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to_o want_v nor_o how_o to_o abound_v apt_a to_o murmur_v and_o repine_v in_o strait_o and_o to_o be_v lift_v up_o and_o grow_v secure_a in_o enlargement_n o_o lord_n in_o every_o condition_n i_o need_v thy_o grace_n to_o teach_v i_o how_o to_o behave_v myself_o o_o show_v i_o thy_o way_n and_o lead_v i_o therein_o for_o thy_o namesake_n also_o the_o lord_n teach_v i_o hence_o that_o i_o ought_v to_o be_v patient_a under_o his_o hand_n when_o he_o hide_v his_o face_n and_o to_o resign_v up_o my_o will_n to_o his_o will_n inasmuch_o as_o i_o do_v not_o know_v what_o be_v good_a for_o myself_o the_o lord_n see_v i_o shall_v be_v worse_o it_o may_v be_v if_o i_o enjoy_v more_o than_o i_o do_v and_o therefore_o in_o wisdom_n and_o mercy_n he_o keep_v i_o in_o a_o low_a condition_n my_o confusion_n sometime_o have_v be_v so_o great_a that_o i_o have_v be_v so_o unsettle_a and_o at_o such_o a_o loss_n in_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o know_v not_o what_o to_o do_v all_o former_a work_n have_v be_v question_v and_o judge_v as_o nothing_o in_o the_o hour_n of_o such_o temptation_n the_o lord_n teach_v i_o beside_o prayer_n and_o search_v into_o my_o soul_n to_o have_v recourse_n to_o former_a experience_n psal_n 77._o 10_o 11._o and_o psal_n 85._o octob._n 11._o in_o the_o morning_n i_o bewail_v it_o before_o god_n that_o i_o be_v still_o at_o a_o loss_n to_o know_v whether_o i_o love_v he_o and_o after_o prayer_n i_o read_v 1_o joh._n 2_o ch_n and_o i_o be_v make_v in_o a_o more_o special_a manner_n to_o take_v notice_n of_o v_o 5._o whoso_o keep_v his_o word_n in_o he_o very_o be_v the_o love_n of_o god_n perfect_v methinks_v i_o see_v god_n answer_v my_o prayer_n and_o tell_v i_o out_o of_o this_o word_n that_o i_o love_v he_o in_o he_o very_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d it_o be_v a_o sure_a sign_n of_o love_n to_o god_n we_o need_v not_o doubt_v of_o it_o if_o we_o keep_v his_o word_n now_o if_o i_o know_v my_o own_o heart_n i_o desire_v to_o do_v so_o if_o the_o love_n of_o 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christ_n as_o god_n offer_v he_o in_o the_o gospel_n even_o a_o whole_a christ_n christ_n in_o all_o his_o office_n to_o be_v to_o i_o prophet_n priest_n and_o king_n 3_o trust_v eph._n 1._o 13._o in_o who_o you_o trust_v you_o believe_v trust_v be_v believe_v this_o also_o i_o find_v that_o god_n have_v give_v i_o a_o heart_n to_o rely_v on_o christ_n for_o righteousness_n grace_n and_o life_n 2_o from_o the_o ground_n of_o my_o faith_n which_o be_v the_o word_n of_o god_n it_o be_v through_o my_o knowledge_n and_o acquaintance_n with_o the_o word_n that_o i_o have_v be_v bring_v to_o believe_v in_o christ_n and_o through_o christ_n in_o the_o father_n that_o send_v he_o and_o i_o read_v such_o as_o believe_v through_o the_o word_n be_v true_a believer_n for_o who_o christ_n make_v intercession_n joh._n 17._o 20._o and_o who_o have_v everlasting_a life_n and_o shall_v not_o come_v into_o condemnation_n joh._n 5._o 24._o 3_o from_o this_o property_n and_o effect_n of_o faith_n viz._n prize_v christ_n 1_o pet._n 2._o 7._o unto_o you_o that_o believe_v christ_n it_o be_v precious_a the_o apostle_n speak_v of_o the_o faith_n of_o god_n elect_v ch_n 1._o 2._o and_o of_o save_a faith_n ch_n 1._o 9_o now_o i_o find_v christ_n be_v precious_a to_o i_o so_o precious_a to_o my_o soul_n that_o i_o value_v and_o prefer_v he_o above_o the_o whole_a world_n i_o account_v his_o blood_n precious_a which_o cleanse_v i_o from_o all_o sin_n the_o promise_v exceed_o great_a and_o precious_a which_o in_o he_o be_v yea_o and_o amen_o christ_n be_v so_o precious_a to_o i_o that_o i_o be_o willing_a to_o suffer_v for_o he_o phil._n 1._o 29._o yea_o i_o choose_v a_o suffer_a condition_n for_o christ_n before_o the_o honour_n riches_n and_o pleasure_n of_o the_o world_n when_o they_o can_v be_v enjoy_v without_o sin_v against_o he_o heb._n 11._o 24_o 25_o 26._o i_o be_o willing_a to_o take_v up_o the_o cross_n and_o forsake_v all_o thing_n for_o he_o evidence_n that_o i_o be_v one_o of_o 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