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The life, confession, and heartie repentance of Francis Cartwright, Gentleman for his bloudie sinne in killing of one Master Storr, Master of Arts, and minister of Market Rason in Lincolnshire. Written with his owne hand.
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Cartwright, Francis.
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1621
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and for the price and satisfaction made by this bloud do I cry for mercie mercie and earnestly desire grace to liue hereafter an holy and righteous life I am a Christian and a penitent Sinner how can I despaire or doubt of saluation knowing Gods infinite Mercie and Truth that he is not onely a God of Mercy readie to pardon but also a God of Truth who will truly fulfill his word and promise of pardon vpon mens true Repentance as of iustice in punishing them who persist in sinnes committed Why should I bee afraid to touch the hemme of my Sauiours garment seeing his promises are made vnto mee his satisfaction for me and for such Sinners as I am he did vndergoe all his sufferings from the pricke of the Thorne to the wound with the Speare from his first groane to his last act of passion his graue and buriall to his Resurrection and Ascension into Glory Mee thinkes those blessed words of the Apostle are spoken not onely to me but of mee Iesus Christ came into the World to saue Sinners of whom I am the chiefe Can I repenting doubt Can I being a Christian bee so base as to bee ashamed to confesse the Faith of our Lord Iesus Christ Can I haue more content or ayme at more then to be a Christian Conuert and a true Penitent seeing there is no higher honour in the world to bee aymed at no glory comparable to bee a true Christian Can disgrace pouertie calamitie height or depth life or death sinne or the Deuill daunt me They cannot they cannot for I finde God a light to mee in the midst of darknesse and a refreshing comfort in all calamities In so much that when I am in the deepest despayre for my sinnes in the greatest agonies and horrours of conscience and most bitter passions thinking with my selfe what an Estate I once had and how poore I am now How I was valued now despised how they who esteemed mee liuing in sinne doe now refuse mee repenting of my sinne What great cause of discomfort it is to me that I cannot nor am able to haue the breeding or to enioy the sight of my Children being Infants for whom I would suffer death hauing no refuge but to bee a Souldier or serue yet still euen when I am thus deiected and cast downe as low as sinne misery and the Deuill can cast me downe I doe not let goe my hold but doe cleaue to God and am vpholden by him continually When it is manifest that none of these things can tempt and allure me eyther to remoue my Religion which I professe or to forsake my Lord Iesus Christ whom I should forsake and forgoe if I should resolue to liue in Theft Piracie or any other sinne That I haue time to publish this I am fully satisfied my soule is at rest I am lesse carefull of my life a thousand times not desperately but humbly yeelding my selfe to God if I starue perish dye by the Sword bee taken captiue by the Turke and liue a most miserable Slaue all my dayes Yea come wofull life or shamefull death I will trust in God though he kill me and will neuer flye from him And here I professe and protest before God and the World that as I haue dishonoured God stayned my selfe with bloud in a most vile and abominable manner and defiled the honour of Religion to the great scandall and offence of many So I doe now with all my heart desire if I may be thought worthy and haue a due calling thereunto to stand with my Sword in my hand and to expose my selfe to the greatest dangers in the World in the most bloudie Battels Fire or Sword where God may shew extraordinarie Mercie or Iudgement in the defence of the Gospell and of true Christian Religion And as I haue basely slaine a Minister of Gods Word so in defence of the men of God the faithfull Ministers of his Word in this Church of England I may in any breach or danger interpose my selfe euen betweene them and death and defie and withstand all their Enemies or any other wayes yeeld my selfe to Gods Iudgements Tryals Corrections and Directions in a Vocation how low and meane soeuer and neuer turne Capuchine or take vpon mee any Popish and Superstitious Vow and profession of austeritie which is a fit refuge for Cowards Cains and Iudasses Though my sins are innumerable and abominable which still hang fast on me and cleaue as rust vnto my corrupt nature yet I haue the Balme of Gilead the bloud of Iesus Christ the mercie of God and the Diuine Power of Heauen to counteruaile them all Yea I haue many markes and tokens of Gods grace giuen to me and of his mercy shewed towards me which doe much refresh my soule As first that I aske and sue for mercie at no other power but at the hand of God for our Lord Iesus Christs sake and so in the right way to the Fountaine of Life Secondly That I find great content and comfort in wrastling against flesh and bloud and all myne owne corruptions and in maintayning to the Deuils face my Religion Faith Hope Repentance Thirdly That I hold my certaine and resolute determination as an armour against his fiery Darts and doe still lay fast and sure hold on our Lord Iesus Christ hoping to perseuer and hold out to the end Fourthly That I haue peace of conscience more then the World is worth which if I neuer had tasted nor knowne but were as an Heathen or Turke I should with the World holding that for bloud vengeance must haunt without Redemption and so being frighted with Furies vnknowne and endlesse grow desperate and like Varney and Dansekar dye with bloudie content in reuenge or prosecute till death Piracie or Theft to mitigate my endlesse tormenting miseries and to leaue my Children an Estate though neuer so vniustly got Fiftly That I cannot be brought to deny Christ or to doubt that there is a Christ nor be pulled from beleeuing in Christ and hope to bee saued through him by the Deuill nor all my sinnes if I had all the sinnes in the World vpon me Sixtly That I am deliuered from the danger and infection of the Romish Religion For if I were of that Religion I would attempt any sinfull course as Theft or Piracie to releeue my wants in hope of Pardon Penance or Purgatorie for no punishment should terrifie me let it bee whatsoeuer it could bee euen Purgatorie it selfe so it might haue end I would willingly endure it if so be it might procure me pardon and vnder that condition grant mee libertie to sinne I should with them of that Religion hold that Iustice must bee satisfied necessarily vpon Sinners in this World and that by our owne bodily sufferings sinne must bee expiated and there is no auoyding it And so I would seeke by voluntary earthly punishment in this life to satisfie Iustice by turning Pilgrime or Capuchine Yea I am assured that our Lord Iesus hath satisfied for all punishments of vengeance both temporall and eternall though I haue endured or should hereafter vndergoe all miseries and calamities and euen a most bitter and painfull death yet I doe not account them any satisfaction or expiation my bloud cannot satisfie for bloud I may if God should so dispose haue a bloudie end as a iust reward of my sinne I cannot deny it but what can satisfie to iustifie Surely none of mine owne miserable calamities can make any part of satisfaction that is a thing which I vtterly disclayme onely the bloud and satisfaction of Iesus Christ is that on which I doe lay hold and relye by Faith for Iustification Yet because not onely the Maiestie of God hath beene deeply offended by my haynous transgressions but also his Church greatly scandalized and the mindes of my graue Fathers and deare Brethren in Christ no lesse deeply wounded in their compassion for him that dyed by my hand then himselfe was in his passion and bodily dissolution whose many wounds bleed a fresh in my eyes and memorie I professe my selfe readie and willing to endure whatsoeuer other humiliation this blessed Church hath or shall impose vpon mee for the further assurance of my satisfaction to her which may in some sort suite with the depth of my offence against her and her Children Verily as I abhorre Popish satisfaction derogating from the merits of Christs bloud so I with others more learned then my selfe wish that the ancient Discipline of the Primitiue sincere Church were more throughly reuiued in euery scandalous crime by publike confession submission and satisfaction to the Christian Congregation Wherein my self desire as much to go beyond others in my humiliation as I haue exceeded all in my presumptuous transgressions With offensiue but penitent Ecebolius in the Ecclesiasticall History I say of my selfe Cast me out tread vpon me for vnsauourie Salt FINIS Prou. 1. 7 8 9. Psal 139. 7 â— Esay 1. 1â— Mat. 25.