then to it again Dare men thus impose upon God and even wrest and force mercy against the Promises which are alway connext with obedience to precepts or do they think to lay the load upon Gods Soveraignty and with a bold face lay the cause of their wickedness at his door who is bound to none 't is mercy and free grace to any They know full well in their Consciences that they have a natural power to perform external duty to external commands as to hearing reading praying c. nay somewhat of internal as in meditating examining resolving and watching to perform their souls convictions They can do these things as well as go to Taverns Gaming 's Suffrage of Brit. Divines at Dort. p. 68. Lotteries and 't is justly to be feared to worse Cannot they as well repair to the assemblies hear reverently resolve humbly perform uniformly to the unspeakable comfort of their own Consciences under whose Discipline they so often tremble and after that to the joy of their godly Relations resolutely bid an eternal Farewel to all their foolish vain and treacherous Companions they would be loth to meet them in Hell the next bout and to dwell with them in everlasting burnings O then while the golden sands of time are yet running take hold of good Advice to cast off such reprobate Sons of Belial and abjects of the earth and hope by this method to arrive at divine mercy in Christ by trusting in Gods Covenant upon reformation and after some time well spent in Holiness may obtain the Joy of Faith which will end in the Salvation of their Souls T is but a little courage and the work is done O venture not the damnation of thy soul on the punctilio's of Dastardy as afraid to displease such brain-sick fools who after the thread is snapt by death will curse one another for ever as being mutual promoters of each others eternal ruine But I shall transmit this useful Satyr to the sixth Chapter and close the present with a question or two and so end it Quest 1. How to discern the first beginnings of Grace Ans As it was with Thomas he had at first but a confused knowledg whether Christ was going when told of his departure and as the blind man being under Christs cure saw imperfectly at first men walking like Trees but at length came to more perfect sight so t is here good souls at first see but darkly and feel but grosly yet thus much they may surely know and therefore infer a work of Grace surely begun within them by serious enquiry into their own hearts what their inmost thoughts when in a good frame do principally run upon what their earnest desires do most constantly thirst after and pitch upon what the secret wishes of their Souls are bent upon and herein Conscience will be a faithful witness whether it be for Salvation in the true way of Faith and Holiness which is accepting of Christ on the terms of grace and Gospel tenders as I have often mentioned to be the matter of our most close and secret enquiry and impartial resolution from an honest and unbribed Conscience Prov 23.7 On which account I may remember what ouce Mr. Rogers of Hassam being desired by Mr. Knightly a worthy Gentleman in Northamptonshire when one time he could not sleep in the night to help him to a Scripture to meditate on told that of Solomon As the man thinketh so is he which is so in truth For at what stairs the heart and its continued thoughts are plying there lies the true index of the souls state and its future happiness Quest 2. Whether desires of Grace are Grace Ans The former hint at this le ts a little enlarge and determine for a Scripture-truth if those desires be true and sincere of which take two or three tokens 1. If such desires are followed with faithful and speedy endeavours to promote and accomplish in the use of proper means Eccl. 9.10 Psal 27.8 Prov. 1.3 4.18.1.21.21.22.1 One thing have I desired sayes David and that will I seek after the soul of a sluggard desires and has nothing but the soul of the diligent shall be made fat Again the desire of the slothful killeth him for â—is hands refuse to labour he 's alwayes roaring within that there 's a Lion roaring without Ruine is the end of lazy wishes but he that is diligent in this business shall stand before the Prince of Princes 2. If thy desires grow and encrease having been attended with success He that gathereth by Labour shall increase Holy desires will grow by knowledg and the teachable grace of humility Prov. 18.11 2 Pet. 3.18 Grow in grace sayes Peter but how he Answers by the knowlâ—dg of our Lord and Saviour Yet there is a stated measure to which we are appointed and can proceed no further tho we know it not and to whatever point our study is bent we can know but in part in this life and therefore Faith of the choicest Believers is but in part on this side glory 3. If thy desires prove uncessant and impatient till accomplishment and enjoyment then will they prove a tree of life Thruâ— desire sayes Solomon a man having separated himself Prov. 13.12 Prov. 18.1 seeketh and intermedleth with all wisdom He must alienate from all impertinencies and dedicate himself to the 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 the work in hand the matter and end proposed which is a fair token that a man 's in earnest and will never cease till he arrives at his Haven by the fair wind of Providence Desire is a restless affection and pursues its end against all opposition round the whole Globe Like a Spring that breaks out at the foot of the high Mountain of Resolution and quickly spreads to a well a brook a river till at last it unbosome in the vast Ocean Orlike the Morning Star that ushers in the dawning twilight which gradually ascending swells over the Eastern Mountains and prophecies the bright Suns appearance who never leaves climbing the horizontal hills till he shines in his lustre and at last sits down in his Throne in the mid-heaven Prov. 4.18 guarded with Lions Such is the path of the just which shineth more and more to the perfect noon day of eternal glory But to end after all considerations of the nature of desires and the meanest state in grace be but sure and clear that thy Faith is of the right stamp and your enquiry about the lowest degree of Grace will be rather superfluous and too full of critical ambiguities and niceties CHAP IV V. THe Title of the fourth Chapter concerns the Doctrine of Justification by Faith as before related Page 54 and was fitted for Publication but because of necessary avocations calling me from the Press which the sharpness of the Winter and other delayes had too much congealed from Motion I found it expedient at present to lay it aside till another season if
upon the foundation or ground-work of our encouragement in the management of this great affair aright by the strength and co-operation of the spirit and that 's no other than by the divine promises laid up in the covenant of grace 'T is the promise allures us the voice of the word calls us the faithfulness of God secures us the motion of the spirit prompts incites and hastens us to come to Christ who most graciously accepts us kisses us and lays us down to rest in his most fragrant bosom And here it is worth our time if every minute were more precious than the whole universe turned into a massy diamond to expatiate upon the freeness the unsought and unforethought love of God in making them the certainty of their accomplishment as built on the essence and veracity of God their riches and preciousness as being equivalent to the Crown of glory encompassed with the golden ring of eternity When we have obtained like precious Faith we shall be made partakers of like precious promises 2 Pet. 1.1 4. Heb. 13.7 6.12 as if we follow the Faith of Saints we shall at last with them inherit the same promised Kingdom In the seventh Place I might trace a little the time of Faiths first infusion SECT 7. and first operation in the heart which is undoubtedly at the new birth when ever it is But how to prescribe and when precisely to determine that in the soul of a Believer is more difficult than to state the quickening or animation of an embrio in the womb of her that is with child or for any Naturallist so set the moment of the first separation of night from day at the initiating crepusculum or ascent of the first attom of the morning raies of the Suns body or the primogenial fermentation of the vegetative soul in the seed Corn in the Earth when it begins to chit or the first vapors in Mineral beds that procreare Mercury into a running liquid body which afterward is congealed by Sulphur into Gold. Its much more difficult to set down the first punctual workings of the Spirit in our hearts Q. But you may ask me Cui Bono To what end were it to be so accurate if it were possible A. I Answer In all humility tho we never attain the precise and nicest time yet as far as we may and with what holy modesty we can attain to dive into these heavenly secrets the sooner we discern the work by so much the sooner may our spiritual joy spring which animates our services and anoints the wheels of our Souls to become like the Chariots of Aminadab For which purpose I refer my Discourse to the third Chapter of this Treatise SECT 8. In the eighth Place I might shew the inseparable union and connexion between Faith and Holiness they are individui comites sweet companions never divided but delighted in each others smiles lovely twins brought forth by grace The heart of a Believer is purified by Faith and his life most orient and beautiful in holiness Act. 15 9 Whoso then pretends to be a Believer and walks not in holiness of life is a self-deceiver and wrongs his own soul But le ts reserve this to a peculiar Chapter below Chap. 6. I should now issue this Chapter but that I desire in the close of every one to answer one or more practical Questions for our spiritual improvement referring to what precedes in the same Chapter Q. 1. If any trembling soul should ask Have I this sound Faith of Gods Elect I should Answer briefly 1. Christ is precious to every one that believes 1 Pet. 2.7 the joy of his heart and delight of his soul when but under this sweet hope and when a little quickened and enlivened in communion I sat under his shadow with great delight Song 2.3 Faith and Love alwayes ride together in Solomons Chariot which is paved with love for the Daughters of Jerusalem 3.10 2. The promises of the Covenant are precious to such a soul they are ornaments of grace about his neck and aetherial Cordials in all its fainting Fits I had fainted Psal 27.13 sayes David had I not believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living It values them above a Kingdom Q. 2. If we fear our state how may we gain Faith Rom. 10. I Answer briefly 1. By diligent attendance on the Word of God Faith cometh by hearing 2. By hearkening to the inward motions of Gods Spirit in hearing the Word Luke 24.31 When thy heart is warmed by some passage in a Sermon take special notice of that particular point It s a sign Christ is conferring with thy heart as with the two Disciples near Emmaus whose hearts burned while he opened the Scriptures 3. Ponder and meditate deeply upon that which warmed thy heart to bring Christs counsel into a resolution for obedience 4. Sacrifice these intentions upon the Altar of Prayer in the Name of Jesus Chrâ—st unto the Father But these things requiring little tracts Gerson Bonaventur Scala I le conclude with that of Gerson the Chancellor of Paris who treating of Meditation states that for the sweetest when the soul opens it self towards Heaven receiving in its precious dewes Psal 85.8 without forced and artificial methods as David I le hearken what God the Lord will say for he will speak peace to my soul Ariani perilpl mar Ery thraeâ— Benjamin itinerar which is like the mother shell of the Oriental Pearl at Baharem which Naturalists relate conceives those precious unions by the dew of Heaven But I must now retire to the second Chapter and t is more than time only I dilated upon this a little the more as being a substantial head in respect to the essential nature of Faith. CHAP II. Various Expressions in Scripture setting forth the Nature of FAITH THe beginning and carrying on of the work of Faith in the heart is set forth in holy Scripture by many pertinent and sweet expressions which tend to enlighten and comfort the souls of dark drooping and weak believers and helping them to discern the inherence of this grace in their hearts Metaphors Parables and Allâ—geries many times teach us when direct Precepts will not do the work Vpon some whereof I shall endeavour to treat in this Chapter and present them as a climax or a Jacobs Ladder whereby to scale the Palaces of eternal joy 1. In the first place Rev. 24.6 22.17 We find this grace set forth by thirsting and hungring after Christ and his righteousness which are strong and vehement appetitions after supply of proper food and moisture to refresh the Spirits and to preserve natural vigoâ— Which if not timely satisfied produce pantings faintness swoundings Psal 42.1 and at last convulsive motions the very harbingers of death Thus did holy David pant after God as the hunted Hart having lickt up a fiery Serpent pants after
heirship and all the priviledges and liberties of the children of God Sanctification to mortifie the power and dominion of sin and to quicken our graces and duties to support us against and under all fiery tentations to eularge and fortifie our spirits under dificult services and to persevere to the end Phil. 1.6 1â— that at last we may attain the redemption of our bodies from the dust and the resurrection to glory But these resort more properly under the tenth and last chapter and therefore here I forbear 7. The next place sets forth Faith by our cleaving to the Lord with full purpose of heart Aâ—s 11 23. Isai 28.16 When the soul is glewed by an holy love to the mercies and goodness of God it will then 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 stedfastly abide with him It makes not haste out of the mountains of Zion as if full of bogs and quakemires Deut. 10.20 Josh 2â— 8 1 Cor. 1.17 2 Cor. 11 2 but as being setled on the strong and lofty rock of ages This closing of the soul with God is often set down in Scripture by that trust and assiance which a true believer hath in God adhering on cleaving to God is a term also which sometimes attends upon conjugal relation wherby true and faithful persons having the yoke of that union lined with the soft velvet of love 1 Cor. 6.17 become one as in person by the law so much more in spirit and delight To the same purpose the Apostle affirms that true believers being united to Christ by a true and lively faith become one spirit with the Lord and long daily to be more sully espoused by larger affections of the unction of Christs spirit in order to the solemnity of that glorious marriage-day of the Lamb. Rom. 7.4 Rev 19 7 Phil 3 20 And this is true faith indeed when persons long for the appearance of Christ in glory 8. Next follows that term of embracing of Christ as the Saints of old being first perswaded of the truth and goodness of the promises Heb 1â— 13 then at length embraced them utrispue ulnis with all affection and what are the promises but the precious fine linnen wherein Christ our sacrifice was involved after his death at his funeral which is the principal object of our saith even Christ in his sufferings This act of embracing notes our ardent affection to him delight in him and heavenly communion begun betwixt Christ and the heart of a believer Love is Faiths Agent and factor Faith worketh by love a true lover of Christ is certainly a true believer in him and this love increases by faith and faith by love For the soul determines it The more I know of his Excellencies the more I believe in him Rom. 5.4 5 and I love him more because I have the experience of Christs love to me In this very state of the valley there is a mixing of hearts and spirits but in heaven the soul is swallowed up in his love for ever 9. In the ninth place a Believer arrives at this reverent freedom with the Lord in all its streights and dificulties to cast its cares and burdens upon him being both commanded and encouraged by him to do it Whenever I am afraid saith David Psal 56.3 He trust in thee If the heart safely trust in a friend Prov. 31 11. there follows a mutual unvailing and disclosing of the most secret and bosome counsels Psal 71.3 Jer 20.12 Psal 142 2 So does the soul pour out its sorrows and open its whole cause before God. Three things make a friend or relation desirable power to protect wisdom to advise and love to comfort and mingle joys sorrows together All these are eminently and transcendently found in heaven There 's a heart large enough to entertain thy moans Jam 1â— wise enough to guide thee in the dark turns of Providence and so good as not to upbraid thee and can command Legions of Angels at a beck for protection â— Pet. 5 7. Let us therefore cast our care upon him for he careth for us and 't is worth notice what the Apostle terms thy care the Psalmist terms thy burden promising that the Lord will sustain thee to shew that 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 dividing cares Psal 55.22 heart-rending cares are great burdens But divine sustentation and support of the soul in trouble plainly shews that God takes a fatherly care of thee and will not suffer thee finally to be moved as Davids song in the end of that Psalm since thou art a righteous man and hast cast all thy soul-battering cares upon Gods promise which are but so many tentations to try thy faith and trust in him Besides this trust is exprest by casting anchor within the vail Heb 6 19 When the ship of the soul being turned up-side down as to the world though too near the earth in this bodily estate yet in spirit sails above the firmament and makes all its sails upward still Rev 11.19 and if any storm arises it then rides at Anchor upon the Ark in heaven within the vail beyond the starry Canopy as upon the rock of life the Lord Christ himself 10 In the tenth and last place faith acts by Resignation giving up all its comforts into his heavenly hand when a true believer both living and dying commends his spirit into his divine manutenency during this frail life in all the mighty turns circles or helixes of providence full of intricate meanders and mazes past finding out is led by a hand coming down from heaven So that all ends well with a Saint his stormy dayes do always end in a sun-shine evening He gives up himself to the guidance of his counsel and as to death both for time place way and method yields up all to his safe conduct and yet sometimes breaths out with a most humble and reverent motion his soul still lying in the dust of submission before him to grant him an 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 or an easy departure out of this life if it may be his holy pleasure and still quietly hoping and waiting for his salvation Thus Jacob in the Old Testament in the midst of his last languishments cries out I have waited for that Salvation O Lord gen 59.18 Luke 2.30 23 46. and good old Simeon in the New Let thy Servant depart in peace for mine eyes have seen and mine arms embraced my Saviour and thy Salvation This did our most blessed Lord Father into thy hands I commend my spirit and so did blessed Stephen Lord Jesus receive my spirit testifying to the Deity of Christ Acts 7.59 the immortality of his soul and the resurrection of his body in the same prayer of resignation There may be found in Scripture some other passages exhibiting the nature of Faith and Trust as fixing the heart choosing of Christ waiting for his coming and expecting the blessed day much to the same effect
suffer great pains travel dust smoke and swelter in their fiery furnaces and though they attain not the great Arcana yeâ— often meet with curious rarities which sufficiently reward their diligence 2 pet 1.5 10. Assurance usually comes in upon our diligent use of prayer meditation and holy walking in some time after several plunges fears and sorrows Though indeed somtimes the wayes of God prove unsearchable and sometimes he is pleased to bestow this favour on a sudden to such as are gracious from their childhood tractable and ingenuous at the calls of God as young Samuel when he understood it by the instruction of an elder Saint and when such have not been defiled by any great staines and blotches in their youth nor caused the ways of God to be evil spoken of by any scandalous sin Quest If now you ask how to preserve it when you have received it in an answer to your earnest prayer Psal 25.7 A. I answer Conservatur qua quaeritur T is preserved by the very same methods 6. Call to mind what former experiences you have enjoyed Having once seen the Kings face it will for ever enlighten yours former mountain-visions makes a Saints heart to shine as bright as Moses's face Psal 34.5 and reflects upon the heart gloriously in the vally of desert once haviâ—g câ—eared up the love of God to you then may you return to that experiment As a fountain shewn by the Angel of the Covenant at Beersheba the well of the sacred â—ath of God Gen 21.14 Rom. 11.29 Heb. 3.14 10.35 Phil. 1.6 It will never dry up it fears no scorching summers For the gifts and calling of God are without repentance Caâ—r not away then the beginnings of your confidence For he will perfect what he hath begun till the day of Christ 7. Cherish the sacred motions of the Spirit of God for he takes of the things of Christ not from us our merits faith or holiness for they are of no value but of his blood to comfort us John 16.15 therefore hearken to his affectionate breathings If thou at any time fall thru ' infirmity this holy Spirit helps thee to mourn under the sight of displeased love If thy faith seem to muddle and grope in the dark he will shine upon thy paâ—h again If grace like the sensible plant shrink up by the touch of some rough hand of tentation it will open and expand its branches again by this Suns warm and sweet influences If then the joy of Assurance spring again if the glories of heaven be described as in a lively Landskarp before thine eyes written as it were with bright illuminated letters E capite mortuo sanguinis vel urinae 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Song 4. Jerom. bless the Spirit of grace and cry out with the Spouse in the book of Songs Be gone O chill and blasting north and come O fruitful cherisâ—ing distilling south upon the garden of my Soul that the spices thereof may flow forth that my beloved may come and eat his pleasant fruits 8. Be careful in the constant use of Ordinances and pure worship and especiaâ—ly the Lords Supper and considering the times of trouble as frequent as thou canst but woe to them that are obstructers and remember when God opens the doors of his Sanctuary that thou behave with all holy reverence endeavouring to enjoy it in its purity and power There the King sits at his Table Song 1 1â— and the Spiknard fends forth its fragrâ—ant smell At this banquet Faith helps to assure us that we shall as certainly sit with Christ in glory as we now partake of the seals in grace Here Christ is received by the hand of a true believer here we eat drink Christ into our souls As we take the bread and wine into our bodies so by Faith we take his most precious body and blood which being digested with an holy heart is turned into the nerves and spirits of Assurance That thou mayst now sing the holy hymn of praise with a loud voice This is my Lord and my God he will come and save us Let not go this your holy confidence but hope to the end for the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ 1 Pet. 1.13 Lastly look dilgently to the holiness of your ways and with it be careful of a humble resigning interpretation of the ways of God towards you that you be never too much elevated or high-crested in prosperity nor in time of adversity despise his corrections Heb. 12.5 Souls conflict p. 321. Rom. 8.28 or faint under them It is a never-sailing rule said holy Sibbs to discern a mans state in grace when he finds every condition draw him nearer to God and when all things work together for his good As the flesh of vipers I may add and other poysons compounded and corrected into Antidotes and mixt well together prevail against contagious diseases so do corrections sanctified sweat out the poyson of fin that it shall never fatally touch the heart and vitals of such as truly love God and are called according to his purpose I shall now conclude this long but sweet Chapter with Mr. Scudders Testimony of the work of Grace Walk p. 555 Lond 8. 1674. The Question being put about Assurance he there asserts that whoso can answer affirmatively to these following queries which I may contract may be assured of Gods peace and love and of his own salvation what ever fears or feelings may seem to happen to the contrary Quest 1 How stand you affected to sin are you afraid to offend God and dare not sin wittingly is it your grief and burden that you cannot abstain it nor get out of it as soon as you would Quest 2. How are you affected to holiness and the power of godliness To know Gods will and do it to fear and please him is it your grief when you fail and your joy when you do well Quest 3. How to the Church of God are you glad when it goes well and grieved when it goes ill and sit trembling with Ely to hear how it goes with the Ark of God however it be with your own particular Quest 4. How towards men do you dislike wicked men and love those that fear the Lord because they are good Quest 5. Can you endure your soul to be ript up and your beloved sin to be smitten by a searching Minister and like him the rather and can yield an obedient ear to such a wise reproof Quest 6. Tho you have not Evidence alwayes or can scarce tell whether you ever had it yet resolve or desire and will as you are able to cleave to God in Christ for salvation by Faith and to trust in no other person nor by no other means to be saved If you can answer Yea to all or Any of these assure your self you are in God 's favour and state of grace and that you sin
the people of Antioch that among so many thousands in that great City that scarce an hundred would be saved and he doubted of that too When we ruminate and consider of the pride vanity luxury wantonness excess and rioting pleasure and vain-glory envy backbiting and variance both among Ministers and people neglect of holy duties love of the world and the perishing trash and trifles therein The contempt of the Gospel and faithful Ministers we must subscribe to that of our Lord 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Fear not little yea very little or diminutive flock when not only all the wild beasts and wolves but the goats also are separated For it is your Fathers good pleasure to give to you a Kingdom Luk. 12.32 Since the number then comparatively is so very small and the danger of miscarrying so very great oh how does it stand us in stead to make the things of Eternity establisht and sure which ushers in the next corollary 9. That the knowledge of our sincerity and integrity is of great use to gain both peace and joy in believing which is a principal aim in the foregoing treatise For though the want of Assurance doth not prove us to be under the power of unbelief yet this defect shews the weakness of our Faith and keeps the yoke of bondage in manifold fears and torments too strait and pinching upon the necks of some that are truly gracious It is thy greatest interest then to clear the case and to state thine evidences by answering to the questions at the end of each chapter or to the whole in general or by any sound way and method to manifest a work of true grace and faith in thy heart Phrase things term or call them how thou wilt but be sure the work be right between God and thee Sincerity will clear up all under various misprisions and accusations of undiscerning friends who usually insult upon persons in adversity not for want of censorious pride and folly which they seldom come to own and behold but in the glass of their own calamities yet holy Job stood his ground and which was bitter indeed to conflict with their severe animosities when under a cloud from God yet still held fast his integrity before the Lord. This is such a strong pillar that a Christian may lean the whole strength and stress of his soul upon it in the name and power of God. A dear and intimate conjugal relation who is mentioned before chapter 8 would sometimes be upon this point But am I right indeed am I sincere in my heart and love to Christ if I could but prove that clearly I know all were well I answered how do you know or can prove the truth of your love in the relation wherein you stand but by descending into your heart and examining the inward honest inclinations and readiness of spirit to any kindness and labour of love For any one may assuredly know that they have true love or any other natural affection within their bowels unless their senses and brains be deficient We may tell whether we mean honestly and truly in what we profess and do Whether our tongues agree with our hearts or whether there be found a secret aversation and loathing within or not It is so verily in the case between Christ and us ask your soul the question and answer it from the integrity of your conscience and then pronounce with the Spouse so often mentioned Song 2.16 I am my Beloveds and my Beloved is mine for he feedeth among the Lillies and Spice-beds of graces in my heart There are manifold signs of true grace set down by some most whereof might be spared being but like pitch or birdlime to entangle discouraging Spirits use but few and those very pertinent if thou find a true one truly wrought in thee t is enough for then all are there in semine in the seed-plot tho under ground As suppose unfained love to the Brethren or constant pantings after God and delight in secret communion or the like Be but sure of its true being within you it will do your buisiness by serious pondering and rumination upon it with the aid of Gods Spirit Some are over-free in multiplying tokens it shews a popular invention but not very logical and rational because usually co-incident and but little comfort rather sorrow and perplexity arises thence to mourning souls under the absence of God and therefore be advised to forbear because they will not agree to the various forms especially the lowest state of Christians and then there 's wise work for tentations when you grieve the generation of the just whom God would not have grieved Psal 73.15 If then all your multiplied signs do not comfortably agree with thy strict and impartial search Be not cast down For an honest heart having true love to Christ tho mixt with failings yet all lamented and none allowed Rom. 7.5 but hated and striven against with an inward content of soul and joy that it can bear up against the stream of corruption and with all its care towes the boat up the River toward the Spring of its happiness and tho it find much unholiness ye◠melts and grieves over it studies amendment in what the word and conscience smites upon and that with some improvement in mortification and some growing in grace or a gracious willingness to be and do so mixt with honest endeavours tho it be not so lively and flourishing as it would tho the soul labours and sweat in the fire of contention and conflict with its lusts and corruptions and feels not that success it prayes and thirsts after yet do not discourage nor greive thine own spirit and so hinder its elevation to work and service The root of grace appears to me to be plainly in thee and that it will by degrees wax and increase like the house of David and if thou canst perceive some growth tho but little it is a sure and certain Index of life If thou daily diest in some measure to sin Psal 18. and particularly to that sin which thou art most inclined to thy peevish froward cursed proud contentious humors and lusts or any else upon sudden inroads of Satan which thy heart and faithful Ministers and Friends check thee for and beginnest to live a little more to holiness then thou didst and growest perseverest in grace and art watchful against thy lusts and humbly and meekly thankful to them that reprove thee and labourest to imitate the holiness and meekness of Christ the beloved I must say and insist upon it that sincerity is the cardo rei the very hinge of that door that lets thee into life and salvation and if thou dost truly love him who pardons all thy foolishness I say then th◠thou fear the work that it was not right at first at such a time when thou thoughtst it was a sound and a true conversion never stand puzling and frighting your spirits about the point what that