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it_o of_o some_o lustre_n and_o prove_v often_o not_o only_o unprofitable_a but_o endamage_v servant_n i_o have_v one_o word_n more_o to_o tell_v you_o that_o you_o may_v direct_v i_o in_o it_o which_o be_v that_o i_o be_o real_o ashamed_a and_o confound_v in_o myself_o that_o i_o do_v no_o more_o for_o god_n consider_v his_o dignity_n hâ—s_v love_n his_o gift_n and_o communication_n by_o the_o alliance_n of_o jesus_n christ_n and_o his_o spirit_n which_o indeed_o together_o with_o the_o sense_n of_o my_o great_a imbecility_n for_o any_o thing_n that_o be_v good_a of_o my_o sin_n and_o misery_n will_v work_v my_o extreme_a torment_n do_v i_o not_o bethink_v myself_o of_o his_o all-sufficiency_n in_o himself_o and_o that_o he_o do_v with_o we_o as_o he_o please_v in_o keep_v we_o in_o obedience_n and_o profound_a annihilation_n thus_o far_o his_o letter_n wherein_o be_v many_o good_a thing_n to_o be_v learn_v chap._n 4._o the_o excellent_a use_n he_o make_v of_o all_o thing_n and_o his_o application_n to_o the_o infancy_n of_o our_o lord_n for_o that_o purpose_n it_o must_v needs_o be_v that_o monsieur_n renty_n make_v excellen_v use_n of_o all_o accident_n that_o occur_v to_o he_o and_o general_o of_o all_o creature_n to_o attain_v to_o such_o a_o height_n of_o perfection_n whereof_o this_o usage_n of_o they_o as_o muâ—h_a as_o be_v in_o man_n be_v undonbred_o the_o principal_a mean_n to_o which_o all_o other_o be_v subordinate_a otherwise_o and_o without_o it_o unprofitable_a and_o mere_a hindrance_n true_a it_o be_v that_o god_n have_v place_v in_o the_o bosom_n of_o each_o thing_n as_o in_o riches_n poverty_n honour_n disgrace_n health_n sickness_n good_a and_o evil_n a_o secret_a virtue_n and_o moral_a capacity_n to_o advantage_v we_o in_o our_o salvation_n and_o to_o be_v instrument_n of_o perfection_n even_o as_o so_o many_o cord_n to_o draw_v and_o unite_v we_o to_o himself_o but_o all_o this_o according_a to_o our_o usage_n of_o they_o for_o bâ—ing_v well_o use_v they_o produce_v good_a effect_n but_o contrary_o abuse_v instead_o of_o unite_n we_o to_o god_n they_o estrange_v we_o further_o from_o he_o render_v we_o more_o imperfect_a and_o vicious_a and_o instead_o of_o advantage_n prove_v the_o instrument_n of_o our_o ruin_n wherefore_o he_o be_v well_o instruct_v in_o this_o grand_a secret_n of_o spiritual_a life_n employ_v all_o his_o care_n to_o practice_v it_o perfect_o which_o that_o we_o may_v better_o understand_v it_o will_v not_o be_v amiss_o to_o follow_v it_o to_o the_o springhead_n the_o holy_a man_n have_v continual_o in_o his_o heart_n make_v it_o the_o principal_a conduct_n of_o his_o devotion_n as_o we_o have_v mention_v and_o may_v be_v easy_o deduce_v from_o the_o series_n of_o this_o history_n to_o unite_v himself_o to_o our_o lord_n jesus_n christ_n and_o that_o upon_o good_a ground_n since_o out_o of_o he_o as_o say_v s._n peter_n there_o be_v no_o salvation_n god_n have_v choose_v he_o the_o sole_a mediator_n of_o redemption_n and_o the_o repairer_n of_o our_o misety_n love_v no_o creature_n in_o the_o world_n but_o he_o with_o a_o love_n of_o perfect_a amity_n whereupon_o by_o s._n paul_n he_o be_v style_v the_o son_n of_o his_o love_n and_o good_a pleasure_n and_o we_o alone_o be_v accept_v in_o and_o through_o he_o who_o be_v find_v beautiful_a and_o shine_a with_o glory_n when_o we_o be_v unite_v to_o he_o and_o out_o of_o he_o we_o appear_v deform_v hideous_a and_o most_o abominable_a be_v indeed_o without_o he_o fill_v with_o sin_n and_o his_o enemy_n wherefore_o every_o man_n be_v so_o far_o dear_a and_o amiable_a to_o he_o as_o he_o stand_v unite_v to_o his_o son_n which_o be_v manifest_v in_o the_o bless_a virgin_n and_o his_o apostle_n all_o our_o action_n please_v he_o so_o far_o as_o they_o be_v unite_v to_o he_o even_o as_o each_o member_n of_o our_o body_n participate_v of_o life_n according_a as_o it_o be_v animate_v by_o our_o soul_n have_v therefore_o perfect_o 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