easily with this double helpe learne to doe his worke in some reasonable good manner and vnto this helpe vnder God the Apostle Paul doeth send vs saying Brethren be followers of me and looke on them which walks so as you haue vs for an example A man merrily ignorant of his way if he follow carefully step for step a skilfull guide going before him will very safely come to the place that he desireth so shalt thou doe in the way of godlines if thou keepe company with the godly and marke their behauiour to doe thereafter Augustin hauing respect of Saint Paul saith in one place If thou faile in the precept be strengthned in the example that is if by looking onely to the precept thou canst not bring to passe to keepe it looke to the example of them that doe after it and their example shall much strengthen thee Men are very apt to be led by examples and are easily transformed into the manners of those whom they keepe company with neither will their fellowship hold long that doe not conforme themselues to the manners of their company Dauid in one place hath this saying With the godly thou wilt shew thy selfe godly with the vpright man thou will shew thy selfe vpright with the pure thou will shew thy selfe pure and with the froward thou will shew thy selfe froward The Prophet speaketh these words of God and we may safely speake them of men among the godly thou must shew thy selfe godly learning and practising their godly behauiour else they will haue small pleasure in thy company and among the wicked thou must doe as they doe else they will soone be weary of thee and sly thy fellowship The company therefore of the godly cannot but be a great helpe vnto thee vnder God to learne by them to subdue and keepe vnder thy vnruly lusts if thou conuerse with them and daily striuest to conforme thy selfe to their manners This is a good degree of casting this burden vpon God Thirdly let him shun all occasions that may aâ—…lure and prouoke him vnto these sinnes that by the corrupt lusts of his heart he findeth himselfe most subiect vnto For example if his infirmitie be pronenesse to anger wrath let him auoid the company of contentions and froward persons that are apâ—… to prouoke let him not take knowledge of euery petâ—…y wrong that is done vnto him nor harken vnto them that will tell him this or that tale what other men say of him lest suddenly he be distempered If his infirmitie be a pronenesse to drunkenes as thâ—…re are but too many that when they are at it can keepe no measure let him fly the company of pot companions let him shun the places and â—…bhorre the ceremonies of great drinking and let him not delight himselfe to behold the colour and sparkling of the Wine If his infirmitie be a pronenesse to adulterie and such vncleannes let him shun the haunt of Harlots and their houses all wanton company and let him not cast his eye vpon deceitful and bewitching beautie and so concerning all other sinnes that his heart lusteth after This rule the holy Ghost giues vs in many places Salomon saith Keepe thee from the wicked woman and from the slattery of the tongue of the strange woman desire not her beauty in thine heart neither let her take thee with her eye-lid Her coÌ„pany her countenance and her wordes all these are inticing occasions and all these Salomon warneth him to shun that world not be betrayed by his owne frailty to commit whoredome In another place he saith Make no friendship with an angry man neither goe with the furious man least thou learne his waies and receiue destruction to thy soule Company and fellowship with the froward will draw thee whether thou wilt or no into many brawles and quarrels and otherwise also breedes danger vnto thee therefore to be shunned of him that feareth his owne euill nature too prone vnto anger Againe Looke not thou vpon the Wine when it is red when it sheweth his colour in the cup and goeth downe pleasantly in the end thereof it will bite like a Serpent and hurt like a Cockatrice The beautifull colour and pleasant mouing of the Wine in the cup are prouocations to drinking hee that would not be ouertaken with drunkennes knowing his owne appetite and weakenes must shun these prouocations Generally this is a veriy good rule for him that feareth the violence of his owne sinfull lustes to sly all occasâ—…ions alluring and prouoking vnto sinneâ—… he that would not be strangled with the hooke let him not play with the bait and lie nibling at it the Diuell and the world deceiue by such meanes he that is hurdened with thâ—… lustes of his flesh desireth case to his guâ—…ed soule by casting his burden vpon God let him shun these occasioâ—…s diligâ—…ntly he that would not be huâ—…t with the Lyons clawes let him not come neare vnto his foote In the fourth place let him often think vpon the iudgements of God threatned against sinne and executed vpon sinners that yeeld and suffer themselues to be led away by their lusts the threatnings he shal finde euery where in Gods word and the executions he may see abroad in the world Let him also meditate vpon the mercies of God promised vnto vertue and performed vnto the vertuous that walke in the spirit and putting vpon them the Lord Iesus Christ doe take no care for the flesh to fulfill the lusts thereof the promises hee shall meete with euery where in Gods word and the performances he may see abroad in the world but especially in the church and among the godly whose company he was before aduised to frequent These things obserued 〈◊〉 breede in him the feare of Gods power and the loue of Gods mercy which two will be vnto him helps of great seruice against the lusts of his owne heart while on the on side the feare of God will make him walke in humility and on the other fide the loue of God will make him to serue God with gladnesse This is a very good way of casting this burden vpon God Fiftly and lastly but continually and feruently let him pray vnto God for his grace to be giuen continued and increased to him For as the flesh that is corruption â—…n vs lusteth against the spirit so the spirit that is the grace of God in vs lusteth against the flesh So Paul incumbred with the messenger of SataÌ„ buâ—…eting him by which name he vnderstood the burden of his troublesome corruptions praied vnto God if it might bee to be freed from it For all power to preuaile against sinne and to get the mastery ouer corruptions is obtained by the gift of God and by the worke of his grace in vs. Therefore doth Dauid pray to God in this manner Teach mee o Lord the way of thy statutes and I will keepe it vnto the end giue mee
darknes Or else hauing in time of our securitie giuen way vnto our owne lusts vnto the worlds allurements and to Satans temptations our sinnes are called to remembrance are set in order against vs with full manifestation of the wickednes of them of all that wrath that they haue kindled ni heauen and of all that punishment that they haue deserued in hell to the incredible terror of our conscience Vnder these two heades of the lustes of the flesh and accusing thoughts of the dominion of sinne and the reward of sinne fall all those spirituall burdens that are heauie to the honest minde and to the humbled spirit And of these I haue giuen aduice in the second place that if it happen to be last learned yet it may be longest remembred And because the burden of accusing thoughts is euen as the gates of hell for it is true that Saint Gregorie saith Inter multiples humanae animae tribulationes among the manifold tribulations of the soule of man and the innumberable troubles of afflictions Nulla est maior quam conscientiâ—… delictorum there is none greater then the conscience of our sinnes Hee might haue said none like it none equall vnto it for in other troubles which are in a sort without vs and striue to breake in vpon the heart the troubled man saith Gregorie Ingressus in interiora mentis penetraliâ—… entering in into the closet of his heart there calleth vpon God where no man seeth yea also he shutteth the dore of his heart against these assailing troubles keepeth peace within But malae conscientiae tribulationem perferens in arcano cordis deum non inuenit He that indureth this tribulation of an euill conscience of a wounded conscience still accusing findeth not God in the secret of his heart hath not that free as a retiring place where quietly he may conser with God but the plague beginneth within his heart and the fire is kindled in the mouth of the spring where the liuing waters of comfort should flow Therefore in that argument I haue laboured to be more full and not onely in a direct path haue led the afflicted sinner to see his sinne to bee pardonable and himselfe to be allowed yea commanded to craue forgiuenes of it and God also bound by promise to grant it which he will doe and hauing promised cannot denie to doe if we seeke it aright and may doe without any impeachment of his holy and seuere iustice hauing receiuâ—…d full satisfaction in the death and sacrifice of his Sonne But because the old serpent is subtile and the poore sinner is weake and that cunning craftsmaster of all tentations and snares doeth sophistically frame many dangerous arguments and putteth them into the minde and mouth of the affrighted and distempered sinner making him ouer wittie to disclaime his part in God and his inheritance in heauen and ouer confident in his feare and ouer resolute in his doubting so to driue him if it might bee and which the diuel doeth most desire into finall despaire therefore haue I at large answered those arguments out of the word of God and with the sword of the spirit I haue eat asunder the cords of those snaring obiections which the enemie had bound more fast and close then were the cordes of Gordius and â—… haue indeuoured to doe this in a plaine and familiar stile Others dedicate their workes to honorable patrons because they are worthy of honorable patronage I haue no such opinion of mine I offer my labour as a louing seruice vnto thee They seeke a defender I seeke a reader not one to countenance or commend what is written but one that might profit by that which I haue written and therefore I present it to thee that art wearie and laden together with my heartie praier vnto God for thee that it may be by Gods blessing a meanes of thy refreshing intreating thee to read it thorough againe to read all that part that concerneth the last burden which is the burden of accusing thoughts to thee the most heauie Learne thou to depend vpon God to feare him and to abstaine from sinâ—…e he will be vnto thee a Father of mercy and a God of comfort Vnto whose mercy in Iesus Christ I commend thee taking my leaue this 21. of Ianuary From my house in Wool-church in London Thine in the Lord IOHN HAIVVARD The Contents of the seuerall Chapters of this booke THE first Chapter sheweth the context And diuideth the text pag. 1. 2 The second Chapter maketh obseruation from the person instructing pag 3. 3 The third Chapter maketh obseruation from the person instructed pag. 6. 4 The fourth Chapter diuideth the instruction into a precept and a promise and in the precept sheweth what is ment by the name of burden and setteth downe the seuerall sorts of burdens pag. 9 5 The fift Chapter teacheth what it is to cast our burden vpon God in generall rules without reference to any particular sort of burdens pag 21. 6 The sixt Chapter giueth warning of two particular sorts of burdens that must not be cast vpon God pag. 31. 7 Our burdens to be cast vpon God being some secular some spirituall The seuenth Chapter teacheth how to cast the first secular burden of worldly cares and want of things necessarie vpon God pag. 36. 8 The eight Chapter teacheth generall rules how to cast the second secular burden of domesticall troubles vpon God pag. 52. 9 The ninth Chapter teacheth particular rules for the casting of particular domesticall troubles vpâ—…n God pag. 71. 10 The tenth Chapter teacheth how to cast the third secular burden of troubles more remote vpon God pag. 123. 11 The eleuenth Chapter teacheth how to cast the fourth and last burden of secular troubles which is the difficulties of our callings vpon God pag 140. 12 The spirituall burdens arâ—… either the rebelling lustes of the flesh the honest mans burden or accusing thoughts breeding terrors of conscience the humbled mans burden The twelfe Chapter teacheth how to cast the burden of rebelling lustes vpon God pag. 152 13 The thirtenth Chapter beginning with accusing thoughts if the sinner be charged in a generall confused manner with an euill heart teaching how to seeke ease by casting that burden vpon God pag. 172. 14 If the sinner be charged with particular sinnes and findes them done in the time of his ignorance the 〈◊〉 Chapter teacheth him how to seeke ease by casting that burden vpon God pag. 189. 15 If his particular sinne were committed against his knowledge but either the sodaine tentation gaue him no time to consider or the violent tentation left him no power to resist the fifteenth Chapter teacheth how to seeke ease by casting this burden vpon God pag. 197. 16 If his particular sinne were committed with full consent of will the sixteenth Chapter teacheth how to obtaine ease by casting this burden vpon God because onely the sinne against the Holy Ghost is vnpardonable And his sinne
of God bestowed vpon him whatsoeuer in minde in body or in estate hee waâ—…led them vainly without any fruit either to the praise of God or good of his saints yea wickedly to the dishonour of God and great offence and hurt of his saints His elder brother said truly of him to his father He hath deuoured thy goods with Harlots He was a deuourer rather then a spender because he followed wholy the flatterings and intice ments of the flesh and of the world hee pursued earnestly and greedily the pleasures of sinne he polluted the whole man both body and soule in carnall and spirituall fornication and hee dishonoured his mercifull Father while to his sinfull courses for the furthering thereof he conuerted all the gfits and graces that hee had receiued of God This was his behauiour being departed from his father In the end by misery iustly fallen vpon him hee was touched ashamed and confounded as thou art seest thou not thine estate liuely described in the estate of this prodigall man yet after all this wandering and wicked behauior and much misery that hee indureth hee remembreth his fathers house he repenteth he returneth and humbly praieth and the successe was he is gratiously receiued into fauour Take this example vnto thee and view it well dwell vppon it with holie meditation Such as he was in his wandering in his wickednesse in his trouble of minde such thou art such as he was in his repentance in his returne home to his Fathers house and in his humble praier vnto God such be thou and such fauorable intertainment as hee found at his Fathers hands thou also shalt find Are not these things written for our learning that wee through patience and consolation of the Scriptures might haue hope And because thou dost not yet resemble God either in the vertues of thy mind or the actions of thy life say not therefore that he is not thy Father and that thou art not his Child Why wilt thou adde this to the former discomfort of thy soule and to the former errours of thy life and wrong either God in his goodnes or thy selfe in the grounds of thy hope Thou knowest the words of Moseâ—… to the people of Israel if thou know them not heare and let thine heart vnderstand them Is not he thy Father thâ—… bought thee he hath made thee and proportioned thee If he be thy Father that made thee and proportioned thee theâ—… surely God is thy Father for hee and none but he that made heauen and earth made thee The Prophet saith of God It is he that hath made vs and not we 〈◊〉 selues And if he be thy Father that hatâ—… bought thee and purchased thee then whether thou approoue iâ—… or no God is thy Father for hee hath bought vs with a price not of corruptible things as siluer and gold but with the price of the precious bloud of Christ as of a Lamb vndefiled without spot Therfore the Apostle saith to the Corinthians Yee are not your owne for yee are bought with a price And beeing once his all thy wanderings cannot weaken his right in thee but hee still shall remaine thy Father that bought thee If a sheepe runne astray from the fold and wander long in vnknowne pastures doth it therefore cease to be his that is Lord and owner of the flocke and if it returne or be brought home with the fleece lost and left behind hanging vpon euery hedge and with the skin and flesh also torne will hee not acknowledge it and receiue it Yes he will receiue it with ioy Reade the fifteenth chapter of Saint Luke and meditate vpon that thou readest So farre off is it that the indignation of heauen should reiect thee that as it is there said There is ioy in the presence of the Angels of God for one sinner that conuerteth Make ioyfull the angels of heauen by thy returne to God and that ioy shall shine vpon the face of thy conscience And not to forget what we haue in hand to proue God thy father consider some words of the apostle to the Hebr. We haue had the fathers of our bodies that corrected vs and we gaue theÌ„ reuerence should we not much rather be in subiection vnto the Father of spirits that wee might liue He calleth men that begat vs fathers of our bodies and hee calleth God that created vs the Father of our spirits because in the generation of our bodies men are vsed but in the creation of our spirits God only worketh who is also the principal ageÌ„t in the framing of our bodies and men are but instrumentall agentâ—… therfore while there is a spirit dwelling in thy body quickning and mouing it thou canst not deny God to be thy Father whose gloâ—…ous habitation being in heauen as he saith by Esay I dwell iâ—… the high holy place Thou hast a Father in heauen And therfore by the commaÌ„dement of Iesus Christ willing vs to say to God forgiue vnto vs our sins thoâ—… hast both leaue giuen thee to aske forgiuenesse of sins and hope giuen thee to obtaine forgiuenes Vse therfore cheerfully but withall reuerently and thankfully this leaue obey duetifully and gladly this commandement for God is thy Father And thy seruice in calling vpon him shall not be fruitlesse And say not bicause as yet thou neither seest the fruits of the holy Ghost iâ—… thy reformed life nor feelest the testimony of it in thy cheereful conscience that therefore that blessed Spirit is not in thee When thou speakest of the fruits of the Spirit thou makest the Spirit to be as seed sowne in the heart that should bring forth fruit And so indeed the holy Ghost within vs is the seed of our regeneration and new life as the Lord Iesus teacheth vs saying Except that a man be borne of watâ—… the spirit the water of Baptisme spirit of Sanctification And Iohn plainely giueth the name of Seed to the Holy-Ghost saying His seed remaineth in him And when thou speakest of the testimony of the Spirit thou makest the Spirit to be as a witnesse that testifieth the fatherly loue of God vnto vs. And so indeed the Holy-Ghost within vs is vnto our hearts a true witnes of Gods loue Paul to this purpose saith Yee haue receiued the Spirit of adoption whereby we cry Abba Father The same spirit beareth witnesse with our spirit that wee are the children of God And Saint Peter in his speech before the Priest and Captain of the Temple calleth the holy-Ghost a Witnesse saying Wee are his witnesses concerning these things which we say yea and the holy-Ghost whom God hath giuen to them that obey him For the Lord Iesus hath two sorts of witnesses to confirme to the consciences of men the truth of his death and resurrection and his power of sanctifying and sauing The one sort is the Apostles and Ministers who by their doctrine doe beare witnesse
motion with assent and liking then from the first thought there is a progresse made vnto some sinfull action and in that action men continue sometime impenitent vnto death This is indeed a dangerous course and if thou giue such way vnto these euill thoughts and first sinfull motions that thou allowest their appearance without checke and sufferest their daily returne without controuling thē and harknest vnto them with pleasure or at least with patience then thou art as Iames saith inticed and drawne away and then it is likely that those thoughts will conceiue by the company of thy will and bring forth some monstrous birth of sinne whereunto when thou art once entred it is dangerous and doubtfull whether thou shalt finde grace to returne by repentance or no. And this first deformed birth of sin bringeth forth another deformed and fearefull birth namely death The first of these foule births namely sinne is thy shame and the second of them namely death is thy snare and destruction as the Apostle Saint Paul saith What fruit had you then in those things whereof you are now ashamed for the end of those things is death But if at the first apparance of these thoughts and euill motions thou checke them and shew thy iust dislike of them if thou arme thy iudgement and thy will against them with-holding thy Iudgement from approuing them by shewing how false and vngodly they bee and with-holding thy will from assenting vnto them by shewing how sinfull and abominable they be if thou vse all diligence to expell them out of thine heart as thou art able and callest in better thoughts to occupie their places falling into some holy meditation of the glory the greatnesse the holines the riches the bountie the iustice power of God or into some meditatiō of the right worship of god of thy duty to him as thou art a christian by generall calling or as thou art bound by any other particular calling among christians or into some other meditation of the glory of heauen of the purchase of it for beleeuers by the death of Iesus Christ of the meanes by which we may come to the fruition of it and what manner persons in their conuersation they ought to bee that take themselues to bee coheires with Iesus Christ of that glory If thou fall into such meditations when thou art at leisure or set thy minde vpon thy worke ◅nd busines if thou then haue any in hand that by this good imploiment of thy minde and bodie there may be neither roome nor libertie for those euill thoughts to abide and wander in thy heart Certainly those thoughts though very busie with thee shall not be able to hurt thee they shall no more be imputed vnto thee for sinne vnto death then the motions of P◅tiphars wise were vnto Ioseph when shee said vnto him come lie with me was imputed vnto him And this course last remembred is the onely way in such a case of casting thy burden vpon God if thou bee carefull withall to pray vnto God for his grace to help thee to ouercome these swarmes of euill thoughts as he helped the Israelites to ouercome the swarmes of the Amalekites Philistims other enimies and that also thou take heed of idlenes and chiefely idlenes ioined with solitarines Idlenes is the sinne to be shunned solitarines doth but make the ◅dlenes to be more dangerous But certainely they that are troubled with the assault of such thoughts to them nothing is more dangerous then idlenes and want of imploiment for their mindes Then are they at leisure for the diuell then are they like the house spoken of in the Gospell whereunto the diuell entred As it is written When the vncleane spirit is gone out of a man he walketh throughout drie places seeking rest and findeth none then he saith I will returne into mine house whence I came and when hee is come hee findeth it emptie swept and garnished then he goeth and taketh vnto him seauen other spirits worse then himselfe and they enter in and dwell there and the end of that man is worse then the beginning Marke well this saying Hee found it emptie swept and garnished that is hee found it idle vnimploied God was not there with good thoughts becomming his presence and therefore the diuell entred with wicked thoughts becomming his presence Where the heart is not carefully manured by the owner thereof to bring forth good thoughts it will of it selfe to an idle owner bring forth euill thoughts It will be like to the field of the slouthfull that Salomon passed by And lo it was all growne ouer with thorne◅ and nettles hard couered the face of it and the stone wall thereof was broken downe as it was in this ground because the owner through sloth did not sowe good seeds in it euill weeds ouercame the same So will it be in thy heart if through idlene◅ thou haue no good thoughts tending to Gods glory the seruice of his Church thy heart of it selfe will abound with euill thoughts But if these thoughts rise not out of thine own heart through thy idlenes euil studies but be the suggestions of Sathan thrusting them into thine heart as he did thrust that thought of treasō into the heart of Iudas ◅f thou doe not open thy heart by thy sloth and other sinnes vnto those thoughts and be prepared for the intertainment of them as a man waiting at the dore of his house to open it to those guests whose entrance hee desireth or is pleased withall for so did Iudas hee did open his heart to the diuels suggestion by his enuie and couetousnes for when the woman powred the precious ointment vpon the head of Iesus and Iudas murmured at the waste saying it might haue beene solde for much and giuen to the poore and Iesus had defended her fact saying she did it to prepare him to his buriall then presently Iudas who caried the purse receiued the almes giuen to his master now missed this prey out of couetousnesse and enuy hereupon went presently to the high priests offring to betray him for a reward and was as ready to entertaine that thought as the diuell was to offer it vnto him and his enuie and couetousnes held open his heart vnto it if thou by thine idlenes and other sinnes doest not set open thy heart to such thoughts the offer of them in thy heart is the diuels sinne and not thine And if thou repell them as before hath beene shewed they shall no more hurt thee then the suggestions of Sathan in the wildernes offred to the Lord Iesus did hurt him What those suggestions were the Euangelists doe shew and that the diuell audaciously like a tempter did offer them to the Lord Iesus they also shew but in what manner they were offred to him they speake not as whether the diuell spake them audiblie to his eare or which is more agreeable to the nature of the diuell
by Esay When you shall stretch out your hands I will hide mine eies from you and though ye make many praiers I will not heare for your hands are full of bloud By bloud he meaneth soule and bloudie sinnes my hands are full of this bloud for my sins are many therefore if I should lift vp my hart with my hands vnto god in the heauens he will neither behold the stretching out of my hands nor heare the desires and grones of my heart Also I find this saying of the Prophet set down as a rule that shall stand Your iniquities haue seperated betweene you and your God and your sinnes haue hid his face from you that he will not heare Iniquitie seperateth between God and vs I am full of iniquitie therefore there is a wall of seperation shutting him out from mee and mee from him And sinne causeth him so to turne away his face that hee will not heare but I am guiltie of innumerable sinnes therefore God hath hid his face from me and â—…ee will not heare How then can I pray seeing I haue no God that will lend any eare to my praier Secondly I haue no mediator in whose name to pray and for whose sake I may hope to be heard when I pray For men and Angels whom some do make their mediators are no mediators the Apostle saith There is one God and one mediator betweene God and man which is the man Christ Iesus This saying excludeth all other mediators And the only mediator the man Iesus is no mediator for me for I haue denied him and he hath said Whosoeuer shall denie me before men him will I also denie before my father which is in heauen And I am sure that I haue denied him before men if not in words because these daies of peace haue giuen me no cause so to doe which I know I should haue done if daâ—…es of persecution had vrged me yet I haue denied him by my deedes The Apostle hath this saying of the men of his time which is most true in mee They professe they know God but by workes they denie him Hee may bee denied by vngodly workes but I am ful of vngodly workes therefore haue I denied him before men And hauing thus denied him hee must and will denie me before God So haue I no mediator Thirdly if I should offer to pray I must pray without any promise but so to doe were to pray idly for then only doe men pray according to the will of God and with comfort to be heard in their praiers when they ground their praiers vpon the promises of God But I neuer tooke heede to the promises of God and at this time I cannot call them to remembrance and if I could call them to remembrance I were neuer the better for God is not bound to performe his promises to any but to them alone that out of their loue to him striue to keepe his commandements For Moses thus speaketh of him Thou maiest know that the Lord thy God he is God the faithfull God which keepeth couenant and mercy vnto them that loue him and keepâ—… his commandements euen to a thousand generations If any loue not the Lord out of his loue to keepe the commandements of the Lord hee can make no claime to the couenant of God or to any promise of his neither is God bound in his truth and faithfulnesse to performe any promise to him but such a one am I that haue not loued the Lord nor out of loue studied to keepe the commandements of God but haue broken them all therefore I haue no promise to ground my praiers vpon and for that cause I cannot pray Fourthly I know not how to pray how to begin and how to make any proceeding and if at any time I incline my heart to pray I am disturbed I know not how and other thoughts draw away my minde While I thinke to aske forgiuenesse of sinnes my minde runneth out into a wilde remembrance of my sinnes with much pleasure to thinke vpon them While I thinke to pray for grace to assist mee against the power of sinne the lusts of my heart call backe my thoughts and I am deuising how I may compasse it to commit sinne and my will wholy inclineth that way While I thinke to pray for the inheritance of heauen my loue to this world carieth away my minde and I am studying how I may winne the pleasures and preferments thereof And euer my good desires that should lead my minde are crossed and put downe by my bad desires and I cannot raise vp or if I raise it I cannot hold vp my heart to God and holy things with any staiednes I know what is requisite vnto praier by the Apoâ—…les words Pray alwaies with all maner supplication in the spirit and watch there unto with all perseuerancâ—… If I pray it is with my lips I doe not make supplication in the spirit and to watch vnto praier that is diligently to attend with all the powers of my soule without either drowsinesse fainting or wandering of my thoughts is most farte from me And being so vnskilfull and so vnable to pray how can I pray to preuaile by my praiers And lastly which is my greatest mischiefe when I thinke to pray or when I doe pray or when I haue praied there is something within mee that giueth mee my answer assoone as I haue praied and sometime before I haue praied and I am farre from attending vpon God till hee doe giue mee answer as if I did not pray vnto God but rather vnto my self The Prophet Dauid saith Wait patiently vpon God and hope in him the meaning whereof I take to be this when we haue shewed our desire vnto God in praier and supplication that then we should hope in him to receiue a gracious answer and wait patiently for that answer till it please God to shew vs mercy in his appointed time I doe not so I haue neither hope nor patience to wait vpon his hand but mine owne heart maketh answer without God And that answer is alwaies a negatiue answer a flat deniall a plaine repulse So that I haue lesse hope and lesse comfort in and after my praier then before I praied and where others finde themselues much eased in heart after they haue by praier powred out their desires into the lap of God I am much more troubled esteeming euen my praier to be turned into sinne all these things together make me most vnable to pray This is a grieuous obiection but in framing this obiection the troubled sinner fareth like a blinde man in an vnknowen house who wandering without â—…guide goeth hee knoweth not whether and stumbleth often vpon the same threshold so doth he in seuerall branches of this obiection stumble at the same offences that haue beene answered and taken away before But let vs lend â—…and to bring him into the way First he aâ—…th he cannot pray because
pleased either to shew mercie or to execute iudgement so shall euery man stand or fall escape or perish not as either he himselfe or any other shall iudge and pronounce of him Therefore this point of particular reprobation being exempted from mans iudgement for God sheweth mercie and giueth faith and repentance at his pleasure euen while the thiefe hangeth on the tree â—…ust exception lieth against this vnkind obiection Secondly if the matter were such as man might iudge and pronounce of yet I may without offence if I see reason for it deny to credit thy words because as all men are so art thou when thou art in best tune apt to be deceiued and prone to receiue imbrace and deliuer a liâ—… Dauid hath these words in one of the Psalmes I said in my feare all men are liers And what the Prophet spake in feare that the Apostle Saint Paul without feare and in a freer mind hath confirmed saying Let God be true and euerie man a liar as it is written And I am not bound to keepe silence to euerie word that comes from the mouth of a liar when I haue reason to think otherwise then he speaketh as I haue at this time to think otherwise then thou speakest Thirdly and lastly I haue at this time iust cause of exception against thy words because thy present disease thy disquietnes of mind thy feare that thou art in trouble both thy vnderstanding and speech that thou canst neither apprehend things as they are nor pronounce them as thou vnderstandest them And thou laborest vnder a temptation directly bent against thy faith perswading thee those things that are preiudiciall to thy soule And out of some violent fit of that temptation thou makest this vnkind obiection against thy selfe Thus in regard of thee that art the immediat speaker in mine eares I haue iust libertie to reply against this obiection But howsoeuer thou art in mine â—…are the immediate speaker yet in my vnderstanding the words of this obiection haue another a more remote and a more dangerous author The Spirit of GOD which is the Spirite of trueth and leadeth into all trueth is called in the Scripture a Comforter When the Comforter shall come whom I will send vnto you from the Father euen the spirit of truth which proceedeth of the Father he shall testifie of 〈◊〉 This spake the Lord Iesus calling 〈◊〉 Holy-ghost which is the spirit of trueth a comforter But the wordes of this obiection sound not like the words of a Comforter therefore I cannot iudge them to be the words of that spirit that is the spirit of trueth But there is another spirit that as the Lord Iesus saith abode not in the trueth because there is no truth in him when hee speaketh a lie then speaketh he of his owne for he is a liar and the father thereof To that spirit is the name of Satan giuen which signifieth an aduersarie because hee seeketh our hurt and in all things dealeth with vs as a sworne aduersarie of whom vnder the name of an aduersarie Saint Peter warnes vs to take heede saying Your aduersarie the diuell as a roaring lion walketh about seeking whom he may denoure whom resist stedfast in the faith And the words of this obiection were neuer put into thy mouth by any friend And they plaiâ—…ly shew an aduersarie euen that aduersary to be their author and suggester who being himselfe eternally forsaken of God vtterly lost without hope of redemption and a reprobate Angell bound in euerlasting chaines vnder darkenesse vnto the iudgement of the last day would make thee beleeue that thou also art forsaken lost and reprobate in like manner as himselfe Now such an one a lier and an aduersarie being the prompter of these fearefull things vnto thine heart thou oughtest not to giue any the least credite vnto them much lesse to maintaine them against thy selfe He being a lying spirit pietie doth teach thee not to beleeue him and being an aduersarie wisedome if thou haueany persuades to distrust him And both froÌ„ thee the speaker and from him the author of this vngodly obiection I haue much confidence and am much imboldened to make replie And against thy vncharitable affirmation saying I am forsaken I am lost I am a reprobate I will oppose a more charitable negation and say thou art not forsaken thou art not lost thou art not a reprobate And I will see how I can maintaine my saying and ouerthrow thiâ—…e that thou maiest not be ouerthrowne First thou saiest thou art forsaken If by this speech thou meanest that now for the present God hauing laied trouble vpon thee withdraweth his assisting power and hand from thee and leaueth thee vnder the crosse to cry and grone and to take notice of thy infirmitie in this sense I grant thou maiest bee forsaken But this is a temporary forsaking it is not a finall forsaking And to them that aâ—…e so forsaken God after in his time returneth with saluation there is hope for them Hereof let this be an argument vnto thee that the best seruants of God are in this manner forsaken oft times and feele themselues so to be and complaine heauily for it and yet after obtaine helpe So was it with Dauid when he said My God my God why hast thou forsaken mee and art so far from my health and from the words of my roaring If wee should say that these words were words of feare rather then of truth it might be with shew of reason maintained for God was not so far departed from hâ—…m as he feared but grant that they were words of truth and that God was indeed departed from Dauid and had forsaken him did not God returne againe vnto him and had not hee euen then hope of Gods returne did not God receiue him again into his protection and helpe him and had not hee euen then hope of such helpe from God that he had such hope of Gods returne to his helpe hee declareth by his praier vnto God continued in the same Psalme where he saith Be not thou far of O Lord my strength hasten to helpe me Hee that could thus pray wanted not hope of Gods returne to his helpe though hee were for the present forsaken And that God did returne vnto him and helpe him according to that hope of his hee also declareth in that Psalme speaking of himselfe though he vseth the third person as if hee had spoken of others Hee hath not despised nor abhorred the affliction of the poore neither hath he hid his face from him but when he called vpon him he heard So that though he were forsaken it was but for a time when the Lord was pleased for the exercise of the Prophets faith to hide his face from him The Prophet by his praier quickly found him out where he was hidden and at the crie of that praier he heard and came forth to his succour I might heere adde the example
willing to lay downe and loose their liues in the seruice of God they did not kill themselues to be deliuered from the fury of tyrants but they yeelded themselues to the cruell will of tyrants As Ieremy saying to them that went about to kill him for preaching as god had commanded him As for me behold I am in your hand doe with me as you thinke good and right It was all one to him and equally welcome to die or liue so that he might faithfully doe his office of the like minde was S. Paul the Apostle saying to the elders of Ephesus Behol◅ I goe bound in the spirit to Ierusalem and know not what things shall come vnto me there saue that the holy Ghost witnesseth in euery Citie saying that bands and afflictions abide mee But I passe not at all neither is my life deare vnto my selfe so that I may fulfill my course with ioy and the minstration which I haue receiued of the Lord Iesus to testifie the Gospell of the grace of G◅d Heere was a godly contempt of fraile life with resolution to vse the benefit of it while it lasted in setting forward the seruice committed to him and to let it goe without shrinking whensoeuer the rage of men by the sufferance of God should by violent hands take it from him in the Lords quarrell If thou haddest resolution in any like quarrell to yeelde thy life when there should be any attempt made to take it from thee thou hast the Prophets of God and the Apostles of Christ thy example and thou hast also the promise of the Lord Iesus to recompence that losse of life with the gaine of eternall life saying He that will saue his life shall loose it and he that looseth his life for my sake shall saue it That is i◅ any shall to saue his life deny to confesse me before men his life shall bee taken from him by some such iudgement of God as that he shall haue no comfort in the losse of it and he shall after die eternally But if any constantly confesse mee putting his life in danger either God shall miraculously deliuer him and hee shall saue his life in this world or for the losse of his life here in which losse hee shall haue abundant comfort hee shall haue eternall life in the kingdome of heauen Here are comforts for thee if thou haue come or shalt come in these cases into danger if thou retaine this resolution to laie downe thy life for God and his glory for Iesus Christ and his truth But there was neuer in thee any such resolution thou diddest not loue God so well and thy selfe so ill to die for vertue to die for truth to die for the glory of God to die for the name of Iesus thou diddest neuer esteeme the Gospell true religion and righteousnesse at so high a price O vile man O vnworthy sinner wouldest thou not gratifie God with contempt of life and wilt thou gratifie the Deuill with it wouldest thou not loose it for him that is the truth wilt thou loose it for the father of lies was not he worthy in thy sight to be serued with this manly resolution that gaue thee this life and for the losse of it is ready to recompence thee with eternall life and is he worthy to be serued with it who was euer an enemy to thy life and when hee hath spoiled thee of this life makes thee ◅mēds with a higher mischife to plunge thee in eternall death O monstrous absurdity to be admitted among the professours of Christianity Pause a while and consider of this point that if it be possible thou maiest be recouered from this desperate purpose Thinke what it is to haue held God off at the staues end and neuer to haue yeelded in thy heart die for his loue though he gaue thee life to loose one drop of bloud for his sake though he filled thy vein◅s to haue thy breath stopped for his glory though it was hee that breathed into thy nostrels the breath of life and made thee a liuing soule and now to imbrace the deuill in thy bosome as if hee were thy God to tell him that he shall haue thy life thy bloud shall flowe for his sake if thou get a sword or knife and thou wilt strangle thy selfe and stopthy breath for his loue if thou canst get a halter Where is thy wisdome that resoluest so foolishly where is thy iustice that resoluest so iniuriously where is thy loue either to God or to thine owne soule to whom thou owest thy loue to God to procure his glory to thy soule to procure the saluation of it that resoluest so hatefully for more foolishly for himselfe more iniuriously against God and more hatefully both against himselfe and God did any man euer conclude and resolue in any thing then thou doest in this Most foolishly thou determinest for thy selfe that runnest into that destruction from which thou shouldst flie with all possible speed as the Israelites fled from the tents of Korah his company when the earth swallowed them vp And most vniustly thou dealest with GOD to take that is his without his leaue for we are his and not our owne They are the words of the Apostle Paul Yee are not your owne And a little after speaking of our bodies and spirits hee saith they are Gods and before his face without any reuerence and feare of him to destroy them both at once for thou destroyest the body in killing it thou destroyest the soule that must perish for that murder And most hatefully thou proceedest both against God thy self in this resolutiō hatefully against God in destroying his creature and hatefully against thy selfe in destroying thy selfe The fact of the Philistims stopping vp with earth the wells that Abraham had digged to the end that Isaac his sonne should not vse them for his ca◅tell is interpreted to be an euidence of their hatred Isaac saying vnto them Wherefore come yee to mee seeing yee hate mee c. How much more must thy fact be interpreted to be an euidence of hatred both against God and thine owne soule that fillest vp and choakest the well of life that God digged and opened for thine vse and desirest to water at the piece of death and hell where thou shalt not obtaine one droppe of water to coole thy tongue when thou art in torments How commeth it to pas◅e among deceiued men that when as in the case of suffring for God where death is accompanied with comfort and rewarded with glorie they shrinke and feare withdrawing themselues shifting for their liues which then are sweet vnto them and death is bitter vnto them and in this case of laying violent hands vpon themselues where death is accompanied with terrour and shall be rewarded with eternal damnation heere they step foorth and are desperately bolde life now is bitter vnto them and death is sweet This is a dangerous errour wherein
the man in whom they remaine a contrary way the one to God the other to sin and yet they continue in the same man at the same time for his exercise so long as hee liueth The same Apostle telleth vs concerning euerie renewed seruant of GOD that in him at the same time there remaineth both naturall corruption which he calleth flesh and infused grace which he calleth Spirit and either worketh striuing each against other His words are The flesh lusteth against the spirit and the spirit against the flesh and these are contrarie one to the other so that yee can not doe the same things that yee would The spirit in them that is infused grace lusteth against corruption to draw them vnto goodnesse and the flesh in them that is naturall corruption lusteth against grace to draw them vnto wickednesse Faith and infidelitie the one being the worke of the spirit the other the worke of flesh are not more contrary one to another then the flesh and spirit from whence they grow and yet they are present together therefore with thy infidelitie there may be faith in thee The condition of a Christian man in his holy calling from darknesse vnto light is like vnto the appearing of day after a darke night It is a similitude much vsed by the holy Ghost in the Scriptures Paul saith The night is past the day is at hand That is the time of darkenesse in which you erred altogether is past and God hath sent his word among you by which as by the light of the day you may see the way to walke in And in another place Yee are all the children of light and the children of the day wee are not of the night neither of darkenesse That is we liue not in ignorance we walke not in ignorance but God hath called vs to knowledge and by the light thereof wee see the way before vs and walke on safely in it Now we all know that when the day beginneth to breake there is remaining a shadow of darkenesse a long time and that first growing light is farre from the cleare and ful light that shineth at noon day But will any man say that because of the remainder and mixture of darkenesse in the beginning of the day that therefore there is no light at all euery man would controule that assertion Euen so God shewing mercie to them that were shut vp in infidelitie giueth them faith which beginneth to growe like the day light in the first breaking forth of it and with some faith there remaineth much infidelitie Shall any man therefore say that because there is some infidelitie still remaining there is no faith at all that saying were iniurious to the new conuerted and weake Saint and it were an vnthankefull censure of Gods gracious worke begun Remember what thou hast read in the Gospel of the honest man that came vnto the Lord Iesus to intreat for his sonne that was possessed with a diuell he said vnto our Sauiour Lord I beleeue helpe my vnbeliefe He professed his faith while hee confessed his infidelity he doubteth not of the presence of the one because hee saw and felt the presence of the other but knowing his faith to be tender and young and his infidelitie to be old and strong hee craueth the help of the Lord Iesus to weaken his infidelitie and to strengthen his faith Such altogether is thy case at this time weake faith oppressed by strong infidelitie strong infidelitie keeping the vpper hand of weake faith say vnto the Lord Iesus as that man did Lord I beleeue helpe my vnbeliefe And if thou thinkest his prayer to be defectiue because hee onely craueth helpe against infidelitie and desireth not increase of his faith vnto the words of his petition ioyne the words of the petition that the Apostles together made vnto the Lord saying Lord encrease our faith These words put together make a perfect praier for this peculiar grace that the Lord Iesus of whose fulnesse wee receiue grace for grace will bee pleased to increase our faith which we finde to bee weake and to weaken our infidelitie which wee finde to bee strong This doe and by the mercy of God and goodnesse of our most milde Sauiour thou shalt finde an happy alteration in good time growing and thou shalt haue no cause to feare to die without faith whensoeuer death shall come yea though thou shouldest bee taken away before the full vanishing of this temptation because he dieth not without faith in whom at his death there is remaining some infidelitie neither dieth he without hope in whome at his departure there is remayning some feare and vnto God thy couered and almost smotherd faith wil appeare when the same is hidden from thine owne feeling But thou fearest death not onely this way least it should come before thou haue wholy ouercome this temptation but thou fearest it also though there should be a ceasing of the temptation before namely that after death this accusation may be renued because as thou saiest the right time of preferring accusations against sinners is when after death they appeare before the Lord in iudgement and if the accusation now while there is yet time of repentance and hope of forgiuenes ◅e so heauie and fearefull as thou doest finde it and feele it it must needes be then much more heauie and fearefull when there is left no time of repentance nor any new course to be taken for the obteining of forgiuenes To this I answere that if once thou ouercome this temptation before death thou needest not to feare the returne of it after death if now it be ouercome and quenched rightly by such meanes as God hath appointed for the quieting of consciences whereof it behoueth thee to be very carefull for if thy temptation be ouercome by the knowledge and faith of the infinite mercy of God toward humble and contrite spirits and of the vertuous mediation of Iesus Christ that lambe of God that taketh away the sin of the world gathered by harkening to the doctrine of the Gospel which is the power of God to saluation and if this knowledge and faith be accompanied with the loue of God that is so mercifull a father and of Iesus Christ that is so gratious a redeemer and with the loue of thy brother and with the hatred of sinne that is offensiue both to God and to thy brother assure thy selfe that these accusing thoughts so silenced and quenched shall not be reuiued after death and thy peace so growen by knowledge and saith so accompanied is not a deferring of this temptatiō vnto a fitter time but a totall abolishing of it for euer He that in this manner ouercommeth his accusing thoughts on earth shall neuer heare of them before God in heauen Wherefore else doeth the Lord Iesus say of the determination and censure of his seruants to whom he hath committed the word of reconciliation either assuring forgiuenes to the penitent beleeuer
or denouncing iudgement to the impenitent and vnbeleeuers Whatsoeuer yee binde on earth shall be bound in heauen and whatsoeuer yee loose on earth shal be loosed in heauen Wherefore doeth hee speake thus of their determination and of their word but that according to that good hope which thou hast gathered vnto thy soule from the word of God in the writings of his Prophets and Apostles and in the mouthes of his faithfull witnesses on earth according to that good hope hee will doe vnto thee in heauen And in his iudgement both at thy last day and in the worlds last day he will not varie one iot from the straight rule of his word whereon thy recouered peace is grounded Indeede if thou shouldest recouer thy peace and remoue thy accusing thoughts with the remedie of Atheists that like Dauids foole Say in their hearts there is no God that is there is no diuine power gouerning the world in iustice and rewarding euery man according to his workes If thou shouldest shake off thy temptation with that conceit of wicked men recorded in the booke of wisedome that say Wee are borne at all aduenture and wee shal be â—…ereafter as though we had neuer beene for the breath is a smoke in our nosthrilles and the words are a sparke raised out of our heart which being extinguished the body is turned into ashes and the spirit vanisheth as the soft aire our life shall passe away as the trace of a cloud and come to â—…ought as the mist that is driuen away with the beames of the Sun and cast downe with the heate thereof That is no hand of God made vs at the first to be serued with the obedience of our life and when we leaue the world we shall not appeare before the face of any God to giue account for our liues for wee were borne by no prouidence and appointment of any higher power but euen as it happened such a man to beget such a boy such a mother to beare such a child and when wee die wee returne into earth and aire ourbodies become dust our spirits vanish as a puffe of winde there is no difference after death betweene man and beast both vanish and come to nothing as we were not before we were borne so wee shall not be when we are dead Iâ—… with these wicked conceites we seeke to stifle and choke our owne conscience or falsely flatter our selues with the securitie of contemners despising all the threatnings of God So that when they heare the words of the curse they blesse themselues in their heart saying we shall haue peace although we walke according to the 〈◊〉 of our owne hearts that is the threatnings of Gods displeasure are not to be regarded I esteeme them no more then the winde that breatheth ouer mine head and I shal be well inough whatsoeuer God say and I will hold on my course without any feare of God If vpon any such sandie and deceitfull ground thou shouldest builde thy peace and by such deuice should make dull rather then quiet thy troubled conscience verily thy accusing thoughts would returne like so many furies after death charging thee with all thine impieties before the face of thy Iudge The Atheist shall knowthat there is a God as it is said in the Psalme Doubtles there is a God that iudgeth the earth The Sadduce shall know that there is a life after this when he shall be called to answere as it is said of the â—…uill steward Giue accounts of thy stewardship for thou maist bee no longer steward And the contemner shall know the power of Gods displeasure when the wrath of the Lord and his iâ—…alousie shall smoake against that man and all the curses written in Gods booke shall light vpon him But if thy accusing thoughts be put to silence by the knowledge and faith of Gods mercy and of Christ his merit accompanied with repentance and true conuersion to God as hath beene said if by the promises and rules of Gods word thy peace while thou liuest be recouered assuerdly thy sinnes shall neuer be laid to thy charge after death for otherwise there were no faithfulnes in God nor trueth in his word wherein he hath thus spoken I will rememher their sinnes no more And in another place All his transgressions that he hath committed they shall not be mentioned vnto him Theresore if it shall please God by the meanes that is applied vnto thee out of his word to deliuer thee froÌ„ the storme of this temptation whilest thou liuest thou hast no cause to feare the renewing of it after death nor in that name to feare death And because thou art troubled with such fantasticall feares of death that indeed is naturally fearefull to all men let â—…e acquaint thee with the condition thereof to a Chistian it came indeede into the world by the sinne of our first parents and by the holy and iust iudgement of God it was imposed vpon vs as a punishment of sinne depriuing vs of all present good things and plunging vs into eternall euils But when the sonne of God suffred death for our sinnes and by his suffring gaue satisfaction to the iustice of God he then slew destroied death it selfe by that death of his and tooke away all deadly killing power from that dissolution of ours which we call death and made it vnto all beleeuers a gate and passage into life putting an end vnto all their present troubles â—…nd bringing them to the possession of endles happines So that it is to them as the euening is to the labourer when he both resteth from his former wearie worke and also receiueth the reward for which he wrought For the body henceforth is laied vp in the graue as vpon a bed of ease where it shall â—…euer after either shake for colde or faint for heate where it shall neuer after feele either hunger or sicknes or be wearied any more with painfull labour That is it that the Prophet meaneth when hee saith Peace shall come they shall rest in their beds euery one that walketh before him That is the righteous man that treading in the paths of Gods commandements walketh with him in his holy obedience heâ—… at his iournies end in his body shall lie downe to rest in his graue as on his bed and much peace shall be his portion and as for the soule from thenceforth being vnclothed of his earthly couering and remoued out of his Tabernacle and house of clay it ascendeth vp vnto Iesus Christ and being clothed with glory it hath an happy abiding with him in heauen where it inioyeth the most comfortable presence of Christ his redeemer and the desired fellowship of those redeemed that are alreadle passed out of the wildernes of this wicked world into the paradice of eternall delight So did the Lord Iesus promise to the dying theese when hee said vnto him This day thou shalt bewith mee in paradice