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of_o this_o life_n usual_o joy_v or_o grieve_v for_o they_o be_v the_o more_o to_o be_v lament_v by_o how_o much_o man_n lament_v less_o in_o or_o for_o they_o and_o again_o less_o to_o be_v lament_v by_o how_o much_o man_n do_v more_o lament_v for_o they_o behold_v thou_o have_v love_v truth_n 3.21_o john_n 3.21_o and_o he_o that_o do_v the_o truth_n come_v willing_o to_o the_o light_n i_o will_v perform_v the_o truth_n in_o this_o my_o confession_n both_o private_a in_o my_o heart_n before_o thou_o and_o public_a in_o this_o my_o writing_n before_o many_o other_o witness_n chap._n ii_o the_o end_n and_o fruit_n of_o confess_v his_o present_a condition_n mental_o to_o god_n and_o first_o to_o thou_o o_o lord_n before_o who_o eye_n the_o dark_a abyss_n of_o man_n conscience_n lie_v naked_a what_o then_o can_v there_o be_v conceal_v in_o i_o though_o i_o refuse_v to_o confess_v it_o for_o so_o i_o shall_v only_o hide_v not_o i_o from_o thou_o but_o thou_o from_o i_o but_o now_o by_o these_o my_o groan_n in_o confession_n testify_v how_o much_o i_o dislike_v and_o loathe_v myself_o thou_o thereby_o become_v so_o much_o the_o more_o splendent_a and_o beauteous_a and_o amiable_a unto_o i_o so_o much_o the_o more_o love_v and_o long_v for_o by_o i_o that_o so_o i_o may_v be_v ashamed_a of_o myself_o and_o throw_v away_o myself_o and_o make_v choice_n of_o thou_o and_o seek_v neither_o to_o please_v thou_o nor_o myself_o for_o i_o but_o only_o for_o thy_o sake_n therefore_o o_o lord_n though_o always_o manifest_a and_o disclose_v to_o thou_o i_o be_o whatever_o i_o be_o yet_o not_o without_o fruit_n do_v i_o confess_v unto_o thou_o as_o be_v show_v before_o which_o confession_n of_o i_o to_o thou_o be_v act_v not_o with_o the_o word_n of_o my_o flesh_n and_o outward_a sound_n but_o with_o the_o word_n of_o my_o soul_n and_o the_o loud_a cry_n of_o my_o thought_n which_o thy_o ear_n only_o discern_v where_o in_o what_o thing_n i_o be_o evil_a my_o confession_n to_o thou_o be_v *_o nothing_o else_o than_o to_o disallow_v and_o condemn_v myself_o in_o what_o thing_n pious_a *_o nothing_o else_o than_o not_o to_o attribute_v and_o ascribe_v such_o thing_n to_o myself_o because_o as_o thou_o o_o lord_n approve_v the_o just_a so_o thou_o first_o hustify_v he_o wicked_a and_o such_o my_o confession_n o_o my_o god_n be_v make_v before_o thou_o in_o some_o sort_n in_o in_o some_o sort_n not_o in_o silence_n be_v silent_a in_o respect_n of_o external_a noise_n but_o very_o clamorous_a in_o respect_n of_o internal_a affection_n and_o nothing_o that_o be_v good_a do_v i_o say_v here_o before_o man_n which_o thou_o lord_n have_v not_o first_o in_o secret_n hear_v from_o i_o nor_o do_v thou_o hear_v any_o such_o thing_n from_o i_o but_o that_o thou_o also_o first_o haste_n say_v it_o unto_o i_o chap._n iii_o the_o end_n and_o fruit_n of_o his_o confess_v his_o present_a condition_n public_o before_o man_n but_o than_o what_o matter_n it_o that_o man_n shall_v 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answer_v to_o the_o objection_n of_o catholic_n make_v out_o of_o the_o scripture_n cap._n 11_o have_v set_v up_o a_o rhetoric_n school_n at_o rome_n his_o scholar_n there_o defraud_v he_o of_o their_o stipend_n cap._n 12_o recommend_v by_o symmachus_n he_o remove_v from_o rome_n to_o teach_v rhetoric_n at_o milan_n where_o he_o be_v favourable_o receive_v by_o s._n ambrose_n their_o bishop_n who_o sermon_n he_o frequent_v only_o for_o the_o fame_n of_o his_o eloquence_n cap._n 13_o and_o be_v by_o little_a and_o little_o take_v with_o his_o doctrine_n whereupon_o he_o resolve_v abandon_v the_o manichean_a sect_n to_o remain_v a_o catechumenus_fw-la in_o the_o church_n catholic_n till_o some_o further_a discovery_n of_o truth_n cap._n 14_o lib_fw-la vi_o his_o mother_n monica_n pass_v many_o danger_n at_o sea_n come_v to_o he_o to_o milan_n her_o vision_n at_o sea_n cap._n 1_o her_o great_a piety_n sobriety_n obedience_n to_o bishop_n ambrose_n prohibit_v feast_n at_o the_o tomb_n of_o martyr_n then_o anâ—_n usual_a custom_n in_o africa_n cap._n 2_o s._n ambrose_n his_o employment_n s._n austin_n find_v no_o opportunity_n of_o private_a discourse_n with_o he_o yet_o learn_v from_o his_o sermon_n that_o catholic_n hold_v not_o the_o doctrine_n charge_v on_o they_o by_o the_o manichee_n cap._n 3_o confute_v he_o blame_v his_o former_a too_o much_o caution_n and_o jealousy_n *_o in_o assent_v to_o the_o catholic_n tenant_n cap._n 4_o and*_n in_o acknowledge_v the_o divine_a authority_n of_o the_o scripture_n as_o they_o be_v deliver_v by_o the_o church_n cap._n 5_o his_o ambition_n and_o the_o care_n attend_v it_o his_o great_a solicitude_n be_v to_o speak_v a_o panegyric_n before_o the_o emperor_n much_o envy_v the_o secure_a mirth_n of_o a_o poor_a beggar_n see_v in_o the_o street_n cap._n 6_o of_o his_o friend_n alipius_n his_o scholar_n at_o carthage_n who_o he_o there_o reclaim_v from_o the_o vainsport_v of_o the_o circus_n but_o infect_v he_o with_o manicheism_n cap._n 7_o alipius_n before_o s._n augustine_n come_n thither_o a_o student_n of_o the_o law_n at_o rome_n how_o seduce_v there_o though_o very_o averse_a to_o behold_v and_o then_o to_o delight_v in_o the_o bloody_a show_n of_o the_o gladiator_n cap._n 8_o of_o his_o be_v apprehend_v when_o s._n augustine_n scholar_n at_o carthage_n for_o a_o thief_n his_o go_v to_o s._n austin_n to_o milan_n where_o he_o practise_v in_o the_o law_n cap._n 9_o a_o memorable_a example_n of_o alipius_n his_o integrity_n concern_v his_o other_o friend_n nebridius_fw-la desert_v his_o country_n for_o s._n augustine_n society_n and_o the_o study_n of_o wisdom_n cap._n 10_o s._n augustine_n reason_v with_o himself_o concern_v he_o past_a and_o present_a condition_n and_o the_o disposal_n of_o his_o future_a life_n the_o misery_n he_o apprehend_v to_o be_v in_o a_o single_a life_n cap._n 11_o the_o dispute_v between_o he_o and_o alipius_n most_o chaste_o dispose_v concern_v marriage_n and_o single_a life_n cap._n 12_o s._n austin_n suitor_n to_o a_o young_a maid_n with_o who_o marriage_n be_v intend_v but_o she_o as_o yet_o two_o year_n too_o young_a his_o mother_n seek_v but_o can_v obtain_v any_o revelation_n from_o god_n concern_v this_o marriage_n cap._n 13_o their_o live_v a_o many_o together_o and_o have_v all_o thing_n common_a in_o a_o marry_a condition_n design_v but_o soon_o lay_v aside_o cap._n 14_o his_o former_a concubine_n of_o who_o see_v 4_o l._n 2._o c._n be_v remove_v as_o a_o impediment_n to_o his_o marriage_n and_o leave_v with_o he_o the_o son_n he_o have_v by_o she_o return_v into_o africa_n vow_n continency_n instead_o of_o who_o he_o private_o take_v another_o cap._n 15_o yet_o his_o lust_n somewhat_o restrain_v from_o the_o fear_n he_o have_v *_o of_o death_n and*_n of_o the_o soul_n immortality_n and*_n of_o future_a judgement_n cap._n 16_o lib_fw-la vii_o his_o entrance_n now_o be_v thirty_o year_n old_a into_o man_n estate_n his_o apprehension_n of_o god_n as_o inviolable_a incorruptible_a immutable_a every_o way_n infinite_a but_o yet_o corporeal_a cap._n 1_o still_o unsatisfied_a concern_v the_o cause_n of_o evil_a and_o why_o angel_n and_o man_n be_v create_v by_o the_o most_o good_a god_n there_o shall_v by_o he_o be_v place_v in_o they_o a_o power_n to_o will_v evil_o cap._n 2_o 3_o pursue_v the_o same_o querie_n still_o unde_fw-la malum_fw-la yet_o *_o his_o faith_n of_o christ_n to_o be_v our_o lord_n and_o saviour_n remain_v in_o he_o firm_a and_o unshaken_a cap._n 4_o 5_o and*_n the_o lie_a divination_n of_o astrologer_n foretell_v from_o the_o star_n future_a event_n no_o way_n credit_v by_o he_o cap._n 6_o prosecute_a the_o same_o querie_n unde_fw-la malum_fw-la cap._n 7_o upon_o recommendation_n he_o fall_v to_o read_v the_o book_n of_o the_o platonist_n and_o discover_v in_o they_o much_o concern_v the_o divinity_n of_o the_o eternal_a word_n but_o nothing_o of_o the_o humility_n of_o his_o incarnation_n cap._n 9_o he_o now_o more_o clear_o discover_v divine_a matter_n that_o something_o may_v have_v a_o be_v and_o this_o not_o corporeal_a or_o extend_v in_o place_n cap._n 10_o that_o the_o creature_n may_v be_v say_v in_o some_o sense_n to_o have_v in_o another_o not_o to_o have_v a_o be_v cap._n 11_o that_o all_o nature_n even_o the_o corruptible_a be_v good_a though_o not_o the_o supreme_a good_n cap._n 12_o that_o there_o can_v be_v nothing_o in_o the_o world_n simple_o but_o only_o relative_o evil_a cap._n 13_o that_o sin_n be_v no_o substance_n but_o the_o perversity_n of_o a_o irregular_a will_n decline_v from_o its_o maker_n cap._n 16_o that_o he_o begin_v now_o to_o have_v a_o right_a opinion_n of_o god_n cap._n 17_o but_o have_v not_o yet_o a_o right_a opinion_n of_o the_o incarnation_n of_o the_o lord_n jesus_n the_o only_a way_n to_o salvation_n cap._n 18_o though_o from_o the_o platonic_a writing_n he_o become_v assure_v of_o many_o divine_a truth_n yet_o these_o book_n breed_v pride_n in_o he_o and_o not_o humility_n cap._n 20_o he_n last_o betake_v himself_o to_o read_v of_o the_o scripture_n especial_o those_o of_o s._n paul_n where_o he_o find_v the_o advancement_n of_o god_n grace_n and_o salvation_n through_o jesus_n christ_n to_o the_o penitent_a and_o humble_a cap._n 21_o lib_fw-la viii_o he_o go_v to_o consult_v simplicianus_n a_o holy_a man_n and_o the_o spiritual_a father_n of_o s._n ambrose_n about_o the_o future_a order_n of_o his_o life_n remain_v still_o passionate_o bend_v on_o marriage_n cap._n 1_o upon_o mention_n of_o victorinus_n a_o famous_a roman_a rhetorician_n simplicianus_n relate_v the_o story_n of_o victorinus_n his_o conversion_n to_o christianity_n cap._n 2_o why_o more_o joy_n for_o man_n convert_v than_o have_v they_o be_v always_o professor_n cap._n 3_o why_o more_o joy_n in_o the_o conversion_n of_o man_n eminent_a or_o noble_a cap._n 4_o what_o operation_n the_o story_n of_o victorinus_n have_v upon_o he_o and_o his_o great_a captivity_n under_o former_a ill_a custom_n cap._n 5_o after_o this_o pontitianus_n a_o african_a and_o a_o officer_n in_o the_o court_n giving_z him_z and_z alipius_n a_o visit_n occasional_o relate_v the_o story_n of_o s._n anthony_n and_o how_o two_o of_o his_o fellow-courtier_n upon_o the_o read_n thereof_o in_o the_o same_o moment_n renounce_v the_o world_n though_o both_o engage_v to_o mistress_n and_o betake_v themselves_o to_o a_o solitary_a life_n cap._n 6_o the_o tumult_n of_o his_o spirit_n upon_o pontitian_n discourse_n cap._n 7_o in_o this_o anguish_n of_o soul_n his_o retire_n into_o a_o garden_n alipius_n follow_v he_o cap._n 8_o the_o fierce_a combat_n there_o between_o the_o flesh_n and_o the_o spirit_n and_o his_o sad_a complaint_n of_o the_o gaeot_n difficulty_n the_o will_n have_v to_o command_v itself_o when_o it_o so_o easy_o command_v the_o other_o member_n cap._n 9_o 10_o 11_o his_o total_a conversion_n by_o read_v upon_o the_o hear_n a_o voice_n from_o heaven_n a_o passage_n of_o s._n paul_n where_o the_o book_n first_o open_v cap._n 12_o lib_fw-la ix_o doxology_n and_o thanksgiving_n for_o this_o his_o freedom_n from_o his_o former_a lust_n and_o the_o great_a joy_n and_o content_n he_o present_o receive_v therein_o cap._n 1_o his_o purpose_n to_o relinquish_v his_o profession_n of_o teach_v rhetoric_n but_o the_o thing_n defer_v till_o the_o vintage-vacation_n cap._n 2_o verecundus_n a_o citizen_n of_o milan_n offer_v his_o countryhouse_n for_o iheir_a retirement_n the_o death_n of_o verecundus_n and_o of_o nebridius_fw-la not_o long_o after_o s._n augustine_n conversion_n be_v both_o first_o make_v christian_n cap._n 3_o his_o retire_n in_o the_o vacation_n after_o his_o school_n dissolve_v to_o the_o country_n house_n of_o verecundus_n his_o meditation_n on_o the_o four_o psalm_n and_o his_o several_a writing_n there_o and_o the_o miraculous_a cure_n of_o his_o violent_a
prayer_n let_v my_o soul_n never_o faint_v under_o thy_o discipline_n nor_o grow-weary_a in_o confess_v thy_o mercy_n unto_o thou_o by_o which_o thou_o have_v draw_v i_o out_o of_o all_o my_o wicked_a way_n that_o thou_o thyself_o may_v become_v delicious_a unto_o i_o above_o all_o those_o charm_a seducement_n which_o i_o have_v heretofore_o pursue_v and_o that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o entire_o and_o kiss_v thy_o deliver_v hand_n with_o all_o the_o bowel_n of_o my_o affection_n that_o thou_o may_v yet_o rescue_v i_o out_o of_o all_o temptation_n even_o to_o the_o end_n for_o behold_v o_o lord_n my_o king_n may_v it_o now_o be_v for_o thy_o service_n whatever_o useful_a thing_n my_o childhood_n have_v learn_v may_v it_o be_v for_o thy_o service_n that_o i_o speak_v write_v read_v account_n because_o in_o my_o learning_n vain_a thing_n thou_o do_v not_o cease_v to_o discipline_n i_o and_o after_o my_o delight_v in_o those_o vanity_n thou_o have_v forgive_v i_o my_o sin_n for_o i_o leanrt_v in_o they_o many_o useful_a word_n but_o these_o also_o may_v be_v as_o well_o learn_v in_o thing_n not_o vain_a and_o that_o a_o far_o safe_a way_n wherein_o to_o guide_v the_o unwary_a step_n of_o yet-unseasoned_n youth_n chap._n xvi_o inveighing-against*lascivious_a fable_n but_o woe_n unto_o thou_o precipitous_a torrent_n of_o humane_a custom_n who_o shall_v stop_v thy_o heady_a course_n how_o long_o ere_o thy_o pernicious_a stream_n be_v dry_v up_o how_o long_o shall_v these_o carry_v down_o the_o son_n of_o eve_n into_o that_o huge_a and_o dreadful_a ocean_n over_o which_o those_o that_o be_v best_a embark_v be_v with_o hazard_n transport_v have_v i_o not_o read_v in_o thou_o both_o of_o a_o thunder_a and_o of_o a_o adulterate_n jove_n not_o that_o these_o two_o be_v ever_o real_o coincident_a to_o the_o same_o god_n but_o thus_o feign_v that_o man_n may_v have_v some_o authority_n to_o imitate_v the_o true_a adultery_n be_v countenance_v by_o that_o fabulous_a thunder_n 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templa_fw-la coeli_fw-la and_o the_o like_a unless_o terence_n have_v introduce_v a_o lascivious_a youth_n propose_v to_o himself_o jove_n for_o a_o pattern_n of_o whore_v whilst_o in_o survey_v a_o tablet_n on_o the_o wall_n he_o find_v therein_o this_o lascivious_a picture_n how_o they_o say_v jupiter_n upon_o a_o time_n once_o shower_v into_o danae_n lap_n a_o golden_a rain_n and_o so_o deceive_v the_o gold-enamoured_n maid_n and_o thence_o see_v how_o he_o heighten_v his_o lust_n from_o that_o divine_a copy_n of_o it_o as_o it_o be_v and_o what_o god_n be_v it_o say_v he_o that_o do_v this_o rape_n be_v it_o not_o he_o that_o make_v the_o arch_a temple_n of_o heaven_n tremble_v with_o his_o echo_a thunder_n and_o may_v not_o i_o then_o a_o frail_a tempt_v mortal_a do_v the_o same_o yes_o sure_o i_o do_v it_o and_o that_o well-pleased_a nor_o happen_v it_o from_o this_o unclean_a discourse_n that_o those_o word_n be_v any_o whit_n better_o learn_v but_o by_o these_o word_n convey_v it_o such_o uncleanness_n be_v more_o impudent_o attempt_v not_o that_o i_o blame_v *_o the_o word_n be_v as_o it_o be_v choice_n and_o precious_a vessel_n but_o *_o the_n wine_n of_o error_n which_o be_v minister_v in_o they_o unto_o we_o child_n by_o our_o fore-intoxicated_n master_n of_o which_o if_o we_o refuse_v to_o drink_v we_o be_v beat_v and_o have_v no_o sober_a judge_n to_o who_o we_o may_v appeal_v but_o i_o o_o my_o god_n in_o who_o presence_n my_o remembrance_n of_o these_o thing_n be_v now_o fear-less_a and_o secure_a i_o poor_a wretch_n then_o swallow_v those_o potion_n most_o willing_o and_o with_o great_a delight_n and_o for_o this_o be_v call_v a_o hopeful_a boy_n chap._n xvii_o and_o *_o the_o mis-use_a of_o his_o wit_n permit_v i_o also_o o_o my_o god_n to_o say_v something_o of_o my_o wit_n thy_o gift_n on_o what_o foolish_a labour_n it_o be_v then_o employ_v for_o than_o be_v set_v i_o a_o task_n very_o vexatious_a to_o my_o spirit_n upon_o the_o price_n of_o applause_n or_o shame_n and_o fear_v of_o whip_v to_o render_v rage_a juno_n speech_n when_o she_o so_o doleful_o lament_v non_fw-la posse_fw-la italia_n teucrorum_fw-la avertere_fw-la regem_fw-la that_o she_o can_v not_o from_o italy_n divert_v the_o trojan_a prince_n which_o word_n i_o have_v hear_v that_o juno_n never_o utter_v but_o we_o trace_v error_n be_v force_v to_o follow_v the_o footstep_n of_o such_o poetic_a fiction_n and_o to_o vary_v into_o prose_n what_o he_o express_v in_o verse_n and_o he_o do_v it_o with_o best_a applause_n who_o retain_v the_o dignity_n of_o the_o person_n represent_v can_v reach_v to_o a_o high_a strain_n of_o the_o like_a passion_n of_o anger_n and_o sorrow_n with_o a_o agreeable_a sense_n handsome_o dress_v in_o a_o apt_a expression_n and_o what_o happiness_n be_v it_o to_o i_o o_o thou_o my_o true_a life_n my_o god_n that_o my_o exercise_n shall_v be_v pre-applauded_n beyond_o many_o my_o coequal_o behold_v be_v not_o all_o such_o thing_n fume_n and_o vanity_n and_o be_v there_o then_o no_o other_o better_a thing_n wherein_o to_o have_v exercise_v our_o wit_n and_o eloquence_n even_o thy_o praise_n o_o lord_n thy_o praise_n in_o thy_o more_o holy_a writing_n these_o may_v have_v be_v a_o divine_a subject_n for_o the_o tender_a branch_n of_o my_o spread_a fancy_n to_o have_v clasp_v about_o and_o depend_v upon_o without_z *_o be_v trail_v on_o the_o ground_n among_o such_o empty_a trifle_n and_o *_o have_v its_o fruit_n make_v a_o filthy_a prey_n to_o those_o ravenous_a spiritual_a fowl_n of_o the_o air_n for_o many_o way_n there_o be_v whereby_o the_o precious_a fruit_n of_o our_o youth_n become_v a_o sacrifice_n to_o those_o unclean_a spirit_n chap._n xviii_o misguide_v by_o vicious_a example_n and_o more_o ashamed_a of_o the_o breach_n of_o grammar-rule_n than_o of_o god_n law_n but_o what_o wonder_n be_v it_o if_o i_o be_v thus_o carry_v away_o through_o vanity_n and_o go_v out_o from_o thy_o presence_n 4.16_o gen._n 4.16_o o_o my_o god_n when_o such_o man_n only_o be_v propose_v to_o my_o imitation_n who_o if_o they_o shall_v relate_v any_o of_o their_o action_n though_o not_o ill_a with_o any_o barbarism_n or_o solecism_n be_v censure_v for_o it_o be_v abash_v and_o confound_v but_o if_o they_o shall_v in_o a_o round_a and_o well-cohering_a stile_n fluent_o and_o neat_o express_v though_o one_o of_o their_o culpable_a lust_n be_v applaud_v for_o this_o become_v exalt_v with_o pride_n this_o thou_o see_v o_o lord_n and_o hold_v thy_o peace_n long-suffering_a and_o abundant_a in_o goodness_n and_o truth_n and_o will_v thou_o always_o hold_v thy_o peace_n no_o but_o thou_o draw_v out_o of_o this_o swallow_a deep_a the_o soul_n that_o seek_v after_o thou_o and_o thirst_v after_o thy_o chaste_a delight_n and_o who_o heart_n say_v unto_o thou_o i_o have_v seek_v thy_o face_n and_o lord_n thy_o face_n will_v i_o seek_v but_o 1.21_o ps_n 27.9_o vulg._n rom._n 1.21_o i_o then_o be_v depart_v far_o away_o from_o the_o light_n of_o thy_o countenance_n in_o my_o own_o darken_a affection_n for_o it_o be_v not_o by_o motion_n or_o measure_v of_o place_n that_o we_o recede_v from_o thou_o or_o return_v to_o thou_o for_o that_o thy_o prodigal_a young_a son_n in_o the_o gospel_n do_v he_o procure_v himself_o either_o horse_n or_o chariot_n 15._o luk._n 15._o or_o ship_n wing_a he_o himself_o to_o fly_v or_o gird_v he_o up_o his_o loin_n to_o run_v into_o a_o far_a country_n there_o lavish_o to_o waste_v the_o portion_n thou_o give_v he_o at_o his_o setting-forth_a a_o kind_a father_n that_o send_v he_o forth_o so_o rich_a and_o yet_o far_o more_o kind_a when_o he_o return_v to_o thou_o so_o poor_a no_o but_o his_o departure_n from_o thou_o be_v in_o his_o err_a mind_n and_o his_o course_v
reserve_v it_o as_o a_o sovereign_a remedy_n at_o last_o for_o cleanse_v they_o at_o once_o from_o all_o their_o forepart_a sin_n no_o christian_a profess_v nor_o baptize_v lest_o i_o shall_v stray_v in_o those_o common_a crooked_a byway_n in_o which_o other_o walk_v who_o turn_v not_o their_o face_n but_o back_o upon_o thou_o woe_n be_v i_o and_o dare_v i_o yet_o say_v that_o thou_o helde_v thy_o peace_n the_o while_o i_o wander_v thus_o still_o far_o from_o thou_o and_o who_o then_o but_o thou_o be_v that_o sweet_a counsel_n by_o my_o mother_n thy_o disciple_n which_o thou_o sung_a in_o my_o ear_n but_o nothing_o whereof_o descend_v into_o my_o heart_n to_o perform_v it_o for_o she_o request_v and_o in_o secret_a i_o remember_v with_o great_a solicitude_n admonish_v i_o to_o keep_v myself_o pure_a from_o woman_n especial_o from_o defile_v any_o one_o wife_n which_o seem_v to_o i_o but_o womanish_a advice_n and_o which_o man_n shall_v be_v ashamed_a to_o obey_v and_o it_o be_v thou_o and_o i_o know_v it_o not_o suppose_v thou_o to_o be_v silent_a and_o she_o to_o speak_v it_o who_o by_o she_o be_v not_o silent_a unto_o i_o and_o in_o she_o be_v also_o despise_v by_o i_o by_o i_o her_o son_n the_o son_n of_o thy_o handmaid_n 116.16_o psal_n 116.16_o and_o thy_o subject_n but_o i_o know_v it_o not_o and_o rush_v still_o headlong_o with_o so_o much_o precipitancy_n and_o blindness_n that_o among_o my_o equal_n i_o be_v ashamed_a of_o any_o less_o filthiness_n than_o what_o i_o hear_v they_o boast_v of_o and_o they_o boast_v every_o one_o so_o much_o more_o by_o how_o much_o more_o beastly_a they_o be_v and_o i_o rejoice_v to_o do_v the_o like_a as_o they_o do_v not_o only_o for_o the_o pleasure_n but_o praise_n of_o the_o fact_n what_o be_v there_o reproachful_a but_o only_a vice_n and_o i_o to_o avoid_v reproach_n still_o become_v more_o vicious_a and_o when_o there_o happen_v nothing_o by_o act_v whereof_o i_o may_v equal_v other_o guilt_n i_o feign_v i_o do_v what_o i_o do_v not_o lest_o i_o shall_v seem_v more_o contemptible_a by_o how_o much_o i_o be_v more_o innocent_a and_o lest_o i_o shall_v feem_v more_o vile_a by_o how_o much_o i_o be_v more_o chaste_a behold_v with_o what_o companion_n i_o travel_v in_o those_o street_n of_o babylon_n &_o wallow_v in_o the_o mire_n thereof_o as_o in_o a_o bed_n of_o spice_n and_o precious_a odour_n while_o the_o invisible_a enemy_n trample_v upon_o i_o and_o seduce_v i_o because_o i_o myself_o be_v prone_a also_o to_o be_v so_o seduce_v neither_o have_v that_o mother_n of_o my_o flesh_n already_o escape_v out_o of_o the_o midst_n of_o babylon_n but_o in_o the_o skirt_n thereof_o yet_o slow-paced_a though_o she_o have_v counsel_v i_o chastity_n so_o take_v care_n to_o restrain_v that_o lust_n which_o her_o husband_n have_v discover_v to_o she_o in_o i_o and_o which_o she_o know_v for_o the_o present_a so_o infectious_a and_o for_o the_o future_a so_o pernicious_a to_o i_o within_o the_o bound_n of_o a_o conjugal_a affection_n if_o it_o be_v find_v to_o be_v otherwise_o incurable_a she_o have_v not_o take_v due_a care_n of_o this_o because_o afraid_a lest_o all_o my_o hope_n shall_v be_v spoil_v by_o the_o fetter_n of_o a_o wife_n my_o hope_n not_o such_o a_o hope_n as_o my_o mother_n have_v in_o thou_o of_o the_o next_o happy_a world_n to_o come_v but_o the_o hope_n of_o my_o learning_n forsooth_o in_o which_o both_o my_o parent_n be_v too_o too_o desirous_a of_o my_o proficiency_n he_o because_o he_o think_v but_o little_a on_o thou_o and_o many_o vain_a thing_n of_o i_o she_o because_o she_o suppose_v those_o usual_a prosecution_n of_o science_n will_v be_v no_o hindrance_n but_o some_o help_n towards_o the_o knowledge_n of_o thou_o for_o such_o i_o conjecture_v be_v the_o inclination_n of_o my_o parent_n then_o also_o be_v the_o reins_o beyond_o all_o the_o temper_n of_o due_a severity_n let_v loose_a unto_o i_o of_o spend_v my_o time_n in_o idle_a sport_n and_o recreation_n 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vengeance_n melt_v and_o dissolve_v it_o at_o pleasure_n and_o there_o be_v nothing_o hide_v from_o thy_o heat_n 19.6_o psa_fw-la 19.6_o but_o yet_o let_v my_o soul_n be_v still_o praise_v and_o speak_v good_a of_o thou_o that_o for_o this_o it_o may_v love_v thou_o and_o let_v it_o be_v confess_v thy_o mercy_n unto_o thou_o that_o for_o they_o it_o may_v praise_v thou_o the_o whole_a creation_n cease_v not_o nor_o rest_v from_o praise_v thou_o both_o every_o spirit_n by_o their_o own_o mouth_n turn_v immediate_o upon_o thou_o and_o all_o corporeal_v also_o live_v or_o inanimate_a by_o the_o mouth_n of_o those_o who_o in_o they_o contemplate_v thy_o wisdom_n that_o so_o our_o weary_a and_o sick_a soul_n may_v thus_o erect_v itself_o and_o move_v towards_o thou_o and_o lean_v on_o the_o thing_n which_o thou_o have_v make_v may_v by_o they_o be_v conduct_v unto_o thou_o who_o make_v they_o all_o so_o admirable_o and_o there_o find_v refection_n and_o true_a strength_n chap._n ii_o invitation_n of_o all_o other_o stray_a sinner_n to_o return_v to_o the_o omnipotent_a god_n by_o confession_n the_o wicked_a discontent_a and_o restless_a may_v depart_v and_o fly_v from_o thou_o but_o still_o thou_o see_v they_o and_o divide_v the_o darkness_n 1.4.31_o gen._n 1.4.31_o and_o behold_v all_o thing_n round_o about_o they_o be_v still_o fair_a and_o lovely_a in_o thy_o sight_n only_o themselves_o deform_v for_o alas_o in_o thus_o abandon_v thou_o how_o have_v they_o hurt_v or_o frustrate_v thou_o at_o all_o or_o any_o way_n discompose_v thy_o absolute_a empire_n from_o the_o high_a heaven_n to_o the_o low_a abyss_n just_a and_o entire_a for_o whither_o flee_v they_o when_o they_o flee_v from_o before_o thy_o face_n or_o where_o be_v they_o not_o discover_v by_o thou_o they_o flee_v only_o 4.16_o gen._n 4.16_o *_o that_o themselves_o may_v not_o see_v thou_o when_o see_v they_o and_o may_v yet_o blindfold_a still_o run_v against_o thou_o who_o never_o departe_v from_o 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a_o great_a snare_n of_o the_o devil_n be_v and_o many_o be_v catch_v by_o the_o sweet_a bait_n of_o his_o smooth_a tongue_n which_o though_o i_o also_o much_o rellish_v in_o he_o yet_o can_v i_o well_o distinguish_v it_o from_o the_o verity_n of_o the_o thing_n which_o i_o desire_v to_o learn_v of_o he_o examine_v only_o what_o nourish_v provision_n of_o science_n he_o set_v before_o i_o and_o not_o in_o how_o rich_a a_o dish_n of_o language_n he_o serve_v it_o up_o for_o fame_n have_v before_o report_v he_o most_o know_v in_o all_o excellent_a learning_n and_o exquisite_o skill_v in_o the_o liberal_a arts._n and_o i_o have_v read_v former_o and_o still_o retain_v in_o memory_n much_o of_o the_o philosopher_n tenant_n begin_v to_o compare_v those_o with_o these_o long_a fable_n
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foretell_v the_o eclipse_n of_o the_o great_a light_n the_o sun_n and_o the_o moon_n in_o what_o day_n what_o hour_n and_o in_o how_o many_o digit_n they_o shall_v happen_v and_o their_o calculation_n have_v not_o fail_v but_o the_o event_n punctual_o answer_v their_o prescription_n and_o by_o the_o rule_n which_o they_o have_v deliver_v man_n still_o prognosticate_v in_o what_o year_n month_n day_n hour_n and_o in_o what_o portion_n of_o its_o light_n the_o sun_n or_o moon_n shall_v be_v darken_v and_o what_o be_v say_v be_v do_v and_o these_o thing_n the_o ignorant_a admire_v and_o stand_v amaze_v at_o the_o know_a exult_v in_o and_o glory_n of_o and_o yet_o be_v by_o their_o wicked_a pride_n put_v in_o this_o opposition_n to_o thou_o their_o sun_n and_o eclipse_v of_o thy_o light_n they_o that_o do_v so_o long_o before_o discover_v the_o sun_n or_o moon_n defect_n can_v though_o present_a discern_v their_o own_o for_o they_o do_v not_o religious_o search_v in_o the_o first_o place_n from_o whence_o they_o have_v that_o wit_n by_o which_o they_o search_v out_o other_o thing_n and_o again_o when_o find_v that_o thou_o be_v he_o that_o make_v they_o they_o do_v not_o restore_v themselves_o unto_o thou_o that_o thou_o may_v keep_v that_o in_o they_o which_o thou_o have_v make_v nor_o slaughter_n and_o sacrifice_n unto_o thou_o that_o which_o they_o have_v make_v themselves_o and_o offer_v up_o unto_o thou_o their_o exalt_a and_o soar_a imagination_n as_o the_o foul_n of_o the_o heaven_n their_o dive_v curiosity_n with_o which_o they_o walk_v through_o the_o path_n of_o the_o deep_a as_o the_o fish_n of_o the_o sea_n and_o their_o sensual_a luxury_n as_o the_o beast_n of_o the_o field_n that_o thou_o o_o god_n as_o a_o purge_a fire_n may_v consume_v in_o they_o there_o their_o former_a dead_a care_n and_o recreate_v they_o anew_o into_o immortality_n but_o these_o poor_a soul_n know_v not_o the_o way_n unto_o thou_o namely_o thy_o word_n by_o which_o be_v make_v all_o those_o thing_n they_o number_n and_o themselves_o also_o that_o number_n they_o and_o the_o reason_n by_o which_o they_o know_v how_o to_o number_v of_o which_o thy_o wisdom_n there_o be_v no_o number_n 1.30_o ps_n 147.5_o 1_o cor._n 1.30_o which_o only-begotten_a of_o thou_o be_v make_v unto_o we_o wisdom_n and_o righteousness_n and_o sanctification_n and_o descend_v so_o low_a as_o to_o be_v number_v among_o we_o and_o among_o we_o to_o pay_v caesar_n tribute_n this_o humble_a way_n they_o know_v not_o 17.27_o mat._n 17.27_o by_o which_o they_o shall_v descend_v first_o from_o themselves_o unto_o he_o that_o afterward_o by_o the_o same_o they_o may_v ascend_v unto_o he_o this_o way_n they_o know_v not_o and_o fancy_v themselves_o as_o illustrious_a and_o exalt_v among_o the_o star_n which_o they_o number_v 1.21_o rev._n 12.4_o rom._n 1.21_o behold_v they_o fall_v upon_o the_o earth_n and_o their_o foolish_a heart_n become_v darken_v and_o many_o truth_n indeed_o concern_v the_o creature_n be_v vent_v by_o they_o and_o yet_o the_o truth_n that_o form_v these_o creature_n remain_v to_o they_o undiscovered_a because_o not_o pious_o by_o they_o inquire_v of_o or_o if_o find_v yet_o know_v god_n they_o do_v not_o own_v he_o as_o god_n neither_o be_v thankful_a but_o become_v vain_a in_o their_o imagination_n and_o say_v they_o be_v wise_a etc._n rom._n 1.21_o etc._n etc._n thus_o attribute_v to_o themselves_o what_o be_v only_o thou_o and_o attribute_v to_o thou_o by_o a_o most_o obstinate_a cecity_n what_o be_v they_o namely_o forge_v lie_n of_o thou_o who_o be_v truth_n and_o change_v the_o glory_n of_o a_o incorruptible_a god_n into_o a_o image_n make_v like_a to_o corruptible_a man_n &_o to_o bird_n and_o fourfooted_a beast_n and_o creep_a thing_n they_o do_v also_o convert_v thy_o truth_n into_o a_o lie_n and_o worship_n and_o serve_v the_o creature_n before_o the_o creator_n yet_o many_o truth_n learn_v from_o the_o creature_n i_o receive_v from_o these_o man_n and_o see_v some_o reason_n thereof_o from_o calculation_n and_o the_o succession_n of_o time_n and_o the_o visible_a revolution_n of_o the_o star_n and_o these_o i_o confer_v with_o the_o dotage_n of_o manicheus_fw-la who_o have_v write_v much_o foolish_a stuff_n of_o the_o same_o subject_n and_o therein_o i_o can_v discover_v no_o reason_n neither_o of_o the_o solstice_n and_o aequinoctial_o nor_o of_o the_o eclipse_n nor_o of_o any_o other_o part_n of_o secular_a knowledge_n only_o there_o i_o be_v require_v to_o believe_v thing_n contrary_a to_o my_o experience_n chap._n four_o science_n not_o beatify_v and_o now_o be_v he_o such_o a_o one_o o_o lord_n the_o god_n of_o truth_n as_o know_v all_o these_o thing_n therefore_o a_o favourite_n to_o thou_o sure_o unhappy_a man_n he_o who_o know_v all_o these_o and_o know_v not_o thou_o and_o bless_v the_o man_n who_o know_v thou_o though_o none_o of_o these_o and_o who_o so_o know_v both_o they_o and_o thou_o happy_a he_o be_v not_o for_o they_o but_o for_o thou_o if_o know_v thou_o he_o as_o god_n glorify_v thou_o and_o be_v thankful_a unto_o thou_o and_o become_v not_o vain_a in_o his_o own_o imagination_n for_o as_o he_o be_v in_o a_o far_o better_a case_n that_o have_v the_o possession_n of_o a_o tree_n and_o for_o the_o fruit_n thereof_o give_v thou_o praise_n though_o he_o know_v not_o how_o tall_a the_o trunk_n thereof_o be_v or_o how_o many_o the_o branch_n than_o another_o who_o have_v exact_o measure_v it_o and_o count_v every_o sprig_n but_o neither_o owe_v it_o nor_o know_v nor_o love_v its_o maker_n even_o so_o the_o faithful_a who_o the_o whole_a world_n be_v and_o who_o as_o have_v nothing_o yet_o possess_v all_o thing_n by_o inhere_v in_o thou_o 6.10_o 2_o cor._n 6.10_o who_o owe_v all_o thing_n though_o he_o know_v not_o so_o much_o as_o the_o short_a revolution_n of_o charles_n wain_n yet_o it_o be_v silly_a to_o doubt_v that_o he_o be_v not_o a_o much_o better_a person_n than_o the_o surveyer_n of_o the_o heaven_n and_o the_o calculatâ—r_n of_o the_o star_n and_o the_o poiser_n of_o the_o element_n and_o meanwhile_o one_o careless_a of_o thou_o who_o be_v he_o that_o order_v all_o those_o thing_n in_o their_o exact_a number_n and_o weight_n and_o measure_n chap._n v._n yet_o the_o manichee_n ignorant_a also_o in_o they_o but_o yet_o what_o need_v i_o know_v not_o what_o manicheus_fw-la to_o trouble_v himself_o to_o write_v so_o much_o on_o these_o subject_n without_o the_o science_n of_o which_o true_a piety_n may_v well_o be_v learn_v and_o thou_o have_v say_v that_o piety_n and_o the_o fear_n of_o thou_o 28.28_o job_n 28.28_o this_o be_v wisdom_n of_o which_o he_o may_v possible_o be_v ignorant_a still_o though_o perfect_o know_v all_o those_o thing_n but_o in_o this_o most_o impudent_a presumption_n of_o he_o to_o teach_v such_o thing_n when_o he_o know_v they_o not_o must_v needs_o be_v ignorant_a of_o it_o for_o it_o be_v but_o a_o vanity_n to_o make_v much_o show_n and_o profession_n of_o such_o secular_a thing_n when_o never_o so_o well_o know_v by_o we_o and_o piety_n to_o be_v make_v our_o humble_a confession_n unto_o thou_o but_o he_o very_o deficient_a in_o this_o therefore_o by_o thy_o just_a permission_n spend_v much_o discourse_n on_o the_o other_o that_o so_o discover_v his_o error_n in_o thing_n so_o well_o know_v man_n may_v hence_o judge_v how_o to_o value_v his_o opinion_n in_o thing_n more_o hide_v and_o obscure_a chap._n vi_o faustus_n natural_o eloquent_a but_o very_o ignorant_a in_o those_o art_n wherein_o he_o be_v repute_v to_o excel_v therefore_o for_o almost_o all_o those_o nine_o year_n in_o which_o with_o a_o unsatisfy_a opinion_n i_o have_v be_v a_o disciple_n to_o those_o doctor_n i_o impatient_o expect_v the_o long_a longed-for_a come_n of_o this_o
heart_n and_o always_o in_o her_o prayer_n present_v and_o press_v as_o thy_o own_o hand-writing_n before_o thou_o for_o thou_o be_v please_v because_o everlasting_a be_v thy_o mercy_n not_o only_o to_o remit_v unto_o we_o all_o our_o debt_n but_o often_o with_o thy_o promise_n to_o become_v our_o debtor_n chap._n x._o recover_v he_o still_o consort_n with_o the_o manichee_n retain_v many_o of_o their_o error_n the_o chief_a of_o which_o be_v his_o imagine_v god_n a_o corporeal_a substance_n but_o with_o much_o more_o remisseness_n then_o former_o thus_o thou_o recover_v i_o from_o that_o sickness_n and_o heal_v the_o son_n of_o thy_o handmaid_n first_o in_o body_n that_o afterward_o thou_o may_v confer_v upon_o he_o a_o more_o excellent_a and_o permanent_a sanity_n of_o his_o soul_n too_o and_o here_o also_o at_o rome_n i_o usual_o converse_v with_o the_o same_o sect_n of_o those_o deceive_v and_o deceive_v saint_n not_o only_o with_o their_o auditor_n as_o they_o be_v call_v in_o 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inquire_v how_o this_o thing_n be_v to_o be_v believe_v or_o understand_v and_o not_o insult_o have_v oppose_v it_o as_o if_o so_o understand_v as_o i_o imagine_v and_o so_o much_o more_o solicitude_n now_o i_o have_v what_o thing_n i_o can_v hereafter_o pitch_v upon_o as_o certain_a from_o the_o shame_n i_o suffer_v in_o that_o i_o be_v so_o long_o delude_v and_o deceive_v by_o the_o manichee_n with_o the_o promise_n of_o all_o certainty_n in_o their_o school_n have_v with_o a_o childish_a ignorance_n and_o stubbornness_n prate_v so_o many_o now_o discourse_v uncertainty_n for_o thing_n most_o certain_a for_o that_o the_o thing_n i_o then_o maintain_v be_v utter_o false_a i_o full_o discern_v not_o till_o afterward_o but_o already_o certain_a i_o be_v that_o they_o be_v uncertain_a and_o that_o by_o i_o former_o they_o be_v take_v for_o certain_a when_o i_o so_o blind_o accuse_v thy_o catholic_n church_n now_o sufficient_o clear_v to_o i_o though_o not_o *_o that_o she_o teach_v the_o truth_n yet_o *_o that_o she_o teach_v not_o the_o opinion_n i_o so_o vehement_o persecute_v chap._n iu._n confute_v he_o blame_v his_o former_a too_o much_o caution_n and_o jealousy_n *_o in_o assent_v to_o the_o catholic_a tenant_n thus_o i_o be_v confound_v and_o convert_v &_o much_o joy_v o_o my_o god_n to_o find_v that_o thy_o only_a church_n the_o body_n of_o thy_o only_a son_n in_o which_o my_o insancy_n have_v receive_v the_o name_n of_o christ_n entertain_v no_o such_o childish_a conceit_n nor_o contain_v any_o such_o fancy_n in_o she_o most_o pure_a &_o sound_a doctrine_n as_o shall_v crowd_n up_o thou_o the_o creator_n of_o all_o thing_n within_o a_o circle_n of_o place_n though_o never_o so_o high_a and_o large_a yet_o on_o every_o side_n terminate_v and_o surround_v and_o thou_o also_o there_o clothe_v with_o a_o humane_a form_n and_o i_o rejoice_v also_o that_o those_o old_a writing_n of_o the_o law_n and_o the_o prophet_n be_v now_o propose_v to_o i_o to_o be_v peruse_v 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suspense_n whilst_o of_o thing_n not_o subject_v to_o sense_n i_o require_v the_o same_o certainty_n as_o i_o have_v of_o such_o a_o account_n as_o this_o that_o 7._o and_o 3._o make_v 10._o for_o i_o be_v not_o so_o senseless_a then_o as_o to_o think_v that_o neither_o this_o can_v certain_o be_v know_v but_o even_o so_o demonstrable_a as_o this_o i_o desire_v to_o have_v all_o thing_n else_o whither_o corporeal_a such_o as_o be_v not_o obvious_a to_o my_o sense_n or_o spiritual_a of_o which_o i_o have_v only_o a_o corporeal_a conceit_n and_o in_o this_o thing_n believe_v will_v easy_o have_v cure_v i_o that_o the_o better-cleared_n eyesight_n of_o my_o mind_n may_v in_o some_o manner_n have_v speculate_v thy_o truth_n for_o ever_o permanent_a and_o in_o nothing_o deficient_a but_o as_o the_o infirm_a who_o have_v fall_v into_o the_o hand_n of_o a_o unskilful_a physician_n afterward_o fear_v to_o commit_v themselves_o to_o the_o good_a such_o be_v this_o malady_n of_o my_o soul_n which_o without_o believe_v can_v not_o be_v heal_v and_o refuse_v also_o to_o be_v so_o cure_v for_o â—â—ar_v it_o shall_v believe_v again_o something_o that_o be_v fall_v e_o not_o smiâ—ring_v thy_o hand_n upon_o i_o who_o have_v compound_v this_o medicine_n of_o faith_n and_o apply_v it_o to_o the_o di_fw-mi ease_v of_o all_o the_o world_n and_o give_v unto_o it_o such_o power_n and_o efficacy_n to_o cure_v they_o chap._n v._n and_o *_o in_o acknowledge_v the_o divine_a authority_n of_o the_o scripture_n as_o they_o be_v deliver_v by_o the_o church_n and_o in_o this_o thing_n also_o i_o can_v not_o but_o prefer_v the_o catholic_n doctrine_n where_o with_o more_o modesty_n and_o no_o falâ—e_o deal_n i_o be_v pl_z inly_a require_v to_o believe_v what_o be_v not_o demonstrate_v
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holy_a pleasure_n which_o thy_o charity_n and_o thy_o mercy_n have_v bestow_v upon_o i_o take_v pity_n upon_o my_o poverty_n chap._n xxv_o but_o where_o be_v thou_o resident_a in_o my_o memory_n thou_o the_o lord_n what_o lodging_n have_v thou_o make_v there_o for_o thou_o what_o sanctuary_n have_v thou_o build_v i_o pass_v by_o the_o low_a part_n thereof_o common_a with_o beast_n because_o in_o my_o remember_v thou_o i_o find_v thou_o not_o there_o among_o the_o image_n of_o corporeal_a thing_n and_o i_o come_v to_o the_o part_n thereof_o where_o be_v store_v the_o affection_n of_o my_o soul_n neither_o yet_o there_o find_v i_o thou_o and_o i_o have_v enter_v into_o the_o very_a seat_n and_o lodging_n of_o my_o mind_n itself_o which_o seat_n also_o be_v there_o in_o my_o memory_n because_o the_o mind_n remember_v also_o its_o self_n and_o neither_o waist_n thou_o there_o for_o as_o thou_o be_v no_o image_n of_o a_o body_n nor_o no_o affection_n of_o the_o mind_n so_o neither_o be_v 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be_v i_o my_o lord_n have_v thou_o pity_v on_o i_o woe_n be_v i_o behold_v i_o conceal_v not_o my_o wound_n from_o thou_o thou_o be_v a_o physician_n i_o be_o sick_a thou_o be_v full_a of_o mercy_n i_o of_o misery_n be_v not_o man_n life_n upon_o the_o earth_n a_o continual_a temptation_n and_o who_o be_v there_o that_o can_v be_v in_o love_n with_o such_o trouble_n and_o difficulty_n thou_o command_v that_o they_o shall_v be_v suffer_v but_o not_o that_o they_o shall_v be_v love_v no_o man_n love_v what_o he_o suffer_v though_o he_o love_v to_o suffer_v for_o though_o he_o joy_n that_o he_o can_v tolerate_v and_o suffer_v
within_o it_o whole_a army_n of_o such_o copious_a vanity_n hence_o be_v our_o very_a prayer_n also_o often_o interrupt_v and_o disturb_v and_o even_o before_o thy_o face_n and_o whilst_o the_o voice_n of_o our_o heart_n be_v present_v unto_o thy_o ear_n so_o important_a a_o affair_n be_v sudden_o break_v off_o by_o the_o rush_n in_o i_o know_v not_o from_o whence_o of_o such_o nugatory_a cogitation_n have_v i_o account_v this_o sort_n of_o temptation_n a_o contemptible_a matter_n or_o be_v there_o any_o thing_n that_o among_o such_o infirmity_n revive_v my_o hope_n save_v whole_o thy_o mercy_n because_o thou_o have_v already_o begin_v to_o effect_v a_o change_n in_o i_o chap._n xxxvi_o 3._o his_o remain_a infirmity_n concern_v the_o temptation_n of_o the_o pride_n of_o life_n the_o great_a danger_n of_o vain-glorying_a â–³_o incur_v from_o the_o approbation_n and_o praise_n of_o man_n and_o thou_o know_v in_o how_o great_a a_o part_n thou_o have_v reform_v i_o who_o to_o come_v now_o 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the_o lord_n who_o have_v no_o other_o lord_n have_v this_o sort_n of_o temptation_n whole_o cease_v from_o i_o or_o can_v it_o cease_v at_o all_o in_o this_o life_n namely_o to_o desire_v to_o be_v reverence_v and_o to_o be_v love_v by_o man_n not_o for_o any_o other_o end_n save_v only_o that_o we_o may_v rejoice_v ourselves_o in_o it_o where_o be_v no_o cause_n of_o joy_n but_o such_o a_o life_n be_v true_o miserable_a and_o this_o boast_a full_a of_o shame_n for_o from_o this_o thing_n chief_o arise_v their_o not_o entire_o love_v thou_o and_o their_o not_o chastly-fearing_a thou_o 4.6_o jam._n 4.6_o therefore_o do_v thou_o resist_v such_o proud_a but_o give_v grace_v unto_o the_o humble_a and_o thou_o thunder_v over_o the_o head_n of_o the_o ambitious_a of_o this_o world_n and_o make_v the_o foundation_n of_o these_o mountain_n to_o tremble_v yet_o here_o because_o for_o the_o better_a perform_v several_a duty_n of_o humane_a society_n it_o be_v necessary_a both_o to_o be_v love_v and_o fear_v of_o man_n the_o adversary_n of_o our_o happiness_n press_v sore_o upon_o we_o in_o this_o matter_n strew_v on_o every_o side_n upon_o his_o snare_n euge_fw-la euge_fw-la that_o greedy_o gather_v up_o this_o we_o may_v be_v unaware_o catch_v by_o the_o other_o and_o may_v lay_v aside_o our_o joy_n in_o the_o truth_n of_o thou_o that_o we_o may_v place_v it_o in_o the_o falsehood_n of_o man_n and_o may_v covet_v to_o be_v love_v and_o fear_v of_o man_n not_o for_o thy_o sake_n but_o in_o thy_o stead_n and_o so_o be_v make_v like_o unto_o he_o he_o may_v also_o link_v we_o with_o he_o not_o in_o the_o union_n of_o love_n 14.13_o esas_fw-la 14.13_o but_o in_o the_o fellowship_n of_o punishment_n who_o strive_v to_o exalt_v his_o throne_n in_o the_o side_n of_o the_o north_n that_o he_o imitate_v thou_o in_o a_o opposite_a way_n his_o vassal_n contrary_a to_o the_o light_n and_o heat_n of_o love_n which_o thou_o enjoy_v may_v serve_v in_o cold_a and_o darkness_n but_o we_o o_o lord_n behold_v we_o be_v thy_o little_a flock_n keep_v thou_o still_o the_o possession_n of_o we_o stretch_v forth_o thy_o wing_n over_o we_o and_o let_v we_o fly_v under_o they_o be_v thou_o all_o our_o glory_n let_v we_o love_v and_o be_v love_v only_o for_o thy_o sake_n and_o let_v thy_o word_n only_o be_v fear_v in_o we_o he_o that_o belong_v to_o be_v commend_v by_o man_n when_o thou_o disapprove_v he_o shall_v not_o be_v justify_v by_o man_n when_o thou_o judge_v he_o nor_o rescue_v by_o man_n when_o thou_o condemne_v he_o and_o when_o vulg._n psal_n 9.29_o vulg._n not_o he_o that_o be_v a_o sinner_n be_v bless_v in_o his_o wickedness_n which_o he_o have_v do_v but_o a_o man_n be_v commend_v for_o some_o good_a which_o thou_o have_v give_v he_o and_o yet_o that_o man_n rejoice_v more_o within_o himself_o that_o he_o be_v commend_v than_o that_o he_o have_v from_o thou_o that_o gift_n for_o which_o he_o be_v so_o praise_v he_o also_o be_v commend_v whilst_o thou_o disallow_a 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