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for_o my_o own_o sake_n but_o for_o my_o neighbour_n good_a i_o ought_v to_o take_v content_a in_o my_o praise_n but_o whether_o indeed_o it_o be_v so_o i_o be_o ignorant_a and_o less_o do_v i_o know_v of_o myself_o than_o of_o thou_o in_o this_o matter_n therefore_o i_o beseech_v thou_o o_o my_o god_n reveal_v thou_o myself_o unto_o i_o that_o i_o may_v confess_v my_o discover_a wound_n unto_o my_o brethren_n who_o may_v pray_v to_o thou_o for_o i_o let_v i_o yet_o more_o diligent_o question_v myself_o in_o this_o matter_n if_o it_o be_v in_o respect_n of_o my_o neighbour_n benefit_n only_o that_o i_o be_o so_o touch_v with_o my_o own_o praise_n why_o then_o be_o i_o less_o move_v in_o the_o injurious_a disparagement_n of_o another_o than_o if_o it_o be_v of_o myself_o and_o why_o be_o i_o much_o more_o nettle_v with_o a_o contumely_n throw_v upon_o myself_o than_o when_o it_o be_v so_o upon_o another_o in_o my_o presence_n with_o the_o same_o injustice_n 141.5_o psal_n 141.5_o can_v i_o also_o plead_v my_o ignorance_n and_o uncertainty_n for_o this_o or_o shall_v i_o endeavour_v here_o also_o to_o delude_v myself_o and_o nor_o confess_v the_o truth_n before_o thou_o both_o in_o heart_n and_o tongue_n lord_n such_o a_o folly_n put_v thou_o far_o from_o i_o and_o let_v not_o my_o own_o mouth_n go_v about_o to_o anoint_v and_o perfume_v my_o head_n with_o the_o flatter_a oil_n of_o sinner_n i_o be_o poor_a and_o needy_a and_o the_o best_a when_o with_o secret_a lament_n displease_v myself_o and_o invocate_a thy_o mercy_n until_o these_o my_o deficiency_n be_v repair_v and_o perfect_v into_o a_o full_a repose_n and_o peace_n a_o peace_n hide_v from_o the_o eye_n of_o the_o arrogant_a and_o self-conceited_a chap._n xxxviii_o â–³_o incur_v also_o from_o the_o contemn_v of_o praise_n as_o this_o also_o be_v a_o thing_n praiseworthy_a chief_z speech_n that_o be_v eloquent_a and_o good_a action_n that_o be_v public_a and_o eminent_a cause_n in_o we_o a_o most_o perilous_a temptation_n from_o this_o our_o love_n of_o praise_n which_o subtlety_n assay_v to_o procure_v the_o applause_n of_o other_o to_o the_o advance_n of_o my_o own_o private_a excellency_n even_o then_o also_o when_o such_o love_n of_o praise_n in_o i_o be_v censure_v by_o i_o and_o for_o that_o very_a reason_n because_o it_o be_v so_o censure_v and_o often_o do_v a_o man_n more_o vain_o glory_n of_o the_o very_a contempt_n of_o vainglory_n and_o therefore_o now_o in_o truth_n the_o contempt_n of_o vainglory_n be_v not_o gloryed-of_a by_o he_o for_o he_o utter_o contemn_v it_o not_o so_o long_o as_o within_o himself_o he_o retein_v still_o some_o glory_v chap._n thirty-nine_o incur_v also_o from_o self-love_n and_o self-conceit_n without_o regard_n to_o praise_v from_o other_o there_o be_v yet_o within_o we_o another_o disease_n in_o the_o same_o kind_n of_o temptation_n namely_o a_o vanity_n in_o man_n of_o self_n love_v and_o pleaâ—â—ng_v themselves_o in_o themselves_o *_o whether_o it_o happen_v that_o they_o please_v or_o that_o they_o displease_v abroad_o and*_n wherein_o they_o affect_v not_o the_o please_a of_o other_o but_o these_o man_n whilst_o thus_o please_v themselves_o much_o do_v they_o displease_v thou_o not_o only_o in_o glory_v in_o some_o thing_n not_o good_a as_o in_o good_a but_o also_o in_o thy_o good_a thing_n as_o if_o in_o their_o own_o or_o also_o in_o glory_v in_o they_o as_o thou_o but_o as_o confer_v on_o they_o for_o some_o merit_n of_o their_o own_o or_o also_o as_o in_o thou_o without_o any_o their_o merit_v but_o yet_o not_o sociable_o joy_v in_o they_o but_o as_o envy_v the_o same_o grace_n of_o thou_o to_o other_o in_o all_o these_o and_o the_o like_a peril_n and_o travel_n thou_o see_v the_o fear_n and_o tremble_n of_o my_o heart_n and_o i_o rather_o perceive_v such_o wound_n to_o be_v by_o thou_o continual_o cure_v within_o i_o than_o not_o to_o be_v at_o all_o receive_v chap._n xl._n a_o recapitulation_n of_o the_o thing_n former_o speak_v in_o this_o book_n s._n augustine_n sometime_o extraordinary_a transportment_n in_o the_o contemplation_n and_o love_n of_o god_n o_o truth_n where_o have_v not_o thou_o walk_v along_o with_o i_o and_o be_v instruct_v i_o what_o i_o shall_v avoid_v and_o what_o affect_v when_o i_o recount_v unto_o thou_o my_o mental_a discovery_n such_o as_o i_o be_v able_a to_o make_v and_o consult_v thou_o concern_v they_o i_o surveigh_v the_o world_n abroad_o with_o the_o sense_n serve_v i_o for_o that_o purpose_n and_o after_o this_o i_o reflect_v *_o upon_o the_o vegetable_a life_n of_o my_o own_o body_n and_o *_o upon_o those_o my_o sense_n from_o hence_o i_o enter_v further_o into_o the_o inner_a chamber_n of_o my_o memory_n those_o manifold_a capacity_n fill_v with_o a_o innumerable_a store_n of_o wonderful_a thing_n i_o consider_v they_o and_o remain_v amaze_v at_o they_o and_o none_o of_o they_o can_v i_o discern_v without_o thou_o and_o yet_o i_o find_v none_o of_o they_o to_o be_v thou_o neither_o yet_o be_v it_o thou_o i_o the_o discoverer_n himself_o who_o travel_v over_o all_o these_o and_o endeavour_v to_o distinguish_v and_o value_v each_o one_o according_a to_o their_o several_a dignity_n *_o receive_n some_o from_o the_o message_n of_o my_o sense_n *_o question_v about_o other_o more_o intimate_a and_o not_o usher_v in_o by_o they_o whence_o they_o be_v and_z *_o number_n the_o several_a messenger_n whence_o i_o receive_v they_o and_o then_o after_o thus_o have_v display_v in_o my_o memory_n all_o its_o treasure_n *_o handle_n and_o examine_v some_o part_n *_o laying-up-again_a other_o examine_v and_o *_o drawing-out_a other_o to_o be_v peruse_v neither_o i_o say_v be_v i_o myself_o who_o wrought_v all_o this_o that_o be_v my_o faculty_n by_o which_o i_o wrought_v it_o neither_o be_v this_o thou_o my_o lord_n for_o thou_o be_v a_o light_n always_o permanent_a and_o immutable_a which_o light_n i_o still_o consult_v concern_v all_o these_o whether_o and_o what_o and_o of_o what_o worth_n they_o be_v and_o i_o listen_v unto_o its_o instruct_v i_o and_o command_v i_o and_o this_o i_o still_o continue_v to_o consult_v this_o be_v my_o great_a delight_n and_o so_o often_o as_o i_o can_v be_v release_v from_o other_o necessary_a affair_n i_o repair_v to_o this_o pleasure_n neither_o find_v i_o in_o all_o these_o thing_n which_o i_o run_v through_o and_o wherein_o i_o consult_v thou_o any_o place_n of_o settlement_n for_o my_o soul_n save_v only_o in_o thou_o whither_o all_o my_o dissipation_n final_o may_v be_v recollect_v and_o from_o whence_o nothing_o of_o i_o may_v eyer_n again_o be_v stray_v and_o sometime_o thou_o do_v admit_v i_o *_o into_o a_o affection_n very_o unusual_a within_o the_o
great_a mystery_n of_o the_o incarnation_n of_o thy_o son_n and_o by_o the_o ministry_n of_o thy_o preacher_n of_o it_o chap._n ii_o yet_o how_o may_v i_o call_v upon_o or_o invoke_v my_o god_n my_o god_n and_o my_o lord_n since_o to_o invoke_v he_o be_v to_o call_v he_o into_o i_o and_o what_o mansion_n within_o i_o where_o my_o god_n may_v reside_v god_n within_o i_o that_o make_v heaven_n and_o earth_n be_v there_o then_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n any_o room_n so_o spacious_a in_o i_o that_o can_v receive_v thou_o nay_o can_v the_o vast_a globe_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n thing_n that_o thou_o have_v make_v and_o i_o a_o small_a point_n within_o their_o womb_n can_v these_o in_o any_o wise_a receive_v thou_o or_o be_v it_o so_o that_o since_o nothing_o that_o be_v can_v be_v without_o thou_o therefore_o whatever_o be_v must_v needs_o receive_v thou_o since_o than_o i_o also_o be_o in_o be_v what_o need_v i_o entreat_v thy_o access_n into_o i_o who_o therefore_o be_o because_o thou_o be_v in_o i_o who_o be_o not_o yet_o a_o thing_n so_o low_a and_o remote_a as_o hell_n or_o the_o grave_a and_o yet_o thou_o be_v present_a there_o for_o if_o i_o go_v down_o into_o hell_n thou_o be_v there_o also_o 139.7_o psal_n 139.7_o therefore_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v o_o my_o god_n not_o be_v at_o all_o but_o only_o by_o thy_o be_v in_o i_o or_o rather_o i_o shall_v not_o be_v but_o by_o be_v in_o thou_o of_o who_o and_o by_o who_o and_o in_o who_o 11.36_o rom._n 11.36_o all_o thing_n be_v it_o be_v so_o lord_n even_o so_o whether_o then_o may_v i_o invoke_v thou_o see_v i_o be_o already_o in_o thou_o or_o from_o whence_o thou_o draw-near_a unto_o i_o for_o whither_o can_v i_o retire_v beyond_o the_o utmost_a limit_n of_o heaven_n and_o earth_n to_o invite_v from_o thence_o my_o god_n into_o i_o who_o have_v say_v i_o fill_v the_o heaven_n and_o the_o earth_n 23.24_o jer._n 23.24_o chap._n iii_o but_o do_v the_o heaven_n and_o earth_n thus_o fill_v by_o thou_o therefore_o contain_v thou_o or_o do_v thou_o replenish_v these_o and_o yet_o overflow_v because_o they_o can_v whole_o receive_v thou_o and_o where_o then_o do_v thou_o effund_v these_o vessel_n run_v over_o the_o remainder_n of_o thyself_o or_o have_v thou_o no_o need_n of_o any_o thing_n at_o all_o to_o contain_v thou_o who_o thyself_o conteine_v all_o thing_n for_o in_o thy_o fill_v they_o thou_o do_v also_o contain_v they_o and_o they_o be_v full_a of_o thou_o by_o be_v receive_v into_o thou_o for_o the_o vessel_n that_o be_v replenish_v with_o thou_o add_v to_o thy_o fluxure_n no_o consistency_n because_o thou_o be_v not_o shed_v at_o all_o when_o they_o be_v break_v and_o when_o thou_o be_v pour_v out_o upon_o we_o thou_o be_v not_o spill_v 2.18_o act._n 2.18_o but_o we_o be_v conserve_v nor_o thou_o dissipate_v but_o we_o by_o thou_o recollect_v and_o keep_v from_o effusion_n but_o thou_o who_o thus_o fille_v all_o thing_n fille_v thou_o each_o with_o all_o thyself_o or_o they_o not_o capable_a of_o thou_o whole_o do_v they_o only_o receive_v some_o part_n and_o then_o do_v they_o all_o receive_v the_o same_o or_o several_a part_n of_o thou_o the_o great_a taking_n more_o the_o lesser_a a_o less_o and_o be_v there_o then_o some_o part_n of_o thou_o great_a and_o some_o less_o or_o be_v thou_o every_o where_o total_o yet_o no_o where_o total_o receive_v chap._n iu._n o_o what_o be_v thou_o therefore_o my_o god_n what_o can_n i_o say_v be_v thou_o but_o the_o lord_n god_n for_o who_o be_v god_n 18.31_o ps_n 18.31_o but_o the_o lord_n or_o who_o be_v god_n save_v our_o god_n o_o thou_o most_o high_a most_o good_a most_o potent_a most_o omnipotent_a most_o merciful_a and_o most_o just_a most_o present_a and_o most_o retire_a the_o fair_a and_o the_o strong_a stable_n and_o yet_o not_o comprehensible_a unchangeable_a and_o yet_o all-changing_a never_o new_a nor_o never_o old_a and_o all-renewing_a only_o wither_v and_o bring_v to_o nothing_o the_o proud_a and_o gallant_a before_o they_o be_v aware_a always_o in_o action_n and_o always_o in_o repose_n still_o gather_v and_o nothing_o lack_v support_v fill_v and_o overspreading_a all_o thing_n their_o father_n nurse_n and_o accomplisher_n still_o in_o chase_n of_o what_o be_v possess_v a_o lover_n without_o affection_n jealous_a without_o fear_v a_o rival_n repent_v thou_o without_o any_o sorrow_n angry_a yet_o still_o most_o calm_o serene_a change_v oft_o thy_o work_n never_o thy_o design_n find_v and_o receive_v again_o what_o be_v never_o lose_v never_o needy_a yet_o fond_a of_o gain_n not_o cover_v yet_o exact_v use_n man_n supererogate_v unto_o thou_o that_o thou_o become_v their_o debtor_n and_o yet_o who_o have_v any_o thing_n not_o thou_o thou_o pay_v debt_n yet_o owe_v nothing_o forgive_v they_o and_o lose_v nothing_o and_o what_o be_v all_o this_o that_o i_o say_v o_o my_o god_n my_o life_n my_o sacred_a sweet-delight_n or_o what_o amount_v it_o unto_o that_o any_o one_o say_v when_o he_o assay_v to_o speak_v of_o thou_o and_o yet_o wo_n to_o they_o who_o in_o thy_o praise_n be_v silent_a though_o in_o it_o they_o be_v no_o more_o than_o mute_a who_o be_v most_o eloquent_a nothing_o eloquent_a or_o whereln_n the_o very_a dumb_a say_v something_o and_o such_o as_o say_v most_o say_v nothing_o chap._n v._n o_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v that_o i_o may_v for_o ever_o repose_v and_o acquiesce_v in_o thou_o what_o shall_v i_o do_v to_o have_v my_o soul_n wholly-poss_a with_o and_o inebriate_v by_o they_z so_o to_o enjoy_v a_o eternal_a oblivion_n of_o all_o past_a evil_n and_o the_o perpetual_a embrace_n of_o thou_o my_o only_a good_a and_o in_o this_o so_o much_o on_o both_o side_n longed-for_a union_n what_o good_a be_v thou_o to_o i_o let_v thy_o mercy_n indulge_v i_o to_o speak_v unto_o thou_o or_o what_o good_a be_o i_o to_o thou_o that_o thou_o exact_a of_o i_o that_o i_o shall_v love_v thou_o and_o if_o i_o do_v it_o not_o be_v high_o displease_v and_o threaten_v to_o bring_v on_o i_o the_o great_a misery_n be_v this_o then_o so_o small_a a_o misery_n for_o i_o not_o to_o love_v thou_o ah_o by_o thy_o mercy_n tell_v i_o o_o lord_n my_o god_n what_o be_v that_o great_a thing_n that_o thou_o be_v unto_o i_o say_v unto_o my_o soul_n i_o be_o thy_o salvation_n it_o psal_n 35.3_o exo._n 33.20_o or_o with_o longing_n to_o see_v it_o but_o say_v it_o so_o as_o it_o may_v hear_v thou_o say_v it_o behold_v the_o ear_n of_o my_o heart_n be_v before_o thou_o open_v they_o and_o say_v unto_o my_o soul_n there_o i_o be_o thy_o salvation_n then_o will_v i_o hasten_v after_o thy_o allure_a voice_n and_o catch_v fast_o hold_v on_o thou_o o_o hide_v not_o thou_o thy_o face_n from_o i_o let_v i_o see_v it_o though_o i_o die_v lest_o otherwise_o i_o die_v so_o as_o never_o to_o see_v it_o the_o mansion_n of_o my_o soul_n be_v too_o narrow_a to_o entertain_v thou_o o_o let_v it_o be_v enlarge_v by_o thou_o it_o be_v very_o ruinous_a be_v thou_o please_v to_o repair_v it_o the_o sordid_a furniture_n thereof_o must_v be_v very_o offensive_a to_o thy_o holy_a eye_n i_o know_v and_o confess_v it_o but_o who_o can_v purge_v and_o cleanse_v it_o beside_o thou_o vulg_n psal_n 19.12_o psal_n 116.10_o psal_n 32.6_o psal_n 26.12_o vulg_n or_o to_o what_o other_n beside_o thou_o shall_v i_o cry_v cleanse_v i_o o_o lord_n from_o my_o secret_a sin_n and_o from_o my_o presumptuous_a wickedness_n deliver_v thy_o servant_n i_o believe_v thou_o have_v and_o will_v forgive_v they_o and_o therefore_o do_v i_o speak_v and_o confess_v they_o o_o lord_n thou_o know_v have_v not_o i_o confess_v against_o i_o my_o sin_n unto_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n i_o hope_v thou_o have_v forgive_v the_o wickedness_n of_o my_o sin_n i_o do_v not_o contend_v in_o judgement_n with_o thou_o for_o thou_o be_v the_o truth_n nor_o will_v i_o be_v deceive_v in_o harken_v to_o excuse_n whilst_o perhaps_o my_o iniquity_n tell_v lie_n unto_o i_o therefore_o do_v i_o not_o contend_v in_o judgement_n with_o thou_o for_o if_o thou_o lord_n shall_v mark_v iniquity_n 130.3_o psal_n 130.3_o o_o lord_n who_o shall_v abide_v it_o chap_n vi._n a_o account*_n of_o st._n augustine_n infancy_n nourish_v and_o sustain_v by_o the_o divine_a providence_n yet_o suffer_v i_o thy_o justice_n lay_v aside_o to_o speak_v unto_o thy_o mercy_n 18.27_o gen._n 18.27_o i_o dust_n and_o ash_n yet_o suffer_v i_o to_o speak_v be_v it_o be_v unto_o the_o mercy_n of_o my_o god_n i_o speak_v and_o not_o to_o man_n so_o apt_a to_o scoff_n at_o i_o and_o perhaps_o thou_o also_o for_o the_o present_a lâ—â—â—liest_a at_o i_o 25.16_o psal_n 25.16_o but_o in_o
prayer_n let_v my_o soul_n never_o faint_v under_o thy_o discipline_n nor_o grow-weary_a in_o confess_v thy_o mercy_n unto_o thou_o by_o which_o thou_o have_v draw_v i_o out_o of_o all_o my_o wicked_a way_n that_o thou_o thyself_o may_v become_v delicious_a unto_o i_o above_o all_o those_o charm_a seducement_n which_o i_o have_v heretofore_o pursue_v and_o that_o i_o may_v love_v thou_o entire_o and_o kiss_v thy_o deliver_v hand_n with_o all_o the_o bowel_n of_o my_o affection_n that_o thou_o may_v yet_o rescue_v i_o out_o of_o all_o temptation_n even_o to_o the_o end_n for_o behold_v o_o lord_n my_o king_n may_v it_o now_o be_v for_o thy_o service_n whatever_o useful_a thing_n my_o childhood_n have_v learn_v may_v it_o be_v for_o thy_o service_n that_o i_o speak_v write_v read_v account_n because_o in_o my_o learning_n vain_a thing_n thou_o do_v not_o cease_v to_o discipline_n i_o and_o after_o my_o delight_v in_o those_o vanity_n thou_o have_v forgive_v i_o my_o sin_n for_o i_o 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templa_fw-la coeli_fw-la and_o the_o like_a unless_o terence_n have_v introduce_v a_o lascivious_a youth_n propose_v to_o himself_o jove_n for_o a_o pattern_n of_o whore_v whilst_o in_o survey_v a_o tablet_n on_o the_o wall_n he_o find_v therein_o this_o lascivious_a picture_n how_o they_o say_v jupiter_n upon_o a_o time_n once_o shower_v into_o danae_n lap_n a_o golden_a rain_n and_o so_o deceive_v the_o gold-enamoured_n maid_n and_o thence_o see_v how_o he_o heighten_v his_o lust_n from_o that_o divine_a copy_n of_o it_o as_o it_o be_v and_o what_o god_n be_v it_o say_v he_o that_o do_v this_o rape_n be_v it_o not_o he_o that_o make_v the_o arch_a temple_n of_o heaven_n tremble_v with_o his_o echo_a thunder_n and_o may_v not_o i_o then_o a_o frail_a tempt_v mortal_a do_v the_o same_o yes_o sure_o i_o do_v it_o and_o that_o well-pleased_a nor_o happen_v it_o from_o this_o unclean_a discourse_n that_o those_o word_n be_v any_o whit_n better_o learn_v but_o by_o these_o word_n convey_v it_o such_o uncleanness_n be_v more_o impudent_o attempt_v not_o that_o i_o blame_v *_o the_o word_n be_v as_o it_o be_v choice_n and_o precious_a vessel_n but_o *_o the_n wine_n of_o error_n which_o be_v minister_v in_o they_o unto_o we_o child_n by_o our_o fore-intoxicated_n master_n of_o which_o if_o we_o refuse_v to_o drink_v we_o be_v beat_v and_o have_v no_o sober_a judge_n to_o who_o we_o may_v appeal_v but_o i_o o_o my_o god_n in_o who_o presence_n my_o remembrance_n of_o these_o thing_n be_v now_o fear-less_a and_o secure_a i_o poor_a wretch_n then_o swallow_v those_o potion_n most_o willing_o and_o with_o great_a delight_n and_o for_o this_o be_v call_v a_o hopeful_a boy_n chap._n xvii_o and_o *_o the_o mis-use_a of_o his_o wit_n permit_v i_o also_o o_o my_o god_n to_o say_v something_o of_o my_o wit_n thy_o gift_n on_o what_o foolish_a labour_n it_o be_v then_o employ_v for_o than_o be_v set_v i_o a_o task_n very_o vexatious_a to_o my_o spirit_n upon_o the_o price_n of_o applause_n or_o shame_n and_o fear_v of_o whip_v to_o render_v rage_a juno_n speech_n when_o she_o so_o doleful_o lament_v non_fw-la posse_fw-la italia_n teucrorum_fw-la avertere_fw-la regem_fw-la that_o she_o can_v not_o from_o italy_n divert_v the_o trojan_a prince_n which_o word_n i_o have_v hear_v that_o juno_n never_o utter_v but_o we_o trace_v error_n be_v force_v to_o follow_v the_o footstep_n of_o such_o poetic_a fiction_n and_o to_o vary_v into_o prose_n what_o he_o express_v in_o verse_n and_o he_o do_v it_o with_o best_a applause_n who_o retain_v the_o dignity_n of_o the_o person_n represent_v can_v reach_v to_o a_o high_a strain_n of_o the_o like_a passion_n of_o anger_n and_o sorrow_n with_o a_o agreeable_a sense_n handsome_o dress_v in_o a_o apt_a expression_n and_o what_o happiness_n be_v it_o to_o i_o o_o thou_o my_o true_a life_n my_o god_n that_o my_o exercise_n shall_v be_v pre-applauded_n beyond_o many_o my_o coequal_o behold_v be_v not_o all_o such_o thing_n fume_n and_o vanity_n and_o be_v there_o then_o no_o other_o better_a thing_n wherein_o to_o have_v exercise_v our_o wit_n and_o eloquence_n even_o thy_o praise_n o_o lord_n thy_o praise_n in_o thy_o more_o holy_a writing_n these_o may_v have_v be_v a_o divine_a subject_n for_o the_o tender_a branch_n of_o my_o spread_a fancy_n to_o have_v clasp_v about_o and_o depend_v upon_o without_z *_o be_v trail_v on_o the_o ground_n among_o such_o empty_a trifle_n and_o *_o have_v its_o fruit_n make_v a_o filthy_a prey_n to_o those_o ravenous_a spiritual_a fowl_n of_o the_o air_n for_o many_o way_n there_o be_v whereby_o the_o precious_a fruit_n of_o our_o youth_n become_v a_o sacrifice_n to_o those_o unclean_a spirit_n chap._n xviii_o misguide_v by_o vicious_a example_n and_o more_o ashamed_a of_o the_o breach_n of_o grammar-rule_n than_o of_o god_n law_n but_o what_o wonder_n be_v it_o if_o i_o be_v thus_o carry_v away_o through_o vanity_n and_o go_v out_o from_o thy_o presence_n 4.16_o gen._n 4.16_o o_o my_o god_n when_o such_o man_n only_o be_v propose_v to_o my_o imitation_n who_o if_o they_o shall_v relate_v any_o of_o their_o action_n though_o not_o ill_a with_o any_o barbarism_n or_o solecism_n be_v censure_v for_o it_o be_v abash_v and_o confound_v but_o if_o they_o shall_v in_o a_o round_a and_o well-cohering_a stile_n fluent_o and_o neat_o express_v though_o one_o of_o their_o culpable_a lust_n be_v applaud_v for_o this_o become_v exalt_v with_o pride_n this_o thou_o see_v o_o lord_n and_o hold_v thy_o peace_n long-suffering_a and_o abundant_a in_o goodness_n and_o truth_n and_o will_v thou_o always_o hold_v thy_o peace_n no_o but_o thou_o draw_v out_o of_o this_o swallow_a deep_a the_o soul_n that_o seek_v after_o thou_o and_o thirst_v after_o thy_o chaste_a delight_n and_o who_o heart_n say_v unto_o thou_o i_o have_v seek_v thy_o face_n and_o lord_n thy_o face_n will_v i_o seek_v but_o 1.21_o ps_n 27.9_o vulg._n rom._n 1.21_o i_o then_o be_v depart_v far_o away_o from_o the_o light_n of_o thy_o countenance_n in_o my_o own_o darken_a affection_n for_o it_o be_v not_o by_o motion_n or_o measure_v of_o place_n that_o we_o recede_v from_o thou_o or_o return_v to_o thou_o for_o that_o thy_o prodigal_a young_a son_n in_o the_o gospel_n do_v he_o procure_v himself_o either_o horse_n or_o chariot_n 15._o luk._n 15._o or_o ship_n wing_a he_o himself_o to_o fly_v or_o gird_v he_o up_o his_o loin_n to_o run_v into_o a_o far_a country_n there_o lavish_o to_o waste_v the_o portion_n thou_o give_v he_o at_o his_o setting-forth_a a_o kind_a father_n that_o send_v he_o forth_o so_o rich_a and_o yet_o far_o more_o kind_a when_o he_o return_v to_o thou_o so_o poor_a no_o but_o his_o departure_n from_o thou_o be_v in_o his_o err_a mind_n and_o his_o course_v
that_o i_o entertain_v of_o thing_n spiritual_a permit_v i_o not_o to_o discern_v truth_n and_o there_o be_v still_o flash_v in_o my_o eye_n the_o very_a power_n of_o truth_n and_o yet_o i_o avert_v my_o timorous_a mind_n from_o the_o cogitation_n of_o any_o thing_n incorporeal_a to_o lineament_n and_o colour_n and_o swell_a magnitude_n and_o when_o i_o can_v not_o see_v these_o in_o my_o mind_n i_o think_v that_o neither_o can_v i_o see_v or_o discern_v my_o mind_n and_o whereas_o i_o love_v the_o harmony_n that_o be_v in_o virtue_n and_o loathe_v the_o discord_n of_o vice_n i_o note_v a_o unity_n in_o the_o one_o and_o in_o the_o other_o a_o kind_n of_o division_n and_o i_o conceive_v the_o rational_a soul_n and_o the_o nature_n of_o truth_n and_o of_o the_o summum_fw-la bonum_fw-la the_o chief_a good_a to_o consist_v in_o this_o unity_n but_o in_o that_o division_n i_o silly_o suppose_v that_o there_o be_v i_o know_v not_o what_o substance_n of_o a_o irrational_a vitality_n and_o the_o nature_n of_o summum_fw-la malum_fw-la which_o be_v not_o only_o a_o substance_n but_o also_o animate_v and_o yet_o be_v not_o at_o all_o from_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n from_o who_o be_v all_o thing_n and_o the_o one_o i_o style_v a_o monade_n or_o unity_n as_o if_o it_o be_v a_o soul_n void_a of_o all_o sex_n the_o other_o a_o dyade_n or_o duality_n namely_o the_o faculty_n *_o irascible_a in_o all_o malicious_a action_n *_o concupiscible_a and_o lust_a in_o all_o impure_a affection_n not_o know_v what_o i_o say_v for_o i_o neither_o know_v then_o nor_o have_v learn_v that_o no_o substance_n at_o all_o be_v evil_a nor_o that_o our_o very_a soul_n be_v not_o the_o supreme_a and_o incommutable_a good_a 1.17_o good_a the_o manichean_a opinion_n that_o soul_n be_v particle_n of_o the_o divine_a nature_n or_o of_o god_n psal_n 18.28_o joh._n 1.9_o 16._o jac._n 1.17_o for_o as_o our_o action_n be_v facinorous_a if_o that_o faculty_n of_o the_o soul_n which_o command_v our_o force_n be_v 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thou_o and_o be_v repel_v from_o thou_o and_o confine_v unto_o the_o shadow_n of_o death_n because_o the_o proud_a be_v always_o resist_v by_o thou_o and_o what_o thing_n proud_a than_o i_o who_o by_o a_o strange_a madness_n maintain_v that_o myself_o be_v natural_o what_o thou_o be_v for_o when_o i_o be_v a_o thing_n mutable_a which_o be_v from_o this_o apparent_a to_o i_o that_o i_o in_o covet_v wisdom_n seek_v from_o something_o worse_a to_o become_v something_o better_o yet_o i_o have_v rather_o conjecture_v thou_o mutable_a also_o than_o myself_o not_o to_o be_v the_o same_o which_o thou_o be_v therefore_o be_v i_o repel_v by_o thou_o and_o thou_o do_v resist_v my_o stiff-swoln_a neck_n and_o i_o somniate_v corporeal_a form_n and_o be_v flesh_n i_o notwithstanding_o accuse_v the_o flesh_n 78.39_o psal_n 78.39_o &_o be_v a_o wind_n that_o pase_v i_o return_v not_o unto_o thou_o but_o pass_v i_o pass_v unto_o those_o thing_n which_o have_v no_o be_v nether_a in_o thou_o nor_o in_o 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rome_n his_o scholar_n there_o defraud_v he_o of_o their_o stipend_n now_o therefore_o i_o begin_v diligent_o to_o put_v in_o practice_n that_o for_o which_o i_o come_v to_o rome_n the_o teach_n of_o rhetoric_n and_o first_o to_o gather_v some_o to_o my_o lodging_n by_o who_o mean_n i_o have_v begin_v to_o be_v make_v know_v abroad_o and_o now_o i_o be_o acquaint_v that_o some_o other_o unworthy_a trick_n be_v play_v at_o rome_n which_o i_o suffer_v not_o at_o carthage_n for_o it_o be_v assure_v to_o i_o indeed_o that_o there_o be_v not_o here_o such_o insolence_n and_o tumult_n of_o unruly_a youth_n as_o there_o but_o say_v they_o a_o many_o of_o they_o to_o avoid_v the_o payment_n of_o their_o stipend_n will_v of_o a_o sudden_a conspire_v together_o before_o the_o time_n they_o be_v due_a and_o depart_v to_o another_o master_n desertor_n of_o their_o faith_n and_o vilify_a honesty_n for_o the_o love_n of_o money_n 139.22_o ps_n 139.22_o and_o these_o also_o my_o soul_n hate_v 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and_o delicious_a peace_n but_o at_o that_o time_n i_o rather_o can_v not_o endure_v they_o evil_a for_o my_o own_o sake_n than_o wish_v they_o good_a for_o thou_o chap._n xiii_o recommend_v by_o symmachus_n he_o remove_v from_o rome_n to_o teach_v rhetoric_n at_o milan_n where_o he_o be_v favourable_o receive_v by_o st._n ambrose_n their_o bishop_n who_o sermon_n he_o frequent_v only_o for_o the_o fame_n of_o his_o eloquence_n it_o happen_v afterward_o that_o a_o order_n be_v send_v from_o milan_n there_o milan_n the_o emperor_n reside_v much_o there_o to_o the_o perfect_a of_o rome_n to_o provide_v a_o rhetoric_n professor_n for_o that_o city_n and_o to_o send_v he_o thither_o upon_o the_o publâ—ck_a charge_n therefore_o i_o make_v suit_n by_o the_o same_o person_n such_o who_o be_v intoxicate_v with_o the_o manichean_a fable_n from_o which_o that_o i_o may_v now_o be_v deliver_v thou_o order_v this_o journey_n but_o little_o do_v we_o know_v it_o that_o symmachus_n the_o then_o 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