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actus_fw-la sit_fw-la in_o intellectu_fw-la sicut_fw-la in_o subjecto_fw-la how_o to_o attain_v true_a persuasion_n 1._o persuasion_n must_v be_v by_o the_o word_n of_o christ._n 2_o pet._n 1.19_o 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 〈◊〉_d 1._o learn_v the_o order_n of_o the_o gospel_n as_o give_v at_o first_o the_o promise_n of_o the_o restitutution_n of_o time_n be_v to_o a_o state_n as_o at_o first_o and_o why_o 2._o see_v how_o far_o we_o be_v in_o our_o present_a condition_n from_o the_o order_n as_o at_o first_o barlet_n get_v into_o that_o church_n that_o be_v according_a to_o your_o light_n and_o according_a to_o the_o word_n nigh_a gospel-rule_a and_o primitive_a practice_n 4_o observe_v the_o concurrent_a motion_n of_o providence_n dr._n ib_n sim._n second_o direction_n have_v no_o confidence_n in_o the_o flesh_n three_o direction_n be_v impartial_a and_o unbiased_a as_o to_o opinion_n jerem._n 4.14_o rom._n 1.21_o sim._n prejudice_n do_v much_o wrong_a ☞_o after_o persuasion_n follow_v a_o assurance_n certainty_n or_o assurance_n whence_o it_o be_v and_o how_o 1_o exit_fw-la causa_fw-la certitudinis_fw-la 2_o exit_fw-la parte_fw-la subjecti_fw-la the_o conclusion_n which_o arise_v bring_v they_o to_o the_o trial._n false_a persuasion_n most_o dangerous_a sim._n how_o to_o know_v true_a persuasion_n 1_o true_a persuasion_n prove_v and_o approve_v from_o the_o word_n and_o spirit_n 2_o wait_n for_o fit_a time_n 3_o meet_v with_o trial_n yet_o get_v the_o better_a sim._n 4_o true_a persuasion_n make_v obedient_a 5_o it_o show_v emptiness_n in_o all_o other_o way_n and_o worship_n 6_o it_o make_v thou_o long_o after_o they_o 7_o make_v thou_o bold_a with_o humility_n sim._n 8_o put_v thou_o upon_o invite_v other_o say_v come_v let_v we_o go_v up_o and_o join_v the_o sad_a consequence_n of_o doubt_n and_o of_o not_o be_v full_o persuade_v drive_v they_o into_o despair_n and_o error_n sim._n ☞_o they_o meet_v with_o a_o cuâ—se_n and_o be_v not_o welcome_a but_o provoke_v the_o lord_n hinder_v the_o energy_n of_o ordinance_n and_o obscure_v the_o excellency_n of_o the_o way_n expos._n the_o lord_n draw_v with_o his_o arm_n the_o spirit_n his_o right_a hand_n and_o word_n his_o left_a man_n must_v come_v in_o voluntary_o prove_v by_o several_a consideration_n as_o 1_o from_o the_o powerful_a principle_n which_o carry_v they_o extra_fw-la se._n vide_fw-la fencer_n alarm_n rom._n 7._o because_o this_o principle_n be_v absolute_o necessary_a in_o all_o that_o will_v be_v church_n member_n which_o make_v they_o willing_a expos._n second_o consideration_n from_o the_o end_n which_o suit_n with_o the_o principle_n voluntas_fw-la suâ—_n natura_fw-la vult_fw-la finem_fw-la sim._n 1_o pet._n 4.17_o heb._n 6_o 8._o phâ—l_n 3.19_o requiritur_fw-la cognitio_fw-la finis_fw-la aliqualis_fw-la the_o end_n must_v be_v know_v sim._n in_o alio_fw-la a_o quo_fw-la ei_fw-la imprimitur_fw-la principium_fw-la suae_fw-la motionis_fw-la iâ—_n finem_fw-la