handewriting and saue me Behold I sigh to thee being thy creature recreate me being my Creator Beholde I whom thou hast made doe crie vnto thee thou that art life reuiue me Beholde I looke towardes thee being a peece of clay framed by thee thou art my maker repaire me Pardon me o Lord for that the dayes of my life are short and as it were nothinge What is man that he durst speake to God that made him Pardon me talking vnto thee Pardon thy seruant presuming to speake vnto soe greate a Lord. Necessiâ—ie hath noe lawe My greife compelleth me to speake the miseâ—ie which I sustaine constraineth me to crie vnto the. Beeing therfore sicke I crie vnto the phisition being blinde I hasten vnto the â—ight being deade I sighe after life Thou art my phisition o Iesus of Nazareth thou art my light thou art my life O Sonne of Dauid take pittie vppon me o fountaine of mercie be mercifull vnto me Heare what thy sicke patient saieth vnto thee O light which passest by expect him that is blinde lende him thy hande that he may come vnto thee and in thy light may see light O liuing life recall me that am deade to life What am I that doe speake vnto thee Woe be to me o Lord pardon me o Lord I am an vnhappie man A man I say borne of a woman liuinge but a short time replenished with many miseries a man I say become like vnto vanitie compared and very well likened vnto senslesse bruite beastes Againe what am I An obscure bottomelesse pitt a clodd of clay the sonne of anger and perdition begotten in filthines liuing in wretchednes and being to die in great anguish and distresse O wretche what am I O miserable man what shall I be A vessel of ordure and filthines a receptacle of rottennes full of stenche and loathsomenes blinde needie naked subiect to manifolde necessities subiect to miserie and mortalitie knowing neither my beginning nor my dyinge day Whose dayes and life passe and vanish away as the shadow of the Moone And as the blossomes of a tree growe and sodainely wither away soe doth the life of man now flowrishe and forthwith growe to decay My life I say is a life fraile and brittle a life which by how much the more it encreaseth by soe much the more it decreaseth by how much the more it hastneth on by soe much the more it draweth neere to deathe a life deceiptful like vnto a shadowe One while I am merrie and gladde and presentlie after sorrowefull and sadde Sometime sounde and then sodainely sicke now a liue and in a shorte time after I shal be deade sometimes I make a shew as if I were happie yet still in miserie sometimes I laughe and sodainely after I lament And all thinges are soe subiect to mutation as that nothing can be truly saied to remaine stable in the same state one onely hower of time Sometimes feare afflicteth vs at other times some sodaine chance affrighteth vs sometimes hunger vexeth vs at other times thirst tormenteth vs sometimes heate parcheth vs at other times colde pincheth vs sometimes sicknes molesteth vs at other times sadnes dâ—iâ—cteth vs. After these followeth deathe before he is expected bereauing wretched men by a thousande meanes dayly of theire liues and taking them on a sodaine before they be prepared One dieth of a feauer an other throughe sorrowe one fainteth and falleth downe deade through hunger an other through thirst one is drowned an other hanged one is burned an other with the teethe of wilde beastes is torne in pceces and deuoured One is slaine with the sworde an other poysoned an other dieth being by some soddaine accident onely affrighted And yet a greater miserie then all these is that albeit nothing is more certaine then deathe yet man knoweth not the time of his deathe and when he thinketh to stande most firme he is ouerthrowne and all his hopes come to nothinge Because man knoweth not when nor where nor how he shall die althoughe it be a thinge assured that he must die Beholde o Lord how greate mans miserie is in which I am and yet I am voide of feare Beholde how greate the calamitie is which I sustaine and yet I am voide of sorrowe and doe not crie to thee I will crie vnto thee o Lord before I passe out of this life to the end my passage may be nothing els but to remaine perpetuallie with thee I will therfore make knowne and discouer my wretchednes I will confesse and will not be ashamed to disclose my vildenes Helpe me o my force by whom I am vphelde succoure me o my strength by whom I sustained come o light by which I see appeare o glorie by which I reioyce apppeare o life in which I may liue eternallie blessed cuen thou o Lord my God Of the admirable light of God CHAPT III. O Light which ould Tobias being blinde did see when he taught his sonne the way of life That light which Isaac albeit his corporall eies failled him sawe within him when outwardlye he foretolde to this sonne thinges that were to come That inuisible light I say that seethe plainely the vnspeakeable depthe of mans harte That light which lacob did see when he prophesied of fuâ—uâ—e euents to his children according to that which thou didst inwardly dictate vnto him Beholde o Lord darknes doth ouershadowe the face of the bottomlesse depth of my minde thou art light Beholde an obscure mist doth ouerwhelme the waters of my harte thou art the truthe O Worde by which all thinges were made and without which was made nothing That Worde which is before all thinges and before which there was nothinge That Worde which gouerneth all thinges without which all thinges are nothing That Worde which in the beginning hast saied Let light be made and it was donne Say likewise to me let light be made and let it be donne and let me see the light and knowe whatsoeuer is not light because without thee darknes wil be vnto me as light and light as darknesse And soe without thy light there is noe veritie there is nothing els but errour and vanitie there is confusion and noe discretion there is ignorance and noe knowledge blindenes and noe seeing going astray and noe walking in the right way deathe and noe life Of the mortalitie of mans nature CHAPT IV. BEholde o Lord where light is absent there deathe is present nay deathe is not there present because deathe is meerelie nothinge For by deathe we tende to nothinge whilst by sinne we feare to doe nothing And truly o Lord this iustlie hapneth vnto vs for we receiue according to our actions whiles like a flowinge riuer we runne and come to nothinge because without thee there is made nothing and we by doing nothing come to be nothinge For without thee we are nothing by whom all thinges are made without whom there is made nothing O Lord God thou diuine Worde by whom all thinges are made
I haue receiued from thee common with them the guift of reason wherby to knowe thee Neuerthelesse I haue saied almost equall for that they alreadie haue the happie knowledge of thee by seeing thee as thou art but I by hope onely They by beholding thee apparantlie face to face I obâ—curelie as it were in a looking glasse They plainelie and perfectlie but I partlie onely Of the future dignitie of man CHAPT VIII WHen that therfore which is perfect is arriued that which is partly onely shal be disanulled which will be when we shall be admitted to beholde thy face apparentlie What will then hinder vs to be almost equall to the Angells whom thou o Lord at that time wilt crowne with a crowne of hope which is adorned with glorie and renowne whom thou with vnspeakeable fauoures wilt grace as thy friends yea we shal be in all thinges like and equall to the Angells Thy truth doth likewise testifie the same saying They are equall to the Angells and are the sonnes of God What are they but the sonnes of God if they are equall to the Angells They shall without doubt be the sonnes of God because the sonne of man is become the sonne of God Through this consideration I durst boldlye affirme that man is not onely almost equall to the Angells noe not equall onely but higher in dignitie and surpassing the Angells because man is God and God is man not an Angell Wherfore I durst auouche that man is the most excellent of all creatures because the Worde which in the beginning was God with God the Worde by which God sayed let light be made and light was made to witt the Angelicall nature the Worde by which God in the beginning created all thinges the same Worde hath become fleshe and dwelt in vs and we haue seene the glory of it Loe this is the glorie by which I glorie whensoeuer I glorie as I ought Loe this is the ioy by which I reioyce whensoeuer I reioyce as I shoulde euen thou o Lord my God the life and onely glorie of my soule I confesse therfore vnto thee o Lord my God that thou hast created me in a manner equal to the Angells in that thou hast created me capable of reason for that by meanes of thy diuine Worde I am in possibilitie to become equall to the Angells that by meanes of thy onely begotten Worde I may be adopted to be thy sonne o Lord to be thy sonne I say by the meanes and merits of thy beloued sonne lesus Christ in whom thou hast beene well pleased being thy onely soÌ„ne and heare and our onely Lord and redeemer enligthner and comforter being our aduocate with thee and the light of our eies who is our life our Sauiour and our onely hope who hath loued vs more then himselfe by whom we haue an assured trust and confidence and accesse to come to thee because he hath giueÌ„ them power to be the sonnes of God that beleiue in his name I will for euer o Lord praise thy holy name who by creating me according to thine owne image and likenes hast made me capable of soe greate glorie as to be the sonne of God The trees stones and all thinges els whatsoeuer that are mouâ—d or growe in the ayre or in the sea or on the earthe haue not this priuâ—ledge and prerogatiue because thou hast not giuen them power by meanes of thy Worde to be the sonnes of God for that they are depâ—iued of reason because this power doth depende of the reason by which we knowe God But he hath giuen this power to men whom he hath created reasonable according to his owne image and likenes And I o Lord like as by thy grace I am a man soe likewise by thy grace I am in possibilitie to be thy sonne which is a prerogatiue which they cannot attaine vnto Whence proceedeth this soe greate a good vnto me o Lord the most soueraigne truth and true soueraigntie the originaâ—l and beginning of all creatures What is the cause heereof o Lord that I shoulde be able to become thy sonne and they cannot Thou art the cause o Lord who remainest for euer who hast created aswell the one as the other Thou hast created both men and beastes the stones and the greene grasse growing on the grouÌ„de There were not any precedent meritts or precedent grace because thou hast created all thinges being moued there vnto by thy onely goodnes All creatures before theire creation were equall in meritts for that they were all voide of merits What then hath caused thy goodnes to be more liberall towardes me thy creature whom thou hast endewed with reason then towardes all others that are voide of the same Why am not I like vnto all them or all they like vnto me or I alone like vnto them What merits of mine what grace or goodnes was there in me to deserue the same to witt that thou shouldest make me capable to be the sonne of God which prerogatiue thou hast graunted to none of them Be it farr o Lord from mine imagination that I shoulde thinke this to proceede from any merits of mine Thy onely grace and goodnes hath been the cause of this to the end I might be pertaker of the sweetnes thereof I beseeche thee therefore by that grace by the which thou hast created me that thou wilt giue me grace to the end I may be gratefull for this grace receiued from thee Of Gods omnipotent power CHAPT IX THy omnipotent hande o God being still one and the same hath created Angells in heauen and wormes on the earth not being more excellent in the creation of the first then of the later For as noe other hande coulde create an Angell soe noe other coulde create a worme As noe other coulde create heauen soe noe other coulde create the least leafe of a tree As noe other coulde create the body soe noe other coulde cause soe much as one haire of the heade to be either white or blacke But the omnipotent hande of thy maiestie createth all thinges with a like facilitie Neither is it more possible vnto it to create a worme then an Angell nor more inpossible to inlarge the heaueÌ„s then a leafe it is not more easie vnto it to make a haire then a body nor more harde to lay the foundation of the earthe vpon the waters then the foundation of the waters vpon the earthe But all thinges whatsoeuer it woulde it hath made as it woulde in heauen and in earthe in the sea and in the bottomeles depthes making me likewise amongst all other thinges euen as it would could and knewe how Veriely thy hande o Lord coulde haue made me a stone or a birde or a serpent or some brute beaste knowing full well how to doe it yet woulde not by reason of thy great goodnes The cause therefore why I am not a stone or a tree or some brute beaste is for that thy goodnes hath otherwise ordained neither were there
mercy giue me yet greater light and vnderstanding I beseech thee that I may perceiue it more plainely For by the lesser benefits o holy Lord God our good Creator we growe to vnderstande thy greater and by those which we visibly see heer we come to the knowledg of those that are inuisible in heauen For if thou o God dost bestowe vpon our base and corruptible body soe greate and innumerable benefits from the firmament and ayre from the earthe sea from the light and darknes from heate and shadowe from dewe and raine from windes and shewers from foules fishes from beastes and trees from variety of hearbes and plantes and of al other of thy earthely creatures seruing vs successiuely in their turnes that by them thoâ— maiest solace the sorowes of this our wearisome life what manner of benefits are those I pray thee how greate I say and innumerable shall those comfortes and commodities be which thou hast prepared for those that loue thee in that heauenly country where apparantly face to face we shall see and beholde thee If thou dost soe much for vs now in this earthly prison what wilt thou doe for vs heerafter in the palace of thy heauenly habitation Greate certainely and innumerable are these thy workes o Lord and kinge of heauen For seing all these thinges are exceeding good and delightfull which thou hast imparted to good and bad men in common what manner of thinges wil those be which thou hast reserued for the good alone If the guifts which thou dost now giue vnto thy freindes and foes together be soe innumerable and many how greate innumerable how sweete and delightfull will those be which thou wilt bestowe heereafter vpon thy freinds onely If thou dost giue vs soe greate comfortes on this sorrowfull day of weepings how greate wilt thou giue vs on the festiuall day of the wedding If soe greate delightes are contained in this earthly prison how greate are contayned in the countrie of heauen There was neuer yet any eye o God without thee that hath seene the pleasures which thou hast prepared for those that loue thee Because the immensitie of thy sweetnes which thou hast reseruâ—â— for those that feare thee is answerable vnto the immensitie of thy magnificence Wherfore o Lord my God like as thou art greate and immense there being neither end of thy greatnes or number of thy wisedome or measure of thy bounteousnes soe likewise there is neither end or number nor measure of thy recompence but like as thou art greate soe is likewise thy rewarde and recompence because thou thy selfe art their rewarde and recompence that fight for thee according to thy holy ordinance That the sweetnes of God doth take away the present bitternes of the Worlde CHAPT XXII THâ—se o Lord God the sanctifier of thy Saincts are those greate benefits of thine with which thou hast aboundantly supplied and replenished the wantes of thy children because thou are the hope of those that are in desperation their comforte that are in affliction thou art a crowne of confidence adorned with glory prepared for those that ouercome Thou art the eternall foode and fullnes of thy hungry seruants to be distributed to those that hunger after righteousnes Thou art the euerlasting comforte who bestowest thy selfe on them only that despise all worldly comforte in hope of that endlesse comforte which they shall haue of thee Because those that are comforted eere are vnworthy to be comforted by thee heereafter But they are by thee comforted who are heere for thee afflicted and they that are partakers of thy passions are likewise partakers of thy consolations Certainely noe man can be comforted in both worldes or reioyce heere in this life and in the next likewise but of necessitie he must loose the one that will get the other When I consider these thinges o Lord my comforter my soule refuseth to be comforted in this life to the end it may be thought worthy of thy eternall comfortes because according to reason it seemeth that he is worthy to loose thee that taketh more delight in any other thing then in thee Wherfore o souueraigne truth by thine owne selfe I beseeche thee permitt me not to take pleasure in any vanitie But let all transitorie thinges seeme bitter vnto me that thou alone maiest seeme sweete vnto my soule who art that inestimable sweetnes that maketh bitter thinges to be sweete Thy sweetnes made the stones of the streame seeme sweete vnto Saint Stephan with which he was stoned Thy sweetnes made the burning gridiron seeme sweete vnto Saint Laurence on which he was broyled By meanes of thy sweetnes the Apostles went ioyfullie froÌ„ the sight of the councell for that they were thought worthy to suffer reproache for thy name Saint Andrewe went with ioy and alacritie towardes the Crosse because he went with hast towardes thy sweetnes The Princes of the Apostles likewise Saint Peter Saint Paule with this thy sweetnes were replenished so that to obtaine it the one of them made choice to be crucified the other without feare to loose his heade Saint Bartholomewe to buy it gaue his owne skinne and Sainte Iohn to taste of it without feare drunke vp a cuppe of poison Noe sooner had Saint Peter tasted of this sweetnes but forthwith forgetting all inferiour thinges he cried out as one inebriated and ouercome with ioy saying Lord it is good for vs to be heere let vs make heere three tabernacles let vs remaine heere in diuine contemplation because we want noe other thing It is sufficieÌ„t for vs saide he to see thee it is sufficient to be satisfied with soe greate sweetnes He had noe sooner tasted one onely droppe of that heauenly sweetenes but he immediatelye forgott all other sweetenes What woulde he haue saied thinke you if he had tasted of the immense sweetenes of thy diuinitie which thou hast kept in store for those that loue thee That Virgin likewise had tasted of this thy vnspeakeable sweetenes of whom we reade that shee went to the prison in that pleasant and merrie manner as if shee had been inuited to some banquet or supper He likewise I suppose had tasted of this sweetnes who saied How greate o Lord is the multitude of thy sweetnesse which thou hast laied vp in store for those that feare thee Who likewise did put vs in minde of it saying Taste and see because our Lord is sweete This o Lord God is that happines which we doe hope thou wilt bestowe vpon vs for which we fight for thee continuallie for which we mortifie our selues for theâ— dailie to the end we may liue with thee in that happy life of thine which shall last euerlastingly That our whole hope and the desire of our harte ought to be in God CHAPT XXIII Bvt thou o Lord the expectation of Israel the desire after which our hartâ— doth sighe euery day make hast and doe not stay Arise make hast and come and deliuer vs out
whereof a iust man may vaunt or which can bringe him to glorie vnlesse thou preuent him afore hande being of him selfe vniust with thy mercy and pittie I therfore o my Saujour belieue what I haue hearde that it is thy goodnes that doth drawe me to repentance thy hony-sweete lipps haue toulde it me Noeman can come to me vnlesse my Father who hath sent me drawe him Seeinge therefore it hath pleased thee to instruct me and by instruction hast vouchsafed mercifully to enforme me I beseech thee with all the forces of my harte and minde o almightie father togeather with thy most beloued sonne I beseeche thee likewise o most sweete sonne together with the most gratious hohe Ghost vouchsafe to draw me that I may runne after thee by vertue of the sweete smel of thy preâ—ious ointmeÌ„ts The helpe of God the father is desired by the merits of God the sonne CHAPT V. VNto thee I crie o my God vnto thee I call for that thou art nighe to all those that crie and call vpon thee in the truth Thou art the truth reach me I beseech thee for thy mercies sake teache me o sacred truthe to call vpon thee in the truthe and for that I knowe not how this ought to be donne I humbly desire thee o blessed truth that thou wilt vouchsafe to teache me because wisedome without thee is meere ignorance but the knowledge of thee is an absolute science Instruct me o diuine wisedome teache me thy lawe because I assure my selfe that man shal be happie whome thou shalt vouchsafe to instruct and â—each in thy law I desire to implore thy assistance which I beseeche thee let be donne in the truth What is it to implore the assistance of the truthe in the truthe sauinge onely the assistance of the father in the sonne Thy worde therfore o holy Father is the truthe the truthe being likewise the beginninge of thy wordes For this is the beginninge of thy wordes that in the beginninge was the Worde In that beginning I adore thee whoe art the best beginninge In that worde of truthe I craue thy ayde o most absolute truthe In which worde of truthe may it please thee whoe art the selfe same truthe to direct and instruct me in the truthe for what is more sweete then to call vppon the father in the name of his onely begotten sonne to moue the father to mercie by remembrance of his childe to appease the kings sury by naminge his dearest progenie By these meanes are fellons deliuered out of prison thus they that lie fettered are freed from theire irons thus they that are condemned obtaine not onely to be quit and absolued but likewise with unexpected fauoures to he rewarded to wit by making knowen to the Princes thus incensed the loue of theire childe soe muche beloued in this manner likewise doe seruants escape the punishment of theire maisters when they haue offended whilst the sweetnes of theire children doth make intercession for them that they may be pardonned After the same manner I beseeche thee o father omnipotent by the loue of thy omnipotent sonne deliuer my soule out of prison to the end it may more freely confesse thy name I beseeche thee by thy coeternall and onely sonne deliuer me from the irons and fetters of sinne and by the intercession of thy most deare childe sittinge at thy right hande vouchsafe to restore me to life beinge by him appeased albeit my meritts doe adiudge me to be condemned Certainely I knowe noe other mediatour whome I may sende vnto thee but him onely whoe is the sacrifice offered for the reconciliation of our sinnes whoe sitteth at thy right hande makinge intercession for vs. Loe this is my aduocate with thee o God the father Loe this is that high Priest whoe needeth not to be purged with an others bloude for that he shineth beinge sprinkled with his owne Loe this is that sacred hoste soe pleasinge and ful of perfection offered and accepted so aâ—sauoure of sweetnes Loe this is that lambe without blemish who before those that sheared him heaâ—d his peace for that beinge buffeted spit vpon and reuiled he did not soe muche as open his mouth Thus he that was free from sinne tooke vpon him the burden of our sinnes and by his owne woundes cured out soares Heere man doth represent to God the Father the passion of his sonne CHAPT VI BEholde o pittifull father thy most pittifull sonne suffring such pittifull thinges for me See o most mercifull kinge whoe it is that suffereth Is not this o my Lord thy most innocent sonne whom thou dâ—dstgiue therby to deliuer thy seruant Is not this he o author of life whoe was led as a sheepe to the slaughter and being made obedient vnto thee even unto deathe feared not to vndergo that kinde of deathe which of all others is most cruell and painefull May it please thee who art the only dispenser and disposer of our safety and saluation to remember that this is he whome albe â—it thou hast begotten by thine owne vertue and diuinitie thou wouldest have notwithstandinge to be pertaker of mine infumitie This verily is thy diuiniâ—e whoe tooke vppon it my humaniâ—ie ascended the tree of the crosse and in the fleshe which it had assumed sustained greate torments O my Lord God vouch safe to ast the eies of thy maiestie vppon the worke of thine unspeakeable mercie Beholde thy sweete sonne stretched forth at lenght on the crosse Looke vppon his innocent handes gushing for the streames of innocent bloude and being pacified remit the misdeedes which my handeâ— haue committed Consider his naked side pierced throughe with a cruell lance and cleanse me in that sacred fontaine which I do belieue to haue flowed from thence See his vndefiled feete whoe neuer stoode in the way of sinners but alwaies walked in thy lawe fastned with longe and boysterous nayles and gratiously make perfect my paces in thy paths makinge me to hate and abhor all the waies of iniquitie Remoue from me the way of iniquitte and mercifullie make me to chose the way of veritie I beseeche thee o kinge of Sainctes by thy faincte of Sainctes by this my redeemer make me to runne the way of thy commaÌ„dements that I may be vnited to him in spirit who disdained not to be cloathed with my fleshe Dost thou not marke o merciful father the heade of this thy younge and dearest sonne being bowed downe on his snowe-white shoulder resolued into a deathe of vnestimable value Looke vppon the humanitie of thy beloued child most meeke creator and take compassion of the weakenes of thy weake creature His naked breast groweth white his bloudie side loketh redde his out-stretched bowells become drie his comely eies growe dimme his kingly countenance waxeth pale his longe armes growe colde and stiffe his thighes in whitenes like vnto Alablaster hange downe the water of his blessed bloude doth bathe his pierced feete Beholde o glorious father the mangled members of thy most gratious
essence one vertuâ— one goodnes one onely happines From whom by whom and in whom all thinges are happie what thinges soâ—uer are happie That God is the true and soueraigne life CHAPT XXXII O God the true and soueraigne lâ—fe from whome by whome and in whome all thinges doe liue what thinges soeuer doe truly and happilie liue O God the true and soueraigne bountiâ— and beautie from whom by whom and in whome all thinges are good and beautifull what thinges soeuer are good and beautifull O God whose faiâ—he dâ—th raise vsâ— whose hope doth releiue vs whose charitie doth vnite vs. O God who commaundest that we shoulde aske thee and openest to him that doth knock and call vnto thee O God from whome to be auerted is to fall to whome to be conuâ—â—ed is to rise in whome to remaine is to be immoueable O God whom noe man looseth vnlesse he be deceaued whioÌ„ noe man seeketh vnlesse he bâ— admonished whom noe man findeth vnlesse he be vndefiled O God to knowe whom is to liue to serue whom is to raigne to praife whom is the â—oules ioy and saluation I praise blâ—sse and adore thee with my lippes and harte and with all the force I haue rendring thankes to thy mercie and bountie for all the benefitts which I haue receiuâ—d from thee and singing vnto thee the hymne of thy glorie holy holy holy To thee I cry o blessed Trinity beseeching thee that thou wilt vouchsafe to come into me and make men temple fitt to receaue thy maiestie I beseech the Father by the Sonne I beseech the Sonne by the Father I beseech the holy Ghost by the Father and the Sonne that all my sinnes and imperfections may be remoued farr from me and all holy vertues may be planted in me O God of infinite power and might of whom by whom and in whom all thinges visible and inuisible were created who dost enuiron thy workes without and replenishe them within who dost couer them aboue and sustaine them beneath protect me the worke of thy handes hoping in thee and hauing my whole coÌ„fidence in thy onely mercy Preserue me I beseeche thee heere and euery where now and euer within and without before and behinde aboue and beneathe and on euery side that noe place in me may be founde open to the assaultes and snares of mine enimies Thou art God almightie the keeper and defender of all those that trust in thee without whom no man is secure no man is free from danger Thou art God and there is noe other God but thee either in heauen aboue or on the earthe beneathe who dost great and maruailous thinges vnknowen and inscrutable in nomber infinite and innumerable To thee therefore doth truly belong all glory power and praise To thee all the holy Angells the heauens and vniuâ—rsall powers doe singe songes of thanksgiuing sounding forth thy prayses without ceasinge as creatures to theire creator as seruants to theire maister as souldiers to theme Prince and gouuernoure Finallie euery creature and eueric spiritt doth magnifie and extoll thee o sacred and inseparable Trinitie The praises of Angells and men CHAPT XXXIII TO thee all holy and humblâ— men of hartie to thee the spiritts and soules of the iust to thee all the celestiall citâ—izeÌ„s and euerie order of the heauenlie hierarchie doe singe and sounde forth praise and honoure euâ—rlastinglie in most humble manner fallinge downe adoring thee Those celestiall cittizens o Lord doe praise thee with much honoure and magnificencie Man likewise doth extâ—ll thy power containinge in himselfe a greate parte of ech other creature I my selfe alsoe albeit a poore and miserable sinner doe desire to praise thee with greate deuotion and doe withe thaâ— I coulde loue thee with most ardent affection O my God my life my strength and my praise giue me graâ—e to praise thee Giue light vnto my harte and worde vnto my mouth that my harte may thinke of thy glorie and my tongue may all the day longe singe and sounde forth thy praises But because thy praise is not seemely in my mouthe that am a sinner and a man of vncleane lipps cleanse my harte I beseâ— che thee from all vncleanlineffe of iniqnitie sanctifie me within and without o sanctifier omnipotent and make me worthy to praise thee Receiue gratiouslie and take in good parte this sacrifice of my lipps which I offer thee with my whole harte and affection and graunt that it may be acceptable in thy sight and ascende vnto thee as an odore of sweetnes Lett thy holie remembrance and thy most blessed sweetnes possesse my whole soule drawinge it vp to the loue of thinges inuisible Lett my soule passe from thinges visible to inuisible from earthly to celestiall from thinges temporall to eternall lett it mount vp by contemplation and beholde thee whose sight is soe full of admiration O eternal truthe true charitie and charitable eternitie thou art my God to thee I sigh day and night thou art my whole studie my desire is how I may come to thee because he that knoweth the truth knoweth eternity Thou o truth art ruler ouer al thinges whom we shal apparantly see after that this blinde and mortal life is ended in which we are demauÌ„ded Wher is thy God yea I my selfe doe demaunde My God where art thou Me thinke I finde my selfe somewhat comforted in thee when with wordes of exultation and confession I doe power forthe my soule vppon thee as one reioyceth at some banquet or vppon a holie day Neuerthelesse my soule is yet pensiue for that it falleth downe and becommeth as an infinite deepe pitt or rather perceiueth it selfe to be such a one as yett To whome my faith which in the night season thou hast kindled before my feete making answere saieth Why art thou sadd o my soule and why doost thou trouble me Put thy trust in God whose worde is a light vnto my feete hope and perseuere in him vntill the night be past the mother of such as sinne vntill Gods anger be past whose children in times past we haue been because we were heeretofore darknes vntill this violent inundation of waters be past vntill the day appeare and the shadowes are departed till then the residue of sinne remaineth in our bodie growen deade through iniquitie Wherefore o my soule put thy trust in our Lord in the morninge I will preisent my selfe before him and meditate vppon him and for euermore will confesse vnto him In the morninge I will present my selfe before him and by contemplation will beholde him who is the health of my countenance and my God who will reuiue our deade bodies by meanes of the holie Ghost dwellinge in vs to the end that from hence forth we may become light and the children of the light and of the day not of the night neither of darknes being as yett saued by hope True it is that heeretofore we were darknesse but now we are become light in thee our God neuertheles as yet by
in them contained Enlighten mine eies o incomprehensible light sende forth thy lightning and dazell theÌ„ that they may not beholde vanitie Encreâ—se thy lightning and dazell and trouble them in that manner as that fountaines of water may appeare and the foundations of the whole worlde may be discouered O light inuisible giue me that sight that may see thee O sauoure of life create in me a newe smell which may make me runne after thee in the odoure of thy oyntments Cure my taste that it may taste knowe and discerne how greaâ—e the multitude of thy sweetnes is o Lord which thou hast kept in store for theÌ„ that are replenished with thy loue Giue me a harte o Lord that may thinke on thee a minde that may loue thee a memorie that may muse on thee an vnderstanding that may knowe thee a will that may alwaies be strongly vnited to thee the cheifest and most delightfull good Graunt that I may alwaies wisely and discreetely loue thee O life to whom all thinges liue that life which giueth me life that life which is my life that life by which I liue without which I die that life by which I am raysed and reuiued without which I perishe and am consumed that life by which I am coÌ„forted without which I am afflicted O liuing life sweete and worthy to be beloued alwaies to be remembred tell me I pray thee where art thou Where may I finde thee to the end I may leaue my selfe and liue in thee Be neere vnto me in my minde neere in my harte neere iâ— my mouthe neere in my hearing neere to succoure me in time of affliction because I languishe through thy loue because I die whensoeuer I am without thee and am raysed againe to life by thinking on thee Thy smell recreateth me thy remembrance healeth me Then shall I be satisfied and neuer before when thy glorie o life of my soule shall appeare My soule greatelie desireth and almost fainteth throughe the remembrance of thee when shall I come o my delight and be presented before thee Why dost thou hide away thy face o my ioy by which I reioyce Where art thou hidden o beautifull Lord Whom I soe much desire I smell the sweete sauoure of thee I liue and am delighted in thee and yet I doe not see thee I heare thy voyce and am reuiued But why dost thou hide thy face from me Peraduenture thou wilt say Man cannot see me and liue Let me therefore die o Lord that I may see thee let me see thee that I may die to the worlde I doe not desire to liue but to die for that my desire is to be dissolued and to be with Christ I desire to die that I may see Christ I refuse to liuâ— to the end I may liue with Christ O Lord Iesu receiue my spirit o my life receiue my soule O my delight drawe my harte vnto thee O my delightfull foode let me feede on thee O my heade vouchsafe to direct me o light of mine eies enlighten me O my melodious musique tune and order me O my sweete smell reuiue me O diuine Worde recreate me O my praise make gladde the soule of thy seruant Enter into it o my ioy that it may reioyce in thee Enter into it o soueraigne sweetnes that it may taste and sauoure those thinges that are sweete O eternall light shine vppon it that it may vnderstande knowe and loue thee For this iâ— the cause why it doth not loue thee if it doth not loue thee because it doth not knowe thee and the cause why it doth not knowe thee is for that it doth not vnderstande thee And the cause why it doth not vnderstande thee is for that it doth not comprehende thy light and the light shineth in darknes and the darknâ—s comprehendeth it not O light of my mâ—nde o bright truthe o true charitie who enlightnest euery man comminge into this worâ—dâ—e comminge I say into the wor'd but not louinge the worlde because he that loueth the worlde becommeth the ennimy of God Expell the darkenes which couereth the face of the depth of my minde that by vnderstanding it may see thee that by seinge it may knowe thee and by knowing may loue thee For whosoeuer knoweth thee loueth thee and forgetteth himselfe he loueth thee more then himselfe he leaueth himselfe and commeth to thee that he may be delighted in thee Hence it proceedeth o Lord that I doe not loue thee soe much as I ought because I doe not perfectlie knowe thee but because I knowe thee but a little I loue thee but a little and because I loue thee but a little I am but a little delighted in thee Leauing thee therfore the true internall ioy by louing thinges externall aslong as I wante thee onely I seeke after false freindshipps in those thinges that are without me And by this meanes I haue applied my harte to thinges that are vaine which with all affection and loue I ought to haue bestowed on thee alone And soe by louing vanitie I my selfe am become vaine Hence it proceedeth likewise o Lord that I doe not reioyce in thee neither doe I adhere to thee Because I delight in thinges temporall thou in thinges spirituall my whole minde thoughtes and wordes are entangled in thinges transitorie but thou o Lord dwellest in thinges that endure for all eternitie thou thy selfe being eternitie Thy habitation is in heauen mine on the earthe Thou louest those thinges that are aboue I those that are heere beneathe Thou those that are heauenly I those that are earthly And when will these thinges agree together that are soe opposite one to an other Of the miserie and frailtie of man CHAPT II. WRetche that I am when will my crowkednes be made correspondent to thy righteousnes Thou o Lord louest solitarines I to be in the companie of others Thou louest silence and I talkinge and discourse Thou louest veritie and I vanitie Thou louest cleanlines and I followe mine owne filthines What neede I say more o Lord Thou art truly good I wicked Thou art righteous I vnrighteous thou art holy I wretched thou arti ust I vniust thou art light and I am blinde thou art life and I am deade Thou art phisique and I am sicke Thou art mirthe and I am melancholy Thou art the supreame veritie and I am altogether vanitie like as euerie man liuing What shall I then say o my Creator Heare me o Creator I am thy creature I haue beene forelorne and gone astray I am thy creature and am like to die I am of thy making and am come to nothinge I am a peece of earthe framed by thee Thy handes o Lord haue made me and fashioned me those handes I say which with nayles were fastned to the crosse for me Looke I beseeche thee o Lord vpon the woundes of thy handes and contemne not me the worke of thy handes Beholde o Lord my God thou hast writteÌ„ me in thy handes reade that
that are good be fullie contented and satisfied for that there will be noe other externall thinge at that time that may be desired sauing thee o Lord the supreame and chiefest good Who wilt be the rewarde of the blessed the crowne or diademe of theire beautie and the euerlasting ioy which shall enuiron theire heades giuing them peace both without and within by meanes of thy peace which passeth all vnderstanding There we shall see thee loue thee and pray se thee We shall see light in thy light for that with thee is the fountaine of life and in thy light we shall see light But what light Surely surpassing greate light spirituall light inccorruptible and incomprehensible light infaileable and vnquencheable light a light vnto which noe man can approache or attaine light vncreated true and diuine which enlightneth the eies of the Angells which maketh the youth of the Saincts for to reioyce and be gladde which is the light of lights and fountaine of life euen thou thy selfe o Lord my God For thou art the light in whose light we shal see light that is to say we shall see thee in thy selfe in the brightnes of thy countenance when we shall beholde thee face to face Now what other thinge is it to beholde thee face to face but according as the Apostle sayeth to knowe thee euen as I am knowen to knowe thy truthe and thy glorie To knowe thy face therfore is nothinge else but to knowe the power of the Father the wisedome of the Sonne the mercie of the holie Ghost the essence of the most highe Trinitie being vndiuided and one onely Wherfore to beholde the face of the liuing God is the chiefest good the ioy of the Angells and of all the Saincts the recompence of eternall life the glorie of the blessed spirits the euerlastinge gladnes the crowne of comelines the rewarde of happines the richest rest the beautie of peace the internall and externall delectation the paradise of God the celestiall Hierusalem the happie life the fulnes of felicitie the delight of eternitie the peace of God which passeth all vnderstanding Mans whole blisse therefore and beatitude doth consist in beholding the face of his God to see him that hath made heauen and earthe to see him that hath made him that hath saued him that hath glorified him He shall see him by knowing him he shall loue him by affectinge him he shall prayse him by possessinge him For he shall be the inheritance of his people of his people the Saincts and blessed of his people whom he hath redeemed He shall be the possession of theire beatitude he shall be the rewarde and recompense of that which they haue soe longe expected Euen as he promised when he saied I will be thy surpassinge great rewarde For that it is meete that soe great a rewarde shoulde be giuen by soe great a Lord. Truly o Lord my God thou art surpassing great aboue all the Gods and thy rewarde likewise is surpassing great Neither art thou great and thy rewarde little but as thou art great soe in like manner is thy recompense for that betwixt thee and it there is noe difference Thou thy selfe art surpassing great indeade thou thy selfe art a rewarde surpassing great thou thy selfe art the crowner and the crowne the promisser and the promise the giuer and the guift the rewarder and the rewarde of eternall happines Thou therfore o my God art the crowner and the crowne the diademe of my hope which is adorned with glorie thou art the light that gladdeth the light that reneweth the brightnes that beautifieth thou art my great hope the internall loue and delight of the blessed euen he whom they haue still soe much desired Thy sight therfore o Lord is our whole rewarde our whole recompense and all the ioy which we expect For this is life euerlasting this I say is thy wisedome This is life euerlasting that we know thee â—â—â—onely true God Iesus Christ whom thou hast sent When therefore we shall beholde thee the onely God the true God the liuing God who art omnipotent simple inuisible infinite and incomprehensible when likewise we shal see our Lord Iesus Christ thy onely begotten sonne being consubstantiall and coeternall with thee whom in the vertue of the holy Ghost thou hast sent into the worlde for our saluation Finallie when we shall contemplate thee the God which art onely holy three in personnes and one in essence besides whom there is noe other then we shall obtaine that which we nowe seeke for to wit eternall life euerlastinge glorie which thou hast prepared for those that loue thee which thou hast reserued for those that feare thee which thou wilt bestowe vppon those that seeke thee vppon those I say which seeke thy face continuallie Wherfore o my Lord God who hast fashioned me within the wombe of my mother who hast recommended me to the protection of thy diuine power permit me not any more to be distracted froÌ„ one thing into many but drawe me from externall thinges vnto my selfe and from my selfe vnto thee to the end that my harte may alwayes say vnto thee My face hath sought thee thy face will I seeke o Lord thy face o Lord of all power and fortitude in whose onely sight doth consist the whole glory and euerlasting beatitude of the blessed Because to see the face of God is life euerlasting and the endlesse glory of the Saints in heauen Let my harte therfore reioyce that it may feare thy name let theire harte reioyce that seeke our Lord but mnch more theires that finde him For if it be a pleasure to seeke him what a ioy will it be to finde him Wherfore I will alwaies seeke thy face with affection and deuotion that by that meanes I may peraduenture at length deserue to haue the dore and gate of righteousnes opened vnto me that I may enter into the ioy of my Lord. This is the dore of our Lord the iust shall euter in thereat A Prayer to the holy Trinitie CHAPT XXXVII O You three coequall and coeternall personnes one onely true God the Father the Sonne and the holy Ghost who dwellest in eternitie alone in that light vnto which noe man can attaine Who by thy power hast layed the worldâ— foundation and by thy wisedome dost gouerne the same Holy Holy Holy Lord God of hosts Terrible and powerfuli iust and mercifull worthy to be admired praysed and beloued One God three personnes one essence one power our wisedome one goodnes one onely Trinitie voide of separation Open the dores of thy righteousnes vnto me o Lord crying vnto thee to the end that being entred in I may praise thee with wordes of thanksgiuing Beholde o supreame house-holder I stande knockinge at thy dore as a poore begger commaunde that thy dore may be opened vnto me who hast sayed Knock and it shal be opened vnto you The affections of my groaâ—ing harte and the crying of my weeping eies doe knock at thy dore