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poverty_n and_o misery_n i_o give_v myself_o and_o my_o soul_n to_o god_n and_o to_o christ_n because_o that_o be_v right_a again_o i_o learn_v in_o the_o catechise_v q._n what_o have_v christ_n do_v for_o we_o a._o he_o die_v for_o we_o he_o be_v bury_v he_o rise_v again_o for_o we_o and_o by_o his_o resurrection_n he_o raise_v our_o soul_n unto_o grace_n and_o also_o at_o the_o last_o day_n and_o my_o heart_n say_v oh_o let_v it_o be_v so_o in_o i_o again_o it_o be_v say_v what_o else_o have_v christ_n do_v for_o we_o a._o he_o ascend_v to_o heaven_n to_o raise_v our_o heart_n first_o to_o heaven_n and_o then_o to_o carry_v we_o to_o heaven_n also_o to_o be_v with_o he_o for_o ever_o my_o heart_n say_v oh_o god_n i_o be_o not_o able_a to_o save_v myself_o i_o can_v save_v my_o own_o soul_n this_o be_v only_o thy_o work_n oh_o god_n and_o my_o heart_n believe_v it_o and_o with_o god_n be_v mercy_n and_o goodness_n but_o in_o this_o world_n be_v nothing_o but_o weariness_n and_o i_o know_v my_o weakness_n therefore_o i_o be_o ashamed_a and_o oh_o let_v god_n put_v grace_n into_o my_o heart_n and_o my_o heart_n say_v oh_o let_v i_o not_o say_v in_o vain_a that_o i_o believe_v oh_o lord_n help_v that_o i_o may_v true_o believe_v not_o by_o my_o work_n but_o by_o thy_o word_n oh_o god_n again_o it_o be_v say_v in_o catechism_n why_o be_v
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and_o all_o beast_n and_o live_a creature_n which_o he_o have_v make_v and_o by_o this_o i_o see_v that_o sure_o sin_n be_v a_o very_a great_a evil_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o noah_n find_v grace_n and_o he_o only_o be_v upright_o before_o god_n and_o that_o god_n drown_v all_o the_o world_n except_o noah_n and_o his_o son_n and_o their_o wife_n eight_o person_n this_o do_v make_v i_o remember_v my_o sin_n and_o confess_v they_o and_o i_o see_v that_o god_n be_v angry_a with_o sin_n it_o rain_v forty_o day_n and_o so_o drown_v all_o the_o world_n then_o i_o say_v sure_o this_o be_v god_n work_n and_o he_o do_v as_o he_o threaten_v to_o do_v to_o sinner_n and_o the_o same_o may_v god_n do_v to_o i_o who_o be_o a_o sinner_n and_o my_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o sin_n and_o evil_a thought_n etc._n etc._n and_o then_o i_o pray_v oh_o god_n be_v not_o angry_a with_o i_o but_o be_v merciful_a to_o i_o and_o show_v i_o what_o i_o shall_v do_v then_o i_o consider_v why_o do_v god_n bid_v noah_n make_v a_o ark_n and_o save_v noah_n and_o his_o son_n and_o their_o wife_n and_o by_o it_o my_o heart_n see_v that_o this_o be_v god_n work_n who_o do_v what_o he_o speak_v and_o have_v mercy_n on_o who_o he_o will_v and_o my_o heart_n think_v do_v god_n pardon_v i_o and_o love_v i_o it_o may_v be_v god_n will_v have_v mercy_n on_o i_o i_o hear_v that_o promise_n mat._n 3._o repent_v and_o believe_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n be_v at_o hand_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v oh_o that_o god_n will_v help_v i_o and_o pardon_v my_o sin_n and_o god_n make_v i_o wonder_v at_o god_n mercy_n to_o i_o i_o hear_v of_o sodom_n and_o their_o great_a sin_n and_o destruction_n and_o that_o do_v make_v i_o to_o remember_v my_o great_a sin_n and_o the_o great_a work_n of_o god_n that_o he_o have_v almost_o kill_v i_o oh_o i_o think_v this_o be_v god_n work_n to_o show_v i_o my_o sin_n and_o as_o god_n save_v lot_n by_o the_o angel_n and_o send_v he_o out_o of_o the_o place_n but_o burn_v sodom_n and_o all_o the_o people_n this_o i_o see_v to_o be_v god_n work_n and_o now_o i_o desire_v to_o fear_v god_n and_o pray_v unto_o he_o all_o the_o day_n of_o my_o life_n again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o the_o axe_n be_v lay_v to_o the_o root_n of_o the_o tree_n every_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v hew_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n then_o i_o fear_v my_o own_o case_n because_o my_o fruit_n be_v sin_n and_o i_o deserve_v to_o be_v cut_v down_o then_o i_o desire_v to_o believe_v in_o christ_n i_o do_v believe_v that_o christ_n be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n by_o that_o word_n matth._n 4._o satan_n tempt_v christ_n if_o thou_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n etc._n etc._n but_o christ_n conquer_v satan_n and_o therefore_o assure_o he_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n then_o i_o consider_v that_o place_n mat._n 11._o many_o come_v to_o christ_n the_o halt_n and_o blind_a and_o lame_a and_o deaf_a and_o sick_a and_o he_o heal_v all_o and_o if_o they_o do_v but_o touch_n christ_n they_o be_v heal_v and_o therefore_o my_o heart_n believe_v assure_o he_o be_v the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o therefore_o now_o i_o will_v pray_v and_o oh_o let_v christ_n save_v i_o and_o christ_n have_v promise_v whatever_o you_o ask_v in_o my_o name_n it_o shall_v be_v do_v therefore_o now_o i_o pray_v oh_o christ_n jesus_n pardon_v i_o but_o my_o heart_n be_v weak_a and_o doubt_a and_o i_o can_v believe_v and_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n that_o every_o tree_n that_o bring_v not_o forth_o good_a fruit_n be_v cut_v down_o and_o cast_v into_o the_o fire_n then_o i_o say_v i_o deserve_v that_o again_o that_o word_n not_o every_o one_o that_o say_v lord_n lord_n but_o he_o that_o hear_v the_o word_n and_o do_v it_o assure_o it_o be_v so_o and_o i_o desire_v not_o only_o to_o hear_v the_o word_n but_o to_o do_v it_o then_o my_o heart_n be_v ashamed_a of_o my_o sin_n and_o grieve_v i_o hear_v that_o word_n matth._n 6._o bless_a be_v thou_o simon_n bar-ionah_n flesh_n and_o blood_n have_v not_o reveal_v this_o unto_o thou_o but_o my_o heavenly_a father_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v yea_o lord_n no_o man_n have_v teach_v i_o christ_n only_a god_n have_v teach_v my_o heart_n to_o know_v christ_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 1._o he_o will_v save_v his_o people_n from_o their_o sin_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v be_v it_o so_o to_o i_o oh_o lord_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o christ_n rise_v again_o the_o three_o day_n with_o a_o earthquake_n and_o the_o watchman_n be_v afraid_a and_o flee_v then_o my_o heart_n say_v sure_o this_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o god_n and_o whosoever_o believe_v in_o christ_n his_o soul_n shall_v go_v to_o heaven_n for_o again_o i_o hear_v of_o the_o ascension_n of_o christ_n and_o more_o than_o five_o hundred_o see_v he_o ascend_v and_o therefore_o i_o believe_v this_o be_v christ_n the_o son_n of_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o in_o john_n 14._o no_o man_n come_v unto_o the_o father_n but_o by_o i_o my_o heart_n answer_v yea_o assure_o oh_o lord_n christ_n be_v the_o way_n to_o believe_v in_o and_o come_v to_o god_n again_o i_o hear_v that_o mat._n 25._o christ_n say_v to_o the_o wicked_a depart_v you_o curse_v i_o say_v god_n may_v just_o say_v so_o to_o i_o and_o send_v i_o to_o eternal_a death_n but_o i_o earnest_o cry_v to_o god_n oh_o god_n set_v i_o into_o the_o right_a way_n and_o give_v i_o christ_n that_o i_o may_v ever_o walk_v with_o christ_n for_o i_o be_o poor_a and_o weak_a and_o christ_n promise_v that_o what_o we_o ask_v he_o will_v grant_v and_o i_o say_v let_v god_n do_v with_o i_o what_o he_o will_v but_o i_o beg_v mercy_n in_o christ_n only_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v john_n speen_n this_o i_o confess_v that_o i_o assure_o be_o a_o great_a sinner_n before_o the_o lord_n but_o now_o i_o beseech_v god_n to_o help_v i_o oh_o christ_n lead_v i_o in_o the_o right_a way_n that_o i_o may_v speak_v that_o which_o be_v right_a this_o i_o 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i_o off_o for_o all_o my_o many_o sin_n which_o i_o have_v do_v hereby_o i_o be_v trouble_v and_o angry_a at_o myself_o then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n who_o ever_o repent_v and_o believe_v shall_v be_v save_v i_o will_v pardon_v they_o then_o my_o heart_n cry_v oh_o christ_n let_v it_o be_v so_o that_o my_o sin_n may_v be_v pardon_v and_o that_o i_o may_v pray_v always_o then_o i_o beg_v lord_n give_v i_o repentance_n and_o faith_n and_o i_o do_v pray_v to_o god_n much_o then_o i_o do_v beg_v that_o i_o may_v give_v up_o myself_o wife_n and_o child_n to_o god_n as_o long_o as_o we_o live_v and_o then_o i_o pray_v then_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 5._o he_o that_o look_v on_o a_o woman_n to_o lust_n after_o she_o have_v commit_v adultery_n in_o his_o heart_n i_o then_o remember_v my_o sin_n that_o though_o i_o have_v promise_v to_o pray_v yet_o i_o have_v thus_o sin_v and_o my_o heart_n be_v now_o trouble_v about_o this_o my_o heart_n say_v cast_v off_o pray_v because_o you_o be_v 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i_o for_o all_o my_o sin_n i_o know_v nothing_o by_o myself_o but_o that_o which_o be_v evil_a i_o hear_v that_o word_n mat._n 5._o bless_a be_v the_o poor_a in_o spirit_n for_o they_o be_v the_o kingdom_n of_o heaven_n then_o my_o heart_n say_v so_o be_v it_o oh_o lord_n to_o i_o and_o i_o love_v thou_o as_o long_o as_o i_o live_v then_o say_v my_o heart_n i_o be_o a_o poor_a man_n and_o desire_v to_o pray_v to_o god_n again_o god_n say_v bless_a be_v they_o that_o hunger_n and_o thirst_n after_o righteousness_n for_o they_o shall_v be_v fill_v then_o when_o i_o hear_v that_o word_n my_o heart_n rejoice_v and_o yet_o again_o i_o doubt_v and_o my_o heart_n misbelieve_v and_o fear_v then_o that_o word_n come_v that_o christ_n say_v be_v you_o merciful_a as_o your_o heavenly_a father_n be_v merciful_a and_o again_o he_o make_v his_o sun_n to_o rise_v on_o the_o evil_a and_o on_o the_o good_a and_o send_v rain_n on_o the_o just_a and_o on_o the_o unjust_a when_o i_o hear_v it_o my_o heart_n rejoice_v to_o hear_v of_o the_o mercy_n of_o god_n yet_o i_o doubt_v and_o my_o heart_n be_v hard_o again_o now_o i_o confess_v before_o god_n because_o god_n be_v a_o great_a god_n and_o a_o merciful_a god_n and_o i_o pray_v to_o he_o i_o hear_v of_o god_n great_a mercy_n to_o give_v we_o his_o only_a son_n to_o die_v for_o we_o therefore_o i_o love_v god_n and_o i_o beg_v oh_o god_n pardon_v all_o my_o sin_n and_o i_o give_v up_o myself_o to_o jesus_n christ_n monotunkquanit_fw-la before_o i_o pray_v to_o god_n i_o live_v at_o nipmuk_n i_o do_v not_o know_v that_o there_o be_v a_o god_n only_o i_o live_v for_o nothing_o for_o no_o end_n or_o purpose_n but_o i_o always_o do_v wild_a action_n i_o keep_v no_o sabbath_n nor_o lecture_n nor_o any_o work_n of_o prayer_n nor_o do_v i_o remember_v my_o work_n i_o now_o know_v that_o all_o my_o word_n and_o work_n be_v nought_o my_o eye_n and_o ear_n be_v stop_v and_o mad_a work_n i_o daily_o do_v after_o i_o go_v to_o dorchester_n 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whether_o i_o shall_v pray_v to_o god_n my_o heart_n do_v much_o doubt_n that_o night_n shall_v i_o pray_v my_o heart_n say_v no_o yet_o i_o doubt_v then_o waban_n come_v to_o my_o house_n to_o nipmuk_n and_o persuade_v i_o to_o pray_v to_o god_n i_o say_v i_o know_v not_o how_o to_o pray_v he_o say_v god_n will_v teach_v you_o god_n be_v a_o great_a god_n and_o make_v all_o the_o world_n i_o
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i_o again_o i_o hear_v mat._n 3._o in_o those_o day_n john_n baptise_v in_o jordan_n say_v repent_v for_o the_o kingdom_n of_o god_n be_v at_o hand_n when_o i_o hear_v this_o my_o heart_n say_v the_o same_o be_v now_o with_o we_o not_o abraham_n sign_n but_o baptism_n and_o therefore_o i_o desire_v to_o repent_v and_o confess_v before_o god_n and_o before_o the_o church_n and_o i_o desire_v not_o only_o to_o confess_v but_o to_o have_v repentance_n and_o faith_n that_o i_o may_v have_v grace_n mercy_n and_o pardon_n and_o such_o repentance_n as_o work_n obedience_n again_o the_o same_o word_n say_v vers._n 6._o they_o be_v baptise_v confess_v their_o sin_n so_o i_o desire_v to_o do_v i_o do_v confess_v before_o god_n and_o desire_v to_o cast_v off_o and_o forsake_v my_o sin_n and_o to_o go_v to_o christ_n the_o promise_n of_o pardon_n be_v to_o they_o that_o penitent_o believe_v and_o rest_n on_o christ_n in_o the_o same_o baptism_n of_o john_n he_o say_v i_o baptise_v you_o with_o 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christ_n be_v my_o merciful_a god_n therefore_o let_v he_o do_v with_o my_o soul_n what_o he_o will_v when_o mr_n peirson_n have_v read_v this_o confession_n he_o be_v desire_v to_o go_v on_o and_o read_v the_o last_o which_o be_v wabans_n confession_n and_o be_v as_o follow_v waban_n first_o i_o confess_v that_o before_o i_o pray_v it_o be_v hard_a to_o love_v another_o fashion_n then_o my_o old_a course_n my_o parent_n be_v sinner_n and_o in_o my_o mother_n belly_n i_o be_v in_o sin_n after_o i_o be_v bear_v the_o same_o way_n of_o sin_n i_o follow_v when_o i_o be_v a_o child_n i_o grow_v up_o in_o sin_n and_o i_o do_v not_o know_v that_o they_o be_v sin_n but_o now_o of_o late_a i_o know_v they_o in_o my_o youth_n also_o in_o the_o same_o sin_n i_o live_v and_o do_v not_o know_v they_o to_o be_v so_o but_o by_o the_o remembrance_n of_o my_o way_n i_o do_v remember_v my_o sin_n and_o hereby_o i_o be_o make_v to_o understand_v that_o my_o parent_n teach_v i_o to_o love_v sin_n and_o after_o they_o be_v dead_a other_o teach_v i_o to_o sin_n i_o like_v to_o be_v teach_v to_o commit_v sin_n those_o that_o teach_v i_o say_v to_o i_o choose_v to_o be_v a_o pauwau_n they_o say_v if_o you_o be_v a_o pauwau_fw-mi you_o may_v make_v other_o to_o live_v and_o if_o you_o he_o a_o pauwau_n god_n will_v bless_v you_o and_o make_v you_o rich_a and_o a_o man_n like_o god_n then_o i_o desire_v so_o to_o do_v also_o i_o always_o desire_v other_o sin_n for_o my_o heart_n do_v desire_v to_o grow_v up_o in_o those_o sin_n always_o lust_n i_o desire_v always_o my_o heart_n labour_v and_o desire_v to_o know_v how_o to_o add_v to_o and_o to_o multiply_v my_o sin_n thus_o it_o come_v to_o pass_v that_o i_o know_v abundance_n of_o sin_n before_o i_o know_v my_o way_n be_v sin_n when_o the_o english_a come_v hither_o they_o say_v when_o i_o come_v to_o the_o englist_n house_n that_o i_o love_v the_o devil_n then_o i_o be_v very_o angry_a and_o my_o word_n be_v you_o know_v the_o devil_n i_o do_v not_o know_v the_o devil_n and_o present_o i_o will_v go_v out_o of_o the_o house_n sometime_o they_o speak_v meek_o to_o i_o and_o will_v say_v god_n be_v in_o heaven_n and_o he_o be_v a_o good_a god_n yet_o i_o regard_v not_o these_o word_n but_o strong_o i_o love_v my_o sin_n it_o be_v hard_a for_o i_o to_o believe_v what_o the_o english_a say_v after_o many_o year_n i_o sometime_o believe_v a_o word_n but_o i_o leave_v not_o my_o sin_n when_o i_o begin_v
with_o they_o only_o i_o still_o fear_v man_n after_o i_o hear_v the_o same_o word_n again_o to_o persuade_v we_o to_o pray_v to_o god_n and_o i_o do_v so_o but_o not_o for_o god_n sake_n only_o it_o be_v before_o man_n i_o remember_v the_o sabbath_n and_o i_o hear_v mr_n mathews_n also_o preach_v of_o it_o and_o therefore_o i_o think_v i_o will_v keep_v the_o sabbath_n but_o still_o i_o fear_v man_n upon_o a_o sabbath_n they_o wish_v i_o to_o teach_v what_o i_o remember_v that_o the_o minister_n have_v teach_v i_o do_v so_o and_o we_o have_v talk_v about_o what_o i_o say_v and_o we_o fall_v out_o thereupon_o i_o go_v away_o and_o leave_v pray_v to_o god_n i_o go_v into_o the_o country_n but_o i_o remember_v my_o wife_n and_o child_n and_o quick_o return_v but_o not_o for_o god_n sake_n again_o the_o minister_n preach_v on_o 1_o chron._n 28._o 9_o and_o thou_o solomon_n my_o son_n know_v the_o god_n of_o thy_o father_n and_o serve_v he_o with_o a_o perfect_a heart_n and_o with_o a_o willing_a mind_n for_o the_o lord_n search_v all_o heart_n and_o understand_v all_o the_o imagination_n of_o the_o thought_n if_o thou_o seek_v he_o he_o will_v be_v find_v of_o thou_o but_o if_o thou_o forsake_v he_o he_o will_v cast_v thou_o off_o for_o ever_o this_o great_o trouble_v i_o because_o i_o have_v leave_v pray_v to_o god_n and_o i_o have_v deserve_v eternal_a wrath_n then_o i_o desire_v to_o pray_v i_o beg_v mercy_n but_o i_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v for_o my_o sin_n be_v many_o my_o heart_n be_v full_a of_o original_a sin_n and_o my_o heart_n be_v often_o full_a of_o anger_n but_o than_o i_o be_v angry_a at_o myself_o for_o i_o find_v my_o heart_n quick_o carry_v after_o sin_n afterward_o through_o the_o free_a mercy_n of_o god_n i_o hear_v that_o word_n he_o that_o penitent_o believe_v in_o christ_n shall_v be_v pardon_v and_o save_v then_o my_o heart_n do_v beg_v earnest_o for_o pardon_n and_o mercy_n i_o hear_v ioh._n 15._o whatever_o you_o ask_v the_o father_n 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