o go_v on_o without_o say_v so_o
affection_n be_v not_o perfect_a and_o ordinary_o it_o be_v give_v to_o weak_a and_o nice_a soul_n 103._o thou_o will_v say_v that_o thou_o feel_v thyself_o indispose_v without_o devotion_n without_o fervour_n without_o the_o desire_n of_o this_o divine_a food_n so_o as_o to_o ask_v how_o thou_o must_v frequent_v it_o believe_v for_o certain_a that_o none_o of_o these_o thing_n do_v hinder_v or_o hurt_v thou_o whilst_o you_o preserve_v this_o purpose_n firm_a not_o to_o sin_n and_o your_o will_n determine_v to_o avoid_v every_o offence_n and_o if_o thou_o have_v confess_v all_o those_o that_o thou_o can_v remember_v doubt_v not_o but_o that_o thou_o be_v well_o prepare_v to_o come_v to_o this_o heavenly_a and_o divine_a table_n chap._n fourteen_o pursue_v the_o same_o matter_n 104._o thou_o must_v know_v that_o in_o this_o unspeakaable_a sacrament_n christ_n be_v unite_v with_o the_o soul_n be_v make_v one_o thing_n with_o it_o who_o fineness_n and_o purity_n be_v the_o most_o profound_a and_o admirable_a and_o the_o most_o worthy_a of_o consideration_n and_o thanks_o great_a be_v the_o pureness_n of_o he_o in_o be_v make_v man_n great_a that_o of_o die_v ignominious_o on_o the_o cross_n for_o our_o sake_n but_o the_o give_v of_o himself_o whole_a and_o entire_a to_o man_n in_o this_o admirable_a sacrament_n admit_v no_o comparison_n this_o be_v singular_a favour_n and_o infinite_a pureness_n because_o there_o be_v no_o more_o to_o give_v no_o more_o to_o receive_v o_o that_o we_o can_v but_o comprehend_v he_o o_o that_o we_o can_v but_o know_v he_o 105._o that_o god_n be_v what_o he_o be_v shall_v be_v communicate_v to_o my_o soul_n that_o god_n shall_v be_v willing_a to_o make_v a_o reciprocal_a thy_fw-mi of_o union_n with_o it_o which_o of_o itself_o be_v mere_a misery_n o_o soul_n if_o we_o can_v but_o feed_v ourselves_o at_o this_o heavenly_a table_n o_o that_o we_o can_v scorch_v ourselves_o at_o this_o burn_a fire_n o_o that_o we_o can_v become_v one_o and_o the_o same_o spirit_n with_o this_o sovereign_a lord_n who_o withhold_v we_o who_o deceive_v we_o who_o take_v we_o off_o from_o burn_v like_o salamander_n in_o the_o divine_a fire_n of_o this_o holy_a table_n 106._o it_o be_v true_a o_o lord_n that_o thou_o enterest_n into_o i_o a_o miserable_a creature_n but_o true_a also_o it_o be_v that_o thou_o at_o the_o same_o time_n remain_v in_o thy_o glory_n and_o brightness_n and_o in_o thyself_o receive_v i_o therefore_o o_o my_o jesus_n in_o thyself_o in_o thy_o beauty_n and_o majesty_n i_o be_o infinite_o glad_a that_o the_o vileness_n of_o my_o soul_n can_v prejudice_v thy_o beautyâ—_n thou_o interest_n therefore_o into_o i_o without_o go_v out_o of_o thyself_o thou_o live_v in_o the_o midst_n of_o thy_o brightness_n and_o magnificence_n though_o thou_o be_v in_o my_o darkness_n and_o misery_n 107._o o_o my_o soul_n how_o great_a be_v thy_o vileness_n job_n 7_o chap._n how_o great_a thy_o poverty_n what_o be_v man_n lord_n that_o thou_o be_v so_o mindful_a of_o he_o that_o thou_o visite_a he_o and_o make_v he_o great_a what_o be_v man_n that_o thou_o put_v such_o a_o esteem_n upon_o he_o be_v willing_a to_o have_v thy_o delight_n with_o he_o and_o dwell_v personal_o with_o thy_o greatness_n in_o he_o how_o o_o lord_n can_v a_o miserable_a creature_n receive_v a_o infinite_a majesty_n humble_a thyself_o o_o my_o soul_n to_o the_o very_a depth_n of_o nothing_o confess_v thy_o unworthiness_n look_v upon_o thy_o misery_n and_o acknowledge_v the_o wonder_n of_o the_o divine_a love_n which_o suffer_v itself_o to_o be_v mean_a in_o this_o incomprehensible_a mystery_n that_o it_o may_v be_v communicate_v and_o unite_v with_o thou_o 108._o o_o the_o greatness_n of_o love_n which_o the_o amiable_a jesus_n be_v in_o a_o small_a host_n who_o be_v there_o subject_a in_o some_o manner_n to_o man_n give_v himself_o whole_a and_o sacrifice_a himself_o for_o he_o to_o the_o eternal_a father_n o_o sovereign_a lord_n keep_v back_o my_o heart_n strong_o that_o it_o may_v never_o more_o return_v to_o its_o imperfect_a liberty_n but_o all_o annihilate_v may_v die_v to_o the_o world_n and_o remain_v unite_v with_o thou_o 109._o if_o thou_o will_v get_v all_o virtue_n in_o the_o high_a degree_n come_v bless_a soul_n come_v with_o frequency_n to_o this_o most_o holy_a table_n for_o there_o they_o do_v all_o dwell_v eat_v o_o my_o soul_n of_o this_o heavenly_a food_n eat_v and_o continue_v come_v with_o humility_n come_v with_o faith_n to_o feed_v of_o this_o white_a and_o divine_a bread_n for_o this_o be_v the_o mark_n of_o soul_n and_o from_o hence_o love_n draw_v its_o arrow_n say_v come_v o_o soul_n and_o eat_v this_o savoury_a food_n if_o thou_o will_v get_v purity_n charity_n chastity_n light_n strength_n perfection_n and_o peace_n chap._n xv._o declare_v when_o spiritual_a and_o corporal_a penance_n ought_v to_o be_v use_v and_o how_o hurtful_a they_o be_v when_o they_o be_v do_v indiscreet_o according_a to_o one_o own_o judgement_n and_o opinion_n 110._o it_o be_v to_o be_v know_v that_o there_o be_v some_o soul_n who_o to_o make_v too_o great_a advance_n in_o holiness_n become_v much_o behindhand_o in_o it_o by_o do_v indiscreet_a penance_n like_o those_o who_o will_v sing_v more_o than_o their_o strength_n allow_v they_o who_o strain_n themselves_o till_o they_o be_v tire_v and_o instead_o of_o do_v better_a do_v worse_o 111._o many_o have_v fall_v into_o this_o precipice_n for_o want_v of_o subject_v their_o judgement_n to_o their_o spiritual_a father_n while_o they_o have_v imagine_v that_o unless_o they_o give_v themselves_o up_o to_o rigid_a penance_n they_o never_o can_v be_v saint_n as_o if_o sanctity_n do_v only_o consist_v in_o they_o they_o say_v that_o he_o that_o sow_v little_a reap_v little_a but_o they_o sow_v no_o other_o seed_n with_o their_o indiscreet_a penance_n than_o self-love_n instead_o of_o root_n of_o it_o up_o 112._o but_o the_o worst_a of_o these_o indiscreet_a penance_n be_v that_o by_o the_o use_n of_o these_o dry_a and_o barren_a severity_n be_v beget_v and_o naturalize_v a_o certain_a bitterness_n of_o heart_n towards_o themselves_o and_o their_o neighbour_n which_o be_v a_o great_a stranger_n to_o the_o true_a spirit_n towards_o themselves_o because_o they_o do_v not_o feel_v the_o sweetness_n of_o christ_n yoke_n the_o sweetness_n of_o charity_n but_o only_o the_o asperity_n of_o penance_n whereby_o their_o nature_n become_v imbitter_v and_o hence_o it_o follow_v that_o such_o man_n become_v exasperate_v with_o their_o neighbour_n to_o the_o mark_v and_o reprove_v much_o their_o fault_n and_o hold_v of_o they_o for_o very_o defective_a for_o the_o same_o reason_n that_o they_o see_v they_o go_v a_o less_o rigorous_a way_n than_o themselves_o hence_o they_o grow_v proud_a with_o their_o exercise_n of_o penance_n see_v few_o that_o do_v after_o they_o and_o think_v themselves_o better_a than_o other_o folk_n whereupon_o they_o much_o fall_v in_o the_o account_n of_o their_o virtue_n hence_o come_v the_o envy_n of_o other_o to_o see_v they_o less_o penitent_a and_o great_a favourite_n of_o god_n a_o clear_a proof_n that_o they_o fix_v their_o confidence_n in_o their_o own_o proper_a diligence_n 113._o prayer_n be_v the_o nourishment_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o the_o soul_n of_o prayer_n be_v internal_a mortification_n for_o however_o bodily_a penance_n and_o all_o other_o exercise_n chasten_v the_o flesh_n be_v good_a and_o holy_a and_o praiseworthy_a so_o as_o they_o be_v moderate_v by_o discretion_n according_a to_o the_o state_n and_o quality_n of_o every_o one_o and_o by_o the_o help_n of_o the_o spiritual_a director_n judgement_n yet_o thou_o will_v never_o gain_v any_o virtue_n by_o these_o mean_n but_o only_a vanity_n and_o the_o wind_n of_o vainglory_n if_o they_o do_v not_o grow_v from_o within_o wherefore_o now_o thou_o shall_v know_v when_o thou_o be_v to_o use_v most_o chief_o external_n penance_n 114._o when_o the_o soul_n begin_v to_o retire_v from_o the_o world_n and_o vice_n it_o ought_v to_o tame_v the_o body_n with_o rigour_n that_o it_o may_v be_v subject_a to_o the_o spirit_n and_o follow_v the_o law_n of_o god_n with_o ease_n than_o it_o concern_v you_o to_o manage_v the_o weapon_n of_o haircloth_n fast_v and_o discipline_n to_o take_v from_o the_o flesh_n the_o root_n of_o sin_n but_o when_o the_o soul_n enter_v into_o the_o way_n of_o the_o spirit_n embrace_v internal_a mortification_n corporal_a chastisement_n ought_v to_o be_v relax_v because_o there_o be_v trouble_n enough_o in_o the_o spirit_n the_o heart_n be_v weaken_v the_o breast_n suffer_v the_o brain_n be_v weary_a the_o whole_a body_n grieve_v and_o disable_v for_o the_o function_n of_o the_o soul._n 115._o the_o wise_a and_o skilful_a director_n therefore_o must_v consider_v not_o to_o give_v way_n to_o these_o soul_n to_o
many_o occasion_n they_o feel_v resistance_n and_o temptation_n yet_o they_o become_v present_o victorious_a because_o be_v already_o soul_n of_o proof_n and_o endue_v with_o divine_a strength_n the_o motion_n of_o passion_n can_v last_v long_o upon_o they_o and_o although_o vehement_a temptation_n and_o troublesome_a suggestion_n of_o the_o enemy_n may_v persevere_v a_o long_a time_n about_o they_o yet_o they_o be_v all_o conquer_a with_o infinite_a gain_n god_n be_v he_o that_o fight_v within_o within_o they_o 4._o these_o soul_n have_v already_o procure_v themselves_o a_o great_a light_n and_o a_o true_a knowledge_n of_o christ_n our_o lord_n both_o of_o his_o divinity_n and_o his_o humanity_n they_o exercise_v this_o infuse_a knowledge_n with_o a_o quiet_a silence_n in_o the_o inward_a entertainment_n and_o the_o superior_a part_n of_o their_o soul_n with_o a_o spirit_n free_a from_o image_n and_o external_a representation_n with_o a_o love_n that_o be_v pure_a and_o strip_v of_o all_o creature_n they_o be_v raise_v also_o from_o outward_a action_n to_o the_o love_n of_o humanity_n and_o divinity_n so_o much_o as_o they_o enjoy_v they_o forget_v and_o in_o all_o of_o it_o they_o find_v that_o they_o love_v their_o god_n with_o all_o their_o heart_n and_o spirit_n 5._o these_o bless_a and_o sublimate_v soul_n take_v no_o pleasure_n in_o any_o thing_n of_o the_o world_n but_o contempt_n and_o in_o be_v alone_o and_o in_o be_v forsake_v and_o forget_v by_o every_o body_n they_o live_v so_o disintere_v and_o take_v off_o that_o though_o they_o continual_o receive_v many_o supernatural_a grace_n yet_o they_o be_v not_o change_v no_o not_o at_o those_o inclination_n be_v just_a as_o if_o they_o have_v not_o receive_v they_o keep_v always_o in_o the_o inmost_a of_o their_o heart_n a_o great_a lowliness_n and_o contempt_n of_o themselves_o always_o humble_v in_o the_o depth_n of_o their_o own_o unworthiness_n and_o vileness_n in_o the_o same_o manner_n they_o be_v always_o quiet_a serene_a and_o possess_v with_o evenness_n of_o mind_n in_o grace_n and_o favour_n extraordinary_a as_o also_o in_o the_o most_o rigorous_a and_o bitter_a torment_n there_o be_v no_o news_n that_o cheer_v they_o no_o success_n that_o make_v they_o sad_a tribulation_n never_o disturb_v they_o nor_o the_o interior_a continual_a and_o divine_a communication_n make_v they_o vain_a and_o conceit_a they_o remain_v always_o full_a of_o holy_a and_o filial_a fear_n in_o a_o wonderful_a peace_n constancy_n and_o serenity_n chap._n ii_o pursue_v the_o same_o 6._o in_o the_o external_a way_n they_o take_v care_n to_o do_v continual_a act_n of_o all_o the_o virtue_n one_o after_o another_o to_o get_v to_o the_o attainment_n of_o they_o they_o pretend_v to_o purge_v imperfection_n with_o industry_n proportionable_a to_o destruction_n they_o take_v care_n to_o root_v up_o interest_n one_o after_o another_o with_o a_o different_a and_o contrary_a exercise_n but_o though_o they_o endeavour_v never_o so_o much_o they_o arrive_v at_o nothing_o because_o we_o can_v do_v any_o thing_n which_o be_v not_o imperfection_n and_o misery_n 7._o but_o in_o the_o inward_a way_n and_o love_a entertainment_n in_o the_o presence_n divine_a as_o the_o lord_n be_v he_o that_o work_v virtue_n be_v establish_v interest_n be_v root_v up_o imperfection_n be_v destroy_v and_o passion_n remove_v which_o make_v the_o soul_n free_a unexpected_o and_o take_v off_o when_o occasion_n be_v represent_v without_o so_o much_o as_o think_v of_o the_o good_a which_o god_n of_o his_o infinite_a mercy_n prepare_v for_o for_o they_o 8._o it_o must_v be_v know_v that_o these_o soul_n though_o thus_o perfect_a as_o they_o have_v the_o true_a light_n of_o god_n yet_o by_o it_o they_o know_v profound_o their_o own_o misery_n weakness_n and_o imperfection_n and_o what_o they_o yet_o want_v to_o arrive_v at_o perfection_n towards_o which_o they_o be_v walk_v they_o be_v afflict_v and_o abhor_v themselves_o they_o exercise_v themselves_o in_o a_o love_a fear_n of_o god_n and_o contempt_n of_o themselves_o but_o with_o a_o true_a hope_n in_o god_n and_o disconfidence_n in_o themselves_o the_o more_o they_o be_v humble_v with_o true_a contempt_n and_o knowledge_n of_o themselves_o the_o more_o they_o please_v god_n and_o arrive_v at_o a_o singular_a respect_n and_o veneration_n in_o his_o presence_n of_o all_o the_o good_a work_n that_o they_o do_v and_o of_o all_o that_o they_o continual_o suffer_v as_o well_o within_o as_o without_o they_o make_v no_o manner_n of_o account_n before_o that_o divine_a presence_n 9_o their_o continual_a exercise_n be_v to_o enter_v into_o themselves_o in_o god_n with_o quiet_a and_o silence_n because_o there_o be_v his_o centre_n habitation_n and_o delight_n they_o make_v a_o great_a account_n of_o this_o interior_a retirement_n than_o of_o speak_v of_o god_n they_o retire_v into_o that_o interior_a and_o secret_a centre_n of_o the_o soul_n to_o know_v god_n and_o receive_v his_o divine_a influence_n with_o fear_n and_o love_a reverence_n if_o they_o go_v out_o they_o go_v out_o only_o to_o know_v and_o despise_v themselves_o 10._o but_o know_v that_o few_o be_v the_o soul_n which_o arrive_v at_o this_o happy_a state_n because_o few_o there_o be_v that_o be_v willing_a to_o embrace_v contempt_n and_o suffer_v themselves_o to_o be_v refine_v and_o purify_v upon_o which_o account_n although_o there_o be_v many_o that_o enter_v into_o this_o interior_a way_n yet_o it_o be_v a_o rare_a thing_n for_o a_o soul_n to_o go_v on_o and_o not_o stick_v upon_o the_o entrance_n the_o lord_n say_v to_o a_o soul_n this_o inward_a way_n be_v tread_v by_o few_o it_o be_v so_o high_a a_o grace_n that_o none_o deserve_v it_o few_o walk_n in_o it_o because_o it_o be_v no_o other_o than_o a_o death_n of_o the_o sense_n and_o few_o there_o be_v that_o be_v willing_a so_o to_o die_v and_o be_v annihilate_v in_o which_o disposition_n this_o so_o sovereign_a a_o gift_n be_v found_v 11._o herewith_o thou_o will_v undeceive_v thyself_o and_o perfect_o know_v the_o great_a difference_n which_o there_o be_v between_o the_o external_a and_o internal_a way_n and_o how_o different_a that_o presence_n of_o god_n be_v which_o arise_v from_o meditation_n from_o that_o which_o be_v infuse_v and_o supernatural_a arise_v from_o the_o interior_a and_o infuse_a entertainment_n and_o from_o passive_a contemplation_n and_o last_o you_o will_v know_v the_o great_a difference_n which_o be_v between_o the_o outward_a and_o inward_a man._n chap._n iii_o the_o mean_n of_o obtain_v peace_n internal_a be_v not_o the_o delight_n of_o sense_n nor_o spiritual_a consolation_n but_o the_o deny_v of_o self-love_n 12._o it_o be_v the_o say_n of_o s._n bernard_n that_o to_o serve_v god_n be_v nothing_o else_o but_o to_o do_v good_a and_o suffer_v evil._n he_o that_o will_v go_v to_o perfection_n by_o the_o mean_n of_o sweetness_n and_o consolation_n be_v mistake_v you_o must_v desire_v no_o other_o consolation_n from_o god_n than_o to_o end_v your_o life_n for_o his_o sake_n in_o the_o state_n of_o true_a obedience_n and_o subjection_n christ_n our_o lord_n way_n be_v not_o that_o of_o sweetness_n and_o softness_n nor_o do_v he_o invite_v we_o to_o any_o such_o either_o by_o his_o word_n or_o example_n when_o he_o say_v he_o that_o will_v come_v after_o i_o let_v he_o deny_v himself_o and_o let_v he_o take_v up_o his_o cross_n and_o follow_v i_o st_n matth._n 24.26_o the_o soul_n that_o will_v be_v unite_v to_o christ_n must_v be_v conformable_a to_o he_o follow_v he_o in_o the_o way_n of_o suffer_v 13._o thou_o will_v scarce_o begin_v to_o relish_v the_o sweetness_n of_o divine_a love_n in_o prayer_n but_o the_o enemy_n with_o his_o deceitful_a craftiness_n will_v be_v kindle_v in_o thy_o heart_n desire_n of_o the_o desert_n and_o solitude_n that_o thou_o may_v without_o any_o body_n hindrance_n spread_v the_o sail_n to_o continual_a &_o delightful_a prayer_n open_v thy_o eye_n and_o consider_v that_o this_o counsel_n and_o desire_n be_v not_o conformable_a to_o the_o true_a counsel_n of_o christ_n our_o lord_n who_o have_v not_o invite_v we_o to_o follow_v the_o sweetness_n and_o comfort_n of_o our_o own_o will_n but_o the_o deny_v of_o ourselves_o say_v abneget_fw-la semetipsum_fw-la as_o if_o he_o shall_v say_v he_o that_o will_v follow_v i_o and_o come_v unto_o perfection_n let_v he_o part_v with_o his_o own_o will_v whole_o and_o leave_v all_o thing_n let_v he_o entire_o submit_v to_o the_o yoke_n of_o obedience_n and_o subjection_n by_o mean_n of_o self-denial_n which_o be_v the_o true_a cross_n 14._o there_o be_v many_o soul_n dedicate_v to_o god_n which_o receive_v from_o his_o hand_n great_a thought_n vision_n and_o mental_a elevation_n and_o yet_o for_o all_o that_o the_o lord_n keep_v from_o they_o the_o grace_n of_o work_a miracle_n understand_v hide_a secret_n foretell_v future_a
find_v in_o thy_o soul_n the_o precious_a pledge_n of_o peace_n internal_a although_o thou_o have_v get_v the_o better_a of_o the_o external_n sense_n by_o the_o grace_n of_o god_n till_o it_o become_v purify_v from_o the_o disorder_a passion_n of_o concupiscence_n self-esteem_a desire_n and_o thought_n how_o spiritual_a soever_o and_o many_o other_o interest_n and_o secret_a vice_n which_o lie_v within_o the_o very_a soul_n of_o thou_o miserable_o hinder_v the_o peaceable_a entrance_n of_o that_o great_a lord_n into_o it_o who_o will_v be_v unite_v and_o transform_v with_o thou_o 26._o the_o very_a virtue_n acquire_v and_o not_o purify_v be_v a_o hindrance_n to_o this_o great_a gift_n of_o the_o peace_n of_o the_o soul_n and_o more_o the_o soul_n be_v clog_v by_o a_o inordinate_a desire_n of_o sublime_a gift_n by_o the_o appetite_n of_o feel_v spiritual_a consolation_n by_o stick_v to_o infuse_v and_o divine_a grace_n entertain_v itself_o in_o they_o and_o desire_v more_o of_o they_o to_o enjoy_v they_o and_o final_o by_o a_o desire_n of_o be_v great_a 27._o o_o how_o much_o be_v there_o to_o be_v purify_v in_o a_o soul_n that_o must_v arrive_v at_o the_o holy_a mountain_n of_o perfection_n and_o of_o transformation_n with_o god_n o_o how_o dispose_v naked_a deny_v annihilate_v aught_o the_o soul_n to_o be_v which_o will_v not_o hinder_v the_o entrance_n of_o this_o divine_a lord_n into_o it_o nor_o his_o continual_a communication_n 28._o this_o disposition_n of_o prepare_v the_o soul_n in_o its_o bottom_n for_o divine_a entrance_n must_v of_o necessity_n be_v make_v by_o the_o divine_a wisdom_n if_o a_o seraphim_n be_v not_o sufficient_a to_o purify_v the_o soul_n how_o shall_v a_o soul_n that_o be_v frail_a miserable_a and_o without_o experience_n ever_o be_v able_a to_o purify_v itself_o 29._o therefore_o the_o lord_n himself_o will_v dispose_v thou_o and_o prepare_v thou_o passive_o by_o a_o way_n thou_o understand_v not_o with_o the_o fire_n of_o tribulation_n and_o inward_a torment_n without_o any_o other_o disposition_n on_o thy_o side_n than_o a_o consent_n to_o the_o internal_a and_o external_a cross_n 30._o thou_o will_v find_v within_o thyself_o a_o passive_a dryness_n darkness_n anguish_n contradiction_n continual_a resistance_n inward_a desertion_n horrible_a desolation_n continual_a and_o strong_a suggestion_n and_o vehement_a temptation_n of_o the_o enemy_n final_o thou_o will_v see_v thyself_o so_o afflict_v that_o thou_o will_v not_o be_v able_a to_o lift_v up_o thy_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o sorrow_n and_o heaviness_n nor_o do_v the_o least_o act_n of_o faith_n hope_n or_o charity_n 31._o here_o thou_o will_v see_v thyself_o forlorn_a and_o subject_a to_o passion_n of_o impatience_n anger_n rage_n swear_v and_o disorder_a appetite_n seem_v to_o thyself_o the_o most_o miserable_a creature_n the_o great_a sinner_n in_o the_o world_n the_o most_o abhor_a of_o god_n deprive_v and_o strip_v of_o all_o virtue_n with_o a_o pain_n like_o that_o of_o hell_n see_v thyself_o afflict_v and_o desolate_a to_o think_v that_o thou_o have_v altogether_o lose_v god_n this_o will_v be_v thy_o cruel_a cut_n and_o most_o bitter_a torment_n 32._o but_o though_o thou_o shall_v see_v thyself_o so_o oppress_v seem_v to_o thyself_o to_o be_v proud_a impatient_a and_o wrothful_a yet_o these_o temptation_n shall_v lose_v their_o force_n and_o power_n upon_o thou_o they_o shall_v have_v no_o place_n in_o thy_o soul_n by_o a_o secret_a virtue_n the_o soveragin_v gift_n of_o inward_a strength_n which_o rule_v in_o the_o inmost_a part_n of_o it_o conquer_a the_o most_o affrighten_v punishment_n and_o pain_n and_o the_o strong_a temptation_n 33._o keep_v constant_a o_o bless_a soul_n keep_v constant_a for_o it_o will_v not_o be_v as_o thou_o imagine_v nor_o be_v thou_o at_o any_o time_n near_o to_o god_n than_o in_o such_o case_n of_o desertion_n for_o although_o the_o sun_n be_v hide_v in_o the_o cloud_n yet_o it_o change_v not_o its_o place_n nor_o a_o jot_n the_o more_o lose_v its_o brightness_n the_o lord_n permit_v this_o painful_a desertion_n in_o thy_o soul_n to_o purge_v and_o polish_v thou_o to_o cleanse_v thou_o and_o dis-robe_n thou_o of_o thyself_o and_o that_o thou_o may_v in_o this_o manner_n be_v all_o his_o and_o give_v thyself_o whole_o up_o to_o he_o as_o his_o infinite_a bounty_n be_v entire_o give_v to_o thou_o that_o thou_o may_v be_v his_o delight_n for_o although_o thou_o do_v groan_v and_o lament_v and_o weep_v yet_o he_o be_v joyful_a and_o glad_a in_o the_o most_o secret_a and_o hide_a place_n of_o thy_o soul._n chap._n v._o how_o important_a and_o necessary_a it_o be_v to_o the_o interior_a soul_n to_o suffer_v blindfold_a this_o first_o and_o spiritual_a martyrdom_n 34._o to_o the_o end_n that_o the_o soul_n of_o earthly_a may_v become_v heavenly_a and_o may_v come_v to_o that_o great_a good_a of_o union_n with_o god_n it_o be_v necessary_a for_o it_o to_o be_v purify_v in_o the_o fire_n of_o tribulation_n and_o temptation_n and_o although_o it_o be_v true_a and_o a_o know_a and_o approve_a maxim_n that_o all_o those_o that_o serve_v the_o lord_n must_v suffer_v trouble_n persecution_n and_o tribulation_n yet_o the_o happy_a soul_n which_o be_v guide_v by_o god_n by_o the_o secret_a way_n of_o the_o interior_a walk_n and_o of_o purgative_a contemplation_n must_v suffer_v above_o all_o strong_a and_o horrible_a temptation_n and_o torment_n more_o bitter_a than_o those_o wherewith_o the_o martyr_n be_v crown_v in_o the_o primitive_a church_n 35._o the_o martyr_n beside_o the_o shortness_n of_o their_o torment_n which_o hardly_o endure_v day_n be_v comfort_v with_o a_o clear_a light_n and_o special_a help_n in_o hope_n of_o the_o near_a and_o sure_a reward_n but_o the_o desolate_a soul_n that_o must_v die_v in_o itself_o and_o put_v off_o and_o make_v clean_a its_o heart_n see_v itself_o abandon_v by_o god_n surround_v by_o temptation_n darkness_n anguish_n affliction_n sorrow_n and_o rigid_a drowth_n do_v taste_v of_o death_n every_o moment_n in_o its_o painful_a torment_n and_o tremendous_a desolation_n without_o feel_v the_o least_o comfort_n with_o a_o affliction_n so_o great_a that_o the_o pain_n of_o it_o seem_v nothing_o else_o but_o a_o death_n prolong_v and_o a_o continual_a martyrdom_n whereupon_o with_o great_a reason_n it_o may_v be_v say_v that_o although_o there_o be_v many_o martyr_n yet_o there_o be_v few_o soul_n which_o follow_v christ_n our_o lord_n with_o peace_n and_o resignation_n in_o such_o torment_n 36._o then_o it_o be_v man_n that_o martyr_a they_o and_o god_n comfort_v their_o soul_n but_o now_o it_o be_v god_n that_o afflict_v and_o hide_v himself_o and_o the_o devil_n like_o cruel_a executioner_n have_v a_o thousand_o way_n to_o torment_v the_o soul_n and_o body_n the_o whole_a man_n be_v crucify_a within_o and_o without_o 37._o thy_o sorrow_n will_v seem_v to_o thou_o insuperable_a and_o thy_o affliction_n past_o the_o power_n of_o comfort_n and_o that_o heaven_n rain_v no_o more_o upon_o thou_o thou_o will_v see_v thyself_o begin_v with_o grief_n and_o besiege_v with_o sorrow_n internal_a from_o the_o darkness_n of_o thy_o power_n from_o the_o weakness_n of_o discourse_n strong_a temptation_n will_v afflict_v thou_o painful_a distrust_n and_o troublesome_a scruple_n nay_o light_n and_o judgement_n will_v forsake_v thou_o 38._o all_o the_o creature_n will_v give_v thou_o trouble_v spiritual_a counsel_n will_v bring_v thou_o pain_n the_o read_n of_o book_n how_o holy_a soever_o will_v not_o comfort_v thou_o as_o it_o use_v to_o do_v if_o they_o speak_v to_o thou_o of_o patience_n they_o will_v exceed_o trouble_v thou_o the_o fear_n of_o lose_v god_n through_o thy_o unthankfulness_n and_o want_n of_o return_n will_v torment_v thou_o to_o the_o soul_n if_o thou_o groane_v and_o beg_v help_v of_o god_n thou_o will_v find_v instead_o of_o comfort_n inward_a reproof_n and_o disfavour_n like_o another_o 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