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Word A	Word B	Word C	Word D	Occurrence	Frequency Band	MI	MI Band	Prominent
truth_n	according_a	believe_v	faith_n	2,185	5	5.2251	4	false

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ID	Title	Author	Corrected Date of Publication (TCP Date of Publication)	STC	Words	Pages
A23632	A narrative of God's gracious dealings with that choice Christian Mrs. Hannah Allen (afterwards married to Mr. Hatt,) reciting the great advantages the devil made of her deep melancholy, and the triumphant victories, rich and sovereign graces, God gave her over all his stratagems and devices.	Allen, Hannah.	1683 (1683)	Wing A1025; ESTC R41221	20,554	91

you me of Possession I cared not if I were possest with a Thousand Devils so I were not a Devil to my self When some had told me that I had been Prayed for I would Answer I was the less beholding to them for it would but sink me the deeper into Hell I would often say I was a thousand times worse than the Devil for the Devil had never committed such Sins as I had for I had committed worse Sins than the Sin against the Holy-Ghost some would answer The Scripture speaks not of worse sins and can you be guilty of greater Sins than the Scripture mentions Yes said I My Sins are so great that if all the Sins of all the Devils and Damned in Hell and all the Reprobates on Earth were comprehended in one man mine are greater There is no word comes so near the comprehension of the dreadfulness of my Condition as that I am the Monster of the Creation in this word I much delighted I would say Let him that thinks he stands take heed lest he fall I once thought my self to stand but am miserably fallen When I was forc'd to be present at Duty I would often stop my Ears my Carriage was very rugged and cross contrary to my natural temper Here I practised many devices to make away my self sometimes by Spiders as before sometimes endeavouring to let my self blood with a pair of sharp sizers and so bleed to death once when the Surgeon had let me blood I went up into a Chamber and bolted the Door to me and took off the Plaister and tyed my Arm and set the Vein a bleeding again which Mrs. Walker fearing ran up stairs and got into the Chamber to me I seeing her come in ran into the Leads and there my Arm bled upon the Wall Now said I you may see there is the blood of a Cursed Reprobate I pleased my self often with contriving how to get into a Wood and dye there and one morning I cunningly got out from my Cousins and went into Smithfield where I walked up and down a great while and knew not what to do at last I tryed to hire a Coach but liked not the men there then I went into Aldersgate-street and asked a Coach-man what he would take to carry me to Barnet for then I meant to go into a Wood but the man upon some small occasion sadly Cursed and Swore which struck some Terrour into me what thought I must such as this be my Companions for ever and so went away from him and found one with a good honest look and with him I agreed and was to give him Eight Shillings who carryed me a good way beyond High-Gate and as I went along I thought am I now going to Converse with Devils with such like Thoughts as these I was discouraged from going on and called to the Coach-man and prayed him to drive back again and told him it was only a Melancholy Fancy By these and several other ways I thought to put an End to my Life but the watchful Eye of the Lord always graciously prevented me When I heard any dreadful thing cryed about the Streets in Books I would say Oh what fearful things will be put out of me ere long in Books I would say I should be called Allen that Cursed Apostate When I had tryed many ways to make away my self and still saw God prevented my designs I would say to my self Well I see it cannot be it must not be God will have me come to some fearful End and its fit it should be so that God may glorifie himself upon such a wretched Creature As I was going along the Streets a Godly Minister passing by me Oh thought I with what horrour shall I see that face at the great day so would I think by many others of Gods people that I knew either Relations or otherwise I said I exceedingly wondred that such a Pious man as I heard my Father was should have such a Child I used to say I would change conditions with Julian and that he was a Saint in comparison of me Nay That the Devil himself was a Saint compared with me I would say That the hottest place in Hell must be mine nay did you know me you would say it were too good for me tho' I poor Creature cannot think so When I complained of those dreadful Sins I said I was guilty of some would Ask me If I would be glad to be rid of 'em and to be in another Condition Yes said I so had the Devils who do you think would not be happy but I cannot desire it upon any other Account I would say I now saw that my Faith was only a Fancy and that according to an Expression of Mr. Baxters in a Book of his That the Love I formerly had to God was Carnal and Diabolical I would say to my Cousin Walker Tho' I am a damned Reprobate yet from me believe for sometimes the Devil speaks Truth that there is a God and that his Word is true and that there is a Devil and that there is an Hell which I must find by woful Experience I would often Ask my Cousin Walker What those that came to visit me thought of my Condition he would Answer Very well I much wondred at it and would do what I could to discourage 'em from coming yet if at any time I thought they neglected me I would be secretly troubled as afterward I said I was wont earnestly to Enquire whether it was possible that the Child of such a Mother as I could be saved yet I would say I was without Natural Affection that I Loved neither God nor Man and that I was given up to work all manner of wickedness with greediness We see no such thing by you would some say I would Answer I but it is in my heart Why doth it not break out in Act say they It will do ere long said I. The Devil would bring many places of Scripture to my mind especially Promises as I said to Jear me with them because once I thought I delighted in them but was miserably mistaken which did much terrifie me I would with Dread think with my self if the men of Beth-shemesh were so destroyed 1 Sam. vi 19. but for looking into the Ark what will be my Condemnation that have so often medled with the Holy Ordinances of God as the Word and Sacraments and now proved to be only a Cursed Hypocrite and nothing to do with them I thought with my self then I would not partake of the Sacrament of the Lords Supper for a thousand worlds When any Friend desired me to go to hear the Word of God I would earnestly beg of them to let me alone saying I had Sermons enough to Answer for already and that it would add to my great Account if they offer'd to compel me to go I would desire them to let me alone and I would go with them the next time if I lived till then but my