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the_o exaltation_n of_o christ_n cause_v he_o to_o abate_v any_o thing_n of_o his_o goodness_n unto_o his_o people_n but_o if_o any_o way_n his_o love_n be_v alter_v it_o be_v by_o be_v make_v more_o than_o it_o be_v and_o when_o christ_n be_v upon_o earth_n you_o must_v have_v come_v to_o he_o by_o faith_n or_o you_o can_v obtain_v no_o mercy_n from_o he_o and_o by_o faith_n though_o he_o be_v in_o heaven_n you_o may_v obtain_v any_o mercy_n now_o you_o may_v consider_v any_o one_o or_o two_o or_o more_o of_o these_o consideration_n until_o your_o heart_n be_v so_o convince_v of_o and_o affect_v with_o the_o presence_n of_o god_n that_o you_o may_v thereby_o be_v the_o better_o fit_v for_o the_o carry_v on_o the_o duty_n of_o meditation_n more_o effectual_o chap._n viii_o concern_v the_o preparatory_a prayer_n that_o be_v to_o be_v use_v before_o meditation_n the_o next_o preparatory_a consideration_n be_v prayer_n and_o it_o be_v to_o be_v perform_v in_o these_o word_n or_o to_o 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lord_n that_o thou_o will_v give_v i_o thy_o grace_n to_o make_v conscience_n of_o perform_v this_o duty_n with_o my_o whole_a strength_n and_o not_o careless_o and_o perfunctory_o and_o lord_n do_v thou_o enlighten_v i_o with_o and_o convince_v i_o of_o thy_o truth_n and_o so_o affect_v my_o heart_n with_o the_o love_n of_o holiness_n and_o hatred_n of_o sin_n etc._n etc._n that_o i_o may_v thereby_o be_v enable_v full_o firm_o notwithstanding_o all_o the_o opposition_n that_o the_o flesh_n world_n or_o devil_n can_v make_v to_o run_v the_o way_n of_o thy_o commandment_n with_o joy_n and_o with_o speed_n and_o when_o thou_o have_v wrought_v in_o i_o the_o will_v so_o to_o do_v give_v i_o also_o the_o deed_n and_o that_o i_o may_v not_o trust_v to_o the_o strength_n of_o my_o resolution_n but_o to_o the_o continual_a gracious_a assistance_n of_o thy_o spirit_n for_o the_o performance_n of_o those_o thing_n that_o through_o thou_o i_o shall_v resolve_v to_o do_v holy_a and_o bless_a god_n christ_n have_v send_v i_o wish_v i_o to_o come_v to_o thou_o in_o his_o name_n for_o any_o mercy_n i_o stand_v in_o need_n of_o grant_v these_o thing_n which_o i_o have_v beg_v for_o the_o lord_n jesus_n sake_n amen_n this_o or_o a_o prayer_n to_o the_o like_a purpose_n thou_o be_v to_o put_v up_o unto_o god_n but_o it_o be_v to_o be_v do_v with_o thy_o whole_a heart_n for_o thou_o must_v know_v that_o it_o be_v by_o the_o strength_n which_o thou_o shall_v get_v from_o god_n by_o prayer_n whereby_o thou_o shall_v be_v enable_v to_o perform_v this_o or_o any_o other_o duty_n profitable_o for_o it_o be_v he_o that_o teach_v we_o to_o profit_v he_o that_o begin_v a_o holy_a duty_n without_o god_n will_v end_v it_o without_o god_n also_o it_o be_v a_o dangerous_a thing_n to_o think_v that_o we_o can_v by_o our_o natural_a part_n learning_n or_o by_o the_o strength_n of_o grace_n already_o receive_v without_o god_n further_a assistance_n perform_v any_o thing_n that_o can_v please_v 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chap._n ix_o several_a rule_n for_o manage_v the_o duty_n of_o consideration_n 1._o they_o must_v be_v plain_a consideration_n not_o intricate_a and_o abstruse_a for_o the_o main_a end_n of_o meditation_n be_v the_o affect_v of_o our_o heart_n and_o resorm_v of_o our_o life_n and_o not_o inform_v of_o our_o understanding_n our_o consideration_n shall_v be_v so_o plain_a that_o they_o may_v be_v without_o difficulty_n understand_v 2._o it_o must_v be_v certain_a and_o evident_a not_o controversial_a and_o doubtful_a for_o the_o end_n of_o meditation_n be_v not_o proper_o to_o increase_v our_o knowledge_n but_o to_o improve_v our_o knowledge_n 3._o much_o less_o shall_v our_o consideration_n be_v curious_a and_o nice_a speculation_n or_o if_o we_o choose_v any_o
ourselves_o of_o the_o scope_n of_o the_o word_n that_o so_o we_o may_v the_o more_o full_o understand_v their_o drift_n and_o aim_n and_o we_o be_v not_o to_o let_v the_o truth_n pass_v until_o we_o have_v by_o effection_n examination_n or_o resolution_n some_o way_n advantage_v ourselves_o in_o the_o most_o holy_a faith_n or_o some_o way_n else_o benefit_v our_o soul_n by_o a_o general_a view_n take_v of_o the_o word_n of_o the_o text_n we_o may_v see_v the_o abundant_a sweetness_n and_o fragrancy_n of_o the_o word_n of_o god_n as_o we_o do_v the_o odour_n of_o flower_n by_o scent_v they_o now_o meditation_n draw_v forth_o the_o honey_n of_o the_o flower_n into_o our_o bowel_n and_o nourish_v we_o thereby_o the_o beauty_n and_o odour_n of_o flower_n be_v very_o delightful_a but_o they_o nourish_v not_o so_o bare_a understanding_n of_o the_o word_n themselves_o do_v rather_o delight_v then_o profit_v we_o and_o if_o we_o go_v no_o further_o it_o be_v but_o so_o much_o on_o in_o 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transaction_n will_v not_o every_o one_o be_v industruous_a to_o get_v it_o and_o read_v it_o we_o have_v a_o more_o sure_a word_n of_o prophecy_n and_o that_o which_o teach_v of_o matter_n of_o far_o great_a concernment_n than_o the_o temporal_a welfare_n of_o this_o nation_n and_o yet_o it_o lie_v by_o we_o as_o a_o thing_n forget_v the_o rule_n for_o meditate_v upon_o the_o scripture_n be_v either_o those_o which_o high_o concern_v the_o matter_n of_o meditation_n or_o the_o right_a manner_n of_o they_o for_o the_o right_a manner_n of_o our_o meditation_n let_v it_o be_v with_o all_o reverence_n and_o humility_n and_o sense_n of_o god_n majesty_n upon_o our_o spirit_n and_o how_o utter_o unable_a we_o be_v to_o understand_v the_o word_n of_o god_n without_o the_o spirit_n of_o god_n if_o any_o one_o in_o the_o pride_n of_o his_o heart_n shall_v think_v by_o the_o strength_n of_o his_o gift_n and_o part_n save_o to_o understand_v the_o mystery_n of_o salvation_n he_o will_v find_v himself_o quite_o mistake_v for_o as_o god_n send_v the_o rich_a empty_a away_o so_o he_o will_v send_v the_o wise_a and_o the_o prudent_a ignorant_a away_o it_o seem_v a_o strange_a carriage_n in_o christ_n to_o rejoice_v in_o the_o spirit_n that_o god_n have_v hide_v the_o mystery_n of_o the_o gospel_n from_o the_o wise_a and_o prudent_a it_o be_v wonderful_a arrogance_n for_o any_o one_o to_o think_v he_o can_v know_v god_n without_o his_o leave_n whether_o he_o will_v or_o no_o or_o think_v to_o see_v god_n by_o any_o light_n but_o by_o his_o own_o he_o may_v as_o well_o see_v the_o sun_n without_o the_o sun_n one_o put_v a_o question_n why_o christ_n come_v not_o as_o moses_n or_o as_o a_o prince_n but_o in_o the_o form_n of_o a_o servant_n nor_o as_o john_n the_o baptist_n in_o a_o outward_a austear_n way_n but_o come_v eat_v and_o drink_v he_o be_v answer_v among_o many_o other_o thing_n especial_o for_o this_o that_o he_o may_v deceive_v the_o reason_n of_o man_n for_o have_v he_o come_v in_o the_o outward_a form_n and_o manner_n of_o a_o prince_n then_o humane_a reason_n may_v have_v something_o to_o build_v upon_o that_o he_o be_v the_o messiah_n outward_a mortification_n be_v in_o high_a esteem_n with_o the_o world_n but_o inward_a mortification_n and_o to_o be_v inward_o holy_a without_o proclamation_n be_v most_o sincere_a the_o second_o thing_n for_o the_o manner_n of_o your_o meditation_n if_o you_o will_v meditate_v aright_o be_v to_o come_v with_o a_o indifferent_a mind_n and_o take_v heed_n of_o bring_v the_o creature_n to_o your_o mind_n but_o bring_v your_o mind_n to_o the_o scripture_n and_o hear_v what_o the_o lord_n will_v say_v unto_o you_o three_o let_v your_o meditation_n upon_o scripture_n be_v very_o serious_a we_o be_v to_o know_v god_n as_o well_o as_o to_o love_v he_o with_o all_o our_o mind_n &_o strength_n we_o may_v do_v the_o thing_n of_o the_o world_n well_o enough_o and_o yet_o mingle_v many_o thought_n of_o god_n with_o our_o worldly_a employment_n but_o we_o can_v mingle_v the_o thing_n of_o god_n and_o the_o world_n together_o four_o let_v the_o end_n of_o your_o meditation_n be_v to_o raise_v holy_a affection_n and_o to_o have_v strong_a resolution_n for_o god_n then_o ever_o you_o have_v before_o not_o only_o to_o know_v more_o of_o but_o that_o we_o may_v have_v a_o great_a love_n to_o god_n or_o else_o it_o be_v not_o meditation_n but_o study_n chap._n xv._n several_a rule_n for_o the_o subject_a of_o our_o spiritual_a meditation_n 1._o the_o first_o rule_n to_o be_v observe_v in_o the_o choice_n of_o a_o subject_a for_o your_o meditation_n be_v this_o viz_o to_o choose_v those_o place_n of_o scripture_n to_o meditate_v upon_o as_o be_v most_o suitable_a to_o your_o master_n sin_n as_o if_o your_o master_n sin_n be_v pride_n choose_v those_o scripture_n to_o meditate_v upon_o which_o be_v most_o in_o speak_v against_o pride_n and_o set_v down_o god_n hatred_n and_o detestation_n of_o it_o or_o his_o 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