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martyr_n then_o anâ—_n usual_a custom_n in_o africa_n cap._n 2_o s._n ambrose_n his_o employment_n s._n austin_n find_v no_o opportunity_n of_o private_a discourse_n with_o he_o yet_o learn_v from_o his_o sermon_n that_o catholic_n hold_v not_o the_o doctrine_n charge_v on_o they_o by_o the_o manichee_n cap._n 3_o confute_v he_o blame_v his_o former_a too_o much_o caution_n and_o jealousy_n *_o in_o assent_v to_o the_o catholic_n tenant_n cap._n 4_o and*_n in_o acknowledge_v the_o divine_a authority_n of_o the_o scripture_n as_o they_o be_v deliver_v by_o the_o church_n cap._n 5_o his_o ambition_n and_o the_o care_n attend_v it_o his_o great_a solicitude_n be_v to_o speak_v a_o panegyric_n before_o the_o emperor_n much_o envy_v the_o secure_a mirth_n of_o a_o poor_a beggar_n see_v in_o the_o street_n cap._n 6_o of_o his_o friend_n alipius_n his_o scholar_n at_o carthage_n who_o he_o there_o reclaim_v from_o the_o vainsport_v of_o the_o circus_n but_o infect_v he_o with_o manicheism_n 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cap._n 12_o s._n austin_n suitor_n to_o a_o young_a maid_n with_o who_o marriage_n be_v intend_v but_o she_o as_o yet_o two_o year_n too_o young_a his_o mother_n seek_v but_o can_v obtain_v any_o revelation_n from_o god_n concern_v this_o marriage_n cap._n 13_o their_o live_v a_o many_o together_o and_o have_v all_o thing_n common_a in_o a_o marry_a condition_n design_v but_o soon_o lay_v aside_o cap._n 14_o his_o former_a concubine_n of_o who_o see_v 4_o l._n 2._o c._n be_v remove_v as_o a_o impediment_n to_o his_o marriage_n and_o leave_v with_o he_o the_o son_n he_o have_v by_o she_o return_v into_o africa_n vow_n continency_n instead_o of_o who_o he_o private_o take_v another_o cap._n 15_o yet_o his_o lust_n somewhat_o restrain_v from_o the_o fear_n he_o have_v *_o of_o death_n and*_n of_o the_o soul_n immortality_n and*_n of_o future_a judgement_n cap._n 16_o lib_fw-la vii_o his_o entrance_n now_o be_v thirty_o year_n old_a into_o man_n estate_n his_o apprehension_n of_o god_n as_o inviolable_a incorruptible_a immutable_a every_o way_n infinite_a but_o yet_o corporeal_a cap._n 1_o still_o unsatisfied_a concern_v the_o cause_n of_o evil_a and_o why_o angel_n and_o man_n be_v create_v by_o the_o most_o good_a god_n there_o shall_v by_o he_o be_v place_v in_o they_o a_o power_n to_o will_v evil_o cap._n 2_o 3_o pursue_v the_o same_o querie_n still_o unde_fw-la malum_fw-la yet_o *_o his_o faith_n of_o christ_n to_o be_v our_o lord_n and_o saviour_n remain_v in_o he_o firm_a and_o unshaken_a cap._n 4_o 5_o and*_n the_o lie_a divination_n of_o astrologer_n foretell_v from_o the_o star_n future_a event_n no_o way_n credit_v by_o he_o cap._n 6_o prosecute_a the_o same_o querie_n unde_fw-la malum_fw-la cap._n 7_o upon_o recommendation_n he_o fall_v to_o read_v the_o book_n of_o the_o platonist_n and_o discover_v in_o they_o much_o concern_v the_o divinity_n of_o the_o eternal_a word_n but_o nothing_o of_o the_o humility_n of_o his_o incarnation_n cap._n 9_o he_o 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in_o he_o and_o not_o humility_n cap._n 20_o he_n last_o betake_v himself_o to_o read_v of_o the_o scripture_n especial_o those_o of_o s._n paul_n where_o he_o find_v the_o advancement_n of_o god_n grace_n and_o salvation_n through_o jesus_n christ_n to_o the_o penitent_a and_o humble_a cap._n 21_o lib_fw-la viii_o he_o go_v to_o consult_v simplicianus_n a_o holy_a man_n and_o the_o spiritual_a father_n of_o s._n ambrose_n about_o the_o future_a order_n of_o his_o life_n remain_v still_o passionate_o bend_v on_o marriage_n cap._n 1_o upon_o mention_n of_o victorinus_n a_o famous_a roman_a rhetorician_n simplicianus_n relate_v the_o story_n of_o victorinus_n his_o conversion_n to_o christianity_n cap._n 2_o why_o more_o joy_n for_o man_n convert_v than_o have_v they_o be_v always_o professor_n cap._n 3_o why_o more_o joy_n in_o the_o conversion_n of_o man_n eminent_a or_o noble_a cap._n 4_o what_o operation_n the_o story_n of_o victorinus_n have_v upon_o he_o and_o his_o great_a 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