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and_o misery_n as_o job_n messenger_n come_v from_o every_o corner_n sink_v his_o spirit_n with_o ill_a news_n and_o pierce_v his_o soul_n with_o the_o dart_n of_o disconsolate_a tiding_n job_n 1.16_o so_o many_o choose_a vessel_n of_o the_o lord_n may_v be_v beset_v with_o trouble_n and_o sorrow_n of_o every_o kind_n which_o may_v make_v they_o roar_v and_o cry_v out_o as_o those_o without_o hope_n three_o poor_a creature_n may_v be_v worry_v and_o hurry_v by_o the_o temptation_n of_o the_o devil_n which_o be_v a_o species_n of_o hell_n torture_n as_o the_o tongue_n be_v say_v to_o be_v set_v on_o fire_n of_o hell_n james_n 3.6_o so_o the_o spirit_n of_o tempt_a one_o may_v be_v and_o too_o often_o be_v bear_v down_o and_o keep_v under_o the_o hatch_n by_o the_o tyranny_n of_o hell_n monarch_n we_o find_v paul_n complain_v of_o a_o thorn_n in_o the_o flesh_n the_o messenger_n of_o satan_n buffet_n he_o 2_o cor._n 12.7_o oh_o it_o be_v a_o hell_n upon_o earth_n to_o be_v in_o the_o claw_n of_o hell_n roar_v lyon_n four_o poor_a creature_n may_v be_v for_o a_o time_n conquer_v and_o overcome_v by_o hell_n sorrow_n though_o the_o gate_n of_o hell_n shall_v not_o absolute_o prevail_v matt._n 16.18_o yet_o they_o may_v a_o great_a while_n and_o in_o a_o great_a measure_n prevail_v over_o many_o precious_a child_n of_o zion_n though_o god_n choose_v once_o shall_v not_o be_v leave_v to_o remain_v always_o in_o hell_n as_o david_n personate_n christ_n speak_v with_o respect_n to_o the_o grave_a psalm_n 16.10_o yet_o they_o may_v be_v leave_v a_o long_a time_n under_o the_o power_n of_o hell_n to_o be_v cry_v out_o as_o though_o they_o be_v for_o ever_o lose_v then_o i_o take_v notice_n of_o the_o dolefulness_n of_o jonah_n complaint_n as_o we_o have_v it_o in_o the_o three_o verse_n for_o thou_o have_v cast_v i_o into_o the_o deep_a in_o the_o midst_n of_o the_o sea_n and_o the_o flood_n compass_v i_o about_o all_o thy_o billow_n and_o thy_o wave_n pass_v over_o i_o 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debase_v way_n lam._n 5.15_o 16._o the_o joy_n of_o our_o heart_n be_v cease_v our_o dance_n be_v turn_v into_o mourn_v the_o crown_n be_v fall_v from_o our_o head_n woe_n unto_o we_o that_o we_o have_v sin_v ah_o happy_a if_o under_o the_o weight_n of_o grief_n we_o have_v a_o sense_n of_o the_o evil_a of_o sin_n second_o he_o be_v under_o terror_n of_o conscience_n and_o miserable_a confusion_n in_o his_o spirit_n this_o be_v imply_v in_o the_o word_n sea_n in_o the_o midst_n of_o the_o sea_n that_o he_o be_v literal_o cast_v into_o the_o sea_n we_o read_v chap._n 1.15_o so_o they_o take_v up_o jonah_n and_o cast_v he_o forth_o into_o the_o sea_n but_o beside_o this_o he_o be_v in_o a_o mystical_a sense_n in_o the_o sea_n that_o be_v under_o the_o racking_n of_o a_o wound_a spirit_n under_o the_o bite_n of_o a_o sting_a conscience_n so_o that_o he_o be_v as_o the_o prophet_n tell_v pashur_n he_o shall_v be_v jer._n 20.3_o magor_n missabib_fw-la even_o a_o terror_n to_o himself_o oh_o terror_n of_o conscience_n be_v the_o worst_a of_o sea-storm_n three_o he_o be_v overwhelm_v with_o sorrow_n and_o this_o be_v imply_v in_o the_o word_n flood_n and_o the_o flood_n compass_v i_o about_o so_o that_o his_o spirit_n as_o well_o as_o his_o body_n sink_v as_o lead_v in_o the_o mighty_a water_n as_o it_o be_v say_v of_o pharaoh_n and_o his_o host_n when_o they_o be_v drown_v in_o the_o red_a sea_n exod._n 15.10_o our_o saviour_n thus_o express_v the_o misery_n that_o shall_v come_v upon_o all_o incorrigible_a sinner_n matt._n 18.6_o it_o be_v better_o for_o he_o that_o a_o millstone_n be_v hang_v about_o his_o neck_n and_o that_o he_o be_v drown_v in_o the_o depth_n of_o the_o sea_n oh_o who_o can_v be_v sensible_a of_o the_o trouble_n and_o misery_n wherewith_o poor_a jonah_n be_v overwhelm_v when_o he_o be_v in_o the_o sea_n four_o he_o be_v close_o confine_v not_o only_o as_o to_o his_o body_n but_o narrow_o pen_v up_o as_o to_o his_o spirit_n this_o be_v include_v in_o the_o word_n billow_n all_o thy_o billow_n and_o thy_o wave_n pass_v over_o i_o we_o read_v indeed_o of_o his_o be_v in_o the_o whale_n belly_n chap._n 1.17_o and_o as_o that_o miserable_o confine_v his_o body_n so_o his_o spirit_n be_v worse_o restrain_v through_o the_o awful_a sense_n of_o divine_a displeasure_n as_o david_n once_o be_v psalm_n 42.7_o deep_o call_v unto_o deep_a at_o the_o noise_n of_o thy_o water-spout_n all_o thy_o wave_n and_o thy_o billow_n be_v go_v over_o i_o ah_o how_o sad_a it_o be_v when_o the_o soul_n be_v depress_v grovel_v in_o the_o dust_n and_o can_v look_v up_o for_o want_n of_o strength_n and_o faith_n
and_o so_o i_o come_v to_o the_o word_n of_o the_o text_n then_o i_o say_v i_o be_o cast_v out_o of_o thy_o sight_n yet_o i_o will_v look_v again_o towards_o thy_o holy_a temple_n which_o after_o i_o have_v open_v by_o show_v in_o what_o sense_n jonah_n be_v cast_v out_o of_o god_n â—ight_n and_o what_o be_v the_o meaning_n of_o his_o look_v again_o towards_o the_o holy_a temple_n i_o â—hewed_v what_o may_v befall_v many_o that_o god_n may_v yet_o be_v work_v grace_n in_o and_o have_v design_n of_o eminent_a good_a unto_o first_o they_o may_v be_v in_o a_o state_n of_o blindness_n and_o darkness_n yea_o thick_a and_o gross_a darkness_n may_v be_v a_o great_a while_n upon_o they_o we_o read_v in_o the_o gospel_n of_o a_o man_n that_o be_v stark_o blind_a that_o be_v bear_v so_o and_o live_v so_o all_o his_o day_n yet_o by_o the_o power_n of_o jesus_n he_o immediate_o receive_v his_o sight_n mark_v 10.51_o 52._o ah_o present_a darkness_n be_v no_o ground_n of_o despair_n you_o may_v see_v what_o god_n in_o his_o word_n say_v to_o such_o isa_n 50.10_o who_o be_v among_o you_o that_o fear_v the_o lord_n that_o â—eyeth_v the_o voice_n of_o his_o servant_n that_o walk_v 〈◊〉_d darkness_n and_o have_v no_o light_n let_v he_o â—ust_z in_o the_o name_n of_o the_o lord_n and_o stay_v upon_o â—…s_n god_n here_o be_v a_o certain_a remedy_n for_o nose_n that_o be_v in_o darkness_n to_o stay_v upon_o their_o god_n and_o here_o be_v a_o duty_n that_o god_n require_v even_o in_o a_o dark_a state_n to_o trust_v in_o his_o name_n second_o they_o may_v be_v as_o to_o their_o own_o apprehension_n in_o a_o very_a hopeless_a and_o helpless_a condition_n but_o yet_o even_o then_o there_o be_v both_o hope_n and_o help_v for_o they_o by_o look_v towards_o the_o holy_a temple_n that_o be_v by_o look_v to_o christ_n and_o believe_v what_o he_o be_v and_o what_o he_o say_v oh_o hear_v that_o sweet_a word_n flow_v from_o his_o lip_n luke_n 4.18_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n be_v upon_o i_o because_o he_o have_v anoint_v i_o to_o preach_v the_o gospel_n to_o the_o poor_a he_o have_v send_v i_o to_o heal_v the_o brokenhearted_a to_o preach_v deliverance_n to_o the_o captive_n and_o recover_v of_o sight_n to_o the_o blind_a to_o set_v at_o liberty_n they_o that_o be_v bruise_v oh_o what_o can_v be_v more_o full_o and_o plain_o express_v what_o can_v christ_n speak_v more_o comfortable_o and_o more_o encouraging_o to_o poor_a wound_a soul_n to_o look_v unto_o he_o thus_o the_o church_n by_o faith_n look_v to_o god_n in_o a_o sad_a state_n lam._n 3.55_o i_o call_v upon_o thy_o name_n o_o lord_n out_o of_o the_o low_a dungeon_n and_o do_v she_o call_v or_o believe_v in_o vain_a oh_o no._n pray_v mark_v the_o next_o word_n verse_n 56_o 57_o 58._o thou_o have_v hear_v my_o voice_n hide_v not_o thy_o ear_n at_o my_o breathe_n at_o my_o cry_n thou_o draw_v near_a in_o the_o day_n that_o i_o call_v upon_o thou_o thou_o say_v fear_v not_o o_o lord_n thou_o have_v plead_v the_o cause_n of_o my_o soul_n thou_o have_v redeem_a my_o life_n and_o what_o the_o church_n do_v here_o experience_n all_o afflict_a once_o in_o like_a manner_n shall_v experience_n to_o their_o unspeakable_a joy_n if_o they_o take_v the_o same_o course_n of_o look_v to_o the_o lord_n in_o the_o day_n of_o trouble_n three_o they_o may_v have_v no_o sense_n of_o god_n work_n in_o their_o heart_n which_o yet_o for_o all_o that_o may_v be_v real_o carry_v on_o we_o read_v of_o the_o people_n smite_v their_o breast_n upon_o the_o doleful_a sight_n of_o christ_n agony_n on_o the_o cross_n luke_n 23.48_o but_o many_o poor_a soul_n be_v smite_v their_o breast_n with_o sorrow_n because_o they_o can_v find_v no_o effect_n of_o christ_n death_n in_o their_o heart_n they_o have_v not_o yet_o taâ—ed_v that_o the_o lord_n be_v gracious_a 1_o pet._n 2.8_o and_o therefore_o they_o be_v break_v forth_o into_o hideous_a lamentation_n and_o give_v up_o themselves_o as_o lose_v creature_n oh_o but_o this_o be_v through_o a_o great_a mistake_n there_o may_v be_v a_o bless_a work_n a_o glorious_a work_n begin_v and_o yet_o you_o not_o at_o present_a sensible_a of_o it_o four_o they_o may_v be_v in_o their_o own_o thought_n without_o the_o inâ—â—…ential_a motion_n of_o god_n spirit_n and_o hence_o they_o be_v day_n and_o night_n mourning_n though_o still_o preserve_v and_o not_o consume_v as_o the_o build_v be_v exod._n 3.3_o oh_o how_o many_o do_v look_v upon_o themselves_o in_o no_o better_a a_o condition_n than_o those_o dry_a bone_n which_o god_n show_v the_o prophet_n and_o ask_v he_o whether_o they_o can_v live_v ezek._n 37.3_o 4._o but_o as_o these_o bone_n the_o forsake_a jew_n will_v live_v when_o the_o spirit_n of_o the_o lord_n blow_v upon_o they_o so_o those_o creature_n that_o be_v at_o present_a dry_a and_o without_o sap_n and_o therefore_o be_v mourn_v in_o secret_a and_o cry_v out_o bitter_o because_o of_o their_o desolate_a state_n shall_v most_o certain_o if_o they_o 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if_o it_o be_v a_o grievous_a thing_n to_o abraham_n to_o send_v away_o his_o son_n and_o the_o bondwoman_n out_o of_o his_o house_n gen._n 21.11_o 12._o oh_o how_o much_o more_o grievous_a be_v it_o to_o poor_a creature_n when_o their_o rest_n be_v go_v peace_n be_v go_v and_o all_o quietness_n be_v go_v from_o they_o in_o such_o a_o perplexity_n be_v jonah_n here_o in_o the_o whale_n belly_n and_o thus_o david_n mournful_o complain_v psalm_n 30.7_o thou_o do_v hide_v thy_o face_n and_o i_o be_v trouble_v it_o be_v not_o a_o small_a but_o a_o very_a sore_n great_a torment_a trouble_n when_o a_o soul_n be_v leave_v in_o the_o dark_a
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