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and_o do_v sing_v fince_n i_o come_v hither_o and_o my_o ground_n why_o i_o do_v insert_v it_o p._n 133-138_a 22._o a_o little_a brief_a account_n of_o my_o imprisonment_n with_o the_o sorrow_n and_o censure_n that_o do_v attend_v i_o in_o these_o suffering_n p._n 138-140_a 23._o some_o account_n of_o my_o imprisonment_n in_o the_o tower_n and_o of_o my_o be_v bring_v before_o the_o king_n and_o the_o business_n relate_v to_o his_o father_n will_n leave_v with_o i_o p._n 140-142_a 24._o the_o ground_n of_o my_o willingness_n to_o go_v beyond_o sea_n if_o i_o may_v p._n 143-147_a 25._o a_o letter_n from_o a_o friend_n and_o my_o answer_n p._n 148-151_a errata_fw-la reader_n in_o regard_n of_o the_o author_n condition_n &_o distance_n from_o the_o press_n some_o fault_n have_v escape_v the_o great_a whereof_o be_v the_o title_n over_o the_o head_n of_o the_o page_n viz._n innocency_n though_o under_o a_o cloud_n clear_v which_o relate_v only_o to_o some_o part_n of_o the_o book_n the_o 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grace_n of_o the_o father_n o_o have_v not_o this_o foundation_n be_v lay_v i_o must_v have_v be_v leave_v be_v a_o man_n of_o sorrow_n surround_v on_o every_o side_n and_o every_o window_n be_v shut_v but_o this_o of_o the_o lord_n love_n o_o bless_a 〈◊〉_d his_o name_n o_o all_o you_o saint_n that_o love_v and_o fear_v the_o lord_n bless_v he_o and_o seek_v no_o foundation_n but_o what_o god_n have_v lay_v but_o more_o of_o this_o hereafter_o the_o next_o scripture_n by_o which_o god_n do_v appear_v to_o refresh_v my_o heart_n be_v in_o john_n 18.11_o it_o be_v the_o word_n of_o christ_n in_o answer_n to_o peter_n who_o in_o his_o mistake_a love_n tender_v christ_n person_n more_o than_o god_n pleasure_n and_o in_o answer_n to_o that_o christ_n let_v he_o know_v that_o be_v father_n pleasure_n be_v by_o he_o high_o priâ—ed_v than_o his_o own_o preservation_n and_o say_v the_o cup_n which_o my_o father_n give_v i_o shall_v i_o not_o â—â—ink_v it_o he_o do_v not_o say_v the_o cup_n my_o 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