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as_o i_o ought_v thus_o my_o soul_n may_v we_o in_o some_o measure_n while_o we_o live_v amid_o our_o misery_n begin_v before_o hand_n to_o possess_v our_o beatitude_n which_o consist_v in_o know_v love_a and_o enjoy_v our_o chief_a good_a which_o be_v god_n himself_o the_o ii_o pointe._n how_o heaven_n be_v to_o be_v purchase_v consider_v out_o of_o the_o gospel_n that_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n suffer_v violence_n and_o the_o violent_a bear_v it_o away_o yes_o but_o we_o must_v learn_v of_o s._n ambrose_n how_o we_o be_v to_o make_v this_o violence_n we_o be_v to_o assault_v it_o not_o with_o sword_n with_o club_n or_o stone_n but_o with_o mildness_n with_o good_a work_n with_o chastity_n these_o be_v the_o arm_n which_o our_o faith_n make_v use_v of_o in_o that_o onsett_a but_o yet_o to_o make_v a_o right_a use_n thereof_o we_o must_v first_o of_o all_o make_v force_n against_o our_o own_o flesh_n and_o blood_n that_o so_o gain_v dominion_n over_o ourselves_o we_o may_v 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saint_n be_v to_o pass_v that_o be_v through_o tribulation_n contumely_n and_o contempt_n if_o we_o suffer_v with_o he_o we_o shall_v reign_v with_o he_o no_o no_o the_o pure_a wheat_n reserve_v for_o the_o heavenly_a granary_n must_v be_v winnow_v the_o gold_n find_v worthy_a to_o have_v course_n in_o that_o celestial_a kingdom_n must_v pass_v through_o the_o hot_a fire_n sweet_a s._n augustine_n putt_v it_o at_o the_o low_a rate_n that_o ever_o it_o can_v be_v expect_v and_o yet_o according_a to_o he_o it_o will_v cost_v we_o no_o less_o than_o all_o we_o be_v the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n say_v that_o excellent_a saint_n be_v worth_a as_o much_o as_o thou_o be_v give_v thyself_o and_o thou_o shall_v have_v it_o do_v not_o
arrive_v at_o that_o which_o he_o believe_v affect_v and_o resolut_n bless_a be_v our_o good_a god_n who_o do_v not_o alone_o free_o and_o without_o obligation_n or_o debt_n bestow_v a_o power_n upon_o we_o by_o faith_n to_o see_v all_o good_a thing_n a_o far_o off_o but_o by_o hope_n make_v they_o in_o a_o manner_n present_a and_o as_o certain_a as_o though_o already_o possess_v thou_o do_v not_o only_o give_v we_o a_o sight_n and_o by_o that_o sight_n beget_v in_o we_o a_o appetite_n of_o a_o most_o excellent_a good_a but_o do_v possess_v we_o also_o with_o a_o certain_a expectation_n of_o that_o future_a beatitude_n ground_v upon_o thy_o grace_n and_o our_o own_o merit_n by_o the_o aid_n there_o of_o ii_o point_n consider_v with_o the_o same_o saint_n how_o our_o hope_n be_v to_o be_v ground_v and_o confirm_v in_o we_o and_o you_o will_v find_v that_o it_o be_v to_o be_v do_v by_o a_o good_a conscience_n let_v he_o say_v he_o who_o hope_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n have_v a_o good_a conscience_n and_o to_o have_v a_o good_a conscience_n let_v he_o believe_v and_o work_v affection_n and_o resolve_v let_v we_o not_o then_o o_o my_o soul_n remain_v secure_a in_o the_o certain_a knowledge_n we_o have_v of_o god_n by_o faith_n nor_o in_o the_o strong_a confidence_n we_o have_v to_o obtain_v it_o by_o the_o help_n of_o hope_n but_o let_v we_o further_o in_o good_a earnest_n put_v our_o hand_n to_o the_o work_n lest_o a_o good_a faith_n and_o hope_n turn_v our_o adversary_n and_o confound_v we_o while_o we_o produce_v no_o action_n proportionable_a to_o the_o infallible_a light_n and_o certain_a expectation_n which_o we_o have_v by_o god_n gift_n which_o be_v not_o to_o be_v bury_v iii_o point_n consider_v whereupon_o we_o be_v to_o fix_v our_o hope_n and_o he_o will_v tell_v we_o that_o it_o be_v not_o to_o be_v place_v in_o present_a thing_n for_o they_o post_v on_o to_o pass_v by_o nor_o in_o adversity_n a_o kind_n of_o death_n nor_o in_o prosperity_n for_o 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yesterday_o be_v turn_v out_o of_o door_n by_o this_o day_n present_a this_o present_a moment_n be_v push_v away_o by_o a_o succeed_a one_o and_o with_o it_o that_o be_v snatch_v from_o we_o whereon_o our_o dear_a hope_n be_v fix_v wherewith_o we_o think_v to_o have_v feed_v but_o indeed_o famish_v our_o deceive_a hart_n in_o thou_o therefore_o o_o lord_n from_o henceforth_o will_v i_o repose_v my_o whole_a confidence_n and_o i_o will_v not_o be_v confound_v for_o ever_o thou_o be_v that_o unchangeable_a good_a which_o be_v abundant_o satisfactory_a and_o yet_o be_v subject_a to_o no_o change_n thou_o be_v that_o truth_n which_o can_v neither_o deceive_v nor_o be_v deceive_v the_o xii_o meditation_n what_o christian_n be_v to_o hope_v for_o in_o this_o world_n i._o point_n consider_v that_o if_o we_o be_v true_a christian_n indeed_o we_o ought_v to_o expect_v for_o nothing_o in_o this_o world_n but_o pressure_n and_o persecution_n without_o hope_n of_o better_a time_n be_v assure_v by_o the_o gospel_n that_o in_o the_o latter_a day_n many_o evil_n scandal_n pressure_n and_o iniquity_n shall_v abound_v this_o be_v the_o condition_n of_o our_o present_a state_n and_o vocation_n that_o thereby_o be_v wane_a from_o the_o love_n of_o this_o world_n our_o hope_n may_v be_v whole_o set_v upon_o a_o better_a aff._n and_o resl_n what_o we_o suffer_v then_o be_v no_o surprise_n make_v upon_o we_o how_o strange_o soever_o we_o look_v upon_o it_o it_o be_v but_o the_o ignorance_n or_o not_o reflection_n of_o what_o we_o be_v or_o aught_o to_o be_v which_o make_v we_o impatient_a of_o our_o present_a condition_n we_o be_v christian_n my_o soul_n we_o be_v admit_v upon_o no_o other_o condition_n then_o to_o be_v follower_n of_o christ_n if_o they_o persecute_v he_o they_o will_v persecute_v we_o too_o the_o servant_n be_v not_o great_a than_o the_o master_n truth_n deceive_v we_o not_o when_o he_o foretell_v we_o and_o will_v we_o to_o remember_v that_o he_o have_v foretell_v we_o so_o that_o for_o his_o sake_n the_o world_n shall_v hate_v we_o that_o for_o his_o name_n we_o shall_v be_v lead_v before_o king_n etc._n etc._n nor_o can_v he_o deceive_v we_o when_o he_o say_v bless_a be_v they_o that_o suffer_v persecution_n etc._n etc._n because_o they_o be_v the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n ii_o point_n consider_v that_o if_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o thes_n tribulation_n and_o pressure_n we_o lodge_v our_o confidence_n in_o the_o bosom_n of_o god_n providence_n or_o in_o the_o wound_n of_o our_o saviour_n side_n not_o man_n nor_o devil_n will_v be_v able_a to_o hurt_v we_o nether_a the_o one_o nor_o the_o other_o do_v any_o thing_n but_o what_o god_n permitt_v they_o nor_o do_v he_o permit_v they_o to_o attempt_v any_o thing_n against_o we_o but_o for_o our_o advantage_n affection_n and_o resol._n in_o thou_o o_o lord_n will_v i_o hope_v and_o i_o will_v not_o be_v confound_v for_o ever_o i_o will_v logde_v as_o in_o a_o impregnable_a castle_n in_o the_o sacred_a hole_n of_o thy_o side_n there_o will_v i_o repose_v without_o fear_n there_o will_v i_o secure_o sleep_v if_o the_o wicked_a make_v war_n against_o i_o in_o this_o i_o hope_v if_o the_o flesh_n make_v head_n against_o i_o to_o this_o will_v i_o fly_v if_o the_o devil_n bark_n and_o bale_n before_o my_o hart_n by_o these_o hole_n will_v i_o have_v recourse_n to_o the_o hart_n of_o my_o saviour_n he_o will_v be_v with_o we_o in_o the_o midst_n of_o our_o tribulation_n because_o we_o call_v upon_o he_o he_o will_v deliver_v we_o and_o glorify_v we_o replenish_v we_o with_o the_o length_n of_o day_n and_o show_v we_o his_o salvation_n iii_o point_n hence_o let_v consider_v and_o even_o put_v down_o and_o print_v in_o a_o christian_a hart_n for_o a_o prime_n and_o infallible_a truth_n that_o we_o christian_n be_v not_o make_v for_o the_o world_n nor_o for_o the_o good_n of_o the_o time_n present_a nor_o for_o that_o bewitch_a felicity_n which_o make_v man_n forget_v god_n but_o for_o a_o certain_a happiness_n which_o god_n promise_v for_o the_o present_a but_o man_n be_v not_o now_o capable_a of_o because_o of_o it_o be_v say_v nether_a eye_n have_v see_v etc._n etc._n affection_n and_o resol._n alas_o no_o my_o hart_n neither_o be_v these_o momentary_a good_n which_o we_o see_v our_o true_a good_n nor_o these_o evil_n which_o we_o suffer_v our_o evil_n indeed_o no_o for_o of_o these_o good_n we_o see_v the_o wicked_a most_o plentiful_o possess_v with_o these_o evil_n we_o see_v the_o just_a most_o powerful_o oppress_v our_o good_a indeed_o be_v the_o chief_a good_a that_o only_o we_o be_v to_o hope_v for_o that_o to_o love_v alone_o and_o our_o evil_a too_o be_v the_o soweraigne_n evil_a that_o alone_o we_o be_v to_o fear_v and_o fly_v whence_o we_o be_v warn_v not_o to_o fear_v they_o that_o can_v only_o kill_v the_o body_n and_o can_v reach_v no_o further_o but_o to_o fear_v he_o who_o can_v cast_v both_o body_n and_o soul_n into_o eternal_a fire_n the_o 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