If you have any Question to ask on any thing that he has said you have your Liberty Shalome Brethren Come what will come I am willing to wait with Patience flinging my self wholly on Jesus Christ trusting in him resolving to die at his Feet in the Strength of Christ I speak it Here it was desired by a Member in the Name of the Church that Mr. Humfrey would propound such Questions to him as by his Answers to which his Insight into and Experience of the glorious Mysteries of the Gospel might farther appear Mr. H. What do you find in your Soul upon believing in Jesus Christ Shalome Comfort Joy and Peace as if I saw the Heavens themselves opening ready to receive me but sometimes I feel a dark Night Mr. H. What Course do you take when you find the Guilt of Sin flying in your Face Shalome I go to Jesus Christ I go to Mount Calvary there he gave Satisfaction for my Sins and is now ascended and sits at the Right Hand of God and makes how call you it in English It was answered Intercession Aye Intercession Heb. 7.25 He was the Lamb of God slain from the Foundation of the World Rev. 13.8 and I verily believe that God elected me in Christ before ever I was born yea before the Foundation of the World was laid Ephes 1.4 Or else I should never have come to him had he not loved me with an everlasting Love he would never have drawn me with loving Kindness Jer. 31.3 and now might I be a King a King of the Jews I value it not I had rather be a Beggar and dye in a Dungeon then be an unbelieving King Mr. H. Well but what say you to the Devil when he tells you your Sins are too great or too many to be pardoned Shal. Say to him I tell him Jesus Christ was the great Sacrifice who upon the Cross gave full Satisfaction for all my Sins be they never so many or never so great He obeyed and suffer'd for me and besides this Must I believe the Devil Mr. H. And what course do you take when you are down in your Spirit Shal. I have Hope in the Lord and stay my self on God still when in my own Conscience I was under the greatest Sence of Condemnation when the Law Conscience Sin and the Devil all condemned me my Cry was as now it is I trust in Jesus Christ when I had no Strength and knew not where to go still I resolved to trust in Jesus Christ with whom there is free Grace and to whom there is an open Door and I could chearfully undergo the Destruction of this Body might it be in the declaring the Name of Jesus Christ to my Brethren in discovering something to them of the Riches of the free Grace of God in Jesus Christ which has plucked me as a Brand out of the Fire that it might redound to the Praise and the Honour of Jesus Mr. H. And what is it that moves you to pray Shal. The Spirit of God setting home on my Soul the Sence of the Pardon of my Sin what is it that keeps me in the Ways of Jesus Christ of which I was ignorant till God by his Providence made you an Instrument in directing me thereto but the Spirit And now I see it is a Way so plain that wayfaring Men tho' Fools shall not Err therein Isaiah 35.8 I am since God has called me out of Darkness into his marvellous Light made to admire the infinite Wisdom of God in taking Flesh upon him a Mystery so strange so odious to the Jews that they could kill him who should affirm it Mr. H. Did you not find your Soul drawn by hearing the Gospel Shal. Yes by that it was that the Love of God wonderfully appeared to my Soul By that I was made to see my self an adopted Child of God an Heir of Glory so that when under a Cloud I could then cry Thou art my Father I am thy Child leave me not therefore utterly take not thine Holy Spirit from me but act as a Father towards me If thy Spirit leaves me I am like a Child whose Leading-strings if you let go down it falls We have continual daily need to feed on Jesus Christ the Manna we had Yesterday will not serve us to Day Gentlemen Do not look upon me as a righteous Man in my self for there I am a Sinner and altogether unclean Isaiah 1.6 But yet in Jesus Christ I am without Spot Sin or Stain and blameless before the Throne Cant. 4.7 By Grace I am what I am 1 Cor. 15.10 In the imputed Righteousness of Jesus Christ Gen. 3.21 Mr. H. Then you do not think to be saved by your own Righteousness Shal. No it is all as filthy Rags I might better have continued a Jew then seek Salvation by my own Righteousness they who have received Grace cannot do otherwise then praise and glorifie the Lord but when we have done all we can it is but filthy Rags Dross and Dung It is Jesus Christ alone that saves me when all is done Grace laid the Foundation and when the Top-stone is laid it will be with shouting forth Grace Grace Zach. 4.7 Mr. H. And what alteration did you find upon discoursing of the Gospel You believed in a general Way you said that the Messiah was come Shal. I did so and had but a common Work of the Spirit I desired to be let further into the Mysteries of the Gospel that I might be found One of those Worshippers who worship the Father in Spirit and in Truth that is the true Worship not at Mount Samaria nor yet at Jerusalem Mr. H. I well remember when you first came to me you was much troubled with the Burthen of Sin Shal. Aye There appeared the Mercy of God now you put me in mind I was always cast down my Heart was broke I was just as a broken Reed I could not tell what to do Oh! Sin did load me I saw my self even in the Pit of Hell I thought I was not worthy to come to Jesus Christ but such was his Grace that he was pleased to lay hold of me and since I am come to him I have Peace in Conscience and Joy in the Holy Ghost Glory be to his Name for ever Mr. H. Well what do you believe that God has forgiven you all your Sins at once Shal. Yes I believe he has forgiven all at once past present and to come and now Christ will not leave me tho' I fall I shall rise again Mr. H. You see what Ground you stand upon Shal. I hope I stand upon the Rock the true Rock upon Peter's Confession of Faith Mr. H. As to your being chosen of God and elected what do you believe touching that Sha. Elected had I not been Elected I am assured God would never have wrought such a Work upon me He has Elected me before the Foundation of the World was laid and when I was young my Heart
knew there was but one Christ however I thought I would assemble my self with a sober People at length I came among the Quakers but alas there I found nothing to my Satisfaction so that I was at a Loss again and so continued for many Years going no where but lived without Christ an Alien from the Commonwealth of Israel a Stranger to the Covenants of Promise without God in the World at last my Heart began to burn within me whether thought I shall I go I pray'd that the Lord if he had any Love to me would shew himself to me in Jesus Christ for I always did even when I lived in the Flesh as many nominal Christians do look for God in the Face of Jesus Christ and point me out a way at length I came to White-chappel where my Apprehensions concerning my State were dreadful I went one Night to bed and there thought I heard a Voice distinctly saying Arise arise if you look not about you and repent not you must certainly be damned This was a sad Sermon preached to me which from a slavish Fear and Dread drove me to worship God not from a Sence of his Love but as I said from a fearful looking for of Judgment and fiery Indiguation my very Heart trembled within me Lord thought I it is high time to repent what shall I do Meeting a young Man I told him my sad Condition who told me Unless I was born again of Water and of the Spirit I could not enter into the Kingdom of God which new Birth was wholly mysterious to me What shall I do then said I I fell to weeping I pray said I help me to a Minister a good Gospel-Minister I prayed many times that God would direct me to a right Church tho' with never so much Affliction the Head whereof is Christ I have often seen as I thought Jesus Christ perfectly at the right Hand of God who has promis'd to pour out his Spirit on all Flesh and certainly it cannot be far off I am sure if I were to dye shortly it will not be long after my time who brought me to this Minister to whom I declared my Mind who went Evangetically to work with me he went far beyond Baxter Baxter drove me back but this Gentleman told me there was free Grace for all that came to Jesus Christ This proved an happy Day to my Soul he told me the Lord accepts Jew and Gentile as in Gal. 3.28 There is neither Jew nor Greek there is neither Bond nor Free there is neither Male nor Female for ye are all one in Jesus Christ after some Discourse with Mr. Humfry who made some Discovery to me of God's Way of Salvation by free Grace of the Way of the Work of the Spirit of God on the Spirit of a Man in raising him up from the Death of Sin I read in a Book in which I found the Citation of that Scripture in John 17.26 Father I have declared unto them thy Name and will declare it that the Love wherewith thou hast loved me may be in them and I in them And thought I now there is an open Door to come to God through Jesus Christ it came on my Soul with such Power that it appear'd to me as if a Door had been set open for any to enter in who will how abominably vile and filthy soever they be I thought I saw Jesus Christ yea the very Godhead shining round about me through the Manhood of Jesus for in him dwells the Fulness of the Godhead bodily 2 Col. 9. And now I am perswaded whether I direct my Prayer to God the first Person in the Trinity or to Jesus Christ the second it is the same they being the same in Essence equal in Power and Glory The Quakers indeed will suffer no Man to Pray but as the Spirit moves them pretending to be guided by a Light within which is no other than the Devil transforming himself into an Angel of Light and indeed it proved but a dark Guide to my Soul But as I was reading the Book above-named it pleased God to dart in a Beam of Divine Love in Jesus Christ on my Soul tho' for about an hour and a half my Bed shook under me I quivered and trembled and thought my very Heart was broken within me Lord thought I what shall I do to be saved But it was soon cleared up to me by the Spirit of the Lord that I should be saved by Jesus Christ and by him alone and I am sure there is Salvation in no other than in Jesus Christ no there is not And now I would give my Body to be burnt yea had I a thousand Lives I would lay them all down rather then be an unbelieving Jew For saith Christ unless you believe that I am he i. e. the Messiah you shall die in your Sins and whither I go you cannot come John 8.21 24. This is a miserable Sentence to all Unbelievers I often wondred when I heard Ministers pray for unbelieving Gentiles surely thought I the Gentiles all believe in Jesus Christ But alas Believing is quite another thing than I took it to be a thing of far greater Difficulty than most are aware of He that comes to God must believe that he is every way such as the Scripture declares him to be Heb. 11.6 he must believe that all his Attributes are highly exalted and infinitely advanced in our Salvation that the Law is much more highly magnified and made honourable Isa 42.21 by the Obedience of Jesus Christ God and Man than it could possibly be by the perfect Obedience of Sinless Adam he must believe that what Christ has done and suffered for us as our Surety in our room and stead is the only Righteousness whereby we are justified before God and accepted with him and that this very Righteousness becomes ours pleadable by us by Vertue of God's Divine Act of Imputation Jesus Christ is all and in all Col. 3.11 But alas by how few are these Gospel-mysteries really and truly believed Here you see one in whom the Covenant of Abraham is fulfilled as it is in all those who believe in Jesus Christ But if you do not believe you must die in your Sins I am afraid that my Forefathers tho' I must Judge as Charitably of them as I have warrant for yet I fear lest many of them are gone down to the Pit of Eternal Destruction and yet I am a Brand plucked out of the Fire Zec. 3.2 Now if God saved not his own Covenant-Children his own Spouse those who were naturally in the Root what will become of those who are grafted in and yet believe not that Jesus is the Christ 1 John 2 22. but I know and am perswaded That Jesus Christ loved me and gave himself for me Gal. 2.20 which is the main Point and that by his Death and Resurrection my Soul is saved Mr. H. Brethren you have heard what an account Mr. Shalome has given in
assembly of the wicked have enclosed me they pierced my hands and my feet I may tell all my bones they look and stare upon me they part my garments among them and cast lots upon my vesture Which did to me clear up something of what Jesus Christ underwent as he stood Surety for his Elect from Isa 9.6 For unto us a Child is born unto us a Son is given and the government shall be upon his Shoulders and his Name shall be called wonderful Counsellor the mighty God Everlasting Father the Prince of Peace I learn'd something of the Humane Nature of Jesus Christ he also endeavoured from Gen. 1.2 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 And the Spirit of GOD moved upon the Face of the the Waters to evince to me the being of the Holy Ghost the Notion of a Trinity I took in form Gen. 1.26 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Let us make Man And from Gen. 11. where God coming down to see the City and the Tower which the Children of Men had built saith in ver 7. 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 〈◊〉 Go to let us go down and confound their Languages From Gen. 49.10 The Scepter shall not depart from Judah nor a Law-giver from between his feet till Shiloh come c. I saw that Jesus Christ was the true Messiah in which I was satisfied and tho' as yet I had nothing more then the Notion of Things yet as the Eunnch said to Philip Acts 8.36 so said I What hinders me to be baptized and baptized I was in Berlijn in Brandenburg the Duke stood my Godfather I became not a Christian for Silver nor Gold but was constrained thereto by the mighty Power of Jesus Christ I was beholden to none but to the Almighty Power of God After this I was recommended to a Minister in the City Ryneburg on the Rhyne by whom I was further notionally confirmed in the Christian Faith and from that time had a mind to travel into England where under the Denomination of a Christian I lived a great while Revelling in all manner of Wickedness committing Iniquity with Greediness as I grew older I thought it was high time to reform knowing I must give an Account of Deeds done in the Body I then resolved to lead a new Life and venture on the Mercy of Christ which tho' I prayed for Night and Day yet could not find I made many Resolutions to live better and broke them as fast knowing nothing of the Person of Jesus Christ at length I was by continued Prayer very solicitous for Repentance yet thought I should I repent it will not avail me unless I could forsake my Sins to Prayer I went and in a Agony I was I flung up mine Eyes and Heart to Heaven Lord Jesus Christ said I tho' thou wilt not shew Mercy to me tho' I must perish yet will I trust thee still Terrors of Conscience still pursued me so that I often thought through want of Ease in my Conscience tho' I should trust in Jesus Christ yet I should be Damned I thought many times as I passed over the Fields that I saw the Lord Jesus Christ coming in the Clouds upon which when I began to consider my own Condition I passed Judgment on my self as one that deserved Hell and Damnation I found as I thought the Devil binding me in Chains which made me cry out as Rom. 7.23 24. I am carried into Captivity to the Law of Sin which is in my Members O wretched Man that I am who shall deliver me from the Body of this Death The Terrors of Hell took hold of me I thought I saw the Pit of Hell ready to receive me How to get Peace of Conscience I knew not nothing but Hell and Damnation sounded in my Ears I thought I must be damned if I turned not to Jesus Christ In these Agonies of Spirit I read once and again the Book of one Baxter which I thought would have been a great Means of my Salvation But alas that drove me more into Hell I thought I should by it have sunk into utter Despair I could find nothing in it for my Consolation what Course to take I knew not I desired the Lord Jesus Christ to do a Miracle upon me in breathing the Breath of Life into my Soul who was dead in Sin as he formerly raised those who were naturally dead from their Graves I pleaded his Power as he in Matth. 8.2 Lord if thou wilt thou canst make me clean and cleansing I stood in need of for I saw my Sin so black that I abhorred my self in dust I thought I was not worthy to roul my self on Jesus Christ yet to venture I resolved I knew I could but be rejected as 2 Kings 7.4 If we say we will enter into the City then the Famine is in the City and we shall dye there and if we sit still here we shall dye also Now therefore come and let us fall into the Host of the Syrians if they save us alive we shall live and if they kill us we shall but dye I always concluded Prayer after this manner Lord tho' thou wilt not hear me yet will I trust to thee I prayed as one sensible of my own Insufficiency that God would by his Spirit teach me to pray there was yet a secret Hope in me that God would call me however I resolved to lean on the Lord Jesus praying that he would give me the Spirit of him that raised Jesus Christ from the Dead to raise me from the Death of Sin such was my Affection to Jesus Christ that I often wished my self in a Cave so that I might enjoy him tho' I endured the greatest Hardship In these Conflicts of Spirit the Devil set in upon me told me It was impossible for me to be saved For said he your Parents have wished a Curse upon you and insinuated as if I was by that Curse bound over to eternal Damnation How said he can you believe that the Son of God should be born of the Virgin Mary or that he that was born of her should be the Saviour of your Soul Know you not what a Fellow which word went through my Soul God knows he was It is impossible said he that he should ever save you To whom I answered and said Satan get thee behind me God said I and the Lord Jesus Christ are all One God at first created the World out of Nothing created Man out of the Dust and of a Rib taken out of Adam made he a Woman yea Christ himself was overshadowed by the Holy Ghost in the Womb of the Virgin Mary And now O Devil what is too hard for such an Almighty Power which has done all this Thou hast no Power over him nor canst thou Disannul what he hath done After this my Inclination stood bent to frequent the Assembly of God's People tho' whether to go I was at a lost I heard there was many Churches One cry'd Here is Christ another cry'd Here is Christ I
Son this day have I begotten thee And again I will be to him a Father and he shall be to me a Son    Heb. 5.6 John 1.14 John 3.16 And the Word was made Flesh and dwelt among us and we beheld his Glory the Glory as of the only Begotten of the Father full of Grace and Truth Isaiah 9.6 For unto us a Child is born unto us a Son is given and the government shall be upon his shoulder and his Name shall be called Wonderful Consellour the Mighty God the Everlaststing Father the Prince of Peace The eternal and true God John 10.36 I and the Father are one Micah 5.2 Out of thee shall come forth unto me to be Ruler in Israel whose goings forth have been from of old from everlasting Coeternal and Coequal with the Father 1 John 1 2 3. The same was in the beginning with God all things were made by him and without him was not any thing made that was made Prov. 8.22.32 I was set up from everlasting from the beginning or ever the Earth was Col. 1.13.16 Heb. 1.3 By him were all things created in Heaven and in Earth visible and invisible Psalm 7.14 Behold a Virgin shall conceive and bear a Son and shall call his Name Immanual That he should take our humane Nature and be born of a Virgin Mat. 1.23 John 1.14 1 Tim. 3.16 Luke 1.31.34 And the Word was made Flesh God was manifest in the Flesh Gen. 22.18 Gen. 18.18 Gen. 12.3 Isai 11.1 Jer. 23.5 In thy Seed shall all the Nations of the Earth be blessed That he shall be of the stock of Abraham Isaac Jacob Judah and David Rom. 1.3 Rev. 5.5 Mat. 1.16 Concerning his Son Jesus Christ our Lord which was made of the Seed of David according to the flesh Hosea 11.1 Out of Aegypt have I called my Son That he should flee into Aegypt Mat. 2.5  Isa 40.3 Mat. 3.1 The Voice of him that crieth in the wilderness Prepare ye the Way of the Lord make strait in the Desert an high Way for our God That one in the Spirit and Power of Elias should prepare his Way Mat. 3.4 Luke 3.4 Mark 1.3 John 1.23 Mat. 17.10.12 Mark 9.11 12.  Psal 9.1 2. The People that walked in Darkness have seen a great Light c. That he should begin to preach in Galilee Mat 4 15 16.  Isal 35.4 5 6. The Eyes of the Blind shall be opened and the Ears of the Deaf shall be unstopped That he should confirm his Doctrine by many Miracles John 19.29 Matth. 27.48 The Blind receive their sight and the Lame walk and the Lepers are cleansed and the Deaf hear the Dead are raised up the Poor have the Gospel preached to them Zech. 9.9 Behold thy King cometh unto thee he is just and having Salvation lowly and riding on an Ass and on a Colt the Foal of an Ass That he should enter Jerusalem triumphantly on an Ass Matth. 21.5 Mark 11.2 John 12.15.12  Psalm 41.9 Yea mine own familiar Friend in whom I trusted which did eat of my Bread hath lift up his Heel against me That he should be betrayed by one of his Disciples for thirty pieces of Silver  Then one of the twelve Judas Iscariot went unto the Chief Priests and said What will ye give me and I will betray him unto you And they covenanted with him for thirty pieces of Silver Zech. 11.12 And the Lord said to me Cast it unto the Potter a goodly price that I was prized at of them and I took the 30 pieces of Silver and cast them unto the Potter in the House of the Lord.  Matth. 27.7 And they took Councel and bought with them the Potters Field to bury Strangers in Zech. 12.7 Awake O Sword against my Shepherd against the Man that is my Fellow saith the Lord of Hosts smite the Shepherd and the Sheep shall be scattered That the Apostles should be scattered when he was taken Matth. 26.31 Mark 14.27 John 16.32 Matth. 26.56 Then said Jesus to them all Ye shall be offended because of me this night for it is writen as Zeck 13.7 Isaiah 50.6 I gave my Back to the Smiters and my Cheeks to them who plucked of the Hair I hid not my Face from Shame and Spitting That he should be mocked and spit on Matth. 26.67 John 18.22 Then did they spit in his Face and buffeted him Isaiah 52.12 And he was numbred with the Transgressors That he should suffer between two Malefactors Matth. 27.28 Then were two Thieves crucified with him one on the right Hand the other on the left Isaiah 53.4 Surely he hath born our Griefs and carried our Sorrows That he should suffer for our Sins Matth. 8 17. Himself took our Infirmities and bear our Sicknesses 1 Peter 2.24 Who his own self bare our Sins in his own Body on the Tree Psalm 22.1 My God my God why hast thou forsaken me c. That he should suffer extream Agonies in his Soul Matth. 27.46 Mark 15.24  Psalm 22.16 Numb 21.8 9. The Wicked have enclosed me they pierced my Hands and my Feet That he should die an accursed Death and be crucifyed as he was tipifyed by the brazen Serpent John 19.34 John 3.14 But one of the Soldiers with a Spear pierced his side Psalm 69.21 And they gave me also Galls for Meat and in my Thirst they gave me Vinegar to drink That Vinegar and Gall should be offered him to drink John 19.23 Matth. 27.48 They filled a Spunge with Vinegar and put it to his Mouth Psalm 22.18 They part my Garments among them and cast Lots upon my Vesture That Lots should be cast for his Garments Luke 23.24 And they parted his Garments and cast Lots Exodus 12.46 Numb 9.12 Neither shall ye break a Bone thereof That not a Bone of him should be broken as was typifyed by the Paschal Lamb. John 19.33 36. When they came to Jesus and saw he was dead already they break not his Legs Zech. 12.10 They shall look on me whom they have pierced That he should be pierced John 19.34 37. One of the Soldiers with a Spear pierced his Side Psalm 16.10 Thou wilt not suffer thine holy One to see corruption That he should not see Corruption but rise the third Day Luke 24 from 13 to the end  Joel 2.28 29. I will pour out my Spirit on all Flesh  John 16.7 But if I depart I will send him i. e. the Comforter to you Acts 2.3 4. There appeared to them cloven Tongues and they were all filled with the Holy Ghost FINIS