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A true and exact copy of some passionate letters and verses as they were writ and sent by a person of quality to the Lady --.
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1692
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never change I will waste away this wretched Life in despair Yes Madam if my Vows and Oaths which Heaven only knows I have made without those I have paid at your Feet will not secure you to this Breast and perswade you I will carry this Passion to my Grave I am not sitting to live Alas to break with you would be barbarous inhumane and base I am not arrived at such Villanies yet and when I do let my end come or what is worse be every Man's wonder Then give me leave to hope you believe this and to send you a Vow taken from the bottom my Soul sent with a Passion and Fidelity inferior to none I ever read of that if you will keep me alive and give me leave to love you it shall never violate the Rules you set to your own Goodness and my Duty nor ever know decay till Pol. His great one Ah dearest Delia believe poor Po. that is ready to dye for Love and Grief to read a melancholy Letter let me implore you not to question my Faith but to conclude me as unalterable as the decrees of Heaven come Delia the Sun will yet shine and we shall yet live to appear our selves Charge not your self for not searching the World nor do not lay such Corrosives as too many of them will cause the death of the passionate Poli. Adieu Soul of my Soul I Love thee more than Misers do their Wealth Than Captives Freedom or than sick Men Health XXIII I Was in such great hopes that the Saturdays Post would have brought some account of Delia's Health as poor Po. hath wasted his whole Day with expectation and wishes but the Post is come and no news if it be designed as a continued piece of severity Po. submits But since he cannot but dread every accident which hinders his hearing when dear Delia is not well it may easily be guessed how uneasie he is all his Treasure is in one bottom and how natural at least how frequent is it to make the apprehensions of a ruine almost as great as the ruine it self indeed Po. is extremely concerned as ever I saw him in my life Alas he is so far from omitting any opportunity of sending as were the conveniencies every hour of the day I dare say Delia would miss very few for he spends them all in thinking of his Dearest and his only Concern Truly all the tenderness that the Soul of Man hath is imployed when we fear for that dear Friend you must let me some way or other know how you are or torment me to death order some body to write two words for I would not have you venture your Eyes yet But alas what do I talk you may be dead you may be any thing I have not heard these three Posts Ah how wretchedly miserable has this made me if satal this arrives farewel to Joy with as much resolution as I will welcome Death which the Holy one knows I will do whenever I lose my Delia I was in hopes the worst had been past when I left you and if so Why do I not hear from you remember what Grief and Sorrow plunged me into at the beginning of this great misfortune you know I am but just recovered and if you have a mind to defer my death have a care of the most deserving of Women for 't is to her alone my Services and my Life are Dedicated Fidelity is not more your due than 't is my nature therefore whatever Calumnies from Malice or Ignorance I may lie under you can answer for me for many years I pray take it here for an undeniable Truth bound with all the reiteravows and Resolutions my Soul can make that only at the Feet of my charming Delia will I breath out my Love and my Obedience in my last breath my Love shall end with my Life and when that goes my Eyes shall close up the Image of my Adorable Delia Let me hear I beseech you as soon as possible for if ever uncertainty was pain it is now a torment an unspeakable one to me Ah Delia What did I not leave you well and of such a Disease how cruel is the mention of it Why did not Fate permit Po. to bear the burthen I repent the word for I should esteem it one tho' it were my destruction Ah think how loth I am say Farewel to all that is my Joy and all that is my Life Adieu Witness this Truth for me ye Rural Powers Such as inhabit Groves or sit in Bowers You watry Nymphs and such as dwell in Shade How oft to you was this confession made Witness you nimble Spirits of the Air And you its Quire who sing away your Care I tried as many years as most have lov'd To save the Heart hath so defenceless prov'd But as some Warlike Nation grown too great And numerous for its Native fertile Seat Sends Colonies abroad to dispossess Those who made Home-bred Ease their Happiness Too much confined tho' in vast Empire She Conquers no less than general Liberty Such Force victorions Delia did display Night could as well resist the approaching Day Yet have we seen a thickned watry Cloud Sometimes attempt to be the Morning Shroud And as the mighty spreading light begun Tried to withstand the lustre of the Sun Suce weak attempts hath Reason sometimes made But how like Clouds did opposition fade Tell her Oh tell her ye Powers above I am made up of Duty and of Love XXIV DId you know how valuable every little is that comes from the Head and Hand of finest Methridatia there would have been more care taken than to have let so great a part of that little suffer Martyrdom before it came to Tryal Nay having made Call Judge I am sure the execution had been deferr'd till they had been companions in destruction But remember you are accountable to me for the Ruine of what I esteem above the value of anything but such an reparation as you can make and having now so fair an opportunity of appealing to your generosity think not I have so much as to lose it nay had I as much as generous Methridatia her self I should dare intrench upon what she prizeth so much or rob her of so great a share as she hath now occasion for Know then the thirsty Earth was never more covetous nay that I have in this case a Soul so great as not to be contented with less than what the Noblest Person living can give in compensation for what was almost inestimable expect me therefore to come and dun you I should not be in a condition to have entertained any one so much at random upon this Subject if I had not been last night blest with the happy news of a friend of mine being recovered of a Distemper I dreaded a person so dear to me by all that merit and obligation can inspire as I must beg of you to congratulate with me Oh! Comparisons are odious yet I must
ever more in love the Sun can as well cease his motion as Po. loving you see how little I prize my own preservation when I am always acquainting you with what you make use of to my destruction However I must and do with all imaginable sincerity protest my Vows and my Love are the never to be parted Companions of my Soul joyn'd by the force of Inclination and secured by Laws both Humane and Divine Adieu Joy is taking of its flight Dearest Delia How shall I Live when Life is out of sight I believe I shall dye Nor is the Eye at leisure here To suffer the instructions of the Ear The dull instructions of Advice May fit the Happy or the Wise What can the wretched have from Hope Or can it my Destruction stop Or if it could 't would be a grief To find in absence a relief V. MY Dearest Dear Lady every way Dear to poor Call Where alone it is the faithfullest Servant living searches for what is most valuable upon Earth his Pleasure his Ambition and his Love terminates all their Wishes there distant from thence every thing looses both its Nature and its Name Quiet is a stranger Content is not to be found Time the Soul and Essence of every thing turns to torment to the then dear Authoress of all my Joy I have and inseparable from my Thoughts Doth Call send this little and imperfect Atom of his Love from larger Worlds of Thought this Season having made him a Creature of Contemplation and Devotion I do from the truth of the one and consideration of the other avow that I am sure I know his Soul so well as to swear for him he has more Love more Admiration and more Fidelity for dear Mithridatia than all the World besides for the rest of her Sex Oh Madam I am in no humor to Lye and yesterday being Sunday where I eat the food of Angels may all its Holy nourishment turn to my destruction if ever I forsake or love my charming Mithridatia less this is not the impression of a suddain Passion no Madam years before you ever knew it was my Adorable and admired Mithridatia my Choice both by Reason and Inclination But alass What a Bar has Fate thrown betwixt us will you be angry if I repeat what I told you the last time I had the Blessing to see you come it must be it will be so The old Parliament Gentleman chear'd up after Sixteen years despair I shall yet live to own to the World a Passion that you too much trusted in your last Ah Mithridatia I am so little able to support my self under the affliction of your disfavour or under the seeming guilt of any thing derogatory to that respect and love under which I have vowed to live and dye as I have sent this to Mithridatia to beg and beg it I do with all the earnestness imaginable that she will send me one kind Line by this Bearer and to dissipate my Fears she will bid me come and lay my self at her Feet First to tell her of my Love and then how it was my Brothers Business with my Mother which I have been forc'd to adjust there being accounts between them that has created me much trouble but how can I talk of trouble when I have all that can be called so in your unkindness that I cannot bear oh dear Madam let me no longer be left destitute of all I can think or esteem happiness let not that be laid to my Charge which whenever I contract upon my self I withal bring a Sorrow that is as inconsistent with my Health as Light and Darkness Well my dear Mithridatia adieu despise me not for my Demerit nor yet for my Age for upon my Salvation I have Love enough to hide those blemishes and Courage enough to dye for you rather than live for any Woman else upon Earth and to convince you of the truth of what I now say I am come this moment out of my little Grove where I have invoked the Holy Angels to witness against me to my Creator whenever I prove false to my Vows Ah Madam I must lose the Image of my Maker and the reasonable Soul wherewithal he has endued me when such villanies enter my Breast and till then disdain me not from being the most passionate the most faithful and the most obedient of Men Callimachus VI. I Should be unfortunate beyond expression if the Malice or Design of prejudiced persons should lessen me in the Favour of her to whom I pay a Homage of such a nature as I think in the Eye of Heaven cannot be deemed criminal or defective if there be such a thing as allowance for Humanity if sweet Mi. find it guilty of either I shall submit to her Censure but 't is too unhappy to be at the mercy of others for what they are not concern'd in I beg you to distinguish between those who prefer you before all the World by Inclination and those whose envy pay your Merit an unwilling acknowledgment in their emulation we both in our way do you right but I wish such a Joy as my own Happiness is not more engaged by it than the content I take in your being more deserving than all the World I beg leave to tell my amiable Mi. there dwells not in the Soul of Man a Passion more securely guarded by Fidelity and Respect as the one will always make me love and admire you the other will always oblige me to do it in the manner you will approve so that till you find I grow disobedient give me not death by your unkindess and when I change from what I have so often vow'd to Heaven and you then my Charming Mi. may I become not only the scorn of every one but an exemplary punishment of him that made me May I dye unpittied and my Grave be filled with infamy and reproach when ever I forsake the only Woman upon Earth I ever lov'd for by that great Argument Comparison it is so then why will not my Adorable Mi. be contented with my Love When she can tell her self it is such an one as the dull World is yet a stranger to it pursues you Madam in every shape Obedience Duty and Submission are its attendance my Fortune and my Life shall follow you to the last period be but then contented I should live and that impulse which has told me so a thousand times tells me now we shall yet live to get of the bright side of the Cloud and end our days together and if I fail you may I never see the face of the Holy Beatitude Adieu Let me hear the next Post unless you design me more misery than I can bear Calli. VII I This day Madam found two Papers with Superscriptions that soon recalled those Thoughts that either publick or private Business had set on work like Atoms that Stormy weather had set on float retire when the Calm arrives that Centre Dear Methridatia