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yet_o we_o may_v by_o the_o efficacious_a work_n of_o god_n grace_n not_o only_o desire_v they_o but_o even_o be_v delight_v with_o they_o as_o be_v the_o just_a punishment_n of_o the_o wicked_a and_o exercise_n of_o virtue_n to_o the_o good_a for_o which_o end_v out_o love_a lord_n permit_v they_o to_o befall_v we_o thus_o conform_v ourselves_o to_o god_n holy_a will_n we_o may_v quiet_o and_o peaceable_o pass_v through_o the_o midst_n of_o all_o this_o life_n bitterness_n and_o contrariety_n and_o take_v this_o for_o a_o truth_n that_o all_o disquiet_n of_o mind_n be_v displease_v to_o our_o dear_a lord_n because_o it_o be_v never_o without_o some_o imperfection_n and_o evermore_o proceed_v from_o some_o perverse_a root_n of_o self-love_n 1._o to_o obtain_v therefore_o this_o quiet_a of_o sentinel_n text._n thou_o be_v to_o appoint_v a_o sentinel_n heart_n in_o thy_o spiritual_a conflict_n thou_o
eternity_n thou_o will_v soon_o find_v that_o for_o a_o eternity_n thou_o be_v a_o absolute_a nothing_o that_o thou_o do_v nothing_o nor_o can_v contribute_v in_o the_o least_o manner_n to_o thy_o own_o life_n or_o any_o thing_n which_o thou_o now_o possesse_v if_o in_o time_n what_o be_v thou_o in_o time_n the_o next_o place_n thou_o do_v ponder_v the_o time_n wherein_o thou_o begann'_v to_o be_v something_o thou_o will_v likewise_o understand_v that_o thou_o receive_v it_o from_o the_o pure_a bounty_n and_o benignity_n of_o thy_o god_n alone_o for_o he_o create_v thou_o and_o give_v thou_o this_o life_n which_o he_o still_o continue_v and_o conserves_n unto_o thou_o and_o he_o do_v all_o other_o thing_n thou_o now_o have_v know_v and_o possesse_v in_o so_o much_o as_o thou_o can_v not_o meet_v with_o the_o least_o occasion_n in_o thyself_o whereon_o to_o ground_v a_o thought_n of_o thy_o be_v any_o thing_n or_o of_o deserve_v any_o esteem_n above_o other_o for_o any_o thing_n 5._o now_o as_o concern_v thy_o state_n thyself_o what_o good_a can_v thou_o do_v of_o thyself_o of_o grace_n and_o ability_n give_v thou_o to_o do_v good_a tell_v i_o can_v thy_o nature_n do_v the_o least_o good_a thing_n by_o itself_o deprive_v of_o thy_o creators_n divine_a assistance_n if_o further_o thou_o turn_v thy_o thought_n upon_o thy_o own_o evil_a and_o sinful_a work_n and_o other_o yet_o do_v what_o evil_a have_v thou_o or_o may_v thou_o have_v do_v worse_o which_o thou_o have_v undoubted_o do_v and_o continue_v in_o if_o god_n of_o his_o great_a mercy_n have_v not_o keep_v stay_v and_o withdraw_v thou_o with_o the_o right_a hand_n of_o his_o holy_a grace_n thou_o will_v be_v easy_o bring_v to_o acknowledge_v that_o thy_o own_o wickedness_n both_o by_o reason_n of_o the_o length_n of_o time_n in_o which_o thou_o lay_v drown_v therein_o and_o also_o of_o the_o multitude_n of_o thy_o evil_a action_n and_o perverse_a affection_n be_v so_o great_a that_o it_o can_v neither_o be_v express_v nor_o number_v in_o so_o much_o that_o thou_o be_v or_o sure_o may_v have_v be_v like_o another_o infernal_a lucifer_n therefore_o unless_o thou_o will_v be_v a_o sacrilegious_a fellow_n and_o steal_v away_o the_o good_n of_o thy_o lord_n god_n and_o attribute_v they_o to_o thyself_o thou_o may_v just_o esteem_v thyself_o every_o day_n worse_o than_o other_o explication_n yea_o thou_o have_v good_a ground_n to_o man_n so_o that_o thou_o may_v just_o think_v thyself_o the_o worst_a of_o all_o man_n think_v thyself_o the_o most_o ungrateful_a and_o ungracious_a wretch_n in_o the_o world_n and_o to_o be_v nothing_o but_o dirt_n and_o dung_n of_o the_o earth_n or_o that_o which_o be_v more_o stink_a and_o abominable_a because_o the_o loathsomnesse_n and_o stench_n of_o thy_o sin_n be_v far_o great_a self-accusation_n text_n yet_o be_v just_a in_o thy_o self-accusation_n 6._o yet_o here_o take_v this_o necessary_a caveat_n that_o justice_n be_v join_v with_o this_o confession_n of_o thy_o own_o baseness_n lest_o it_o bring_v thou_o more_o prejudice_n than_o profit_n for_o if_o in_o this_o knowledge_n and_o humble_a confession_n of_o thyself_o thou_o excelle_v some_o other_o who_o by_o reason_n of_o his_o own_o blindness_n think_v himself_o something_o and_o for_o such_o desire_n to_o be_v esteem_v by_o other_o and_o be_v desirous_a that_o upon_o this_o score_n other_o shall_v think_v well_o of_o thou_o and_o esteem_v thou_o that_o which_o thou_o acknowledge_v thyself_o not_o to_o be_v thou_o be_v far_o worse_o than_o he_o be_v 7._o wherefore_o that_o the_o acknowledgement_n of_o thy_o own_o baseness_n and_o vildness_n may_v be_v true_a and_o real_a and_o render_v thou_o please_v to_o god_n thou_o be_v not_o only_o to_o acknowledge_v thyself_o base_a and_o wicked_a but_o behave_v thyself_o and_o not_o only_o acknowledge_v thy_o own_o baseness_n but_o so_o use_v thyself_o thyself_o as_o such_o a_o one_o treat_v thyself_o as_o such_o a_o one_o and_o desire_v to_o be_v so_o hold_v and_o so_o handle_v by_o all_o other_o explication_n abhor_v all_o honour_n rejoice_v in_o affront_n and_o condescend_v upon_o all_o occasion_n to_o perform_v the_o base_a employment_n and_o to_o be_v slight_v and_o contemn_v by_o every_o one_o yet_o still_o for_o the_o only_a end_n and_o intention_n to_o humble_a and_o exercise_v thyself_o and_o not_o out_o of_o a_o certain_a pride_n and_o secret_a presumption_n of_o spirit_n 8._o and_o if_o it_o sometime_o happen_v text._n text._n that_o for_o some_o good_a work_n wherein_o thy_o lord_n god_n vouchsafe_v to_o make_v thou_o instrumental_a thou_o come_v to_o gain_v a_o good_a esteem_n or_o begin_v to_o other_o and_o stick_v to_o this_o amid_o all_o praise_n or_o applause_n of_o other_o be_v belove_v or_o praise_v by_o other_o take_v heed_n and_o be_v not_o draw_v a_o tittle_n from_o the_o aforesaid_a truth_n of_o thy_o own_o baseness_n but_o turn_v thy_o heart_n to_o thy_o lord_n god_n and_o there_o say_v to_o he_o o_o my_o lord_n let_v it_o never_o enter_v into_o my_o thought_n to_o steal_v from_o thou_o thy_o own_o divine_a goodness_n explication_n to_o thou_o o_o my_o god_n all_o praise_n and_o honour_n be_v only_o due_a to_o thou_o only_o be_v give_v all_o the_o glory_n and_o to_o i_o that_o which_o i_o true_o deserve_v which_o be_v only_a confusion_n and_o afterward_o thou_o may_v reflect_v text._n text._n upon_o he_o who_o praise_v thou_o say_v within_o thyself_o why_o do_v this_o man_n think_v i_o be_o good_a when_o indeed_o there_o be_v none_o good_a but_o thou_o only_o my_o good_a god_n if_o thou_o thus_o proceed_v and_o practise_a thou_o rendre_v true_o to_o god_n that_o which_o be_v he_o and_o put_v thy_o soul_n in_o a_o disposition_n to_o receive_v great_a grace_n explication_n 9_o but_o if_o the_o memory_n of_o thy_o good_a deed_n endanger_v thy_o soul_n to_o fall_v into_o vanity_n look_v upon_o they_o vanity_n and_o let_v not_o the_o memory_n of_o thy_o good_a deed_n puff_v thou_o up_o with_o vanity_n present_o as_o none_o of_o thou_o own_o good_n but_o as_o god_n gift_n reason_n thus_o with_o they_o how_o can_v you_o appear_v and_o pretend_v to_o have_v a_o be_v in_o my_o heart_n since_o i_o neither_o give_v you_o a_o beginning_n progress_n nor_o perfection_n but_o my_o good_a god_n by_o his_o only_a grace_n and_o goodness_n create_v you_o i_o therefore_o acknowledge_v he_o for_o your_o principal_a father_n and_o to_o he_o i_o return_v all_o hearty_a thanks_o praise_n honour_n and_o glory_n 10._o then_o penetrate_v the_o best_a of_o thy_o imperfect_a for_o thou_o will_v find_v the_o best_a of_o they_o very_o imperfect_a good_a work_n and_o thou_o will_v find_v thou_o have_v not_o only_o fail_v in_o perfect_o correspond_v to_o the_o grace_n which_o god_n give_v thou_o to_o perform_v they_o but_o also_o that_o they_o be_v far_o from_o that_o perfection_n purity_n of_o intention_n and_o due_a fervour_n and_o diligence_n which_o shall_v have_v accompany_v they_o in_o so_o much_o that_o the_o whole_a matter_n be_v impartial_o ponder_v thou_o may_v rather_o be_v confound_v and_o ashamed_a than_o puff_v up_o with_o pride_n and_o complacency_n for_o nothing_o be_v more_o certain_a than_o that_o the_o pure_a and_o perfect_a grace_n and_o gift_n of_o god_n be_v destroy_v and_o lessen_v by_o our_o imperfection_n when_o we_o put_v they_o in_o practice_n 11._o and_o if_o thou_o will_v elevate_v thy_o spirit_n to_o thy_o lord_n supreme_a greatness_n and_o goodness_n and_o true_o resent_v what_o service_n be_v due_a to_o so_o divine_a a_o majesty_n thou_o will_v soon_o conclude_v they_o and_o that_o thou_o have_v no_o colour_n to_o glory_n in_o they_o that_o there_o be_v no_o cause_n or_o colour_n for_o thou_o to_o glory_n in_o thy_o own_o merit_n though_o thy_o action_n have_v be_v far_o more_o excellent_a and_o renown_a than_o they_o be_v but_o accuse_v thyself_o of_o duty_n buâ—_n to_o accuse_v thy_o want_n of_o duty_n want_n of_o duty_n and_o tremble_v at_o thy_o own_o deficiency_n will_v put_v on_o the_o person_n of_o a_o poor_a penitent_a desire_a pardon_n and_o say_v o_o my_o god_n be_v favourable_a unto_o i_o a_o wretched_a sinner_n thou_o may_v furthermore_o enter_v into_o comparison_n of_o thy_o work_n with_o they_o of_o the_o saint_n and_o servant_n of_o god_n and_o thou_o will_v by_o that_o parallel_n plain_o perceive_v the_o baseness_n of_o thy_o best_a action_n 12._o learn_v therefore_o o_o my_o humility_n learn_v therefore_o humility_n beloved_a this_o necessary_a lesson_n of_o humility_n and_o acknowledge_v thyself_o with_o thy_o whole_a bundle_n of_o good_a work_n put_v together_o to_o be_v a_o mere_a nothing_o for_o this_o be_v the_o firm_a foundation_n whereon_o thou_o be_v to_o raise_v the_o perfect_a structure_n of_o all_o other_o virtue_n and_o virtue_n which_o
of_o the_o same_o in_o the_o morning_n shut_v out_o all_o other_o thought_n from_o thy_o heart_n and_o let_v thy_o employment_n be_v to_o reflect_v upon_o and_o repeat_v the_o point_n prepare_v overnight_o for_o this_o morning_n exercise_n and_o think_v that_o thou_o be_v present_o to_o talk_v with_o thy_o lord_n god_n 3._o wherefore_o make_v as_o it_o be_v confer_v 3._o weigh_v his_o majesty_n with_o who_o thou_o confer_v a_o stand_n for_o a_o short_a space_n before_o thou_o be_v in_o the_o place_n of_o prayer_n imagine_v that_o thy_o great_a creator_n who_o the_o angel_n adore_v be_v present_a in_o the_o oratory_n expect_v thou_o to_o enter_v discourse_n with_o he_o and_o behold_v thy_o behaviour_n in_o thy_o prayer_n let_v this_o truth_n make_v a_o deep_a impression_n in_o thy_o mind_n and_o thereupon_o yield_v he_o most_o profound_a reverence_n with_o body_n and_o heart_n as_o crave_v permission_n to_o confer_v with_o his_o majesty_n 4._o then_o with_o bend_a knee_n begin_v petition_n 4._o begin_v with_o oblation_n and_o petition_n thy_o prayer_n first_o offer_v up_o to_o thy_o lord_n god_n all_o the_o cogitation_n word_n and_o action_n of_o thy_o whole_a life_n particular_o present_v unto_o he_o this_o present_a exercise_n now_o intend_v to_o his_o honour_n and_o glory_n and_o humble_o implore_v his_o gracious_a assistance_n that_o thou_o may_v perform_v this_o thy_o practice_n with_o such_o attention_n devotion_n and_o reverence_n as_o befit_v one_o that_o speak_v with_o his_o lord_n and_o saviour_n 5._o incontinent_o after_o this_o imagine_v mystery_n then_o apply_v thy_o sense_n to_o the_o mystery_n thyself_o present_a to_o the_o mystery_n thou_o intend_v to_o meditate_v on_o and_o in_o the_o very_a place_n where_o it_o befall_v for_o this_o will_v fix_v thy_o fancy_n from_o wander_a as_o if_o thy_o theme_n be_v of_o christ_n incarnation_n think_v thou_o see_v the_o glorious_a archangel_n enter_v the_o secret_a chamber_n of_o the_o sacred_a virgin_n and_o there_o listen_v to_o their_o mutual_a discourse_n so_o if_o thy_o subject_n be_v of_o thy_o saviour_n flagellation_n suppose_v a_o pillar_n before_o thou_o with_o thy_o dear_a lord_n fasten_v thereunto_o and_o eye_n those_o inhuman_a executioner_n how_o cruel_o they_o whip_v and_o beat_v he_o and_o thus_o thou_o be_v to_o vary_v thy_o fancy_n and_o conform_v it_o to_o the_o manner_n of_o the_o mystery_n 6._o and_o when_o the_o mystery_n be_v thus_o present_a to_o thy_o mind_n make_v thy_o petition_n obtain_v and_o beg_v what_o thou_o intend_v to_o obtain_v and_o beg_v that_o which_o thou_o propose_v to_o obtain_v by_o this_o exercise_n as_o if_o thy_o meditation_n be_v concern_v christ_n incarnation_n let_v thy_o prayer_n be_v for_o spiritual_a light_n that_o thou_o may_v clear_o penetrate_v and_o perceive_v that_o ineffable_a love_n which_o move_v he_o to_o be_v make_v man_n for_o thy_o sake_n if_o it_o be_v of_o his_o passion_n ask_v the_o grace_n of_o compassion_n and_o condole_v with_o thy_o dear_a saviour_n suffering_n and_o so_o let_v thy_o petition_n be_v for_o such_o pious_a affection_n as_o be_v usher_v in_o by_o the_o argument_n of_o thy_o prayer_n 7._o this_o do_v begin_v with_o thy_o first_o point_n after_o this_o beg_v in_o with_o the_o first_o point_n point_n and_o if_o that_o alone_o furnish_v thou_o with_o fuel_n sufficient_a to_o inflame_v thy_o affection_n persevere_v therein_o for_o the_o whole_a space_n assign_v to_o thy_o prayer_n but_o if_o otherwise_o then_o pass_v on_o to_o the_o second_o and_o brief_o take_v this_o for_o a_o maxim_n in_o all_o meditation_n that_o whensoever_o thou_o feel_v thy_o affection_n enkindle_v stay_v there_o and_o digest_v well_o that_o consideration_n till_o thou_o have_v therein_o full_o satisfy_v thy_o devotion_n 8._o and_o suffer_v not_o thy_o understanding_n mystery_n and_o beware_v of_o fancy_v high_a mystery_n to_o roam_v after_o high_a and_o delicate_a mystery_n but_o make_v use_n of_o its_o discourse_n so_o far_o only_a as_o many_o help_n to_o heat_v thy_o will_n with_o pious_a affection_n and_o solid_a resolution_n wherefore_o from_o each_o consideration_n extract_v some_o affection_n and_o from_o every_o affection_n draw_v some_o determinate_a and_o particular_a resolution_n to_o do_v this_o very_a day_n this_o or_o that_o thing_n for_o thy_o lord_n honour_n to_o reform_v this_o or_o that_o fault_n or_o imperfection_n and_o to_o mortify_v thy_o sensuality_n in_o this_o or_o that_o occasion_n and_o this_o be_v the_o true_a fruit_n and_o profit_n of_o prayer_n 9_o be_v resolute_a also_o in_o stay_v out_o expire_v or_o leave_v off_o before_o the_o time_n allot_v for_o prayer_n be_v expire_v the_o full_a time_n allot_v for_o thy_o prayer_n and_o stir_v not_o from_o it_o through_o any_o dryness_n in_o devotion_n or_o any_o trouble_n of_o distraction_n for_o such_o a_o prayer_n be_v for_o the_o most_o part_n more_o profitable_a to_o a_o soul_n use_v diligent_a resistance_n and_o patient_a expectance_n of_o god_n grace_n than_o when_o it_o sensible_o partake_v of_o the_o sweet_n and_o abundance_n of_o devotion_n 10._o thy_o exercise_n be_v end_v thyself_o in_o the_o end_n reflect_v how_o thou_o have_v behave_v thyself_o insist_v a_o while_n in_o the_o examination_n of_o thyself_o and_o reflect_v how_o thou_o have_v behave_v thyself_o in_o thy_o prayer_n if_o thou_o find_v all_o well_o give_v thy_o good_a god_n all_o the_o thanks_o if_o thou_o have_v be_v negligent_a resolve_v upon_o amendment_n and_o take_v notice_n of_o the_o cause_n of_o this_o ill_a success_n that_o thou_o fail_v not_o for_o the_o future_a 11._o let_v the_o matter_n or_o mystery_n medition_n and_o order_n well_o the_o matter_n of_o thy_o medition_n thou_o mean_v to_o meditate_v upon_o be_v well_o order_v as_o if_o thou_o propose_v to_o thyself_o thy_o saviour_n life_n and_o passion_n make_v thy_o entrance_n at_o his_o incarnation_n and_o due_o proceed_v in_o the_o rest_n of_o the_o ensue_a mystery_n and_o leap_v not_o inconstant_o from_o one_o to_o another_o chap._n xxxvi_o a_o exercise_n before_o the_o sacred_a communion_n 1._o the_o conformation_n of_o the_o place_n for_o place_n 1._o the_o place_n the_o settle_n of_o thy_o mind_n may_v be_v to_o imagine_v thy_o saviour_n christ_n encompass_v with_o his_o angel_n and_o saint_n who_o all_o adore_v his_o divine_a majesty_n with_o all_o possible_a reverencâ—_n 2._o make_v thou_o also_o thy_o humble_a house_n 2._o beg_v of_o thy_o saviour_n to_o fit_v up_o thy_o poor_a house_n address_n unto_o he_o and_o since_o he_o vouchsafe_v to_o divert_v into_o the_o harbour_n of_o thy_o poor_a heart_n entreat_v he_o to_o send_v before_o he_o such_o ornament_n as_o be_v necessary_a for_o his_o worthy_a entertainment_n because_o thy_o poverty_n be_v uncapable_a to_o provide_v what_o be_v suitable_a to_o so_o great_a a_o majesty_n 3._o then_o reflect_v who_o it_o be_v that_o intend_v it_o 3._o think_v what_o guest_n be_v to_o lodge_v in_o it_o to_o lodge_v with_o thou_o it_o be_v sure_o he_o who_o the_o angel_n name_v jesus_n the_o saviour_n of_o man_n kind_a he_o who_o only_o can_v cure_v thy_o wound_n he_o who_o so_o dear_o love_v thou_o and_o take_v such_o care_n of_o thy_o salvation_n that_o he_o come_v purposely_o and_o personal_o to_o procure_v it_o interpose_v his_o authority_n hazard_v his_o honour_n and_o lose_v his_o life_n for_o thou_o upon_o a_o ignominious_a cross_n and_o be_v sure_a to_o insist_v upon_o this_o pious_a consideration_n as_o be_v very_o proper_a to_o prepare_v thy_o soul_n for_o the_o receive_n of_o this_o most_o holy_a sacrament_n according_a to_o our_o saviour_n precept_n as_o often_o as_o you_o shall_v do_v these_o thing_n you_o shall_v do_v they_o in_o remembrance_n of_o i_o 4._o consider_v to_o what_o end_n thy_o dear_a thou_o 4._o why_o he_o come_v to_o thou_o lord_n come_v unto_o thou_o sure_o to_o conclude_v a_o union_n between_o himself_o and_o thy_o soul_n whence_o result_v a_o certain_a divine_a life_n which_o thou_o henceforth_o enjoy_v by_o this_o sweet_a union_n with_o thy_o saviour_n for_o the_o food_n we_o take_v beget_v humour_n of_o the_o same_o quality_n which_o itself_o be_v of_o and_o consequent_o no_o marvel_n if_o this_o heavenly_a food_n and_o divine_a nourishment_n do_v in_o some_o sort_n deify_v the_o soul_n he_o that_o eat_v i_o shall_v live_v for_o i_o say_v our_o lord_n 5._o let_v thy_o next_o consideration_n be_v to_o who_o he_o come_v to_o a_o little_a worm_n come_v 5._o to_o who_o he_o come_v of_o the_o earth_n to_o a_o vessel_n full_a of_o filth_n and_o rottenness_n and_o perhaps_o which_o be_v far_o worse_o even_o to_o his_o enemy_n to_o the_o contemner_n of_o his_o command_n to_o the_o wilful_a transgressor_n of_o his_o law_n to_o a_o base_a runaway_n who_o have_v forsake_v the_o colour_n of_o his_o lord_n god_n and_o take_v part_n with_o the_o devil_n 6._o make_v
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so_o necessary_a for_o thou_o in_o this_o combat_n that_o without_o it_o thou_o can_v not_o only_o never_o hope_v to_o obtain_v thy_o so-much-desired_n conquest_n over_o thy_o enemy_n but_o not_o so_o much_o as_o to_o surmount_v the_o least_o of_o thy_o passion_n or_o imperfection_n thou_o be_v therefore_o serious_o and_o frequent_o to_o reflect_v upon_o the_o corruption_n of_o nature_n be_v enforce_v by_o the_o corruption_n of_o our_o nature_n thy_o natural_a inclination_n which_o make_v thou_o apt_a to_o conceive_v a_o good_a opinion_n of_o thyself_o and_o thou_o own_o action_n and_o to_o persuade_v thyself_o that_o thou_o be_v something_o when_o as_o indeed_o thou_o be_v nothing_o at_o all_o weigh_v further_o thereof_o and_o the_o weakness_n thereof_o the_o vanity_n and_o presumption_n of_o such_o self-conceit_n and_o the_o weakness_n of_o thy_o own_o force_n and_o consider_v how_o he_o and_o by_o consider_v how_o this_o acknowledgement_n please_v god_n and_o how_o much_o 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